#she's still fundamentally herself

[makotonaegiunderstander]

something I’ve been thinking abt is how many people think Makoto is immune to despair. I don’t think he is. I think becoming the ultimate Hope was BECAUSE he felt despair. He wouldn’t have fully reached that point without Junko. Makoto becoming such a beacon was his last attempt to avoid completely falling and it wasn’t because he didn’t feel despair, it was because he was too damn stubborn to allow everything to go to waste and he refused to sacrifice his beliefs for someone else’s. His inner monologue tells me he DID experience the same new low the other suvivors did in the final trial, but at the point where he had the choice to give up and die, he looked at the others and he looked at Junko and he couldn’t allow it to happen, not out of self preservation, but because the idea that Junko would have control over their lives made him FURIOUS. and that utter refusal to die kicked in, wether luck or otherwise, and he made the concious effort for one last push while something in him was breaking. He had to be broken in order for the Ultimate Hope to come through so aggressively, bc it could only exist in the face of the Ultimate Despair. He snapped the same way she did, but in the other direction. In what could have been his final moments he chose to embody everything Junko wasn’t, and every single optimistic and luck fueled ideal in him suddenly charged forward and pushed him. It was a combination of the final straw and a choice. Makoto isn’t immune to feeling despair, he’s just too stubborn to fall into it of his own volition. I think that’s why I like that scene in DR3 so much. People were SO SHOCKED Makoto actually fell for the tape, that he actually became despair for a moment. I saw people getting mad or disappointed, saying it was pathetic and Makoto seemed to fall from some sort of pedestal for them. Honestly part of me wonders if that sort of mentality, which clearly people had in universe, affected Makoto a bit. Like he started to see himself as less of a person, subconsciously. Prompting him to take more risks, less self preservation, act way more bold. It seems he has to be reminded a lot not to put himself in danger by his friends, to not do something too reckless. All over the place I would see in regards to that scene either this frivolous ‘oh this was just angst drama with no meaning behind it’ or ‘he can do better than that. he’s so weak’ or ‘come on, there’s no way he’d fall into despair, he’s the Ultimate Hope!’ This kind of mentality, which was kind of ironic considering Ryota was there the entire time saying the same thing and treating Makoto the same way. Like Makoto was superhuman. Like Makoto didn’t feel despair the same way ‘normal people’ did. In a way that was also how Munakata saw Makoto. Makoto stopped being a PERSON to the world when he became Ultimate Hope, he became a concept, a belief system, much the same way Junko ascended beyond herself. But the difference is that treating Makoto that way is the opposite of the reason Makoto became such a representative for hope. He wasn’t doing something no one else could. He was doing something everyone had the chance to, he just… was a little more optimistic, a little more stubborn, a little more ‘gung-ho’ about things. He just took the lead where no one else did, where no one else knew they even COULD in the face of Junko’s unstoppable force. She had overcome the biggest threats and obstacles in the world, what could one person do? And the answer Makoto found was, anything. Everything. It doesn’t all rest on Makoto, he’s just the one that was inspired to try to do what seemed like the impossible. But as evidenced by the change in his friends after that trial, it’s clearly not something only Makoto is capable of. The others pulled out of despair thanks to Makoto, but it was their choice to do so.

“But… this world is so huge, and we’re so small. What can we do…? No, we can probably do anything. Yeah! We can do anything!”

#makoto naegi #Danganronpa character analysis #Danganronpa #danganronpa thh #danganronpa future arc #I fucking love Makoto Naegi man. #I think there’s a fine line of nuance to Makoto that’s easy to miss bc he doesn’t really make it known #he’s not a pushover and he’s not overpowered. he’s a people pleaser but he will say what needs to be said #he’s an immovable object and the exact opposite of Junko but he’s also just a normal guy who’s optimistic and (un)lucky #he isn’t invincible but he has immense power to his words the same way Junko did #if anything his superpower is being kind above all else. he’s compassionate to some of the worst people in the world. #he was even conpassionatr to an extent to Junko. he didnt want her to kill herself despite everything she’s done #and he still acknowledges that for years she was a classmate and friend. #I do think the more he learned abt what she did the more he’s come to actually hate her though #post the first game he always refers to her without a suffix to her name which is one of the most subtle rude things you can do #it means you have zero respect for the person you’re referring to #and he speaks about her with some venom he doesn’t use for anyone else in the future arc #he’s not incapable of feeling negative emotions #I really liked the future arc scene bc it showed that Makoto DID experience enough despair to have overcome him if he didn’t refuse #and that it still affects him deeply. people treat him like he’s either this perfect ideal Chad or this baby chick who’s so delicate #and no one really focuses on how makoto shoulders so much and yet is still vulnerable. #honestly that guy was DUE for a mental breakdown even without the tape. it would have happened eventually #I actually wrote one based on him finally hitting a breaking point after giving so much of himself away and keeping nothing for himself #that his issues that he shoves down constantly finally can’t be held down anymore. Hajime helps him bc he knows how that feels #it was a LONG time ago that I wrote that but honestly if I can remember where i was going w it I might finish it #it was initially an rp but I could make it a fic #anyway. the point is Makoto is SO much more complex than people give him credit for #the most fundamental thing about him is that he’s normal and that’s ok! that’s what helps him rise!

[oldtestleper]

big spoilers for new info as of tonight's episode but eye am soooooooo curious about the extent to which galicaea is still opposed to cassandra in some way. obviously in her high elven form she was trying to get kristen as a follower rather than have her continue to investigate the nightmare king and find cassandra, like she was NOT trying to put her thumb on the scale in that way. and from the sound of it she and sol basically respectively absorbed/dissolved the domains that once belonged to cassandra and ankarna through numerous calculated efforts of their clerics and evangelists, with sol and helio acquiring exclusive association with the sun and summer, and galicaea acquiring exclusive worship of the wood elves and becoming a goddess defined by certainty and eternity, driving away doubt. so is galicaea still playing the game even after being "restored" by wolfsong, trying to keep rage and doubt out of the world that is so well set up for her. was she ever really restored or was it doomed to be a cosmetic overhaul after the high elves got behind it again. like how christian fundamentalists dress like hipsters and open really trendy and successful coffee shops

#crazy plot twist the big bad this season is NOT capitalism! it is imperialism and religious fundamentalism #.txt #d20 spoilers #d20 #also lets be clear i definitely don't think galicaea's being like played or piggybacked by sol i think they go hand in hand #like i think sol stood the most to gain directly by destroying ankarna as the only other major sun diety. we haven't heard of other dieties #of night/the moon so much. darkness yes mystery etc sure but not those specific domains. so sol surely had a lot to gain out of this. #but i think she elevates herself by elevating her husband & their union as sun and moon. when the sun shines brighter so too does the moon! #anyway i think perhaps what we learn from this episode (besides the obvious) #is that the 'corrupted' versions of the gods don't disappear so easily. obviously ankarna is still surviving in some form. #the nightmare king is still an aspect of cassandra. galicaea's wolf aspect is still tempered and her sylvan aspect is elevated over it #also interesting that the form of cassandra that was defined by betrayal from her sister is associated with mirrors lol. #presumably galicaea changed a lot after her marriage to sol. and then she had cassandra and her partner wiped from knowledge. so. #also crazy to think about how old the worship of these gods are and how recent the supremacy of sol/galicaea is. #when kristen died during the cataclysm that created the nightmare king her bones were 850 years old. #the menhir commemorating cassandra's marriage is 3000 years old. AND obviously that was a place that was sacred to the pantheon if they hel #a wedding there. AND galicaea drove the evidence of that literally into the ground and claimed it as a place of exclusive worship. #AND on a historical scale that happened like two weeks ago. #just saying im not surprised the nightmare king is back. and if i were galicaea i'd be terrified of rage and doubt as well. #dimension 20

[dreampearls]

colleis personality functionally being left to the ether because her webtoon iteration is at such fundamental odds with her game iteration that any attempts to temper between the two just range so dramatically

#each collei is a beautiful macrocosmic specimen to be analyzed in its own right #i do think the best and most canon-adherent way to reconcile between the two though is to recognize her emulation of amber #in both personality and appearance #as pretty much an explicitly canon thing if albeit exclusive to the game #& while i think it was meant to be a like. cute moeblob marketing strat and not a genuine extension of how she might develop #post black fire incident #it does tie really well into the webtoon establishing collei's fundamental lack of self identity & her pathological need to assume a Role #as per lee @haidengjie's dissertation: shes always either the unclean or the plague or the villain. shes never just collei #the last time she was seen as purely just Collei was also the last time she ever heard her mothers voice.... #and ever since she has been denied the opportunity to exist even as a person w basic human rights #shes never been allowed to be simply just a child let alone herself #amber befriending collei for who she is & demonstrating she sees her more than just some street rat (who had KILLED TWO DIPLOMATIC ENVOYS #NONETHELESS) & insisting she would never abandon her #just changed. everything. for the first time there was no role to play no stage no script #the curtains fell... god i still love that scene Collei is just trying so hard to play the villain and amber obstinately refuses to let her #insisting that they are both friends and equals and wholeheartedly believing in collei's capacity for good and kindness #ITS SOOO INTERESTING BECAUSE OF COURSE AS SOON AS COLLEI LEARNS SHE DOESNT HAVE TO PLAY A ROLE #SHE'LL STILL SCRAMBLE NONETHELESS FOR A NEW ONE BECAUSE ITS ALL SHES EVER KNOWN #SO OF COURSE SHE WOULD TAKE UP THE ROLE OF AMBER!!!!!!! *WALKSINTO A LARGE PIT #god im still upset about windblume though they contextualized her amber roleplay as a coping mechanism #not for her identity issues or general ptsd but instead this like. palatable relatable version of social anxiety #which dont get me wrong i do adore and relate to that aspect of colleis character a lot but its coming from a framework that completely #disregards her personality from her source material and it really just feels like a flanderization to appear more marketable #Okay i have homeowrk to do byebye

[rosykims]

like out of all the many, many traumas ive given elspeth my favorite has gotta be the deep roads lol. and specifically the way she never really got OUT of them. yeah so maybe her body did but not HER. shes still down there with ruck and helspith every time she closes her eyes. and during future expeditions when she goes down into the deep roads for real, it doesnt feel like some horrible nightmare it feels like REALITY and its the surface and love and warmth and alistair thats nothing more than a pleasant dream. one shes always going to wake up from. bc even in her happiest moments she's never not aware of the darkspawn digging up towards her just a few miles under her feet. and never not feeling the eyes of the deep roads looking at her, gleefully waiting for her, and knowing its not going anywhere

#i love shale but for elspeth's worldstate i dont recruit her bc im so obsessed w the dynamic of it being elspeth/alistair/oghren/the dog lol #oc: elspeth #tay plays dao #she got SEVERE shell shock being down there in the dead trenches after the realization that came from helspith's poem #why shes never seen any female darkspawn and why there apparently arent as many female wardens either #and like. Understanding that death is the absolute best case scenario for her. #alistair had to 100000% step up as the leader because she was completely out of commission. barely able to breathe let alone fight or lead #going from this unstoppable warrior who NEVER loses her nerve or control on a battlefield #to nearly dying to the broodmother bc she was so fucking terrified. bc all she could see was her own fate mirrored back at her #finally FINALLY understanding what it means to be a grey warden. and then trying to reject that reality with her entire body and soul #she pulls herself out of it enough to get out alive but she never had a moment of like... triumph over the deep roads where she had a burst #of courage and saved the day or whatever. thats not usually how trauma works and so alistair carried them thru that #thru the broodmother and the anvil and branka and back to orzammar just as elspeth was beginning to put herself back together #afterwards the lack of closure to what was one of her ''weakest'' lowest moments rly weighed her down with guilt and shame #and its only a year later during awakening when she finally reconciles with having NO choice but to go back into the deep roads #and being able to kill the mother. THAT helped. that restored some small part of her #gave her the strength to start going back down there when the need arose. resigned to an early death but ready to put up a fight #but ye. still such a fundamentally devastating thing she went thru which altered her entire personality to the point where she starts fully #embracing being a warden (bc how can someone who's seen what shes seen and done what shes done be anything else???) #and INSISTING alistair take the throne despite having always been supportive of his desire not to. even if it means she loses him. #bc its a last ditch effort to save him from the fate she's completely surrendered herself to #sigh. this game man. #i need dadw to Confirm that the grey wardens have found a cure and alistair and hof are safe because jesus christ. my girl NEEDS a win

[soullessbullshit]

Razum-dar: Detective, this is a crime scene.

Veya, grabbing ice cream from the victim’s fridge: What, is this the murder weapon? Get off my dick!

#incorrect quotes #elder scrolls #elder scrolls online #eso #razum dar #veya releth #source: vine #oh yeah probably a good time to mention #the sb-verse is effectively an eye of the queen veya au #nocty still pulls her manipulative crap but is less direct in her approach #pretending to be veya's subconscious rather than just outright identifying herself #in order to have a pawn to work through on the inside #because for one #veya training under raz would've been legitimately one of the best dynamics to come out of the franchise #^^^ case in point ^^^ #we got fuckin ROBBED #and i will stand by this assertion till the day the universe collapses in on itself #for two #yes she was VERY much in a bad place at the end of the balmora arc #but given the crux of her mental catastrophe was the utter shattering of what little trust she had in fundamental figures in her life #i just don't see her placing trust in ANYONE who didn't do something significant enough to earn it #much less an extraplanar entity who just started talking directly into her mind out of NOWHERE #and for three #i'm admittedly just a complete sucker for ''it gets better'' arcs #aside from lucius who's a full-blown antagonist #it's kinda the common thread between all my vestiges' storylines and individual arcs #plus given the surprising amount of common ground between veya's trauma and khoshekh's #there is no nay in oblivion i wasn't gonna explore the FUCK out of that narrative potential #so yeah #tags ramble over

[quietwingsinthesky]

i have many many thoughts about rose & tentoo and how their relationship would evolve in this verse. about how you can't just take the love you have for one person and put it on someone else. not even a clone, a regeneration, a metacrisis. about how that doesn't mean you can't love them, or that you can't fall in love with them the same way, but that love has to be for them.

#it is relevant it just isn't relevant. right now. #but i do think about them a lot. #i think about them still living their lives after even leaves. think about rose and donna bonding. think about rose working for torchwood #and seeing a new side to jack and new sides to herself as well because she has to be there for the whole CoE thing. #think about tentoo transitioning because she is trans have i mentioned she's trans yet. she is. even doesn't know that yet because they #weren't there but they will someday. #i think about them all being at donna's wedding. and about a rose noble who grows up knowing the woman she took her name from. #they're a fambly.......... #i think about rose actually not keeping the whole doctor/aliens/mind wipe for your own protection/etc thing from tentoo for very long #about how working through both that being kept from her but also how it was killing rose to do that. how rose had to tell her. #is a fundamental part of what they build everything on now. they grow together. #i think about donna missing someone who isn't there and how sometimes with tentoo she feels a little better but it isn't exactly right #and how as time goes on. that feeling goes away more and more. her grief over losing the doctor *increases* as tentoo grows into a differen #person. she is still. fundamentally. the doctor. but she is also johanna tyler. and donna loves her. and still misses the doctor. #and i think. a lot. about that empty space that even leaves behind. about how they aren't there for donna's wedding. #about how they aren't there when rose noble is growing up. about how they disappear one day and no one ever tells rose or donna #or johanna or *any of them* what happened. i think about how they put up missing posters. i think about how rose holds her breath #for a whole year because hell the doctor got it wrong once with her. maybe they're just late. maybe they'll be back in time for christmas. #but even doesn't come back. they keep a picture of even on the mantel. and they do set an extra plate at christmas. just in case. #a lot of times it stays empty but they sometimes have other impromptu guests. martha and mickey and jack. jack comes by a lot. #couldn't keep him away if they tried really. sarah jane comes sometimes too. (sky babysitting rose noble. ough.) #something about. the doctor does have a family out there. if he'd only come home to them. #so does even. they're both going to have to go back sometime. face the music. sit down for dinner. #there's still time. there's still time. #dw oc

[iamthescalesofjustice]

idk if anyone has done this before but da2 au where you think at first its a both twins lived au and then find out bethany died and thats actually non-warden amell posing as her. something something escaped with jowan maybe, found her relatives in lothering, sought refuge with them and when bethany ended up dying it was way lower profile for amell to take the place of her cousin than try to get in to kirkwall with them as a non-immediate family member (especially given that leandra is publicly coming in as an amell and theres a resemblance and its known revka had mage kids taken to the circle and im sure theres a bulletin out or whatever for an escaped apostate matching amells description). points if people comment on how ‘bethany’ clearly takes after her mother. leandra is not normal about it. aveline knew the real bethany at least in passing bc of living in the same town and treats this as a reason for her distrust of hawke and co and one of the reason she sabotages carvers application with the guard. 

#gamlen has fights with leandra about it and both of them are uncomfortable with the situation in their own ways #if amell ends up recaptured and taken to the gallows cullen is obviously a massive threat to her #im thinking ignore the dai retcons of his character and actually yknow. look at what his creepy dao characterization and position in the #kirkwall templars would reasonably amount to in a person and have him threaten that he can have her exposed as amell instead of bethany any #time he feels like it (and thus get her made tranquil or executed) so its up to her to try to make sure he doesnt feel like it #by doing whatever he wants her to. this is actually slightly more cunning than you would expect out of this guy but he has plenty of #other kirkwall templars to ape this particular kind of plan/behavior from. it would fit really well with a bunch of the canon stuff we see. #and much in the same way that the bethany you end up with as a non-mage hawke is fundamentally a different character than the bethany that #had another mage sibling to grow up with and thus was not as isolated and in a position to blame herself for #i think an amell that ends up in this situation is not the star student of the first enchanter. i mean she couldnt fight well enough to #affect the ogre or heal well enough to save the real bethany. and she wasnt brought on the expedition despite not having leandra's 'leave #your baby sister out of this dangerous trip' happening bc as weird as leandras relationship to a #amell is its still one where if amell could be doing something to try to prove herself useful to the family she would #if she was straight up escaping kinloch with jowan i think she had reason to believe she was more unsafe than usual in the circle #and lacked the 'safety net' of the first enchanter giving a shit about her. so. probably at risk from cullen. hah wow this is a much darker #au than i first anticipated which given the initial concept is 'emotional problems from posing as her dead cousin' centric says something

[the-gayest-sky-kid]

on another personal life anecdote you should really advocate for yourself i know it sucks but if you dont you will end up having to read a book where a core character kills herself in the end after a bunch of other shit anf end up in a horrible place afterwards because you were too scared to talk to your english teacher about how it was fucking you over mentally alongside your personal issues. or something

#im sorry i needed to get it off my chest #i know its supposed to be 'ambiguous' but she literally like. walked into the ocean #she took off her earrings and imagined them fucking. dying???? like bugs???? #and walked into the ocean. after like her children died and her family left and you DONT expect me to believe she fucking killed herself??? #anyway either that or you end up not understanding a fundamental part of math because you were scared of your teachers and being a #disappointment so you faked it until you maked it but now youre in advanced classes and you still dont understand fucking. aough #just. dont be like me kids lmao #cw vent #cw suicide #NOT FOR ME I SWEAR GUYS NOT THIS TIME #swearing cw #aethers rants #personal posts and stuff idk

[01tsubomi]

every time chandler friends talks about his “dad” (who the writers have retroactively confirmed is a trans woman) and how horrible his life was with her around he gives an example like “in high school [she’d] come to all of my swim meets dressed as a different hollywood starlet” as if that doesn’t automatically make her the coolest character in the show

#famous vegas drag queen who attended high school swim meets dressed campy femme in the 80s?? come on #it’s not surprising at all for a mainstream show especially an old one to use transness and queerness as a punchline #but it’s baffling now because the things they’re ragging on are like. objectively very cool and brave #shows the attitude towards gnc I guess. from the inside it’s amazing and a slay for a trans woman to put herself out there but outside the #community they literally didn’t and don’t get it #hence that character being referred to as a man for the show’s entire run #and i mean drag queens who are cis men do exist but she’s clearly femme in EVERY scenario and doesn’t use her deadname #she’s literally cooler than the whole cast. and ofc phoebe saying ‘wow she sounds cool’ is a punchline #phoebe also is an interesting case to me as a character who’s supposed to be very offbeat but is still fundamentally written by and for a #mainstream sitcom #but that’s a topic for a different day and i love her so #personal #mayas unwitting soft core friends hyperfixation 2022 #my only true guilty pleasure this show gets fucked up #see ‘can’t go two episodes without making a joke abt how lesbians are hot’ #and like we are. but not for joey tribiani

[ammoniteflesh]

Maryam repeatedly making clandestine visits to the Black Emporium, looking into the Mirror of Transformation again and again and again. A thousand small tweaks to her cheeks, her eyes, her teeth, the way her hair falls. It's never quite right. She keeps going, though. She collects likenesses of Andraste. Her face, her body - it never looks quite right. No matter how many times she warps her flesh, she doesn't look like a god. She can't get the fear out her eyes.

#maryam trevelyan #speak faust #this concept came to me and i had to put it down somewhere #maryam sucks but i do really feel for her. i think she might be my saddest oc - if only because she outright refuses to heal. #local woman has a breakdown because no matter how much they call her a holy thing she is still fundamentally herself

[cuntstable]

byakuren really is one if the best touhou characters though i think. like i dont think ive ever talked about her before but shes so so interesting and i love her characterization and implied arc

#characters who are fundamentally selfish and cowardly but try SO HARD to improve and be good and altruistic…. yum #like the whole development with her followers too where its implied that she originally saved them just for her own purposes and gain #but ended up actually caring about them and growing as a person to the point where her quest became genuine….. and it ending with her #sacrificing herself to make sure that they would be okay… and then millenia later shes repayed for that kindness by her followers loyalty :) #very sweet i think. but what i like the most is that she still clearly struggles with her selfishness and cowardly side! like its a constant #struggle but she keeps at it #touhou

[nymph1e]

On Discomfort and Morality

My father finds gay men uncomfortable.

He's told me before that it's like a knee-jerk for him. Something he doesn't consciously control. He sees two men behaving romantically, and his body reacts with mild discomfort.

In the 1960s, when he was in high school, most of the boys in his form thought he was gay on the simple fact that he wasn't homophobic. He wouldn't participate in insulting queer people, he didn't care if someone was gay, he wouldn't have a problem hanging out with gay people. So people thought he was gay. That's how prevalent homophobia was in his formative years.

When I was 10, my dad told me very seriously that Holmes and Watson were gay. That it was obvious from the literature and the time period that they were meant to be a gay couple. When I was 14 and I came out to my parents as bi, when my mum was upset my dad ripped into her for it. Told her that she was being stupid, that it was my life to live how I wanted to and that she needed to get over herself.

My dad formed my views on censorship: that being that it was completely ridiculous and thoroughly evil. He didn't believe in censorship of any kind. If I asked him a question about sex, he answered it honestly. When I was 12 and I asked him about homosexuality, still young and uncertain, he told me that there was nothing wrong with it. That it was just how some people were. That there was likely an evolutionary reason for it. And that for some people it was uncomfortable on an instinctual level.

He taught me that just because you're uncomfortable with something, doesn't make it wrong. He also taught me that most people don't understand this.

I see a lot of this on the internet as of the last few years. The anti shipping movement, the terf movement, the anti ace movement. It all stems from discomfort that people have crossed wires into believing means wrong. Really every -ism and -phobia out there stems from this same fundamental aspect of humanity.

The next time you see something and you automatically think it's disgusting, or wrong, or immoral, I invite you to ask yourself: is this actually wrong or does this just make me uncomfortable?

#shipping discourse #anti censorship #anti terf #my mum isn't homophobic #she was upset because she thought it meant i couldnt have children or a family #and this is something important to her #she was also not upset around me but to my dad in private

[samurailogic]

I always get stuff about Sakura from lessarafim or something on my tweeber for you and omg kpop stans truly are so dumb . If you think being good at singing and dancing is all you need to be a good idol then you're stupid and you don't know anything about idols In My Opinion....

#IDGAF IF THEY CAN'T SING OR IF THEY CAN'T DANCE!!!!! The point is... are they a charming person are they funny are they interesting #do they have strange interests how do they approach singing and dancing.... #most of all Are they passionate and happy to be onstage in front of their fans!!! #I will watch a woman scream off key if she is clearly enjoying herself and cares about it...lol #I'm more of a jpop guy and I understand kpop is 2000% different in every regard but I still feel like this is fundamental

[fagofgod]

honestly the way people are so weird abt horde catradora would be funny if it wasnt so absolutely awful. you see a situation where one girls safety is completely dependent on the other one liking her enough to be used as a bargaining chip and think she's the one that has power in that relationship? you think she's the one who's a danger to the other? ok. cool! :|

#obv im talking abt c/a antis mainly here but. idk it applies to people who like catradora too honestly. they're pretty weird abt the horde- #-period. like making it seem like they were always/mostly happy and healthy b4 the sword is a little weird since we SEE their horde dynamic #they obviously enjoy each others company and care for each other but. bc of their fundamental misunderstanding atp they cant be what each- #other wants/needs catra doesnt understand why adora is Like That and gets upset at adora bc she thinks adora getting unfair privilege AGAIN #-and shes RIGHT. but neither her or adora rly grasp that this isn't actly a good thing. so catras jabs r gg to hurt adora who believes shes #-actly HELPING catra. and even ignoring that she *blames catra for SW's abuse*. she still doesn't really try to understand why catra is mad #-at all. (its bc adora is getting unfair advantages over her. again.) < which ofc adora doesn't acknowledge. she cant! not without breaking #-the idea that she CAN protect catra from SW. that the horde is fair and good. so ofc she brushes catras hurt aside to make it abt herself. #and from the way they both seem. used to this dynamic. were meant to get that this is what its always like right. #them blaming each other for things they cant rly control. etc etc. #but. idk. theres a tendency in post series content to erase that adora actually harms catra quite a lot. #and they either make it seem like Nothing Was Wrong in the horde btwn them or that somehow catra had the upper hand in the relationship. #which. again. the point of the post. #ok wow i shld never talk again what is all this #spop #ughhhh

[plant-cell-park]

thinking abt my fallen london and sunless ocs again im going insane

#compost bin contemplations #so like my main fl oc is larimar who basicallt left everything of their old life behind for a shot at hedonism in the neath and despite #leaving behind everything thaf made larimar the larimar-that-once-was on the surface. parts kf that okd self still show up #and they dont notice that #meanwhile my alt acc aka palis is fundamentally an optimist #which sucks because im gonna put them through the (called by my friend) horror ambition and eventually in a later date. the seeking road #hes basically tragedy fodder. plus he already died once its just gonna be the start of their misfortune #meanwhile on the sunless side i have saline who was there when london fell as a child #and she devoted herself to poetry about the surface before ending up as a tomb colonist #and she stays like that for years then hearinf a rumor about being able to become immortal and for all to become immortal #and she jumps at that chance because its her shot to go back to the surface #theres also pyrite but i really need to play sunless sea more to flesh him out #all i knkw so far is that he did not like saline while he was in her crew. which made him angry and confused when salines will stated— #pyrite was to inherit her house and her heirlooms #so yeah!!! i am going insane

[spif-lol]

People can hate on Chibnall's era all they want and while it's not without it's problems I will always defend it if ONLY for it's interpretation of gender in the change from 12 to 13.

I remember being so excited for Jodie, but also so scared as to how they were going to handle her characterization as the Doctor. While Moffat did okay with Missy in the end, her original introduction was dripping with stereotypes and changes in personality which in universe boiled down to she's a girl now lol. Because of this I feared the introduction of a hyperfeminine Doctor, reinforcing sexist stereotypes that men and women are fundamentally different in some ineffable way. I feared jokes about boobs and hair, I feared a weak Doctor who had to be saved by male companions, I worried there would be a lack of personality entirely, with Chibnall trying to play it safe and make her just a blank slate. Or that she would be a rehash of an old Doctor but GIRLY with nothing really distinct to her personality beyond that.

I did not at all expect what we got. Even if the writing is in general lower standards than us fans had come to expect, Chibnall's handling of the Doctor's sudden gender change is phenomenal and I will explain why.

Top 13th Doctor gender moments:

It is so obvious that from the Doctor's point of view, she hasn't really changed. She still perceives herself the same way and finds it hard to adjust to a view of herself as a woman and often uses masculine words to describe herself out of habit. She doesn't dislike being a woman! She's just forgetful! Her regeneration is not special because of the gender change, that's just a quirk alongside the other changes every Doctor goes through when they regenerate

The way she still dresses in a distinctly Doctorish way, and leans towards flamboyant but practical masculine outfits like her suit in Spyfall in contrast to Yaz's more feminine presentation in the same situations. (Yaz isn't even that feminine either. But her dresses and blouses compared to the Doctor really stand out.)

I love how the Doctor's gender doesn't change anything about her, only how other's view her. And mostly people still treat her with respect and as an authority figure. I feel like chibnall struck a good balance between not acknowledging the gender change at all vs hitting us over the head with it. There are episodes where her being a woman is detrimental and she expresses annoyance, there are others where it causes confusion, and there's some where it opens her up to new experiences like the wedding party with Yaz's nan! But ultimately it doesn't make a difference in the Doctor's day to day

The introduction of the Fugitive Doctor as a previous regeneration but also as a female doctor with a distinct personality from thirteen! We got a multi doctor story with two badass female doctors years before it should have been possible! I hate the timeless child thing but the fugitive doctor is my beloved. Props to Chibnall for seeing the hate and people going oooh but the doctor has always been a man and responding by going nope she's been a woman before and a black woman too fuck you. actually iconic. #Season6B btw. if you even care

Idk i just think Jodie really captured the Doctor really well, while still having a unique twist on it and her portrayal really reads as a genderfluid alien in a feminine body. Like oh cool this is new but ultimately it dont matter she still the doctor

#doctor who #thirteenth doctor #yasmin khan #fugitive doctor #thinkin bout doctor who and gender #jodie whittaker