#should be writing but ehh

[raininyourblackeyes]

My cousin, a published writer, a well-known poet in my country and a literature professor, for whom I've always been no.1 support ever since her first attempts at writing in high school, told me that I must stop writing as a hobby because that's her thing and since I'm writing fantasy mostly my writing could never have any important artistic value anyways.

#what happened was that i was feeling really down these past few days #like mental health dead in mariana trench #and i went to visit her because she lives like 10 minutes away and has a cat i can play with #but yesterday morning a friend of mine made a fanart (i guess i can call it that) of a fanfic i am writing for the five of them #she sent it to me and said she's also working on an actual painting on a camvas of her fave scene from my original story #and i was so surprised and exicted #that's actually a too mild description #and when i was visitting my cousin i showed her the pic of the drawing on my phone and explained it to her and she just said ....ehh.. #and started texting someone #i was sitting there feeling stupid and thinking wow you could have at least praised my friend's art sytle or something #and when i was getting ready to leave she asked me if i was aware my writing has no artistic merit and fantasy is trivial literature #so i should just stop wasting time on that and focus on developing my art style more for her future poetry collections #i do the art for her book covers #and added how we already have an established writer in the family so i should focus on my role - becoming a good pharmacist #and she knows how much i hate that i'm studying pharmacy like it's the no.1 cause of me hating the direction in which my life is going #finished it off by saying she feels like what she's doing in going to be really great and important on a large scale one day #and how she wants me to continue being her shadow that follows and supports her #i left went home and started at a wall for hours #i just feel so dumb for getting excited over a silly drawing of something not more than 5 people will ever read #i genuinely hate the idea of people reading anything i write so most likely writing will just remain a hobby for me #and now i feel like the most stupid person on earth and am this close to deleting all my word documents from both my laptops

[raksh-writes]

Woken up, wild beast

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: KinnPorsche: The Series (TV) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: (implied) Pete Phongsakorn Saengtham/Vegas Kornwit Theerapanyakun, Macau Theerapanyakun & Vegas Kornwit Theerapanyakun, Nop (KinnPorsche: The Series) & Vegas Kornwit Theerapanyakun Characters: Nop (KinnPorsche: The Series), Vegas Kornwit Theerapanyakun, Macau Theerapanyakun, Original Characters, Original Bodyguard Characters Additional Tags: there's not much VegasPete here but it IS a crucial background detail, POV Outsider, POV Nop (KinnPorsche: The Series), Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Implied/Referenced Self-Harm, Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics, Pack Dynamics, Alpha Vegas Kornwit Theerapanyakun, Alternate Universe - Shapeshifters, Time Travel, Angst, Pre-Canon, Hurt Vegas Kornwit Theerapanyakun, Emotional Hurt, yes beta we live like Vegas with four bulletshot wounds Series: Part 1 of the fire inside me and you, an echo of the source - our primal souls... Summary:

“With me.” The order came down whip-quick, as cutting as it was powerful, and Nop scrambled to follow, barely able to catch up to his new charge before the door nearly slammed shut in his face.

He’s been with Khun Vegas ever since.

Always guarding, always watching, always on the lookout for anything or anyone that could mean Khun Vegas harm — be it their enemies, the major family, Khun Gun or, on the worst days, Khun Vegas himself.

So, when one day Khun Vegas wakes up with mad, haunted eyes and a frantic, desperate energy pouring out of him heavy as a flood, Nop knows immediately — intimately — that something is horribly, terribly wrong.

-

Finally, some new writing I can share! ^^ 

This is super self-indulgent and hyper-specific and I might just be the sole target audience, lmao, but if anyone else stumbles upon this and gets a smile out of it, then I'm a writer fulfilled ^^ Give it a shot if you’re curious and I hope it’s gonna be a nice read 💗

#vegaspete #vegas theerapanyakul #nop (kinnporsche the series) #outsider POV #vegas & macau #kinnporche the series #macau theerapanyakul #there's actually not much vegaspete here #but it's Very important #Ive spent the last two hours doing last minute edits #and still feel like I could do a ton more #but I do wanna post it today soo... here goes I guess lmao #I gotta get up at like 6am so I should really go to sleep rn oof #so yeah anyway #new fic! #My Writing #Raksh's writing #Raksh posts #dunno why the link looks the way it does but ehh gonna leave it as is for now #maybe I can change it later and it'll look properly? who knows #for now I gotta just post and go to bed 🙈

[queen-of-obsessing]

i just got hit with some sudden writers insecurity for the first time in a hot min. just this crushing feeling re-reading my draft that my work was kinda shit and no one would like it. hm.

#is it hot garbage? idk #maybe i should just finish it and then find a beta reader #then i'll see if my work is actually shit #but i'm acc pretty confident in my work 89% of the time only today...ehh #writing #writers on tumblr

[seth-burroughs]

Can I be honest for a sec. I don't really care for the MD group. Like I don't have anything towards Fubuki (my best friend Fubuki), Yakou or Halara as individual characters, but the whole cast is just a whatever for me. Or maybe it's just Desuhiko and Vivia who made life miserable for me... Who knows. I'm more of a peacekeepers kinda guy, you know?

One day when I am strong enough at last I will write down that au where all the detectives ate shit and died on their way to KW and Yakou's the only member of the NDA and is having a terrible time. The plot is him trying extremely hard to get to Huesca to finally shank him, his two new anonymous pen pals (Yomi and Makoto - Makoto still gets him into contact with Fink, but his plans for ousting Yomi via detectives are now currently ruined and he's getting real pissed about it) giving him information on the lab, but it takes him several months to actually get to starting the execution of his grand, notreallythatcomplicated murder-suicide mission because he just gets so fucking sidetracked with the peacekeepers romance routes. Anyway Yomi has not been stopped by the detectives (rip in rest) from leaking homunculus information to the UG (which. I have so many thoughts about but this is not the post for that can some other guy speak for me on this?) and just like Makoto's superior mind has predicted it had fucked all of them over big time not a single positive thing came out of it not even for Yomi. Now Yakou's murder-suicide dream is getting postponed AGAIN because they have bigger problems to worry about such as UG dropping sulfuric acid in the forever rain generator and Makoto new face reveal broadcast I wonder what he's gonna t-

#Yakou eventually realizes he needs to get Cooler in order to survive. And then he and Yomi put aside their differences and have gay sex and- #No. No I shan't. This one's staying between me and Shinigami at least until I get to writing this. #Also: torn on whether I should still kill Fake Zilch or let him live. Both options are equally appealing. Anyway...That's all folks. Toodles #mine #rain code #yakou furio #should i tag yomi and makoto. hmmm. ehh? #the i did not proofread this tag #<- I actually did but I don't trust myself

[0-eternal-entity-0]

Ello ello..it has been a while

So..I wrote a story after a year of writers block and it was for the marauders era/snera with snulciber and a small hint of snupin...IF you guys are interested here’s the link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/48398452 now it might not be much but it was what I wanted to write..so..yeah hope its not too awful AHAHAH

#snulciber #snupin #just a hint tho #if the tag is misleading i will get rid of it<3 #its neither pro or anti marauders but idk..marauder stans scare me #should i tag it as anti marauders just in case? #...ehh #severus snape #bruce mulciber #I am panicking #i usually dont talk abt my fanfics but this one made me quite happy #might be because i wrote it while being so sleep deprived i couldnt even tell what i was writing :D #it is for the pro snape peeps #so #pro snape #i love you guys odhfjj #you guys made me feel so welcome when no one else did haaaaah

[meowydoe]

Something something Sugardolls Constance-comes-back AU

#i should write a fic of them based on this song #after i finish my other constance and penny fic.. #ehh i can work on both at once #ride the cyclone #constance blackwood #jane doe rtc #sugardolls #daisy yip yaps #Spotify

[tenitchyfingers]

So I just remembered this song

#this only keeps convincing me I should write a beatles/evangelion crossover of some sort #this close to making a mclennon playlist #ok fine I’ll do that tomorrow #Beautiful World fits too #again by Utada Hikaru #again for the Evangelion rebuilds #again (presumably) for kawoshin #it’s also addressed to a ‘beautiful boy’ ring any bells?? #no honestly I can’t write for shit anymore #and I’m too disconnected to my own feelings #can’t express them anymore #but if I could I would absolutely do something with this yk? #useless post ehh #Spotify

[estbela]

Would prussia and romania's ship name be something like prurom? Rompru? Something else I didn't think of? Hmm.

(Cue me rambling in the tags about them)

#Just talking recreationally #Hetalia #Prussia #Romania #Aph #Hws #Ive just finished with school and shit. Expect me to post a lot more(or a lot less idk) #(Well tehnically i finish tomorow but ehh) #Anyway to write something in the tags that's actually relevant to the post: #Hear me out! They have some history! #Im exhausted so I may not be able to explain it very well but basically a branch of the Hohenzollerns ruled over Romania for a time #(From 1866 to 1947) #Basically Carol I was invited to like. Become the leader of romania and he accepted #I think i saw someone write prussia and romania as like. Married. Which is certainly a way to view the relations between them in that perio #Anyway I dont believe they interacted in canon but they should. #Theyre so similar yet so different. #They both have a younger brother whom they love. #Theyre both pretty chaotic tbh #But I feel like they are pretty different too. #Rambling over Im tired. #Actually no. #Btw when romania joined WWI fighting against the central powers #The german emperor Wilhelm II had Ferdinand's name erased from the house of Hohenzollern so they probably werent cordial with eachoter #During that period #Also like Germany stopped being an empire nad became a republic after WWI

[gummirock]

you know how many people wouldn't have that much of an issue with the herb brides if ice pick lodge wasn't full of cowards and made a couple of the variations like older or idk less Shapely... like you CAN argue that they're to represent and critique colonizers sexualized view of native women but can you really try to critique that while actively contributing to the sexualization of native women.

#pathologic #you know. before beating p2 i had played thru all of daniil and partially artemy... #and i was like huh the way they treat the kin is kind of fucked up i hope p2 is less racist! i think it just got worse. #maybe someday ill write my thoughts about it but ehh im sure someone who isnt a white usamerican has done so and better than i could #i don't think its something we should Cancel the game or studio over but it is... important to recognize its flaws. its major flaws....

[theflyingfeeling]

current level of boredom while being mildly poorly (=not poorly enough to just lie down doing nothing but poorly enough to not have the energy to do anything thought-consuming): tagging all my shippy asks/posts ✨💅

ps. if anyone knows how to use the mass post editor to actually mass-edit tags in a convenient way I'd appreciate the help 🙏 like, idk if it's even possible to find all the posts I have tagged as x and edit the tags of all those posts at once? 🤔 so far I only know you can find tagged posts on your own blog by adding /tagged/x at the end of your url and then editing the tags manually one post at a time 🥲

#all these years on the hellsite and i still haven't figured out how to use the mass post editor for anything useful 💀 #anywayyy literally no one cares but the tags i've been using so far are: #olliallu ollixalluxjoel joonasxniko joelxolli joonasxolli #i also have previously tagged some random posts as joeleksi #yes it's very inconsistent but i had already tagged posts as olliallu but then i realised joonasniko looks kinda dumb 😪 #so joonasxniko it is i guess 😐 funnily enough olliallu looks alright?? but i kinda also want to start using ollixallu from now on #because now it just bothers me so much that one of them is diffferent in style 😭😂😭 #i think i've tagged shippy posts with them as joonas/niko before but i'm gonna have to change that 😑 #since the / does not work that well in tagging ugh #i just started so i've only managed to tag about a fraction of the asks 💀 #man i wish i had had a proper tagging system for asks from the beginning #i never saw the point and idk if there's any point to tagging them afterwards either but ehh i can't write fic so what else should i do #also idk how much sense any of those posts make ''out of context'' but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ maybe at some point this might come in handy #(also also yes i can't write fic i don't have the energy to concentrate and anyway i'll probably need to start it all over again 😩)

[flowercrown-bard]

Wip Wednesday

Thank you for the tag @dapandapod 💜

Rules: post a snippet of whatever you’re currently working on, no more than 300 words, and tag five other writers

So... Technically I didn't write anything since posting the last chapter. Not a single word. But this is a scene I cut from the last chapter and I think I'm going to rework it in the chapter after the next? So it counts as a wip

So he pressed himself closer to the walls of the stables, out of sight of Geralt, but close enough to catch what he was saying to his horse.

“I can’t do this.” Geralt’s tone was so dejected that Jaskier almost gave up on his hiding spot to go over to him and comfort him. But first he had to find out what Geralt needed comforting for. So he stayed rooted in place.

“It’s - I don’t know what to say to him. It’s easy for Lambert to say I should just compliment him. He knew that Aiden would like to be complimented by him.”

Roach snorted and Jaskier could hear a thunk and a pleased hum from Geralt. Jaskier peeked around the corner, to see Geralt press his forehead against Roach’s neck.

“You're beautiful,” Geralt said, “I like being around you.”

Jaskier's heart warmed, as he listened to Geralt speak so softly to his horse. He could barely repress a coo that surely would have alerted Geralt to his presence.

“You are one of the best men I know.” Wait. What? Roach very much wasn't a man. “That night at the tower was the best night I had in a long time.”

Oh. Oh.

Geralt wasn't complimenting Roach. He was practicing.

“It's so easy here,” frustration was back in Geralt's voice, “so why can't I say the same things to him without making a fool of myself?”

Roach huffed again.

“Yeah I know.” Geralt scratched her between the ears, patted her on the neck and drew back. “We both know why.”

Tagging: @rebrandedbard @alllthequeenshorses @samstree @witchersgoldenbard @witcher-and-his-bard-archive

#Wip Wednesday #Arranged marriage au #Thank goodness I still had that snippet #I've been telling myself I should write for a week but ehh #Tag game

[fluorescentbrains]

i mostly agree w that post i reblogged however……. i have a feeling that we expect authors/artists/creators in general to have like this complete birds-eye view of the world and we act like their job is to fully represent all of it without reflecting any of their own little problems and issues… i don’t know if that’s necessarily fair. sometimes the problems and issues spice it up

#i mean when someone is just being racist and it’s spilling into everything that’s always bad #but what i mean is like….. toxic interpersonal dynamics that keep showing up. nihilist attitudes. etc #people who can’t stop writing about their bad relationship with their parents… that kind of thing #and people can talk back to that and challenge it #but sometimes there’s a tone of ‘this person should seek therapy so they can write more wholesomely’ #and ehh idk……. seems like the wrong framework somehow

[alliumbunny]

I've ran out of fics to read very seriously thinking of making a chat fic just to not be bored...

But what the hell would I do it about?!?! Like...

My favorite chatfics are the crossover ones, Because they're funny when mixed >:3 (With rottmnt mostly)

but I'm 90% not done with 2012 and I haven't watched any of the other tmnt iterations so..

WHAT THE HELL DO I DO AND WHY IS IT SO HARD

I've thought of making a Chatfic with one of my AU's of TMNT

Mostly my Separated AU, because I love it so god damn much <3

but umm... It's not the best... au for a chatfic...

as in I'd need to either do everything out of canon for the AU

or I'd need to do it after all the juicy stuff happens... mmmmm

I'm just...

Confused :( and sad... and Bored Lol

...

Maybe I should make a tmnt oc...

ooo that'd be fun...

.

.

.

I'M GETTING OFF TOPIC SORRY

Lol, so um ya :3

I like chatfic's alot, they make me laugh so yee..

Maybe when I'm done with 2012 S1 I'll do a crossover chatfic that's set in both 2012TMNT and ROTTMNT's season 1 because hey, that'd maybe be fun :3

I'm rambling oopsie lol

#bunni rambles #BIG TIME LOL #I ramble about writing a chatfic oops #tmnt #rottmnt #tmnt 2012 #fanfiction #Idk if I should tag them because ehh :3 y'know #okay I'm sorry it's so long but I need SOMEWHERE to get my emotions out :( #lol

[dualiti-real]

OC-tober Day 6: Symbol

for this one I'm going to show you the symbol (or at least the beta version of a symbol) for one of Dualiti's religions, the Magus Pantheon!

INFO UNDER CUT

There are a lot of religions in Dualiti, and things sort of go off of Terry Pratchett Small Gods rules, where as long as something has enough people believing in it, it's a god. so there are a bunch of gods running around of various sizes. the ones that are the most prominent, though, are the ones in the Magus Pantheon. this includes, from left to right,

Noctis, God of Darkness,

Sol, God of Light,

Enis, God of Humanity,

and Lia, God of Knowledge.

their dimension is where magic comes into Dualiti's world from, and the symbol above is an attempted representation of it. each god has their own domain within this dimension, starting from the oldest outside to the youngest in the middle. they don't really interfere with humanity directly, or at least they shouldn't. a lot of trouble has come in the past from gods meddling in the affairs of humanity.

#the gods designs are all sort of half-baked in parts because outside of what they contribute to the actual characters #writing gods is kind of boring to me #so they don't get a lot of love #like this lineups drawing of sol is kind of outdated the final image is a better representation of what they look like (arms) #oc: arthur #he's there for like a second #should I tag the gods? ehh fuckit why not #oc: noctis #oc: enis #oc: sol #oc: lia #oc-tober #bweirdoctober

[what-aboutno]

After I finished the next chapter of fatui chiluc au I'm gonna work on qpr chiluc 🫡 they've been on the mind too long I need to see content about them

#zara rambles #maybe i should make a tag for writing updates or something #ehh ill figure it out another time #i dont think it'll be a multi chapter thing #probably just a series of oneshots unless i think of something else skdkd #twt doesnt need to know this but the next fatui chiluc chapter is like half planned out- #i have so many options now that its a character with dialogue and stuff in game idk what to do anymore skdkd #its dottore btw thats the next trial 🤫 #hmmm I'll figure it out

[icedille]

like it's all "i'm tired of this when does it stop when does it get better" until you actually reach some stability and suddenly it just. it feels weird. i don't want to say it's because i got so used to feeling like shit in a thousand different ways (interrupted by the occasional euphoria) bc that sounds stupid but. maybe that's it?? maybe i just don't know what to do with myself when things calm down, even tho that's all i ask for most of the time. idk i still feel like i could do some really dumb self-destructive constantly but it would mostly be out of boredom now. and i am stable enough to not do that currently but. idk. idk

#i think the fact that i don't see any real reason for the change also plays some part in this #like if it got better for no reason it could very much just. stop at any moment. so yeah there's stability but no real certitude in that #and if it does stay good (again for no real reason) then what does it say about the past. years. but i'm not answering that lmao #again i want to be better i'm happy if things are good i guess but also ehh #i should stop thinking. i should reach out for that new therapist (previous one was fine but only did limited interventions) #i said i would write that e-mail today but then i didn't <3 oh well #anyway this was a very productive rambling session thank you tumblr goodnight #.parakeet