please come on there’s gotta be SOMEONE out there desperately in love with me please. please please
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I think I have just put less and less effort into my art over time bc genuinely I don't think it even matters when it comes to how well a piece is recieved 💀 bc yeah I could spend 18 hours making a finished piece.. or I could just draw up a shitty pandering sketch and it will get twice the likes
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on the topic of my previous post, I'm also mad about a post I made getting tagged with something along the lines of "not to be bisexual but..... etc"
which like
implying that the only reason you're attracted to me is because you're bisexual? which makes you... a bit of an asshole? especially since I said IN THE POST that I am a GIRL it just. it makes me mad as hell.
sorry to vent so much I've just been seeing more and more stuff like this and the previous post thing that have been pissing me off
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I think a thing that is frustrating about neurotypicals as someone with autism and auditory / language processing issues (yet to be explicitly diagnosed to my knowledge) is how little they understand neurological differences and disabilities in processing things like hearing and yet they feel like they understand it to a sufficient level.
Case in point, today at work one ofbmy coworkers got all mad and offended because I was "rude and disrespectful" because in the morning, while thinking about the things I needed to do and thought of an important question before I could start my question to ask my mentor, asked the question and she was talking and thus I interrupted her. Yes, rude now that I KNOW she was talking and so I apologize, but I really hate the implied intent or lack of caring put with the "autistic interruption" shit
Ignoring social cues and rules aside, I *literally* didn't realize / process she was talking. Of course, I'm not deaf or HoH so I can't say that because "How could I not hear her? She was speaking loud enough to know" and there is a HUGE difference between *hearing* and *processing* and so when they always give the advise of be more considerate / think before you speak or tell you the social rule to not interript cause its rude, it doesn't help like at all
Cause yes, I KNOW that and I DO think before I speak. I just *literally* didnt process her speech as speech and it was filtered as white noise.
Its like going into a busy and loud club and saying "dont speak if the guy two tables down is talking"
Like yeah, maybe I COULD hear that he is talking among the 50000 other people talking, but Im not processing him talking as distinct from the ambient noise around me.
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me: wow, now that i'm sober i'm beginning to feel the drive and energy to do things i enjoy. let me crochet a new book cover.
uncontrollable circumstances: hey about that uh, you're crippled. you can't do that atm. you're gonna have to settle for something else.
me, one mental breakdown later: okay. i doodled and wrote. but can i play this cool videogame i used to play?
uncontrollable circumstances: ahah oh, well, you see... your laptop doesn't have enough storage and you're too broke to buy a better one. maybe try playing the one with shittier graphics and feel dysphoric while doing the character creation?
me, filled with rage: no. i am going to commit atrocities
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First time venting here for a while sure yall missed it (/j) I FUCKING HATE THE BOYS IN TRACK WHO ACT LIKE IM SLOW CAUSE IM AFAB 👹👹👹👹 NO BICTH IM SLOW CAUSE I HAVENT DONE A SPORT BEFORE I HAVENT GONE OUT OF MY WAY TO RUN/EXERCISE I AM A NERD NOT A JOCK SHUT THE FUVK UP!!!!!!!!!!!
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