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carcinized · 2 years
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btw i want to say that if you’re still supporting dream after this for whatever reason get off my blog. engaging with dsmp content with some semblance of critical thinking is fine but if you’re defending dream rn (like the stupid #supportdream tag on twitter) get out
(more under cut w/ more details and my opinions on the situation, feel free to skip if you’re trying to distract urself rn tho)
like i know ive never liked dream & have been vocal with my criticisms of him for the past 2 years so i probably dont have too many dream stans who stuck around through my lame ass mcc crit but are still supporting him through THIS but i want to say it anyways. dream acted inappropriately with fans, CONFIRMED THAT HIMSELF, and even almost implied that he still responds to fans’ dms like this? whether or not the sexual implications are true, which to me it honestly seems like they are, i do not want to support someone who would have relationships with that sort of power imbalance & any of you who are still supporting him i dont want following me.
it makes me so mad that people are defending him?? he literally admitted to those instagram dms with Amanda meaning he admitted to giving her his private snap ? he mentioned that moving snap accounts likely triggered this CONFIRMING HE GAVE HER HIS PRIV SNAP & TALKED TO HER ON IT ? hi um thats the most irresponsible thing a content creator could ever do regardless of if he sexted with her and regardless of her age ??
and even besides that we KNOW hes irresponsible w/ his platform. weve KNOWN that. getting minors’ addresses doxxed bc he cant stand not responding to crit on Twitter? tweeting stupid ass fucking shit about smaller creators (scott smajor for example) and getting his army of stans to harass them? his general terrible fucking way of dealing with any sort of criticism? if we sweep this under the rug it will happen again but worse and worse. thats the pattern and honestly it sucks that people couldn’t see that until it came out that he groomed someone (possibly multiple people) and he was allowed to continue, but we cannot allow him to continue past this. it will only get worse
(i dont mean to downplay the severity of what hes done in regards to amanda by listing prior things but i just wanted to make the point that this is very much a pattern with dream. he does things like this, tweets a stupidass fucking response, deletes it, releases a twitlonger, then lies low until his fans forgive/forget. DONT LET HIM KEEP DOING THIS. NOT WITH SOMETHING THIS SERIOUS.)
okay sorry ive been trying to be quiet & not say rash things & spare people negativity but i do want to put this out there. anyways if you support dream after this get the fuck off my blog youre not welcome. thanks bye
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tiodolma · 1 year
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Do you think it'd be hilarious if season 3 Merlin and Morgana are cursed (you can imagine whatever)? And both are rude to the caster because they'll like to be back to normal like yesterday, so the caster lies and tells them they have to sleep together to break the curse? 🤣😂
That’s all I want. Trap those two powerful virgins in a situationship they can’t escape (and also resolve that S3 UST) lmaooo.
Also wasn’t S3 the season where they touched each other the most 😂😂
How abt this... like u know how kingdoms always arrange political marriages and stuff right to become stronger allies, right? What if the caster is also a magical radical who want the magic world "to be great again”? Smh somehow they have an idea of both mergana’s respective prophecies and also somehow they know each’s true identity. The caster’s agenda is to get those two bonded by whatever means necessary coz what better way to unite the magicfolk other than the two most powerful entities working together???
So they find a way to infilitrate castle camelot in s3. They befriend merlin (coz merlin is just that kinda guy) and also morgana (coz shes alone and needs allies). Then caster somehow actually really binds them together without both of them knowing 🤣. Basically the effect of the spell makes them drawn towards each other. S3 is a hella complicated time for both of them so their feelings are like amplified and their needs to get their hands on each other become more intense. Caster always scries on them from their water bowl and is like "yesss.... yesssss, just according to plan muahahahah soon the magic world will be great again!”
After a while Merlin suspects that love magic has been administered to him and he deduces it was done by morgana (see he’s obsessed with her and cant really be bothered to suspect anyone else lolol). So he asks Gaius for a solution. Gaius would be all scientific method about it. Kilgharrah gives even worse advice... the usual "that’s easy, just kill her and finish the job” which makes merlin roll his eyes.
Morgana and Morgause share a braincell so they dont consider Morgana’s increased fixation on Merlin as a detriment but a bonus. Her increased hyperawareness of Merlin makes her for a better spy. Morgause also wants her sister to start seductress training since yesterday and what better victim to practice on other than merlin?
Anyway caster is getting bored with their still UST so they send a mysterious message to Melrin that basically says "you have been cursed. you gotta have sex with the lady Morgana in order to fulfill your destiny.” Merlin interprets that as the solution to break the curse (and finally defeat the evil that is morgana lmao).
Merlin, honest powerful idiot that he is (and also hella embarrassed and dont wanna consult his bosses abt intimate matters) actually corners Morgana somewhere and is like "listen you and I have been cursed and the solution is to have sex with each other” and morgana is like "awe i didnt know u had the hots for me.” They’re gonna banter and be all sexy abt it because Morgana wont believe a word Merlin says and Merlin is serious and paranoid af and the spell just keeps getting stronger the nearer they are to each other lololol. (sparks fly, they cant stop touching each other, they smell really good wth?, isnt merlin's cheekbones prettier than usual?, morgana's so soff to touch dear lord... yknow things they already know and think abt each other but more.)
When everything gets too much (and morgana finally believes merlin’s statement that theyre cursed) they get one secret night together in the Isle of the Blessed asjjsgshsjskl (feelings, atrraction, desires of youth spring to life, morgs find out abt his magic coz the sex was magnificent/spiritual and hella magical) and when the deed is done the caster’s spell is complete and they’re basically married 😂
CASTER: FROM THIS POINT FORTH LORD EMRYS AND THE LADY MORGANA ARE JOINED TOGETHER AS ONE. MAGIC WILL BE GREAT AGAIN. THE BALANCE OF THE WORLD IS RESTORED.
Merlin and Morgana are like, "whut" (but tbf they seem to be more stronger together)
It all comes down to "we just both wanted the same thing gdi.”
Morgause still sees this as bonus bec ofc she does lmao
Cue kilgharrah sensing a disturbance in the force and be like "OH SHT. MY PLANS”
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maybe i should say smth instead of just attacking u. anyways thalia: 21, 35, 39, 67, 69
you literally are attacking me so brutally right now.. its kinda insane but ill allow it i GUESS ... its giving me a break from toiling away in the dnd toyhouse page mines so its ok
DND ocs questions link (send me a number + a name)
21. do they have an idea about how they’ll die? do you?
the do you at the end of this is so chilling..... do i.... i dont actually! most of the npcs deaths are being left up to the pcs so i really have no clue if theyll die or how! but as for swords herself... she, like most people, hopes she will die peacefully and surrounded by friends and family... but she really believes shes going to die in this rebellion in battle much like henrietta did...
35. when did they feel loneliest?
probably when her grandmother died! she was only about 11 years old and didnt have experience with death much at that point despite being ya know... almost a teenager, and her parents werent very helpful... she wasnt very connected with them during this time as well as they were busy with supporting the family, she loves them but this really drove a wedge between them
39. are they insecure about their appearance? how about their personality? what aspects specifically worry them?
shes so insecure man. specifically she thinks she doesnt put as much into her appearance as daggers does and so she thinks people probably think shes a slob, also she refuses to let anyone into her childhood room bc of this as well, its a mess in there and she'd die before she let anyone see. as for personality she thinks shes basically fine there, in fact she likes her personality alot! well actually she does worry about being too selfish sometimes but not often
67. do they consider themselves to be special?
YES. why did you even ask this its like a character trait that she believes shes the main fucking character .... but she also knows the pcs are much more special than she is... and i wont lie! it does bother her a bit
69. what’s one secret they don’t want getting out?
back when she was a kid she would have died if anyone found out she liked girls... thankfully shes a LITTLE bit better.. but she doesnt want her crush on her roommate getting out... but u knew that so i will give u ... she actually doesnt remember alot of what she studied in school and doesnt really know much abt how the political system works! shes a very fake it til you make it type of person so
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vannamelonpie · 4 years
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Top 10 fav writers and reviewings by h.melon
(This is just my opinion as a fan of fics and i will possibly do a pt2)
The 'personality' is extra bcs i interact with most of these writers, and maybe you could choose one to send asks too when you read this
1, @cosmiclix
fics (9.5/10): i cant- she's too good at this. Her smuts are like,,, a lil bit rough but the vibe is just too soft and cute and full of emotions, she hasnt write much though. Her style is very unique ngl
personality (🥺😍🥰): she's very sweet and nice! And one of my two fav writers! I cant-
overall review: i dont care if you dont know her! I dont care if your fav writers dont know her, she will always be on top of my list no matter what. you should def read hers if you want suggestive fluffs but still getting turned on (lol)
recs;
2, @hardskz
fics (10/10): defo on top on your list possibly bcs shes showering in fame 😂😂😂 her writing is rough asf (absolute filth) she makes me tear up a bit. I cant say anything more abt the quality i mean just read and you can clearly see the devotion. She wrote carefully abt every single detail. The storylines in her one shots are on point too and i think shes popular bcs her kinks are like,,, common? HOT 🔥
personality (😭😌😲😈🥺): idk i think shes funny asf, shes friendly and are friends with alot of other writers too? Kind of a crackhead.
recs:
3, @honeyfelix
fics (10/10): ROUGH 😏👌and doesn't have an own type she writes both soft and rough i think? So yeah, in the top 3 it its!
personality (🥺😝): literally one of the sweetest, along with @cosmiclix does everyone with lix last in the username are this cute and kind? She's literally the opposite with her fics, they are pure filth and she's a pure angel finally i can see what duality looks like
recs:
4, @maaaaaatryoshka0325 (im an aesthetic person can ur username too? 🥺)
fics (8.5/10): ASJKSJSJJSJSKSJSJAKJS i have absolutely nothing to say THEYRE TOO ROUGH FOR ME sometimes i think y/n's gonna pass out 😭
personality (😊😝🙃) idk much??? But shes friendly, kind of a fun type!
recs;
5, @moonyskz
fics (8.5/10); absolutely the best fic writer ever, if this is abt fics in general she would stay at the top! Her style fits more in general fics than smuts? But her smuts are fire too who i am to say otherwise?
personality (😒😫) she's sarcastic and a crackhead. Ive never interacted with her so i scrolled a bit through her blog to see,,,
recs:
6, @pay-with-your-kinks (dom)
fics (11/10); she was supposed to be the 4th but i realized most of y'all are subs so,,, but anyways, she is really good at this they're rough asf i read her fics everyday,,, i get fascinated bcs she takes reqs often as hell and she writes really fasssstttt
personality (😅🤗) kind hearted and friendly! She's funny too, but in a sweet way. And i laughed bcs she always put the "a sub??? On my blog???" meme whenever she receives an ask from a sub so subs pls send her aks!
recs:
7, @violethhj
fics (9/10): THEY'RE ALL BOPS but these are all blurbs and too short for me * cries in fic reader*
personality (😊🥺😘) aishhh she's too innocent! I felt like shes only 14- shes so cute,,, another one with dualities y'all heard me right
recs:
8, @channiesmixtape
fics (8/10): damn shes too creative, while the others only have timestamps or very little titled fic this girl have a HANDFUL of titled fics i love it, and her style is ROUGH and HOT, so much FLUIDS 👅👄💦
personality (🤪😲😳) ahaha crackhead, maybe she's a tsundere too???
recs:
9, @mrbangchannie
fics (8/10): ITS GOOD! AWESOME IN DETAILS and others but an absolute extrovert writing fics makes me go 😳🥺😭
personality (🤪😘😝): she's my daddy. Periodt.
10, @chaoticminhos
fics (8.5/10): how the hell did she come up with all that ideas shes probably the creativest writer here. Not too much dom sub content just,,, sex in general, but i still love it. I love you
personality (🥺🥺🥺) bcs she use that emoji alllll the time. Maybe shes shy, but friendly and sarcastic too sometimes! Ive never interacted w her enough to know,,,
So yeah! This is my top 10 fav writers im so sorry if youre not in this list ill try to make a part 2 ok 🥺🥺🥺 (dont bother abt the 'recs' i was abt to add some recs but tumblr wont let so i tried to remove those but tumblr wont let me either)
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nadiineross · 4 years
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Print: “How do you 'accidentally' achieve immortality?"
note: abt ur prompts.. i ….actually was planning a fic abt immortality but i dont think itll be done for ages so i slammed this one out. i also made a few posts abt superhero aus btw :’). i watched hercules for the first time in like a decade bc of ur other prompt and wow…. hades is still so funny DSJFHSKH ok anyway i prolly wont write a lot in the coming month bc semesters starting next week BUT i can type out some headcanons for prompts u give me, if u guys r interested in that?
i didnt proofread this and i dont want to because i am Lazy anyway thank u sm for continuing to talk to me abt chlodine yrs down the road. pls feel free to send in ur chlodine headcanons or if u jus wanna scream abt them
Nadine’s been alive for a long time, and so nothing really surprises her anymore. But, then again, Chloe is always her exception.
//
They first meet in India, only a passing thing. Being alive for so long, well, it gets boring. Nadine, also, could never really handle being purposeless. She enjoys having goals and working hard to achieve them, and she definitely enjoys the brief period, afterwards, where she relishes in those achievements.
It was easier, before, to find purpose: fighting. There were a lot of wars and Nadine was good at it. She was, and is, by all accounts, remarkable. However, to preserve her anonymity, she allows herself to dissolve into the unknowns of history.
She has had many names, most of which she has since forgotten. But, her first, she will not forget: Nadine. It is that name she gives to Chloe, and it is the one Chloe knows her by.
At that time, in India, she had nothing to do. It seemed the age of fighting as she knew it was coming to a close, and she grew bored.
Of course, this wasn’t a new experience; Nadine can hardly find anything she has not experienced. Usually, she travelled. She’s been to most places, but they were always changing, and this was something she appreciated on a deep level.
India, she has not visited in almost four decades.
On her first night, she eats a feast on her own. The restaurant owners were impressed, to say the least.
It is routine, her travels. During the day, she sees the sights, explores the places that have changed the most and visits those that she loved the last time she was here. When nightfalls, again, she feasts. Sometimes, when she isn’t too tired, she’ll take someone to bed.
This, she does rarely. It is, after all, hard to find a woman interested in other women in this world. Harder, even, to find one who isn’t interested in a long term investment, since Nadine is not very interested in the part where she outlives everyone. It isn’t a pressing issue, though. She has needs, sure, but she is patient, and sex did not fall very high on her list of priorities.
Besides, she understands. The consequences of being a woman like her are grave and not a lot of people would want to risk their lives for a fling.
Chloe is only her second in India.
There is a river, a half day’s walk away from where she’s staying. It is her second to last night in India, and there aren’t a lot of things she is itching to see, so she decides to make the walk.
By the time she gets there, the sun is hanging low in the sky, not yet set, but almost. She’s sweating from the heat and the oppressive humidity characteristic of the Indian climate. So, naturally, she unbuttons the first few buttons of her shirt and leans over the edge to splash water over her face.
It is a relief on her skin, and she looks up to gasp out a breath when she sees her. Chloe, shameless creature that she is, watches her.
Nadine doesn’t know how she didn’t notice the woman lounging in the water before now. Bewildered, Nadine blinks at her and feels very bare, suddenly hyper-aware of the droplets running down her face and into her shirt.
“Hello,” Nadine finally says. She is good with languages—there isn’t a lot to do when you’ve been alive for a few centuries.
“Hey.” She swims over until Nadine can see her smirk with distinct clarity, until her bare shoulders come up, but does not go farther up the shore. “Not from around here?”
Nadine raises an eyebrow. Clearly not. “No,” she says.
“Huh. Chloe, nice to meet you,” says she, extending a wet hand from the water. Nadine has to slosh into the water to take it and give it a firm, short up-down shake.
It’s a strange name, given the context, and this whole thing takes her off guard. She stupidly blurts out: “Nadine.”
Chloe’s grin becomes wider. She doesn’t try to hide the way she eyes Nadine’s open shirt. Nadine isn’t dense, either, so she knows when there is an opportunity she could take, is she wanted.
She’s not sure yet.
“And you? Are you from around here?”
Humming noncommittally, Chloe stands, abruptly, to her full height and walks around Nadine to the shore. She is naked, and Nadine has to swallow a lump in her throat.
Nadine has seen a lot of women, and she can say with certainty that Chloe is one of the most beautiful she has seen. She tries not to stare and succeeds, given that she has excellent self-control. Though she will admit, Chloe certainly tested her in that moment.
“Where are you from?” Chloe asks as she picks up a shirt strewn across a rock and slips into it. Now, Nadine notices the pair of pants and shoes hidden behind the rock.
Nadine smiles, wryly, aware that she is giving more information than she is receiving. “Africa.”
Chloe doesn’t seem to take offence at her brusqueness. Just laughs. “Ah.” Then, because Chloe is so brave and so young, barely thirty by the looks of it, she stoops and holds up her pants, and asks, “Should I bother with these or are we going to address… what should I call it? The tension?”
Oh, how they address it.
After, as Chloe disappears into the trees on the other side of the river, Nadine realizes that she is entirely, profoundly, surprised.
//
Nadine has met many bold women; she can be one herself when she wants to be. Chloe, she never really forgets, but she is filed away into a tiny corner of her mind, fading away until Nadine never really thinks about it unless she is alone at a river and has run out of things to think about.
Besides, World War II has started, and she’s occupied with killing those Nazi bastards. She doesn’t enlist in any army—can’t exactly fly under the radar there—but she has connections and resources, and works perfectly well alone.
In the face of all this, Chloe is not forgotten, but she is not remembered.
And Nadine’s life goes on, and on, and on, as it is wont to do.
//
Nadine doesn’t know why she never dies. It just happened or, more precisely, it just never happened.
Her parents did. She never really knew her father, as her mother raised her, but she does know he died. Her mother, she held as she passed. 
Years later, people began to talk. Nadine turned thirty, and that was it.
She doesn’t know if she can die at all, but she isn’t interested in testing her theories. She has avoided fatal wounds for so long; she won’t stop now.
Sure, she has suffered and has felt like she might die, but she doesn’t think she wants to die. There are so many things she wants to know.
So, she decided, a century into her life, that she would not question it. She isn’t at all old enough to have been there for the Trojan War, but she does know not to look a gift horse in the mouth.
//
It is the 2000s and Nadine begins to feel a little existential. She will not fight in wars now, given the stakes and, especially, given her moral compass. Well, at least not official ones. She has accepted that she is a little bit of a vigilante, and she’s focusing on bettering her own home.
Always levelheaded, she never bites off more than she can chew. She only takes to the streets every few weeks. In the meantime, she decides to get into academia.
If she’s so keen on learning, why wouldn’t she go to school? Human achievement is impressive!
She has one PhD already and is working on her second. She has just started, meeting her advisor for only the third time, when she sees a flash of red in the hall, heading towards the History department.
It’s a woman with jet black hair, ponytail swinging. Before Nadine can think to squint, she’s rounded the corner and is gone.
Blinking, Nadine turns away and heads to the courtyard. She likes to sit on the grass and do her research there. Small pleasures.
It’s been an hour, maybe two, when a shadow casts over. Strangely, she feels her heart start to beat faster before she even looks up.
“Hello,” she says, throwing an arm over her forehead to shade herself from the afternoon sun.
Chloe in the flesh. She puts on the same old smirk and looks down at Nadine with her hands on her hips. “Hey, you.”
Nadine raises an eyebrow as she sits down and makes herself at home on Nadine’s picnic blanket, among her sea of books.
“Well, look at you.” Chloe keeps on grinning, shark-like. “You haven’t aged a day.”
“You’re too kind,” Nadine says, thinly. “And neither have you, by the looks of it.”
Dismissively, Chloe waves a hand and tosses her ponytail over her shoulder. “No need to flatter me, you’ve already gotten into my pants.”
“I haven’t forgotten.” Much, at least, she thinks. Then, wonders if, perhaps, she is dreaming.
“That’s nice.” Chloe leans closer, growing serious but retaining her persistent underlying curiosity. “Oh, Nadine, what are you?”
Nadine snorts. “Always so bold.”
She shrugs. “Places to be, things to know, people to do. I’m a busy girl.”
Like a shark, Nadine thinks again. She keeps her mouth shut for a few moments, just watching Chloe watching her. As Nadine recalls her memories of Chloe, she notes that Chloe mostly hasn’t changed. Finally, she leans back on an arm and says, “Looks to me like you have all the time in the world.”
“Hm.” Chloe lifts a hand, maybe to touch her arm, maybe to push her hair out of her face, maybe to cup her cheek. Nadine will never know. She tenses, instinctively swaying back a little. Chloe’s hand drops down, but she keeps on smiling. “You’re immortal, then. All the time in the world.”
Nadine doesn’t say anything, just waits for Chloe to draw her conclusions.
“How long have you… been like this?”
Nadine pretends to think. “About a century or five now. You?”
“Well, I was thirty-four when I met you,” Chloe wonders aloud, tilting her head as she does the math. At this, Nadine frowns and, upon seeing this, Chloe huffs a laugh. “Yes, actually thirty-four.”
That makes her roughly two centuries old. Nadine doesn’t know how to feel about this, about everything, about Chloe. She had been, to her knowledge, alone in this for three centuries. Never once had she met someone else like this, and she didn’t want to, she doesn’t think. She had always been slow to trust.
She never tried to think about this too hard; she doesn’t know how it works—is she contagious? But none of the other women turned immortal after going to bed with her. Still, she worries at her lip and examines Chloe.
“How?”
“How am I like this?”
She nods.
Chloe raises an eyebrow. “Quid pro quo.”
Nadine rolls her eyes. “I don’t know. I just never died.” She sighs, harshly, and closes the book in her lap with a full clap. “I don’t know.”
“That’s alright,” Chloe says, gently. This time, when she reaches out, to touch her wrist, Nadine lets her. Chloe looks down at the point of contact, seemingly charmed. Then, after a beat, meets Nadine’s eyes again and smiles. “Well, I don’t know how exactly it worked, but this was an accident.”
“…what?” Nadine scoffs. “How do you ‘accidentally’ achieve immortality?”
Chloe looks sheepish now. “I went into an ancient temple and mucked around, and maybe I broke something, and… well, here I am.”
Suddenly, struck by the urge to lie down for a decade or at least go somewhere more private for this discussion, Nadine shoves her books into her bag and stands. Chloe, startled, mirrors her movements and then stills as Nadine rolls up the blanket and easily hefts everything up.
“Uh, what’s going on?”
Nadine picks up her baseball cap and puts it on, and then sweeps an arm towards the paved path. “We’re going to my apartment.”
A little dumbly, Chloe follows along. “Who’s bold now?”
Nadine gives her a look, and Chloe just smiles, looking away with a shrug. They make the journey in silence, Nadine’s is a stubborn one, and Chloe’s obliging. When they reach the apartment, Nadine lets her in first and gestures to the couch. It’s not a very big apartment, but it’s comfortable and in an alright neighbourhood. 
After Nadine puts her bag away, she comes back to see Chloe leaning over the back of the couch to look out her window. She twists back around as Nadine sits.
“You alright?”
Nadine looks up at her, eyes hooded. “Ja.”
Chloe smiles, a kind one. She has such an expressive face. Nadine wants to run her hands over the dips and curves of it. Wants to feel a little more grounded in reality—is she really not dreaming?
The urge to just ask disappears in a moment as Nadine comes back to herself, feeling safer on her own turf.
“So, this is where you’re from.” It’s not a question, but Nadine nods anyway.
“Originally. I don’t remember exactly where but I grew up farther inland and then moved to the coast later before my mother passed.” Nadine rubs a hand at her temple. Tired. “They both died. I’m the only— I was the only one. For the longest time, I was the only one.”
Chloe shifts, an unidentifiable emotion drifting across her face. “Nadine.”
She sighs and says, “I don’t want your pity.”
“You don’t have it,” she says, not ungently. “It’s been a long time.”
For once, Nadine allows herself to give in. She leans over until she falls, turning her face to press her nose into the hard muscle of Chloe’s tensed thigh, just above the knee. She hugs her arms to her chest and counts her breaths. Chloe sighs, too, and puts her hand in Nadine’s hair.
Nadine’s back is to Chloe.
It’s been a long time.
//
So, this is how it happened.
She was abandoned by her mother and raised by a father who wanted a son. He loved her, regardless. He just taught her the ways of his trade.
Her childhood was spent scaling the shelves of libraries as he did his research and sitting uncomfortably still as he spoke to “experts” in their homes. When she was old enough, by his standards, he took her out to ancient ruins, and they explored.
It could be dangerous; she broke a few bones on these adventures. Most never healed properly, and so bumps and scars littered her body.
The worst, the one that almost killed her, occurred in the temple.
Her father passed a few years before, to disease. She carried on his work, suddenly alone. His life’s work: a crumbling ruin.
She had spent days scouting it out, hidden behind a waterfall, like in the legends. She was nervous. Afraid that her father’s work would amount to nothing, that the life she had led without him would’ve turned out to be a waste.
So, she spent days by the falls and walking along the river. It was there that she met Nadine.
She had thought Nadine was a figment of her imagination at first, peeking out from the top of the water. A beautiful, sweaty spirit of the wilds, dressed like an average person.
A blessing she received.
That night, she went in. There were traps, which she expected, and treasures, which she had desperately hoped for. In the centre, buried underneath layers of chambers, was the Tusk.
She got greedy.
Traps triggered—
The Tusk, she held to her chest—
She curled over, protecting it from falling rubble and—
The tip, sharp and shiny, punctured her middle. It was shallow, but still, she cried out and tripped, and the spear she landed on went too far in to be considered shallow.
She doesn’t remember the details; all she knows is that she came back to herself while crawling out the collapsing entrance, sticky with blood.
She hid the Tusk away, for later, and stumbled her way to the nearest town, broken spear sticking out from her ribs.
Half a year later, freshly healed and free from the doctor, she went back. The Tusk was still bloodied, and a gem from the tip of the Tusk had fallen out somewhere. At least, it made up for all her suffering in gold.
In the face of all that, Nadine was not forgotten, but she was not remembered.
//
Feeling awkward and uncomfortable, having been vulnerable for the first time in almost half a millennia, Nadine sits up and grimaces. Chloe opens her bleary eyes and stretches.
“What time’s it?”
Nadine could look at her watch, but she grabs hold of Chloe’s forearm. “Does it matter?”
Chloe looks down and frowns. “I suppose not. What’s happening?”
“Do you want to address the tension?”
Chloe’s muscles relax slowly. She kicks her sneakers off and, in one swift movement, shrugs Nadine’s hand off and settles into her lap. Her mouth descends onto Nadine’s.
This time is almost like the last, fast and sloppy. Except they do it three more times, at least, and afterwards Chloe settles in beside her and stays till morning.
//
Nadine also has many scars, and Chloe maps them all out just as Nadine does to her.
//
“So, am I the older woman or are you the older woman?”
Nadine bites into her skin, licking a soothing stripe along the scar tissue there.
Chloe groans and looks down. “Does that mean I should shut up?”
Nadine gives her an unimpressed look. “Yes.”
“Okay,” she breathes, hand flying to the back of Nadine’s head. “Whatever you say.”
//
South Africa is best experienced in the weeks after Summer has passed, in Chloe’s very vocal opinion, and maybe that’s why the days she spends holed up in Nadine’s apartment feels a little like paradise.
She is not the sentimental type, and Chloe even less so, but there is something to be said for attachments. She had forgotten.
Chloe even admits that she was only here because she saw Nadine’s picture and wanted to use Nadine for information on why she‘s the way she is. Nadine doesn’t take it too personally, because she would’ve done the same, probably.
It ends, of course, as all things do. Not permanently, but Chloe isn’t the type to stay still, and Nadine’s set her sights on finishing this damn degree.
They agree, in five years, they will return to the tree, the patch of grass, and try again.
//
Nadine feels like she has aged the five centuries she had powered through almost numbly in the span of those five years.
They kept in contact because neither of them is the type to make significant, corny gestures like that. Over text, Chloe echoes the sentiment.
For Nadine, it is as if Chloe had barged in, reminded Nadine that she was in control of the remote and that hitting the fast forward button on life wasn’t the only option.
//
“Why do you chase after violence?” came her voice, tinny over the phone. She was in Russia.
“Do I?”
Chloe hums. “All your wars, your crusades. You insist you don’t want to die and yet…”
Nadine raises her eyebrows and finishes typing out her sentence before pushing back on her desk chair. Her first instinct is to be defensive, but Chloe starts to hum tunelessly, and it reminds Nadine that not everything is a fight to be won and— “Ah.”
“Do you wanna talk about something else?” Chloe laughs, then, and jokes, “My abandonment issues? Inability to sit still? Maybe how I’m greedy and selfish?”
Nadine smiles softly. “It’s okay.” She clears her throat. “I think I just got scared of losing people and just, frankly, losing in general, with life and all. I took being independent to the next level. I forgot the value in doing things senselessly, and in a way that’s exactly what I did.”
“How do you mean?”
Nadine shrugs even though Chloe can’t see. “I don’t know why I’m immortal, and I didn’t want to know. What makes me deserving of eternal life and not anyone else? So, I thought only of what I would do with this and doing those things. I’m good at fighting. Why wouldn’t I fight? And I can’t die—there are causes I could give myself to.
“I mean, there were moments, in between, where my thought would wander, of course.” Nadine pauses, feeling nonsensical. “I don’t know. I don’t know how to explain it.”
“That’s alright. I get it.”
“I know. Thank you.”
“Anytime, love.” Another breathy chuckle. “Literally, anytime. From now until the rest of eternity.”
//
“Hello,” Nadine says when she feels a shadow loom over her.
There’s a rustling, and then a kiss to her cheek. “Hey there, sleeping beauty.”
It’s been five years.
Nadine opens an eye and sees Chloe peering down with her stupidly beautiful smile. Her fingers graze at Nadine’s cheek, featherlight, and Nadine’s touches over them. Warm.
“So weird how you haven’t aged a day.”
“Ja, I didn’t get a chance to develop stress wrinkles since you left.”
Head thrown back, wind blowing her hair aside, Chloe laughs. Nadine thinks there hasn’t ever been a surprise as nice as Chloe since the dawn of time.
Stooping over, Chloe kisses her.
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thedyingmoon · 5 years
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💙 Chat Buddies ( ?! ) 💙
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Day 6
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~ Two days later ~
Nero: Kyrie
Kyrie: Nero? How did the mission go?
N: Its ok. Were on our way home.
K: Wait, is something bothering you?
N: Actually
N: Its abt Vergil
K: Nero!
N: I mean Dad!
N: Yeah its abt him
K: Did you two get into a fight?
N: No
N: Not that
N: I mean...
N: Yesterday before I left for the mission
N: I saw him talking on the phone w/ someone
K: Yes, and?
N: And hes
N: Ahhh......
K: Nero?
K: Are you okay? What's wrong?
N: Whats he doing now?
K: Wait for a moment, I'll check.
~ A few moments later ~
K: He's in the garden
N: Ok?
K: That's it.
N: Thats it?
K: Nero what are you trying to say?
N: Kyrie I know he spends a lot of time in the garden
N: What I mean is
N: Is he doing something else other than chilling there alone?
N: Kyrie?
N: Answer me pls
K: He's talking to someone on the phone.
N: Again?!
K: Nero it's only completely normal that he talks to someone on the phone every once in a while.
N: And if its the same person hes talking w/?
~ A few seconds later ~
N: Kyrie? Do u know something?
N: Kyrie
N: Pls I know u do
K: I do.
K: But, please. This is a secret. Don't you ever tell this to anyone!
N: Yes
K: Promise me!
N: Ok ok! I promise!
K: It's (Y/N). He's in love with (Y/N).
N: asdfghjkl
N: I KNEW IT! HES SMILING AND BLUSHING LIKE A TEENAGE IDIOT WHEN HES ON THE PHONE!!!!!!!!!!! ITS LIKE HIGH SCHOOL PUPPY LOVE ALL OVER AGAIN!!!!!!!!!! ITS FUCKING GROSS!!!!!!!!!!!
K: NERO! YOUR PROMISE!
N: OK OK I WONT TELL ANYONE! RELAX!
K: Okay...
N: Ill see u later
~ Later that day ~
Nico: Yo yo Lady!
Lady: What is it? I'm busy rn!
N: It's Vergil!
L: What about him?
N: He's in love! I N L O V E !!!!!!!!!
N: ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
L: WHAT?! W/ WHO?!
N: (Y/N)!!!!!
L: WHAT?! Okay, hol up a min
~ A few moments later ~
L: Ok, pls explain.
N: So, I found out from Nero that Vergil's been talkin to (Y/N) on the phone and smilin like a maniac
L: You found out?
N: Yeah
L: From Nero?
N: OKAY! OKAY!
N: I snatched psycho's phone and read Kyrie's message
L: Nico that's rude!
N: Well, too late! The secret's out!
L: What's Vergil doing again?
N: Smilin like a maniac!
L: OH SHIT! DON'T TELL ME! HE'S!!!!!!!!!!
N: I KNOW!!!!!!!!! AND NERO SAYS ITS GROSS!!!!!!!!!!
N: 👉👌
N: 💦💦💦💦💦💦💦💦💦💦💦💦💦💦💦💦
L: OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
L: I KNEW IT!!!!!!!! I KNEW THERE'S SOMETHING OFF ABOUT HIM WHEN (Y/N) LEFT DEVIL MAY CRY TO GO TO FRANCE!!!!!!!
N: TOTALLY!!!!!!!!!
N: - sends a gif -
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L: 😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏
L: Oh!!!!
L: Trish must know this!!!!!
L: brb
N: 👌
~ A few moments later ~
L: Hey, Trish.
Trish: If this is about the blouse then I'm afraid I can't let you have it now. I'm sorry.
L: Not the blouse!
L: Listen!
L: Vergil is doing u know what while thinking of (Y/N)
T: I'm sorry, what?
L: Oh come on! Don't act like u don't know!
L: 👉👌
L: 💦💦💦💦💦💦💦💦💦💦💦💦💦💦
T: Are you sure?
L: Totally! Nico told me Nero told her that Kyrie saw him! And she said it's gross!
T: OMG
L: I KNOW!!!!
T: Wait wait wait
T: Are you sure about this?
L: Totally 101.99% legit!
T: I'll just confirm it
T: Brb
L: K
~ A few seconds later ~
T: Dante.
Dante: Wait wait wait Trish! I haven't earned enough to pay. You can come again tomorrow.
D: Adios!!!
T: Listen to me, pizza head!
T: Is Vergil obsessed with (Y/N)?
D: Oh! That!
D: Of course he is!
T: How can you tell?
D: Well he's my brother, señorita. I can tell when he wants to shag someone.
T: Shag.
T: Really, Dante?
D: Yeah
D: Yknow sometimes he talks in his dreams, like,
D: (Y/N)! (Y/N)! That feels so good! Ah! Oh! Like that.
D: 😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏
T: ... okay?
D: Eh why are u asking anyway?
T: That exactly.
T: It seems Vergil is in need of good, ah, shagging.
T: Lady told me that Nico told her that Nero told her about Kyrie's message.
D: Whoa whoa whoa! Come again?
T: Your twin brother has been fantasizing about (Y/N) night and day.
D: Ah
D: I'm not even surprised
D: You mean Kyrie caught Verg in the act?
T: Seems like it.
T: And she said it's gross.
D: Oh mi lord of heavens above.
D: That poor man is needy as hell!
T: Ah, Dante?
D: I know! I have a brilliant idea!
T: What are you planning?
D: ;)
T: Dante?
T: Pizza head?
T: UGH!!!!
T: OKAY I'M TOTALLY NOT AMUSED BY BEING SEENZONED HERE!
T: DANTE!!!
~ A few seconds later ~
T: AAAAHHHH!!!!!!
T: I HATE YOU!!!!!
- TheBewitchingDevilMiss has left the conversation. -
~ What in the fiery armpits of hell did just happen to today's totally brainless conversation between adult idiots? Will Kyrie realize the gravity and consequence of letting Nero in on "the secret"? And, finally, what is pizza head Dante planning for Vergil Sparda and SSSexy(Y/N)? Find out,... on the next chapter! ~
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honeyfreckled · 5 years
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we have talked a few times and im sorry for this but you are the most accepting and easiest person to talk to honestly i dont have many people in my life i can tell anything real to. but the thing is ive been thinging about relapsing a lot more since i broke up with my boyfriend and i work with him so it makes work depressing and impossible to get through a day without crying sorry this is anon but i am scared ily dont hate me i am not trying to stress you out
ok wow first lemme just say: I DO NOT HATE U. EVER. 
and don’t be srry i don’t have a lotta ppl irl i can tell my shit to so i get it. pls know u can always ALWAYS ALWAYS come to me, and u dont gotta be scared to come off anon. i get it and it’s ok if u prefer it that way- but pls know i dont keep it on alot bc i get hate and then i turn it off bc i gotta look out for myself and dont post all the hate bc i dont wanna bring yall down or give them the satisfaction of knowing i have given it a read and response. so u can message me or make a sideblog or idk im just saying this so if it’s off later u dont blame yrself or feel scared to come off anon. ok sorelapse is a real thing and it’s fucked and hard and addiction is fucked up and a real life struggle and we dont treat addicts w the real tenderness, respect, kindness, and acceptance they deserve. but u DO deserve it. and there are hotlines, apps, churches, groups, chatrooms/boards, and sites that are more versed in what are the appropriate things to say to u- i say this bc while i’ve been thru it w loved ones i have not myself struggled w addiction w substances. my addictions were to self harm and victimhood so those are the things i searched for help on. but if it’s alright i’d like to give u some tips or things i used and have heard work for addicts of substances
places like i said like churches, groups, chatrooms, sites, apps, hotlines the apps and hotlines are good if u cant travel or want to talk to ppl who wont share their story bc maybe u cant hear it like its not the kinda help ur looking for. hotlines are sometimes tricky bc some of those folks are not educated they are volunteers so judgment leaks thru and in that case u ask to be redirected and report that volunteer so hopefully they dont repeat that kinda mess to other vulnerable folks looking for help
make a list of things, anything. list of foods u like to order, list of things that make u clench yr teeth, what were yr fave gifts you’ve ever got, style icons of urs, hobbies u tried that annoyed u, movies u can always watch, places on yr skin u hate being touched, any list of anything it doesnt have to be the usual thing of “what to live for” bc when yr depressed those kinds of things arent easy to think of. but if u get a list going of like “best things ive ever touched” “sounds that make me laugh” “trends that were stupid af” “popular things that i didnt like n couldnt figure out why they were popular” “weirdest ppl ive met” well those things might get u on a roll of good memories or laughing or seeing that theres more to yr life than what has been occupying yr thoughts
dancing. dance in yr room in the dark. clear some space. put on some headphones. lock yr door. do it in the shower. just dance. i had to start w closing my eyes and picking songs that i was taken by emotionally. songs that made me jump and slamdance tbh and then it’s just gotten more and more something im not as ashamed w. i spent a date night w james just dancing and then we ya know ya know bc the dancing got so wild. now i make playlists of songs that set moods for diff kinds of dancing
watch shows w ppl who arent doing better than u. they dont live in fancy places, they dont do much w their lives, they dont dress better than u, they struggle, they arent eating good food u dont have access to. iasip. freaks and geeks. letterkenny. undeclared. jake and amir. tpb. the state. youtube. tiktok/vine comps. lots of these kinds of vibes on youtube
podcasts. improv comedy podcasts tbh saved my life. comedy bang! bang! has best of’s those are good ones to start w. improv4humans bc matt besser has great guests of some of the best improvisers out there and he has musical guests and they’ll play a song and the improvisers will use it as inspo for a scene
make things. moodboards. pinterest. playlists. fill a shopping cart and tell yrself “i’ll get it when i win the lotto and move away from anyone who knows me so i can be the me i wanna be w/out judgement” make tea. make a meal if u can. make yr bed. clean one thing. clean the sink. hang some clothes or go thru yr drawers and clean them out. throwing things out feels hard at first but then it’s nice bc u feel less bogged down
find something to throw yr obsession at for a bit. something that wont hurt u as bad, being obsessed in general isnt good. everything in moderation irl. too much of something is bad just as much as too less of it can be bad. but yr looking for something lower risk here and if u gotta be obsessed w a celeb or a song or a food that’s ok. yr focusing the energy on something that isnt a substance so be proud of it
give yrself a break. give yrself some credit. everyday isnt gonna be on the “best of your name here’s days” but sometimes u just live to live bc that’s what u do. u wait it out and get thru it and wait for the sun to come back out. and if u cant get outta bed. or if you hate yr job and wanna scream- that’s normal it’s more normal than always being happy ppl just dont like talking abt bc society kinda trains us to hide our fucked upness idk why but thats how it is. they dont wanna tell us to do preventative care until we’re in the pits
all in all- it comes down to (at least for me) not planning w an endgoal in mind. it’s not over til it’s over and rlly we dont know. it’s all fluctuating and not meant to be a finish line we cross and then suddenly we’re done and we dont suffer anymore and the feeling of shit is gone or the risk of relapse is gone and the depression is cleared away never to be seen again. it’s not realistic. bc it isnt real. on the real- risk is always there and the downs and ups mix and run together and depression is not curable (this isnt something to be miserable over tho) depression isnt curable, yeah ok, but it is manageable. it can be quieted down from time to time and if u keep up w yr healthy routines and coping mechanisms- depression will still find its way to u bc the real world is not something u can manage. death in the family, loss of money or job, car breaking down, sickness outta nowhere, depression grows wild when these very real life stressors come into our lives. but all that too eventually gets easier and easier at least from a “ok i have some distance now” standpoint. and then as those days get more and more btwn it u can then be like “oh wow, ive made it thru X amount of days! ive put up w it this long! whats one more day, whats one more week, hell might as well see how much prouder i can feel once ive got a year under my belt!” plus u will be more capable of handling the bullshit if u know u can still find some safe places in yr coping skills or friends or resources.
ok so this is prob a mess but bottomline know this:
I love  you and i will be here the best i can should u ever wanna come spill or if u need me to just send u pics of my dog or boring pics of knickknacks or selfies or memes or links or anything just tell me what u need and i will try my best to show u my love. i hope u can see that u reaching out is just already a HUGE major step in the right direction, give yrself credit! thats amazing! yr already doing it pumpkin look at u! it’s hard ik. but i also know if u are capable of saying u have this problem going on, u are capable of getting thru this. u are a light in the world. u offer goodness and u offer yrself and that’s enough. even if yr fucked up right now- u are contributing to the world by simply being u. there is literally NO ONE ELSE WHO IS YOU. so u are unique by definition. i hope u get something from this post and if not i hope it strikes an idea or thing u can do that will help. i hope u know im here and i hope u see this.
i am sending u all my light and love and good vibes and i can’t wait to see or hear from u again. u are never bothering me, a burden, or stressing me out. tbh it stresses me more that u might be struggling and not telling me or anyone. i dont ever want u to suffer in silence bc u feel guilt or scared or anything. u deserve to have a place to voice yr shit. im here to listen if u do wanna tell me anymore.
everyone else-if this helped or if u can think of anything that might help anon or anyone else- feel free to reblog and get some good NONJUDGMENTAL advice or tips and tricks going, but please please please remember to not come off as judgey or flood it with your drama. keep ur drama out of this post so anon or anyone else doesn’t get triggered by it. 
and dont ignore my rule and do it anyway and then say some shit like “ik u said not to but i think this will help lol sorry” like we need this post to stay on this vibe that i set in motion and not a struggle contest or dick measuring or all sad personal reminiscing. go make yr own post for that this is NOT the space.
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itsashithead · 5 years
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Tues. May 21 2019
No one wants to be friends with someone who's always depressed and trapped in their own fragile mind in what seems like no big deal. Everyone goes through shit in life. Whats my difference. Why am i like this? FUCK THIS. Somethings always wrong with me and thats my problem. If you want a nice cool casual happy friend, get the fuck awag from me. Because um so FUCKING EXHAUSTED. IM SICK OF MYSELF. AND YOU ARE TOO. GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME. Go play and hang out with your funny cheery friends. Leave me alone. I tried. I fucking tried. Over and over to just fake the happiness for everyone. Posting a happy status right after slicing my skin is fucked up and no one asked for it. But i feel like im bothering people when i post honest shit abt how i feel. Im sure. Every single one of you. Seeing my statuses or when i tell you how i feel. You sigh, you roll your eyes, you dismiss it youre fucking tired of it. Everyones grown up. You got problems; you deal with them. Like everyone else. SO when i stop myself from posting sad depressing shit that no one wants to see, i post happy shit. I force myself to post happy shit. And it never works! The lie burns. But no one asked for statuses right? No one is telling me that i should post, right? No one is telling me to open up to you, right? FUCK THAT. Whether i post happy shit, depressing shit or NO shit, my mind just twist it, makes me think that whatever i post, whatever i say when im talking to you, is all for attention. Oh i be honest? Im an attention seeker. I post happy shit? Im am attention seeker because its obviously fake. I post nothing? Oh well i must be waiting for someone to pick up on that sign and send me a text. WHY. ive labelled myself an attention seeker and its destroyed me. Yes, Lydia, saying hi to your friend makes you an attention whore. Yes, Lydia, posting about BTS makes you an attention whore. YES, LYDIA, POSTING NOTHING MAKES YOU AN INDIRECT ATTENTION WHORE. YES, LYDIA, TALKING ABOUT YOUR HONEST FEELINGS IS BEING AN ATTENTION WHORE. YES, LYDIA, TELLING EVERYONE IM FINE IS BEING AN ATTENTION WHORE ESP WHEN THEY SEE RIGHT THROUGH THE LIES. YES, LYDIA, LEAVING SOMEONE ON READ BECAUSE YOU YOURSELF DONT WANNA BE ON READ IS BEING AN ATTENTION WHORE. YES, LYDIA, SENDING SOMEONE A QUESTION JUST TO FEEL LIKE YOURE NOT COMPLETELY WORTHLESS IS BEING AN ATTENTION WHORE. When...
When i talk to someone, i feel like im an attention seeker and theyre laughing at me for it. When i disappear for a bit, i feel bad because i clearly just want attention, and im not there for my friends even though they dont like me anymore. Theyre always there for me but im never there for them. I tell someone im sad? Im an attention seeker U-FUCKING-WU. Im not eating for days? Boohoo. Im eating everything in sight to forget my feelings with an alarming amt of pepper so i can punish myself with the burn? How pathetic. Im cutting all over, arms and thighs, and my clothes soaking the blood? Grow up, Lydia Ashley Mohammed.
Its all so fucking exhausting and i cant. I can't what, exactly? I dont know. I dont wanna go away either. I JUST EVERYTHING TO STOP. LETS REWIND. I cant take it anymore. How do i go back? How do i undo everything? Who do i have to beg?
I give up. On what? I dont know.
I.. just need to sleep. Actual sleep. Not im-taking-pills-to-knock-out-cold-to-get-away-from-the-voices-in-my-mind sleep. I dont know when exactly I'd wanna wake back up but OH GOD. Ive turned from Lydia to Ashley to Azli to Ash to Jordan to Avanish (im truly trans tho), and everything is still crushing me, no matter the identity i make up.
Just got news that her last exams are on the 7th, which is most likely Eid.... well WHOOPS sounds like i wont see her before i go.... fuck, CSEC. Anyway, its about her future, i shouldnt be so selfish.
So fuck it. Deal with it. Or not. Im always fucked up. Im always self destructive. Im always gonna be depressed and am attention whore. Im done.
I already feel dead just trying. Trying to.. live.
So leave me now and have a burden off your chest, if you even cared abt me in the first place, or stay and watch me kill myself instead.
-Lydia Ashley Mohammed
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wannasoftimagine · 7 years
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imagine park woojin as your classmate
project partners to dating partners :’)
(( AS REQUESTED // omg since ure a woojin stan can i get a request where y/n and woojin study in the same course after his wanna one activities (before he debuts in brand new music) and got closer after a project andddd you can write whatever after that LMAO :^) THANK YOU ))
okay so ure a fan of wanna one
who isnt tbh
and lucky u bc it turns out tht ure going to college w the one and only park woojin!!!!!!! (srsly tho what r the chances)
u forgot tht woojins age is kinda similar to urs bc he always acts like a tough guy on stage or a little kid off stage and u forget that hes a student like u
anyways
its a little weird to get used to seeing him in person after all the pictures n videos uve seen of him online
like?? hes a Real Person??? what a wild idea
and even tho ure both in the same college course, u try to keep ur distance
as much as ud like to befriend him, hes still an idol (even tho he hasnt debuted w brand new yet) and its rlly hard for u to start up a conversation w someone famous
also ure lowkey worried tht its going to ruin how much u admire him, and that actually talking to him will destroy how highly u view him
little do u kno hes seen u around campus before n thinks ure pretty cute
;))
okay but anyways
u make sure to stay out of his way bc the last thing u want is to bother him by asking for a signature or picture or smthn
u try and keep a minimum of like 10 yds between u at all times
(bc itd be even more embarrassing if u tripped right in front of him and that was the first thing he noticed abt u)
but lucky for u, life doesnt care what u have planned
bc its only a month into the semester and u already have a huge project assigned
of course, it’s a partner project
it might be okay if u were able to choose ur partners, but ur teacher insisted on trying to help everyone “bond w their classmates” so its all completely random
unfortunately for u, u get sick the day that ur teacher assigns partners
so u have no idea who ure paired up with
ure stuck asking some of ur classmates, but none of them rlly remember
everyone was a bit busy stressing out over their own partners tbh
and u keep asking around a bit, but u only know so many ppl in the class so eventually u kinda give up and hope ur partner isnt too bad
u settle on focusing on ur other classes, studying for future exams and reviewing ur notes in the library
even tho ure not sick anymore, u still feel a bit drowsy from all of the different medications u took and all of the work u were trying to catch up on
so. all excuses aside u fall asleep
prob not the best plan esp since some of ur things are balancing on the edge of ur desk
but the heart wants what the heart wants, and it rlly wants to sleep
ure having a rlly weird dream abt pirate monkeys when ure jolted awake by someone bumping into ur side
u look up to see someone sprinting away from u and like okay. thts a little weird
u try not to think abt it too much bc ure still kinda sleepy
so u settle on gathering ur things so u can head back to ur dorm and decide whether or not u want to study, sleep more, or find something to eat
as u collect everything, u notice a little post it note that hadnt been there before
in messy handwriting, it says “i didnt want to wake u but im ur partner for the partner project. im woojin and u can text me at [xxx-xxx-xxxx] whenever u want to meet up i hope u sleep well”
u realize that ur partner is prob the one u saw sprinting away from u earlier after he accidentally bumped into u lol
somehow u momentarily forget that ur partner is THE park woojin and ure like aw cool this woojin guy seems nice
then ure like WAIT A SECOND
ure highkey in shock and keep pinching urself to make sure its real
so u end up taking the rest of ur stuff back to ur room and wondering how u should text him
eventually u decide on a simple greeting and ur name, and u ask him when hes free
u have to send the text and then throw ur phone onto the floor bc U JUST TEXTED PARK WOOJIN ABT MEETING IN PERSON. GOD BLESS
ure suddenly super grateful abt every decision tht led u to this moment
anyways
ur phone buzzes on the floor so u scramble to pick it up
only to realize tht its a text from ur mom asking how ure doing
u text her back and tell her not to worry, then attempt to clean ur room a little instead of waiting for woojin to text u back
u just finish reorganizing ur closet when he texts u
its a quick text, smthn along the lines of “im free tmrw afternoon, do u want to meet by the cafeteria” so u agree quickly and hope u dont seem too desperate
and u KNOW its not a date
u guys havent even spoken to each other before so???
but ure still rlly nervous bc its WOOJIN and u want to impress him, even if ure just going to spend most of ur time talking abt boring coursework
u both settle on a time to meet and u pretend not to freak out
anyways skip to the next afternoon
u get there a bit early but ?? hes there already ??? ldsjks
and he looks Really Cute like hes wearing a sweater and ripped jeans and looking like complete boyfriend material wow ure p sure u can feel ur heart stop in ur chest
hes a bit awkward but uve heard abt how shy he is so u try not to take it personally
as soon as he sees u he blurts out tht u look nice and that is not helping the way tht this feels like a date
u guys end up moving to a bench in the shade bc its rlly nice out and this way ure able to talk freely without worrying abt being too loud
he explains the project a little, and u guys go back and forth offering up ideas
he always nods super enthusiastically whenever u suggest smthn and its honestly the cutest thing uve ever seen
its so weird for u to remember that this is the same guy uve seen videos of online bc what the heck
anyways
neither of u are extreme geniuses in the class, but ure both still pretty smart
ure pleased to find tht u guys complement each other well, w different areas of interest inside the same field
it helps ur project run a lot smoother than u thought it would, so u guys split up the work and agree to do as much as u can before u meet up again
ur conversations are still a bit stilted bc ure both still shy w each other, but overall u seem to get along well so ure happy
u text each other every once in awhile to talk abt the project or ask questions
u meet up a few more times in the next couple weeks but its all work and no business
still, over time u find urselves joking around with each other a little more, teasing each other and talking abt urselves instead of the project
of course, all things must come to an end
so all too soon, the day u submit the final project arrives
and ure a little worried tht woojin is going to disappear from ur life again
bc maybe he’s only been this nice to u bc hes just a sweet guy, but as soon as the project ends he wont care abt talking to u anymore
after all, its not like u guys meet up for meals or to hang out that often - even when ure just relaxing w each other, theres always some part of ur convo tht centers around the class
so as ure freaking out over this
he texts u asking if u want to come over to his dorm while he submits it
and mb u guys can just hang out afterwards?
obviously u agree and u cant stop smiling
when u show up at his dorm, hes wearing sweatpants and a tshirt and he looks adorable as heck when he invites u in
u guys sit on his bed as he loads all the stuff on his laptop and u try not to be hyperaware of the space between u two
woojins also screaming internally but somehow u dont notice the way he keeps staring at u out of the corner of his eye
u click the “submit” button together and HIS HANDS ARE SO GENTLE also theyre shaking a little???? huh
u assume its just bc hes Extra Nervous for the project but honestly? no hes just never been this close to u and hes freaking out
but anyways
u decide to go out to eat off campus afterwards to celebrate being done
a lot of the places have long waits or are too expensive so u just eat at a chikfila
its rlly casual but its fun and u guys argue abt whether chicken nuggets or chicken sandwiches r better and u cant help but think abt how much fun ure having w hiim
u end up blurting it out to him on accident and ure v v embarrassed
but he laughs and admits tht he rlly likes spending time w u too
so u promise each other to keep hanging out afterwards
it gets to the point where weeks later, ure still texting each other to complain abt classes or ask abt the other persons day
it still feels like a dream tbh
but u guys enjoy each others company whenever u can
most of the time u end up meeting each other at the cafeteria or studying together in the library, but u both just rlly like spending time w the other person
this routine continues for awhile and its prob the best part of ur life
but at one point ure trying to sneak up on woojin and surprise him when u see him talking to himself
as u creep forward, u realize tht hes actually on the phone, and he looks kinda stressed
it feels a bit invasive so ure looking around trying to find a place to go while he finishes up his phone call
but then u hear him say ur name so. consider u INTERESTED
and he keeps getting flustered and shutting down anything tht the other person says which is weird bc hes p shy, but hes never usually tht adamant and blushy abt something
eventually he tucks his phone away and lets out a Huge sigh so ure like,, hey u good
and he laughs it off but u can tell hes a little antsy, so u decide to tell him tht u overheard a little bit of him on the phone, and u ask him what it was about
he literally turns into a tomato its so funny u wish u had recorded it
but hes like “HOW MUCH DID U HEAR”
even tho u tell him u didnt hear much, he refuses to believe u and he spends the next few minutes pouting
u keep trying to get him to talk to u normally, but he refuses
finally he ends up grumbling smthn and ure like ???
and after a few half hearted efforts to repeat himself hes like “just tell me u dont like me back”
and. WHAT.
he pouts again and its so sos sosososoos o so cute u think ure going to combust honestly
“i kno u heard me tell him tht i like u!!!! just tell me u dont feel the same and leave me alone to cry”
and u have to reassure him tht u definitely didnt hear that BUT ALSO what???
n hes literally mortified when he realizes ure serious
but he has this rlly cute determined expression like “ok well now u kno i like u!!!!! y/n, please go out w me???”
n its like OF COURSE and u tell him tht u like him too and he keeps smiling and acting shy
honestly u both just make each other super happy
when u start dating, its not too diff from when u were friends, except now ure more affectionate w each other
both physically and with ur words
he loves hyping u up, and u feel the same
esp when he starts practicing more to debut w the rest of the bnm boys
u support the heck out of each other and can always count on the other person to be there for u when u need it the most
honestly its super soft and ure totally proud to be a lowkey campus couple even tho u have to keep ur relationship on the down low bc of dispatch
still u both care for each other a lot and u wouldnt trade what u have for the world
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likeawildthing · 7 years
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one week since u looked at me
James and LIly fight and it’s 100% the other person’s fault, and everyone is just a little bit unhinged. 
3371 Words
For @expressopatronum​, who requested a jily fic based on the Barenaked Ladies song. :D
tues.
James Potter to M8S B4 D8S: well. Fuck.
James Potter: im broken up
James Potter: literally
James Potter: and metaphorically
James Potter: and every other kind of shitty ally tbh
James Potter: hello?????
James Potter: im in Crisis here
Peter Pettigrew: we know, mate. You ok?
James Potter: how??
Peter Pettigrew: well…
James Potter: she texted u???
Remus Lupin: she texted me
Peter Pettigrew: then he told us
Remus Lupin: wtf, Prongs
James Potter: u believe her???
Remus Lupin: didn’t say that, mate. Just a weird situation, yeah??
James Potter: Weird = shitty, then yea. her fault tho for being so dramatic!! And do u arseholes have a group chat w/out me???
Sirius Black: nah. y would we do smth like that to u prongs. go chill @ mine. AND i for one am being a good mate and withholding judgment. (except on evans cos shes clearly at fault here)
James Potter: damn straight she is. 100%!!! and im already @ urs, actually. where r u tho?
Sirius Black: alcohol
James Potter: Good Man
Remus Lupin: I’m getting pizza
James Potter: don’t bother?? never eating again
James Potter: PS no more talking to evans unless its for espionage
Peter Pettigrew: this should be fun
 - - -
 James Potter to Not Lovely Lily: ready for ur apology, like, whenever, babe
James Potter: no?
James Potter: sirius’s sofa is super fucking cosy, btw
James Potter: PS whatever the current differences between us, pls dont stoop so low as to eat Mums biscuits
wed.
 Lily Evans to StupidHair BigMouth: the biscuits were fucking delicious.
James Potter: WOW
- - -
Sirius Black to squatter potter: BABE. u know i theoretically want to be sympathetic to ur emo angst. or whatever. but y the FUCK r u watching x-files at half volume at 3:37 fucking am
James Potter: go back to sleep??
Sirius Black: fucking difficult w the light coming in under my door
Sirius Black: AND u mess up my recs w that shit
James Potter: ill tell pete u think x-files is shit
James Potter: PS dana Scully is /not shit
Sirius Black: the redhead???
Sirius Black: fuckall, prongs, if ur watching the show bc she has red hair
James Potter: im NOT. watching bc it’s a Good show.
Sirius Black: is not
James Potter: it holds up!!
Sirius Black: fine. im not arguing w u bc u cant take the blow of being wrong. i get it. but if u wank to sculley on my sofa, potter, ill end you.
James Potter: u wldnt
Sirius Black: imported velvet. vintage. custom ticking. turned legs. u know how i feel abt that lounge, Babe.
James Potter: /i wldnt
Sirius Black: …
James Potter: k. ill stop
Sirius Black: damn straight. uve been broken up for a day??
James Potter: 31.25 hrs. n we ARENT broken up
Sirius Potter: whatever. make up with evans or im kicking you out
James Potter: what happened to being a good mate????
Sirius Black: making up w evans is whats good for u
James Potter: u know its not that simple.
Sirius Black: if ur waiting for me to ask u WHY its not simple….dont. shldve done that when lupin was here.
James Potter: i /did. i still need to process tho.
Sirius Black: process alone, w the volume below 12 & ur prick IN your pants!
Sirius Black: and reset xfiles to s6e4
- - -
James Potter to #1 MUM <333: mum…you up?
Euphemia Potter: no
James Potter: …wow
James Potter: Good to know whose side ur on???
Euphemia Potter: I’m staying neutral.
James Potter: can you at least make me more biscuits?
Euphemia Potter: no. I gave her permission to eat them. James Potter: p sure that’s taking sides!!!
James Potter: are u talking to her right now???
Euphemia Potter: Her mother has passed, dear. She relies on me for situations like this.
James Potter: WOW
Euphemia Potter: weren’t you just here asking for your grandmother’s engagement ring last week?
James Potter: yes!!
Euphemia Potter: Perhaps you should come over for breakfast tomorrow.
James Potter: no
James Potter: …ill think about it
- - -
Sirius Black to squatter potter: DID I JUST HEAR U FUCKING GROAN
thurs.
James Potter to Babe: listen…sorry abt the sofa thing
James Potter: maybe outta line a bit. I wont watch xfiles tonight tho
James Potter: i can come over tonight, right???
Sirius Black: imported vintage italian velvet lounges b4 m8s
- - -
James Potter to sailor moony: and fuck, like. she deadass looked at me and said ‘im angry’ what does that even mean??? How can she be angry at an accident??
Remus Lupin: Prongs. uve told me this 12 times 
James Potter: seven. my soul splits every time I tell it, so id know
James Potter: fuck
James Potter: LUPIN
James Potter: if u dont answer ill stop supplying ur Weetabix Habit
Remus Lupin: You wouldn’t. You know why??? its 3 in the morning. I didn’t sleep bc two nights ago u were making us listed to the Lily Playlist. Last night Padfoot wldnt stop texting me abt u watching x-files (???) and tonight…I NEED SLEEP 
James Potter: ur right. im not heartless.
James Potter: unlike evans
James Potter: i /am desperate tho
James Potter: if u answer, i wont come over and bug u in person.
Remus Lupin: Deal. So what else did she say?
James Potter: thats it!
Remus Lupin: normal voice, or scary quiet rage voice?
James Potter: wld i be texting u @3am if it was the normal one?
Remus Lupin: fair point…just surprised that’s all she said, considering you killed her pet
James Potter: first mum, now u?? i went to breakfast w/ her this morning and she AMUSHED ME!! ddnt even make bacon! a two hr lecture and No Bacon.
James Potter: over a fish! Remus Lupin: lily’s fish. which u killed. James Potter: it was a tragic, unavoidable accident!!
James Potter: ac·ci·dent 1. an unfortunate incident that happens unexpectedly and unintentionally, typically resulting in damage or injury. google does not lie.
James Potter:  anyway thts what i get for doing Chores and trying to help around the flat
James Potter: i can feel ur disapproval, lupin
James Potter: she LOATHED that fish. she called it fish! how attached can u rlly be against smth u havent named. petunia pawned it off on her! she made Flushing jokes on the regular?? rly… was doing her a favor
Remus Lupin: please for the love of god tell me u didn’t tell her that
James Potter: which part
Remus Lupin: all of it. Any of it.
James Potter: well.
Remus Lupin: fuck
James Potter: so can i come over? 
Remus Lupin: …
James Potter: can i come in?
Remus Lupin: where are you?
James Potter: ur front steps
James Potter: i need Emotional Support, lupin
Remus Lupin: fine
fri.
James Potter to grlFIEND: still cant believe you tackled me to the ground this afternoon??? I should report u??
Lily Evans: I should report you??? trespassing? it’s how I’d treat any common burglar!
James Potter: 1. u know I’d be an Excellent burglar. don’t be harsh.
James Potter: 2. its not trespassing when i pay ½ rent
Lily Evans: Technically yes, but morally??? NOT ur flat
James Potter: you know how skeevy my teeth feel w/out my water flosser? which i still don’t have btw??
Lily Evans: I was so mad I threw ur attachments out, so
James Potter: Wow
James Potter: my rug burns are FINE, btw
Lily Evans: I had to buy a black dress, sew a veil, host a FUNERAL, write a EULOGY, send petunia a video of the whole thing, and ur whining about rug burns and a water flosser??? Lmao ok.
James Potter: lmao IM the dramatic one? OK
Lily Evans: Read 1:35:10 AM
James Potter: u actually have to, like, turn on the function for it to be a burn
Lily Evans: Read 1:36:14 AM
James Potter: …
Lily Evans: Read 1:36:25 AM
- - -
James Potter to Babe: u talking to me yet???
James Potter: it was an Accident
Sirius Black: Read 1:45:15 AM
Sirius Black: go to petes
- - -
James Potter: to pumpkin eater: PETE. My dude.
Peter Pettigrew: no.
James Potter: listen. black + lupin have fallen into dishonor
Peter Pettigrew: they haven’t
James Potter: they HAVE in collusion w/ one another and on their own, betrayed and disowned me. whts Dishonor if not that??
Peter Pettigrew: sirius told me u were wanking on his velvet sofa
James Potter: SCULLEY
Peter Pettigrew: i get it, but u know how he feels about that. second only to his motorbike.
James Potter: …
Peter Pettigrew: and u, ofc.
James Potter: he and remus both think x-files is shit
Peter Pettigrew: fuckers
James Potter: so can i come over?
Peter Pettigrew: go HOME, prongs. to ur girlfriend.
James Potter: p sure she dumped me???
Peter Pettigrew: 1. she LOVES ur fucking face. she nearly snogged it off in FRONT OF ME just last week?? shes just as miserable as u are.
Peter Pettigrew: 2. I live w/ my mum
Peter Pettigrew: 3. U rlly have a wanking problem.
Peter Pettigrew: 4. My mum has never seen a penis and I wont let the first one she sees be URS
James Potter: idk how to tell u this, pete, but shes a MUM, so…shes had kids…
James Potter: we can smoke
Peter Pettigrew: come in thru the back
 - - -
 James Potter to sailor moony: fuck
Remus Lupin: …you know my name isn’t actually ‘fuck’ … right? 
James Potter: Remus. Fuck.
Remus Lupin: isn’t pete watching you?
James Potter: he passed out.
Remus Lupin: dammit. where are you now??
James Potter: in a tree. like…u want to do a thought experiment with me?
Remus Lupin: …
James Potter: sorry, shldnt have phrased that as a question. Emotional Support.
Remus Lupin: you aren’t allowed to use that anymore.
James Potter: k, so like, if a person, however well-intentioned, right? like if they did something that hurt someone else. even if they didn’t Mean to. like maybe it’d be decent of them to say sorry??
Remus Lupin: you think???
James Potter: yea
James Potter: i mean…im Not saying that person shld. cos shes still bang out of order w/ the toothbrush. + the biscuits. + poisoning u and my mum against me.
James Potter: *their mate and their mum against them
Remus Lupin: you were saying…about the thought experiment?
James Potter: oh, like, well that person might owe the other person an apology
James Potter: *might. maybe. like 5% maybe
Remus Lupin: i would agree, but more like 95%
James Potter: just smth to Think about. Ya know??
James Potter: OK, heres the thing. its not hypothetical. talking abt evans ofc. cos like, i laughed, right? at her. while shes…crying. But!!! i smiled because it is kind of fucking funny??? shes overreacting + SOBBING. but, like, also cos shes so Cute and she did that elbow thing she always does when shes mad?? cannot convey how cute she was!! its so funny? that was, like, sure, the Wrong thing to do, because it just set her off More, and. ANYWAY, I could kind of…maybe…see how she would be upset by my laughing. or think I was laughing at her pain when really it was her anger. which doesn’t Sound like a good distinction, but it is a Solid distinction. ANYWAY, like, u know I have No Poker face, right?
Remus Lupin: you do wear your heart on you sleeve 
James Potter: we both know ive a LONG history of taking off my shirt
Remus Lupin: really? you, james fleamont potter, have a history of overreacting and making poor decisions and have impulse control problems? i had no. fucking. idea. completely shocked.
James Potter: imma ignore that u used my middle name + the bit abt the impulse control
Remus Lupin: apologize to her??
Remus Lupin: actually…get your thoughts together a little bit more than this, maybe? then apologize
James Potter: gotta figure how to get down from this tree first
James Potter: thx for the talk lupin
Remus Lupin: night, prongs
sat. 
James Potter to Maybe Lovely Lily: can I come home yet???
Lily Evans: lmao
Lily Evans: when u get ur shite together, yeah?
James Potter: u have all of my shite at OUR flat???
Lily Evans: delivered it to remus
 - - -
 James Potter to lupin, fuck: u have my stuff????
Remus Lupin: this pile of shite in my living room? yes.
Remus Lupin: come collect immediately pls.
James Potter: shove it in the spare closet
Remus Lupin: spare closet is full of pete’s contraband he doesn’t want his mum to see.
James Potter: right. well, go through and take what you want as payment.
Remus Lupin: already did. btw why do you have a sumo suit?
James Potter: she brought over the sumo suit???
Remus Lupin: yes.
James Potter: FUCKING WOW
James Potter: btw…how did she look? what all did she say? (not that I care!!!) but is she despondent w/out? dark circles? facial blemishes b/c she’s been too distracted to adhere to her rigorous skincare regime? did she even have the energy to contour??
Remus Lupin: she looked ok .
James Potter: whts that mean
Remus Lupin: i mean she looked fine.
James Potter: no tear tracks?
Remus Lupin: no.
James Potter: damn
Remus Lupin: she didn’t look great though? honestly, prongs, i think she’s just waiting for you to apologize.
James Potter: not a chance????
Remus Lupin: dammit. you were almost there last night
James Potter: ????
Remus Lupin: the thought experiment?
James Potter: i got high with pete last night
Remus Lupin: should’ve known.
James Potter: and I might have, except she gave back the sumo suit which is an act of war????
Remus Lupin: james…do not blow this…more out of proportion. ok?
James Potter: id never
Remus Lupin: BLOCKED
- - -
James Potter to #1 MUM: can i at least have the biscuit recipe???
Euphemia Potter: sent
- - -
James Potter to DEFO NOT LOVELY LILY: the sumo suit??? really???? u know how to cut deep, evans
James Potter: i thought this was going to blow over quickly but apparently no???
James Potter: PS I hope u like The Pic I posted on Instagram (dnt pretend like u arnt stalking me)
Lily Evans: u wldnt
James Potter: …already did
Lily Evans: btw I had to throw ur fave Tupperware away. contaminated w/ dead fish germs.
Lily Evans: like, I almost kept it and dint tell you, but my Conscience (a lil voice that tells u right from wrong) smote me, so….
James Potter: W O W. you kept a dead body in my fave Tupperware???? the one that keeps my soup warm???
Lily Evans: Read 11:13:09 PM
 - - -
 James Potter to Pete McGeet: listen: Chickity China the Chinese chicken
James Potter: and u…have a drumstick and your brain stops tickin’
James Potter: or smth
James Potter: anyway…wanna go to KFC???
Peter Pettigrew: what in the ever loving hell, prongs
James Potter: i think im cracking up
James Potter: defo pissed.
Peter Pettigrew: its sad. And a little bit pathetic.
James Potter: pathetic enough to stay at urs again tonight??? U know abt the others. And Mom wont let me on account of the principle.
Peter Pettigrew: if u bring KFC, yes
James Potter: me + the colonel are in a taxi now…
sun.
James Potter to Rude Remus: MATE
James Potter: got a burner phone
James Potter: PS imma pretend u ddnt block me
James Potter: anyway coming to go through my stuff, ok?
James Potter: Promise ill avoid ur sofa
Remus Lupin: sure thing.
- - -
James Potter to Lovely Lily: babe
James Potter: see u typing. u can pull that Read shit or whatever, but, like, I was sorting thru my stuff @ remus’s??? + I shldve done it yesterday….
James Potter: (dont tell him was here PLS bc hes pissed at me abt smth stupid)
James Potter: ANYWAY underneath the sumo suit – nice diversion btw, that super pissed me off – was a pack of brand new flosser attachments. + my flosser. u even rinsed it???
James Potter: like, Thanks
James Potter: coming home bc u obviously dnt Hate Me Eternally like u said before Lily Evans: i never said that! v frustrated w/ u but i don’t Hate u.
Lily Evans: listen. I know uve wanked (and cried??? oh yes. Pete told me.) urself out of all your friends’ good graces, so
Lily Evans: u can come back to the flat
Lily Evans: its, like, on a conditional basis
Lily Evans: we aren’t shagging
Lily Evans: u live on the couch
James Potter: we have a guest room???
Lily Evans: couch or bust
Lily Evans: you can use the guest bath tho
Lily Evans: and the kitchen…if you cook enough for me, too James Potter: cool
Lily Evans: cool
- - -
James Potter to M8S B4 D8S: fuck yessssssssssss
James Potter: have won!
James Potter: maybe technically it started as my fault? like 15%
James Potter: shes all but apologized!
James Potter: not formally ofc, but i know what she meant
James Potter: knew if I held out long enough, shed come around
James Potter: lupin…have been living in ur car btw….i owe u for crisps detailing
Remus Lupin: ew. Happy for u prongs. Gtfo of my car.
Peter Pettigrew: go home n wait for her to apologize
Sirius Black: wait before u apologize tho 2
James Potter: obvs (+ sorry abt ur velvet sofa Babe. ill pay to get it cleaned)
Remus Lupin: literally going to murder u all
mon.
 James Potter to #1 MUM: I know ur asleep, but I made u middle of the night biscuits.
James Potter: they r UTTER shit but I did Try
James Potter: thing is…u might have been a little (tiny bit!!) right about some of the things you said. Maybe. 
James Potter: anyway, am Home and will probably apologize to lily…soon
James Potter: and i love u and sorry i was so pissy abt no bacon
  - - -
James Potter to Lovely Lily: evans
Lily Evans: potter.
Lily Evans: how did u sleep?
James Potter: ok. u?
Lily Evans: meh
James Potter: i know id mentally said i wldnt do this for another day, on Principle, but Mum guilted me into it even tho she is still sleeping. Except she has a Point. So heres the thing ….
James Potter: and also moony said…
James Potter: i kind of, like,
James Potter: its like this, lil…
James Potter: well
Lily Evans: jfc babe don’t strain yourself, yea?
James Potter: u know what im saying tho 
Lily Evans: i do
Lily Evans: and same. (ish.))))
Lily Evans: it’s like this, james. i….
Lily Evans: fuck
Lily Evans: we rlly have to get better @ this.
Lily Evans: I KNOW it was an accident. and also, like, I sort of apparently overloaded the aquarium power cord in the first place w my hair dryer??? so…yeah
James Potter: fuck
Lily Evans: yeah….and I shouldn’t have, like, tackled u
James Potter: it wldve been hot if not for the rug burns
James Potter: and also i was insensitive w/ the laughing thing
Lily Evans: wait!! We hve to STOP
Lily Evans: can u not apologize yet. not fully to the point where I want to bone u??
James Potter: ….was kind of on a roll here tho
Lily Evans: yeah but we have to stop James Potter: y???
Lily Evans: the longer we fight..the better the make-up sex is going to be, yea? science
James Potter: tru…but id argue good make-up sex now is better than Great, theoretical make-up sex
Lily Evans: that WLD be true, but i, like, ordered something online… James Potter: something. or. like. Something.
Lily Evans: the Something u had bookmarked in ur private amazon wishlist hoping I’d find it
James Potter: stalker
James Potter: i love u….but i still think we should make up properly???? 
Lily Evans: no!!!! it’ll be here on Friday.
James Potter: i got u a new fish & everything!! named him eddie.
Lily Evans: nice!! but u know i hate fish. sold the aquarium to pay for the Something.
James Potter: well. Fuck.
Lily Evans: love you too
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everythingmustgo · 7 years
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I am an Aries sun with a Virgo moon and my best friend is a Gemini sun with an Aries moon - what do you think of the pairing?
hmmm okay so first things first if ur an aries sun virgo moon ur sense of self is STRONG nd rooted in taking action and leadership, starting new projects, ur full of energy nd constantly want to b trying new things, doing things Ur way aries r v individual nd kind of channel the whole its my way or the highway state of mind. however virgos r v practical nd analytical, rl problem solvers, often other peoples tbh, they enjoy helping others nd often people will catch onto this nd will take advantage of their helpful nature. even tho virgos enjoy helping others being used will make them feel betrayed. big on refinement. theyre never satisfied with how things are, hence helping others change, nd need to constantly improve things on a practical level. imo virgo moons r highly emotionally intelligent. bc its ur moon id say ur probably very supportive and helpful when ur friends r unhappy. not a big listener (aries sun) but practical solutions r ur shit, ppl come to u for help bc u might not hav the knack of knowing what to say but u Always kno what to do. same w ur own emotions, altho u think thru ur problems u rarely allow ur emotions to rule u, u think practically nd solve the problem like a puzzle. virgos may not allow themselves to feel as much as necessary but they dont let their own issues go unfixed. gonna hav a bit of a Clash w ur aries impulsivity nd ur virgo need for structure nd routine, u trust ur instincts but when ur instincts r wrong ur impulsive behaviour can cause panic (id like 2 add ur instincts​ r Probably often right tho). also CONTROL it just occured to me aries sun virgo moons r going 2 b controlling as FUCK aries need control in the form of leadership nd not being told what to do nd virgos need control in the form of structure nd routine YIKES. losing control of urself is a Big Fear. as for ur friend geminis r fun nd social nd good friends 2 hav !!! often their personalities hav a sort of duality to em so if ur not close friends its possible u dont kno what everything abt them, but if u are close u might b one of the lucky few who do. indecisive, always in 2 minds !!! geminis, unlike aries, never kno what tha FUCK they want. so they try everything. well, they need 2 anyway, a gemini who is limiting themselves is gonna feel trapped nd v small nd generally unhappy. lucky 4 ur friend, ur an aries !!! so u gotta b tryin a bit of everything too!!! aries throw themselves headfirst into everything nd dont think abt the consequences (tho ur virgo moon means that its v likely the consequences r always in the back of ur mind somewhere), nd bc aries r so enthusiastic nd ready for challenge its likely u drag ur friend into all the shit u get into. u call the shots in this relationship. geminis cant make decisions for shit nd aries like to b the leader so id say ur probably making all the decisions for them nd mayb not even realising it? its so ingrained in ur nature to b the decision maker nd geminis r so willing to rely on others to make their decisions for them u might not even notice it happening. also w their aries moon they probs experience emotion nd their inner self the way u experience ur own personality nd outward self nd so u probably connect from this on a very deep level !!! even if u dont feel similar or recognise that this is the reason for ur connection seeing as its ur sun nd their moon in aries so theirs is more hidden, u most likely feel a connection that u mayb couldnt put ur finger on or explain before. u relate to eachother, but v subtly. imo its likely ur friend looks up to u a lot !!! they recognise their inner self in u and their gemini sun gives way a bit to this bc geminis usually hav a p unstable sense of self (opposite of an aries!) nd needs u to recognise their emotional side. before they reveal/ed their full personality to u, its likely they first show/ed u their more emotional, personal side bc of their moon connection to u. also geminis nd virgos r a match made in heaven imo! both r smart as heck nd good for eachother, virgos r gonna help geminis make decisions that r best for them nd not necessarily for u (soz aries but ur decisions r p much always in ur own interest) nd geminis r gonna b suuuper mentally stimulating for virgos bc they hav so many thoughts nd ideas nd virgos love to come to their own conclusions on them. ur friend nd u r probs close on an emotional level despite initial personality differences. i think im gonna end this soon bc its quite long but my main advice would be: listen to ur moon signs!!!!! ur gemini friend could feel that ur overbearing as ur so strong minded nd theyre not, nd u might not always respect them as an individual. a pissed off gemini is not someone u wanna b around. passive aggressive, will bitch behind ur back, nd if things get too much for ur friend they will EXPLODE on u (aries moon) nd u might feel confused abt what uve done wrong bc taking control is so natural to u. plus theyre not clear at all, geminis might b snappy nd vindictive nd wont fully explain the problem to u at all. terrible for ur virgo moon bc u Need To Solve It. ur gemini friend needs to listen to their moon sign so this doesnt happen. theyre an aries like u!!! deep down they kno what they want theyre just scared to express it. but if they express it nd make decisions for themselves sometimes, its gonna save a lot of bother. u need to listen to ur virgo moon nd help ur friend come to their own decisions nd realise that sometimes u need to let them do their own thing nd emotionally support them w this. ur relationship could b v v strong especially w the same signs (bonus point I think an aries sun nd an aries moon hav more potential to b close than 2 aries suns bc they’d both b so strong minded nd hav such a need for individuality theres more potential to clash than w a sun nd moon, the latter of which is more subdued) u connect in a way of unexplained understanding, but theres also potential for a power imbalance, namely u overpowering ur friend. not that geminis r weak, theyll come back at u in their own quiet way if u piss them off theyll play some fucked up mind games w u, but id say that if u both pay attention to what ur moon instincts r telling u, theres nothing stopping u from having a strong nd close relationship w a lot of mutual understanding
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