#so we don't know what area we will be in

[simgerale]

hi all, here's a late night thought-ramble

[it's about wedding stuff so please scroll away if you're not interested lol it's 100% okay]

as you are all technically strangers, i thought this would be a good place to get unbiased opinions (^:

i'm a people pleaser by nature, so i'm struggling with the whole "it's your wedding! do what makes you and your groom happy, and that's all that matters! if they love you enough, they'll understand."

why? because i want a small wedding. but i also think it'd be nice to have everyone who ever supported me there lol. to keep it relatively small, i think only inviting family would work (this would be under 60 if everyone came from both sides of our family). i don't have many close friends, so this wouldn't be impossible. but my groom definitely has people that he'd like to have at the wedding that aren't related to us. it's just a "if he invites these people, will the category of those people in my life get offended? does it matter, NO, but won't they?" and again, he has told me time and again, that i should do what i want and nothing more.

but oh my GOSH do i worry about having regrets and hurting feelings. like!!!!!!!!!! what's wrong with me!@1!!!!!!! i know if i was giving the advice to someone in my position, i'd say "JUST INVITE WHO YOU WANT TO INVITE! in the grand scheme of things, it doesn't matteR!!!!"

i need to follow my advice. but let me tell you................... it's hard. i'm so stubborn when it comes to knowing what's right for me vs. other people.

ANYWAY. i want this type of wedding what do we all think

#nonsims #nnngghhhhh i don't want to be stressed about planning a wedding #but like............................................................everyone is all 'when is the date? you have to figure that you first' #out* #and knowing that i want a fall wedding #and that's something i won't give up on because that's the ONLY thing i ever dreamed about growing up. #i didn't know any details of my wedding except the season so i'm KEEPING IT #anyway. if it's fall. then it has to be in like......less than 8 months #it seems so SOON #and waiting an entire YEAR AND A HALF TO MARRY HIM DOESN'T SEEM RIGHT EITHER #i've been dating him for 5.5 years so i am rEADY to be his wife #so ready. #it doesn't help that he's trying to get into graduate school and we will have to move soon and if he doesn't get in then he has to find #another job because we do not like this job he has rn #so we don't know what area we will be in #or what type of money #it's...it's very..... #it's very LIFE. i should say. #anyway. goodnight everyone i love you all thank you for all your support and kindness #i love scrolling through my dash bc you guys inspire me #MWAH #kisses

[inkskinned]

it is all chaos and entropy. the thing is that the chaos and entropy make it beautiful and lovely.

yes, it's true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is terrifying. i have lived through some of the unfairness - i got born like this, with my body caving into itself, with this ironic love of dance when i sometimes can't stand up for longer than 15 minutes. i am a poet with hands that are slowly shutting down - i can't hold a pen some days. recently i found a dead bird on our front porch. she had no visible injuries. she had just died, the way things die sometimes.

it is also true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is wonderful. the sheer happenstance that makes rain turn into a rainbow. the impossible coincidence of finding your best friend. i have made so many mistakes and i have let myself down and i have harmed other people by accident. nature moves anyway. on the worst day of my life she delivers me an orange juice sunset, as if she is saying try again tomorrow.

how vast and unknowing the universe! how small we are! isn't that lovely. the universe has given us flowers and harp strings and the shape of clouds. how massive our lives are in comparison to a grasshopper. the world so bright, still undiscovered. even after 30 years of being on this earth, i learned about a new type of animal today: the dhole.

chance echoing in my life like a harmony between two people talking. do you think you and i, living in different worlds but connected through the internet - do you think we've ever seen the same butterfly? they migrate thousands of miles. it's possible, right?

how beautiful the ways we fill the vastness of space. i love that when large amounts of people are applauding in a room, they all start clapping at the same time. i love that the ocean reminds us of our mother's heartbeat. i love that out of all the colors, chlorophyll chose green. i love the coincidences. i love the places where science says i don't know, but it just happens.

"the universe doesn't care about you!" oh, i know. that's okay. i care about the universe. i will put my big stupid heart out into it and watch the universe feast on it. it is not painful. it is strange - the more love you pour into the unfeeling world, the more it feels the world loves you in return. i know it's confirmation bias. i think i'm okay if my proof of kindness is just my own body and my own spirit.

i buried the bird from our porch deep in the woods. that same day, an old friend reaches out to me and says i miss you. wherever you go, no matter how bad it gets - you try to do good.

#writeblr #warm up #i can't write rn but i have SO much words in here bc im reading the chorus of dragons books #(just started book 4) #and this woman's writing is just LIVING in my brain. let me out!!! #(i read roughly like 2-4 books a week usually bc i go on long walks with my dog but when a book is REALLY good like. it eats my life. ) #anyway ...... so like here's a story that idk i've tried to explain to other people as being wild #but maybe im the only one who thinks it is wild??? #so i play pokemon go (i just started in jan) bc i love pokemon and as i have mentioned i walk goblin for like an hour in the morning #and i don't like a lot of fitness trackers due to the fact it makes me .sad. but i also wanted the little digital rewards. enter pokemon go #anyway so they make you make friends to complete quests. so i used a reddit thread. i do not usually use reddit. i don't have an acct #i lurked. i just googled like ''pokemon go reddit '' and randomly added a bunch of numbers #i was on that page for all of 15 minutes. there are THOUSANDS of responses on that page. #here's what's wild: in that group of people. even though i am not on reddit and it was one random event once #it turns out one of those people lives in the town i live in. or at least very close. i only know this because #when we send each other gifts. it's from the same freaking area. #i can't ask them to meet up bc pokemon go doesn't have a messaging app lol but like . what are the fucking chances that #a random person posts in a random reddit thread and HAPPENS to get added by someone ELSE from their SAME TOWN #who by pure fucking CHANCE is ALSO playing pokemon go and looking for friends #i googled it there's only 42000 people in my broad region. the .......... smallness ! of the world!!!

[notsogoodangel]

This is what I did during my spare time... I'm fine.

Side Notes: I didn't add any of the actual players for simplicity's sake, but I did add characters played by the CCs that aren't their main characters such as Arin, ElQuackity, and Sapo Peta.

It will be too complicated to add ex-alliances and spy-related stuff... but if I did! Jaiden will be between the "knows the federation" and "sides with the players" and Etoiles will be between "understands the codes" and "sides with the players" just because there are no real secrets about it if you watch their POVs.

#qsmp #this is what I did in Valentine's Day because my aro-ace ass couldn't think of anything better to spend my time on #also the thing that shock me the most out of this is THAT THE FUCKING DOG WORKS FOR THE FEDS WHAT #also the Watcher may hate the Federation and stuff but only really knows about Egg Island and nothing else #so he is included in the same area as Cucurucho Mr Duck and the Bunnies #and the Fed workers are in between because they LIKE the players 80% of them are friends or more that the other workers ARE NOT #Creation is so new but I think I'm okay in the placement for now just because is not attached to the Players enough to move to where Arin i #also there's a glee on seeing Ayrobot and SOFIA (Max's robo-daughter) in the same place just for perfectly for my little aymaxo brain #also I'm putting all the Cucurucho's on the Feds because there's not much distinguishing Cucurcho from Osito Bimbo and Ourson #also that's Madagio not naked Slenderman... although both of them would be in the same slot #and all the individual gods like Mine Kristin/Mumza Matt and both Cellbit's and Philza's individual god entities are still there #because we know them as the audience but we don't know what the fuck they know and what they can do even if they canonically exist #also I don't know what the fuck is @v@ so clearly deserves that spot despite being able to infect players federation works and the codes

[alpacacare-archive]

How i feel like i sound defending gaster sometimes: NO LISTEN when you use the phone in the dark world AND when you read entry number 17 the game audio plays at the EXACT SAME VOLUME AS THE REST OF THE GAME!! he is not trying to scare us AND hes actually watching out for our health by not raising the volume!! I genuinely don't understand how people STILL think he's evil

#gaster #undertale #deltarune #tis but a joke #i genuinely believe he isn't nefarious #hes probably a gray area (which is a good and better thing to be than 100% good- it makes a character more complex and interesting :]) #but i don't believe hes evil just for the hell of it. i mean even spade king isnt #HOWEVER with what little we currently know about him and the vibes he gives off and the only things we actually #see him doing/seeing the aftermath #its really difficult to defend him hdjdjfk #grandpa can you please let the playerbase see you do something nice so i have more to work with

[bonefall]

More British words because I thought words like carboot and bin lorry was normal:

Chuffed: This is when we're really happy- like 2am-singing-karaoke-happy. Odd I know!

Brolly: Umbrella. Yeah this one's a bit odd as well. I've never used it personally but some of my family always say "chuck us the brolly" or something along those lines.

Crisps: Potato chips. American's PLEASE don't kill me I want to live

Bucketin' down: A term used to describe heavy rain!

Gutted: Extremely disappointed. I often use this- very loudly, might I add- to the annoyance of my family

Bonnet: Hood of a car. I find this REALLY strange and have never used it myself.

So there's some British words! I hope you enjoyed them!🙂

REMINDS ME, another thing that was wild to me was how "chippy" gets applied to way more than just places that sell fries

I went thinking I understood everything, like, "Ok. Chips = Fries. Crisps = Potato Chips. Got it." But then partner would say, "wanna go to a chippy"

Me in my head: (wow you really like fries dont ya)

But apparently the truth is... that's just what they were calling a small restaurant you don't sit down at. Like a takeout place. A chippy can sell chinese food. A chippy can sell fries and hot dogs.

This took me an embarassingly long time to realize. I really just thought partner wanted fries constantly. I was beginning to believe there were special, hidden fry places that I just wasn't noticing.

I also found out that "spanner" is unironically a light insult but considering the fact I thought they were a Fanatical Fry Fiend for at least a week I probably deserved it. I WAS being a proper spanner.

#We did get loaded fries at some point tho #And they were good fries #Cheesy and delicious with some gravy #Bone babble #To be fair to me though I was kinda thinking of the specialty meatball places that pop up here #My area actually has several meatball specialty places. They just sell fancy meatballs #That's the entire menu #Different kinds of meatballs with different meats. Fishballs. Venisonballs. Wagyuballs. #So like. You could write a book on what I don't know #Maybe England just has an obsession with turning different vegetables into fries. I thought. Like a fool. #Nope. I live in a place with a very special kind of meatball-induced brainrot. #And chippy simply did not mean what I thought it meant #Oh to be in the alternate reality where I went to The Chippery and got to sample different types of vegetable fries #Mmmm #And fancy sauces #Also I did enjoy thank u #The only one partner wasn't familiar with was Bucketin Down. Probably because their preferred term is Pissin #Pissin Down

[todayisafridaynight]

a bit late to the driving discussion but i cant even imagine the amount of road rage mine experiences everyday, i think being in a car with him would be terrifying

let me play contrarian and say the real stress of being in the same car as mine is that he probably does 80 in a 60 mph zone while talking on the phone

#snap chats #aka me 🥴 just the speeding part no one ever calls me <3 #no but LISTEN you mean to tell me he drives a sports car and doesn't rev that bitch down the highway. yes he does #there's a bunch of jackasses in my area with sports cars and they ALWAAYS have to make everyone know theyre driving one #WE GET IT YOUR PENIS IS SMALL STOP REVVING THE SHIT IN A SCHOOL ZONE #if anyone's getting road rage it's cause this motherfucker whipping and weaving. i do not believe he uses turn signals #i don't think he's a blinker user NO THAT'S ONE OF THE TESTS OF HUMANITY LOWKEY TO BE OFF TOPIC #there's putting the shopping cart back after using it and whether you use your blinkers or not #i dont think mine uses his just cause he's goin so fuckin fast so why bother #myyyyy god i was driving yesterday and the amount of jackasses that Do Not. Use Blinkers. killing you immediately #FUCK WHAT PART OF THE US JUST NEVER USES BLINKERS I FORGET. SOMEWHERE IN THE SOUTH I THINK CAUSE OFC #point is use your blinkers it helps everyone including yourself it is NOT HARD

[tearlessrain]

I've had anxiety pretty much all my life and having my fears/concerns brushed off is not a new thing for me and sometimes it's justified, but it is uniquely annoying in this case because I keep being right, repeatedly, throughout the pandemic, and people are still acting like I'm just being my panicky self and it's not as big a deal as I'm making it.

#for months my mom kept getting on my case about masking in the common areas of her complex #'everyone here is elderly they don't go out! why are you still wearing a mask here?' #and then suddenly what do you know two of her neighbors have covid and I was right #everyone: why are you still isolating and masking so much the pandemic is over! #me: it is not fucking over and it's gonna get worse again because of this #a couple months later: oh god there's a new variant that resists vaccines we couldn't possibly have predicted or prevented this #ironically I got covid somewhere highly improbable back in 2022 and it promptly made my anxiety like 5x worse so now I'm even more annoying #I also just kinda. got worse at spelling and keeping track of information #it's deeply frustrating but at least I never lost taste/smell and meds have helped with the anxiety so eh #still this could have been avoided if people would just take the goddamn thing seriously #and I'm gonna be salty about it for the rest of my life

[sysig]

Some redraws, and an additional chibi (Patreon)

#Doodles #Redraw #Halfway Autumn #Diana #Wes #Carol #I don't think I ever showed off the Fortune Teller? :0 #Well that's him! That's the Fortune Teller! :D #This style was so fun and cute at the time and I keep feeling nostalgic! #What was up in 2019 that kept having cute chibi styles #(It was the looser art style in general it was just sketching 24/7 pfft) #It's always good to revisit some lads that I've set down for a while ♪ #I was hoping to get some new ideas for the HA map since the area is still kinda empty but nothin' doin' so far #The idea of making some modular isometric locations does sound kind fun tho :) I haven't cracked out my grid paper in ages #For the moment tho it's nice just to see some familiar faces #They're all still so cute hehe <3 #I'd like to add Todd and Keita to the chibi lineup as well! Get a whole rainbow finished off hehe #Here we've got a warm purple - green - pink - and gold; so that leaves blue (Todd) and cool purple (Keita) and the rest #Does Carol's pink count as red...? Pastel rainbow hehe #Then again I don't know if the Fortune Teller counts as yellow or orange - probably the latter if it's all pastels! #So many ideas that sound so fun in colour ahh

[pochapal]

a good question to consider is if "solve the epitaph or die" was ever explicitly a challenge issued by anybody here.

#umineko liveblog #the original riddle meant it as metaphorical #and if you assume this is about succession then the killings stop making sense #so it feels very much like that's an easy to read assumption into the grey area that isn't actually there #like. the implication here would be that solving the epitaph would stop the killings #so including that is almost an implicit demand from beatrice for the family to try to stop her #but given what we know about who is most likely orchestrating this #'i am going to kill you all but please also do your best to stop me i promise i'll play fair' doesn't make sense #however this does feed into the whole 'the culprit wants their crimes to be solved' deal i thought about earlier in the story #and if you're deliberately making solvable crimes is that not the same thing as wanting to be stopped? #maybe feeding back into the magic as gamble thing? #a crime can only be magical if you have decent odds of being stopped and succeeding anyway #which is all logical and makes sense but there's not a single person in this story that line of thinking maps onto #kinzo is the closest but kinzo has explicitly been ruled out like fifty times over #so bluhhhhhh i don't know!!!! beatrice your contradictory ways haunt and vex me

[sailor-aviator]

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#y'all my anxiety has me spiraling as of late because it just feels like my whole life is falling apart at this point #i got fired from my job a couple of months ago and i've been scrambling to try and find a new one #i work part time at a store i really love but it pays shit #and i've had all of these interviews and no one wants to hire me and i just feel unhireable at this point and it's hard not to despair #and on top of that i'm struggling with my self esteem again #i know i'm not ugly per se but i'm struggling with feeling confident in the way i look as a big girl #and all of my old insecurities are rearing their ugly heads and i want to cry just thinking about it #and i feel like such a failure right now even though i know that life has its ups and downs but my stupid brain just won't chill #and i don't really have any friends in the area because they all either moved away or didn't live here to begin with #and i'm tired of living at home because of my stupid student loans and not being able to afford to live on my own #i have one person i hang out with and we just met and i don't want to scare them off because they're a great friend and person #and i just feel like i'm never going to meet anybody who's going to love me the way i want to be loved because of my looks #also because it's me. and i feel like i'm so flawed as a person that no one will ever fall in love with me #and i've just been feeling really alone lately and i'm trying to do things to make me feel better but it's just so HARD right now #and i love writing because it gives me a chance to explore some of my feelings and it's something i genuinely love to do #and i'm sitting here waiting for the day things start to get better. and i know we all joke and i'm gonna sounds so dumb for saying this #but i feel like i was meant to be famous? or do something great idk and it's something everyone has always told me #and idk if my feelings of inadequacy are because of that or what but i'm scared that my life is going to mean nothing in the end #anyway this was a lot and you can pretend like you didn't read it. i just wanted to write some of my feelings down

[eastberlin]

If I could get a goddamn break from the universe re: cat health that would be fantastic.

#took Grady to the vet yesterday for what I assumed was a dental infection #(bad breath and drooling) #turns out he has ulcerated areas on his tongue and neither vet who looked at him knew what could cause them like that #best guess is maybe an atypical presentation of a specific virus #so he's on antibiotics and steroids and hopefully that will take care of it #but the vet is concerned that bc it's all concentrated in one area and there's some discoloration that he could lose part of his tongue #which is not something a cat could manage without #so I'm just...I don't even know what #he's eating and drinking and playing and his bloodwork was good so keeping everything crossed that we caught it in time

[xcziel]

oh i forgot to give the tuesday new release roundup huh

new john sandford thriller 'judgement prey'

yet another "danielle steel" book - 4th this year i think?

jordan peele's black authored horror-writing anthology is out: 'out there screaming'

sir patrick stewart memoir! 'making it so'

and awesome new music photo book! 'll cool j presents the streets win: 50 years of hiphop greatness' - this looks like an incredible gift book but i didn't get a chance to crack one open yet

book five of lore olympus graphic novel series in paperback

new kerri maniscalco adult novel set in her teen kingdom of the wicked verse - like tracy wolff she's branching out of ya: 'throne of the fallen'

hmmm what else ... new big hardcover d&d book 'lore & legends': quote "an illustrated history of the beloved fifth edition through artwork, interviews, and visual ephemera"

michael lewis has another business book out (he wrote the big short and liar's poker) 'going infinite'

oh also taylor lorenz's 'extremely online' finally hit the shelf

did i mention that 'chalice of the gods', the new rick riordan percy jackson book, came out last week?

#tuesday new releases #we don't talk about releases from the bigoted transphobe's media property sorry #excited about the hiphop book bc of the hyperfixation: imagining hiphop heads going through it makes me happy #so many things are gonna be out every week from now til xmas and idk what people prioritize #if anybody reads these updates let me know if you have an area you care more about lol #still tempted to do a 'new in horror' roundup post just for the season bc of awad's 'rouge' and canas' vampires of el norte' #also moreno-garcia's 'silver nitrate' #even if you don't buy hardcovers you can ask for them at the library!

[xellandria]

Do you ever think about your OC's accents? I know folks often do voice claims for their characters, but if your stuff was being adapted into a format with audio, how would they all sound in relation to each other and in your native language? Would everybody just have the "normal" regional accent for your area (whether that be locally or country-wide), would certain characters be exceptions? How deep down the rabbit hole do you go, and is this a dark, dangerous door for me to have opened? :P

#xellafail #I've been thinking about it a lot for some reason #and while I can't say I have any specific accents chosen for any of my characters #I do know Karra and Sevvie and James would all sound different than the rest of the cast #because they're not from the area it takes place in #(or in James' case the time period it takes place in lol) #Xella-or-whatever-Xella's-replacement-ends-up-being would probably have a 'fake' accent that blends in and a 'real' accent that doesn't #I'm tempted to say that Alex would be given whatever accent seems to be the most 'swoon-worthy' in the states at any given time #so like australian or soft texan or something like that #(what are people swooning over these days idrk) #Sevvie's the only one that has a sort of 'grounded' accent #but even that's kind of up in the air #because I vacillate daily between her being some flavour of British #(because when R made the character she was leaning heavily on BTVS' Spike for it) #and californian #(because her language patterns are heavily californian and also that's where we were at the time) #which is a weird ping ponging in my head but there you go lol #almost all the Hellfyres would have the local accent #Kanos might be SLIGHTLY different due to James' influence but not significantly so #don't even talk to me about my D&D characters tho bc I have absolutely no idea lmao #I think I've been thinking about it because of the new-ish Castlevania series #where everyone's british except for the aztec vampire #even the french folks #also I guess the russian lady #and possibly more characters I haven't run into bc I'm having a real hard time getting through it #but like everyone's from the same place even though they're not! #and it's driving me crazy for some reason #(I think I listened to the og castlevania series in french maybe that'd help here)

[the-valiant-valkyrie]

i feel like we don't talk abt any of the tooltip quotes very often but out of all of one this one makes me particularly curious because it implies at least an assumption that some form of 'perma-death' is potentially possible within the constant. or maybe even that something might happen to ghosts who stay ghosts for too long? whatever 'lost' is meant to imply, it can't be talking about turning into a ghost, or they wouldn't be using the word 'nearly', since you can only use telltales as a ghost.

i mean, not like wilson has ever been known for knowing much about what hes talking about. especially when it doesn't pertain to science. but its less about what actually is and isnt possible and more about what they think is potentially possible thats of real interest here

#fav interpretation of this is that #the survivors were so used to the concept of people just. respawning in a completely different area after they died #that the first time they saw someone die post new reign they just. completely FREAKED out #and didn't learn until. much later on that no they're actually all stuck together whether they like it or not #i don't know. its almost kind of haunting the way he puts it. i think abt this quote a lot #'we almost lost one of our number today'... i think it's the avoidance of explicitly referring to death by name #which. also is kind of oddly haunting when you remember what they've been through #death is no stranger to any of them so why would they be afraid of it #unless‚ of course‚ theres more to fear from it now when you think you might actually have something to lose... like fwendship 🥺

[friendrat]

But I don't wanna live in a dystopian world!!!

#i just saw this video about amazon having this pay with your palm technology #guys why would you give away your biometric data for convenience?!?! #we're really at this point where we will sell our privacy to save 30 seconds #and i know people have been saying this for forever #but what happens when that becomes the only way to pay? #like we are getting so close to what they describe in revelations it's scary #and yeah i get that people said that about barcodes and credit cards #but having your payment method be your literal hand? #that's too close for comfort #and it's literally not smart to give these companies that info #if they have a data breach who knows what a hacker can do with that? #i know this is a crazy scenario but what if a hacker gets ahold of your fingerprints and currupts the digital record for a crime? #on top of that you only need your fingerprints registered with the police for a few reasons like if you are a criminal or work with kids #you have the right to not have the government have your info without reason #but what happens when the government demands that Amazon (or Apple or any other company pulling this crap) give over their records? #now they have that whether you are a criminal or gave your permission or not #that would be a violation of your 4th amendment rights: to be secure in your person houses papers and effects against unreasonable seizures #don't think the government would do that? police in my area will absolutely violate that right by running plates #to see if you have an expired registration even if you weren't doing anything that required they run your plates #so yeah i fully believe the government would violate the 4th amendment #and what's more... i don't even think that they would have to demand the info i think amazon or apple would offer to sell that info to them #ok sorry for the rant #this world is just getting scary y'all

[magistralucis]

@absolut--kurant!

#ryzhik dove #good morning 🕊🕊🕊 tons of garden update lately 😂✨ #i said before that ryzhik dove had a child but i don't think i've ever had a video of him... well here he is)) #he usually comes in the morning and seems to have a different flock to ryzhik! sometimes i see them feeding together though #so whoever they're all with i guess they are friendly flocks or even family units #we know he must be ryzhik's child because he appeared about a year after the latter and they remain the only brown pigeons in the area #he's got a good personality and is almost as tame as ryzhik #he struts very often and coos at other pigeons. he's a good bird 😁 #he has a really unique bronze shine to his neck that is not as glittery as the blue pigeons but glimmers like sunshine on milk froth #it shows so well in the sun i will try to catch him in sunny weather sometime 🤩 #i've not given him a name yet... if i were to ask you what would you name this chap? ✨ #please enjoy the pidges and our very overgrown garden this morning! love you lots 💖💖💖💖💖 #parrot #cute #birds