#sorry I don’t mean to hoard blogs lol

[copinglink-love]

I’d love to be active here again one day, maybe I should just give it away to someone who will use it, though

#if you saw a rly similar post from a positivity blog for weird kintypes. that’s also me 😭😭😭 #sorry I don’t mean to hoard blogs lol #I rly did wanna run these smh #copinglink #copinglinker

[astorytotellyourfriends]

Hi! So, random question, but is your url by chance a reference to the Every Avenue song? I ask because they’re probably considered an old band by this point, and I don’t think many people know them, but they’ve always been so special to me. In fact, in high school (soooooo 2013), I made one of my favorite art pieces to date and it was inspired by Picture Perfect (the song, not the album necessarily, although I do adore that album). I’ve never heard anyone mention them before, but if my favorite Hellcheer author was a fan, that would be like a celebrity I admire knowing a weird obscure book I really like.

And, yes, side note, you’re my favorite Hellcheer author. So few authors write what I consider to be an adequate smut-to-plot ratio (too much plot in relation to the smut, dammit), let alone smut that’s actually good, and yours is fan-fucking-tastic (this is not pressure to update, btw. As far as I’m concerned, longer time between updates means they’re that much sweeter when they come). Anyway, sorry for rambling, lowkey hope you’re a Every Avenue fan also, that would be insanely cool, love your fics and hope you’re doing well 💗

oh this just dropkicked me back to 2006 💀

yes! my url is indeed from the every avenue song and i've had it since that album came out in 2009 (really dating myself here oh god), though not on this particular blog. i switched the url from my og tumblr blog back in 2018 when i wanted to rebrand lol

every avenue was one of my faves back in the day 😭 i could go on and on about them (and my history with them) but i won't bc that's a long story lmfao but!! i'm so glad you made the connection!

and thank you for your wonderful compliments about my writing 🥹 i'm honored that i'm your favorite hellcheer writer! i am sort of on an impromptu posting break at the moment (which hilariously will be undone bc i'm posting a fic today) because my beta has a ridiculously busy work schedule this month, but it does in fact just mean that i'm hoarding a pile of updates that will eventually get released when she has the time to look them over 🥰

(unfortunately it also means i have no one around to tell me No when my brain comes up with new ideas... which i did... last night...)

#answered #imnotoverlyobsessive

[antiloreolympus]

7 Anti LO Asks

1. Do you know what really gets my blood boiling about this comic? Persephone and Demeter's relationship.

In the myths, Demeter and Persephone loved each other more than anything. Their reunion is so important - it marked the coming of spring and growth. A whole cult was dedicated to this for crying out loud. Yes, the myths were far from perfect, but the Persephone and Demeter myth showed the strength of a loving mother-daughter relationship with Demeter searching endlessly to find her child that was ripped away and had her innocence forcibly taken.

Now, RS is not the only author to make Demeter this over-bearing mother type in order to put more positivity onto the Hades-Persephone relationship. However, RS takes this trend to a whole new level - to the point where I would even consider it misogyny.

How is it, she takes this beautiful mother-daughter relationship and makes it out to be an abusive and controlling one, and then takes the Hades-Persephone relationship from a forceful one to a loving, perfect relationship with no problems? How is it ok to ruin one relationship to elevate another?

I understand that many versions of the myth try to downplay Hades' actions, and even make it so Persephone actually falls in love with him and there is no rape. But it doesn't change that this relationship was problematic, and meant to represent the loss of innocence.

Then fans have the gall to claim this comic is feminist and then claim on top of that that Demeter and Persephone's relationship was the same in the myth? These fans clearly don't know the myths, and neither does RS.

Making Hades a good person is fine. Changing it up a bit to make Persephone's loss of innocence something else is also fine. But ruining Demeter and Persephone's relationship? Especially when Persephone has to spend half the year with her? So horrible. 

2. im sorry, but rachel cant introduce KRONOS coming back and then dropping it for several episodes to focus on a stake-less trail and persephone not knowing what lingerie to seduce hades in. like thats too much of an earth shaking development and huge stake plot point to just ignore for months to focus instead on something as minor as hxp's relationship, which only points out a huge flaw: why is hxp's relationship so minor in this? isnt the whole point supposed to be about them?

3. I think LO completely dropped the ball over Hades’ characterization. 

From the first ep I thought ok, this is good, we have some bones to see he’s not that lucky in love and is just tired and lonely, and while ignoring the creepy actions towards Persephone, I thought ok, Artemis hates him, Hestia hates, even Ares hates him, maybe once Persephone finally sees the underworld and probably gets to know him it’ll be a clever twist and they’ll be proven wrong. The underworld will turn out to be fair and just, the citizens will love Hades, he’ll be revealed to be a good leader and king and not like his brothers, it’ll be like everyone saying Hades of myth isn’t actually that bad, and it’ll help reinforce why this sweet and bubbly Persephone wants him, she sees the real him, not the mean rumors and assumptions, this is perfect.

And then it just didn’t happen. The exact opposite happened, actually.

We’re shown the LO underworld is cruel and unjust, where the poor dead are forced into slavery and Hades created a harsh class divide with him and him only on top, the citizens hate him, the underworld gods don’t trust him and openly seem ok if he’s taken out of power, he’s not a good leader and king and doesn’t even want the job yet keeps it for his own ego and grip of power m, and on top of it all he is just like his brothers, if not worse. He loves to get violent over any little slight against him, he hoards wealth and resources to enrich himself while his citizens starve and struggle to survive, he’s corrupt, he controls all the media and laws to bend to his will, sleeps with his brothers wife for centuries behind his back while claiming to be holier than thou, he has sex with his secretaries who are made dependent on him for any way to survive, and now he lusts after his barely legal intern who is also now dependent on him for her way to survive, and that’s only what I remember off the top of my head.

LO perfectly set up to prove Hades isn’t the devil or the false pop culture assumption that he’s evil and to show some actual facts from myth, and yet Rachel only ended up reinforcing exactly that and even making him even worse with her made up ideas, all while thinking having Persephone ignore or excuse it somehow makes it not bad or even a good thing. It’s honestly kind of impressive just how bad of writing that actually is. 

4. Chapter 172 is not that interesting. It’s setup had me excited to see Hephaestus and Hera and learning more about echo, but it’s cut so short. Because again the story can’t leave HXP out for 2 seconds.

I can also see why Zeus is gonna go insane. 

5. i agree w/ other anon. LO should have pulled a PJO or a BoZ and just made up OCs and have them interact with the gods than whatever Rachel thinks shes doing, which is lying she's being accurate and faithful while completely changing all of it, removing what is needed, and adding what isnt so that it lines up with no actual myth besides like, various 50 shades fanfic she read in 2015 and some popular tumblr text posts.

6 . the animation studio behind blood of zeus literally can only draw one face for the men and one face for the women and they were still able to make the gods all look distinct and hot while LO can't even bother to use more than 6 colors and can only have the women look as tiny as possible with the biggest boobs while the men are all just lego men.

7. ////FP SPOILERS////

Okay so like I stopped reading LO way back before season 1 ended, and a majority of my knowledge of the series comes from what I read here on your blog which is enough for me lol and I decided to read the latest 5 chapters just to see what's up (on zahard. I refuse to give the actual series any views)

And I just. Could not take the whole scene with Daphne running from Apollo seriously? The anatomy and art inconsistency was so distracting that i genuinely could not find it serious. Even when Thanatos discovers her hibernated body I couldn't take it seriously because of how she looked?

And when Hades had that call (??? Was it a call? Or his inner dialogue? I couldn't really tell ngl) with Zeus and said he's causing Persephone unnecessary distress, and that she didn't pose any threat. B!tch??? She killed a ton of mortals??? She has no control over her powers???? She's literally a fugitive for the aforementioned things??? She apparently woke Kronos up? (Idk if anyone knows about that, again my knowledge only spans to whatever I read here) Hello????

And I have a lot to say about the chapters starting the trial but I'll only mention one thing; Hades saying "I don't think blindly supporting my little brother would be doing him any favours (as a ruler)" had me cackling. This is coming from a guy blindly supporting a girl he's literally only known for a few weeks, who's like what, only recently turned 20? Sit tf down Hades you're not cool, you creepy ass overgrown smurf.

Overall I still hate this series lmao. Regarding art though I feel like I wouldn't be so miffed about the anatomy much if the character designs were consistent and the story was compelling. They literally change hairstyles and body types frame by frame, and it's distracting.

The timeline from what I read here is laughable. 4 years in publication with almost 200 chapters and you're telling me only like a month has passed canonically. That's wild and such poor writing.

And as someone who literally will sympathise with any lead character pretty quickly, the story makes me hate them. It makes me want to root against them. I also hate the fact this trash is somehow top ranked on webtoons when so many other stories are far better then it.

Anyway, many thanks to this blog for existing and allowing me to dump so much text here to vent out my hate for this series lmao. You the mvp fam, hope you're having a good day 🥂🥂🥂

#anti lo #anti lore olympus #lore olympus critical #lo critical

[bravewielder]

General Info, About & Basic Blog Rules under the cut !!

I. BACKGROUND

This is my first formal foray into properly RPing Riku since the early days of the tumblr RPC.

Meaning, whilst this isn't my first time RPing him, I am now just coming back into the fandom after years and years of being away from it (mostly keeping it at arms length). So I am only now just catching up on all the lore and theories surrounding his character as well as the over arching lore of KH as a whole.

I do not boast an encyclopedic knowledge of every little detail in this game series (given how long and convoluted it has become), I have not played any of its spin offs, remixes or mobile games- so apologies if sometimes some things might be inaccurate (even despite my best efforts for extensive research). I am knowledgeable of what’s generally known in the Mainline Titles. So if there is one particular obscure thing of topic you wanna integrate into any of our threads, do let me know. I’d love to learn and talk about it! I’ve been away from this fandom for so so long I wouldn’t mind bouncing off ideas and theories with new friends.

That being said, I would very much like to discover Riku’s character for my own before getting influenced with any preconceived ideas that have sprouted here and there.

So basically my Riku is a clean slate fresh out of KH3.

I know how important Riku's character is for a lot of people and I hope I can do my very best to at least portray him as good as I possibly can for any of the folks I do end up interacting with.

II. INTERACTION

Please note that English isn't Mun's first language, hence why I take so long to write a reply/starter because I check, double check and triple check if my writing is grammatically correct. And sometimes I only have the time and energy to do one post a day.

But as stated in my quick rules, I am selective with threads and asks so if I really do not get around to reply to yours, I’m sorry. Muses are fickle things and sometimes they just don’t wanna. So don't be disheartened when I haven't answered your ask/reply immediately. Please know that I hold every single one in my heart and I hoard them for a little while before I finally have the time to reply in short bursts.

Also mun’s line of work is kind of hectic with production shoots and what not. So I may be abscond for a few days at a time.

In terms of following and mutuals. This blog is mutuals only but if I haven’t followed you back you are more than welcome to send me an ask or DM.

Duplicates. I actually don't mind following and interacting with other Rikus (since he does have a lot of interactions with his other selves). But for the most part I am pretty much content to admire other Riku blogs from a far. I am well aware that some portrayals are near perfect and some of you would have your favorites and I take no offense to this if you prefer to interact with them.

III. FORMATTING & WRITING

Icons, formatting and graphics. I do enjoy using icons and formatting on my posts, but I do it in such a way that is minimal where its still legible. I just like making things look pretty and clean. Though I do not mind interacting with iconless or nonformatted threads/blogs. This is just my own preference.

I am ok to do one-liners to short-para threads, unless things would be needing a huge set up that it requires to become novella. Let me reiterate that English isn’t my first language and there is only so much English you could squeeze out of me before I give up. (Lol) So my tone and writing would sometimes sound very blunt and straight to the point if I’m not feeling like doing any flowery words and purple prose.

IV. SHIPPING

I'll state this here and now: Mun is part of the LGBTQ and has been in a committed same sex relationship with my lovely fiancé for almost 10 years.

That being said, I think it goes without saying what I prefer to portray Riku as a character by default.

Yes, he does swing that way (although right now he hasn't figured that out for himself yet). Yes. He is very much hopelessly madly deeply head over hills committed and devoted to Sora. This has always been a HUGE part of his character throughout the entire series, and to not acknowledge it or at least allude to it, would be a crime.

However!! This does not mean I am not open to exploring other ships, even heteronormative ones. Or do shippy things with any character under the gender spectrum. If it does come to that, I like to keep it ambiguous.

At the very least, Riku is demisexual.

But, In any case, shipping will not be the main focus of this blog and I would like to maintain a neutral ground for all of it. Platonic things shall always be at default.

V. NEGATIVITY

Although I will try to make this blog as wholesome as I possibly can (with little to no risqué content)  - I have been RPing on and off tumblr for the past 20 years and honestly i am far too old, jaded, and tired to put up with any drama or upset. I will not involve myself in any sort of petty discourse and if I see anyone trying to start something, I am sorry but I will have to unfollow.

But, on the other hand, if there is anything at all that you find offensive on my blog, please do TELL me. Lets talk it out like the adults that we are. I will gladly tag anything that you wish to be tagged. My DMs are always open for discussion.

Or better yet, please make use of the block button. I will not question you on how you curate your own space and I hope you would also respect mine.

I stay on my lane and you stay in yours. Got it?

VI. SIGN OFF

Lastly. I am here to just have FUN, VIBE & CHILL. I might do some crack things here and there and I shall be tagging those if you don’t wanna have them be clogging your dash. But yeah, I just wanna have fun without the pressure of being judged. All I want is to create a space where I am allowed to write for a character who has been very important to me through out the years and all I want is to share that love with all of you!!  .･ﾟ: * ✧ *  ♡

#┊ return to light | ooc; ┈ ✧ #┊ psa; ┈ ✧ #and here it is finally! #Just gunna be putting this here for now before I transfer it to gdoc/carrd #but feel free to read up! #asdfhjkl sorry if this is such a ramble

[hellishgoat]

Thanks for the tag!!! @tatsueli :3c (sorry it took so long for me to do this ; ;)

Name: Theo

Gender: Male

Star sign: Sagittarius

Height: 5’6 sooo 167 cms :’)

Time: 1:07 am I gotta sleeeeep!!!

Birthday: December 7th (born in winter... Gojira...)

Favorite band/group: hhhhh Deftones, Mastodon, Static X,,, and.... uhhh many moar XD but those are some of my top faves that come to mind right now

Favorite solo artist: Ozzy Osbourne....... Cher ... Ashnikko and yea there’s moar here toooo my mind is just blank

Song stuck in my head: Anything by 7m3 man this song has been stuck in my head all day 😩 he has such a nice voice it’s unreal!! Also it makes me feel all ->🥺 lol

Last movie: Clown Motel. I don’t recommend it’s fucking SHITE, I actually turned it off bout 30 mins in. (It’s a horror movie and usually I can stomach them even if they suck but this one actually pissed me off it was so bad) XD

Last show: Dr Phil... My stepsister forced me to watch it with her 😒

When did I create this blog: 2019 or so...

What do I post: fandom stuff, my art(occasionally) lot of aesthetic things... and just things I find funny. Oh and like lots of music. I try to keep it positive here but 😅 it maybe hasn’t been the best recently. Smh....... Buuuut uhhm I am trying to make my blog reflect me the best I can and I think I do a good job at that. :’}

Last thing I googled: one piece gogoanime dub.. :’)

Other blogs: 😳 uhhgfghnnnnmnmmmmmm @lovelyleons is my resident evil sideblog.... I have a My Hero Academia one but I’m not active on it at all anymore so I won’t share it and then everything else is just me hoarding Urls XD

Do I get asks: yea :3 I mean not always but I do appreciate the hell out of them all when I do get them ; u ;

Why I chose this Url: cause it’s cool B) and goats ‘nuff said

Following: 296

Followers: 192 (love ya folks ❤️)

Average hours of sleep: 6-7 hours I s’pose, I never really know, it’s either I oversleep or I don’t get enough 😪

Lucky number: 8 🎱

Instruments: I don’t own any, would be cool tho! Like having a bass or something 🤔 when I was in fourth grade I tried the violin and I just could not get it down (I mostly did it cause my mom really wanted me to play the devil went down to Georgia for her lol) sad to say I couldn’t do it xD

What am I wearing: Van Halen shirt (and long sleeve under shirt cause this one has a hole in the stomach of it :( it’s my fave tho I can’t get rid of it!!) just some sweatpants... and lil fuzzy sock monkey socks :•)

Dream job: im just gonna say not having a job too xD (but ok ok I have given it some thought and like maybe owning... a diner or something would be kinda cool 🤔a breakfast place) ahh idk...

Dream trip: Japan would be cool... or honestly anywhere that isn’t here. (But of course Finland too 😉) traveling the world would be nice... if I wasn’t so terrified of the thought of being on airplanes ._. I’d need someone to hold my hand all the way XD and also like all the Dramamine in the world would probably make it better

Favorite food: hhhhhhhhhh Pierogis are awesome... I like beef stew, pizza (and I have to say that pineapple on pizza is amazing😤) can’t go wrong with anything involving pasta... ahh it’s always so hard to answer favorite foods > n < cause now I’m just forgetting everything I actually do enjoy

Nationality: American

Favorite songs: Entombed by Deftones.. You get what you give by New Radicals always makes me super happy, Ghost of Perdition by Opeth is rad as fuck.. Jaguar God is perfect.. sustain the untruth.... ok I’ll stop now :’D (SIKE...I also just reallly enjoy the hell out of Chasm by Flyleaf)

Last book I read: Something something.... I haven’t read anything in forever.... really should get myself into reading again tho

Top three fictional universes I’d like to live in: the pokemon universe ; ; I could have so many Pokémon!! And travel everywhere. Atla universe so I can be an earthbender. And yea a nice little dreamy place in a Ghibli film as well ((((imma actually add a fourth... but living in the one piece world would be pretty sweet.. specially the freedom that would come with being a PIRATE!!)))) ; ;

Gonna tag @mikey-putrid @seaofashes @radellama @junk-culture @isabelle-lux @kuukigajan @kneesofthebee @lordswagcheese @adultswin @baeson-todd 🤔💭 of course no pressure if you don’t want to do it! No biggie!!

#one thing I wanna say is... can’t believe it took me so long to realize flyleaf was a religious band XD #annyywaaaays! thank you for this! I love doing these :3 #hellishgoatvomit #ah yess I layer up before going to bed cause my room is so cold 🥶 #but I love it xD #theo chatters

[tigrextoque]

Alright, short update time.

So these past two days I haven’t been all too active on this blog per se while still wanting to interact. I apologize for my lack of activity beyond like, very few things. I still make it a habit to write one headcanon a day to at least keep the muse sparking but most of the time I have no energy when I get home.

This is due to change probably like, tomorrow or the day after. I still love all of you and am just itching to write while hoarding all the threads and asks since I have no self control. So... Yeah, temporary.

But I think I probably need to rest a little bit. Heck, even my queue ran out. :v

So I’m sorry for letting people wait with their stuff. This is sort of my apology for that. :/

Reasons Excuses below the cut. It really doesn’t matter, I just put it there because I wanted to let it out xD

Okay so for those of you who don’t know, I work inventory. That means a physical fulltime job. The thing is, and I’m definitely saying this from a “waah waah” perspective, my boss doesn’t know when to stop. So we received a fuckton of orders yesterday AND a full container of shipment right at closing time, extending our workday to 10.5 hours. The same thing happened today, only instead of receiving a container we just handled everything we got from it. Another 10 hours.

So I can pretty much manage with that many hours of work a day but I’m also in the process of looking for an apartment since I’m planning to move out my folks’ place real soon. The result is, I leave by 7 AM and return home by 9 PM, SUPER drained.

That’s basically my excuse for lack of energy. And it’s affecting my hobbies and I hate it.

But you gotta listen to your body. And if your body says “no”, then it’s a “no”.

This has been a good small bit about my personal life. If you actually read it, WOW. THANKS DUDE xD

But like, yeah. That’s my excuse lol

#outofbites. #tldr; I'M FUCKING TIRED. I'M RESTING. #sorry :c #under the cut is just me detailing my life lately tbh

[morgynemberisagenderfluiddaddy]

All of them *^*

Heya Ash!! Oof you're giving me a project lol thank you so much for the ask!!!

1. How big is your mods folder?

That is a really great question. I couldn't tell you off the top of my head, but it got to the point where I had to put all my mods on a thumb drive and only move them around as I need them because I'm computer was running so terribly. So I'd say it's a lot 😅.

2. How would you describe your style?

Uh, I would say very graphic novel type vibes. I'm a huge graphic novel buff and the story I'm actually working on I intended to be a graphic novel, but it really got away from me and is much too big for that now (not a brag, just my legitimate crack head antics) so when I got into Sims editing the thought was always to kind of keep the drawn/comicbook-y feel to it.

3. What is your favorite challenge?

Thus far it's been the stereotype challenge ! It was a lot of fun and I got to do it with four of my OCs who ended up fitting the criteria pretty well! I just think it came out really well both as an edit and as my OCs.

4. Do you make CC?

Aahahaahahahhaahahaah!!!!!! No. I tried to make poses one time! One singular time and it ended so poorly that I decided to swear off making anymore off my own CC for the distant future. Maybe I'll try it again, maybe I'm scarred for life, only time can tell!

5. What type of CC do you hoard?

I had answered this one before, but I FUCKING LOVE POSES!!!! And like I said I didn't have the best experience making my own so I prefer to use downloaded ones. But I never really clean out my poses in case I need them for something else! So my pose folder is astronomical at this point.

6. What default eyes and skin do you use?

You know.... This really is a question I should have the answer to but I'm totally drawing a blank right now so I'll go ahead and put a link to the eyes here and the skin here when I can look it up! ✌

7. How many URLs have you had, and what are the meanings behind them?

On this blog I've only had the one? And I feel like it's pretty self explanatory, I love Morgyn because 1.) They're the absolute best 2.) Untamed magic? Yes ma'am! 3.) They're gender fluid / nonbinary like me!! And 4.) They're an absolute snack!!!! So it was a perfect fit for me.

8. Who is your favorite gameplay blog?

Why would you do me like this??????? I can't choose!!! I love them all and I'm friends with all of them because they're absolutely amazing people that I love so much!!! I don't have a favorite! 🥺

9. Favorite story telling blog?

Please see above answer!!!!! I LOVE YOU GUYS ALL SO MUCH I AHDHAHSGA I CANT!!!!

10. Who is your favorite CC creator?

I don't really want to answer this one either 😭 but I think the only person I know that makes CC is the awesome @barbieaiden they made a really kick ass emo glove CC that I absolutely love and you should check out. (Sorry if the rest of you make CC I'm sure I've probably seen it, probably even downloaded and reblogged, but this is all I can think if right now 💜) Also my go to for all pose stuff is the glorious @katverse they do incredible poses for pretty much anything you could think up, highly recommend.

11. How do you edit you photos?

This is certainly going to get a few gasps, but I make all of my edits on my phone!!!!! I use just a basic free photo editor app and kind of bend it to my will to get what I want out of it! I'm really bad at figuring out stuff like Photoshop and I'm not willing to pay the expensive price when I can do it and get just as good as a result as I want from something free easy and portable.

12. What's the last screenshot you took?

Once again it has to do with an edit I'm working on so here's the last one I put up if you're interested.

13. What do you do when you are unmotivated?

Honestly, this! Editing and the Sims are my escape from the real world. It helps me when I'm having a hard time with my anxiety because it gives me control over something, it helps me a lot with writer's block I can't tell you how my stories have been inspired because of it. But I guess if I'm bored in the game I usually just start a new save or play another game for a bit, I always come back after like a day though! To be fair I haven't been doing this long enough to feel unmotivated yet, maybe we should revisit this when I've been doing this longer than two months 😅

14. Who is your current favorite Sim?

Ugh!!! As you guys have found out about me I don't like to play favorites......... But if I had to say maybe my OC Parker's Sim, he just came out perfectly and is just spot on.

15. Who is your current favorite Sims that isn't yours?

Guidry!!!! He's frickin' hilarious and just so great. I honestly didn't expect them to put as much into him as they did but I'm glad they did!!! He's the best!! He's no Morgyn, but he's pretty great too.

16. Recreate someone else's Sim in your style.

So this sounds like a lot of fun! But I really don't want to change anyone else's Sim, I know how much we all put into them and they're basically like our babies. They mean a lot, so unless I get explicit consent from someone saying I can use their Sim in my style I'm going to pass out of respect this time.

17. Do you talk about the Sims with people in your life?

Yes! One of my really close friends is the whole reason I'm into editing and mods and stuff! She showed me everything I know and is totally awesome for that. (@jennifermakesstuff on Instagram, go check out she's absolutely amazing and a crocheting god, go do it)

18. How many packs do you own?

.......... I don't want to answer this..... It's honestly a problem..... But I have them all.... Minus the star wars one I just I cannot bring myself to get it, it just looks terrible. But yeah I collect the packs and it's a problem 😅 but if you need advice on what pack to get next I'm your person!

19. How many posts do you have on your blog currently?

141 👀 I uh.... I have nothing else to say about that lol

20. How many drafts do you have currently?

Too many. But they're all like ask games and stuff for my OCs so yup!

21. How many posts are currently in your queue?

Only two 🙃 I need to get back to editing so I can hopefully have some more but I'm sick right now so... Maybe it's time for me to start that gameplay I've been threatening.

22. Have you ever moved blogs?

Okay yes, but not intentionally but I've moved three times? I had a blog for when I first started on tumblr it was for music stuff but I forgot to pass code to it so now it's just there, the other one I had was for my art & make up stuff but it wasn't doing good at all so I just turned it into my personal blog, and then from there I moved to this one! Also I'm avoiding my personal one like the plague right now because of a whole disaster that happened with someone I followed and I don't have the balls to unfollow them so I'm just pretending that account doesn't exist 😅.

23. Are you in any Sims related discords?

Yep! This one right here by the very amazing @clumsyghostie I'm really new to discord so it's the only one I've been apart of (EVER) but everyone has been really nice and friendly!!

24. What are your thoughts on the most recent pack? (Paranormal)

I like it! It added more to the gameplay than past packs have, but I always felt it left something to be desired in the way of CAS and build mode. Spoilers starting here if you care: Also it would've been cool if you could have had more interactions with Temperance like you can with Guidry, and if the specters did more that would be cool too. Either way I think it's good, I wouldn't say it's groundbreaking for the game experience, but it is fun.

25. How many hours have you played the Sims?

Let's find out 3,215 hours 😅 that's board line a problem hahaha if my math is right (it probably isn't because I'm gay and bad at math) that's a hundred and thirty three days straight? Jesus I might need help lol.

26. If you play gameplay, do you play with mods?

I used to! But I play on a regular laptop so it can't really run gameplay mods unfortunately so unless I'm doing edits my game is vanilla.

27. What's the furthest you've gotten on a challenge?

So I'm really bad at challenges! My favorite lately has been rags to riches it's a lot of fun but I always get bored after they get married and pregnant :/ I never know what to do after that because like the challenge is over but I'm so invested in these Sims 😅

Thank you again for the asks! This was a lot of fun 💖 I know I answered all the questions just now but feel free to send me an ask for whatever you want! I love interacting with you all, you're all so amazing 💖💖💖

#get to know the simblr #get to know me #izzy answers things #izzy speaks but i really shouldnt #lilypixels #love ya ash!!! #ask game #ask #send me an ask if you want

[sadiesdolls]

Okay I’m done talking about Skyrim. Sorry about that, I know it’s a 10 (!) year old game and my opinions about Tamrielic politics are probably Bad, it’s just I don’t have my old gaming blog anymore and more of you cared about it than I thought, lol

Anyway, the missing fabric for the tutorial project came. Katherine used dark brown with fairly large (for doll scale) pink roses and some script in the background. I couldn’t find anything like it in my stash so I had to comb through fabric listings for a while trying to find something that would work and I think I got fairly close. I’m going to cut out pieces for at least the dress this afternoon. Maybe I’ll cut all the pieces? Then I can just be done with cutting? Actually that sounds nice, yeah.

I’m surprised how little I had to buy for this project. This fabric, the hair, some brown tulle, and the other day I picked up some copper findings I was missing, but aside from that I think I already had all the parts and materials just from hoarding tiny steampunk nonsense and generally being a crafter. I did buy the patterns from the DollightfulPatterns etsy to make things easier on myself, but she shows them flat in the video and says it’s so that people can use them, so I could have done it that way.

I’m finding it a fun challenge to create a doll based on someone else’s design. That’s a big part of why I’ve had so much fun making the Mighty Nein dolls, too—though I think I have a lot more leeway there since they weren’t originally doll designs. Maybe that means there’s more challenge, too? This tutorial project is basically just trying to follow an existing doll formula as closely as possible—in fact I keep resisting the urge to change things—instead of coming up with my own ways to make doll sized versions of things that fit someone’s imaginary specifications. Hmm that’s interesting to think about, I wonder which I enjoy more? And why? Maybe I’d like to follow more people’s tutorials? Or make other extremely specific character dolls? I’ll have to think about this and come up with a deep lore fan theory about my doll making habits, haha.

[shorkbrian]

INBOX

SO! I know I hoard asks. It’s a bad habit. Reasons?

I like to go look at them when I’m sad because they cheer me up.

I don’t want anyone to get annoyed that my blog is clogged up with asks, it’s a fear of mine that someone will think I'm annoying.

BUTT! My inbox is so cluttered right now, It’s hard for me to find certain requests. I saw someone else do an mass ask answering like this, and I LEARNED that if I tag it, I can look that tag up on my blog!

ALSO PSA you can also comment on my pics or message me to talk!!!!! I will never turn anyone away!!! I love you all!

ANOTHER PSA - if you want to not have to see this in the future, pls block the tag “shorkbrian answers a lot of asks”

Lets get ready to rumble!!!!!!!

These are in no particular order! Know that if you don’t see an ask you sent, it’s because I plan on writing something for it, probably like a lil Drabble cause those are my favorite (can you tell?)

Hello! My pronouns are They/Them or He/Him! I want to like give u a big ole hug for this question, You’re super sweet!

OOP Okay listen I’ve had a couple dreams with very unsavory happenings and each one is awful and so so scary. I hope your dream didn’t make you feel icky or anything dude. I Lub u, stay safe.

I am speechless. This is.... wow man. This is an amazing, positive review of my work and I feel so blessed and honored that you took the time to message me. I LOVE LOVE LOVE reading what people think of my work, and this one made me just like. I am like so blessed dude. Speechless (in the best way possible)

AHHHHH Thank you!!!! Look at those emojis!!!! SO bright and colorful and fun!!!!

As a fellow Hornee person that is dumb, I would like to say...... Why stop at a chefs kiss? are you afraid to kiss me on the mouth, homie? For future reference, I like tongue. (asdaslhjkah sorry I’m stupid but Thank you for these kind words!!!! What nice descriptors man, I’m like wilting under the praise its too much!)

Yes, reader is NOT going to have a fun time. Thanks for reading! I appreciate your support so so so much!!

Hey, listen! Requests are “closed” so I can have time to catch up without getting overwhelmed. If one or two slip in, they won’t get deleted :)

Bro, I recently talked to a friend with a similar experience. I’m so sorry for the things you’ve had to deal with, it sounds awful. The world is big and scary and VERY loud, and you are so amazing for navigating it. Bakugou would give you insane cuddles to help u feel better, remember dat okie?

Maybe! I’m getting around to things babey, it might take a hot second. But I will try!

Thank you! I try babey I try lol. I Lub u by the way thank u for msging me

I accept this wisdom. Thank you for sharing. I pray for a time when I will be able to use it.

You nailed it. I want this on my tombstone pls and thank u.

omg omg thank youuuuuuuu!!!!! Honestly, I think Izuku is still so so so shy, even when it comes to doing stuff with his darling.  ugh his poor darling. Ur right tho, no one would ever believe that Izuku was doing bad stuff. But once again!!! Thank YOU for reading and taking the time to send me an ask!!!! Warms my heart

wait wait okay I LOVE LOVE LOVE Kirishima I am his BIGGEST simp and this compliment? SENT ME TO OUTER SPACE. I squealed so hard I got like liftoff and I made it out of the atmosphere. This is the BEST thing EVER Thank you SO much my heart is POURING out love Grimm I would DIE for u no cap 

idk? Personally, I hate being touched so I probably would politely be like “Pls dont ahah” but I would hit him with paper airplanes with cute little notes inside.

I wish I wish with all my heart that I could turn into a small person tonight. Like, I'm crying. I am 6′0 and built like a refrigerator aint nobody able to manhandle me... *sobs in big man syndrome* I will continue to feed u tho bc it is a GIANT fantasy of mine to be manhandled and tossed around. lets goooooo

I don’t want to be a religion, can we start a cult? I’ll be the sacrifice.

bonk bonk bonk bonk bonk bonk TOO LATE (Also thank ant the comment abc my humor! Inspires me and tbh enables me)

no U 

“hey google?”

“What can I help you with today?”

“Why do I have the SWEEEEEEETEST followers ever? How did this happen? They make me blush I can’t handle it”

I have a SIMP???????? Come off anon u and I are going to talk and then passionately kiss. (not rlly but I do Lub you, thank you for the kind and gentle words)

bonk bonk bonk bonk (Also this was sent to me on a Sunday? I live in America bruv)

Pls don’t I almost peed my pants I was snorting at 2am and trying my hardest not to disturb my cat it was very hard (Repeat I almost PEED my PANST U HEATHEN)

wait stop stop u always give me such amazing comments skid I want to give u a candle made with wax and tears of love. You are so sweet. Pls never hesitate to reach out for a chat I luv u okei

BLACK HEART ANON I’m dedicating everything in my will to u, hope you know that. Okay, but seriously - I get being afraid of people. I don’t think you’re being hypocritical, I think you’re being kind and selfless and reaching out a helping hand to a loser like me. Black heart emojis low-key always make me think of you now and it fills my heart with warmth. Thank you for existing dude,

What have I said about the chefs kiss? Kiss me on the mouth u cowards. Do it.

Also this ask made me SAWFT I want to gibe u like idk a candy heart necklace to show how SOFT and Ugh demonstrate my LUB

I am glad I found YOU!!! Not everyone bothers to comment or interact or send me nice asks. They make my day man. You rock!

YYaaaayyyyaa!!! I’m cool with all the canon characters of BNHA except for Bakubro. I adore his fanon personification, but just how he acts in the show..... that aint it chief. I totally get u

TYSM!!!! Heart heart!! Aizawa has the potential to be so creepy and awful, he’s super interesting to try and write for! I’m glad you like my content, and thank you for telling me such!!!!!!!! LUB U

GRIMMM STAWWWWWWP I’m like on the verge of like melting into a PUDDLE of goopy admiration how the heck do u even know my blog ur so cool and I still can’t believe I can like.... talk to you. Ur rad dude.

BLACK HEARTTTTTTT You are never invading my privacy. Your asks are two that I hold very near and dear to my heart. I reread them over and over and they help when I’m having sucky days. Pls pls pls recognize that you’re an amazing person and you lift up my spirits and you are genuinely awesome. I love u Black Heart

I LOVE Kiri, have I mentioned? He’s my fav. And yes!!! I am VERY open to ideas!!!! Love pretty much everything and anything that comes my way!!! thank u for sending me an ask dude, means a lot :)

Sensitive anon, my dear dear friend if ur reading this know that I adore talking with u and I like hearing about ur day and You are so sweet and you make the world a better place by being in it

WE SIMP...... TOGETHER!!!!

Another beautiful baby that I always see interacting with me!!! I love you so so much and Each time your name pops up in my motifs I get so excited to see what you say!!! I’ve been holding onto this ask FOREVER because the little picture is SO CUTE and it makes me softer than melted butter man.

Okay, we’ve done it lads! I love each and every one of you!!!!!!!

#shorkbrian answers a lot of asks #love all of you #so so so much #you all make my day

[serialreblogger]

Tagging Game

thank you for the tag @theproblemwithstardust!

rules: tag 10 people you think would like to be tagged, and copy/paste the asks into a new post. Answer all/as many of them as you want!

1. do you prefer writing with a black pen or a blue pen? bold of you provide such a boring binary. i prefer green

2. would you prefer to live in the country or in the city? again: no. give me Forest or give me death

3. if you could learn a new skill, what would it be? FLIGHT

4. do you drink your tea/coffee with sugar? so MUCH. i have to add half of it at the hot water station at work and half at my desk so my coworkers don’t catch on that i’m a hummingbird in human form

5. what was your favorite book as a child? one??? well i loved The Girl Who Could Fly by Victoria Forester. When i was little i read pretty much whatever i could get my hands on tho, most of which were really old and British for some reason? which is why i now talk like a horrific combination of “abominable tumblrite” and “Victorian aristocrat”

6. do you prefer baths or showers? BATHS but only if i can play music to drown out the sound of my ears ringing

7. if you could be a mythical creature, which one would you be? i WOULD be a dryad, but if i could choose i’d be a shapeshifter (capable of transforming into anything and everything)

8. paper or electronic books? i hoard books like a dragon hoards gold, but like. electronic books are also valid (no no look i’m not elitist, some of my best friends are fanfics)

9. what is your favorite item of clothing? i have a sky blue dress shirt that is the perfect fabric and colour and shape and i love it so much

10. do you like your name? would you like to change it? my Name is Linden, and i love it. my legal name is distressingly ugly and i hate it

11. who is a mentor to you? dang, friend, i don’t think i trust any adults enough for them to count

12. would you like to be famous? if so, what for? i would like to be famous for writing excellent, world-changing fantasy fiction. it will have actual representation and will be so popular that no one will remember the name of that other british writer, she who must not be named

13. are you a restless sleeper? ehh i don’t have insomnia but like. i don’t -enjoy- sleeping

14. do you consider yourself to be a romantic person? nah fam i’m MUCH to screwed up for that. i like romance well enough but i’m awkward as heck, doubly so with romance. sorry Cris, i love you

15. which element best represents you? aether! i am Edgy

16. who do you want to be closer to? some of my irl friends, i guess, bc i’m real bad at relationship maintenance sometimes

17. do you miss someone at the moment? i miss my girlfriend!

18. tell us about an early childhood memory. my childhood had happy parts but i mostly remember all that trauma, so imma give y’all a pass on that one

19. what is the strangest thing you have eaten? honestly, probably calamari. i’m not an adventurous eater. but i do like me some nice rubbery squid

20. what are you most thankful for? i just got a job, which means i can (hopefully) move out in the next little bit!

21. do you like spicy food? NO i do NOT enjoy the feeling of flame inside my mouth, i am TOO WHITE for that

22. have you ever met someone famous? Ryan Reynold’s brother’s cousin or something works at our local Costco, does that count?

23. do you keep a diary or journal? it’s called a “tumblr blog”

24. do you prefer to use pen or pencil? pencil!

25. what is your star sign? i like 🌠

26. do you like your cereal crunchy or soggy? unpopular opinion but soggy cereal is better

27. what would you want your legacy to be? i want something i do to have a real, significant, important impact on the justice of this awful world. i want my life to make it easier for the kids who come after me to live theirs

28. do you like reading? What was the last book you read? i LOVE reading but these days it’s only fanfiction. Do you accept The Reverb in These Holy Halls by @wolftraps? I hope so because it well surpasses most fiction for thematic complexity and superb characterization, do recommend

29. what are you afraid of? literally everything

30. what is your favorite scent? i don’t really like scents, but i love the smell of my girlfriend’s house

31. do you address older people by their name or surname? i prefer to simply Not address them (because i want to call them by their surname but at this point i’m also an adult and that’s apparently weird)

32. if money was not a factor, how would you live your life? i would MOVE OUT. then take a part-time desk job and spend the rest of my time growing succulents and writing stories

33. do you prefer swimming in pools or the ocean? mmm also no

34. what would you do if you found $50 in the ground? honestly i’d probably ask the nearest person if it was theirs, and they would say yes even though it wasn’t and i wouldn’t clue in until i was halfway down the block

35. if you were to get a tattoo, what would it be and where would you get it? i GENUINELY don’t trust myself enough to get a tattoo. i’m not permanent enough for that. but if i had to i’d probably pick a little, colourful, very pretty tree design and put it on my ankle or the inside of my wrist

36. what can you hear now? Welcome To The Black Parade by MCR

37. where do you feel the safest? lol imagine feeling safe

38. if you could travel back to any era, what would it be? look if i existed at any point prior to today i would, 100% without doubt, be dead by now. that said the 1920s had some sweet hair jewelry

39. what is your most used emoji? 😊

40. describe yourself using one word. contradictory

41. what do you regret the most? who i used to think i was. the person i tried to be

42. last movie you saw? The Meg (hey, it has a surprisingly good romance subplot. i was actually mildly invested, A+ for a canon m/f ship in a dumb action movie. Also it has Attractive Bruce Willis in it, so bonus points)

43. last tv show you watched? i think it was Community

44. invent a word and its meaning: Hieuule is from my current wip. It means “treasure/wealth of spirit”

ok imma tag @onionwithanxiety, @existentialcrisisetcetera, @hitsuaya, @imthesheikofaraby, @elmofongo, @oliver-in-retrograde, @thenorsiest, @lunarmultishine, @marshmallow-fluffy and @affzinho! I’d love to see y’all’s responses (but please don’t feel pressured, of course) and anyone else who wants to do this, consider yourselves tagged by yours truly!!

#ask game #tagging game #long post

[fromthedeskofelizabeththird]

My Life In 20 Questions

@heavenzfiend tagged me <3

1. What do you prefer to be called namewise?

Call me Elly! It’s not my real name, but tbh I feel like my real name doesn’t suit me. 

2. When is your birthday?

April 18th, same as David Tennant’s

3. Where do you live? (You can just give the country’s or state name if you’re not comfortable with sharing the city name)

I live in Derbyshire, same as Mr Darcy

4. Three things you are doing right now?

Enjoying a cup of tea (Earl Grey ofc)

Writing

Catching up on the MCU (I got a discounted subscription to Disney+ with my mobile phone network)

5. Four fandoms that have your peak interest right now?

BNHA has taken over me, blame @jihyxnkim

Bleach has also taken over me, blame @xeraeus

Animal Crossing

That’s it for now

6. How has this pandemic been treating you?

I’m a key worker, so I’ve been working from home.

Tbh, quarantine and social distancing have been blessings because people are really pissing me off right now lol and I also have a really long commute each day, so I get to sleep in, which is nice.

7. A song you can’t stop listening to right now?

Gurenge by LiSA

8. Recommend a movie

Happy Death Day, though not the sequel

9. How old are you? (not that you have to share)

Old enough to know better, young enough not to care loL

10. School, university, occupation or other?

I don’t really understand this question lol, but I work in transport, logistics and accident prevention. I also have a BA in Creative Writing and English and an MA in Creative Writing

11. Do you prefer heat or cold?

Cold lol. I’m from England and we just aren’t used to heat. Give me cold and rain any day so I can drink tea and snuggle in blankets.

12. Name one fact about you that others might find unusual

I’ve lived on three continents?

13. Are you shy?

I am incredibly shy and introverted. I know everyone says that, but literally, I’m that shy that my college professors didn’t know my name and used to refer to me by my friend’s name. She was also really introverted and skipped class a lot, so we got to graduation and they still didn’t know who was who. My form tutor (like, homeroom teacher?) used to affectionately call us ‘the Jennies’ because everyone called us both Jenny   

i mean, to be fair to them they got it right 50% of the time

and yes, my friend and i used to mess with them and answer to Jenny some times and not others to confuse them even more

14. Do you have preferred pronouns?

She/her 

15. Biggest pet peeves?

I don’t know how to narrow it down lol

I guess really self centred, narcissistic people?

16. What is your favourite “-dere” type?

kuudere

17. Rate your life from 1-10 (1 being crappy, 10 being amazing).

7, I guess? I mean, all things considered with the pandemic etc, things are going pretty well

18. What is your main blog?

@cyanideespresso 

19. List your side blogs and what they are used for.

Let’s see

There’s this one

@karakurashoujo (Bleach imagines blog that I ran before this)

@playingpokerwithtarotcards (tarot blog that’s mostly abandoned)

i also have a few hoarded URLs

20. One thing you think people should know about you before they become your friends?

I’m that friend who will read your message and then forget to reply, I’m so sorry djfhgdfd

i’ll tag @xeraeus, @the-sloth-woman and @jihyxnkim if yall haven’t done this already

#elly talks #shut up elly

[sabazio]

I kind of had something planned for this post but it ended up falling through at the last minute.

Regardless! August 3rd marks my 7th anniversary on this account and I’m feeling a bit sentimental. I made this account fresh out of high school on a whim at like 5am after talking to eva-cybele because she had a mitsuru. I was nihilfists back then. Now I’m out of college, technically graduated. It’s honestly wild. Catch me still here after a decade.... (if tungler lasts that long lmao.)

I often ask myself why I’m even still here but despite it all I keep coming back no matter how much time has passed. I’ve tried a few other muses but in the end I keep coming back to him and this dumb as rocks community. I’ve met some of my best friends through here, some of them I still talk to, or have met irl. I’m so grateful. 

I feel like I’ve missed people but so many people have changed urls or moved on I really can’t keep track anymore. Just know, that if we’ve written together, interacted ic or ooc, then: thank you for taking the time. I love you, sincerely.

@dolgelo : This summer I felt like I was finally really able to bond with you---which is something I’ve always wanted to do but was never quite able to for whatever reason. One of my biggest wishes on this blog was to find a mitsuru who was not only passionate about the character and lore, but who loved akimitsu as much as I did. I just wanted someone to have such a pure love for the character, and be on the same level and I finally found her in you. (You’re the asami to my fukki. you’re a sunflower blooooming out of season.) Writing with you is honestly a dream come true. I love reading your thoughts and metas on her, plotting with you, your twitter content, and watching and talking about stage plays and audio dramas. Thank you for sharing so much with me, and for all you do. You’re such a joy clio, don’t let anyone say otherwise. Thank you for spending time with me! Thank you for being my friend!

@crossxskulled / @valorxdrive @jououpansa @zenkofu @rainylotus @qiedaji : I mean, you guys are The Squad. We haven’t felt as close lately, but everyone’s out busy with their lives and that’s okay! I think about you guys every day and I hope you’re doing well. I just can’t tell you how grateful I am that you guys picked me up, of all people, to come hang with you on your silly discord.  I’ve never met a group of people I meshed with so nicely without incident, and our chemistry always felt unmatched. It’s kind of silly, but I’ve always wanted a group chat and like we have, and I found it in you guys. The hours of fun I’ve had with you were some of the happiest times of my life. It’s going to be our one year anniversary very soon, actually! I hope it can continue for more.

@cast-r : It feels strange to be writing this for you because I don’t even know you that well! But you feel like a cryptid in this community, HAHA. When you come around there’s just hushed whispers in my DMs of ‘cast-r’s back!!!’. Your writing is simply some of the best, and I hang on every word. I love your grounded, no-nonsense take on Shinji and I always will. You’ve been with us for so long it just feels wrong when you’re not. I... remember when you were going through grad school. I’m glad you’re like me in that you just can’t stay away, haha. (I look forward to seeing more of your Raidou.)

@miskick : My dear konapop you’re the other I just can’t see this community without. One of the only OCs I’ve ever truly cared about (sorry! lol) I love Karin and our characters have such playful chemistry. Her crush on him is endearing and I’ve always thought it was cute. You just put so much love, care, and effort into everything you do and to see your journey has been so inspiring. Your art especially!! Like?? Everyone go check out her art it’s so incredible! I just adore you kona keep it up!!! I believe in you!!! It’s also crazy that we only live an hour apart now... I hope we can hang out sometime.

@transiens : You’re not even HERE anymore but you’ve been with me since the very beginning--- and yet we’ve never done an actual thread with akihiko and makoto. You’re a friend though that I feel like I’ll always have. I have a lot of interests in common with you and I think that’s what keeps us together. I love talking FF with you, jojo, DMC there’s just so much... I miss your writing. I miss your makoto... and I miss our dantebayos... :(

@gamenu / @gooselullaby : meimei!!! The other forever constant in my life who I couldn’t do without. Akihiko found a little sister in the both of your muses, and they both make him miserable for vastly different reasons LAUGHS. The sheer amount of prompts you’ve sent over on Nanako were so many I’ve hoarded them all in my asks for when I could give them proper replies and never ended up getting around to them. But that kind of generosity thought and care is something I feel like I owe you 10x over. I love writing with Nanako. It’s one of the few threads where I feel Akihiko is truly, truly happy and I enjoy being able to write that side of him with you since none of my threads are ever able to attain that kind of purity. You’re not afraid to write the mundane, or the innocent that people seem to avoid. I just really love writing with you, even though you reply so fast I get whiplash. You’re incredible. Keep writing like the wind!!!

@enshijou  @fukukaichc @adievs : You’re all three honorable mentions because I’ve just gotten the pleasure of meeting you recently (with the exception of fukukaichc) and I might not have anything spectacular to say and no paragraphs to personally sing your praises but know that I’m just so taken with you guys. Your writing is so wonderful. Enshijou I love your Ryoji, I love his charm and sweetness, I love the mystery beneath him. I love your aesthetic and I love the friendliness of the mun. Your threads with Clio are some of my favorites.  Fukukaichc you’re another sweet mun. Writing novellas with our petty, stubborn emperors is honestly so fun. Turning the dash into a mess with not-so-crack is on of my favorite memories. I never thought I’d have so much fun writing with a persona npc. You breathe such life into him. Adievs I hardly know you but you’re a sweetheart and I wish nothing but the best for you. Your sense of humor is so funny, thanks for birthing clownsuru into this world so I can suffer. I hope we can continue our thread sometime because Akihiko interacting with Haru is something I never knew I needed. If Mitsuru is queen, then Haru is a princess.

You’ve been with me for what feels like forever.

@bleachblondbeefcake @maikoyaki @finalhxaven @succubischaos @tacitusauxilium : Exactly what it says on the tin. You guys have been here with me forever and I just wanted to formally thank you for sticking around for so long. I love you! I’m just glad you’e still here. Seeing you reminds me of the good ol days ;___;

I miss you :/

cheerfulfool windsaffinity p-a-p-i-l-i-o-n imperiousqueen crimsonxheadphones textsfromkatsuragi waning-atonement jokyoukou shoscarred ... and to all the junpeis and kens that have come and gone... bls. come back.

#;ooc #im feeling sentimental :( #this is long... #i tried getting it out before midnight but it feels only natural to post it at the dark hour jgdshjfffg #it's still the 3rd somewhere though #im fuckkgignhn OLD my GOOD DUDES

[spacejew]

oops accidental personal post I guess

It's weird that I almost feel the need to go here to personal blog again because of a handful of irl friends following what was supposed to be a private personal Twitter in theory, just for like, idk, internet strangers and friends I made online not those imported from meatspace. Also those character limits... Suffocating.

Anyways yeah things are kinda stable but dissapointing lifewise? I'm definitely in a rut and stuck somewhere I'm desperately trying to get out of. Also like. idk. Gender shit. I think I really fucked myself over hard when I made the decision a few years back to conviously bottle up all my dysphoria and trans feelings and bury them and repress them hard and just live as a very gay and feminine bi boy and like. hm. I think I've been happy since? But im thinking now that maybe. Because that's still a part of my psyche that haunts me every day. I might actually have been mildly depressed this whole time and like, still struggling to make important life decisions because of the anxiety of that. Idk. Maybe if I got a therapist and realistic attention to that all those years ago and it turned out to be very real n legit and i got to make tough choices and live my truth, I would be equipped now to actually be joyful and able to fully focus on hard work and taking risks and putting myself out there and being successful and shit. Idk idk idk. I just have to wonder if all this time I've actually been quite unhappy and filling the void with dumb shit and a good deal of dissociation and complacency. Idk. what I'm saying is maybe I made a big mistake there lmao and could've started transitioning, if that's right for me, 4-7 years ago maybe, who knows. Haha so fun. Fuck me. Big Regrets, lads. But also I still don't know if that's right. Which probs means it is who am I kidding. Oof. But it's ok life is a journey I'm full of wise shit and I know it's not the end of the world. It just kinda. Makes me so sad on behalf of the old me who would cry so much because of dysphoria and living in this body in this life. She knew. I don't know why I buried her alive like that. Anyways.

I spent all year struggling to make an animated short (which ended up being kinda long tbh like 10 minutes?) by myself mostly, just me and my mental blocks and executive dysfunction and shit, but I was v passionate about it and worked hard and got to actually bring a whole vision to life, with basically nobody to tell me what to do, just give me feedback that I wasn't obligated to follow. It came out pretty nice and I'm very happy that I got to tell exactly the story I wanted and try a cool new look and I just wish I gave myself more time to work on the actual animation part but I put my heart and endless weeks and months of refinement into the storyboarding and script and every little detail and I really feel accomplished and like it paid off -- and I even got to do a private screening at my summer camp job that I was called in to do one more time at the last minute right when I finished my film, it was a miracle and so perfect, everyone cried and truly loved it and felt touched by it. And then I went to animation festivals! And all this cool shit! But... I haven't been able to figure out a public screening thing yet. And I feel like all my excitement is gone now. And I really wanted to polish the look and some backgrounds a little, just some very quick rerendering and comp, but. I feel like too much time has passed, i just feel dissapointed. I haven't put it online yet cause I haven't done my public screening, cause of my stupid anxiety about little details and overall idk imposter syndrome I guwss I feel more ashamed of it than proud of it even tho it's probably good, and like I feel that everyone was excited to support me but probably nobody cares anymore.

Basically I had all the wind taken out of my sails. Oh and right when I was trying to get it off the ground I guess and push through, my grandma died. I'm so heartbroken I loved her so fucking much and. She never got to see the film cause of my stupid bullshit. I feel so bad about that. So so bad. Ugh. And it's a film very very hilariously blatantly directly based on me and my feelings and my real family history, ultimately besides other main themes it's about talking to your grandparents and family about the past and your current feelings. And in it the main character, a girl, cough cough even though it's basically me, cough cough go figure, gender shit, anyways the climax is her going back in time to talk to her great grandma, and it's very emotional and my best friend of like almost 10 years now composed and recording a music for that scene for me. And now when I eventually screen this, my entire family and also myself is gonna get torn to shreds by this scene more than intended because my own fucking grandma, who I was excited to show this film to more than anyone on earth, passed so unexpectedly without seeing it. Fuck. Why didn't I send it to her when she was in the hospital? Obviously cause if I did that that would make it real and she wouldn't get better and all I do is live in denial. Ugh. Anyways yeah. The point is I'm stagnant and in a rut right now and just want to move forward and focus on making new work and just get a real career relevant job already. Tough year hit a well needed high and now petering off back into misery. Not to be dramatic. I'm ok tbh I have a part time I'm slowly getting sick of and a loving supportive partner and some very good friends, tho not as many as I used to see regularly and that's kinda sad too. That's your 20s babey.

I just need to move on and make big changes. My pattern rn is like. Work fri-sun, if I'm lucky I get to hang out with friends or lovers, usually at least with my partner. on monday I recover from working. on tuesday I have dnd and usually get some stuff done but honestly just catch up on warframe with my clan friends. wednesday my partner and I got to the park and library for half the day and eat and draw and talk. on thursday I mentally prepare for work again and usually we go out to play another roleplaying game with her roommates friends. a lot of that free time that's been left unmentioned is spent being over at bae's sometimes so I don't have the ability to get much work done. Lately I've spent most of my time planning a dnd campaign which is fun but also too stressful on account of obviously I'm not playing it yet so like what's the point, sorry friends who have patiently waited for months for me to be ready to start the game for them. And also like. Yeah idk. just sad and confused and resting my weary heart and body after a very rough month after my grandma passed. But! I did accomplish a very crazy deep cleaning of my room. I threw out 14 bags of shit at the least. I wish I weighed it all, it was a lot. I feel so much more organized and cleansed from that. For the record I didn't have any trash in my room, nor was it every a mess. Just every single cabinet and drawer was crammed full of stuff and I guess I hoarded a lot of shit. I was able to throw away a lot of things I held on to be cause of sentimentality and I'm proud of myself for growing that way. So like. Idk. It's not all bad, baby steps. I still feel like I'm constantly improving as a person! I'm positive, optimistic. Just tired, anxious, and feel bad.

Also I finally got a new phone and because of my hubris I dropped it without a case and it shattered only two weeks in. The day I was gonna buy a case. But it's ok. Story of my life I guess. I can't keep everything pristine and polished forever, one day shit falls and breaks but it's still usable. It has character.

I wasn't expecting to dump everything like this, sorry yall. Thanks for reading I guess. Also I forgot how to do a read more on mobile lol sorry

#personal #capn whitey #tw death #i guess

[azhorratha]

How I Run My Blog

Speed: Slow af. I tend to hoard asks for when I can think of what to do for the replies and I’m sorry for that, it might be a month before I get that answered or it’s ten seconds after. There’s almost no inbetween. Threads are almost the same but I do have a bit of a chaotic schedule here at home, I still try to make sure I’m not taking forever. 

Replies: I tend to mirror a lot. There’s no reason to go above and beyond on a reply when the other just did a paragraph, we can just single para each other until it gets a bit more involved, that’s fine. I’ll plot almost continuously through a thread with people or I can just plot the initial meeting and let it wing itself from there. Really, my rules and I might sound rough but I’m just here to write and have fun with people.

Starters: As long as I know where to start and how, I’m totally fine with doing starters for us. Where they should meet, whether they’ve met before or not, how extensive their relationship is - then we can just wing it from there. Or pop in each other’s DMs at 4am like ‘hey what if this happened?’

Inbox: Oh boy. I take forever with the inbox lol, like I say up above, I don��t mean to do this but I do want to give a good reply. Sometimes, if one doesn’t spark a response from a muse, I’ll delete it but only after a couple of months has gone by. 

Selectivity: As per the blog rules, I’m mutuals only. I prefer to interact with people who are following me and who I also follow. This is more of a comfort thing for me as I know Tumblr RPC can be a wild place sometimes. Shipping selectivity is mostly the same no matter what I put in the shipping section of my rules - if we’re mutuals, you already have a damn good chance for shipping as long as the chemistry is good for them. 

Wishlist: I just wanna write with you guys man. I do want to try to get more of a variety going with things that I don’t normally do, which is damn near everything aside from angst. 

Honest Note: I really want to get back into RPing and falling in love with my own muses. Lately it feels like I’ve dropped the ball a lot with them and I’m taking on a huge risk going for a near ten muse Multi blog but I can’t manage multiple single muse blogs. Of course, I do tend to be wary of everyone on here that I don’t know. Had a few bad run-ins but I’m not going to let that take away my enjoyment.

Seriously tho, if you want to ship or plot or even just talk, let’s do it. 

tagged by: stole it tagging: whoever would like to do it

#;;eldritch abomination: ooc #;;general: dash games

[confessionsofalionholic]

Hi, COAL admins. I don’t want people to be posting on my blog, at all. Ever. That’s why my stuff is Anon.

So, as far as NIP…..

Should be apologizing to me. Especially after those lies.

I have done nothing but protect Rat Clan. From thieves, from people only there for drama… and others.

Let’s go through what Nip said…

(A bird just flew into my window?)

“

hey guys, it’s nip here, ya know, the “thief”. Yes, the thief.

ashri isn’t part of that, for obvious reasons. (I’m not sure why, I let you be admin for longer than you should have been. ALL you did was sit around, ask permission to take GB & without waiting, take it, you made CSS & maybe accepted 4 or 5 member requests and came out with the theme song…) 

i’m gonna come clean here; i didn’t steal because ‘i wanted that stuff!!!’ (All the stuff you stole, Land put in, which is why she was upset. I had her talk to you…)

it’s because i’ve seen so much bad shit on ashri (you’re not even in the discord, so you wouldn’t know if any of it is true or just framed [which most of it is, trust me.], that i decided i was sick of her abysmal rules (?) and the harmful things that she had said to many clan members in the discord [when? LOL this is a blatant lie]. i wanted to leave the clan to avoid getting bashed for being part of it (AND STEAL?). that backfired. i didn’t mean to steal 10gb worth of items [sure ya did]; i hadn’t counted the gb count when i took everything i did. of course, the sb and gb were on my terms.

This is where it gets interesting… 

a dear friend i was talking to told me to stick with items, but i was low on funds and required the 5gb for my FAPA  as i have 40+ lions in my pride and, what, 100 sb+0 gb? the 3k i planned to use to help me alot, while the 5gb i used immediately on FAPA because it was a pain to go through all my lions every day. (Who cares, you could have asked)

i took the css i made too, because i worked hard on that and was going to leave anyway. (Ok cool)

when ashri came on, i had her blocked out of fear i was going to get a pure yell at. i was heading to sleep when i opened my phone about 11:00 pm to see messages from the friend i mentioned earlier, a screenshot. i checked to see ashri had come back on.

I have never "pure yelled” at someone. I didn’t understand it, and an admin told me what happened I was like, well shit. That’s all. I tried to message you friendly, AS YOU COULD SEE in previous posts, hoping you’d come to your senses. You had me blocked, which then put me into a little bit of frustration. I then asked another admin to 3rd-party.

a few quotes directly from ashri, from a screenshot: ‘just don’t trust nip lmao’ 'my messages are not harmful to anyone’

Yeah, don’t trust Nip, they were supposed to keep this clan running, as an admin, but never did anything to support it and didn’t just leave like a mature person would, they stole alot of items, set the clan hoard grab to 10, took their CSS, took GB, and SB, and blocked the admins.

i was scared. scared i’d get in trouble. scared i was going to get a ban, or to get questioned, or harassed by rat clan members [which didn’t happen, luckily] Yeah, because that wasn’t my goal. Yeah. I’m going to call you out because you’re a fucking thief. That’s it though.

THIS IS INTERESTING a member came to question me. they asked, 'why did you take that stuff?’ i explained to them, and they understood. added me on discord and told me that land [an admin of the clan] was upset. of course, i was like 'oh no’ because i didn’t mean for this to affect the entire clan. i unblocked land [as i had, thinking she’d have a go at me] and profusely apologised, in which i will have shown at the bottom, and offered to put everything back. (After Land bribed you basically)

land told me the things she wanted back, which were the lambs, rmas, sb+gb, zebra heart [which i had used] and a few decors which the members wanted. along with some brawl apps [i only took 2 of each]. they allowed me to keep 1ksb and 2gb [but of course i used the gb], so i asked if i could give the zebra heart + 3gb back in the morning as it was 12 at this point. she allowed it luckily. (I did.)

Ok, coming clean. everything Land told you was me. I was the one who let you keep some of the GB, some of the SB, and some of the items. That was me. If you don’t believe me that’s up to you, you can ask Land. I told Land, if he’s willing to give it back, then here’s a list of what I’d like to be returned. Tell him he can keep some of the GB/SB, I don’t want to cause that many problems, but I want most of it back. 

Yeah Nip. You’re banned from Rat Clan. And the discord. Don’t come crawling back because you believed the lies about me. The only thing I see wrong that I’ve done is “whine about hoard” in chat, when we have thieves / target people, and the thing I said about suicide.

I never targetted anyone from this clan, or abused my powers, or accused players of things they didn’t do. My clan messages were supportive to all so long as they’re not just there to frame me.

Currently re-doing all of rat-clan, CSS, summary, hoard, everything. Damn nip, if you would have joined the Discord you wouldn’t have believed anything people here said. Oh, but people post the one or two things I say that are wrong, and deem me unprofessional, a bad person, a bitch, an asshole, etc.

I know people are targetting me & that is making them target rat clan which I’m fixing right now.

Target me all you want, just leave my clan out of it. I’m keeping it that way. You guys think I care, I really don’t. I enjoy replying and proving peoples’ lies wrong, but you know, im not going to screenshot the 100 nice things I’ve said to make up for the one wrong thing I’ve said.

Everyone claiming I banned them, apparently Land banned one, I banned one for admitting they’re just there for screenshots, and I kicked two for “”'roasting’“” me. AKA just being unfriendly and negative in the community.

i’m extremely sorry for all of this. i’m extremely sorry for taking the things you admins and clan members worked hard to get and put in the hoard. i didn’t mean for this to become so big, nor to harm the rat clan. after all, i helped create it and build it up.

i hope you can forgive me.“

No, you’re banned. :)

COAL, I don’t know what you guys mean by "blog”. Again, I do not want people crawling onto my personal blog. But yes, I would appreciate if they started getting filtered out and there was less.

This is a blog. The account that you used to submit this on is a blog. The Ashri drama is getting irritating and we can’t be used as a middle man for you to complain to other people about their submissions. Either make a new blog, make yours private or stop submitting.

#anon response #submission

[getallemeralds]

On the topic of collinriddle:

Okay. I said I would do this, and I can’t keep putting it off. In private, I’ve told people that if anything good came out of my abuse it’s that I can use what I learned about it to help other people keep themselves safe from other abusers. And with what happened with collinriddle, and with it a potential risk of this not being a standalone case, it’s time for me to speak up.

I’m Leo, better known as Mun RR on justasksandbeats. I’m 22 years old (turning 23 this summer), so full disclosure, I am an adult, and I know I have minors following me. I try to keep that to a minimum because of the kind of content & humour this blog has, but I can’t really manage my followers on Tumblr as well as I can on Twitter, and it does kind of mean that maybe I’m somebody people will listen to in this situation.

Hearing about Collin mentally sent me back to when I was fourteen. I have met, and been victim to, people like Collin. People who openly create, hoard, and defend fetish content of minors, sometimes even getting minors involved in creation of said content, and then say you can’t blame them, it’s not real, and they’re not even into it anyway they just think it’s “neat”.

If you want more details on what happened to me, you’re welcome to ask. Note that this is not something survivors are normally comfortable with. Not everyone is going to dump their life story at a drop of a hat, and in some cases it may take a while for me to respond if I have to brace myself for digging up memories.

So... here’s an overview of what I’ve learned about this type of person, how they act and cover their tracks, and how to deal with them.

Something I saw a lot last night was people saying Collin was “such a sweet person”, and how they never could have imagined. That’s part of it, unfortunately. My abuser was a nice, funny guy, who was occasionally a bit weird on boundaries but he was a furry in the early 2010s so it was considered normal to be a bit pushy. His odder behaviour got so normalized in our friend group that we just wrote him off whenever he got too weird, or made fun of him in a teasing joking way, and didn’t think about it.

Collin covered his tracks pretty well. From what I can tell, all of his content is on his deviantART, which has since been cleaned out so he can avoid further blame (direct quote from his journal: “all other art remains, as its nothing I can be called a pedo for.”) instead of acknowledging his actions are fucked up. He has no remorse, he just wants people to stop yelling at him without thinking about why this is happening. Note: his favourites are still full of this content, he’s just removed everything he drew himself.

What this means is that, until I was shown his dA page, I had zero idea at all. Same with the rest of you, I’m sure. Collin considered it a side interest so he kept it away from all of his friends on here, and from what I understand he also hid it from his boyfriend at the time. (I haven’t asked Wicked about it because I figure if he wants to share the details, he will. I don’t want to press him.)

I’ve screencapped this to make sure it exists in case he deletes it:

“I simply find transformations as an interesting concept.” Collin justifies himself with “I’m not REALLY into it, I just think it’s interesting”. This is what I was told over and over by the people around me when I was being sexually abused. I was asked to draw straight-up fetish porn (none of which I’m going to share even if asked because I’d rather not look at it) but told it was just because he thought the ideas or designs were neat, so I didn’t think too much about it and no one else around me objected despite this often happening in public art streams. (My boyfriend can verify, if he wants to.)

...weirdly enough, the porn I was manipulated into drawing was also inflation and vore-centric? And some occasional paw fetish stuff. I’m not gonna walk out of this saying “furries bad”, but there are some major problems in the furry fandom with fetish culture and how it gets into fucked up territories affecting real-life people while being behind the guise of “it’s fictional”. See: Me, fifteen, drawing this content.

The rest of the journal goes on about how it’s a misconception and he’s so sad he lost friends, and he’s sorry he looks like a creep, and he’s sorry for the inconvenience that he’s... no longer drawing or posting fetish content. LOL OKAY. There’s no real apology here. He’s trying to gain pity (and it looks like it’s worked on at least one person, judging by dA comments) without taking accountability.

They use misinformation and warped stories to get people on their side. Collin is playing this up as people making assumptions about him, and then wiping his gallery so no one can actually see what he’s done. (I’m not sure if he’s going to wipe his favourites or not, but at the time of this post they’re still up, so.) He doesn’t actually think he’s done anything wrong, and his goal is to convince other people that he’s innocent. Don’t engage with him, period. Stay away from him, warn other people to stay away from him. Talking to him will either a) give him more ammo for “people are being so mean to me for no reason” or b) give him an opportunity to flesh out his story more where he is the victim but it’s totally fine because he doesn’t REALLY get off to Ness being turned into a bathing suit for Paula to wear (an actual thing I saw in his gallery) he just likes drawing it. Stay away from him.

Fiction affects reality. I was abused, and had no idea I was because I was told it was fine, and normal, and shown all these other cases of it being Fine And Normal, nevermind the fact that I was a minor drawing and roleplaying things meant for an adult’s (18 year old) sexual satisfaction. Collin is not the only person like this out there. They may be nice, and friendly, and even have a cute persona, but if you get weird vibes from them: keep your distance. Watch them. Look them up on other sites if you have to. See how they react to this information. See who sides with him and why.

(note: I understand that there are people who straight up don’t want to engage with any of this, and I don’t blame them. Leave them out of this. This is a fucked up situation, someone that was a present member of the community has literally just been outed as a pedophile in a fandom with a lot of minors, so it’s not wrong of them to go “I don’t support him but I don’t want to see this”, especially if they’re minors themselves.)

If you have any questions, my inbox is open.

#txt #leo chirps #just shapes and beats #collinriddle