#stayed awake all night to watch this

[midnight-skylie]

(In the middle of watching Dead Boy Detectives finally)

Hey Death honey I love you girl but I need you to leave my emotional support gays alone.

#you let madame xanadu cheat you just do it for edwin and charles #please i need it for my mental health #I'm so normal about this show. so so normal. #/s #dead boy detectives #charles rowland #edwin paine #i just love charles so much holly shit #i don't know what else to tag #but i feel that i need more tags #if you made it so far I'm surprised #okay bye #i desperately need sleep #stayed awake all night to watch this

[brittie-frog]

Honestly it would be funny if bad reset himself to get rid of the radition and potentially whatever is turning him blue (I don't know if he can he only mentioned the radiation) while no one else gets memory wiped. Then when they all come back and he remembers nothing everyone is so fucking confused about why he was because he wasn't when they first arrived. But the two other demons know what's going on and have a side convo about why he would (I don't remember if they know about the radiation) and Mouse has to explain alone that it was Bad's choice and a demon thing which would probably confuse everyone even more while Tina stands beside Bagi and Em, worried for her guard dog.

I want him to do it just to see other people's reactions honestly.

#im just begging for demon lore #and i want them all to be connected #this is probably the closest we'd get to tina demon lore #i want to know whether shes fallen or born demon at least #on my knees begging tina for the tinest smidgen of lore this year #i want to know if any ccs would go for another mind wipe to erase their cubito's trauma #it would probably not be anyone who has lore or far into it and erase all that progress #i cant wait for saturday to see what happens #qsmp #qsmp badboyhalo #qsmp tina #qsmp ironmouse #qsmp demons #unfortuantly ill be back at uni so i cant stay up till 4am anymore watching bbh streams when hes babysitting or pulling pranks #or be awake when tina inevitably gets on at stupid'o'clock at night for me #though if she continues doing midnight pst streams she'll start when i wake up at 8am for my morning classes probably

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

So I'm an area director at a summer camp, but yesterday my boss called me and asked if I'd be down to be the director of two areas and I said yes without thinking about the consequences. So now I'm the director of two areas? That means two groups of staff to train and lead, two sets of lesson plans, two areas to teach at and make the schedule for and make the lesson plans for, two physical areas to set up. They're right next to each other, but this is going to be fucking insane

#the reason this is happening is because we dont have a dining hall director anymore because the first decided to take summer classes #and the second got a research position. so the director of the area that my area is right next to. volunteered to switch #so the camp director called me yesterday and was like 'this is all happening would you want to take on another area?' #so i would be director of both. with kind of a concentration in the new one. while my assistant director concentrates on the first one #but id still have to lead both staffs. teach at both. be available to both. do records for both. set up both #i start thinking about it and i always realize another thing thats gonna be weird about it #but on the bright side ive decided i cant do the 5 mile hike requirement for my old area #every thursday we do a five mile hike for our class because its for requirements. and i hate it cuz its hard lol #but i realized that it wouldnt really work out for me to be across the lake with one area and leave the other area directorless #so guess i cant do that! oh nooo /s #but i have to make two teaching schedules.whoch i started last night #i have to both teach a suitable amount in both areas but also have enough free time to be flexible and available for both #i am so tired already. and i just got this news yesterday #i was up until 5am because i was planning shit and then i layed awake anxious for another hour #also i watched the disruptors which admittedly got me to stay up pretty late too. the grant obrien and ally Beardsley movie #its very good. but mostly i stayed up late because i was trying to figure out being the director of two areas #i think about it for two seconds and i realize another reason itll be super hard. i have to introduce two staffs at the campfire #i have to talk about two areas at the leaders meeting. i have to learn a whole bundle of new merit badges #im so tired

[running-in-the-dark]

I was asleep for most of yesterday. and today as well. like I basically only woke up to eat, watch tv for a little bit, and then I fell asleep again. I'm so tired and dizzy.

I'm really hoping it'll be better tomorrow. I really gotta start/continue writing my thesis. 😭

#it's so fucking stupid #last night I woke up on the couch at 2 am. then stayed awake for about 4 hours and went back to bed. I think I was awake for 5 or MAYBE 6 #hours total 😭 #and today was worse. I tried to only sleep a few hours in the morning. but fell asleep again on the couch less than an hour later #literally all I did was eat. start watching a youtube video. and fall asleep again. #the cats kept me company so that was nice #the nightmares were especially horrible though 😔 #all I want to do is go to bed. but I haven't done ANYTHING today. I woke up again like 2 hours ago. I'm not going to bed already 😭😭😭 #my body is fucking annoying #personal

[the-meme-monarch]

It's still so funny that no matter how edgy you try to be, you cannot mess with SCC. Yeah go do snowgrave or whatever, but you will never beat the power of Almond Milk.

ok snowgrave makes me so sad and i am So Happy you cant freeze them. that would put too heavy a burden on my heart and the 'scc are annoying I wish you could defeat them violently and/or snowgrave them' comments make me so sad and i do not want people to have that option and I'm glad they don't. also during snowgrave the fact that you can see their bagel stand in the city sitting without them is. so environmentally scary to me. they saw that Something Was Happening and knew they needed to get the fuck out of there, leave the bagels we need to go Now. iirc their shop is off limits too now? I think there's text saying the door is jammed shut. post game in castle town they don't seem to know it was kris and noelle but Oh My God. oh my god head in my hands

#its 2 am #my special ability is if i fell asleep watching a video then i wake up in the midle of rhe night to see i need to plug my ipad in #if i already plugged it in bc i didnt fall alseep watching a video? i stay asleep all night #i only ever wake up in the middle of the night if i fell asleep before plugging in my ipad to charge #dont undertsnad why but cool #anyway thats what happened and thats why im awake rn #good night now #the monarch’s court #deltarune #scc #snowgrave route

[misha-69innit]

get yourself a man who looks at you like this

(screencap source: @my-window-reflection)

#veer zaara #srk #every fucking time i rewatch this thing i go insane for hours #watch me stay awake all night listening to the soundtrack

[altruistic-meme]

i want to get started on the Full Hands List but i am waiting on my apartment people for scheduled maintenance and i don't really want to start until they leave but i also have no idea what time they'll make it to my apartment so we're just playing the waiting game now

#at my old apartment i was one of the first to get the maintenance bc my apartment number was just higher on the list #so it was usually around 10-11am #but im much further down now and idk how long it'll take #this isn't my FIRST TIME having the preventative maintenance in this apartment but the last times i just went to bed and got woken up #when they knocked #bc i was still on nights and i had no idea how long it'd be and didnt want to stay awake #and i did NOT check the time when they finally arrived #i just let them in and waited until they left so i could go back to sleep lmao #so #we'll see ig #I'm also splitting this into 3 days instead of don't all 3 seasons at once ill do a season a day #largely bc of time in general and how it's like. 12 hours of show. #and im be starting late today bc of *gestures at post* #but also it's going to be LONGER cus i have to pause every time hands shown up so i can note the timestamp #which ofc makes the whole process much. MUCH longer as seen with s3's preliminary run lmao #ough #I'm talking so much jdfjjsjd #also just my attebtion span is NOT great and i need to actually be WATCHING THE SCREEN THE WHOLE ENTIRE TIME #and can't be checking my phone or anything #cus ill miss shots!!!! #i missed at least 2 on my og s1+s2 list and im sure i missed others #i also have to decide how to count the montages #cus there'll be like 2 shots of hands immediately one after the other in the montages #sigh #......... I'll probably count them separately. just for accurate numbers. #which ofc means that ALL of my bonus aren't QUITE right rn cuts ik i lumped montages together #lmao #oh this will be so much fun #shh ac #young royals

[lyriumsings]

pulling an all dayer and i’m dying inside i have to fix my sleep schedule i wanna sleep so bad

#watching a tv show with my sister #to try to stay awake #my legs hurt #from running around all night cleaning #lyriumsings txt

[ghostzzy]

gets stressed and sad and immediately starts dumping blood from my body

#spending the entire night awake and seething is bad for your healing apparently. who could’ve anticipated this. #i just have so much residual anger at my stepmom and shit like this gets me So Bad. #she kept me in the closet for years. took me church where i watched her and her family clap for the pastor’s disgust about queer people. #and now she thinks she just gets to talk about my gender and my transition to her family? #when she won’t even tell my brothers that i’m queer because they’re ’too young’??? #and it makes me mad at my dad by proxy. because he doesn’t intervene and he’s the reason we’re exposed to it #and he hasn’t made a plan to come visit me. and that hurts a little. #and i’m just. feeling it this morning. feeling Bad. #and you can tell by ALL THE FUCKING BLOOD IN MY DRAINS. #and i dont have the space to process this shit properly since i’m staying at my mom’s. #like the last thing i need is to get into any of this with her. #auuuuuuggghhhh. #izzy.txt

[castelobyers]

I'm thinking now and I just know that I'll be spoiled about byler being endgame by every pop page on every site that I decide to go to, or by any friend that knows that I like this show, so it will be like or I'll watch it in the night that it comes out (it outs 4:00 am in Brazil aka very late) or I just accept my fate that I'll be spoiled there's no way runnig

#I will be obligated to be crazy and stay awake all night or put an alarm to just enjoy my thing and not get spoiled? i think i will #i was spoiled anout henry/001 by the way #in the morning i wasn't even totally wake #and it being a huge thing and a huge plot of the show that willl make people talk about it a lot i don't think I'll have a way out #damn i hate watch things like a marathon #that's why I'm big fan of weekly release #we're all here at the same time of the day talking about the same episode #theres not someone who finished the whole season while someone just started it and it's just ep 3 #we're all in the same boat #andi think its great #makes people connect with each other #makes people create the craziest theory ever #or bet the final at the beginning of the season #and you never know #and you just have this thing that you get excited about that day of the week thats your thing and it consumes your life for weeks #but you're having content every week #and you have to recontextualize everything every week #i just think its beautiful #and i want to have this experience #not being spoiled at the morning i wake just because i dont like to consune everything like it is my last day alive #ramble #guess the final. hit the final?* idk i was thinking about get a right bet so yeah I don't know English is not my first language

[elle-greenaways-last-braincell]

LOCKWOOD & CO COMES OUT TOMORROW AT 7 PM(for me). I AM SO INCREDIBLY NORMAL ABOUT THIS.

LOL NAH. TOMORROW IS GONNA BE SPENT FINDING EVERY SINGLE BLANKET AND/OR PILLOW THAT I OWN AND PILING THEM UP ON THE COUCH.

Fr tho, some one should make a Lockwood & Co groupchat. That would be so cool.

#lockwood and co #lockwood & co #lockwood and co tv show #anthony lockwood #cameron chapman #george cubbins #literally cannot wait #holy shit #i will be staying awake all night to watch this #this is gonna be wild

[neverendingford]

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#tag talk #vent #I don't wanna do the whole “I'm so good at psychology cause I've fixed myself. I should go into counseling” thing that overly empathetic #empathetic people do. but like. nothing like deconstructing a tense social conflict to make you feel good #the smol autistic minecraft enby who adopted me had a moment and I helped break down the situation and resolve shit with them. it was cool #but also I immediately went out to the living room and napped for three hours. thinning that hard was exhausting. #do you ever do the depression nap thing? when I'm doing well I never sleep during the day. but when I'm sad I take naps a lot #because I don't want to be awake and I sleep poorly at I night and am just generally lethargic so I nap on the floor or couch a lot #ugh knowing the stress will go away doesn't help the fact that it's super awful right now. #it's times like this that I wish I'd really committed to it in Feb. like. in two weeks I'll be better and joy de vivre and all that. #but right now? ugh. big fuckin ugh #the minecraft emotional labor thing is just a natural responsibility of being a 25 year old playing online video games with 15 year olds. #if I see a situation blowing up I can't hear sit by and watch someone destroy their friendships on the server. I have to help #but also bro I am struggling to help myself. maybe I say I'm packing up my pc early so that I have a good excuse to stay off the server #I literally did the thing again where I make new friends. make everyone love me. and then get burnt out at the speed of light and disappear #making friends is so easy. leaving friends is so easy. nothing is forever and we all die someday. blah blah blah you know it already #meaningless meaningless. all is meaningless. maybe king Solomon was just fuckin depressed when he wrote that. sure sounds like it to me. #I just can't do anything when I'm like this. we're subsistence living now bois. #I wonder if part of my neurological damage is from the lead I used to eat in high school. #the windex shots can't have been good for me. but I don't think that stays in your body the same way #though it did fuck up my urinary tract for a few months. that was wild. #anyway. I wonder how much of my chronic periodic funk is just effects from bad choices and how much is normal natural inevitable. #everything is an ocean. nothing is a lake. the waves are always thirty feet high and the troughs scrape you on the bottom of the reef #nothing is midline except when you're rushing through to one extreme or another. #you're either overstimulated or absent from your body entirely #both of which cause wild and oft unbearable dissociation. #everything gets better and everything gets worse. I'm only like this when I'm stressed. but that's my secret cap (avengers reference) #anyway. I'll survive. I'll make it. I'll live because I need to become even more gay to make my family mad. #I need to keep living so my dad realizes just how much he's lost touch. #so my mom cries about how she should have done something differently so I wouldn't grow up gay. because that makes so much sense right?

[scorpia-is-babey]

Scorpia (plus all Hordies) being obsessed with the twelve Etherian moons post-war

#Scorpia getting up early to watch the moons rise #and staying awake late to watch them move around in the sky every hour #after the war is over and the days are long and peaceful Scorpia is found spending quite a bit of time at her window sill #other newly freed Hordies are often cloud watching and star gazing because they didn’t know how pretty everything can be #of course every other Etherian is also enthralled by the stars #but Hordies? it’s all they really do for a few weeks day and night day and night #basically this is my Scorpia gets into astrology!AU post because she definitely would try and draw everything she sees #and she maps them out and memorizes their placements #and it’s not a tactical skill or anything this is just a hobby

[annarubys]

too much is going to happen to me this week i’m already exhausted thinking about it. horrors unimaginable are in my future

#first i have to watch the prequel tomorrow and then watch everyone fight about the prequel and tune into an mcr show immediately after. #then i have to stay awake until 2am the next night AGAIN. this is all during my busiest work week of the year btw #then on friday i’m flying all the way to california #and on saturday i am going to be in the same city as my chemical romance without going to their show and i’ll have to be so brave about it #i am going to live the entire weekend in 90 degree weather but also go to some cool museums #and then monday night. horrors for fucking real i’m so scared #also last time i saw mcr the queen died so something else insane that no one expects is going to happen i can feel it #a.txt

[fingertipsmp3]

Might regret saying this & potentially jinxing it but I don’t feel jetlagged. I was tired yesterday but now I’m absolutely fine. I’m literally sleeping normally. I’m fine

#this is completely fucking unprecedented. every other time i’ve flown back from the usa (this is my fourth time) i have been miserable #the first time was the worst. i fell asleep while getting my eyebrows done and woke up when she pulled off the wax strip #second time i think i was mostly okay because i knew what to expect but it was still pretty rough #third time was awful. i fell asleep in the taxi on the way back from the airport and managed to stay awake until nighttime #but then i fell asleep for 15 hours and missed the wimbledon match i’d been hoping to watch the following morning #(wimbledon is my superbowl so it really was adding insult to injury. but yeah i literally slept from 10:30pm to 1:50pm. insane) #but THIS time?? the first night back i got 8 hours sleep and last night i got 7 hours but i’m literally fine #i mean yeah i’m a little tired but not enough to actually nap. i tried to nap yesterday afternoon and couldn’t. it was so weird #every other time i’ve been jetlagged i was passing out randomly in the afternoon. it was so weird #i will say i do seem to be super hungry all the time but i think that’s because i got too used to american portion sizes #but anyway. uh. if you need me i’m probably going to fall asleep now that i’ve jinxed it #‘this jetlag ain’t shit—‘ *passes out* #personal

[swagging-back-to]

i find it so interesting how mice from a petstore will always be awake during the day and sleeping at night until they're left to acclimate and make their own schedule.

#there are no breeders in new england north of new york so I have to go to a petstore #thankfully tho the two i go to seem to somewhat provide for their mice. like #i havent gotten a pregnant female which tells me they separate them by sex properly #none of them have been sick right from the petstore either. #none of them have injuries from stress fighting #and they actually throw in a few toys for them to play with. #it isnt great by any means but it's way better than it could be. it's better than some mice from breeders are. #ive seen people talking about how their mice are sick the day they got them from the breeder/died right after/have no socialization at all #all my mice except for EXACTLY two (out of 12 mice I've had now.) have been socialized and liked to be held right out of the carrier box. #a lot of them chose to stay on me instead of going into their new tanks. #but no anyway no longer getting side tracked; you'd think mice from a petstore would sleep #during the day and be awake all night long bc that's when no one would be at the store to watch them #and they wouldnt have bright fluorescent lights #but it's the exact opposite. theyre wide awake all day long. They don't even go into their house until it becomes night time #and ig you could say it's bc they're exploring their new enriched environment with all the new smells #and houses and toys and foods #but #i think it has more to do with their time at the petstore. even tho the petstores put the mice and rats out back way out of view #to the point i got lost my first time in there and had to ask for help #it's like they dont even really know how to be mice yet #and given the fact all my girlies were babies when I got them (super tiny) they're just doing what they've done their entire lives