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#still everytime the picture shows up in my court record i do let out a giggle
anglioby · 2 months
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Me, an ace attoreny character, dying, laying on my stomach with hand drawn out, writing on the ground name of a person, who so did not kill me just to fuck around a bit
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kkusuka · 3 years
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Haikyuu kinks setter eddition <33
here is the ace eddition 
here is the Middle blocker version
Includes: Kageyama Tobio, Oikawa Tooru, Sugawara Koshi, Atsumu Miya, Semi Eita, Shirabu Kenjiro, Kanji Koganegawa, Akaashi Keji, Kenma Kozume,  Yahaba Shigeru and  Keishin Ukai
Cw: pet play, degradation, humiliation, cock warming, cuckolding, bare baking, public sex, photography,   (those are the more serious one, every thing else should be fine <3) 
and here we go!
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oh he is so pretty
Kageyama Tobio
Oral
It goes both ways too
He could append the rest of his life in between your thighs and that’s that
But that would mean missing the slice of heaven you give him when you go down on him
And he doesn't think he could live without that, you're just that good 
Little secret for you : he will literally be putty in your hands if you suck his balls, it will literally send him into outer space 
Vanilla sex
NOT IN THE BAD WAY
HE LIKES IT FOR A GOOD REASON
DON’T KILL ME
He just likes to be in love with you 
It's his awkward version of love making, but he’ll burn up if you call it that
Just looking you in the eyes and softly thrusting in you 
Holding your hand 
Soft kisses and whispers of love 
AWWW he’s so soft for you.
Cockwarming 
This is really only foe when he wants to have sex
But also wants to watch old tapes of volleyball games
Normally tricks you into it, he’ll say he wants to fuck on the couch, y’all start to do it and he just stops gets you on his lap and watches
You don't like that too much
But when he harshly thrusts up everytime you whine telling you he won't let you cu for a week
Then you start to behave
But no worries he’ll eventually let you grind on him like whore, and he’ll play with your nipples until you've came
Your still not moving tho
Sensory deprivation 
This is a control tactic 
He goes all you for this
When he wants control he gets it 
The most common thing when this side of Kags comes out is having you kneel on the floor
Well kneeling with your legs tied in the position, your arms tied behind your back
with earmuffs and a blindfold
With a vibrator torturing your poor hole. 
Oh! And either a spider gag or a ball gag!
It's just you and never ending pleasure until he wants to indulge <3
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(look at him walking, he does it so well) 
Oikawa Tooru
Public sex & Humiliation
Specifically riding 
Sitting you on his lap and pretending nothing is going on, while he’s really 8 inches deep
He’ll make you reach down and folder his ball to help HIM get off, for you? Well i guess you’ll just have to bounce a bit now wont you!
Knowing that to everyone else you two just look like a regular couple enjoying a bowl of ramen makes him love defiling you in public even more. 
Aw. Are you embarrassed? You can’t be that ashamed if your fucking yourself on me
You never know how far he will take it either
One time when you were at dinner with Tooru and some of his friends, he had sat you in his lap and spread your legs for them to see
You were so embarrassed, even more when he started cooing in your ear about how much of a show whore you were
You couldn't look his friends in theirs eyes for a few hours
Gangbangs/ Cuckolding 
You already know he believes in sharing is caring!
And he sure knows how to share!
You're just too perfect to not share with Makki, Mattsun, and Iwa!
And have you seen his friends, you’d like to give it a try
And he practically begged you to do it, and you can't deny a pretty boys puppy dog eyes
No one can deny the puppy dog  eyes
He never thought anything could beat the feeling of being on the court, but seeing you trying to fit Mattun in your weeping hole and deepthroating iwa may just do the trick
Watching his friends fuck you may just be his favorite pass time
Cum eating 
H e  i s  a  w h o r e 
He tries to tell you it's to make you “clean” 
Yup, he sucks all of his friends cum out of you to make sure you're all his. 
Oh! Sometimes Iwa will cum in your mouth and make Tooru make out with you until all the cum is gone between the two of you!
Praise 
This is practically in all aspects of life
But when hes fucking you he wants to hear how amazing he’s making you feel
Yeah, his dick hits that perfect spot doesn't it? 
He wants to hear it
He wants to hear EVERYTHING 
His hips feel good against your thighs? Say it and loudly too!
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Sugawara Koshi
Slight pet play
He really just wants someone to take care of
And what better way to do that then have his puppy by his side. 
And it keeps him grounded
He’ll be all frustrated then he just looks at you
On your knees looking back up at him
And all of a sudden everything is ok again. 
Body worship 
Mostly from him to you
He just thinks you are so perfect
Sometimes he just wants you to stirp so he can spend hours just exploring your body
He’ll lay you down and just tell you how beautiful you are over and over
When he’s in a caring mood everything he does will be accompanied with a sweet compliment 
Just let him do his thing <3
Caregiver 
We saw this coming 
Suga-momma will do anything for you
Had a bad day, ok he’ll let you use his cock to get off
You’ll feel better. 
But, this is everyday life too
He sometimes helps dress you up.
He packs your lunch for work,  always with a little note expressing his love for you
He just loves to know that you are comfortable and that you feel loved by him all the time. 
Slight medical / doctor 
I just feel like he wants you to be “healthy” 
He’ll have a whole set up too
He’ll strap your legs up and “examine” his baby
And once he is sure all is well, 
He’ll just fuck you then and there
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if only he were real
Atsumu Miya
Dirty talk / Degradation 
This is literally cannon-
He calls you all the names in to book
The favorite? He can't bring himself to choose 
They all have different tones!
He does like to use “Cocksleve” more than often!
If you didnt know any better you would truly believe that he only thinks of you as a hole to fuck. 
“ yes, clench just like that Cum-rag, you're too good at this”
“God, you’re hole loves my cock, i should just keep you here and fuck you or the rest of your life, leave you dripping in my cum all day and night” 
He just LOVES doing this act
"Are you my slut?"
"Yes"
"Tell me you're my slut"
"I'm your slut"
"Say it again"
"I'm your slut"
He could live just hearing that everyday (not really but he says it to show how happy he is-) 
Overstimulation  
A built in ego boost
He loves seeing you messy and  begging
He doesn't even listen to what you're begging. More? Stop? 
Yeah well he doesn't listen anyway, he’ll do it until he wants to stop
Just hold your legs up, let him see your slutty hole and let him work
He’ll make you feel good, he always does :)
Dacryphilia  
You just look so goddamn pretty
He literally makes you cry to get to comfort you
As in comfort i mean fuck you to sleep
He doesn't do it that often but he always makes it worth it when he does
Is it bad that he likes to have you sob on his dick?
He’s not a monster tho!
Your consent is key!
(we stan a king) 
Pet play 
Puppy
He has a full leash for you
But when he feel especially cold he makes you eat on the floor 
And out of a bowl :(
But only when he’s in a seriously bad mood, but just having you listen to him so weak makes him feel so much better!
Just let him indulge in this, it makes him feel better that he’s in control 
Extra little thing for tsumu
He records you two 
He doesn't even bother to put them in a hidden folder either
They are just in between all the regular pictures
AND he screenshots your  your nudes, prints some of them out and tapes them to his wall
Samu thinks you look very nice :)
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he his the meaning of pretty
Akaashi Keji
Toys 
He loves to have you rides dildo in front of him
Or he’ll have a bullet vibrator in you while grocery shopping.
He plugs you up anytime he’s not in you. 
You can bet that if he’s not fucking you you're either fucking yourself, or being fucked by a little machine
And there is a method to his madness
But he will never tell you
He does all of this to see you, he likes to watch you and all your faces
You just look so adorable clenching your eyes shut and blabbering about nothing 
He just like basking in your beauty  
Oh he is so precious (and so are you) 
Light bondage 
He really only does this to show control
He can't let you get too full of yourself now
You’re still all his.
And he’ll put you in your place any second
He gives you control, and you need to play by the rules
If not. He’ll just tie you up and not look at you for as long as he see fits
You should’ve just listened to him
Cockwarming  
Akaashi is constantly working!
Sometimes he just wants you near him when he gets his work done
You’re also a calming factor to him
Sometimes he get so stressed and can only respond to it by thrusting into you a few times and kissing hickeys into your neck
But after the first time, he fell in love with it!
Watching a movie? 
He wants to be in you
But he’ll hug you close and press you against him, and he’ll cuddle into you
You guys have even fallen asleep while doing it
(oh to fall asleep while cockwarming Akaashi) 
Cuckolding  
Again, he works so much
And sometimes he just doesn’t have the energy to fuck you :(
Well thankfully, he has a best friend who is always very pent up and ready to fuck!
He could tell you weren't sure at first but after him reassuring it was fine and being non-stop fucked for 3 hours by a professional volleyball player
He could tell you liked it. 
So, when he feels like he won't make you feel as good as he can, Bokuto is already on the phone walking out of his apartment!
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like a little potted plant
Kenma Kozume
Cockwarming 
Gamer boy wants you as close to you for as long as possible. 
Sometimes he resents that he streams because he can't have you on his dick
You also help to manage his game ginger
When you're there he doesn't yell as much or throw is controller 
Instead he places the remote down, he takes a deep breath and hugs you
He’s like a cat when he gets like this
He’ll be nestled in your neck- practically purring
Before continuing his game.. 
Cuckolding 
In simple terms 
He likes watching Kuroo fuck you
Like he REALLY likes seeing Kuroo dick you down
We all know he’s not the confrontational type, so when you’re being bad, his only opinion is to call his best friend
He cat tell you like it too because you take any chance you can to act up
But he always makes sure they you know your all his before the end of the night. 
Photography 
Being someone whose life revolves around social media 
It is absolutely no surprise that he likes to have visal pieces of you to take with him wherever he goes. 
 He specifically likes mirror nudes, with those cat ear thigh highs that he got you.
You remember one time he went on a trip to another city and asked you to send him some stuff
And in return he sent a little video of him jacking off, and thus it became a tradition every time you were away from the other. 
Slight Pet play
Mostly leashes collars and pet names. 
he does not take it that far,but he likes to know his kitten listens to him.  
The worst it got was when he put a dog leash on you and walked you around the apartment when Kuroo was over
You did receive the teasing of your life but good kittens don't speak
And you oh so desperately wanted to be a good Kitten for Kenma. 
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tounge
Semi Eita
Under the influence 
You and I both know this man smokes-
And smoking just happens to make him horny
Like really horny
And if you're there next to him he’s not gonna jack off??
You guys have sex almost every time he smoke
And when you smoke? 
Oh he just cant help himself, you look so pretty eyes glazed over 
He’ll make you say so so much better. 
Recording
He has a folder on his computer
And another on his phone
And all saved to his cloud
Of what? 
Videos of you fucking
And a select few of sucking his dick
And what does he do with all of these? 
He watches them, sometimes with you in the room
Like you too are hanging out and suddenly he’s on his computer watching you bounce on his dick. 
Nudes
Clearly he likes to have you naked on a screen somewhere
And when he’s in public he can't exactly start watching homemade porn
so , he has a solution!
Make you send as many nudes as you can before he has to go out!
He has no shame for it either
One of your more “artistic” photos became his lockscreen
Which you begged him to remove considering his bandmates had begun to make comments about it. 
Hair pulling 
He does it all the time
And he does it  so hard too
Every time he hits from behind
His hand is on your head and already pulling 
Or when you suck him off
I'll pull your hair up, then push your whole head back down 
And repeat. 
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oh my god i am in love with him
Shirabu Kenjiro
Degradation 
This man has a mouth
And a mean one 
AND a killer attitude
And he spares you none of that. 
He ridicules and demands, dehumanizes, and you love it
“Admit you’re just a whore, getting off on being a hole. Disgusting” 
Over the weekends, why you have nothing to do, he makes you stay around the house completely naked 
“You're flaunting all you have like a prostitute, that's what you want right? O be used like a street whore?” 
He’s just a mean guy :p
Humiliation
It just makes sense at this point
He really likes to makes you take off your panties when you wear skirts in public
Then he likes to have you bend down and grab things for him
Or 
He’ll have you sit, man spreading, but the catch is there is a huge hole in your pants, so anyone at the right angle can see everything. 
Of course none of this goes without witty comments and insults from bang boy. 
Bondage 
He loves having you weak in front of him
It’s a total power trip for him
Like everything the two of you do, it consist of you being a good whore and him being a big ole meanie
He’ll leave you tied up for hours with a fuck machine pounding your poor hole
Or hell have you with a spider gag in and he’ll make you grind into the floor
He’ll laugh at you 
Record you and he’s even sent videos of youtube some of his old teammates
This one time, he had you tied up to your bedpost and just left, he walked out of the room and you didn't even know how long it was until he came back. 
Pet play
You were mouthing off to him? Oh no they won't do
He pretty much uses it as leverage against you
Good pets so mouth off do they? 
No? What I thought.
Its a form of punishment mostly
Keeping you kneeling on the floor below him for hours while he studies
He makes you eat down there
And he’ll pet your head, but if you even think about leaning into it, he’ll stop 
He’s so mean :(
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bird boiiiii
Kanji Koganegawa
Pegging 
He’s a baby
A pretty baby, that anyone would like a chance to ruin. 
He probably didn't even know what is was and still agreed, but no he begs for it
And who are you to deny your baby? 
It was kinda hard at first considering he was so big, but you managed, and are very good at making him cum, like really really good. 
Hand kink 
He really just likes to see how much bigger his hands are 
He’ll grab your handd and thread your fingers together, your hands are just so soft, opposite of his
He also likes to stick his fingers in your mouth and likes when he gets to suck on yours. 
Ddlb / Dmlb
There is no explanation other then he’s baby
And he needs to be taken care of, before he dose something stupid 
And you love taking care of your overgrown baby :)
He’s all smiley and cute when you do!
How could you resist? 
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his grandpa is hotter but whatever 
you didnt see that.
Keishin Ukai
Public sex
In his store 
On the counter
Five Minutes before closing time 
It cannon
It's the risk factor for him, anyone can just walk in and see you fall apart on his cock
It's actually happened before, Shin wanted to do it and you agreed but didn't expect Takeda to waltz in and look directly at you. 
Yeah he immediately came then shoved you onto the floor to hide you from Ittetsu’s prying eyes
Daichi has also heard the two of you fucking in the gym storage closet, but chose not to say anything. 
Barebacking
It's like a primal urge to him
Condoms are annoying ang time consuming, you guys are gonna be together anyways might as well let him fill you like a good fuck toy
When he cums in you he also doesn't let you clean it out
He makes you stand there, face three inches away from your core, and watches his cum drip from you
Condoms won't let him do that, will they?
Humiliation
I mean he’s into fucking you in public, so this is pretty much a must at this point
He puts you in these positions so you have no choice but to be embarrassed
I mean what kind of slut like getting fucked in plain sight?
When you go out with him he makes you wear all these ridiculous outfits that practically show everything
And he makes fun of you when they look! 
Pornography 
Yes as in homemade porn
Why would he keep you all to himself?
Everyone deserves to experience that
And people love you!
If the thousands of comments and requests say anything about it!
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oh to do that to Maddog
Yahaba Shigeru
Choking 
We all saw the scene with Maddog 
Come on, he’ll do that to anyone
I feel like he just likes seeing his hands around your neck. 
He likes how fail you are and how is ands just wrap around your neck
He knows where to squeeze too
He’ll hold your pressure point to the pint you think your gonna pass out
Light BDSM
Nothing to crazy, he likes having you tied up and ready that's all
Maybe eagle spread on the bed?
Or hell have you kneeling next to him, arms tied behind your back mouth ready and opened
The possibilities are endless
Fingering 
He likes his hands- 
But it's mostly about you
Seeing your hole up close
It sucking his fingers, like a good hole should
Plus he has better control with his fingers, so he hits all the good spots over and over until yout crying <3
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rosedharc · 3 years
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[  𝐞𝐱𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐬  𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦  𝐬𝐜𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐝  𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬  /  𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭  𝐭𝐰𝐨  ]
    —  i  thought  we  made  progress  last  time,  melrose.
    —  well,  that  was  before  you  fucking  stabbed  me  in  the  back.
    —  i  know  i  shouldn't  have  digged  without  informing  you,  i  should  have  heard  it  from  you  —  but  tell  me,  in  all  honesty  —  would  you  have  mentioned  your  mother,  hadn't  i  cornered  you?
    —  eventually.    (  ...  )    i  don't  know.
    —  but  you  do  see  where  i'm  coming  from.
    —  it  still  ain't  right.
    —  well,  right  or  wrong,  we  should  get  started.
    this  time,  rosie's  clutches  are  not  next  to  her;  they  stand  against  the  door,  leaving  her  no  room  nor  chance  to  leave.  the  girl  appears  displeased,  a  severe  frown  defining  her  tired  features.
    —  what  else  did  my  dad  tell  you?
    —  well,  not  much  else.  we  discussed  the  events  leading  up  to  your  incident.    [  the  doctor  takes  out  two  printed  silhouettes,  a  feminine  and  a  masculine  one.  ]    as  much  as  you  like  to  despise  me,  i  would  like  to  show  you  i  want  to  hear  things  from  you.  now,  you  can  choose  where  to  start.
    rosie  takes  the  pictures,  looks  at  them  almost  abstend-mindedly.  eyes  rapidly  turn  back  to  him,  as  her  hands  rip  the  paper  in  pieces.
    —  you  wanna  hear  about  my  dad?
    the  doctor  shrugs.
    —  if  that's  what  you  want.
    —  it  ain't  about  what  i  want.  it's  about  what's  right.
    rosie  throws  the  pieces  on  the  ground,  throws  the  doctor  a  sardonic  smile.
    —  you  wanna  hear  about  my  shit  mom?  fine.  but  she  ain't  shit  compared  to  my  dad.  that  man  lives  a  shit  life  and  everyone  seems  to  ignore  it.
    —  i  know  you  have  a  positive  relationship  with  him.
    —  well,  he  was  there.  he  had  fucking  nothing.  did  he  tell  you  about  the  time  he  went  to  war?  served  this  fucking  country?  or  did  he  not  mention  that?
    her  voice  is  a  little  louder,  today.
    —  you  know  what  he  got  back?  some  shitty  medals  and  a  pat  in  the  back.  you'd  think  a  man  that  loses  his  leg  for  his  country  would  get  some  support.  instead,  people  call  him  a  cripple  and  fire  him  when  they  want,  leave  him  on  the  fucking  streets,  for  all  they  care.  my  dad  does  nothing  but  give,  and  never  gets  anything  back.  that  woman  that  you  call  my  mother  had  the  fucking  court  say  he's  not  allowed  any  support.  so  yeah,  i  want  to  talk  about  my  dad  because  not  a  fucking  soul  in  here,  or  in  this  fucking  town,  or  in  this  fucking  world  wants  to  acknowledge  him  and  it  ain't  fucking  right.
    the  doctor  nods,  silently.  he  looks  at  rosie  as  if  he's  waiting  for  her  to  steam  it  all  off.  only  after  a  few  moments  does  he  say  anything.
    —  i  gather  your  father  lived  a  difficult  life.  all  single  parents  face  hardships  that  married  couples  can't  even  see.  it  is  often  the  hardest  case  with  single  fathers,  too,  and  it  can  influence  the  child  in  their  growth,  as  well  —  which  seems  to  be  your  case.
    —  what  do  you  mean?
    —  well,  tell  me  more  about  your  father.  was  he  a  loving  parent?  did  he  ever  try  to  hide  your  difficult  situation  as  you  were  growing  up?
    —  well,  he  tried.    (  ...  )    ain't  like  he  wanted  to  show  me  how  bad  we  had  it.
    —  do  you  feel  as  if  he  was  sufficiently  there  for  you?
    —  the  fuck?  of  course  i  do.  the  man  did  all  he  could.  all  the  time.
    —  we  have  a  slight  problem  here,  though.
    —  just  get  to  the  fucking  point,  then.
    the  doctor  sighs,  ever  so  slightly  —  as  if  not  to  offend  the  girl,  visibly  irritated.
    —  you  say  he  did    '  all  he  could  '  .
    —  and  what's  the  problem  with  that?
    —  it's  not  a  problem  per  se.  you  openly  care  about  your  father,  that  much  is  apparent,  but  you  don't  ...  treat  him  as  one.  it's  as  if  ...
    —  as  if  what?
    he  knows  he  may  be  pushing  something  he  shouldn't  —  or  at  least,  not  in  this  very  moment.  however,  the  situation  demands  it;  the  girl  demands  it.  he  sighs  again.
    —  you're  an  intelligent  young  woman,  melrose.
    —  are  you  gonna  get  to  the  fucking  point?
    —  you  are  a  result  of  your  surroundings,  your  home  life.  and  you  got  through  it  better  than  most  kids  would  have.  you're  intelligent,  resourceful.  you  have  a  tendency  of  seeing  things  as  they  are,  crystal  clear.  you  already  know  all  of  this,  and  you  certainly  don't  need  an  old  man  like  me  to  remind  you  —  or  that's  what  you  like  to  think  at  this  very  moment.
    rosie's  frown  does  not  waver,  but  it  softens  a  bit,  perhaps  in  confusion.
    —  you  were  always,  in  one  way  or  the  other,  above  your  peers.  you  had  to  grow  up  more  rapidly  than  any  of  them.  you  had  to  adapt.  does  that  sound  accurate?
    —  well  ...  yeah.
    —  very  well.  now,  what  do  you  remember  the  most  about  your  father,  in  your  childhood?
    she  takes  a  brief  moment  before  answering.
    —  he  was  tired.  always.
    —  did  he  cook  for  you?  get  you  from  school?
    —  i  mean,  yeah?  he  did,  for  a  while.
    —  so  it  did  stop,  at  one  point?
    —  well,  it  had  to.  when  i  was  old  enough,  i  had  to  take  care  of  things  for  myself.
    —  did  he  ask  you  to?
    —  no.  i  did  it  because  i  wanted  to.
    —  then  you  wished  to  make  it  easier  for  your  father.  you  saw  that  he  was  too  weak  to  do  everything  himself,  and  you  took  action  the  moment  you  could.
    —  god,  is  there  ever  gonna  be  a  point?
    —  the  point  is  already  there.  how  old  were  you?
    —  what?
    —  i  said,  how  old  were  you?  when  you  started  being  more  responsible.
    —  i  ...  i  don't  know.  eight,  maybe?
    —  and  you  think  it's  normal  for  an  eight  years  old  child  to  do  something  like  this  out  of  their  own  volition?
    rosie  has  a  chance  to  be  snarky  again,  yet  chooses  silence.  perhaps  she's  started  to  grasp  the  meaning  behind  his  words.
    —  you  already  started  to  see  your  father  as  a  human.  it  is  a  highly  remarkable  achievement  for  any  child  to  see  their  parents  as  they  are,  but  you  were  too  young  by  then.  you  weren't  supposed  to.
    this  time,  the  girl  speaks.
    —  i  don't  see  what's  wrong  with  it.  my  dad  needed  help.  i  was  old  enough  to  give  it.
    —  the  problematic  aspect  of  your  actions  is  not  your  sentiment,  melrose.  it's  the  fact  that  you  have  one  parental  figure  that  you  think  you  can't  rely  on.  if  anything  —  they  rely  on  you.
    before  rosie  can  say  anything  out  of  offence,  the  doctor  proceeds.
    —  did  you  ever  tell  him  about  yout  issues?  about  how  many  drugs  you  were  taking,  when  you  got  in  this  town?  did  you  ever  mention  to  him  how  your  grades  started  to  drop?
    —  how  the  fuck  was  i  supposed  to  tell  him?
    now,  rosie's  words  are  rash.
    —  he  already  had  to  deal  with  all  the  shit  i  pulled  before.  you  think  he  was  doing  fine  during  the  "simon"  situation?  you  think  he  had  a  good  time  everytime  i  got  caught  shoplifting?  or  all  the  times  the  school  principal  had  to  call  him  everytime  i  got  into  a  fight?
    —  and  you  thought  it  better  to  keep  it  all  to  yourself?  out  of  guilt?
    —  what  was  i  supposed  to  do?  give  him  another  reason  to  make  him  feel  like  shit?
    —  had  you  told  him  something,  maybe  you  could  have  gotten  help  earlier.  you  thought  saying  nothing  would  make  things  better  for  him.  had  you  told  him  something,  maybe  you  wouldn't  be  here.
    were  she  able  to  walk  properly,  rosie  would  stand  up,  break  something  from  his  desk.  and  yet,  she  stays  in  her  chair,  aware  of  her  own  weakness,  yet  vocal  about  her  anger.
    —  you  don't  think  i  feel  like  shit  for  ending  up  here?  i  fucked  him  up  for  life.  it  would  have  been  better  for  him  if  i  had  just  died!  what's  the  fucking  point  in  waking  up,  six  months  behind  everyone  else,  and  being  told  i'm  a  shit  daughter?!
    —  that's  not  what  i  meant,  melrose.  not  in  the  slightest.
    —  oh  really?  then  what  was  it?  am  i  shit  at  something  else,  perhaps?
    —  alright.  let  me  try  to  explain  some  other  way.
    the  doctor  sighs    (  yes,  again  )    ,  this  time  to  find  the  right  words.  he  might  have  pushed  her  a  bit  too  far.
    —  i  apologise  for  making  you  feel  this  way.  it  was  not  meant  as  an  accusation,  far  from  it.  what  happened  between  you  and  your  father  wasn't  your  fault.  what  i  meant  was  —  you  see  your  father  more  as  an  equal,  someone  who  has  enough  of  his  own  struggles,  and  you  give  for  granted  that  you  shouldn't  be  asking  them  for  help,  either  because  you  think  they  won't  actually  be  able  to  help  you,  or  because  you  fear  either  their  disappointment  or  how  much  it's  going  to  cost  them  to  help.
    rosie  stays  silent.  her  eyes  look  as  if  they're  about  to  burst,  but  she  holds  it  in.  maybe  it's  the  anger,  maybe  it's  the  sorrow  —  most  possibly,  a  combination  of  both.
    —  if  you  had  died  that  night,  your  father  might  have  never  recovered.
    the  girl  can't  hold  it  in  too  much  —  some  tears  betray  her,  but  keeps  her  mouth  shut.
    —  i  hope  you  understand,  melrose.
    —  ...  whatever.
    —  do  you  still  want  to  talk?
    —  ...  ...
    —  you  don't  need  to  talk  about  your  mother,  if  you  don't  want  to.
    —  it's  not  like  i  don't  want  to.  it's  just  ...  there  ain't  much  to  say.
    the  doctor  nods;  it's  time  for  her  to  talk,  to  take  her  time.
    —  i've  never  seen  her.  only  her  car.  it  was  red  and  shiny.  i  know  my  dad  never  wanted  me  to  know,  but  i  knew.  that  was  her.  i  just  didn't  know  why  she  was  there.
    —  when  did  this  happen?
    —  after  the  "simon"  incident.  we  were  still  in  wisconsin.
    —  you  didn't  meet  her,  then?
    —  no.  my  dad  wouldn't  have  it.  figured  she  didn't  want  to  see  me,  either.
    she  feels  the  need  for  more  conclusive  words.
    —  listen,  i  hate  that  woman.  always  have,  always  will.  she  ruined  me,  she  ruined  dad.  she  ain't  in  my  life  anymore.  she  never  was.  only  that  one  time,  and  it's  only  because  my  dad  forced  her.  he  couldn't  fix  my  mess  so  she  had  to.  did  the  least  she  could  do,  i  guess.
the  man  nods,  says  nothing,  a  bit  expectantly.
    —  i  was  mad  when  he  told  me,  that  night.  he  never  mentioned  anything  about  her,  and  that  day,  for  god  knows  what  fucking  reasons,  he  mentions  it.  then  he  says  why.  he  says:  "she's  agreed  to  pay  for  your  college",  or  whatever,  as  if  any  college  would  have  me  with  my  record.  and  i  don't  want  anything  from  her.  i  don't  want  to  need  her.  that's  all  there  is  to  it.
    —  you  see  a  pattern,  then?
    —  what?
    —  of  doing  everything  yourself.  or  wanting  to,  at  least.  the  reasons  differ  from  one  person  to  another.  with  your  father,  it's  concern,  fear  —  whatever  you  feel  it  is.  with  your  mother,  it's  spite.  a  strongly  rooted  spite,  too.  and  while  your  reasons  can  be  valid,  you  could  try  a  different  approach.  getting  out  of  your  shell,  if  only  a  bit.
    —  i  mean.  i  tried,  and  it  changed  nothing.
    —  you  tried?
    —  yeah.
    rosie  has  calmed  down  by  now;  she  still  feels  nervous,  bits  of  her  blood  boiling,  but  doesn't  show  it  anymore.  she's  always  had  trouble  finding  a  balance.
    —  are  you  talking  about  that  boy  —  what  was  the  name?
    —  fuckface.
    —    (  ...  )    of  course.
    the  doctor  stands  up  from  his  chair,  goes  over  the  entrance  to  his  office  and  grabs  the  girl's  clutches;  their  time  for  the  day  is  over.
    —  so,  do  you  feel  like  talking  about  "fuckface",  next  time?
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