Yes, Iโm sorry, I know Iโm being totally obnoxious about this. This is the first bingo Iโve ever finished and Iโm super excited about this! I usually get bored before theyโre finished. I wanted to do a lil materlist for the bingo fics. @chaotictarlos thank you for all the betas, the prompts, the encouragement, and talking me off the metaphorical ledge when I needed it. ๐๐ I love you friend!
Date Night Sex: Only for Tonightย
Carlos bringing TK lunch: Key to your Heartย
โbecause I love youโ: Unwind with me
TK stopping by the station when Carlos has to work late:
Sounding: The Sounds of Carlos Reyes
Breakfast in bed: The Beginning of Something Greatย
โI was thinking about you so I got you thisโ: Better Days and even better nights
TK is having second thoughts. Itโs cold and windy and there are like ten people in line in front of him. The short sleeve button down was definitely a mistake. Itโs just. He looks really good in it. Fucking winter. Fucking Texas. TK shoves his hands in his pockets and bounces on his toes.
The doorman studies his ID and then TKโs face twice before waving him through. And then heโs finally inside Barbarellas.
Pink and yellow spotlights flash around the room and the 80โs pop is momentarily deafening. It has to be at least twenty degrees warmer in here. This is exactly what he came for. TK squares his shoulders and heads to the dance floor.
Brightly dressed people are pressed together from the DJโs stage to the back wall of booths. Theyโre swaying and jumping and squealing with laughter. Drinks slosh over plastic cups as fishnet-gloved hands wave in the air. TK smiles as he leans against a table and looks for the best place to join in.
Before we see the probably most important Tarlos kiss ever tonight, here's a little collection of all kisses and smooches TK & Carlos shared throughout the seasons so far ๐๐
Happy Tarlos Tuesday and happy Tarlos Wedding day ๐คต๐ป๐๐คต๐ฝ๐
I was giffing this scene for a set I'm working on and I just can't get over it. They're not even an official thing yet here but Carlos touches TK like they are. The way he has his hand on TK's bicep, thumb slowly moving over it with a soft, soothing touch. He runs his hand over his forehead, petting his hair back and touching him so gently and with so much love. I can't get over the soft way he touches TK, how you can see all of the love that this man has for TK and they're not even together. He's just so ready to love and make TK happy.
I know that we've been told that Carlos knew right from the beginning that he was going to marry TK, but I don't know, seeing it hits so hard. This man, this beautiful, wonderful man had so much love right from the beginning. He was bursting with it, just waiting for someone to come along and take the love that he was so willing to give. And then came TK, broken from a proposal to someone he thought he was his soulmate, an empty vase waiting to be filled with the love that Carlos had to give but he was so scared of accepting that love, of letting Carlos close because he's been down that path before and he isn't sure he can survive it again.
And then, then I was thinking about this part:
and how angry Carlos was sitting there because he couldn't touch TK without it feeling wrong because they're not together and he doesn't know if TK would welcome his touch. Before, when they were talking and doing the "are we or aren't we" he was more than willing to touch TK, to give him soft touches and comfort him even though TK couldn't feel him or wouldn't know because it was safe in a way it wouldn't be in Push.
And he's angry about it. He's angry that TK left him, of course he is, but he's also angry about not being able to touch him and give him the comfort that Carlos so desperately wants to give him.
โIโm so mad at you right now. And the worst part about this is, if this is goodbye, I canโt even hold your hand or run my fingers through your hair, or kiss your head.โ
That line gets me every single time and deserves to be in this post because it's powerful.
Maybe I'm reading into it wrong, or just seeing what I want to see but I just find it really interesting. In season one (the first gif) they're in that limbo, they're not any official thing but Carlos sees no reason that he can't touch TK, to provide him soft comfort while he's in the hospital. But in season three, when they're broken up and not together, he can't because he doesn't know if his touch would be welcomed (even though we learn TK does welcome Carlos' touch, desperately so because of how he clings to him when he wakes up).
And like, I know the times are different one happens before they're dating and one happens after their dating but idk. I'm in my feels.
The character shift from season one to season three is incredible.
Once Carlos knows what it's like for TK to let him in, to let him love him, to let him feel his empty vase, he can't bring himself to cross that line of uncertainty. Of course, we know that TK welcomes Carlos' touch, desperately so by the way that he clings to him. But Carlos doesn't know that.
Sure, he didn't know how TK would react in season 1 to him being by his bed side and holding him. But now, now that Carlos has held TK and knows him and knows what it's like to to have TK, he can't bring himself to touch him.
Carlos has always has always had so much love for TK, right from the beginning and that's beautiful.
coming out as a firm 'oliver is a bucktommy endgame truther' believer like oh the way he speaks about them in his interviews? i just know he wants them to be long-term bad and i hope all his wishes come true