Draft of My Ohmtoonz Fanfic
Chapter Warnings:
Homophobia, Cursing, Mention of shooting and guns and death, Mental Breakdown, Crying, Abuse, Anxiety, Insecurities.
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Sickness was not always physical. For example, depression.
I had always been a happy person, or at least I tried my best, but recently it's become impossible to even fake it. I know it's just petty internet shit, we all deal with haters, but it's not the same. These people seem to know me, know my weaknesses.
'Your shit sucks, Luke. Fucking quit already'.
'Faggot!'
'You and Ohmwrecker god fucking queers'.
'Your father must fucking be so disappointed'.
'Should've been aborted'.
Positive people, true fans, protected me in the replies, but it didn't help. These just struck me. It's like they knew...knew about my secrets.
My laptop interrupted my thoughts with the familiar ring of a Skype call. I debated on ignoring it, but keeping myself in this depressing slump would just make things worse. I scooted my chair away from my setup and grabbed the laptop off my bed. I briefly smiled and the little collage of bunny stickers.
Opening up, I see the call was from the one and only Ohmwrecker. With a breathy chuckle, I answer.
"Good day, Ohmie," I greet. As usual, Ohm had his camera turned off, and I returned it with my own camera off.
"Toonzy! How's you?" Ryan's little giggle sends another smile on my face.
"Good..." I swallow as the hate comments return in my mind. Ryan catches this somehow; he's one of my best friends, of course he would.
Ryan gets serious. "Don't lie to me, Luke. What's up, man?"
I sigh and admit I had read the hate comments on my recent video. This isn't the first time I've put myself through torment like this, and Ryan had comforted me then too.
"Oh, Luke," Ryan says quietly, "We talked about this. Maybe it's best to turn off the comments on videos if they're getting bad like that."
"It would raise questions from fans," I answer, "And I can't ignore the true fans. I just...I just wish I was so damn sensitive."
"You're not sensitive, Luke," Ryan comforts, "Maybe go over to Del's house for a bit. He'd certainly get your mind off things."
I debate this for a minute. It wouldn't be a bad idea, and I haven't hung out with Jon in a while.
"Yeah I think I will," I say, "I'll text him now. I'll call you later, maybe we can record? Oh, also, thanks for the bunny stickers."
I hear Ryan give another laugh.
"Of course, Toonzy. See ya."
"Love ya, man."
And with that, I end the call. I place the laptop back onto my bed and return to my setup. Grabbing my phone, I send a quick text to Jon.
'yo u open to hang?'
I doubted he would be awake at 2pm, but it was worth a shot. To my surprise, my phone dinged soon after I laid it down.
'helllll yeah! just cum ovr whenevr man'
'k, ill get there in about an hour'
'cool beans'
I lay my phone back down and look at my desktop. The comments were still open on the screen.
'Faggot'.
'Queer'.
'Burn in hell, gay bitch'.
I close the tab with a sharp inhale. Ryan is right, looking at these won't help. I need to get out.
Before I change my mind, I go get a pair of jeans and a clean shirt. Freshening up and splashing some water on my face calms me down a bit. I slide on my boots and grab my phone, then my keys.
I head out of my house, making sure to lock my door behind me. As I walk to the driver's side of my car, I reach over my hood to swat away the neighborhood stray cat off. It gives me a disapproving look and runs away into the hole of my neighbor's fence.
As soon as my car starts, a song softly starts to play though the speakers.
"Lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones, and I will try to fix you."
That's depressing, too depression for me. I click the station off and connect it to Bluetooth, quickly restarting a podcast I had began last week.
Nothing interesting broke me from my depressing and lonely thoughts on the way over to Jon's. I guess the universe wants me to suffer.
The ride wasn't as long as I expected, guess I zoned out. Turning off my phone and car, I exit and make my way up to Jon's front door.
The doorbell was able to be faintly heard outside, though it was drowned out by the sound of pounding footsteps.
Jon opens the door wide and stands there with a big smile. "CARTOONZ," he laughs loudly.
Jon, surprisingly, was a lot taller than me, even taller than Bryce. He had black hair than stayed in a short buzz, and he has a bit of a stumble on his chin. His skin was very pale, and his eyes were a dark gray. Jon is a lanky fellow, but don't doubt his strength. He's a stubborn bitch.
"Hey, man," I chuckle and give him a quick hug. He closes the door behind me and leads me into his kitchen.
"Coke?" I nod and he tosses a Pepsi to me and grabs a 7up for himself. I silently disagree with his choice, but hey, he's a hater of Pepsi and is kink enough to keep some in his fridge for me.
"So what's good," he asks as he leaps up onto his counter to sit. I lean against on the counter beside him.
"Um..." I know I should talk to him about it, but Jon is like my little brother. I shouldn't put this all on him.
"Ey man," Jon says more seriously, "What's wrong, Luke."
I give him the same story as Ryan. My heart feels heavy again.
Jon's knuckles are white at the edge of the countertop. "Fucking assholes. Wish I could teach em a lesson," he growls.
"Jon, they're probably kids.." I say. Jon nods but is still tense.
"I don't want anything to happen to you, Luke," he says quietly, "Not after high school."
I gulp. I dated Jon's sister, Lucille, in high school, and me and Jon got close. Though her and I aren't together now, him and I still see each other as family. I grew up with depression, and Jon was there along with Lucille. They saw the worst of me.
"I'm not a teen anymore," I mumble, "I should be able to handle this."
"You aren't expect to handle shit! Lil fuckfaces shoulda grow up!" he says sternly. I smile a bit at his frustrated face.
"I know, Jonny," I sigh, "but hey, they're not wrong..."
Jon snorts, "They are. Bein' bi don't make you uh-uh fag!"
I came out to Jon a bit after I left Lucille. It wasn't a rough breakup, even after dating for 8 years. We both knew it just wasn't for us as adults, more like a teen fling. Anyway, coming out to Jon was rough. He was accepting, and even told me he was gay. We cried together in our shared apartment. Afterwards, we drank cheep beer and played Mario cart.
I give a little chuckle and Jon belts out a loud laugh. This is why this dumbfuck was my best friend. He can never fail to make me laugh.
"Hey, so me and Ohm wanna record t'night," I say after we calm down, "You up for some?" I see Jon dart his eyes for a second and bite the inside of his mouth. Fuck, what did this boy do now.
"Uh well I gots plans," he says awkwardly, "I promise Ev-Vanoss...that I'd play GTA." That's nothing unusual, so why is he all flustered?
"What's up, though? You're gettin all red," I ask with concern. Jon takes a chug from his 7up and swallows slowly to waste time.
"Uh...Vanoss wants to meet up."
"Oh shit," I gasp. Jon hasn't met the others- in person at least. Meaning they haven't seen his face. None of them know why he don't show his face expect me.
Bullies fucking suck.
"So...are you gonna?" I ask after a pause. Jon gulps and shrugs.
"I wanna...b-but ya know man," he sighs, "What if it gets online, or he expect something else."
I've heard this from Jon many times whenever he brings up fans wanting a face reveal. But this is different. This is his best friend Evan asking.
"Don't if you don't wanna 100%," I say, "I'll go with you if that'ul help." Jon nods and finishes his drink.
"I'll think about it."
After a few hours of watching movies and playing games, I say bye and head home. As soon as I do, a text lights up my phone.
'you home, toonz?'
I quickly unlock my phone to answer Ryan.
'yeah am now wuzzup?'
'bryce wants to play duo with me on some new game, trynna see what game you got in mind'
'uno?'
'I'm up for it, maybe he can join and put off his game'
'cool with me'
I head to my bedroom after grabbing a slice of pizza from last nights dinner. I open up my desktop and go to tumblr just to waste time as Ryan tries to convince Bryce to play.
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So this is the first chapter (draft) and I would like opinions! There’s another little part after this that switches to Del’s POV with Vanoss n shit but I’m pretty solid on that. Feel free to criticize :3
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BTS as Boyfriends [HC]
Request: ‘bts as boyfriends? ☺’
There’s kind of a story in each? Idk, hope you enjoy!
Warning: some nsfw mentions
Rap Monster
You fall for his intelligence and humour
He falls for your shyness around him
You finally tell a friend out loud about your crush on him
unaware that he’s nearby and within hearing distance
So he asks you out on a date
he doesn’t expect for you to want more than the one date
so you get the impression afterwards that it meant nothing to him
you try to move on
he hates watching someone else being so close to you
Everything changes;
he interrupts your conversation, not caring to be rude
“I can’t stand it anymore”
*intense kiss* *everybody cheers, huzzah!*
Learning is suddenly more fun
school was a drag back in the day
but his stories capture your attention
You just let him sit talking for hours about a book he just read
Matching jumpers
snuggy snug snug
winter becomes more enjoyable
it’s freezing and miserable outside but
you’re sat by the fire with joonie
well laid on the couch by the fire falling asleep
as he reads you a bedtime story hahaha
you get through books together at the same time and it’s magical
there’s always something to talk about
whether it’s a debate / discussion about a book
or about something really little like
how you each prefer something and why
and you appreciate the little differences
but you also appreciate how you change and shape each other into better rounded human beings
excuses to be skinshippy with you
*grabs your butt*
“it looked cold”
okay I didn’t say they were good excuses...
Everyone thinks he’s this confident, outgoing guy
but when you’re around he’s all cutesy and always bumping into things
He gets so distracted by you
and he really does try not to perv on you
like he really tries
but his thoughts just come out in one big list of adjectives
that progressively get a little nsfw
“How do I look Joonie?”
“Damn, you’re gorgeous, you’re beautiful, you’re sexy...”
*winks*
Sex isn’t limited to the bedroom
just as you think you’re seeing shy squishy joonie
he takes you into a storage cupboard mid-party
and wow
you swear it’s the best you’ve ever had in your life
but then you find you keep saying that yo yourself
he’s so attentive
it’s all about you
he doesn’t mind if you focus on him later but
it’s more fun when you put just as much attention in at the same time
because your boy gets FLUSTERED
he’s so cool until you touch him just right...
but anyway
back to fluffy content
oops
Namjoon shows you the world
all without travelling
he’s so well educated
so cultured
the works
he’s the best teacher you never asked for
everything is fun
everything is interesting
everything is awesome
and all of this is going to last a lifetime
Jin
He only has eyes for you
way before you become an item
Purposely awkward af when you’re in a conversation with someone who could be a threat
to put them off
Always asking about your well being
He’s just happy that you’re happy
getting to talk to you in the first place makes his day
but then when he asks how you are and you respond with a smile
that really hits the feels
At first he’s so smooth
there’s nothing flawed about him
Then you find out what a dork he is
squeaky laughter
bad jokes
sorta clumsy, even
but he’s still perfect
and still a gentleman
His friends have never seen him laugh so often in his life
you make him look even more radiant
you’re the funniest person to him
even though you never really had yourself down as ‘comedian’
he loves your type of humour
Making breakfast together
back hugs
it’s one of those little things in life
and one of those things that make you miss him more when you’re apart
One night a week is definitely date night
he never misses it or forgets
He makes everything special
even the really little anniversaries / milestones
ones you didn’t even realises were a cause for celebration
“Chocolates? Whatever for?”
“It’s been half a year since we made us public”
“Aw, Jin... You realize people don’t usually get gifts for things like that?”
“I just... I wanted to”
The most generous man
all he needs is that you return the love
and remind him of everything you love about him
especially in bed
he’s in charge
but it’s only because he likes to take care of you
he may not be as daring as some of the other members
but every inch of the house has been covered
very intimate, passionate lover
the love just makes it more special
as well as more sensual for him
emotion is everything
and not a day goes by that he doesn’t think of you with adoration
he brings you back things from a normal food shopping trip
because he was thinking of you
he tries not to make his social media all about you
but at least 50% ends up being that
it works to his advantage though
because girls are still after him
and then that selfie he posted yesterday sends them the message
to back off
he’s so perfect
that none of your estranged school ‘mates’ are having any of it
and after hearing this
he invades your snapchat
selfie after selfie after selfie whilst you’re asleep
and whilst you’re not sure you appreciate that one shot of you being asleep
it shuts all the haters right up
and now they’re probably crying
oh well
he is proud to show you off
“hey everyone! look at this amazing thing my girlfriend/boyfriend did!”
he’ll do anything to make you laugh
anything
if you’re having a bad day then that just won’t do
he’s taking you out
or he’s treating you for a night in
and he’s definitely treating you to his dad jokes
and then you’re in stitches
Jin makes you forget everything that sucks about life
Suga
Too shy to start talking to you
but somehow you exchange numbers one day
So it becomes a heavily text-based friendship that you form
He has to be sure he won’t make a fool of himself
Actions are louder than words
he might not say much about how he feels about you
but there’s gestures every day
like how he brings you coffee to work
or how he offers to pay for food
you figure it out eventually
and you really like him to
but how to say it?...
so anyway, one day, you kiss
you know, casual
“so does this mean...?...”
yes
bam! you’re a couple!
You complete him
and he can’t imagine life without you
nights without you in his bed are lonely
People think he’s cold and indifferent
but you make him soft soft soft
like he’ll pretend not to be ticklish
oh but hahahahaha you find out he is
“Ah! Jagiyaaaa! Hahahahahah!”
Just hug him all the time
sometimes you complain about how you look
but he just smiles at you and you know what it means
Only you can stop him from over-working
he’s just sat at his laptop, eyebrows furrowed
talk dirty to him so he doesn’t go insane
don’t forget to wear his clothes
he loves watching you roam the house in an over sized shirt
those similarities are what he holds onto
if there’s no common ground, then what would be the point, huh?
sharing is caring
one headphone each on bus journeys
you can have some of his fries at the takeaway
big cocktail for you both to have on a night out
under the same blanket on colder days
he loves it when you unexpectedly touch him
drives him crazy
one minute it’s all innocent and lovey dovey
then your hand is on his dick and fuuuuck
too soon?
nah
the programme you were watching is forgotten about
so is all his sense of surroundings
the curtains are wide open and there you are pumping him up and down
and he doesn’t even notice or care
fuck he loves you
not just because of that obvs
but after your first time initiating something more sexual
he does not stop thinking about you
like holy shit this is real
yippie
he loves your kisses
he can’t go a day without
well he can but it’s torture
when aren’t his hands on your waist?
and fuck he still can’t stop kissing you
not too much in public of course
but at home in mid conversation
after every sentence
until there’s just like half an hour silence
and you’re smooching each other’s faces off
you’ll never feel short of love or attention with Yoongi
J-Hope
As soon as he notices you: personality turnaround
Cool, manly, swagger
not a precious easily shook bby at all
He’s kinda distracting
like you’re trying to work here, but
he’s too funny and handsome
and he knows it, even though he’s too modest to admit it
But then one day something moves abruptly
and he gets shook and it’s the cutest thing to you
but he’s so embarrassed
he could just run away forever
because he thinks he done fcked up
wrong!
“aw, cute” you respond
*dorky grin emerges on Hobi’s face*
*comes into work next day on a motorbike*
[think j-dope era]
You make it clear that this doesn’t change your new impression of him
The typical ‘chase’ love story
He likes you but you take a while to give him the time of day to make sure he’s worth it
and he is worth it
there’s like a solid week where he brings you something everyday
and you don’t want this poor boy emptying his wallet so fast
so you give in to how you feel
“okay, okay! I’ll go on a date with you”
but you insist on paying the bill to make up for his troubles
but he won’t have it
you eventually agree to split the bill
and that starts the foundations for
a completely equal relationship
what you give is what you get
a problem shared is a problem halved
and all the other cliches about sharing
excitable cutie pie
“Y/n! Y/n! Y/n!”
Yeah, he’s kind of gathered that he can’t hide his true self from you
He wants to discover the world with you
he takes risks and tries new things for you
he tries to be braver than he really is
“Let’s go on the rollercoaster y/n!”
“Are you sure Hobi? You screamed so much last time...”
“Well, yeah...
“... That was my first time...
“... and I didn’t know for sure if it was safe...”
sure hobi, sure
The best team
your respective skills combined are all powerful
you can solve any problem together
you become that couple that are great at creating other couples
so many couples dates come out of it
it’s because you’re good at learning people’s true personalities fast
and he’s the best persuader
oh and he’s great at suggesting places to go
everyone enjoys the company of both of you
if only one of you can attend something
everyone asks about the other
you come as a package
“we” instead of “I” comes out in sentences a lot
but it’s not that either of you are too clingy
you both genuinely enjoy each other’s company for extended periods of time
like one day it’ll be like
“it’s the weekend and a bit rubbish weather to go do anything so d’ya wanna come over for the afternoon to watch some movies?”
and then next thing you know
it’s Friday next week
and you’ve been there all this time
whoops
Tries to hide when he’s in the mood at a bad time
but he talks slow and deep without meaning to
so he can never hide from you
and whilst he doesn’t have to tell you he’s turned on
you have your little methods of making him say it aloud
like when you grab his thigh
and then he’s like
“oh fuck I need you”
y/n at your service hobi...
you’re so good to him
that bless his soul
he always says ‘thank you’ afterwards
“you don’t need to thank me Hobi”
“but that was great”
bless
everything is still special as the relationship progresses
and whilst he’s always loved referring to you as his girlfriend / boyfriend
he loves it even more when he gets to say ‘fiance’
fairy tale wedding
he’s like a prince
honeymoon at disney world
because it’s everything your relationship stands for
the rides where Hobi takes risks for you
the fairy tale like love for each other
you even each go for the makeover package one day
it’s probably cringe to a lot of people
but you’re his wife / husband now so he doesn’t care
Jimin
Admires you from a distance
he hates how his friends can so easily talk to you
he wants to be more like them, so he tries hard
Finally, he plucks up the courage to initiate and engage in a proper conversation
“Hey” with a shy smile
Suddenly you become besties
there’s something about Jimin you trust deeply in
He can’t stop smiling around you
you can’t stop smiling around him
eventually you both figure it out
At first, his jaw is aching from all the smiling
he eventually builds up that stamina though
“You’re so pretty”
random compliments for days
giggly couple
you make each other smile too much
your relationship kind of brings him out of his shell
but he will probably always be shy chimchim
and you’re both low key in public
but everyone can see how you look at each other
You’re surprised at how chatty he gets under the covers
because of how shy he usually is
but the bedroom is a totally different story!
“you like that?”
“am I treating you good honey?”
pure fucking sin
like w h e r e d i d t h i s s i d e o f m y c h i m c h i m c o m e f r o m
you call him out on it after a few times
and he’s just like
“what? I was just really getting into it”
and he somehow says that with such innocence
that you’d think he was talking about just a song or something
his voice is music to your ears
seeing ‘I love you’ in a text just isn’t the same
I mean, of course it still means a lot
but you get goosebumps when he says it face to face
adventures in town for hours
it doesn’t matter if no one has money
it’s the quality time that counts
and there are still some free things to enjoy
window shopping and speculating the future
museums
sightseeing
checking out buskers
he doesn’t even dress up particularly for those days
but you’re still impressed
when he’s running about town
you just admire his sweater paws
or he’s reaching up for something in a shop
and a bit of hip shows
and you admire how beautiful his skin tone is
you end up scrimping together like 50p for a second hand film
and it’s rubbish
but it doesn’t matter
you can make your own fun anyway
I’m not saying no one ever has money
the point is that you don’t need it to have a good time together
He’s so glad he plucked up the courage that day way back when to talk to you
V
Doesn’t beat around the bush
Knows instantly that he has a crush
allows a suitable period of time in which he can get to know you
Asks you out on a date when the time is right
Not afraid to flirt and be a dork
says the most random things
“have you ever thought about what makes a krabby patty?”
I have lots of theories about this but not the right place
and he’s so random
but it only draws you in more
because he’s intriguing
slightly mysterious even
but there’s one he’s crystal clear on
“I really like you y/n”
“I really like you too”
yes, it’s actually as simple as that
He is the most fun boyfriend EVER
it helps that he learned so much about you at the beginning
surprise day trips
little games he’s created
as well as existing games
he makes bets that he knows he will lose
because he wants to treat you
“I bet you won’t find me within 5 minutes in a game of hide and seek!”
“You’re on!”
“Loser has to cook dinner!”
and then he chooses a really bad hiding place
like under a glass table
or behind curtains that don’t reach the ground
and then it turns out the fridge is already choc-a-bloc
sometimes you worry he’s too thoughtful
like that time he skipped something important
just to see you when you were sick
or when he gives you his jacket when it’s freezing cold
but of course you appreciate it
He’s not afraid to flaunt your relationship
costume party? you have to dress up;
he insists you’re gonna be the best dressed couple there
Never forget how special you are
he’s saved himself for you
he always wanted to wait for the right person
and he was going to wait til marriage
but realises that is perhaps outdated
and he feels way too much for you for this not to be genuine
and you show it back too, more than enough for reassurance
[you choose whether you’re showing him the way or if it’s new to you too]
it’s extremely intimate
doesn’t forget to tell you at least 5 times he loves you during
remind him he’s the one and he’ll be putty in your hands
loved up
sexed up
the first time quickly leads into the second third and fourth time
as you spend the entire day in your dressing gowns
it’s a true bonding experience
excuse the unintended pun
you will never feel unloved by tae tae
Jungkook
Shy but treats you like a friend
if he’s giving you witty comments and teasing you then
he definitely has a crush on you
Will fite you
Gaming marathon? You’re on!
all of it is a just quest to impress you though
and all of this happens often over time
and you begin to notice him more
and feel that he has the potential to be more than your friend
so yep, another gaming marathon
intense flirting
heck, he’s surprising himself big time
“what are you gonna do about it?” he says with a smirk
yet he isn’t surprised when
he realises it’s because he’s gotten so comfortable around you
so back to what he said
this is where things get taken up a notch
so what are you gonna do about it?
“depends what you have in mind, kook”
and he knows with your tone that you mean
“either you bust my ass on this game right now or you drop that console and do something about this tension”
that bit is unspoken of course ^
he pauses the game
but he hasn’t let go of the console
he just looks at you
you’re looking back at him trying not to hyperventilate
and then he goes for it
game forgotten about
“come here”
???
“y/n?”
you follow his instruction
this is new - a demanding jungkook
you like it really though
“now, I could be reading this wrong, but...”
*intense passionate kiss*
but afterwards
Still can’t look you in the eye
“Jungkook, you know you can make eye contact with me after...”
and then you pauses because oops you’re hanging with friends
“After WHAT y/n??”
and you’re both shook
“Jungkook?? What happened?!?”
you hang your heads down
and I think your mates assume you fucked or something
even though there was only a kiss
so no one mentions it
because of your lack of response on their questioning back there
so you guys get the space you need
to get your heads around what’s going on here
and actually nothing happens for a good while
the intense friendship continues
until one day
you’re at a party
and he can’t fucking take it anymore
*takes you by the hand to a bedroom*
ooh
then your friends are certain something is going on
when one of them catches you at the party leaving said room
and this is where they bug you both constantly
until you have to ask
“so... what’s going on here?”
“to tell you the truth y/n... I can’t stop thinking about you”
“I can’t stop thinking about you either”
*cutesy kiss*
*less cutesy kiss*
*intense make out*
*low key touching*
yep it’s happening again whoops
so less of the hanky panky talk
til later that is
it’s one of those “they finally got together” things
everyone deep down thought you’d make a good match
it was hard to unsee
once you realise how similar you two are
but not too similar of course
there’d have been no intense banter without those differences
yeah you ‘argue’ a lot
but it’s just part of the passion you have for each other
yeah I’m not going for long without this talk lmao idk what my deal is today
Sensitive lil boy
Whisper in his ear and his boxers tighten
“Problem Jeonggukkie?”
“Yah jagi! That was mean...”
you know because you’re in public
and you know how easy it is to get to him in that way
“guys seriously get a room!”
again, whoops
You still do all those other things you did as mates
you’re basically mates but with a romantic aspect
‘dickhead’ means ‘you’re a loveable idiot’
‘yeah right’ means ‘you’re probably right but I’m not admitting that’
‘fuck’s sake’ means ‘that joke was terrible but really, I find it funny’
it’s like you don’t say what you mean
but you know what each other means
and there’s no overthinking about it
To an outsider, you guys seem extremely casual but this relationship means the world
Hope you guys enjoyed! Headcanon Masterlist
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