#this felt more right ya know?

[eff-plays]

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #shadowheart #bg3 tav #bg3 fanart #what's ur favorite part of this masterpiece ... me? i like the completely 3D copypaste job of the artifact #listen i couldn't be bothered #too many angles #oc: hiraeth #anyway yeah i'm doing a meme thing of hira meeting/recruiting all of the guys cuz i thought it'd be funny #shtarting with shart #ALSO THIS ISN'T FANART OF THEM KILLING HER #i just always found it funny how she just lays there on her back perfectly straight and weird #this felt more right ya know? #so they find her like this and just sorta take in the sight

[cornerihaunt]

oh. ohhhhhhhh. okay. okay. well. at least it’s not detroit.

#pens lb #rambles #hockey #it was so nice to believe #to hope even #now i’ll just be thinking of the small things that could’ve gone differently #you start sid in the OT against the leafs last week #you score on one more powerplay. #instead of you know. passing the puck around four future hall of famers. #sorry that felt bitter lmao #ok ok ok ok. #so many what ifs. they might make me go absolutely nuts. #anyways i’ll leave my saccharine see ya in october post for after the islanders game #right now i need to obsess over small details of this season #tbh i hope washington has an insane cinderella run. it’d be fun and entertaining #but. anyways. i love u lb crew and i love u pens.

[goldeneclipsee]

I’ve become afraid of death. which is actually improvement for someone who was suicidal but also. scary :(

this is all your faults /pos /pos /pos-

#seriously guys. y’all really have just helped everything. #Mostly north and L I love yall #But I’ve kinda felt sad cuz. If I died people would actually be sad?? #And gosh I’m scared of how everyone would react if one day I just stop responding to rps. If I stopped messaging them and stopped making ar #You guys have just really fixed everything. I love all of you more than you can imagine xxx #thanks for everything #and also know that it’s right back at ya #If you died I’d care. If you died I’d cry for days #Please. You’ve done all this for me and made me feel valid so I want you guys to feel the same #If you ever need help I’m here #Just know I will always love you #This is a more serious post but uh. The feelings have been very weird lately #And you guys are all I have #And I think I really appreciate that now. I think I’ve realized how much I need you guys #You were here for me. I’m always here for you #love yall sm #anyways it’s a bit of a ramble here in the tags lol #Anyways byee I love you mwah mwah mwah #tw sui attempt #maybe?? I mean I’ve tried to before but #Idk I dont wanna trigger yall-

[dinerfries]

signgirl

#way sign #strange whatchamacallit media #object oc #<- ig her actual object form IS here so........ #errmm ya #sharktail is... coming hes just being difficult <- i dont have any ideas for patches and pins and stuff #or at least #what ti fill his design with i COULD start over with his outfit but ill try a few more things first #anyway WAY SIGN i knew immediately i wanted a puffy vest for her i dont know WHY but i had to make it work #and i also needed her to have raccoon tail hair #it was a lil difficult making the vest work but i got it done in the end #i felt the scarf was a little cliche so i wanted to avoid it originally but i ended up coming back to it anyway #nothing else i was trying worked as well as the scarf did so ahh whatver #a lot of down arrows in the design oops i just relized that lol #their arms were a bit of an issue for me.... i originally brought in some white there but it didnt feel right so baaahhh #if you have any ideas for any of the swm cast human designs let me know!!!!! a lot of them i havent even begun to think about #i hope you like her and im excited to see this design develop more overtime! i hope anyway lol #okay im done ramblin now #oops hold it #ribsy art!!!!!! #hmm #whats the point of an art tag on an art only blog? #ah whatever #its been around for long enough it can stay

[bangcakes]

.

#personal #lmao around this time last year i decided to give up on him n LMAO girl if only you knew #i should have just talked to him but djdjjdjdjd idk it felt weird. but he even like. complained one time that we didnt talk all summer #like LMAO..... bro its two ways. u could have messaged me too xjdjjdjdjdj #tho to be fair i think he did show up to a dinner but i wasnt there bc i had just had wisdom tooth surgery n was 1. blown up like a balloon #and 2. so high on pain meds i couldnt function JFJDJJDJDJDJDJ #n e way whatever jdjdjdjd im just laughing at myself bc how did this man become my closest friend from college Zhfnnddnnd #our relationship is so weird. not in a bad way but in an unexpected way #we sat beside each other an entire semester n never talked til the last day like thats so FUNNY IDK #i even said to him that time. bc we were talkin in the hallway n went to sit for the exam n sat in our regular spots of being one seat awa #y and i was like... you know its so funny that we sat beside each other all semester and only talked today #and he was like.... hahha yeah #i was gonna introduce myself but it felt so stupid JDJJDJDJD #i didnt even know his name LMAO #i had him narrowed down to 2 names. bc he was one of like 2 guys that Always showed up in another class' zoom #and LOL i was right. he WAS one of those 2 shjdjsjsj #n e way. then the next sem came n i didnt know whether to say hi to him or not bc we talked ONCE #and i was still wearing my mask at this point and so id try to smile at him with my eyes but never got a response HDNJDJD and so i got soooo #annoyed with him. and even more so bc i kept making friends with ppl and they KNEW HIM??? and i was like WHO IS THIS???? #then one time he came up to me n my friends before class n we just talked and i was like o lmao this annoyance im having??? its a big ole #crush BDNNDNDND #and in community college its hard to like. know ppls ages and that day i found out he was 2 years younger so i was like o ok 26 n 28 isnt #bad at all #but thinking back.... first things we exchanged that time was age and i think he was also trying to fish for whether i was single bc he was #talkin about this other guy havin a baby n a wife n i was like o wow !! i didnt know!! #jdjxjdjdjdk god when he found out my age he was like... oh i never would have guessed you were older. you look young ZFHJDJDJDJDJD #oh so you were Looking is that right HJXJXJXJZJZJ GOD LMAO #i look back on so many moments n im like oh duh... he must be interested #but for me its like. i will literally more easily believe literally any other theory so i thought he just liked one of my friends Zhjxjx #ya i dont think so anymorem but i thought that up until like mid january HDHXJJXJDDJJDJ

[aroaessidhe]

2023 reads // twitter thread

Court of the Undying Seasons

NA high fantasy

demigirl volunteers to be taken by the vampires instead of her friend intending to kill them for revenge, but quickly learns that’ll be impossible unless she becomes one

she has to get through her training to become a vampire or live as a human thrall, and quickly gets swept up in their world - and discovers a string of murders that could have dire consequences for them all

#Court of the Undying Seasons #aroaessidhe 2023 reads #ok i was kinda hoping this would be more me than most things in its genre niche....but is just kinda is that #why is the main couple a thing? what is the attraction? i feel like I skipped half a book. you’re gonna kill him right #just really did not get that at all lmao. ur usual dark fantasy romance i gues #it’s kind of pitched as ‘she wants to kill vamps!!!’ but like. she immediately learns that’ll be too hard and basically forgets about it lo #i feel like the courts being named after colours reads. well you know it reads like the stereotype of YA with different factions to choose #but I guess I get that if they were called by their alt names it would have been a lot of confusing info to keep track of #the mc being a demigirl is pretty subtle #if you’re looking for it you can see the trans coding #but if you weren’t I feel like it might just read as girl who’s slightly uncomfortable with her appearance… #which is fine I guess. but just so you know if you're picking it up for that #also picked it up for ace side characters but like…. it’s not rly like the authors other books #there’s vague mentions but tbqh I’ve forgotten who is supposed to be ace #(probably because I read like 6 other books between starting and finishing this) #also genderfluid side character who is like. treated as two different people when they’re girl or boy version? #which is sort of treated as a vampire thing but i thought it felt odd #anyway all in all not entirely bad just not for me at all lol

[twogyuu]

Hhhmmm . . . Having a conversation with a friend and made me realize as much as you want to share your joy with someone, they might not just never make room for it and you have to learn how to be okay with that and be grateful for the ppl who do . . .

Always goes back to that Yoongi quote about being able to do what's within your reach and control and not worrying about others bc you did what you can and the Cheol quote about not expecting everyone to like you (and the things you like) bc you don't always like everyone (and the things they like) either.

Thinking thinking thinking . . . Just lot of thinking lol.

#twogyuu:strugglin' #its silly and not that deep #but a thought #the friend and her sister were fighting over kpop stuff 💀😅 #carat vs [redacted] classic 💀 #not surprised but disappointed. . .??? #i thought theyd be a little more . . . ya know mature about it #kpop . . . isnt that deep :| #but some fans really make it so huh #admittedly i have a lot of feelings about the groups she follows #but i just keep them to myself cuz ik shed be upset if she knew how i felt 😅 #💀💀💀 #boundaries right? 😅

[elytrafemme]

also btw. just wanted to point out how Boundless Sands and the Las Nevadas Finale (no matter HOW u feel about them) both made attempts and imo did a GOOD JOB at handling the conversation about recovery. neither c!Wilbur nor c!Quackity were perfect and clearly in the beginning or in the midst of a messy road to healing but w the letters and w Friend being in limbo + c!Wilbur going home we see like. the characters were WORKING on healing and being better as people. and that to me was not only a testament to how much cc!Wilbur and cc!Quackity loved their damn characters, but was also something that really reassured me. you know as someone who has had their own mental health issues too (clearly) and has been in the throes of the recovery process for a while. shits messy and shits unclear and you relapse but you TRY and cc!Wilbur and cc!Quackity did a good job being both gentle & real about the trying part.

versus the fucking “DSMP vol 1 finale”, aka a stream that was clearly coordinated (bold word choice of mine, implying anything here was really planned) by Dream and only included some of the biggest streamers (For all the DSMP season 3 / prison break stream had faults, at least more than 5 fucking people were on the server doing things !!!), had HORRIBLE messaging about the process of healing. Ppl have gone back and forth about how bad the whole Tommy Dream “reconcilation” thing was, and I didn’t watch the stream so I only know bits and therefore can only be taken w a grain of salt here. BUT i think that the fact that (1) Tommy was even entertaining the thought of making amends, or if you think that he was making amends at the time, with Dream NOT APOLOGIZING and no follow up to show that forgiving abusers doesnt absolve their guilt and also u dont have to forgive abusers and also Tommy wasnt at fault  . and also (2) that the finale involved THE ENTIRE SERVER BLOWING UP which not only signifies that these characters NEVER got a chance to heal but also ensured everyone excluding like c!Q and c!Wil NEVER COULD. Is fucking horrific and disgusting to me. 

and not to even talk about Dream as a person bc I have so many fucking thoughts about how all that makes the messaging surrounding power dynamics in the finale So much worse (and is the reason I have yet to watch the stream bc I will just trigger myself thinking about that). 

So fucking disgusting to see how the dsmp finale happened, with NO regards to the majority of other streamers, just Dream and whoever could mindlessly tag on that happened to have pretty big viewer counts (shocker), and completely throwing out the characters and the story that have been built for YEARS. Versus how streamers like Quackity and Wilbur handled things, INCLUSIVELY and COMPASSIONATELY and fucking EXCELLENTLY, in my opinion.

#nightmare.discourse #discourse #ok to rb #Ya i know some of the Wilbur streams were kind of weird but being realistic I didn't expect perfection #clearly everyone who was part of those streams gave some amount of shits and tried #and the Las Nevadas saga was fucking fantastic like #ppl gave ccQ a lot of shit at the start of the turn in how lore happened #which tbf ppl also give like ccRanboo shit and its like I don't think that's right either #like critique on all ends deserved but my point is like #neither singlehandedly ruined everything and ppls hostility towards the more pre planned lore stuff ccQ was doing was. Undesreved. imo #bc he fucking SLAYED that lore and that lore was GOOD and Exciting #like think abt the lineup we had in Las Nevadas we got ppl from all corners of the SMP in on it #idk. Idk. idk. #feel horrible for newer members and smaller creators. feel less horrible about the others though some of them its like #Dream 0 sympathy Tommy a smidge and maybe a little more to like . Creators that got fucked over more #whatever. Idk what im talking about just. thoughts. #the coding of the finales felt weird to me

[iagreewithlilithsrightsnwrongs]

smth that ive thought abt n that i dont think ive ever seen touched upon is how similar bea n lilith should be in terms of life experience. like we know canonically that bea never drank. probs never went to a party, or rave or anything like that. didnt have partners most likely, probs never had her first kiss before ava n stuff. theres a lot of first times that beatrice probably experiences cuz of ava in s2, a lot of just. normal regular first times, things teenagers or young adults do, maybe college students, whatever. the most freedom she had was when she was younger, when she "was stepping out of line" as she said, probs doing child things n being dumb, ofc.

lilith is probably the same, except even worse. because i think she was taught to be the warrior nun as soon as possible. bea was actively repressing herself; lilith doesnt even acknowledge theres anything to repress. shes just the future warrior nun, not a mere 12 year old. shes a sister warrior, not just your average 16 year old. as long as her parents were there to watch, she is nothing but a legacy. and i do think lilith had her rebellious phase, ofc. but i dont think it was while she was living with her parents, or even when she was a minor. she knew to make all those obedient, nice years count and as soon as she left for good, she declared she was a new girl, n she would now do things she wanted to do. except... she cant.

she still has to train to be a warrior nun. sure she read books, non religion books. but the guilt of not upholding her end of the bargain of being born in her family as the next in line warrior nun would soon overcome her, n she would drop it. "i'll read it in the future" "i'll try that when im older n independent" its smth all teens, especially teen girls think. when im older, i'll be free. but lilith is not allowed that at all. she knows she likes things... but can she even allow herself the time to enjoy them?? can she watch movies in peace? can she go out, maybe make friends, go on cafe dates, go to the cinema, go shopping? without thinking abt her destiny? can she??? is she allowed peace???

lilith wanted to be free, cuz she thought it was only her parents holding her down. little did she know, while her parents built her cage, she was painting it finished. with how she was raised, lilith was never thought to feel *her* emotions as lilith, but only as warrior nun. n even if her parents ever allowed her peace, she wouldnt have taken it. shes going to be the warrior nun. she has to be. what else is she, but that?

#warrior nun #sister lilith #oh hey im writing #sister beatrice #what i wanted to say is that lilith looks cool but is an actual loser #never got drunk. never went to the cinema with friends. never fangirled over some band #she was never allowed normal. n when she got her freedom she didnt seek it out. just accepted *her* normal #probs felt comfort abt it. im not like other girls. i have a world saving duty. im smart n capable n strong #but she looks at her sister warriors trading inside jokes. or talking abt the new movie that came out. #or talking abt their middle school crushes n their embarassing haircuts n their emo phases. #mary smoking n drinking freely. beatrice starting the whole cruella de jesus thing. shannon n her pranks #she was their friend ofc. but she also felt weirdly left out. like she wasnt completely whole or just unfinished #but knowing that the path of the warrior nun is singular n straightforward. so much comfort in that. so simple n right n easy #n still she yearns. shes always been greedy n ambitious. she just wants more but doesnt know how to make the first step #i do think when she got to the ocs she started to find herself. mary definitely helped. #but those 2 months we didnt see?? now THATS the lilith i wanna meet. she was uncontained. but also ruined. so whats the point?? #why still be perfect n right when she is already wrong?? why not just go yolo n try all new things?? why not???? #so yh ava bea n lilith had some wild 2 months let me tell ya

[yooniesim]

remember to answer asks so they don’t fill up!

nonny why are u calling me out like this /lh

#asks #anonymous #ceci speaks #i admit ive been busy af and its gotten STACKED #but at the same time it felt kinda uh insensitive #to answer sim related asks in between the more serious ones #ya know? #i might be on some later/tomorrow!!! #nonny said ANSWER UR ASKS U LAZY BITCH U KNOW U GET OVERWHELMED #gurl i know thats right 😂

[miabrown007]

mal in the grishaverse is to alina what jacob in twilight has been to bella. in this essay i'll...

#okay so in twilight jacob is like bella it's unnatural that edward is alive he should have been dead long ago. and if he was and he didn't #meddle with natura and the timeline i would be the one for you in our timeline. but he's here because he's extra special and that makes me #obsolete. because like alina and mal matched until they were both common and not special but now alina is a summoner and #she's the specialest of special girls and mal is throwing a tempter tantrum over that right #and they are like. they should be best friends and nothing more. #anyway that was point A #I'm over not one not two but three glasses of wine but even like this I know that one point justification belongs in my friends DMs not #an essay so let me present point B #so he's like the firebird right (he just circled her hand where the last amplifier would go and they felt weird #incredible foreshadowing btw) so like he belongs to her but only part of her belongs to him and that's very jacob vibes with all the #renesmee business. and also mal is just. so desperate to define himself by what he is to alina like he expects the answer to his own #identity crisis that is the consequence of his own actions (deserting literally no one asked that of him) from her #like the only way he thinks about defining himself is in relation to her . and like yeah ig they are teenagers and 'in love' or whatever #(they have zero chemistry while the darkling and nikolai are constantly standing next to alina and it works but ig I digress) #so i'm just constantly being told and they are in love and want a simple life (and that's the very thing that made me side with Gale instead #of Peeta back when so I'm probably primed to not want that for characters) but idk I just don't see it that they'd make such a good pair #anyway I guess this is a Mal hate post and I'm dragging the moder YA lit's each and every love interest into this 'analysis' #blueberry wine is excellent by the way would recommend #miaing

[mazojo]

Just watched the babysitter and you just KNOW without even looking it up a white straight cis men directed this

#it’s the most men’s men film I have ever seen you know what I mean? #I felt the feminism leaving my body as I watched it not in a bad way more like in a men way ya know? #watching Barbie and then this right after is a jarring experience #wasn’t bad honestly just. a lot. like. a lot. seeing all the familiar actors interact was jarring tho #Bella Thorne??? this is honestly a very bella Thorne film actually now thinking on it #the babysitter

[roaringheat]

I've been having a really hard time lately cause ive been feeling like i'm not wanted or cared about by the ppl around me and it hit me especially hard at work so I took some time after my shift to destress by walking around the shopping center i'm in. I ended up having 2 separate long ass convos with these total strangers, one at a GameStop and one at a pet store and both explicitly told me how much they enjoyed the conversation and that they wanted to see me again. Man....there really is some real shit behind the whole go out and talk to strangers thing

#vark posts #one of them even gave me his insta and directly told me wanted to be friends #god damn #and both of them were very active in the convo and there weren't any awkward pauses #so like i could legit tell they WANTED to talk to me which is just mindblowing to me #made me feel more like a person then i have in awhile #and they both were tellin me some slightly personal things too which felt really nice to be trusted with #like nothing super crazy but shit you wouldnt tell everybody ya know #and these 2 convos happened back to back #like i left gamestop and immediately went yo the pet store #the thing about the pet store too is i got there right before close and i was super apologetic and said i just needed to check something #i had met her once before so i wasnt some random person to her so it was chill #i literally ended up staying there 40 mins after close just talking to her #i kept apologizing saying she could kick me out but shed brush it out cause she like wanted to talk to me and really didnt care #how late it was #ik im rambling about something that is probs SUPER mundane but it made me feel so whole so im super happy :^) #i still got hella issues with some ppl around me but strangers make it feel like itll be ok

[toastsnaffler]

istg one of these days.......

#ya know that post thats like texting lesbians: its throw bowling balls down the stairs day u better be game #one of my fave posts ever in the world #anyway my lesbian flatmate texts like the straight female friend part of that post and i love her but its killing me #its endearing but its so hard not to read it as flirty stoppitttt im already dedicating so much work to repressing this little crush 😭 #ALSO THAT POST THATS LIKE FLIRTING W GIRLS WILL HAVE U ADDING :3 TO UR TEXTS literally so true but I dont think she means it like that 😭😭 #like she talks to everyone that way I remember when I first met her me + my ex spent ages trying to work out if she was gay #bc we were so sure she had a gay vibe but every text felt like it was pointing the other way..... the vindication when I found out she WAS #anyway my resolve weakens with every 😘 emoji like im already thinking abt it dont give me any more ideas !!!! #its not even embarrassing anymore like how am i supposed to exist near someone like her WITHOUT ever having a gay thought #so im not sorry if she sees this. i take rejection like a champ dont be shy #but genuinely tho i dont think shes interested shes just cute like that. and idw make things weird cuz we're still living together next yr #itd be suchh a pain if i made things awkward right when we need to find a place. and anyway my best case is our 3rd flatmates WORST #i wouldnt do that to him god forbid #buuuut...... nope ok enough of that im going back to bed its almost 1am #this is what HAPPENS when u have insomnia tuning into the crazy radio every night #need to get onto dating apps and find smth new to distract me before this gets out of hand....... buttttt i dont want to >:| #its ok my patience is infinite i like playing the long game. i was into my ex for 2 and a half years before i made any moves #i can wait this one out too either itll happen eventually or itll pass. we're good #ok thats GOODNIGHT from me if u read this far wow ur nosy arent u...... jk ily sleep well everyone #muah all round #.diaries

[strandedcrow]

crow the fact that the only time you've posted about dream in the past months was in response to the Kissed a Variety of Men tweet is iconic so I am so glad you're still here (it just made me very happy when I saw that lol)

AKFKSKGK pls it was just rlly profound.. had a rlly thought provoking effect on me.. he knows what he’s abt FR !!

#yeee am still here #i think . the fact that i had already largely moved from being completely fixated to his content just being a more passive interest #definitely made me already feel. way less parasocial by the time everything happened so i ended up having a different lens than i think a #lot of other ppl (on both sides) had #and i don’t mean that in a ‘im right and they’re wrong’ way i rlly do mean that it’s just a Different lens #i don’t think o ever rlly said anything abt all That other than ‘i see what’s happening and i’m not ignoring it’ which still does reign true #but bc a lot of yall followed me for d.tblr stuff i just felt like clarifying for u guys that ya i’m still here btw :] #also so that if ppl who want to leave hearing that know to go ahead and leave and live their best lives etc #but also pls that tweet took me OUT i got the alert and then went to view it and it was already GONE i just sat there like fuckin. bbh ._. #ask #anon

[d-eathvalley]

i completely lost it during the entire scene when ryunggu froze time to talk to his mum. him tying her thread to honeybee, ensuring his promise of protecting her in this life and the ones after and just seeing how they both acknowledged what has happened broke me completely. (anyways im putting more of my thoughts in the tags bc i tend to ramble more there for some reason)

#i want to say it’s my favourite episode thus far but ofc it definitely couldve been written better #for one i personally felt like her husband was kinda useless lol the writer shouldve really wrote more lines for him #hate how their conversations feels so … one sided(?) #and of course the obvious thing that sticks out is the lack of professional/medical care that’s represented #like she gets no counselling or therapy after going through something so traumatic??? #i get that the show i guess ‘doesnt take itself too seriously’ but if they’re gonna do it right might as well go all in ya know? #also rip to ryunggu’s blonde extensions/two toned mullet you will be dearly missed #but im tryna think about what it meant for him to not having those extensions anymore #whats the metaphorical meaning #i guess letting go of your past etc.(?) #idk but also NO PREVIEW FOR THE NEXT EP SO YOU DEFINITELY KNOW THAT WE’RE TACKLING THE MAIN CHARACTERS PLOT NOW #PHEW CANT WAIT FOR NEXT WEEK #mbc tomorrow #tomorrow (2022)