#this is not to say im above anything

[thepixelelf]

it is so fucking funny how the 🌸 mysterious zionist blog 🌸 on caratblr was confused about why they were outed as a zionist and then continues to reblog directly from blogs that spread zionist propaganda

Let's not continue to keep up with people we dislike/don't agree with. Let's just block and leave

#but hey anyone still following/interacting with/MUTUALS with that blog... pls take a step back and assess their stance #not just what they say they are but take note of what they are saying; the posts they are reblogging; the posts they're NOT reblogging; #and whom they are reblogging from #. after all that if you're still going to keep up any sort of connection to them #(incl. just reading their fics) you can go ahead and block me now #. #this is not to say im above anything #ive fallen into scrolling thru blogs ive blocked just to see if ive been vaguely mentioned or if theyre still posting shit #and its just not good for me #it feels unhealthy to purposely scroll through bad takes or stuff that i dont like just to feel... vindicated? #im working on bettering myself... i hope #when i say let's just block and leave im telling myself that too #do not interact with the bad take. #asks #anonymous

[buggachat]

hey guys! I just wanted to say that all the attention and support that my silly fancomic is getting is as amazing as it is overwhelming. All the kind words and fanart are so validating and wonderful and I’m so happy that people seem to enjoy my work!

That being said, I do just want to give everyone a gentle reminder that this is just a fancomic, posted for free on Tumblr. I don’t get paid for it (aside from the occasional kofi), I’m not a professional in any way, and nothing about my comic is canon or canon-adjacent or associated with Zag at all. It’s 100% just a labor of love, I’m just some person on the internet with a drawing tablet and too much free time, and I’m really just doing this for fun.

This is all to say, it can be kind of strange stumbling across disappointed analysis posts on my dash (written like I’ll never see them) or getting asks that seem to have certain expectations of me and the comic that I’m making purely as a hobby. I do understand it, and on some level I should have expected it, because this dumb comic of mine really blew up in a way that I never would have predicted. I just know that no matter what, with the amount of eyes on it, it’s going to disappoint some people— probably a lot of people— and people are going to have expectations of me that I’m not going to be able to meet. And that’s okay, there’s nothing I can really do about it, and I’m going to keep working on this story that I initially wrote self-indulgently for my own entertainment, but... yeah.

I guess TLDR: I’m just some tumblr user. I’m on this platform too, and I do see the posts people make about my work. I never meant to make my comic come across as anything more significant than just another piece of fanwork. 

#bakery enemies au #i hope this doesnt come across as me implying that im above criticism or anything #i cant stop anyone from doing or saying anything. i guess i'll just try to make a point to not read posts about me that #weren't written with the intention of me reading them #i guess that's something i have to work on too #(also i've gotten some strange asks but that's neither here nor there) #this is all of course a small vocal minority btw!! i dont mean to imply otherwise

[theworldinclines]

#im so funny and if u disagree no u dont #alsooo that scene w bostons dad saying boston doesnt gaf about anything etc and boston just lifts his eyebrows subtly #and puts on an appeasing used-to-this-shit smile (Shown Above)........hey bostons dad i just wanna talk nbd #like boston cares so much about his dads reputation that he hasnt even told him hes gay and #he has no meaningful connections bc of that and bc he keeps being reminded (by his dad) that his time in the country is limited anyway #but ya he doesnt care about anything like the irony of him saying that and bostons face showing that OK ACTING KING @ neo trai #ofts #ofts squad #sandray #sanray #san x ray #sand x ray #my edits #only friends series #only friends the series #ray x sand #only friends

[lokh]

note: this is based on australian dollars but i guess you can just use usd, drop where youre from and we'll see if theres a pattern. talk about if you actually get it styled or just go for short on the sides and back in the tags if you want 👍

#i have no idea what they usually cost and didnt want to make the options just 1. under $20 2. between 20 and 100 and 3. over 100 #like girl... i got them for 15$ whenever i could at a place in the subway am i really to understand anything above that is actually normal. #poll #also i just say short on sides and back and throw out random numbers <- dont do this. #i always forget how long an inch is LMAO im like oh ok 3 on the sides. and its always shorter than i think it is

[robotpussy]

I believe you will never have the courage to say there is any worst genre of music (not including subgenres in this context) if you actually seek out art. if you think EDM, jazz or country etc are bad it's probably because you have never actually heard music in these genres and have misconceptions due to a game of telephone or your only exposure to these genres was the boring, stripped down, whitewashed versions of what the genres have to offer.

#the amount of times ppl have told me they hate metal and then i play them a metal song and they're like wait this isnt bad... #like yea its because you dont seek anything out 😭😭 #and the genres mentioned above have all been victim of white ppl coming and watering it down #what Skrillex is to edm and most current country artists on the radio are to country music and..... #well im rambling also i forgot what i was gonna say

[oatbugs]

pls i need to provide updates

#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year #and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire #and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f #friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl #acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what #are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and #friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me! #LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after #everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to #invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me #i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother #and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids #so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo #any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷‍♀️ #but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd #and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk #THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date #w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a #few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay #scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK #like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl #like is that even doable #but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much #.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us #god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x #but it would be soooo funny #I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed #popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x #i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like #its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe

[thecelestialsyzygy]

Look, Noah is a cast member of the show. He's going to talk about the show/his character. Sharing little clips taken from insta that are specifically about byler and shared in the byler tag after we all know about the situation is not giving him more platform than he already has. If you don't like seeing his name, block it or ignore the post.

#if you want to be weird about this im just blocking #im done #I get you guys are trying to remind ppl but does it not get exhausting #a lot of us are just treating him as a cast member giving us crumbs/info bc he is #not forgeting what he did #the ppl talking about the lives aren't doing anything wrong imo for the reasons i listed above #ive said it before but ill say it again #the unfortunate reality is that there are crappy ppl in hollywood #there are crappy ppl that run the government #there are crappy ppl that run cooperations... #its a thing and they are everywhere #at this rate we sould not be allowed to enjoy ANYTHING #if you dont want to enjoy it for your own personal reasons that's fine #but don't get mad at other for doing so #noah schnapp #st5 #byler

[cherry-treelane]

everytime i watch shameless I get hit with a jolt of sickness and remember how frank and monica stole fionas life from her and she'll never get it back because it never existed because she was a sister first her whole life (from the age of 4) and everything else second and its always just so casual in the show and normal and rarely touched upon but it's not normal at all and it's tragic

#another post made at 2am that i found in the drafts #but my god its messed up how frank and monica got to live their own lives and how the kids got to have aspirations kinda but fiona was just #always stuck with the feeling of being stuck #cause she was forced to devote a largeee chunk of her life to servitude #its so unbelievably telling of frank and monicas innate selfishness above anything else imo : #their willingness to fulfil their mutual desire to extend the feeling of things such as youth and excitement and fun #to the point that they stripped their own daughter of the ability to experience childhood #education #etc #my memory is hazy but frank definitely was in college and i think monica was too? either way they both got to finish HS / experience it #but not fiona!!! its the opposite of parents sacrificing so their children can have more #they had more than fiona did and didnt give a shit about the fact that they just took from her #(obviously im not saying they had rosy perfect lives as kids teens and young adults— far from it actually) #(but its shockingly clear that they had a great deal more than fiona...or at least less on their plates...) #like when frank speaks of being a boy in college #its like.. these opportunities he threw away while fiona would've loved to have them but instead she had to drop out of HS #against her will #like yes its complicated but bottom line is its just sad how frank and monica were both afforded with control over their lives to a degree #while all of fionas life decisions carried the weight of her whole family and she didnt get to have independent control over her life #like for example she didnt drop out of HS cause she actually wanted to #she just didn't have any other choice

[ninjasmudge]

Am I the only one getting yandere vibes from the bone King AU. I mean I think Mac and MK are one breakdown away from being bone Kings, husband (wife) and child.

a lot of people were trying very hard to see it as shippy/ trying to get me to imply it was shippy but it never was

there were quite a few reasons why i stopped bothering with that au and a big part was that ppl were just taking the bone king and shipping them with maq or themselves or their oc and like honestly, i did kind of want people to fuck right off with that bc they were very desperate to make this au sexual in some way and i was not about that at all

especially since we had an actual possessed swk in canon around the time i stopped doing the au, thats a canon character u can use, but i still had a lot of asks abt ppl using bk for suggestive stuff. didnt really see why ppl still needed to involve me and a character/au that i made up for their fantasies. it still creeps me out a little that theres apparently people on tiktok still doing it but theres pretty much nothing i can do bc like hell do ppl on tiktok respect creators boundaries

#little rant sorry on everyone else every time i get an ask for the vk au its always something weird #this is one of the more tame ones but still i said over and over again that itwasnt shippy bc that implies stuff im not comfortable with #and ppl still dont get it #mk #bone king au #i was always thankful to the ppl who did actually ask before doing it and i almost felt bad for saying no but like. gotta have boundaries #ask #i mean. bk treated maq more like a child or a pet than anything else bc they were so far above everyone in power #read the source material /hj

[fearforthestorm]

I love my job and my field and my coworkers but good god someone needs to tell my boss he can't shorthand "subcontractor" as "sub"

#.lyr #ITS NOT GONNA BE ME. IM NOT GONNA BE THE ONE TO SAY ANYTHING. THATS ABOVE MY PAYGRADE LOL

[madhushala]

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#the more i stay around people the more i want to become like them out of spite #because i was so surprised these people are at least 24-26 years age some even did a minor bachelor's before coming here #some have completed post grad and then joined #like aren't you all too fucking old to act that immature #i grew so resentful of everyone how they keep on doing the worst low man shit and then victimize themselves #hypocrites full of shit they don't want to hear the truth #i know no one has the audacity to take a fight with me on here because they know im the youngest here #not because im the youngest but because im better #the girls frown upon me because i don't hear their low mindset humorless jokes and pointo out where they fall short #oh [my irl name] youre so stiff hamesha kami kyun nikalti rahti ho hamesha baat kaatne ki aadat hai learn to take a joke #mazaak hi to kar rahe hain kya yaar #ive cried so many times because i feel suffocated here and out of hate i want to act immature selfish hypocrite too so i do #i become self centered and look into my needs #but everyday bcg shows me how one stays firm in mindset even amidst surrounding of shit people #he points out to me all the time when i start acting like them he says why aren't you trying to rise above #i say ham bhi karte hai na unn chutiyon jaisa behave kyunki unhe unhi ki language mei samajh aata hai #achha ban kar honest banne se kuch nahi milta yaha #but he knows his stuff #he never does these things #however much i let evil thoughts take upon i get astounded everyday how he's practicing his rightful his honesty even tho no one's looking #it makes me want to cry #i hope he gets so ahead in life i hope he stands at the podium one day on a stage and deliver speeches where people actually can see him #like he sees the orator that come to attend our unis gatherings and says everytime kuch to baat hoti hai inn logon mei #i hope he achieves whatever he wants i hope he gets ahead of everyone all this fucking corruption #its not that he's done anything that im applauding he tries his best #and maybe teachers see that too all in class they're only looking at him and teaching they know #do you know how fucking hard it is not get corrupted in this uni and become one of those assholes that have done things unimaginable #im inspired everyday ill try my best to be like him #i do not just want to praise him i want to become someone he doesn't have to say fir tum bhi vahi karogi to kya farq reh jaayega #kuch bada nahi hota logon ki roz roz ki choti choti aadaton se pata chal jaata hai vo kaise hain

[theloveinc]

if u see me ignoring discourse it's because everything i have to say is insulting

#and i think i'm above insulting people #or quite spineless. one or the other. can't tell #im pretty neutral in gen. but when it comes to some stuff i literally can't say anything other than ur stupid and immature lol #i actually have quite a few more insulting thoughts but they are for. secret. #caitie blabs

[pinkseas]

girls following situations that make them feel so fucking sick Just In Case

#genuinely terrifying to know there are people blindly defending above all else #kind of becoming increasingly glad with the distance ive created which. ofc happened for Other Reasons Too but. #wasnt gonna say anything but realized that so long as i have mutuals who know abt it being silent could very well lead to them- #feeling unsafe or Wondering so. yeah. #im sorry i didnt say anything sooner its just. idk. really fucking personal and REALLY fucking terrifying #alyalyoxenfree #need to keep an eye out for anyone i follow who Is just. defending. i havent seen anyone yet but.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#it's an old frustration. an old pattern of thought. #i just feel that i have a brain that doesn't hold information. that lacks the discipline to gain knowledge. that is incapable of deeper #thought. and i cant teel you how maddening that is. to sit in a room and listen to other people discuss a paper you read in depth 5 times #like it's the 1st time you ever heard anything about it. how is that possible? how do i work with that? i read and nothing sticks. #nothing stays with me. how??? i was talking to a prof recently who ive heard is hard on her students with disability accommodation. and she #was saying how she doesnt see these things as a disability. how we're just different not disabled. ive heard the phrase differently abled #a lot of times. and i get what she's saying. i do. ad i get why she's hard on them. she wants to push them. but there comes a point where #you are quote unquote differently abled and you run into a wall that other people dont have. then what are you supposed to do? work harder? #but what if that doesn't help? what if that just compounds the hurt that's always been there? what if that leaches away all the wonder? what #then? at what point does a thing become too much of a barrier? i think there's a reason i dont run into many other dyslexic grad student. #everyone has adhd. it's a place where those with adhd prosper. but dyslexia not so much. at least not with the level of hanicap i have #and everyone's really nice. they want to help. but there's nothing anyone can do for me at this stage. it's up to me to compensate for my #leaky head. and i kno im not stupid. ive got a piece of paper stating my iq is above average after correcting for uneven intelligence. but #i dont feel very smart most of the time. i feel more like my uncorrected iq score that comes out at just below average even with me trying #my very best. iq is bullshit but there's something to be said for that gap. im smart if unconstrained by language and time. but were bound #by language and we're bound by time so what am i supposed to do? is there anything i can do? im stuck with this forever. theres no getting #better or making it easier. my brain is wired in a way that gives me the reading skills of a child. forever. and i just have to accept that #and im trying to swallow around that idea easier because the only other option is to choke on it. but maybe i chose the wrong career path. #one of my lab mates said she wants challenges all the time and ive chosen a path that's challenges all the time but im jsut trying to do #what everyone else can without a second thought. it's deeply demoralizing. yet here i am. trying to be easier abt it. #maybe im just nit cut out for this. doing a job im not built for. #unrelated

[fleshdyke]

hchkvgjvfj

#csa warning for tags #goddd being raped at 6ish and brutally bullied is a hell of a combination #i was the one kid in not only my grade but multiple above and below me as well that the boys would dare each other to 'ask out' #absolutely CONSTANTLY. like jesus #by the time i was raped i'd already been bullied pretty badly for a while. including being constantly told i was ugly by all the boys #which is like. a huge reason i was raped in the first place. i still dont know who it was but i can only assume he took advantage of me #being constantly bullied to abuse me. as child rapists so often do #but like i was always the one that would be 'asked out' as a dare bc why would any of them want to talk to me #it was so inconceivable that any of them could want to be near me let alone 'go out' with me. they didn't even bother trying to hide the way #they laughed. like they didn't try to hide it bc they knew no one would do anything #and this happening to me fucking constantly for years on end throughout my ENTIRE childhood. that fucks with you man #like i dont think its even possible for anyone to like being around me at all. let alone find me attractive #there's still never been a single person who's had a crush on me or whatever #like all my friends have stories about annoying boys having crushes on them when they were younger. and what does it say about me that im #the complete opposite. and like it's so stupid because who fucking cares what 10 year old boys thought in 2016 but it really really fucks #you up bad man. like if anyone ever does come to be attracted to me for whatever reason i dont think im ever going to be able to believe it #i'm always going to be waiting for the joke to end and them to start laughing. i'll always be waiting for the other shoe to drop #and the worst part of it all is that i fucking want to be raped again #being raped as a little kid is the only time anyone has ever wanted me. it's the only time i've ever been desired. and i dont even like sex #but it's just the only time anyone has ever loved me in a non parental way #like i have one crush story to all my friends'. and it was a grown man that raped me when i was little #and i want to be raped again so fucking badly not because i would enjoy it but because it would prove that someone actually fucking wants me #i want to be sexually harassed and not in the way i usually am. i want to be catcalled and have to be scared walking around alone #i want men to grope me and say disgusting things and rape me because then i would finally be fucking wanted #it would prove that i'm actually likeable in some capacity. that i still am #im so scared that now that im grown im just a lost cause. because i was only desirable when i was little. now im just nothing #and i know i shouldnt even care but its so fucking hard to shake. i just want someone to love me #and i love my mom so much but i want them to love me because they want to and not because they have to #rambles #vent

[lesbiangiratina]

Not very fond of people like waving off testament’s gender as just a Gear Thing but well at least it becomes funny when people apply it to gears as a whole. Like yeah i can agree with that. It has nothing to do with being a gear tho theyre all just transgender

#okay ill talk about it seriously down here #it does feel like the original intent behind their androgyny was to kind of Other them from humanity #daisuke saying theyve transcended humanity / talking about their ‘inhuman beauty’ #i dont want to call it dehumanizing since theres like. a weird positive (…i guess) angle of them being ‘above’ humanity #thats just kind of a trope though. like nonhuman characters without a human concept of gender or sexuality. yknow #but anyway strive didnt really go back on this. they kinda made it a part of their arc? #i think dev backyard says that theyve ‘lived without the concept of gender’ since being turned into a gear #but theres no disconnect from humanity that goes along with that anymore #i like the implication that reconciling with humanity and more importantly their OWN humanity coincided with their presumable transition! #alright now for the part of this i dont like. its weird to assume the gear conversion had some effect on their body and THATS why theyre nb #i think any implications of that are vague enough to be dismissed #i wouldnt even call them Implications its like. messy (and contradictory!) early 2000s phrasing and a theory about 1 line of dialogue lol #early fandom stuff im aware of but dont know enough to talk about aside. nowadays its just used to like #excuse their androgyny. by gamers who cant just. believe that theyre nonbinary because they want to be. lol #not because of anything that was done to their body against their will. or even more simply because theyre just a gear and are Above gender #literally theyre just nonbinary. isnt that cool. i wish everyone could agree this is cool and end the discussion there. #except for me. i can discuss it all i want forever. because im the understander. #whatever. at least the section of testament’s wiki page theorizing about their genitalia is gone now. kissaroo for whoever took that off. #I NEED TO WRITE UP THAT TIMELINE IM LITERALLY NOT KIDDING WHEN I SAY IM AUTISTIC ABOUT TESTAMENT’S GENDER. CLEARLY #the kat goes meow #gg