#this literally took so long to post im sorry

[littleseasalt]

"forever is a bad dad to richa-" SHUT UP!!!!!

#qsmp #qsmp forever #qsmp richarlyson #id also add in the book he wrote for the egg museum where he talked again about forever being the one who took care of him the most #but i dont have the patience to find it in vods to screenshot it #also sorry but. some people on twitter have been stressing me out A LOT over their opinions on their relationship #ive literally been stressing about it since i woke up i needed to release this stress somehow #< also im thinking of doing a long post talk about what their relationship is and isnt #bc whenever theres angst/fight between them people take it as an opportunity to mischaracterize BOTH forever and richas #in a way that makes it clear that the person 1. doesnt keep up with forevers pov #and 2. only knows richas through one pov #like. ok #disagree with forever however you want youre free to do that #i myself think he was in the wrong in multiple situations (like the tallulah fight day) #BUT SURPRISE!! SAYING HES A BAD DAD IS LITERALLY SO WRONG!! #PEOPLE CAN MESS UP!! PEOPLE CAN MAKE MISTAKE!! NO ONE IS A PERFECT PARENT!! #NO ONE ALREADY KNOWS HOW TO BE THE PERFECT DAD AND THERES NO SUCH THING AS BEING A PERFECT DAD!! #PARENTHOOD IS SOMETHING YOU LEARN ALONG THE WAY!!! #AND LEARNING HOW TO BE A DAD IS A CORE TRAIT OF FOREVERS CHARACTER SINCE DAY ONE!!!!!!! #saying hes a bad dad literally goes against canon statements from richas #saying richas is uncomfortable with forever goes against canon #“oh but i mean in the emotional way” ok so you never watched a forever stream before #because when they fight. richas ALWAYS opens up to forever later on how he felt #the fights HAPPEN because richas is comfortable making drama in front of forever #if richas' didnt feel comfortable he would literally just “suck up” his jealously and not show it often but he does shows it often #if richas was uncomfortable after fights he would just apologize and never talk about his feelings #but after the tallulah fight? he told forever about how romero richas affects his body and how he feels #after the armor fight? he told forever about how he felt towards his own life #to which btw BOTH of these times where he opened up #he had never talked about that with anyone before

[i-like-eyes]

I can afford to be a little reckless when you're with me

#kirby #meta knight #daroach #myart #aaaaugh im sorry this took so long i do not like my computer right now #that was less so a snap and more like a slow crumble #edit: #literally 6 minutes posting this a friend yelled at me to tag as ship #to which i pointed out no one can decide on a name #annnnnnnnnnnnnd while typing this they said just use all of them #uh #i dont like using jp versions of names because not everyone is on the same boat (heh. boat) #but this ship almost exclusively exists in the jp fandom so i see it as dorometa in my head #which due to localization obviously doesnt translate over to english all that well #but metaroach sounds like an earthbound enemy and i cant take it seriously lol #shit shows up in tags if i just mention them right #ugh #dorometa #thats the one im using

[saint-gerard-of-arc]

if you still do these 48 + vinikki pls pls pls i’ll love you forever

“So…” began the butler, as he extracted the sword out of its scabbard, making the sunlight bounce on the sharp blade, “shall we begin your training, Vincent?”

Vincent pulled out his weapon as well. “That’s master Wharton to you now, Nicholas.” The young man snickered, as he gripped the hilt with both hands. A flash of rage and determination lit up his hazel eyes as he slowly but confidently made his way towards his servant, who began walking forward too.

As much as Nicholas saw Vincent's birth and always took good care of him, they despised each other. Well, at least Vincent hated Nicholas, that’s for sure. There was something about the way the butler treated him like a child, despite being well over that phase of his life, that got on Vincent’s nerves.

But today, the day of his 21st birthday, would’ve been the day Vincent showed him, and everyone else, what he’s made of, he would’ve shown the man he had become.

“Oh come on, Vince,” grinned the older man, raising his sword. “we’re friends by now, aren’t we?”

“No, we’re not.” Responded the blond nobleman, through gritted teeth. The nobleman tried to stay calm, to not raise his voice, to not let his adversary win. Nicholas was found by his family when he was still a hungry urchin living in the London slums, so who the hell did he think he was? That day, Vincent thought, his father should’ve minded his business.

They stopped a few inches from each other, with their blades touching, in a guarding position.

“May the best of us win.” Said the butler, flashing his teeth, his green eyes glistening with calm confidence.

“En garde, old bastard.”

The metal clangors quickly followed one another. Whenever Vincent tried to strike, Nicholas was ready to deflect his attacks, almost as if he could predict Vincent’s every move. Slash, slash, lunge. Vincent only managed to cut a strand of the older man’s jet-black hair. Their swords crossed, the blades slipping, and now it was a matter of who was going to get the best of the other. Vince was losing his balance, but he refused to give up. With an effort and a scream of rage, the nobleman pushed away his adversary, making him almost trip on his own feet. Almost. But Vincent had already let his guard down, not having the time to react when Nicholas sweeped his blade, leaving a thin, bloody gash on the young man’s cheek. Vincent held back the hiss of pain.

“Oh, that’s gonna leave a nasty mark!” Snickered the butler.

Vincent decided to ignore him, determined to not get distracted by Nicholas’s babbling. The fact that he got hit even once, it was already one too many. He managed to deflect another blow, but barely. Their swords crossed again, but this time Vincent lost his balance and fell over, making him lose the grip of his weapon.

“Well, well, well.” The butler pointed his sword at the nobleman’s neck. “Rule number one: never let your guard down.”

“Are you gonna kill me…?” Muttered the blond, raising his head ever so slightly, in order to take a glimpse of Nicholas’s face.

The other let out air of his nose in amusement. “It would be very hard to explain your disappearance to your family.” He diverted his armed hand away from the young man, and reached out with the other, to help Vincent get up.

“Right…” said Vincent, a bit hesitant at first to accept his help. “The butler is always the prime suspect.”

The older man let out a hoarse laugh. “Wait here. I’ll go grab some bandages.”

---

“How was I?” Asked Vincent. He didn't know why he wanted to seek Nicholas's approval, yet that question slipped out of his mouth.

“Not bad.” Said the other, concentrating on dabbing the wound with a bandage. "Not bad at all for your first time.”

The blond frowned, both from physical and emotional pain. “I feel like you’re lying to me.”

“I would never. " Responded the butler, calmly. "I mean it.”

"One day I'll be able to defeat you, you'll see." Mumbled the young man. "Then you're finally going to respect me."

Nicholas stopped what he was doing to look at his young master in the eyes. He smiled, thinking that Vincent was just like his father. "Here's the thing," he began, "respect is not given unconditionally, it is earned." He then put a hand on Vincent's shoulder. “This is my gift for you for today: a humble piece of advice. Happy birthday, master Wharton.”

Put That Guy in a SituationTM Ask Game/Prompt!

#witchy's ask booth #nikki sixx #vince neil #vinikki #mötley crüe #witchy writings #hey bestie sorry if this took me so long!! #i may have taken the prompt way too literally lmao but as soon as i read the phrase enemy caretaker i thought of #a master/butler kinda relationship #but they had to be enemies of course #i feel like they're not as in character as i'd like them to be tho. also it feels rushed #idkkkkk i feel like i should've written and analyzed it a bit more. but i know that if i did i wouldve written an entire novel #or i wouldve forgotten about it #oh yeah and the names!! i chose to give them names that would fit the victorian age more so hopefully it doesnt break the immersion?? #but i assure you its our nikki and vince im talking about here #also btw the fight is kinda lame i know. i just dont know how to write fights let alone swordfights #anyway i better post this before i overthink this wayyyyy more that i should #i hope you like it <3

[agent37]

fun fact! this was both the last thing i made in 2022 and the first thing i made in 2023!

inspired by the video ever :3 rendog miku drop pop candy post frfr

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#that hello chat gif leaves me in tears im going insane #hatsune miku #miku fanart #miku hatsune #rendog #renthedog #rendog fanart #renthedog fanart #im so lost someone pick me up im scared theres too many new tags #do i tag this with the hermos? ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ill say no. bc its. its not. ? yeah ok i wont #idk why it took me so long to - oh my god hold on a moment rens glasses shines are completely fucked- #sorry ok its been like 12 minutes for me. you dont ever need to see how bad that was #i literally dont understand how i never noticed that before 😭😭- #idk why it took me so long to actually go about posting this. #those last 4 tags were initially in a bigass blurb paragraph but. no one needs to see that on their miku rendog post.

[dreamdripdistance]

I'll always love a good Dizz tag rant about how much plastic fabrics suck ass <3

FVDSHKFBHDSUGDEWHJKFBZXJK im glad i have a brand!!! because like if someone doesnt need polyester for a specific purpose for its specific properties, why WOULD you prefer it over a natural fibre for an everyday use????

like. ethically sourced leather (which is a byproduct of the meat industry, cows are always going to be killed or will die for one reason or another, wasting their skin when it could instead be a Really good textile is STUPID and ILLOGICAL) or wool (something that will always be available as long as sheep roam this earth, and DOES NOT harm the animal and actually is integral to their survival!!) or cotton or linen or silk or whatever will always be a better, more ethical and healthier choice!!!!!

like just off the top of my head, linen is always going to be a better choice for bedding than anything else, especially in the way its literally a Stronger textile when wet, and its breathablity and antibacterial properties. all things you want when using and caring for your bedding????

cotton is GREAT for underwear and clothing kept close to the skin because of its breathablity. by the fucking way, ppl with vaginas? if youre wearing polyester underwear Every Day, i hope you know youre literally just inflicting yeast infections upon yourself??? like wearing cute lacy undies is great once in a while, but pleaaaaase. wear (loose fitting) cotton underwear to sleep, especially.

and also, wool is the greatest insulator that you could possibly get, and is key to making sure you dont also sweat (which can be dangerous and also gross even when its extremely cold), and is a great thing to use in your doonas if you can afford it (WHICH I CANT AND I CRY EVERY TIME)

like, yeah theres ethical issues regarding natural textiles, like leather dyeing processes (and that its an animal byproduct, which im not gonna talk about indepth bc idgaf), and the historically (and currently) evil practices being used to farm cotton, and the widespread fast fashion-ification of Everything rn even with natural textile garments.

but like. think about it in comparison to the mass manufacture and discarding of polyester fabrics, and the microplastics going loose in every single wash, and how polyester waste is literally just PLASTIC waste, so when your PU leather coat disintegrates, thats just going to go in the bin, where as a coat made of real leather is going to last for however as long as you can keep it conditioned and protected from damage (which can be fucking DECADES)

also, synthetics are Fine. like they have a time and place especially in the medical field and in situations where you reaaaally dont want anything coming in or out of what youre wearing. nylon was fucking revolutionary as the first entirely synthetic textile so like. i dont hate polyester? but again it has a time and place!!!

like, polyester is cheap as fuck, and if polyester or "cotton rich" (aka poly blend) bedding or clothing is all you can afford or find, then cool! im sorry about that, but i have no qualms about it! ive bought polyester clothing, like, my work pants are all polyester, because they were the cheapest dress pants i could get at kmart that were my size after trying and failing to find smth in an op shop! but like !!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAUUUGHGHGHGHHGHGHGHGHHHHH IF SOMEONE HAS THE MEANS TO BUY ACTUAL LEATHER (WITH NO QUALMS WITH REAL LEATHER OR W/E) AND THEN GOES TO DROP HUNDREDS ON A PU LEATHER (AKA PLASTIC) COAT, IM GONNA MAUL THEM!!!!!

anyways in conclusion, as i always say:

#(none of this post is pointed at u jess btw HAH) #literally though i saw a coat at rivers the other month and it was like. $150 for a fake leather coat. #and like. i have two real leather jackets and Both of those combined cost less than that #and every time i think about it i get saur mad #ANYWAYS SORRY I TOOK THE OPPORTUNITY TO RANT IM SO SORRY JESS GHJCKDBSGHUFHDSJFBDSVNDS THANK YOU FOR THE ASK IT MADE ME GIGGLE #asks #jessiesjaded #long post

[leejungchans]

sigh i hate being that person but also not really bc it can be frustrating sometimes so please please please leave feedback for content creators instead of only leaving likes/empty reblogs!!!! obviously we create content because we like doing it and it makes us happy, but it takes time and effort and it helps a lot a lot more than what you might think to give us some feedback/tell us what you liked. trust me, 99% of us aren’t expecting a paragraph (let alone a ten page essay) back, even a few words or a keyboard smash already mean a lot to us, and it can be very frustrating and demotivating to put out content only for it to be silently consumed w/o any sort of interaction. so please support the content you enjoy by rbing (to help circulate it) and leaving feedback 💗💗

#sol.txt #sorry </3 just needed to get this off my chest bc im going to be posting a lot (hopefully) since im taking requests and… #…i hate keeping people waiting for long #but i’m not here just to pump out content and scream into the void #and i wish more people/silent reader’s understand how demotivating it can be wo accusing ccs of ‘doing it just for attention’ #using prove it you won’t as an example: i didn’t just yank 19k words from my butt 😭 it took months of writing & rewriting #so is it really too much of ccs to ask for just a few words of feedback when they’ve spent hours upon hours creating content for you? 😞😞 #it takes less than 3 minutes rbing and leaving a few tags :( #and if you’re going to say it takes too long to do that: you have time to read 19k words but not enough time to write a few tags? 🤧 #also not saying you have to do this for everything on your dash / im just saying if you liked it then why not support the cc who made it #sorry whhshajs this is such a long rant but idk i don’t talk ab this topic a lot and it’s kinda </3 holding it in all the time #but yes please please support your fav ccs!!!! it really doesn’t take as much time as you think <3 #and i PROMISE you 99% of ccs appreciate feedback with their whole heart #like we literally send eo screenshots of tags screaming ab how sweet they are #that’s how much feedback means to us 💗 okay that’s enough from me 🤧 this is your reminder to drink some water and stretch

[saturniade]

DESCENDANTS & DESCENDANTS 2 SO GOOD!!!

#havent watched number 3 w the girls BUT THE FIRST TWO!!! #literally second part especially is so so gay its wicked !! #the girls share a tender duet song about missing each other where the almost kiss #hard cut to the boys snoring on top of each other bc the 3d printer took too long to finish #incredible dynamics between everyone #but JESUS okay im sorry its not just stupid fucking shipping #they all genuinely care about each other and all interactions and problems and worries are so teenager and sincere! #the girly talk moment in d2 soooo fucking sweet... #every plot twist omgggg so wild #THE VILLIANS. MWAAAH #yoo my post

[sandificatedman]

DESPAIR X READER. DESPAIR X READER PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!!

HI OMG THIS TOOK,, LITERAL AGES IT WAS SUCH A BUSY WEEK SDMSND. Also this got SO LONG I'M SORRY-

OK THIS IS JUST GONNA BE A BUNCH OF MISC IDEAS. NO SPECIFIC PLOT OR THOUGHTLINE BC. I COULDN’T NARROW DOWN TO ONE CONCEPT I WANTED TO COVER-

You know she’s gonna be CHIN deep in denial until she’s forced to accept that she’s fallen for you.

She has a self-imposed rule to try to avoid getting attached to mortals. Meddling, sure. She adores meddling in human affairs, but getting attached creates a whole different series of problems.

There’s just,, not a good track record of relations between humans and Endless going well. I like to think she’s maybe 60% more self aware than her siblings SMDSMDNM yknow?

EMPHASIS ON 'TRY'

it's not like she meant for it to happen, for Nightmother's sake! She was just having a little peek at you, and,, you just looked so delicate. And she is meant to observe, isn't she? So what was the harm in observing you a little longer than most!

... Yeah you can see where this is going MSDNMSND One thing lead to another, and before she knew it she could barely focus on her responsibilities without missing your sweet face.

AND SHE FEELS SILLY FOR IT!! She's embarrassed of herself!! What is this nonsense, she isn't her sibling(s)!! Why is she fawning after a mortal, and worse, why does she adore doing it?

SHE DOESN'T CREEP FOR TOO LONG. Mostly because Desire won't let her. Sue them, they want their twin to be happy, and all her yearning is frankly,, a bit pathetic MSDMS

She'd never admit it aloud, but she's,,, a little petrified of making a bad impression? It's not like most mortal's are partial to,,, well,,, her.

IF THE FIRST INTERACTIONS GO WELL???? IF Y'ALL END UP,,,, BECOMING A PROPER THING???

You are almost definitely getting swept up into her realm sorry

JUST FOR A LITTLE BIT AT THE START, WHILE SHE WORKS OUT THE KINKS-

You think she’s taking any chances??

She had to witness her sibling’s various lovers get their lives (and,, bodies) turned inside out in innumerable ways. She knows, herself, that The Endless are far from being invincible.

Respectfully, lovingly, she’s not letting you out of her sight until she’s made it exceptionally clear to all relevant entities (siblings, elder gods, assorted mythical entities) exactly what the consequences will be if they try to harm you.

Thankfully,,, not many people are willing to go toe-to-toe with the literal architect of all Despair. so. that's a bonus MSNDMS

Is this necessarily going to 100% keep you from harm's way? No. Frankly, she could put you in a jar on her shelf, and that still wouldn’t keep you perfectly safe. It’s at least gonna to provide enough reassurance to not,, idk feel the need to Loom over your shoulder 24/7. It's mostly just for peace of mind.

and,, um,,

(don’t worry, she isn’t like her brother (derogatory but loving. Morpheus, go to therapy my love), if at any point you’re genuinely unhappy with your relationship she’ll know before you, and will retract from your life with,, relatively minimal fuss.)

(It’s also VERY possible she’ll leave with you with a boon of some sort, for your trouble, most likely her continued protection and/or exemption from her influence)

YOU’VE BASICALLY GOT YOURSELF A VERY CREEPY GUARDIAN ANGEL NOW HAVE FUNNNN SMDNSMN

Her primary role is as an observer, and she’s absolutely going to utilize this. She checks in on you as often as she can and just,, watches you go about your day-to-day life.

At first you have no idea when she’s got her eyes on you, but as time goes you begin to pick up on the Sensation (™) of her gaze?

It’s not just ‘feeling eyes on your back’, though that is a part of it.

It’s more,, like when you step outside early in the morning, and it’s super foggy out? Where every breath feels cold and damp, you can feel dew on your skin. It feels like her realm is seeping into wherever you are.

Sometimes you just,, absentmindedly lean your head and bonk your head on the wall, forgetting she is infact not sitting beside you MSNDSMN

At first it felt a little,, uncanny?? But now it’s become super comforting!! Like stepping outside for a breath of fresh air <333

it's,, kinda sweet,,, knowing that this cosmic entity is,, taking time out of her day to just,, keep an eye on you. wow <3333

I've. left out a billion things but this is already so long and rambly. Despair I love you I love you I love you I love you. mouah.

#*leaning against a closet labeled Sinful Thoughts* haha what do you mean 'nsft thoughts about despair' I definitely dont have those #MSNDMSDNMNMDA #GOD <333 DESPAIR I LOOOOVE YOUUUUU #SMDSNMDS SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG MY DISEASES (TM) WERE BEATING ME UP #alas. effects of PCOS on Little Guys #UGHHH DESPAIR BABY <33 I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU #the sandman (netflix) #the sandman #the sandman (comic) #despair of the endless #despair x reader #despair of the endless x reader #MSDSMD WAS ANY OF THIS INTELLIGABLE??? SMDS #or. in character. unsure. I may have taken some liberties. who knows what diseases have infested my mind. MSNDMS #I WILL LITERALLY RAMBLE ABOUT DESPAIRSMOOCHING UNTIL THESE HANDS NO LONGER WORK SO LIKE. GO NUTS IN MY INBOX Y'ALL #WHO KNOWS WHEN I'LL GET TO EM BUT BY GOLLY ILL GET TO EM- #ENNIEWAEZ #THIS WAS MORE. VAGUE STUFF. #if u want specifics or for me to elaborate on some points. i ABSOLUTELY WILL #ANYWAYS ANYWAYS. GOD IM SO SHY TO POST THIS. RUNS AWAY AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #POST POST POST BEFORE I CHANGE MY MIND A OGUOGUGHHGE-

[heartscrypt]

JAMIEEEE UR TWST PV IS SO COOL WTFF !!! IT LOOKS GREAT OMG ,,, CATERRRR <333

AWWWW HEHEH THANK U SASH IM PINCHING UR CHEEKS RN!!!!

#jamie talks #txt post #the public forum #took so long #i had my professional editor cousin lecture me about transition points and storytelling after the fact and i was like. Scratches Ear. Ermmmm #sorry boy i just wanted to make pretty video. My bad #he literally took me thru the original pv to like break it down which was rlly interesting ngl #though in my head i was like cool! im never touching capcut again ♥️

[tchaikovskym]

Every time I bond with someone, after some time I've seen all their flaws and I don't love them like I used to, and I feel a sense of alienation,

Even though they haven't done anything wrong, I just... grow tired of them

And that's why I don't think I'm capable of love. There hasn't been a person yet I've wanted to keep a strong bond with after a long period of time

#this is about my coworkers lol #and todays hike #like im a bit petty because they kept rushing and i kept saying that were going too fast bc of all the km ahead #and at first i tried to follow them but at one point i grew to tired and said fuck it #so i lagged behind at my own pace and they had to wait for me after they had gone ahead for a couple of times #and at one point they took a piss break and i was like nope. im going. youre going to catch up with me #and so they did #anyway never going hiking with coworkers again #we actually had another hike before which was cool and we went slowly but today idk. shit #at least quitting will be less hard now lol #also im so tired of them. they keep gossiping about everyone and i literally dont care #but also this post is about my past friendhips too. the girl with the falling out. #maybe there is one friend im cool with and will be cool with forever bc we meet like 2 times a year and dont bother each other with the #every day details of our lives. #so im not sure i could actually love anyone to the point id like to live with them for the rest of my life. #like thats the ideal fantasy goal but in reality i dont think i can handle people #anyway im still pissed about the hike. even with lunch in between we finished it in 6 hours instead of the 8-10hours stated in the guide #like why the fuck would you rush through a hike? its not a marathon and i have short legs aaaahhhhh #sorry but yall long since knew youre following erins life blog right okay love you

[crymeariveronceagain]

#kotlc #submission #saw this and immediately thought River would like it #but alas asks seem to be off so it must be submitted #anyways. Sophie. Biana. Linh. literally any of them actually. #LOL THANK YOU ❤️❤️❤️ #im sorry this took me so long to post #i appreciate it ❤️❤️ #thanks for the submission!

[nejackdaw]

morthal and markarth for the skyrim asks!

Ty for the ask! 💞

Morthal - Do you enjoy exploring dungeons and ruins? Why or why not?

Kinda depends tbh. Dungeons with multiple rooms absolutely FULL of enemies encourage a more stealthy approach, and while I'm a capable stealth archer, it's not my preferred play style, so it can be a bit unfun. The alternative, however, is the ENTIRE DUNGEON hearing me engage in melee and swarming me at once, which. Also isn't fun. Ultimately I guess the answer comes down to "depends on the number of guys in there" and "how likely is Marked For Death to solve the entire issue?" Skyrim is basically the only game where, when given a choice, I'll choose martial over caster or archer, but this can be a problem in packed dungeons. I like single or few guy brutal slugfests where we just beat the shit out of each other. Also then I can just take a break to throw up my shield and watch Celann materialize to OHKO them, which fills me with glee literally every time

Markarth - If you could rewrite one questline in Skyrim, which would it be? (This answer is sooooo long btw)

Hmm... I'm actually not too interested in a lot of them, but when it comes to being disappointed in one, it's the Civil War questline. The entire thing amounts to "use your main character powers about 5 times in a dungeon or something and then go fight the oppositional leader." You can't even fix Whiterun, a place you specifically took for its geographical, strategic, and mercantile advantage. You just leave it in ruins???

There are two quests in the entire line that aren't just "awkwardly storm this place with a couple guys,' and one of them is optional. Both sides have a "steal/plant enemy orders" quest, but the "gaining intel/blackmail" quest is in both cases entirely optional. There's one non-combative "sneak and find this document/gather intel" quest, and no "root out a traitor" or "disrupt a supply line" type quests (technically this one is awkwardly tacked onto the end of the optional quest.) The Dark Brotherhood, Dawnguard, and Thieves Guilds have similar respective quests that we can compare to the 1.5 non-combative Civil War quests: finding intel on Maro's son, the radiant "vampire advisor" quests, basically the entire beginning TG questline (Honningbrew, Goldenglow hives.)

Each of these questlines involve non-typical quests, aka quests where you have to approach it a little differently than the rest of your work: the Brotherhood stealing documents and planting false evidence like thieves, the Dawnguard committing assassinations and pickpocketing orders like both the Brotherhood AND the Guild, the Guild quest where you engage not only in open combat with Mercer, but kill him, like both the Dawnguard and, well, the Brotherhood Brynjolf insists you're not.

While those questlines are largely the same sort of quests on repeat, it's because they're, well, specialized guilds. Built entirely around doing those things. That's their entire function. When it comes to a war (which is very NOT a guild,) you'd expect a bit more than just a few skirmishes, especially considering the only thing that changes when you join is, well. There's one more guy in the skirmish. But magically this turns the tide and the entire war is won through brute force when previously there seemed no end in sight. The questline lacks variety, is incredibly, oddly short for what's supposed to be a war, and generally just... lacks impact. Nothing really happens afterwards. Faction camps are still sitting around, and you still can't even clear them. Hold guards are replaced by the faction that won and Whiterun is permanently in shambles. Can't even fix Whiterun ffs there's not even quests for that.

* After leaving this in the drafts for a few weeks and thinking about it some more, I think ultimately the problem IS the brevity. "Do four battles and suddenly we win" is absolutely insane. The Dawnguard DLC and the Thieves Guild, even the one single time I played it, have spoiled me rotten with the never ending radiant quests. It prevents the Companions feeling of "I joined three days ago and now I'm in charge and everyone does what I say" that throws everyone off. Not only can you keep accepting them, the mainline quests don't get in the way of accepting them (... like the Companions only telling you to go talk to Aela.) This means you can keep accepting radiant quests that provide a feeling of integration and contribution (in)to the guild, and also avoids the Companions and Civil War feeling of "I did three quests and it's over and everyone is bowing to me" by allowing you to do guild things in-between the main quests.

Not only that, but they offer a variety the main line might not provide, especially with the Dawnguard. For example, siding with the Volkihar includes a quest where you're given Dawnguard armor and told to go cause a scene, striking down some innocent civilian in the name of "vampire hunting" to sow public distrust. This quest is cool as fuck conceptually btw, why is a Volkihar radiant cooler than the entire CW line???

Ultimately I think if I could change one thing about the Civil War line specifically it would be adding TG/DG style radiant quests that can be done between main missions and also include "milestone" type quests that really bring home the feeling of growth and contribution. I think it would make it feel considerably less jarring and I'd even maybe consider playing it again if we could fix Whiterun.

#asks #uh. i am. so sorry this took so long to answer alsnkwnswk i couldnt word my thoughts on the cw line satisfactorily #idk man the war before you join is this brutal slog that supposedly is severely impacting the entire population #no end in sight because no one has the upper hand #and then the quests just. are more battles. the ones that were getting no one anywhere besides a grave #like if the same battles in the same places werent really getting results youd think youd try literally anything else #sure you get the crown and whoever you bavk gets public support but i dont recall that really resulting #in like. any extra supplies or soldiers or anything #like the whole point is there ARENT any supplies left for ANYONE and people who can be soldiers are #on the basis of 'its literally a CIVIL war' it is an internal thing #and then you do the one (1) not open combat keep storming quest and divert some weapons #fr i think those are the only changes #idk it was super boring to play through and the reward for my efforts was a fucked up whiterun #like. thanks. i cant even fix it???? wtf #anyway this has been in my drafts for WEEKS im just posting this #okay coming back after that last edit actually i have one last thing to say #dawnguard 10/10 for not making you the leader at the end no one listens to you youre just some guy #which is soooooo. great. no one does it like dg im busy i dont wanna lead your fucking guild #and isran would never fucking let you. he would come back as a malevolent ghost if he died and keep running the guild #absolute dawnguard supremacy in cast quests and not making you god spin that fucking chore wheel boy #edited to add the ask game link rip

[heyitslapis]

I hate being digestible

#this is about things like when people say ''man i hate when gay people (do xyz thing that humans do)......Not you though youre cool'' #oh ok LITERALLY RIPPING OUT YOUR THROAT WITH MY FUCKING TEETH #i hate being digestible i hate being palatable i hate being easy to swallow i hate i hate i hate being ''one of the good ones'' to my enemy #if assault was legal i wouldve mauled several people in my time for saying things like this to me #im not even a violent person but this always makes me angry #so you hate my people but you love me because....? because im not ''flashy'' or ''in your face''? because i fit in your idealized box? #i want to be a HARD pill to swallow. i want to give indigestion the people who are against my communities. #i want you to CHOKE on that sweet looking bite that you took of me. to taste the pain and bitterness and boldness of us #im sosososososososososososo TIRED & ANGRY of being ''the exception'' (which there is no exception they dont want that part of you to exist) #nothing in particular triggered me a past conversation with a coworker randomly popped in my head while i was drawing dykes #''i dont like that gay people have to be SOO... ''like that''. like all extra and shit yknow? not you though. i like you'' go fuck yourself #the ancient gay rage that runs through my veins wants vengeance. revenge. fresh blood to make up for all the blood thats ever been lost #sorry vent post over for now #vent post #rant post #homophobia #emma rants #emma vents #ok to reblog ig as long as you dont expose my tags idgaf

[britneyshakespeare]

re: my last post rambling about my siblings: i also realize of course that not everyone who has siblings has as good a relationship to them as i do, and that can be for any number of reasons, can have any number of resolutions, including just begrudgingly accepting that your sibling(s) are never gonna be the closest people in your life. i talked about how the bond i have with mine is akin to a commitment, because all of us prioritize each other, but i don't mean to make it sound idyllic or like it should be the universal standard. i am lucky but i am not naive. not everyone gets the siblings they would most wish to have, or some people just aren't that close to them and i don't particularly have a blanket judgment to make of that in all cases. however...

that guy i made a bunch of personal posts over the summer about because he was an emotionally abusive friend that i had to cut off, who asserted way too much control over my life, who was guilt-tripping and manipulative and sought to silence me etc etc etc he really was just never very accepting of me for who i was, never expressed interest in anything about me that didn't have to do with him, etc etc etc just that JERK guy who i still have nightmares about a few times a month. it took me a long time to accept that he wasn't just "depressed" and "anxious" but that he was actively using people; he wasn't accepting of harmony but always wanted control over others and their narratives, etc etc etc. there were certain sides of him i didn't see much because i got to know him in a rather isolated way. we had mutual contacts but i never worked with him or had a class with him or really even met him a few times before he started spilling his heart and soul to me privately and said i'm his best friend and i'm the only one who understands and supports him and basically pressured me to make him my project 24/7 and was incredibly disrespectful towards me whenever i asserted my own independence from him or just. wanted to see someone other than him or even just wanted to be by MYSELF. jesus. what a nightmare that guy was. IS, because i know he can't have changed and he probably never will.

THAT guy has a sibling. he has a little brother four years younger than him, and that guy was about two years younger than me. so his brother turned 18 this year. he graduated from high school. his brother is YOUNG, all things considered. and as much as he would constantly pour his heart out and gripe about every person he ever came into contact with (and as much as i now distrust a lot of the information he told me because i know he'll only ever say flattering things about himself and never speak forgivingly or with any nuance towards someone he labels now as "bad", including me)... the only time that i didn't really know how to listen with as open a heart was when he would start talking about how awful his little brother is. i'd be like, ok, so you had terrible friends in high school. all the people in your classes are shitty to you. this person has done you wrong and this person is awful and your parents and your family suck and this and that and this. no one has ever been good to you in your entire life except me? ok.

the ONLY time i was like "i don't know if i can take this at face value, i think you're being too harsh..." is when he would talk about his little brother. because i was like, well, from everything you're telling me, his problems sound like something he can very well grow out of. he'd be like oh he's PRETENTIOUS. lol ok. he's a senior in high school, of course he sometimes acts like he knows everything. why do you act like he's a lost cause? i could also tell that there must've been some personal jealousy in there bc his brother was kind of the "more accomplished" sibling, did better in school, that sort of thing. i don't know what it's like to be an older sibling or to feel like you're living in the shadow of a sibling, especially a younger one, because i've always kind of been on a different path than any of my siblings/there hasn't really been a sense of competition between us. i would try to give him the benefit of the doubt and be like "well i guess i really don't know what that's like" because you CAN'T assume. i give EVERYONE the benefit of the doubt and i try to take people, especially when they're being vulnerable with me, at their word, which is exactly how i got so involved with this guy and ended up being so used by him and under his thumb. horrible. he's a monster. anyway.

and whenever i'd be like "well he's just a kid" to every negative thing he'd say about his little brother, that's when he'd dismiss the subject and stop talking about it. and this isn't something that came up a couple of times but came up a LOT. he'd shit talk his brother to me at least several times a week, always unprompted, because why would i wanna hear someone badmouth a teenager? and it'd always be the pettiest shit. one time he even told me that he noticed his brother didn't come home last night and he didn't know where he was and i was like "oh my god is he ok? that's terrifying" and it's like he did that just so he could tell me "no i don't really care honestly. the two of us aren't close." it's like he wasn't just not-close with this kid but he was obsessed with hating him.

not only did his reasons never seem to satisfy me, but he never seemed to acknowledge that his little brother shared all of the traumas and adverse experiences he grew up with, the discrimination he faced and the familial trauma and the structures of abuse he would tell me about from his parents. he would mention how these are all the problems and the reasons he can't trust people and why he's so fucked up but he didn't seem to have any patience or empathy for someone younger than him brought up in the same exact environment. it's like he wanted his brother to always just fuck off and die.

none of this made any sense to me, it was if anything the BIGGEST sense of confusion i had with him for a long time because i dismissed all the ways he was cruel to *just me* until i started picking up all his patterns and realizing this all WASN'T just how he treats me. HE is the problem; HE is this entitled and controlling and nasty and manipulative towards everyone; HE has no self-awareness or regard for other people. it's not just ME not having the guts to stand up for myself when he made me feel uncomfortable or when i'd feel disrespected by something he said to/about me. he would know when he was saying something unacceptable or losing his temper; he did it with other people all the time. but he isolated and then lovebombed me so hard that i didn't see that this WAS how he treated everyone, but he made me in particular his prey because i was a trusting and trustworthy stranger, rather than someone who had seen him behave in such a way towards other people and could make the informed choice to stay away from him. it was never JUST ME but how could i have known that?? how?? i didnt know anything about his life except what he'd tell me, and he was actively sucking me away from all parts of my life he wasn't involved in, and/or forcing his way into them. there was no space between him and me; my life became his because he hijacked it and then forced me to do all his emotional labor and solve all his problems so i'd hardly have any energy to face my own.

anyway. yeah. it all made MUCH more sense when i realized HE is the problem between him and his brother. that didn't stick out as a red flag because again i'm trusting and i accept all these hypothetically broken or damaged familial relationships people have. HE really wanted me to hate this teenager for no good reason, like he wanted me to hate everyone else in his life that he'd ever decide to cast as a villain. i never understood why the teenage boy. never understood it. i'm like he's just a boy. OH but you're an awful horrible jerk who can't get along with anyone for longer than 2 minutes before you try and take control of everything about them and then lash out if they try to assert their independence. OOOHHH ok i get it now that makes sense. because that's what you've been doing to me all this time ohhh i get it.

#wow this is such a long post lol #long post #tales from diana #im not proofreading this so if this makes no sense well whatever #sorry if you... missed my... constant crises about this situation over the summer? #i do still have nightmares about him lol #i have otherwise been moving on... pretty ok #you know it's just such a relief to not talk to him anymore ever. love that #i have him blocked too 🖤🖤🖤 #and he isn't a school/work acquaintance and we don't live suuuper close where i'd worry about seeing him in public randomly #i have had some friends that i explained our falling out to that have randomly ran into him. and he glared at them. lol #he really tried to involve all my friends in the messiest ways after he realized he was losing his control over me. #he was acting so entitled and imposing and overly-familiar and spilling all his 'problems' hes having with me #to ppl that i had introduced him to a couple of times and he would never be emotionally close with #but now he wants to pour his heart out about how he's been victimized by my callousness towards him (read: my individual identity/needs) #like what a fucking trainwreck that was. #in fact i encouraged him to be vulnerable with some of these friends like he was ALWAYS being vulnerable to me #making me support him 24/7 and literally never giving me time to do or think about anything else #never reciprocating interest or concern when it comes to my own life in any way. even if he KNEW about problems i had going on #just no sympathy from him whatsoever. he was just a sympathy vampire. he took and took and took and never gave back. #like i said he's the most self-centered person i've ever met. #yeah. i need to drop this now #but i do feel bad for his little brother. bc everything i ever felt sympathy for him for also applies to his brother #but his BROTHER has never shown any signs to me of being nearly as disgusting as he is. #he's brother's just a kid. but imagine having such a nightmare of a brother for the rest of your life. im sorry to him

[soapsdish]

[10 Mutuals I would like to know better]

Thank you for the tag @deadbranch (this literally just showed up in my mentions ;A;)

Last song I listened to: iniko - jericho (trailerized remix) [x]

Favorite content to watch: Let's Plays! I'm an avid gamer and enjoy having them on in the background as I'm working around the house. When I'm actually sitting down to watch something, though, I find a good horror movie or creepy show to watch.

Favorite Games: Left4Dead 2 (PC), Remnant 1 & 2 (PC), DEVOUR (PC), Baulder's Gate 3 (PC), Life (boardgame), honestly if you look at my game's library about 80% are scary games :3

Favorite Color: Blue, Black, Red, and Forest Green

Favorite Animals: Without a doubt, Cats. I love most all animals though but cats are #1.

Favorite food: Grits (southern: butter, pepper, and a little cheese)

Sweet? Spicy? Savory?: Sweet! (always got a jolly rancher or a werther's coffee toffee within reach)

Current Obsessions: Writing (though Im very shy about sharing it but I've got so many WIPs in gdocs and journals just lying around the house), Gaming (always), Music (something is always playing when Ive not got a LP going and it's mostly chillwave or remixes)

Last book I read: The Martian by Andy Weir (part of my yearly reread project)

Last Thing I googled: the menu of a new coffee place my husband and I wanted to try

Relationship: Married

Fun fact: I try to be a really polite person but I cuss worse than a serviceman which surprises tf outa people when it happens. UNLESS, of course, if we're friends then you get the full Jay experience which includes my stupid humor, lots of cat memes/jokes, and general fuckery (positive).

Tagging: Honestly, I want to get to know all my followers! So if you wanna post this I'd devour it! <3

#deadbranch #im so sorry it took so long to get to this #it literally just popped up into my mentions?? #and Im so very confused!!! because you tagged me forever ago ;A; #tumblr is a mess and I blame staff #jay posts things #jay gets personal

[doodlboy]

Mint Babybell and Rouge!

YEAAAAAAAAAAA!! We're gonna make cookies and frolic thru the woods!!!! Also, i love you tooooo🥺🥺🥺💙💙💙💙💙!!!!!!

rouge, pumpkin, mint, Babybel wrapper, & rose~ for you!!!💐💙

#im sorry i took so long i literally could NOT find that post with the lil images #lets go make cookiesssssssssss #yahooooooooooooooo #spacey-daydreams #thank you for the ask #color ask game