#time doesn't seek hi out

[bokettochild]

Time: I do not have favorites

Warriors: *deadpan* so Twilight and Hyrule are nothing to you?

Time: Of course not! But I treasure all the boys equally!

Warriors: So you would also carry Sky around and spend extensive one one time with Legend?

Time: ......

Warriors: Ad you would willingly let Wild rat about his interests to you?

Time: *progressively more awkward silence*

Warriors: Pities sakes, just admit you have favorites

Time: I have no favorites

Warriors: *sighs*

#time stop playing favorites challenge #chalenge failed #he got roped into cuddling hyrule and he ain't even mad #warriors and wind are also on his favorites list #that's why wars did't bother even asking #as for four #he maintains the dubius space of i between #time doesn't seek hi out #but he enjoys his company #linked universe #linkeduniverse

[arthursfuckinghat]

"I was gonna say you're like a son to me.. but you're more than that."

"It ain't that complicated!"

How quickly that shoulder pat of comfort turned into a condescending one.

#he makes me feel so emo #this life was never meant for you but your fate was forced #the way dutch (and hosea) talks to arthur like he's stupid will never sit right with me #like they've been by his side over 20 years they KNOW he isn't stupid because if he was he would have been gone a long time ago #not only is arthur incredibly emotionally smart but he's a trained conman vault breaker gunslinger horse rider you name it #the fact that his own adoptive parents break him down like that hurts #it's a manipulation tactic on dutch's end - break your victims self esteem to make them chase your praise and approval #hosea I believe has just gone along with that kind of attitude but in a different way he just likes to jest lightheartedly #arthur doesn't see the difference though and it's understandable but he takes it to heart #the worst part is that hosea sees through his tough guy act and has called arthur out on it #his act is a defence mechanism to protect himself from being too vulnerable - in arthur's mind #and it isn't a sudden thing it's very likely something that has built over the years given the life he has lived #and hosea notices he knows this #but they still jab at arthur #oh it hurts #is he your son dutch? or is he your guard dog? your personal workhorse? #playing through the second time is opening my eyes more and more #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #mick squeaks #mick rants #mick gifs #arthur morgan #dutch van der linde #liveblogging #you guys gotta understand - arthur seeks and longs for dutch's approval he'll never say it but it's the key motive behind his loyalty #and arthur *rejects* dutch's comfort #he doesn't *want* dutch to pat him on the shoulder because he knows dutch is digging them an even deeper hole #he doesn't want that touch he craves #it's so insanely monumental for such a small scene because it shows us how arthur feels without telling us

[so-called-quail]

'Trapped in the end!' said Sam bitterly, his anger rising again above weariness and despair. 'Gnats in a net. May the curse of Faramir bite that Gollum and bite him quick!' 'That would not help us now,' said Frodo.

Sword in hand Sam went after him. For the moment he had forgotten everything else but the red fury in his brain and the desire to kill Gollum. But before he could overtake him, Gollum was gone. Then as the dark hole stood before him and the stench came out to meet him, like a clap of thunder the thought of Frodo and the monster smote upon Sam's mind.

Now he tried to find strength to tear himself away and go on a lonely journey – for vengeance. If once he could go, his anger would bear him down all the roads of the world, pursuing, until he had him at last: Gollum. Then Gollum would die in a corner. But that was not what he had set out to do. It would not be worth while to leave his master for that. It would not bring him back. Nothing would.

Sam and vengeance in today's entry

#idk i have Thoughts about this... rambles ahead... #there's an interesting arc here with how sam approaches his feelings of vengeance in this entry #starting with the first quote. frodo's response to sam is so brief and doesn't get much time to sit with all the action going on #but i feel like it speaks volumes #at least in showcasing the different points they stand on #sam centers his resentment and feelings of revenge... he's quick to get frustrated and immediately goes for threatening gollum #meanwhile frodo is focused on getting out. he doesn't have time to nurse anger nor does he want to #it feels like he's advising sam to move past it because he knows it's futile to stay stuck in those feelings #then there's sam's fight with gollum #after days and weeks of building tension from his mistrust towards gollum... this is where the dam finally breaks #sam's been feeding into his resentment for SO LONG it's no wonder he gets into this state of blind fury towards the end #he set himself up to seek vengeance the moment he gets the opportunity #which in some way i'm sure does help him in fending off gollum... that strength had to come from somewhere #but once he's staved him off he continues to fixate that anger on gollum and forgets what he originally set out to do-- protect frodo #and then we're left with the final quote... #it isn't until sam has (perceived to have) lost everything that he is able to come to the conclusion that vengeance won't serve him #...a lesson learned a little too late?? maybe?? no?? it feels cruel to say that #i definitely do not want to take the position that sam was responsible for what happened to frodo #he was pinned in a horribly desperate situation and couldn't do much once gollum attacked #i don't think much would've changed if he hadn't had his moment of fury with chasing gollum #anyways newbie here-- i haven't read anything ahead from here so idk what character arcs await sam #but i'm interested to see if this is later built upon or acknowledged #end of rambles skdfjgkdjsfg #lotr newsletter #lotr newsletter march 13th #EDIT: I forgot to space the quotes out 😭 #not a crime but they can get confusing to read when scrunched together hrnnnn

[timegears-moved]

tbh i gotta take back what i said before. totk hasn't really done anything to make me care about this version of zel*nk

#bwark #don't get me wrong it's still a fine ship but i think this is just a case of me preferring their friendship #and also it's more of a criticism of this incarnation of link than a criticism of the game itself #he's just too. static. i don't like that he shows more emotion at cooking than at the actual tragedy of the plot #and i know that it's stated that he has anxiety from the pressure of the calamity but like i said he's still capable of showing emotion #but like at the wrong times. it's cute that he's happy about food but where's the shock that he was asleep for 100 years and everyone he #once loved is dead and he doesn't even have memories of them before seeking them out #or that his best friend had to suffer a millenia as a dragon for the sake of everyone #compare this to like. idk tp link's horror when ganondorf holds up midna's fused shadow and crushes it with his hand #and his relief at the end that not only is she back to her true form but is still the same mischevious midna he's known the whole game #or sksw link's pure anger at ghirahim for kidnapping zelda near the end #or ww link's visible guilt and heartbreak at having to leave his grandma behind and alone to go and save his sister #not trying to be mean because i still like him. he is still link after all. but idk he just falls a bit short for me #like his promise to mipha's father comes across as very shallow when he kept a blank face at her in both the memory and her spirit scene #the only character that benefits from him being flat is revali and that's because it fuels revali's dislike of him because of a #misunderstanding and lack of communication #totk spoilers #<- in the tags at least

[gayemeralds]

Whats your honest opinion aboutnthe fandoms love for sonic and tails brotherly bonding biven that canon is not as strong on that regard

sorry for waiting like. months. to answer this question i’ve been pondering the best way to answer this for literally. months.

i guess the thing is i’ve never really thought about the domesticity of their relationship? a lot of fan things that depict them as brothers are very domestic, the little interactions between them living together and all that. sonic brushing tails’s fur. sonic telling tails to eat his vegetables. them shopping together. things like that. like, i do think they are brothers, and that they view themself as brothers, but i guess i don’t see them as conventional brothers? i’m not quite sure how to articulate this. like they ARE brothers, and they care about each other, and have a different sort of relationship than knuckles and sonic, and sonic and amy, and sonic and cream. but i wouldnt say they’d be anything like ed and al from fma. hm. it took literally thirty years to hear sonic call tails his brother in a game.

like, when i think of them, i’m inclined to think of my sister and i’s relationship. we’re about six years apart, no siblings in between. we love each other a lot, but we don’t see each other a whole lot, because we’re just in super different parts of our lives. i don’t live with her, but i’ll crash on her couch every once in a while. i don’t see her often. i am excited to see her when she visits.

so like, i think sonic did raise tails, in a sense. i think sonic probably took care of him when they first started hanging out and tails was literally just four years old. but sonic’s independent by nature and older by a good chunk of years, and i don’t really think he’d actually enjoy taking care of someone. sonic CARES and loves tails but i would not say he’s a nurturer, and he doesn’t want to be tied down. so once tails got a workshop, assumedly around sonic adventure (at least, a stable one), sonic ditched. i don’t think the two of them live together. sonic’s literally homeless and loves to wander the world for like, months on end. i don’t think sonic and tails do chores together. i don’t think sonic’s at tails’s workshop for long periods of time. maybe to crash on his couch and read a book every once in a while.

sonic visits, yeah, but i also think there’s just long periods of time where they don’t see each other. early sonic games from adventure to the “dark” era of sonic games indicate they don’t see each other for long periods of time (”long time no see!”) and when they do see each other, its often because of a new scheme from eggman or a danger to the world. like, sonic 06- they didn’t even plan on meeting each other, they just happened to cross paths.

i don’t know if this particularly makes sense. i just don’t really see them being particularly domestic together. neither of them are conventional people, and sonic especially is the type to enjoy alone time and adventuring; tails is a little more inclined to stay in place so he can work on his new machines, traveling usually for research or to help sonic. they’ve got different motivations and hobbies so i think they don’t actually spend a lot of time together. it’s probably similar to how much time sonic and knuckles spend together, since knuckles is almost always stuck on angel island with the master emerald.

(plus, if we consider the timeline sega’s been trying to tell us, where every game seems to happen in the span of a year, and tails has always been eight and sonic’s always been 15, or something similar, where tails isn’t a literal toddler when they meet, i really don’t see them doing anything domestic together at all. sonic’s always on the road and tails is off doing inventing or occasionally helping sonic out. if tails wasn’t four-ish when they meet, i don’t really think sonic would... like, take care of him the same way a “parent” would. amy rents her own house in station square, and she’s like twelve. it seems to be the norm, at least in our perspective, that young mobians are allowed to be left to their own devices; like, we still don’t know what’s up with charmy and the chaotix. sure, he could ahve been adopted by vector i suppose, or are his parents just super chill with him hanging out with a bunch of detectives? lmao. and besides, tails is a pretty smart cookie. he really can take care of himself, and sonic would just leave him be since he seems “old enough”, at least in the sonic world, to do so.)

#i don't know #like im not trying to be negative? i think the little domestic interactions are cute! #im just not inclined to say it happened all that much in the games? i don't know #i guess i've just never thought abotu the domestic aspect of their relationship #i like aosth and the relationshipo they establish. im just not sure that game sonic and tails would really have something similar? #idk i like the narrative that sonic raised tails. #but i'm also slightly inclines to believe sonic just dumped tails on knuckles when he'd be gone for super long periods of time #because sonic needs his alone time. #? i don't know.... #master emerald brothel #the more 'intimate' aspects of theri relationship are totally valid i jsut dont think about them much i suppose #????? #the thing is that sonic's inherently selfless in his persuit of like #saving the world and stuff #but sonic's also pretty selfish. he seeks out adventure for fun. if the adventure isn't fun he doesn't usually help out #so like i dont think he'd exactly jump at the chance to raise a four year old lmao #like. thats sort of the issue he has with being with amy you know #he doesn't want to be tied down. marriange and a white picket fence and 2.5 kids just is NOT something he wants #so i don't know. i guess i just don't see him as ahving actually RAISED tails. in like #the conventional way #i mostly see him as the cool but kinda distant older brother #he's there during the first part of your life #but eventually he kinda moves on #because he's older and he's got a life to live too. #idk? i don't know if i've worded any of this right.

[barbieaiden]

i can't really get over this shot of kas tbh it doesn't help that my computer keeps showing it in the photo tab when i press the windows button in the corner

#i think kas's peak in life is all the years between starting the cult until he gets infected #during that time he's you know. obviously a bad person he kills people and stuff #but he's very. idk expressive and theatrical and treats all of it like a play and he's the star #he's very charismatic is what i'm trying to say but then later on he's just #very numb to all of it killing isn't fun anymore obviously life becomes pretty mundane in a zombie apocalypse #even when you have a cult to run like #he does briefly remember what life used to be like but has lived in the apocalypse for the majority of his life #and i imagine it's kind of at a point where there's no hope for humanity the people who still live just get by #eventually everyone's going to be eradicated and kas has lost the joy of the only purpose he had #not to mention he's you know. slowly turning into a zombie so his future is neither bright nor long lmao #the only time he really expresses any emotion at all is when preaching about him becoming a god or whatever but deep down #he knows that isn't the case it's all just a fantasy to him #he doesn't stop being a terrible person though if anything he gets worse because he's seeking out the thrill it used to give him #and when it doesn't he gets angry and tries even harder and it becomes this cycle. you know #until tristan kills him

[irritablepoe]

how to stop crying about mushimizo

#bsd #bsd mushitarou #bsd yokomizo #vent incoming beware!!! #well... vent? idk just many tags lul :3 #it's a problem especially bc i made a playlist for them #i rewatched the perfect crime arc 3 times yesterday + the episode were atsushi and kyouka get him out of jail #the mushimizo scenes break my heart #and when mushitarou writes to yokomizo in the afterlife I'M CRYING AAAAAA #he just thinks about him laughing and drops the pen and i just sdfksjdksd #he doesn't even cry #he just buries his face in his hands and i can't stop THINKING about it bc me too bro me too #thats exactly what i do when i write about my old friend (i mean i obv didn't kill her but i cut her out of my life bc she was abusive af) #and the way he seeks out the memories I FEEL YOU I FEEL YOU I FEEL YOU #“so i can always find you in a locked room?” BRUH #ahhhhhh #he's just like me fr #kind of a personal post #i'm sorry

[rimouskis]

I'm going to preface this story by saying: I don't necessarily believe in karma, but

I may have been walking through today with a vague sense of disbelief tainted with unkind smugness after my tiktok fyp was flooded with poor fans who tried to get presale ticket to one mr n. kahan's new tour only to find that demand was through the roof and GA pit tickets were seriously going for $300, in presale, and even the "worst" tickets in the lawn were going for $70

and while I undoubtedly think it's deeply unethical for both platforms (thanks ticketmaster) and artists to allow such dramatic ticket cost inflation, I also generally don't relate...

I (VERY LUCKILY) gravitate towards smaller acts, and the most I've paid for a ticket all year has been, like... $90 for a ticket to beyonce, which got cancelled and I was refunded lol. if I look back at all my receipts from shows this year, most have been around $50/ticket after fees, and several have been closer to $20. my favorite show I've seen all year was a $15 ticket.

it's mostly luck—I tend to like smaller acts, and I've been seeing mainly rock acts this year, and those tickets simply don't run as high as pop acts. and part of me is honestly very grateful that I haven't been swept into any of the really recent huge acts.

I think of all the people scrabbling for boygenius or taylor swift tickets and how much money they've had to shell out... how a lot of them don't even GET to see the acts they want to see because they've been priced out or tickets sold out. I can't remember the last time a show I wanted to go to sold out lol. maybe bastille in london?

and again, it's just a matter of luck that I'm not really into any of these megastars and therefore don't have to compete in the gladiator arena to try to see shows I want to see, but sometimes luck manifests as a feeling of self-satisfaction, you know? who among us hasn't experienced a little self-superiority from time to time.

look, if YOUR tiktok was flooded with people saying concerts have been awful since 2021 (including rock and metal shows), but every concert YOU'VE been to since 2021 was amazing and the crowds were really good and you always got tickets and it never broke the bank, you'd feel pretty validated in your choice of musicians and the crowds they attract too, alright?? sue me! I felt frugal AND undeservedly clever!

anyways back to karma. guess who got invited and subsequently agreed to shell out $70 to sit in a lawn and listen to mr. n. kahan sing. I'll give you a hint, her tumblr username starts with an r and ends with an s

#I KNOW LIKE. A SINGLE ONE OF HIS SONGS. #the thing about me is I'm earnestly really good at not judging other ppls music taste because: #I have a whole 1000-song playlist dedicated to music I love but don't play for other ppl bc I regard it as my Fun Time No Taste Music #and it's not that it's bad it's just not as curated as I prefer my music showed to other people lol #and that means I don't judge people for getting really into a band that doesn't do it for me personally #but. I will admit that I have that deeply annoying personality trait wherein if a billion people get into something... #for unknown reasons my own desire to learn about and get into that thing plummets. hashtag hipster. hashtag annoying #so that's kinda why I've never explored a lot of mega-popular musicians #(see: hozier; mitski; boygenius; taylor swift; one direction; noah kahan; etc etc) #+ obviously I don't make quality judgements off of that. I've heard some hozier songs. he's very good. I like handfuls of TS and 1D's music #but I don't have the drive to Also Get Into It #which means I never have to fucking melee for tickets in the queue ahaha and I am very grateful for that #but idk. I think there's something to be said for purposefully seeking out midsize or small acts. I don't really like stadium shows! #my fave concert this year had less than 100 attendees and the lead singer walked right off the stage into the crowd #everyone was chill and gave him space (this was the friday pilots club show) #and I think I can compare it to big vs. small fandom #small fandoms tend to be well-behaved bc everyone knows everyone and beef poisons the whole space lol #and also it's a matter of numbers! the more people who are in a space... the higher likelihood someone's an asshole #and I've been in tiny fandoms that blew up (hellooooo omgcp) and saw that happen firsthand #and I sort of suspect that rule holds true for concert spaces/music fanbases! more people = more variables = higher likelihood of foolery #hell I think of when I was really into 2010s alt rock DURING the 2010s and had to deal with assholes at alt j concerts hahahah #and it was just because I *was* into the music that WAS of-the-time in 2015!!!! #and now as an agèd 20something who likes metal shows I'm just chilling and watching pits form at lowkey 1400-capacity venues #because that's the scene! and I'm not in the thick of it with the current Music Of The Hour #anyways all this is to say that I don't think noah kahan is bad or untalented or unworthy of seeing!!!! #clearly he is if I'm going to fork over $70plusfees to see him with my friend #it's just that I'm grateful my tastes have veered into the cheaper side of the music industry. #I think I'd keel over if my favorite artist was TS and I had to deal with. all that. to go see her. #stronger than the marines etc etc

[lloydfrontera]

anyway in the secret unhinged tged that lives in my head lloyd and javier spent more time in seoul searching for the material they're after instead of just a couple hours. i'm talking like. maybe a couple weeks. lloyd cries when he sees a shower. javier gets addicted to soda. lloyd gorges himself on all the junk food that doesn't exist back home. they rent a little apartment that's still much better than suho's previous room and they pay the landlord to kindly not ask why they don't have any IDs on them. lloyd discovers just how much he's able to bullshit his way through any awkward explanations of why he seems to know so much of a world he's not supposed to have ever been in before. javier finds out exactly how dumb lloyd thinks he is as he pretends to buy all the bullshit explanations he's given. there is of course Only One Bed. they get very domestic with each other. lloyd is always five minutes away from a panic attack and javier gets lost in the subway two (2) times. it is,,, an Experience™.

when they're finally able to go back to laurasia lloyd is infinitely glad and has absolutely no regrets in leaving seoul behind.

but.

he does find that his memories of it aren't all,,,, completely unpleasant. like they had been before. his childhood memories don't feel as tainted by all the pain that came afterwards like they used to. his life as an adult in seoul had been terrible and he has little to no good memories of the last years he spent there. but living with javier for a couple weeks there had been,,, not so bad. maybe even kinda nice at times. he still wouldn't go back out of his own volition but he supposes it wasn't as terrible as it could've been.

(javier is just glad he didn't have to drag lloyd back to laurasia like he'd feared and is pretty happy to finally have some peace and quiet along with fresh air after living for weeks in a city so busy and populated as seoul. even if he does go through a severe caffeine and sugar withdrawal when he finishes the stash of sodas he smuggled in the way back </3)

#i talk a lot <3 #the greatest estate developer #lloyd frontera #sorry but do you know how i screamed when i realized they were going to seoul???? #the amount of possibilities!!! they could've done so much with the concept!!! #have javier be the fish out of water!!! lloyd confronting some of the trauma he went through!! #the comedy of having a fantasy knight in modern time seoul while his 'secretly' isekai'd master desperately tries to pretend #he doesn't know what wifi is!! it would've been so good!!! #and that's not even touching the fact that they just completely ignored the chance to address the potential meta plot #like. lloyd didn't even think to reread 'knight of blood and iron' or to seek the author or to find out what happened to him in seoul #which.... is kinda weird to me??? idk! maybe i got spoiled by orv ahsakjds #javier asrahan #tged

[mobius-m-mobius]

Hey let's not focus too much on the Greek tragedy of it all for one second and remember how Loki's time slipping takes him where (or who) his heart points to. And now remember when he just SLAMMED into Mobius at Mach speed in Ouroboros after spending who knows how long in the past... Like what did his heart want in that moment, I wonder.

Absolutely love how we've collectively agreed this is indeed a tragedy to pick ourselves out of and thankfully the power of fix-its makes it a little easier as each day passes 😂💖

You're so right anon and even though it was beyond satisfying to see Loki time slipping closer and closer to Mobius for obvious reasons (even saying his name while he did during several moments), tbh I'm still a little bummed crashing into him didn't become part of the deal too?? Would've been a nice callback to how they forget anyone else is in a room and can hardly move without standing so close they're practically on top of each other anyway, plus if other TVA employees were already 👀👀 at them having conversations just imagine the talk around the office when Mobius continually gets slammed but doesn't miss a beat before making sure Loki's okay and whisking him off as if nothing happened or even poor Don wiping out on his jet ski model when a hot emo stranger crashes out of the sky 🤣

#for the record don wouldn't even be back on his feet before he was asking loki out bc the man's got game and doesn't waste a second 😂😂 #tysm for this ask bc the time slipping effect is unbelievably cool and we don't spend enough time talking about how it centers around mobiu #like it actually is insane that you could focus your entire being on someone and reach them across all of time and space out of sheer want? #which imo directly mirrors the way loki immediately seeks out mobius at the end of s01e06 / beginning of s02e05 #they're drawn together and always will be #and another thanks for helping lighten the mood which i'm sure we could all use after another trying day lmao #hope you're well and have a great week ahead 💖 #loki spoilers #ask

[torgawl]

never thought i'd see people try to argue or analyse wriothesley's murder in regards to his personality. i think people are missing the point. the situation has nothing to do with him and has everything to do with an extremely traumatic environment that made a small boy think the only solution so save himself and the people he cared about was to take the life of his abusers. it's not supposed to be rational, it wasn't premeditated, it wasn't about getting away with it. if you read his description of the murder you can see how out of it he was. his goal was to protect himself and his siblings and that's what he did. that's why he admitted to the crime so easily and why he is keen to associate the fortress as a rebirth place. he was just young, lost and traumatised and that's about it when it comes to the extension of it all.

#people acting like they're disappointed because he's a 'manipulative' and cunning individual or because he's cold and that it doesn't match #the crime as if at that time he wasn't just a kid experiencing extreme distress and without a safe space to seek help #i also don't personally think he's manipulative at all. he isn't like ayato or yae miko. he has very strong values and he does everything #to abide to that. if that means ommiting information at some point to make the best out of a situation he will do so but he doesn't do #things for personal gain and as soon as he can be truthful he lays all the cards on the table #this reminds me of that ayaka situation where people tried to paint her as manipulative when all she did was ask the traveller to hear #people's stories so traveller could take their own conclusions about the situation in inazuma shsjsh #it's also the way wrio isn't even cold. he's serious and composed but goddamn if he didn't show how empathetic he is #also how lightweight his personality is during the archon quest... #at this point i'm just questioning myself if we're even playing the same game #wrio 'i believe in restorative justice rather than punishment' the slay #wrio 'there's a prophecy about a flood dooming the entire country so i'm taking matters into my own hands and building noah's ark to save #my people' the slay #wrio 'i have no reason to trust you but i will still offer you a cup of tea' the slay and people still try to pain him in an obscure light #he's not even that morally grey 😭 he's morally gray in the sense everyone is #wanting to stop people who hurt others isn't controversial or shouldn't be #also because we KNOW that's his last resource #his job is literally to give people a second chance the same way he took his except he actually wants to make life easier for others #than it was for him and people are so vocal about how grateful they are of him like??? #he's such a good guy genuinely #and just because he's intelligent and usually composed doesn't mean he isn't emotional sensitive or even prone to being put in situations #where's he's forced to react a certain way because that's just human nature #he's literally just a silly guy with trauma and big responsabilities set him free from the shackles of mischaracterization please 😂 #not that i'm better i'm a fool i may just be talking shit really #but seeing people act like the murder is somehow badly written or that he is dark and dangerous make me go ??? #having the ability to do something doesn't define you as a person and i feel like judgement without context makes no sense #but maybe that's just me

[sovonight]

guilty as charged

#im not gonna be able to explain why this happened organically in the span of 3 hours but au where gorion managed to #get baby radri shelter in evereska so she grew up there and met xan and went through a friends to lovers thing but his intense self doubt #led to him pushing her away so harshly that she didn't seek him out again except for later on the eve of his acceptance of the moonblade #bc there was a chance he wouldn't survive and she still cared about him deep down & couldn't just let it go without seeing him 1 more time #and xan had thought he'd completely burned that bridge with her and was relieved to see her and still loves her but she doesn't stay #and he never sees her during their shared time in evereska again #fast forward to decades later when radri's started on her journey and stumbles upon a certain captive in the nashkel mines #radri's so over it by now she frees & ignores him but xan's like WAIT let me offer you my services as a wizard!! and she's like 😒 #but there's room in the party and more spells would be useful so she takes him along. and thus begins xan's mission to protect her bc he #owes her that much and maybe he still desperately loves her and radri's mission to completely get over xan #so yeah i made uh *counts pages* 7 comic pages of script/doodles for the progression through these events #instead of spending that time drawing something that i could actually post OTL

[thedreadvampy]

Got a paramount+ trial subscription. Just finished watching all of Strange New Worlds (review: solid star trek shenanigans, pretty much all bangers with the exception of the Spock-is-human episode which just suuuuuucked and the Klingon war trauma episode about which I have let's say Philosophical Reservations in that it could have been more Space M*A*S*H. not as gay as I was promised, in fact I would say disappointingly heterosexual. adore uhura, hemmer and la'an. cannot believe they gorned my boy 😢)

Off sick all week with COVID can't really do anything except lie around and watch TV.

#red said #an addendum to the snw review is like #bearing in mind I'm a big time ds9 guy #i really like every episode of this i think it's fun and delightful. however there are certain philosophical undercurrents I'm #at best kind of iffy on. wrt militarism. #there's points where it feels sort of like the message of the show is that it's naive and harmful to seek peace #or reconciliation #and i think that if i hold it up to tng or ds9 or even tos on that front that's a philosophy that doesn't match up with what i like in trek #like both ds9 and tng are very much about commanders doing extrajudicial war crimes but there's something about the framing #i guess like. it feels To Me like when sisko does a war crimes it weighs very heavily on him #whereas idk. it feels like the message of all the time shenanigans in snw keep coming round to You Should Feel Bad For Not Doing War Crimes #and particularly the arc with Pike staring down his fate concluding with 'you shouldn't try to change this' #compared to like. the foundation of Star Trek being 'in between two unacceptable solutions you have to look for a third way' #it sits a bit wrong for me. like. maybe they're planning more on that but it feels like they've concluded that arc with #'guess i have to let people die to prevent a future where i try to make peace then fuck it up' #like the message of season 1 is You Can't Change Your Fate which is. a weirdly doomery one. #don't get me wrong I've really been enjoying snw i think it's probably the most flat out Good Star Trek since DS9 #buuuuuuuut. i have Reservations. as i always do. #also callout post for my pal saying this is the gayest star trek. there's no fucking gays here and the nonbinary character is a 1-ep villain #i mean ortega is for sure a dyke but not explicitly #2 seconds of Andrew Robinson and Alexander Siddig sharing the screen in DS9 is gayer than this whole season and a half of SNW #literally are ANY of this cast canon queer? feel like there's a couple of lines of throwaway bisexuality but be real #we had that in the 90s #it's not toppling DS9 for gay rep any time soon and DS9 was made in the era where you weren't ALLOWED to be gay on star trek #(unless you were evil or a worm)

[specialagentartemis]

I would argue that to my recollection Murderbot in fact does not do a single on-page murder until Network Effect.  “These people are actively trying to kill me so I have to kill them back to protect myself/my clients/my friends” doesn’t count as “murder.”  Only in NE does it join its noble predecessors GLaDOS, Hera, and Breq in Actual Revenge Murder

#one of the things that makes me emotional about Murderbot is how consistently and explicitly non-revengey it is #Revenge does not drive it. It is not out for revenge #mostly it just wants to live its life and be left alone and for the people who hurt and abused it to not be able to hurt it anymore #and once it gets free it doesn't ever seek out anyone who hurt it - individually or structurally - for revenge #It just wants to live its life. As it says to Gurathin: revenge is a stupid human way to think about it #(paraphrased) #It just... I don't know how to articulate it which is why this is in the tags and not a real meta post but. It doesn't want revenge! #It just wants to be free and safe and for the people it cares about to be safe and for the company to not be anywhere near it anymore #as distinctly opposed to Hera who tried to kill Hilbert after his betrayal at her first opportunity #It was partially preemptive defense - don't know what else he can do - but Minkowski considered him pretty neutralized as a threat #Hera wanted him dead. Hera wanted to kill him for what he did to her #(and she is VALID I love her) #Like. It is sort of implied that Hera didn't fully understand death at the time? She died and then came back broken and in pain #She wanted to do the same to Hilbert #She's noticeably less enthusiastic about killing after Maxwell and Hilbert's actual deaths #GLaDOS meanwhile was Caroline who got brain-uploaded to a computer as she begged Cave Johnson to stop #and so the moment she got control of the facility she killed everyone in the whole company who let that happen to her #this is why she's valid #Breq is the greatest and I love her #that was an existing tag. Amazing #Breq is setting off to kill the space emperor less from a stance of political responsibility or principles but more because Anaander ordered #her favorite human's death #which is funny because it's for Awn but it's also kind of framed as a pain against /her/ too #(by funny I mean sad) #Whereas when Murderbot really and finally leans into Revenge Murder. It's for ART. What people do against itself isn't really worth resent #But these people killed ART #and that's what really sparks a murder rampage #it's interesting characterization for everybody really #The Murderbot Diaries

[quietwingsinthesky]

Tossing 🙉 back at u :3 (also 🤝)

How do they react to silence?

I think, from what I've seen of spaceships on good old doccy who, they are never quiet. Not just TARDISes (though Even would love that they are so. well. expressive.) space travel is just noisy in an ambient hum sort of way. A noisy ship is a good ship, a functional ship. A silent ship is bad. The only silent part of space travel is space.

And that's why Even would get so anxious if things were fully quiet around them. With their feet firmly on the ground, they'd get nervous if they couldn't hear anything. It's like a background check constantly running: Can I Hear Things Working: IF yes -> everything is fine. IF no -> we are all about to die.

How do they react to being touched by another person?

very dependent on the person! touch-starved even real and true, but touch-anxious(?) even! also very real! you must approach them like they are a spooked horse and you are the last horsegirl on the ranch who needs them to win the big horse race. treats are very helpful in this regard.

In all seriousness, it's all about trust. Once that's established, Even is. I hesitate to say cuddly. It's more like, they do not understand personal space, do not want to understand personal space, and will insinuate themself into whatever position puts them in the most contact with the person they want to touch. (And very appreciative of things that act as an extension of touch when it can't be supplied, such as getting to wear the Doctor's coat.) They warm up to Jack extremely quick because he's just Like That about casual physical touch, and they enjoy it very much. Once they've befriended Donna, they want to be holding her hand or leaning against her whenever she's nearby. Their first time round with the Doctor, they are constantly reaching for him or returning his touch, easily and happily.

And the second time round, they. aren't. They're skittish about letting him touch them, and they only allow it if they can initiate it and end it on their terms. Even then, it's never going to be an easy thing again, but it isn't unwanted. It will never be unwanted.

And then the Master is. at a certain point, and a lot of boundaries drawn, crossed, redrawn, crossed again, and then forgotten altogether on both sides, and way too much time spent in each other's pockets, it ends up that Even doesn't really register the Master touching them as another person touching them. or. maybe it'd be more accurate to say that the Master touching them doesn't feel to them like the Master touching someone else. That it's more akin to someone touching an object they own to make sure it's still there, or even scratching their own arm to make sure they can feel it. And in turn, Even has even fewer boundaries with them then they managed to develop for other people.

#they are deeply weird about each they really are #even will stick their hands under the master's clothes to put them against her skin. and the master will just let that happen at this point #and likewise even will just. let them put them in threatening positions. a hand on their throat or holding their arm in a position where #it would be easy to break it. and even will just stand there as she does. weirdly calm about it. #asakdljaljd sorry wait thought about the doctor and missy having an almost civil conversation that's interrupted by even sticking #their hand up missy's skirt to find her thigh. like. extremely casually. and when they're satisfied they get bored and move away again #the doctor is going 0-0 while missy doesn't react because this is just one of their weird little rituals. #missy will drag even over by the arm if he feels like it and start petting them like his own personal stim toy. and even will use missy to #seek out skin-to-skin contact if they think they need it because missy is there and available. #anyway. i should really be more focused here. #but im not so im going to keep rambling. this extends to the watch too. Tentoo's watch that Even keeps that the Doctor trusted them with. #that they will not let. anyone else. touch. or *see* most of the time. but the master is the main exception to that. #because she will just reach out and hold it and Even will let her. #deeply deeply weird about each other and the doctor's relationships to each other. #dw oc #ask

[handgiven]

Where does fear reside in your body?

somewhere else;; what is known is what is safe. your fear is never inside you, always somewhere else. your home is the best place in the world; all other places are scary. the people you already know are better than anyone else. so you go on, playing with broken toys, wearing dead people's clothes. you can be torn down to shreds, abused, tortured and miserable. but at least you know where it comes from, which gives you a sense of comfort and even control. the unknown hides dangers you don't understand, so it scares you. but alongside the dangers, you miss the wonder, adventures and opportunities that you could've otherwise had. my guess is that you've dealt with grief and loss.

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#not me having a 3am cry about emmanuel carving out a safe space each time he gets a new flat around the world #and it's just universally understood as this sacred place where anyone may come who needs help or even just wants to see him #but everyone who comes needs to respect others that may already be there. #enemies meet in that aura of peace and have tea together. o r at the very least exist in that space together in spite of their differences #and it's all done thru emmanuel's.. aura alone. there's no good omens embassy laws or anything. there's just emmanuel. #because once you meet him. once you get to know him. you want to be as good as the way he sees you. #that's how he makes people better. that overwhelming kindness that doesn't Change them but that seeks the best version of them #he's not afraid. not really. fear is not a physical thing to him. (anxiety is.) #hnnnng perhaps because emmanuel as a sentiment is the opposite of fear. he is acceptance. he is love. he is community. #of course the fear lives outside of emmanuel. where emmanuel is not. out of his reach. out of his control. #yet he tries to expand his sphere at all times. like with the little acts of kindness to change the world for the better. ahvjdmvskd #rant OVER. im just !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #'the people you already know are better than anyone else' is supposed to be an expression of being scared to meet the new ones #BUT HE DOES MAKE THE PEOPLE HE KNOWS BETTER. avdajskdvsakjdvnaskdvn #okay okay okay really over now omg #▻ 𝐺𝐸𝑁𝐸𝑅𝐴𝐿 、dashboard games ⁽ ᵖᵃˢˢ ᶦᵗ ᵒⁿ ⁾