#tk addiction journey

[sapphire11]

TK’s Canon Addiction Journey and Supportive Carlos

Edit #2 for my friend @malexsoulmates - you have officially gotten me hooked on this song. I love it and I love you. 💛

Carry On by Young Rising Sons

I believe that life is worth it even if it's scarred or frayed You don't need to be whole or perfect, no one is, no one is You never know where the tide's gonna take us You never know when the wave's gonna break, but I'll be there When no one is, no one is I’ll be there, I will never leave your side

Tagging: @chaotictarlos @bubblesandroses8 @noxsoulmate @ronensass @beautifulhigh @detective-giggles @buckybarnesalways 

#tk strand #carlos reyes #tk addiction journey #in canon #tarlos #tarlos gifs #gif sets #gwyneth morgan #owen strand #911 lone star #911 ls #season 1 #season 2 #season 3

[parameddic]

"Do you want some?"

(hi, hi, you asked so I'm going to send a lot of memes but don't feel pressured to reply to them all! i just like giving friends ✨variety✨)

Much less threatening to be asked that here than back in New York, he guessed. Rachel had just finished speaking at length about being offered stuff and having to decide and all of that shit that constantly, constantly, they had to be conscious of and consciously deciding not to accept and consciously deciding to separate themselves from (when had it ever come easily to TK, to unstick himself from people who made him feel wanted, made him feel like he was welcome there?), but this?

Tic-Tacs.

Tic-Tacs were such a safe middle ground. He didn't know how BJ had sourced them. They were not the current currency of the centre, but TK wasn't making any complaints. The Tic-Tac box rattled, a little friendly shake as though to tempt him, and TK smiled some wry thing at the corner of his mouth, surprised by how wobbly but how real it was. The numb wasn't there all the time these days. Not always.

He licked his lips, looked away, tried not to seem too impressed by the - contrast, he guessed ('juxtaposition' just was not a word TK had, thanks), and he pulled a hand out of the pocket of his loose hoodie to accept them. They hadn't interacted much. TK hadn't seen him interact with many people, actually. And TK hadn't, either.

He sorta liked the... Human connection.

Lightly: "Is this how you make friends? With bribes?"

#tk and bj in rehab together in california i have no further context and do not know a great deal about bj or his journey and so #if that is completely unrealistic just ignore me kdjflskdjlskdj love u #ic #ofyorkshire #v; rock bottom #addiction tw

[heartstringsduet]

heartstringduet's fall reads. 🍂

(this list by no means is encompassing all the wonderful fics I read and that deserve everyone's thoughtful comments. I will do more lists soon though. You peeps are so amazing 😭.)

Currently WIPs 💕 i closed my eyes inside of your darkness (and found your glow) by falloutmars S: After losing his mom and moving states, TK finds comfort in a stranger who may need the comfort just as much. A story of loss, love, and learning to live again. I love how careful and tender the different ways of coping with grief are portrayed. Plus, Andrea runs a café, Carlos runs a book club and TK finds his way into being a paramedic.

You Keep Coming Back With A Bird In Your Teeth by vaguenotion S: When a gesture of goodwill is misinterpreted, a patient begins to develop a dangerous attachment to TK. The whole point of the job is to save patients, not to have to be saved FROM them. what can I say but that I chew my arm off each time this is updated. Absolutely love the characterizations, the dialogues and the goddamn tension.

your gentle hands are stained with the blood of anothers by @birdclowns S: Denton Miller was Carlos' first case after being promoted to detective. The serial killer has escaped, throwing Carlos and his loved ones into his game as the next unwilling participants. The stakes are impossibly higher and the rules have changed - it's his husband on the other side of the screen. Such a sucker for a kidnapping story and a cat-and-mouse game and Jasper masterfully strikes a line between scary and intimate i language and plot.

see a friend (see a ghost) by @ambiguouspenny S: TK would always come home to him. It was a dinner table promise wrapped in explicit truth; a vow Carlos would bet his life on. A choice made at the edge of tragedy leaves Carlos living in the aftermath. TK tries to make it right. Weeping, letting the vivid details and the mystery and punchy dialogue keep me up at night.

Where All This Love Comes From by @carlos-in-glasses

S: Six months after Gabriel Reyes’ death, TK grows concerned about Carlos’ drinking and brings him to a meeting at the Y. TK reflects on meeting Carlos after years of addiction and self-destruction, while Carlos has continued to seek closure by uncovering two unknowns: The identity of his father’s killer, and how his father truly felt about Carlos as his son. I recommend anyyything cig writes, because I'm hopelessly devoted to her writing. Anything I read by her is nuanced, poetic, so insightful and heart-wrenching. This only has one chapter but a dialogue that punched me right in the heart.

a long time ago (we used to be friends) by @welcometololaland

S: The exes to lovers, college sweethearts, murder mystery fic where the motto is: be gay, solve crime. I can always count on anything Lola writes to make me laugh and to have me in the throws and woes of my emotions. And this one is one of my favorites of her because I love how she writes them finding their way back into each others life.

Teach You How Forever Feels by @three-drink-amy

S: TK is left with custody of his five-year-old brother, Jonah. With Owen's encouragement, TK moves to Austin for a fresh start, questioning every move he makes as he's thrust into the role of parenthood. But it all leads him to Jonah's new school where he meets Carlos Reyes, the kindergarten teacher. It reads like a warm hug to see TK growing into the role of a parental figure and Carlos be a teacher and read both of them so gone over the other.

Finished Stories 💗 for if i'm going down, i'm taking you with me by @mooshkat and @thebumblecee S: For years now, the rivalry between the Reyes and Strand families has run strong. Since they were young, Carlos and TK have been warned to stay away from the other family and never trust each other, but what happens when a job forces them together? Two contract killers in an enemy-to-lovers scenario? Absolutely loved the journey of this (and the hot smut scenes let's be honest)

The Knave of Hearts . . . brought back the tarts by @liminalmemories21 S: TK exhales and picks up his glass. “The mind boggles. What did Matt want?” “Wanted to ask if I’d heard any rumors about a new art thief nosing around town for targets.” This entire universe of art lover (and former art thief) TK and detective Carlos is so intricate and never forgets to highlight their love even in in well-constructed plot!

to build a home by @freneticfloetry

S: Twenty-five years of chasing hope and happiness and the place where he belongs. Or: Carlos begins, and ends, and begins again, until he gets it right. My heart? Gone. This fic took it and ran with it. Seriously, one of the best character deep-dives I've ever read.

Under A Star Spell by @orchidscript

S: In which Carlos practices folk magic and TK, needing to rekindle something, finds himself on his doorstep. In which two people cross-paths, hope for one thing, and find something else altogether thanks to coffee, vanilla, hyssop, and mint.

The descriptions of Carlos practicing magic is seriously making me weep with jealousy. And the growing love between them in this and the sequel is magic itself.

When I’m Like This by @cold-blooded-jelly-doughnut

S: TK Strand hasn’t known Carlos Reyes for very long. He’s slept with him, run out on his attempt at getting to know him better, and been processed by him after an arrest. Despite all of that, TK can’t get over Carlos. When TK gets bad news at an NA meeting, he quickly starts to spiral, and there’s only one person he feels safe enough to run to. The absolute tenderness of this and the rawness of emotions just rubs me open in the best way on each re-read.

Love From the Other Side by @lightningboltreader S: It's Exes to Lovers in One Bed! After two years apart, TK & Carlos find themselves face to face at a three-day training event for Texas first responders. Flirting leads to passion, then misunderstanding and ultimately the heart to heart they've each been craving. The exes in a single bed fic we all need in our life! This has so much tension and made me so emotional at the same time.

Sunshine On My Body, Rainbows Bloomin' In My Skies by @lemonlyman-dotcom S: After Carlos’s bold claim about hiking the Great Wall, TK reveals he’d been an avid hiker before moving to Austin. TK & Carlos go for their first hike together, and maybe learn some new things about each other along the way. Such a beautifully written, funny and heartfelt story that feels like you're overgrown with ivy and the feeeels. A Helping Hand by @rmd-writes

S: When TK’s bathroom sink is flooding and he needs help, pronto, he turns to Grindr to find someone close by. But what happens when the best one night stand of his life walks in the door? Or, the Grindr meet-cute AU

I can always count on Rae to give me grade-a smut with a heap of unbound joy and this is no exception. 29 going 30 by @alrightbuckaroo

S: During a trip to New York City to celebrate TK turning 30, TK and Carlos stumble upon a list of things TK always wanted to do before he turned 30, all of them being references to romantic comedies he loved so much growing up.

Just a biiiig old love letter to both TK and Carlos, to New York and to turning older and making your old wished come true. The night before Halloween by @ladytessa74 S: Carlos and TK have faced many fears in their lives. But has that prepared them for everything? As they get ready to celebrate Halloween with five year old Elijah, monsters lurk in the shadows. The only way to overcome fear is to face it. Tarlos as parents aren't always for me but Tessa has changed my mind! Plus, a little spooky and wonderuflly plotted halloween story never hurt anybody - or would it? come what may, I'll still stay by @strandnreyes

S: Nearly one year into their marriage and TK finds that life looks a little different these days with Carlos working as a detective. He knows change happens, but when the missed dinners start to pile up and the change begins to feel like too much change, TK struggles with how to remind Carlos that life exists beyond his badge.

One of my all time favorites by Jen which is saying a LOT with how many she has blessed us with.

The Firehouse by @paperstorm S: In 2002, TK and Carlos meet in a third grade classroom in Manhattan. 21 years later they meet again, at a nightclub in Austin called The Firehouse. Split between their friendship in childhood and the path that should set them up as enemies, this is such a beautiful story of kinship and eternal love to me. I just adore how Andie writes TK and Carlos - in love in any and all universes.

#tarlos #tarlos fic rec #tarlos fic rec list #911 lone star #911 lone star fic #michelle stans fics #hope it's okay I shortened some of the longer summaries!! #you are all so wonderful #ahh #and tumblr? your formating SUCKS SO BAD OMG

[lemonlyman-dotcom]

Five Under 500

Jumping on @strandnreyes & @liminalmemories21 open tags 💕

Rules: list five of your fics with less than 500 kudos

(Hi that is all of them 😂)

Make Me Laugh 'till I Die, I Stand Beside You With Pride - T | 2k

The first fic I ever wrote! 4x06 coda, TK confesses an insecurity to Carlos about his relationship with Owen. Carlos reflects on his own insecurities about his relationship with his father, and also how much he admires TK and the way he’s fought for his close relationship with Owen.

Sunshine On My Body, Rainbows Bloomin' In My Skies - T | 7.8k

Building upon the throwaway line from Carlos in 4x12, TK reveals he’d been an avid hiker before moving to Austin. Follow their journey as they prepare for their first hike, and then join them for their hike where they discover new wildlife and learn that they’re nowhere near being done learning new things about each other. TK reveals a bit more about how he got into hiking with adventure therapy in rehab, and how he used it as a way to heal himself and relationships he’d damaged due to his addiction.

Call Me If You Get Lost - T | 11k

My favorite fic I’ve written! This screwball comedy offers a twist on how Tarlos could have found out about Nancy and Mateo. Nancy tells TK she’s going alone on the anniversary weekend getaway that she’d booked with her ex and, naturally, TK gets worried and over-invested. He forces Carlos to go away with him to the fancy estate so they can keep an eye on Nancy. Hijinks ensue. Carlos’s detective skills are put to the test. A sexy time is had in the jacuzzi.

All Your Colors Make Me Feel Alive - T | 7k

I think this might actually be the best thing I’ve ever written. A look at the ways TK has brought color into Carlos’s life through music, specifically through the music of one artist (Beck). Carlos goes from hating it on the night of their first 126 hang as an official couple, to commiserating with it while missing TK during the breakup, to asking to borrow Gwyn’s favorite song to remember his own lost parent.

getting past the wounds of love - G | 4.6k

I love this one!! I feel like it’s my cult classic 😂 I put so much of my own personality in it and I was so delighted by the lovely response it got. Set midway through Season One, Paul, TK & Marjan go to an estate sale while exploring Austin and Paul finds a rare record he’s been hunting for. He hosts an impromptu listening party and invites Carlos, sending TK into a bit of a tailspin. It’s Carlos’s first-ever 126 hang and the gang’s all here! Featuring music nerd TK, snarky Paul, matchmaker Marjan and sweet-as-pie Carlos 🥰

Tagging @your-catfish-friend @thisbuildinghasfeelings @guardian-angle22 @alrightbuckaroo @carlos-in-glasses @iboatedhere @bonheur-cafe @chicgeekgirl89 @reyesstrand @ambiguouspenny @birdclowns @ladytessa74 @basilsunrise @thebumblecee @chaotictarlos @wandering-night19 @im-overstimulated-and-im-sad @rmd-writes @lightningboltreader @never-blooms @rosedavid @theghostofashton @freneticfloetry @welcometololaland @heartstringsduet @hoko-onchi-writes and OPEN TAG 🏷️

#tarlos fanfic #tarlos fic #tk strand x carlos reyes #tarlos #my fic #lemon writes

[reyesstrand]

thinking about how we’ve seen so much of tk and carlos’ journey through tk’s eyes, since the very beginning. thinking about tk as an oftentimes unreliable narrator. thinking about tk as someone who has these vicious thoughts about himself due to his trauma and his addiction and his recovery and the fact he’s just an emotional person, both in good and bad moments. thinking about how we’ve seen that this season alone with the needless dieting and last season with the negative self-talk. thinking about all he’s gone through—things that have made him stronger, but to him, they weigh him down. thinking about tk probably feeling his stomach drop as iris considers tk as being kinda like her—something supposedly “broken” in the eyes of the general public, something to be fixed, a bird with a broken wing. thinking about tk feeling like he’s been made, that she’s spotted this thing about him he’s always worried was so obvious: that he’s weak and that he’s just a mess waiting to be put back together by someone strong.

and then….and then there’s carlos, who’s been by tk’s side through everything, who’s been that stable support, who’s been vulnerable when he needed to be, who’s been there as tk bitched or been there to throw his shit right back at him if that’s what he needs. carlos who can actually see tk. and how the moment tk voices that concern—that he’s just a project for carlos, that he’s something to fix and move on, that there’s no way carlos can actually want to marry him—carlos immediately shuts him down and reassures him because through all of it, through the whole show, carlos has never seen tk as broken. he’s a hot mess, sure, but carlos loves him for those little sharp edges that make him who he is. for those moments that make him human. he isn’t there to put him back together, because he’s already whole; he’s strong; he’s the one who’s kept carlos stable. tk and all his mess and his emotions and his tendency to give into his fight or flight and his big heart and all those other things that make him difficult in the eyes of others makes him the man who led carlos into finding meaning in life again, ever since he saw him in the rain that first night. carlos would never want tk to change any of that. they make each other whole and that’s all that matters.

#feeling normal things <3 #tarlos #911ls #911 lone star #lone star spoilers

[messymindofmine]

I will never be over Ronen's performance on this episode. He does such an amazing job of portraying someone who is in active addiction, it's actually painful for me to watch at times. The way he's so angry at Gwyn for even saying he needs help and his constant insistence that he's fine even though he's clearly not....God I wish I didn't recognize that so well. And his desperation for some kind of high that he stole alcohol and then stuck his fingers into the toilet to retrieve the bottles. The anger and his constant nasty comments. This is actually something a lot of people misunderstand about addiction.

The state TK was in during that time was a constant state of psychological terror. That's what was causing the anger. The anger came from a visceral, painful type of fear that completely wrecks your sanity. And Ronen portrayed all of that so well. And of course the beauty of how Gwyn remained so patient and loving the whole time. I know that it's been a whole season and so much has happened since then but I will forever be in awe of how well done this episode was done by everyone involved. The TV Line award mention he got was definitely well deserved. Honestly, I would definitely be interested I'm delving a bit deeper into TK's background and seeing more of his journey with addiction. How and when did he get into drugs? Addiction doesn't come out of nowhere and it's usually the result of something much deeper. I'd like to see that explored a bit more. It's also implied that he has had more than one relapse prior to the series or at least that there were multiple attempts to get sober. What was his relationship with the 252 in NYC like? Did he have any real friends back in NYC or when he was younger? Did he have any romantic relationships prior to Alex? If so, what were they like bc Owen's negativity about TK's relationship with Alex indicates there was a deeper problem there. How and why did he get into his first coma before Texas?? I think the show would do it very well with exploring that and we all know Ronen would absolutely kill it

#911 on fox #911 lone star #lone star s3 #lone star ep: in case of an emergency #tk strand #owen strand #gwyn morgan #tarlos

[meditating-honey-badger]

Chapter: 14/15 | Chapter Word Count: 3,128 | Total Word Count: 20,354 | Rating: Explicit | Warnings/Tags: Rehab, Relapse, Referenced Suicide Attempt, Detox, Betrayal, things do get better, reunion sex

A year after TK & Carlos's wedding, TK's world fell apart when his father was killed during a fire call. TK relapsed, spiraling down into darker depths with his addiction than he'd ever been before. After trying and failing to convince TK he needed help, Carlos went to extreme measures to get TK into rehab.

This story begins on TK's first day in detox, and is initially told through letters that he writes to Carlos on his journey to get back home.

Inspired by the song "A Long Way to Get" by Bob Schneider

April 21, 2024 | April 29, 2024 | May 14, 2024 | May 24, 2024 | May 31, 2024 | June 14, 2024 | June 17, 2024 - Part I, TK | June 17, 2024 - Part II, Carlos | June 17, 2024 - Part III, TK | June 18, 2024 | June 19, 2024 | June 20, 2024 | June 24 - July 15, 2024

Long Way to Get

July 18, 2024

Please note that the rating has been updated from mature to explicit, and I have added some new tags. If you have any questions about the updated rating before reading, please send me a message.

TK paced in the front lobby, his packed bag sitting on the floor. He'd woken up way too early that morning, eager to get packed and be on his way. The problem was, he didn't have much to pack, so he'd had to sit in his room and be anxious before breakfast and his last session with Lindsey. She'd helped him feel a little calmer, but he still had a lot of pent-up nervous energy as he waited for Carlos.

His flight had already landed, but with the Los Angeles traffic, there was no telling when he would get there. TK fiddled with the ring on his left ring finger and tried to envision his life once he left rehab. They were going to New York because TK needed that intermission before jumping back into life on Austin, but he also worried that the lack of any structure would be bad for him. After the first day, he would have to decide on a schedule, something to keep him grounded throughout the day outside of the controlled environment of rehab.

He and Carlos had done a lot of work over Carlos’s visit, but TK was still worried that resentment would bubble up in Carlos once they got home and back to their old routines. He wondered if he’d made the right choice in having Carlos come with him to New York. Maybe it would have been better for TK to have that adjustment time by himself and then go back to Austin to join Carlos in their normal environment. Or maybe they both needed this reprieve together.

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#tarlos fic #tarlos #tk strand #carlos reyes #long way to get #addiction #recovery #therapy #911 lone star fic #911 lone star #mhb fic #songs about love

[actuallysara]

Ronen Rubinstein interviewed for Survived The Shows

To all the fans looking forward to watching the new season, how would you describe Season 4 of 911 Lone in just 3 words?

Ronen: I could give you one word, stressful. It is stressful this season, whether it’s. The weather phenomenons or personal storylines? There is some stressful things this season and especially with TK. You know, like from the moment we watch episode one, there is a very stressful situation that he has to go through with Carlos that has to do with their future wedding and Tim has not held back at all and we are starting from the very beginning and very stressful season for all the characters, not just TK.

What can you tease about TK’s and Carlos’s journey throughout Season 4?

Ronen: Roller coaster. A complete roller coaster. We’re going to have such amazing highs and such crazy lows and. You know, again, it just shows. How TK and Carlos can overcome anything and their love and their bond and their. You know, their ability to overcome obstacles is just. Truly amazing because. I think most couples would not have been able to survive what they’ve been able to survive and season four truly shows that and we we are going to deal with. Perhaps one of the most stressful situations of their relationship and we’re going to see that very soon in the beginning of the season, so. Yeah. But I think overall. They can overcome anything. And they’re they’re such a strong, beautiful couple. So I truly believe in them.

What’s the next challenge for TK in Season 4 of 911 Lone Star?

Ronen: There’s many things. There’s many things. I think one of the biggest ones is we immediately find out in episode one. You know, it’s the big secret that we keep teasing that Carlos has and. I think there’s another huge one in Episode 4, which I think is the episode I’m most proud of so far this season. And then, you know, there’s always challenges of being a a paramedic, there’s challenges every single day.

I think there’s challenges that we may not necessarily see on camera, but there’s always challenges of being an addict. I think that’s something we can’t forget that. TK is going through this journey and this battle every single day. Um, and you know, he’s constantly, I think in some sort of. Journey or challenge? Um, that’s just sort of. The cards that have been dealt to him and yeah, it it it makes sense why he is such a sort of resilient person.

#911 lone star #911 lone star cast #ronen rubinstein #ls interview #sposts #tarlos

[tarlossource]

What can you tease about TK’s and Carlos’s journey throughout Season 4?

Roller coaster. A complete roller coaster. We’re going to have such amazing highs and such crazy lows and. You know, again, it just shows. How TK and Carlos can overcome anything and their love and their bond and their. You know, their ability to overcome obstacles is just. Truly amazing because. I think most couples would not have been able to survive what they’ve been able to survive and season four truly shows that and we we are going to deal with. Perhaps one of the most stressful situations of their relationship and we’re going to see that very soon in the beginning of the season, so. Yeah. But I think overall. They can overcome anything. And they’re they’re such a strong, beautiful couple. So I truly believe in them.

What’s the next challenge for TK in Season 4 of 911 Lone Star?

There’s many things. There’s many things. I think one of the biggest ones is we immediately find out in episode one. You know, it’s the big secret that we keep teasing that Carlos has and. I think there’s another huge one in Episode 4, which I think is the episode I’m most proud of so far this season. And then, you know, there’s always challenges of being a a paramedic, there’s challenges every single day.

I think there’s challenges that we may not necessarily see on camera, but there’s always challenges of being an addict. I think that’s something we can’t forget that. TK is going through this journey and this battle every single day. Um, and you know, he’s constantly, I think in some sort of. Journey or challenge? Um, that’s just sort of. The cards that have been dealt to him and yeah, it it it makes sense why he is such a sort of resilient person.

#911 Lone Star #Press #tarlos #tk stand #carlos

[happilylovingchaos]

Not an essay-length post like the last couple of times, my late S1 rewatch thoughts from 1x09-1x10 are gonna be way more scattered. I’m sorry, three weeks of not posting rewatch thoughts have done this to me.

Judging from TK and Owen’s convo, this must be indicative of the “equals” dynamic they have going on when they’re off the job or don’t feel the authoritative need. And it says something about TK when even though he’s really going through a full-on PTS existential crisis he not only doesn’t blame a little boy for acting out of fear, he’s pretty chill about Zoe and keeping in contact with her even when god knows how many times he went through the emotionally mountainous peaks and valleys that made up his dad’s love life and 2 failed marriages. (Tbf, timing of meeting your parent’s love interest when you’re coming out of the wrong end of a medical emergency— that timing is awkward). Also I’m low key bitter that we didn’t get a scene of Carlos visiting conscious TK during the rest of the hospital stay or his at-home recuperation. That was quite a lot that happened offscreen. But, all the same, I’m glad TK decided to take a chance and renounce his semi-renouncement of his relationship with Carlos. It’s beautiful.

Having watched Overly Sarcastic Productions’ thoughts on gender-reveal parties (look up the name on YT, then for a video game livestream of Journey), that family is gonna have their hands full with their now 4 sons.

Also late shoutout to the 911 Lone Star Roundup podcast! I am a local Hawaiian so felt so seen when they brought up kalua pork in their 1x02 discussion (btw, kalua pork is very similar to Texan barbacoa but they wrap the seasoned pig/ fish/ chicken in leaves before cooking). Now veering back to 1x09… I feel like the father and son (“Keithan” has very similar hybrid vibes to “Renesmee”, huh) might view the word “spelunking” cold comfort after that experience in… the… the Birth Canal??? (HOW DID I NEVER REALIZE THE INNUENDO?! God, the comments section is bringing out a louder side in me)

The Blake family’s mystery arc, I thought, was pretty good. There could’ve been more to be shown, like most things on the show (like, did the sisters catch a ride to the hospital after Iris saved Michelle? Walk? Wait it out? There was a district-to-citywide electronic shutdown, that doesn’t bode well for unstable mental health) but otherwise? It was good for what we got to see, I think. Low key fight me. Iris bringing up Carlos keeping Michelle out of trouble? Admittedly it is a bit of a stretch to say that it was foreshadowed for season 4, but it was nice to hear him in her thoughts. And the parallels with TK’s past with addiction were subtle, but there in a few more ways than with Owen and Michelle’s talk.

Thinking on the astronaut call, there’s one more late 911 Lone Star Roundup shoutout I wanna make, plus one more retrospective parallel. If the 126 had had TK on the call, or… if TK had heard that call? Yeah. That would hurt him hard. And with what happens to him and his mom two seasons later (in flashbacks to 2017, but still)? … a moment of silence. And I JUST came up with it off the top of my head today.

As for my timeline measurements, I admit defeat now.

But I will pick it back up and try assembling everything again. Not yet, but soon. Just… look. I get that suspension of disbelief in narrative timelines exists for a reason, but please. Some help from a stable continuity would be more than welcomed. I’m not-so-surreptitiously peering at @thisbuildingwithfeelings.

#911 lone star #911 lone star rewatch 2024 #911 ls discourse

[carlos-in-glasses]

It must have been really hard for Gwyn to manage a successful law career and raise a child at the same time. Especially after the divorce. I do think it's possible that she wasn't as attentive as she could've been but it also doesn't seem like she was neglectful either. And it would've been hell for her (and Owen) to watch TK go through addiction and we know it's been mentioned that he's had multiple relapses even before the series which means that Gwyn and Owen would have had to watch that happen. Whatever her flaws, you can really feel the love her and TK had and the love that TK still has for her

I completely agree with you. If you are a parent with a job, I don't know how you do it - you just have to do it, somehow. Jobs are demanding enough even if you have no children. I imagine also that you learn the ropes about the 'right level' of attentiveness as you go through life with your kids, and that will change as the kids grow up. TK's needs might have been met more so in his earlier childhood than in his teens, perhaps (again: headcanon for me). At the same time, we know his parents couldn't tear the closet door off fast enough (love that image from Carlos!) so he always would have felt like he could turn to them about important things in his life - and that tells us something significant about their dynamic.

We know that a lot went down with TK prior to the show's beginning. Although we didn't see it, it's crucial to remember. Trying to be there for loved ones in the throes of addiction can drive you to the brink. Mistakes can happen while making decisions in high-pressure, emotional situations. But I do believe Gwyn and Owen would have always tried to do the right thing when push came to shove. (Again - flying TK all the way to Cali and then making him take the rest of the journey alone). As I said in response to the last ask, TK and his parents as a unit are all in a much better place now, and if Gwyn seems very career-minded, it's because she wants to be - and she actually can be. Maybe she was actually neglecting her work for a long time because of TK, and she was trying to put her own life back on track because she could see her adult son was doing well.

The thing about mums is: they are people (source: my own mother).

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[noxsoulmate]

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Ship: Tarlos | Fandom: 911 Lone Star | Author: noxsoulmate | Read on ao3

Word Count: 11755 | Rating: General Audience | Warnings/Tags: Christmas, Hanukkah, Christmas fluff, Hanukkah fluff, decorations, baking, fluff, domestic fluff, married couple, married life, hurt TK, Carlos takes care of TK, Jewish TK, family feels, family fluff, Andrea is the best, soft Carlos/TK, mention of addiction, cuddling & snuggling | Art made by: @chaotictarlos 💕 | written for @whenshereads ❄️

Summary:

After yet another stay at the hospital, the thing TK is most upset about is missing out on all he and Carlos had planned for their first Christmas-Hanukkah season as a married couple. He should’ve known better than to think his husband wasn’t prepared…

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This story was written for

@tarlos-santa, written for @whenshereads and the prompts:

Recovery fic with TK recovering and Carlos supporting (in hospital, follow-up therapy/appts) from one of his NDEs or a new one & First Hanukkah/Christmas together in the loft—Carlos reflecting on their journey and where they are headed

@tarlosmonthlyprompts December #2: “Is there a reason it looks like a Hanukkah and Christmas store throw-up in our loft?”

@tarlosweeklyprompts 12 Days of Tarlos: Decorating the Christmas Tree I Baking Holiday Cookies Together I Blending Traditions I First Holiday where they’re married

@mfbingo Christmas Edition Square 4: “You know the rules.”

@911bingo Square I1: Flood

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[reyescarlos]

haven’t done one of these in quite a while as i’m fighting through writer’s block. but here’s a snippet of a 3x08-present coda fic i’ve been trying to get done. heavily tk centric. 

*tw for reference to addiction/drugs and alcohol use*

Day One 2017

Three thousand miles from home may as well be a world or an entire galaxy away. TK certainly feels like a stranger in unknown terrain, crash landed here in California looking out the window towards a completely different ocean than the one he’s known all his life.

Nothing feels right. Even his own body feels unfamiliar to him.

TK flexes his hands as he sits in the intake room, his eyes darting around the walls. There are wellness posters tacked all over and generic watercolor paintings. He supposes the effect they’re going for is calm, but it only serves to set TK on edge.

All the confidence he felt earlier as he stepped away from his mother at the airport’s sliding doors has seemingly evaporated into thin air, leaving him with empty hands that have nothing to hold on to. He chews at his bottom lip, certain he’ll bite the delicate skin raw by the time this process is over. But it’s the least of his concerns right now.

He’s meant to embark on this road to recovery, the specialist across from him assuring TK that he’s doing the right thing by taking this first step. For the first time since he’s sat down, he looks at her fully, his mother’s words echoing in the back of his head.

The next steps you take are yours.

But TK fears the path he’ll wander down without his mother’s guidance or her physical presence. He’s lost his way before. His mother’s faith in him, while generous, may prove to be ill-advised now. And the knowledge of that makes him every bit as sick as the drugs and alcohol working their way out of his system. He doesn’t want her sacrifice to be in vain, but as he thinks of the daunting journey ahead, it gets hard to muster up self-trust. He isn’t nearly as forgiving with himself as his mother seems to be with him.

He curls in on himself, making himself small in his seat. He counts the specks in the tiles of each square on the floor until his vision blurs and it all begins to look like static before his eyes.

That’s all any of this is anyway. White noise.

As the woman speaks to him, giving a well-worn speech she must have spoken a thousand times over, TK can’t process much of what she’s saying.

He catches a few words though, all expected terms. Detox. Assessment. Specialists.

It’s all the things he’s been afraid of now coming into fruition. He’ll be poked and prodded. Questioned. Monitored. He hasn’t even been here a full day yet and already he feels like a lab rat rather than a person. He knows everything he says and does over the next thirty days will be looked at closely. The thought alone makes his skin itch.

He pulls down the sleeves of his flannel shirt, letting the cuffs partially cover his blue stained fingers, a reminder of the depths he’s recently sunk to. He wishes it could be enough to hide his entire body, to cloak him from the prying eyes he’ll be subjected to over the course of the next month.

He longs for his mother. For New York. For a time in his life when the future seemed boundless. Somewhere along the way, he let his wings get clipped. It troubles him to think he’ll never reach the heights that were once promised.

“TK, are you ready?” the woman asks.

As ready as I’ll ever be, he thinks but doesn’t say. TK merely nods and stands up on shaky legs.

The next steps you take are yours, he hears once again, the refrain like a mantra.

He moves forward, one foot before the other, praying that this time, he’s walking into a better future.

#911 lone star #911 ls fic #tk strand #ronen rubinstein #userthai #tuserpaige #tusersonia #useralie #userbones #actuallysara #usernicholas #useream #jazzyjess #wip wednesday #kimmy writes

[sapphire11]

Carry On by Young Rising Sons Always makes me emo with all of my favorite ships. Can I request that song with Tarlos? 👀💛

Hi friend!!! TYSM for this ask! I am pretty sure you saw both the edits I made already, but just in case you missed them. This song inspired me so much two edits came from it!

I hope you like them!!

Carry On by Young Rising Sons - All about Tarlos

TK’s Canon Addiction Journey and Supportive Carlos

#TYSM #tarlos #gif requests #this song is so good #so many feels

[lemonlyman-dotcom]

#I think the kids plotline from 4x12 will feed into the Gabriel storyline from the s4 finale#and as Carlos processes his father’s death and learns more about his father as a person and as a dad#he will want to be a dad#to continue the legacy and maybe try to do it a little differently#and it will be a beautiful full circle story

This is exactly what I think is going to happen as long as the show goes on long enough! It makes a lot of sense because the only specific reason Carlos gave for not feeling ready to be a father (other than his deflection-motivated reason of wanting to travel 😂) was his own relationship with his father. I desperately want to see Carlos reach a place of peace and acceptance and understanding when it comes to Gabriel and their relationship. In my opinion, this would all feed perfectly into a storyline of Carlos reaching a point where he would feel ready and want to be a father himself!

I personally would really like to see them as parents, though it's not absolutely essential as long as they're happy. If (god forbid) season 5 is the last season, my guess is they probably won't have time to get into it...and I really wouldn't want them to rush it. But if we get a great Carlos solving his father's murder storyline in season 5 and then renewed for a season 6, I think a journey of fully processing his father's death and reaching a place where he feels ready to be a father could make for an excellent season 6 Carlos storyline!

Absolutely agree with you here, Anne!

It is the natural progression of the storyline the writers set up from the introduction of Gabriel. The kids argument in 4x12 at first seemed like it was just to add more conflict to the Tarlos relationship before the wedding, but really it was to add another layer to Carlos’s complicated relationship with his father. The reason he gives for not knowing if he wants to be a father is that his relationship with his own father is so precarious, and he doesn’t think he could measure up to the kind of father TK would be.

Next they gave us Carlos learning all that new information about Gabriel in 4x17, learning that maybe he’s made some assumptions and doesn’t know or understand his dad nearly as well as he thought.

Then we have Gabriel being murdered. That will shake you and change your world view no matter what, but adding onto that he’s going to be investigating and learning even more about Gabriel and who he was as a man and his motivations and how that all fed into who he was as a father. I can see Carlos realizing he wants to be a father because he wants to continue his own father’s legacy and he sees it as a way to be close to him, maybe in a way he wasn’t able to in life.

There is just so much storytelling in that plot. I’m very excited to see how they explore it! Plus TK’s addiction and how that will affect any potential adoption etc. It’s such a meaty storyline!

I think if we get kids it’ll happen in season 6.

#ask #911 lone star

[paperstorm]

You are so right, thank you for sharing this with us ♥️.

You probably know that already, but Tim Minear also shared that he drew from his own experience in order to portray TK's addiction. It's all so very important.

I actually did not know that about Tim but that’s so amazing, I’m so happy he did. I’m sure TK’s journey of finding happiness when he thought he didn’t deserve it and doing the work on himself that he needed for healing has helped so many people feel less alone 💛💛

#anon asks #911 lone star #Tarlos #tw: mental health