#tomorrow I'm going to see her live

[tenaciouszombiewombat]

#tomorrow I'm going to see her live #did this for a friend and just now got around to listening to the album #this song is so good! #better late then never i guess #hayley kiyoko #sugar at the bottom #panorama #Spotify

[salvadorbonaparte]

I don't know why but when I'm home long enough I'll just turn into a teenager again. Fighting over stupid things. Crawling into my room afterwards

#My mum got this rule about not going to bed angry #Because what if something happens (tm) #And she usually comes into my room after a fight to talk it out #Which is tacky but works #And yeah that's some teenage shit but like I'm living with her like I'm a teen rn #And she didn't do that today? #She just went to bed? #And I won't see her tomorrow until the evening #So now I'm like oh great I'm going to be paranoid about something bad happening all day because that's what she always talked about #And all of this because of the dishes??? #What am I? 12? #And I was just like annoyed #Because it's an annoying situation #Have you ever washed dishes in the bathtub? It sucks #And my mum always expects me to jump immediately and it was 8pm so of course I was annoyed #And she's suddenly like if you don't stop it I'll throw it all out of the window #While holding my favourite cup #And obviously she didn't but I was shocked she'd shout that just over dishes? #Anyway I really really need to know what's happening with my future because I am going mad

[unforth]

I'm an OTW member again!

THANK YOU @petralemaitre !

If y'all want to get a membership scholarship before June 30th so you can register and be able to vote in the next OTW election, get all the deets here:

(the post is worth reading even if you don't want the scholarship; it's about End OTW Racism and it's such an accurate write-up of my own thoughts on why I'm involved too, I was like, "wow sharing a brain with a total stranger is so heckin' weird")

Very much lookin' forward to exercising my right to vote! Let's dooooo this!

#unforth rambles #i haven't been a member in a few years cause money's been to tight #and i'd been thinking about trying to scrounge up the money this time because it feels really important #so i was so so so thrilled to see this offer going around and I jumped right on it #it's also aptly timed cause i have to vote in my local election today or tomorrow too #time to uselessly vote against our mayor again lmao #to be fair i don't mind our mayor he's a democrat and he usually runs unopposed in the general election #i've met him a few times and he officiated our wedding he's an okay dude #but he's an old conventional white dude and every primary he gets challenged by someone and it's different people each time #but they're always black women who are much more liberal #one guess who i vote for #the black women keep getting closer to winning so maybe one of these years??? #two of the past elections the black woman in question was actually our neighbor down the street so that was a plus #i'm less familiar with this year's person but I'll still vote for her she's the current city council president i think #also i'm lmao this makes where we live sound sooooo small #it's not there are like 65000 people here it's just a coincidence

[there-will-be-a-way]

Bye bye hospital bed, hello eight pillows

#personal posts #straight back to the living group #no more psych ward blogging #two of my roommates helped me move #and shared the food they cooked with me #a third roommate gave me chocolate as a welcome present #one of the other patients cried whenI left #and I'm gonna meet with my psych ward crew tomorrow (because imma do alcohol tests at the clinic saturday and sunday #to make sure I stay sober) #it truly is bewildering how social I have become #like during the last couple of days I spent lots of time with said other patient and she said to me 'you're such a good person #whever we go we meet people who are happy to see you' #and it made me realize it's true lmao #another patient gave me a present for listening to her problems and giving her space to cry #wild #anyway #freeeeeeeeeedom #now I've gotta manage to stay sober until I go to the rehab clinic #addiction tag

[burnhamandtilly]

the way trying to get tickets for the eras tour is pretty much becoming a nightmare.. all this mess it's taking away all the fun it was supposed to be. the tickets are being bought in mass by people who only care about profit and today some of them announced floor tickets for R$12,000 in a resale website (that's TWELVE TIMES the original price).. who the fuck can afford this shit? plus fans are literally being THREATENED on the queue for the physical sales tomorrow. ppl called the police, who did nothing and went away after a few minutes. when will this nightmare end!!!

#at this point I'm pretty sure i won't get tickets because i simply can't afford this shit #like.. the original prices are very much affordable but they won't be if the tickets that should be going to fans #are falling on the hands of these people who don't give a shit about us only how much money they will make #I'm so furious right now #general sales tomorrow is gonna be a nightmare #😭 #i wanted to see her live so bad but at this point i lost all my hope

[doyeons]

going back to my apartment tmrw. everything just feels kind of incorrect rn i cant describe it

#bella.txt #like ok my parents moved to be 3 hrs away from where they used to live #but my friends + my grandma r still where my parents used to live #so i have to choose btwn being w/ parents and my dogs or being w/ friends and grandma #and it's not like. a SHORT drive at all. 3 hrs on a good day w/ minimal traffic #+ it takes 7hrs to get from my parents to my apartment but only 4ish from my grandmas to my apartment #so i wanted to be.. over here.. before heading back to school #but idk things worked out so weirdly i only saw my one friend once and i missed her bday and i didnt see my other friend at all and i left #y parents and dogs earlier than i wanted and for no reason bc i didnt even go see anyone i just went to my grandma's immediately like #idk this probably sounds like it's not a big deal but i feel so weird i feel like i didnt plan right how to split my time #and now i'm leaving and idk when i'll be back #and i dont have to go tomorrow but i also. do? kind of? i dont know #kill my entire brain why cant i just think normally abt these things

[coquelicoq]

yessssss we have arrived at the night before the count's duel with albert! mercédès is here! she's calling him edmond! she's begging him to spare her son's life!! she's saying shit like "avenge yourself, edmond! but avenge yourself on the guilty; avenge yourself on fernand, avenge yourself on me, but don't avenge yourself on my son!" and he's roaring in despair and seizing handfuls of his hair and AGREEING TO IT even though it means HE will have to die instead (because albert threw a glove in his face in full view of everyone at the opera a couple hours ago and men are such babies about that) and he will be dying without having achieved his vengeance, which in his mind is akin to god making all of creation and then on the seventh day "extinguishing the sun and pushing the world back into eternal night" (this is literally how he talks btw) and she's thanking him and telling him she still loves him and two little tears are coming to his eyes (but they disappear because, and i quote, "no doubt god had sent an angel to collect them") and then she's leaving and he's sitting there head in hands ("as if his brow alone could no longer support the weight of his thoughts") saying to himself "i was mad not to tear out my heart the day i swore revenge"! YES! YES! YESSSSSSSSS!!!!

#THIS IS THE SHIT WE HAVE COME TO SEE!!! #when she called him edmond i would have gasped but i was reading aloud so instead i just made the count's response very emotional #which it was supposed to be anyway so that worked out #because i'm reading this one chapter per day i knew yesterday that this was gonna happen today #and all day yesterday i was imagining how the conversation would go #i've read it before so i do remember the result of the conversation but i didn't remember the details #and like. it's SO good. it completely lived up to my expectations #he tells her fernand put him in jail! she tells him she's been dreaming EVERY NIGHT for the last TEN YEARS that he escaped from prison #by disguising himself as a dead body (which is actually what happened!!) but then was killed when the jailers threw the body #into the ocean!!!! #he's saying you want your son to live? okay. he'll live. and she's saying yes yes there's the edmond i love!! #and he's saying well you won't have much longer to love him because tomorrow morning HE'LL BE DEAD!! #because your son insulted me publicly and the thing i love most in the world after you (!!!!) is my dignity #so if i can't kill him then the only other option is to DIE BY HIS HAND #because that was the most dramatic possible way he could have relayed that information. fucking superb you funky little drama queen #the count of monte cristo #my posts

[liebelesbe]

hmmmmmmm

#been feeling pretty childish recently bc my anxiety makes it so I can't do.. casual grown up things very well? #phone calls. making doctor appointments. sending emails. etc etc. #and like I'm not doing anything. I know I'm starting a job in September but like. #who knows how long that'll last before I inevitably hate it & stop doing it & have to find something else #ANYWAYS. what I wanted to say is. #my. I want to say friend but I haven't talked to her in over 2 years so. person who used to be my friend I guess? #is a musician/singer and she's going on tour & it's sold out & she'll be on tv tomorrow on a pretty well known show and I just #I KNOW i shouldn't compare myself to others my age (and younger. she's 1 year younger than me) but still it's like. #I used to want to be a musician & I only stopped wanting that bc my anxiety got worse and seeing someone #I used to be close to living that dream is like.... ouch oof. hurts. #also the fact that we stopped talking which also was my anxiety I guess #can I beat my anxiety up?? therapy & working on it fucking sucks I want to beat it up. stab it maybe. #doddie redet

[teacupchimera]

I...sad

#tea's boring life #my mom's on vacation with her sister and I really miss her #I haven't really gotten to talk to her much and I'm having a really hard time #I live with her so I'm used to seeing her every day so it's just been weird not having her around #I'm realizing that apparently I need some amount of People Time per day or else I start to lose my marbles a little bit #idk if it's just partly because it's a disruption to my routine or if it's partly because I'm on my period or what #but I feel miserable and lonely and sad and just Very Not Good #she's not back til friday and I don't really know what to do with myself until then #this is probably kind of pathetic but I just feel really shitty idk #I called her just now and only got to talk to her for like 3 minutes cause she's about to go on some tour #and she said she might not be able to talk to me until tomorrow and I just #I'm not okay #and I feel stupid for not being okay #fuck

[pinktinselmonstrosity]

do you guys think it's unreasonable to want people to make an effort to be around you

#like. i know there's all this talk abt how everyone has their own lives going on and nobody can read your mind #but when you're *always* the one to reach out first it does start to feel like they really just don't want to see you #idk #i just think that people will make the effort if they want to #and when they consistently don't make the effort it starts to feel like they don't want to #rather than that they're just busy #sorry sorryyyy for the depression but like #i'm leaving tomorrow forever and i haven't seen my roommate in like four days #i've been there for her through some pretty dark shit over the past three years #and i'm fairly sure she's not even going to say goodbye to me #and yeah i could text her like ''hey i'm leaving soon do you want to do something'' but like. #she knows i'm leaving and she's still not here #and it kinda seems like that's a choice #she obviously has better things to do #i'll shut up now #🧃

[isfjmel-phleg]

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#random personal stuff #whining ahead feel free to ignore #I should not feel this bummed out about my friend moving out of the office upstairs in the library and into another building #it's not like I'm never going to see her again #it's a short walk to the other building #she lives just a few blocks from me #I see her every Thursday night #she's not really leaving #but walking her and a few of her belongings over the new windowless office in a basement #and then having to turn around and walk back without her #it kicked off a disproportionate level of response? #meanwhile I should be excited about going home tomorrow but currently feel absolutely nothing about it #anyway emotions are dumb -85000/10 do not recommend

[otterandterrier]

send me strength to be around family tomorro

#i'm seeing my extended fam on my mom's side #and honestly after last time i just don't wanna #if my sister could confirm she's not going then i could also skip it #because then if she goes it'd feel odd that i'm not going #even tho it shouldn't bc i'm an adult woman living on her own #but she'll probably screw me over tomorrow by not going 🙄 #if i have to sit through another fucking convo about queer people i won't be responsible for what i say #personal

[shiningstages]

Me lookin' at my lil content: d'aaaaaaaw it's so cute~

I wanted to do stuff before work, but I like blanked out since I'm sleepy (went to bed around 1? 2?? then woke up at 7:11; not terrible but not like Great) then did my required stretchies / looked up stuff for things~ Tomorrow I have my last PT session and follow-up, and then I plan on cleaning my room / generally just chilling out since it has been Forever, but now...I will try and schedule in time for OC thoughts today and tomorrow (still have to decide if Atlas would be primal or astral...and maybe compare some story stuff to make sure it's not stepping on any Canon toes...but maybe we also don't care about that second bit ghffjghfgvcccgkhf).

#;big bubble blowing baby! ( ooc ) #( i think...i'm gonna try and schedule my hair cut too. either saturday or next thursday #i love my long flowy hair but i've getting that feeling of just...can't take it anymore ghfjcghfcgkhgcjgv #BUT it's also supposed to get colder so i may wimp out because this hair Protects Me #i also have to talk with my workman's comp doc about specific restriction papers my store director gave me tomorrow (fear) #i don't really like feeling less useful at work; but i also have just accepted that i need to take care of myself #i'm hoping nothing Too Big happens with that because i still wanna bank a lot of money before going back to school #but also a tiny bit less hours a week (since i work around 37-39 rn) would be nice...maybe even an extra day off...more me time #in other news i've also had many vtuber thoughts GFDHGFHGFHJFGHF #the only important one is...accepting that i should just kind of Do It. instead of actively thinking of where i wanna be; if that makes #any sense #and wars gave me Big Incentive to clean my room in like a non-vtuber way; but also just like...the motivation!!! the hype!!! #i have a lot of steps in my mind to do my creative stuff; but my room Must be clean #not that all my stuff isn't on my dad's very nice desk but...i don't want any potential pc i buy to be there #it would be so much better environment-wise (aka not being in my kitchen where my dad always is and near the living room #where my bro always streams) plus it's a two-way street of i don't want to disturb them either #i thought about cleaning my mom's office but she literally told me no because she wants to clean it all herself #which her being like “i have to be the one to go through everything when cleaning” is just...i see where i get my attitude #BUT ANYWAYS #i need to get ready for work gfhgjfjgfhgkjgfcghfg being the closer so much is so tiring;; #hopefully tonight is good and i don't have to have Drama and anyone who freaks out )

[doli-nemae]

Wanted to draw my Sith Inquisitor but I'mm too broken to draw something normal so I drew myself.

I'm so fucking tired. I just want to go back home.

#I'm literally on edge #I can't say everything but I guess we once again are on edge of veing thrown away from stepfather's house #and like yeah I'm already used to moving from place to place #and I have to be strong bc I'm the older sis and mother need support more than ever #and I will be tomorrow #but for now I just want to be a bit a broken kid who just wanted to live in her home in her country and speak her language #one way or another I guess we're returning to Ukraine #that's like um #one of the only options #and since in Lviv it will be a fecking hell for our moral and I'll be unable to work I guess we're going back to Kyiv #at least I'll see home again (even if day after that we'll be dead from bomb)))) #Other Stuff dolinemae

[machidielontheway]

not enthused by my 8 hours train ride (in three parts including subway ride to change trains) tomorrow and the five subsequent day at my mom’s where they’ll be only us

#3615 my life #i am doing this for her and i will practice lacher prise and be the bigger person #now that i'm older i wish she lived closer #yes i'd have to see her more often but also less at a time #i can do one afternoon each two months or something #but five days straight........ #i complain a lot #i wonder how i would feel if i wouldn't need to go because SHE wouldn't feel the need for me to come #a whole different life i guess #i will do positive thoughts aloud tomorrow morning. #now i will keep drowning in hikaru no go #also la sncf peut agoniser in a ditch #stop fucking discontinuing direct train lines #3 hours out of those 8 are WAITING

[derelictdumbass]

I am going to see mother mother in like 3 hrs :O

#my friend surprise invited me and. now I am going asjsjshsj #I HAVE CLASSES TOMORROW AND I'LL BE SHOWING UP IN THE SAME OUTFIT BUT WHO CAREEEEES #MOTHER MOTHERRRRRRR #we're watching the new tlou ep rn and chilling before we head off #i'm pretty excited i've never gone to see a band live or anything :O #and she's letting me crash at her place after bc I won't be able to get home lmao #nadine is typing...