#trying not to worry about money too much

[teddylupin]

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#* #begging to take up space and to be less aware of my body #feeling so ugly and uninvolved and so fucking little #feeling like no one knows me and no one cares to and trying to be ok #trying to figure out how not to feel lonely around friends #trying not to let the bullying get to me #knowing its all in good fun #trying to have a thicker skin #trying not to worry about money too much #trying not to think abt how much i give to others and for what #trying not to let anything get to me #tried really hard not to leave early and did anyway bc i felt lonely

[radiance1]

Random ass au where a certain someone is a magical girl.

Not who you'd think.

So, as Vlad was straight up dying on his hospital bed cursing Jack and his life choices to hell and back, a magical little creature just pops by his bedside and asks "Yo you wanna be a magical girl?"

Vlad, who was entirely sure he was hallucinating went fuck it and said yes.

A while later Vlad finds himself fighting against magical beings he was sure as well didn't exist before this. Well, he knew ghosts existed but not any other magical/mystical being.

It all just seemed a bunch of honeybunch to him.

All of this in a cutesy dress he was sure he never would have worn -or afforded actually- before that fateful day that he can surprisingly pull off really, very well.

He's so busy enjoying his newfound freedom and fighting against magical creatures for so long that he just genuinely forgets that the Fenton family existed. At least, until he was invited over to Amity Park via letter and decides to meet his old friends in the flesh.

Surely, him being out of the game for a few days wouldn't lead to anything bad, right?

He meets Jack and Maddie, then their children who he was sure they didn't have any of. He's a bit off put by Jasmine, because he doesn't have any unresolved trauma thank you. Then he's a bit suspicious of Daniel because the boy is quite literally on the verge of pinging his magical senses but also far away from doing so.

Not to mention the mention the entire surge of energy coming from their basement.

But this is a vacation and so if nothing is wrong, then he doesn't have to deal with it. He's just here to relax, maybe do a bit of sightseeing, try not to murder Jack Fenton and maybe investigate what's up with Daniel.

Unfortunately, he wasn't that lucky.

Two things happen at the same time. One, a ghost attack and two, a monster attack. Vlad is just, incredulous at this because it was fine for all of the two days here, of course he does the whole transformation thing and does his job.

Then he finds out why Daniel was so close yet so far from pinging his senses. Because the boy is literally like him except for the fact that he transforms into a ghost instead of a magical girl and, conveniently, Daniel also finds out his secret.

It was going so well too.

#danny phantom #danny fenton #vlad plasmius #Magical girl Vlad #Except he's just a grown man in a magical girl outfit with all of said magical girl abilities #Anyways #Is Vlad rich here? #Ehhhhh #Not so much #He's literally you average joe #Well except he doesn't really worry about money but I wouldn't call him rich #All of that pent up aggression towards Jack was aimed entirely at monster attacks so he doesn't try to kill Jack when he meets him #Why get therapy when you can fight magical monsters instead #Poor Vlad #He just wanted a vacation #Now he knows a very important secret and Danny knows his secret too

[nimue-hidden-lake]

I... I caved. I actually caved... In my defense, both Puyo Puyo Tetris games were on sale.

Also I can finally play Battle Network for myself. Wanted to for a while!

#Nimue's Whispers #It was all on sale luckily so I didn't waste too much money. #Looking forward to it Battle Network (dunno when but I will try to get around it soon)! #But I doubt my Tetris and Puyo Puyo abilities what dm I even doing!? #Hah... I'm already in too deep... The things I do for Schezo the loser dark mage bf... #video games #gaming #puyo puyo #puyo puyo tetris #mega man battle network #rockman.exe #(Also do not worry about my background It's a joke)

[kaizokuseb]

dear tumblr,

how do you wash a big teddy bear? for a small one, i would be willing to put it in the washer and then dry it once or more, but this thing is huge, too big for my washer. i keep it on my bed, and i’ve never washed it before, but i spilled beer on one of the paws. i’m hoping that’s good because it’s not on the main body, but it’s also not shallow enough to spot clean.

i truly have no idea how to handle this, and i’m going to be really sad if i have to get rid of teddy because of mold or some shit. should i take him to a laundromat? a dry cleaner?

#stuffed animals #teddy bears #stuffies #doll hospital #teddy bear restoration #stuffy repair #teddy bear repair #idk man i’m trying any tag i can think of #i never worried about this with my old stuffies because i was just a kid and not spilling beer on my bed #i am way less worried about my mattress than this fucking bear lmao #i’m also definitely not wealthy so i’m willing to pay some money for this guy but not too much

[nerdie-faerie]

Having a big family is too expensive. Where am I supposed to find the money for my brother's 20th, my cousin's 21st and graduation, my twin cousins turning 23, my other cousin turning 26 and having a baby all this month!! 😭

#Demon Spawn #+Extra #theres too much going on! and my mum doesnt tell me everything at once so i think i only have one purchase to worry about #and then she hits me with another one!! did you remember this? did you remember that? no i was still dealing with the last one #im sorry but siblings are prioritised then i gotta sort out my own sht if i can then afford all these other peoples things #when i dont even speak to them! then sure maybe ill get around to it but theyve all got more extravagant preferences which i cant afford 😅 #most of them still live at home and dont pay rent let alone tuition i cant afford their expectations and having 4 cousin birthdays #in a month is ridiculous have you seen the price of postage? and you wanna add in graduations and a baby into it??? #i probably sound like im btching about nothing to people who have a good relationship with their cousins but i never see them and even #when i do we dont talk its super awkward and we have nothing in common yet i gotta go spend money i dont have all at once on them #and i cant even say sht cus my mum arranged a 21st for me that i didnt want so they did end up getting me stuff #god i sound like such btch i just dont know these people and its stressful trying to get presents as is but so many occasions at once when #i have no clue is stressing me out right now its not that i dont want to celebrate its the sudden expenditure and the fact its not spread #out and that theres so many cus i already got 8 siblings and my mum is one of 5 and my cousins are getting older so theyre going through #milestones that require gifts too at the same time as their birthday

[ajarofpickledtears]

it's so difficult to get stuff done when i still am daily having to actively resist the urge to sleep all day

#cylas vents #like how am i supposed to get up and go to anywhere regularly if most of the time i dont even want to be awake lmao #maybe i am just not trying hard enough. maybe i am lazy and using depression as an excuse. #even my psychiatrist said that at this point since none of the meds really worked and therapy didnt change much and if i dont want to #day-care hospital / outpatient clinic he doesn't know what else to do either #but in any type of clinic situation i wouldnt be earning money #and outpatient i worry that if i have an one hour journey and possibly get up at 6 or 7 am i just won't do it lol #plus even a friend said that as soon as ot was over she kinda fell back into old habits #but cant do anything drastic either bc too many ppl care about me :)) #especially ones with mental illnesses who could be negatively affectrd #but i am so tired and everything seems hopeless

[raksh-writes]

Gosh, Im itching so bad to buy the new Return to Moria game and get to play it myself. I’ve been watching in on a couple of streams, so I know it fairly well by now, and I also know that it'd be more fun wirh friends when Im definitely gonna be playing solo, but Im still So tempted. It just looks like a fun, chill survival game and it's connected to LotR and Im just skrmcljwndoenr. But I shouldn’t be spending more of my savings that necessery when Im not working and dunno when I'll be able to. Aghhhhh...

#personal #I could... maybe... consider this a christmas present to myself? #especially since Im gonna be all alone for new years eve #so maybe I could spend it having some fun in the game... #and I do have enough savings to last me for at least a few months if I spend it moderately #just for train tickets and some food here and there as Ive been doing so far #Im living with my parents so at least the living costs I dont have to worry about #and then in the spring/summer it should be easier to find a part time job that Id be able to fit around my classes #tho I'll have to get an intership in the summer too #and thats not paid work for uni #but anyway #I try not to worry about that too much #it is why I saved up all that money #so I could focus only on uni at first #and then try to find something part time #so I dont get overwhelmed too quickly #but this game is not cheap and Im hhhhhhghhgh #I'll prob play it halfway and never finish #but on the other hand... that still might be some up to 30h of fun and spending time Not thinking of the everyday dread etc #soooo... I dunno #but I might just break and buy the game anyway... #I rarely Actually want something enough to go through with buying it #even when I maybe should (like some more clothes) #(but I Hate clothes shopping so I avoid it at all costs 🙈)

[savethepinecones]

so so sick of being yelled at for being depressed

#my sister offered to let me move in with her and her spouse and my mom insisted i stay here til the end of the year #because shes worried about my mental health #but she keeps freaking out whenever i have Symptoms #like yeah i dont have any energy so sometimes it takes an extra day or two to get chores done #ive made it clear that im trying my best but it never meets her standards so it doesnt matter #and she wont even fucking let me leave #i told her months ago i wouldnt be able to contribute to groceries much longer because i havent worked in six months and have no money #and she was super understanding at the time but as soon as i make any food requests when someone goes shopping she gets pissed at me #says im asking for too much when im keeping it to the bare minimum #and when my sister heard about this she offered to send me some grocery money and my mom got pissed about that too #i woke up to a huge paragraph of text lecturing me and she called it a 'roommate intervention' like she hasnt been very clear that #she doesnt consider us roommates #and she refuses to actually talk about it she just sends me messages freaking out about how im not good enough #and then she says if i respond shell freak out so shes refusing to have an actual discussion #like if shes so fucking sick of me being here she should just let me move jfc #i havent been able to eat at the table for years because its covered in a bunch of her shit but if i ask her to do something about that #shed just freak out #like how dare my living here inconvenience her in any way but also what i want doesnt matter at all #i dont have any of my stuff in the living room or dining room and i only have some stuff for coffee in the kitchen #and even then she moves that shit without checking with me beforehand #im doing everything i can to reduce my impact here and its still not fucking good enough #god im just so sick of living here #brb gotta go do a million chores while i have a migraine because otherwise there will be 'consequences' #like im a fucking child #and not a full grown adult whos dealing with serious mental health shit but still trying their best #god i want to cry rn im just so sick of this

[wedding-shemp]

How do you make $1650 in a month without being very good at anything in particular

#My plan has been to move out after I finish my car payments #So I don't have to worry about keeping up with them on top of rent #But. Hm. Well I just realized how many of my problems would be fixed by simply. Not living with my parents anymore #And I don't want to wait till next February anymore! I want to move out and get a real life NYOW #So like. I'm trying to figure out how I can earn enough money to pay off the balance asap #I feel like it's do-able. If I really try I get I could make 1650 pretty quick #Maybe #We'll see #I thought about selling some of my collectibles but honestly none of them are worth much #I could probably make a couple hundred eventually by selling em but it would take too long to sell them off piece by piece #I thought about art and design commissions but that would also be pretty slow going #My turnaround time is pretty slow #I could MAYBE make $400 tops in a month if I got lucky #Hmm #I guess there's food delivery n stuff #I'm gonna try uber eats I guess #I could probably make around 1000 in a month a t that right #Like I know long term it's not a good gig but short term? Eh? #The fall semester just started there are definitely drunk college kids in need of McDonald's delivery #Right??

[ganseyandjane]

i've been turning a blind eye to it even though i've been aware of it happening for years but it has almost become way worse yet i don't feel like i've done enough to stop it

#long story short my mom almost joined an em el em #because she lost one of her jobs and we need money and she's tired of trying to apply for another and work #she wants to 'work from home' and because she has friends who SEEM to be making a lot of money from it #she's convinced that it's a good move and she could achieve the same #and its just so frustrating because i'm eating food cooked from overpriced pots those friends sold to us years ago #and i still have empty bottles of essential oils that i'm pretty sure were also sold to us by those same friends #and i've known for years that my parents' friends were shilling these things but i didn't know much about the subject #so i didn't want to 'enlighten' my parents on it (especially my mom who's the one actually buying these things) #i couldn't be bothered and its not like they were actually joining any of them #her telling me about this new business they want to start was what did it for me #i'm glad i kept prying before it was too late because there was too many red flags #however she still seems so unconvinced about why its a bad idea... i'm saving our family's finances but she doesn't seem to believe me #even though i do think she won't go through with it #and i'm just worried #those friends are the reason we were able to migrate here #one of them is my brother's godmother #the other one knew both my parents for years before i was even born #i don't want to say bad things about them but i hate that they're influencing my mom this way #idk if they're directly telling her these things or if she's just looking from the outside #i hope she's not too stubborn to just. believe that i have her best intentions. me. her first born child. #ugh idk maybe i should just talk to my dad since apparently he was still skeptical too #im so saaaaaaaad #idk how to help my family aside from taking extra shifts to cover bills ;___;

[awordwasthebeginning]

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#this wasn't prompted by anything so don't worry #i've just been thinking about it from time to time #i think it might be helpful for me (and maybe for others too) to separate fandom and activism #not in the sense of 'oh but i watch [show] because it has great queer/poc/... rep! i'm doing my part' #but more in the sense of #'this book/film/show has problematic aspects and so does the fandom. but it is a hobby and does not define my political views' #because it doesn't and it shouldn't #being a fan of something means that i enjoy it. and others may not enjoy it for a variety of reasons some of which political. #that does not mean that our separate views of the thing define how we interact with each other outside of fandom #or how we approach (political) issues in real life #(obviously it depends. jkr making a fuckton of money for her transphobic agenda with hp merch should be reason enough not to buy her shit) #but generally...most fandoms do not have that much of an impact on real life. and so it should be ok to sometimes enjoy a thing #without constantly justifying my enjoyment to myself and/or to others. without constantly questioning it. #because i know that my actual political activism with irl impact goes in the right direction #and if you feel like your fandom experience defines your activism/is what your political views are being judged for #maybe you should find a second hobby; engage in actual activism if it makes you feel better. #because that will have a positive impact on society/the world; unlike apologising to like 47 people for uncritically enjoying something #(again. it depends. if a friend was really hurt by how [issue] was represented in a medium - I wouldn't gush about how much I loved it #or try to downplay it. maybe we won't make that medium part of our friendship then. and keep it in mind. #but i cannot keep my life 100% pure and unproblematic. that's impossible. and again. fandom is not how i shape the world. it shouldn't be.) #loquor #tdl #probably

[bbeelzemon]

Love driving! but my god i am so sick of driving right now

#i have driven through like 3 full tanks of gas in the past week and i just found out i gotta do it again this upcoming week too 😐 #well.! time to go drive for 2 hours again! #as soon as i get back tonight im just taking a ton of weed and passing out #im just feeling really stupid right now. i got gas money for all the driving i have to do #but i thought i was given extra as like idk thanks or whatever #but no i got the amount i did because i have to make that roundtrip drive 7 times. not 3 like i thought. #soooo... guess who was stupid with money... this guyy.. #oh boy. i guess this is a problem for tomorrow me to figure out #if i try to think too much about anything right now i might start crying . ill be fine im just. eurgh #i feel so stupid. i feel SO stupid #and the sleep deprivation is not helping in the slightest. #i dunno. i dont know #im just. going to start driving again. i dont have to worry about gas until tomorrow at least. #god im so stupid.

[cherrysnax]

#how do I make the self loathing n depression stop. i feel like I’m drowning n like I’m pulling my loved ones down with me #I’m trying really hard to be a person but it feels like ky progress is gone. i have a hard time standing up for too long so it’s rlly hard #cooking for myself even though one of my goals was to cook more. i keep forgetting what day/month it is #i feel like I’m so far away and everyone is just . millions of miles away from me #i just. want living to not feel like a chore. i have so many things I look foreword to #n I don’t want to quit on myself #and part of me thinks it’s the stress from our constantly sinking money sitch due to comic deadlines — that are only here to help motivate #the world won’t end if we don’t make them. i think that’s something we forget #but yeah I’m worried abt my mom and my health is declining I’m always dizzy and forgetful b I have problems holding convos #and I’m tired all the time and my libido is gone and it’s either my depression or my antidepressants but I’m worried abt it #idk what if I’m dying. my family can’t afford me dying. and I don’t want to cut a life short that has so much potential #but golly gee has my mental health not gotten the memo. i wanna do things for the ones I love but mh body seems to be shutting down #i want to be a good friend or lover or child or adult but I mostly feel like I’m stuck a few years back #but I will be okay. i will learn how to navigate my newfound issues. make sure to go outside despite my general adversion to it #learn to let myself feel freely about the present. while also think past tommorow uh positively #if I give up on myself what more do I have?

[mako-neexu]

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#i try not to be surprised by the trash fgo gives me in gacha but i cant help but still be upset XD i hate it here. i wish i can stop playing #but i also hate missing events and log in bonuses....im only moving forward because of #story i love the characters but this game is just :))))))) #this is my 49053806th complaint about this game why am i not leaving indeed #i mean i took hiatus one time and it was freeing to forget about the fate series lol #but i got sucked into a black hole and now im struggling to get away from it kdfbhliwefb #ive cried over not getting merlin every banner he got....its just sad that everyone i know has him #meanwhile its taking me literal years to get him #i hate the dont worry youll get him soon! phrases...yes well im jealous and youre not frustrated #as i am #i hate hate hate hate spending money on anything gambling related but uhhhhh shrugs #i wish gacha a very die out soon please #everytime i realize im spending money on voiced jpegs its funny but then theres the serious matter for my psychological needs and stability #to keep me sane haha #i hate it here its not healthy for me its a toxic relationship between me and this game and i need out... #but romani and the story.... i love them too much to leave.... #what to do... #i kind of hate talking to friends who whale too and yes im a hypocrite but wow you whale at least you get him meanwhile i spend dollars #on trash and useless crap thanks #[oh dont worry youll get him soon] then they add a smiley face i just wanna wrap my #fingers around my neck and end it allllllllllllllll

[positivelyghastly]

Big migraine, very head empty right now but at least I have my psych appointment tomorrow and I can hopefully figure out what to do medication wise and maybe get back to functioning like a normal human being again

#personal #chronic health tag #trying to draw today feels so impossible after getting a decent chunk of drawing done last night #none of what I drew is very good because I was stoned but at least I actually did something #today I’ve just been too bleh to function #I also got a letter yesterday telling me my application for a council tax reduction was denied so that sucks #hopefully my disability gets approved and I won’t have to worry too much about money