#upset vent noises

[arsonist-chicken]

Can I get a neurotypical brain? Can I PLEASE get a neurotypical brain?

#i have. three papers. two due monday and one tuesday. #i have only just now started on the most urgent one #i originally planned to take the 2h train ride to uni and deliver it there but. i think i'll just take it to the post office tomorrow for #express delivery and call it a day and have it be there a day late. she's nice anyway. #and ask a colleague there to print out and deliver the other one on tuesday and buy her a bunch of chocolate #but i want to cry. i've had weeks and months to do this shit so naturally. i didn't do shit. #the paper now is about my future as a translator/job future and it makes me want to cry #and i need so much and it's past midnight and i'm so tired but it needs to be at the post office before noon #okay i'll not start rambling now about my shite job perspectives and depression and non-functioning brain #but i am going to put in a lil paragraph about how i'd like to be self-employed maybe but never will actually do that cause yk. #untreated adhd. i'd be bankrupt before I'd even start #okay I'll get something for my headache and then I'll get back to it #okay bye good night whatever bye bye #mine #upset vent noises #don't mind me sometimes you just need to vent a lil because you're tired and overwhelmed and depressed #and for the paper due tuesday idek wtf that shit is about #i someone has tips or advice please lmk

[clowngremlin]

my dad looked through my sketchbook without my permission and he was like "are u not doing well? a lot of ur drawings are about feeling bad and worthless" which makes me feel really weird because those types of drawings were not drawings i wanted anyone to see and like i don't go through his notebooks and shit, so why is he allowed to look through my sketchbooks (he has a history of this and it's one of the reasons i ended up going to therapy because i used to draw a lot of pictures of people, mostly myself, being mutilated and he looked in my sketchbook and saw that and was like "hm i think my kid is unwell") and when i got upset with him, he was like "well u just left it on the kitchen table and u said u had been drawing more so i wanted to see what u had been drawing!" which like fine ok but like it's an invasion of my privacy to do that???? i'm 26??? don't go looking at my personal sketchbook without my permission?????

#upset gremlin noises #like my sketchbook is very personal to me #i don't like people just looking at it all willy nilly #it makes me feel REALLY weird #like great my dad has seen my psychosis creatures and vent art about being schizoaffective bipolar that i didn't want anyone to see #like i'm not like Unwell unwell but like sometimes i still feel depressed!!!!! #mostly due to like my dad and older brother being in bad moods and having it leech into the vibes of the house thus making me feel shitty #or like if the weather is making me feel weird or if i had a nightmare or something #and like everyone has bad days and the art i make on those bad days is PERSONAL and i don't want people seeing it without my permission!!! #and my dad got like upset that i was upset with him for looking through my PERSONAL sketchbook #idk if i'm making a mountain out of a molehill but like to me it's an invasion of my privacy

[thatkinkyautistic]

"you're so quiet!" thanks, i have a speech impediment and I'm hoh so communication is already difficult, and i was conditioned to think i have of substance to say because nobody would try to hold a genuine conversation with me, no matter how much i worked on my conversation skills. 99% of people around me don't care, they don't really listen to me or listen at all. they don't respond to me more than half of the time. they just ignore me, or punish me for talking. no fucking shit that i don't talk much when I've been treated like I don't really have any worth as a family member or friend, unless people can get something from me and I'm trying to fit into their box of what's acceptable, so it's convenient for them. yeah.

#text #vent #autismposting #negative tw #why talk if nobody listens? #the only people who understand me are other autistics who can't mask too #that's it. nobody else really gets me or wants to listen irl #I'm just background noise to them. #they don't fucking care. and I'm so beyond giving a fuck. I'm not sad about it I'm just upset. #angry you could say even #they can't just expect me to put all that effort into relationships when they barely even bother #to do the same in return #so i mostly just stopped tryinh #*trying #it's not even fuvking worth it #*fucking #and you know what? fuck that and fuck them #i am not just some background element in your life. not when i work as hard as i do to please you #I'd say it's a sort of emotional neglect

[iamfabiloz]

THIS WORLD IS SO CRUEL... NO SYMPATHY FOR THIS POOR SOUL!!!!

edit: I ended up getting it… peace and love on planet earth

#codysight noises #being over dramatic bc a seller on etsy closed shop for a bit and I WAS ABOUT TO BUY THE MEGATRON BODY PILLOW THEY WERE SELLING #IM SO UPSET AND DEVASTATED #i was hyping myself up and excited bc i wanted it so badly and my dad said we could buy it today but #IT WAS NOT TO BEEE #im looking at one of those booby mouse pads of bowser tho so WAA maybe thatll fill my heart rn #u dont know how heartbroken i am #I WANTED TO HUG PILLOWTRON #I WAS LITERALLY KICKING MY FEET AND GIGGLING at the thought of getting it #this is my thirteenth reason #venting #I GUESS??? #biting clawing kicking #i should have bought it yesterday kmssssssss #the pillow was so good quality and had mtmte megs on the front and tfp megs on the back butt view #IT WAS SO COOL I GRAHH #never wanted smth so badly and no it gone for an indeterminate amount of time #ill never be complete till its in my arms being snuggled NOW I UNDERSTAND PPL WHO LIKE MERCH OF THEIR SILLIES #i dont even have it atm and i already so emotional over it #why am i crying n tearing up over this HELP MEBAH

[creativebrainrot]

*valley girl voice* its likee soo fucking craazyy that having CPTSD, means that I like, have it.

gaymers fucking help me im experiencing shrimptoms of my mentol smeeness

#chatter #i am violently upset that having cptsd and waking up from a. trauma nightmare (?). #primes me for being Easily Stressed and then- get this #people in hotels yell sometimes. from other rooms. and oh brother that dont help #so now im Fucking Tired. which upsets me deeply. #my brain made stupid idiot noises in my sleep adn THIS TIME FOR SOMEREASON i remember them and then peopl yell and now i need beddybye time #???????????????????????????????? #fuck off??????????????????????? theres shit i want and need to do #venting

[voidcoretxt]

starts throwing up uncontrollably .

#i ammm. upset. #was about to type a vent post wah oh. fart noises pfhhttrrrr frrhhppph frpppppppppp phrtfff #voidcore.txt

[silenthillbunni]

Why would you wish your neighbors to fkn die just because they make noise?

gosh some ppl are way too sensitive and cant handle ppl saying anything at all huh

#bc im angry and they are RUINING MY DAY EVERY SINGLE DAY #bc they make noise that wouldnt be heard if they didnt live in next to empty apartments #bc im extremely nosie sensitive and get sensory overload very easily and noise makes me suicidal and homicidal #good for you that you dont care!!!! you are FORTUNATE for not being this heavily affected by noise. you're not better than me. ur lucky #grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr it makes me so annoyed that ppl like u just cant handle mentally ill ppl VENTING. #am i sending them death threats? no. am i beating them up? no. am i sending complaints to them? no. i am enduring my suffering #bc we live in a world where nobody cares abt ppl who arent normal. i am in genuine physical pain bc of this everyday #do u think this is fun for me???? do u think i want to be like this? no! i'd kille to be like u who can walk unaffected thru life!!!!!! #do u think i enjoy spending my days in agony just bc noise upsets me? i cant fkn focus on my school work!!!!!!! or anything else!!!!!!!!! #do u know that there is NOTHING i can do? i have to accept a life of daily torment bc im noise sensitive #if society allowed me i'd live in specific apartments designed for noise sensitive ppl. or in a cottage on the countryside #but society dont give a fuck abt ppl who diverge from being normal #also omfg just bc i vent and say i wish they died dont mean i actually genuinely want them to die #why are y'all so black and white?????? why is it so hard to understand that just bc u express smth in anger dont mean u ACTUALLY want it #tbh y'all are too much. and fkn unfair. ppl are actually allowed to vent in anger and let out steam and not suppress their emotions #i have never done anything to cause another person harm. i even have high blood pressure bc im so stressed out yet i never do anything #i have done NOTHING to harm my neighbors. the only thing i do is vent on my blog #do u really think theyre magically gonna die just bc i vent abt it??????? #bro fuck off you made me even angrier like if u cant handle ppl expressing ugly thoughts #u and i are not compatible bc *i* know that u need to express things u might not even mean #but u clearly dont and need everyone to be uwu peace and love and perfect so just leave me alone go awayyyyyyyyyyy

[rustycottoncandy]

Guess who's grades are going downhill on the most important trimester of the three

#my stuff #vent #tiny vent #no but #I'm so upset about this but at the same time it's like I don't care #I mean I do but I dont or not as much as I used to #and its confusing #I used to have good grades #lately t's impossible to concentrate at class though #and the teachers screaming when they lose their patience makes it even harder #cause #loud noises #suck #SUCK* #[BIGGER CAPS] SUCK #Theres this girl who keeps throwing herself with her chair every two fucking seconds and thats #so fucking loud and annoying #and then the teachers yell #and thats also so loud and unbearable #and I end up just wanting to leave #I think there's only two or three subjects in which I'll have no problem passing #but the rest? Nah #and I mean #it's alright #I guess #I mean there's no need for me to metaphorically beat myself up if there's nothing I can do about it right? #I know I'm gonna fail either way #cause I'm already failing #so why give it a lot of importance? #when there's nothing changable now?

[sparkly-skies]

können wir bitte über das design der single reden danke

HALLO JA LAURAS BUAM WENN IHR DAS ALS T-SHIRT RAUSBRINGT KAUF ICH'S. ALS CD AUCH AUCH WENN ICH NOCH KEINEN CD-PLAYER HABE; IRGENDWANN ZIEH ICH AUS UND DANN KAUF ICH EINEN.

#amazing #i'm in love #laura du hast keine ahnung wie glücklich mich das gerade macht #ich war gerade in meinen feels tm weil ich das programm der unis wien und graz anschaue und sehr hart bereue dass ich nicht dorthin gegange #bin und wollte gerade einen sad upset vent noises post drüber machen. aber das ist aufgeschoben. das hat mich zu sehr zum lachen gebracht. #jetzt muss ich gar nicht selbst ein skelett im dirndl auf ein tshirt sticken! ich kanns einfach kaufen! #laura ich hab dein geburtstagsgeschenk gefunden: das tshirt aber mit pinker stickerei als deko auf der schürze und das cappucino-likör- #schwein als ausgleich damit du mir nicht die freundschaft kündigst #asks #mondscheinprinzessin #lauras buam #lonely spring

[ff2-soda-pop]

is it really too much to ask for for the overly stressful holiday. to NOT be more overly stressful. is that too much to ask for.

#im supposed to have the Correct reactions to things and if i dont everyone Gets Upset. people Stare At Me which is Uncomfortable. #family sometimes Is There (which makes everything worse). theres too much Noise. the Daily Routine gets Changed. #and then my moms like 'oh instead of doing it the Normal Day we're doing it this Other Day' and im like 'oh ok' #EXCEPT NOW SHES LIKE 'WE'RE GONNA DO IT ON ANOTHER OTHER DAY AND NOT THE ONE I TOLD WE'LL DO IT ON FOR A WEEK STRAIGHT' AND #NOW THE PLAN IS CHANGED AT THE LAST MINUTE AND IM SITTING HERE TRYING TO NOT GET OVERWHELMED BECAUSE EVERYTHING IS STRESSFUL ENOUGH #AND NOW ON TOP OF THAT WE GET RANDOM CHANGES TO PLANS AT THE LAST MINUTE BECAUSE. FUCK YOU I GUESS. #and im stillexpected to Act Normal and Not Get Overwhelmed and if i am even a little bothered by theplans changing im 'being selfish' #LIKE YOU KNOW I HATE WHEN THINGS CHANGE AT THE LAST MINUTE AND YOU SHOULD KNOW BY NOW THIS ALREADY STRESSES ME OUTJUST LIKE IN GENERAL #..sorry. im like.fighting back having a meltdown because there is Too Much to deal with regarding. like everything. #amd now i feel Not Prepared even more #vent #actuallyautistic

[arsonist-chicken]

Alright sorry can I just---

Alright thanks.

#don't mind me i'm just venting #i miss my friends so much i want to cry but none have time for me this weekend when i have to go home #which means i'll be at my parents' even more which means even more time for them to question whatever i do and for me to try to weasle #my way out of answering because once again i haven't done a whole bunch of stuff i should have done long ago #and i havent done anything all day today again and i dont get how people jist sit down and just do stuff #do you not have to fight tooth and nail to get yourself to do something even if you'd enjoy it? how. please i want to cry again #i am overwhelmed with uni stuff and unemployment stuff and lonely from missing my friends #hehe. lonely. i saw lonely spring with a friend last week that was great 🥺 almost a whole day with a friend plus concert? please take me #back there 🥺 #anyway i'm overhelmed and lonely and i miss my friends and my cats and i'm angry at our politicians for not giving a shit about the people #so. arson. or very carefully worded but angry emails. #also i'm craving. something. to eat but idk what. i'm not even hungry. #ah yes me ft. disordered eating habits approaching again aren't they #okay i'm done venting i'll sit down and see if another try will get my brain to work this time. send help if you have advice #mine #upset vent noises

[golgibodyodyody]

You know when cats hiss? They were onto something w that.

#HISSING HISSING HISSING #warning for vent in tags // #i was so used to my hermit college life hardly ever leaving my dorm room and having quiet time all the time #i hate being around people #spent the whole day around people and I’m going to spend tomorrow with UNFAMILIAR people and sigh hiss spit growl #i don’t hate people! it’s the interacting with them that’s the hard part #hanging around a person singular is so much easier than people plural. singular means one person to cater towards #plural (esp when it comes to new ppl or ppl of different Genres) is like wtf does anyone want from me what am I supposed to share/suppress #in my heart of hearts I’m but a Thing that growls & chirps & hisses & clicks & headbutts & does not use words at all #so glad my bf doesn’t mind that. he’s so patient when I’m so upset I can’t speak or even look at him #wish making Sounds and Noises wasn’t seen as cringe ‘trying to be edgy/scary/quirky’ or ‘probably into petplay’ or smth like that #in an ideal world where I cared less abt what ppl thought of me I’d be one of those kids who hung out under stairwells and hissed at ppl #but alas I care too much #vesicle

[noodle-shenaniganery]

Sometimes when I send asks or messages to people who get upset a lot I feel like a really anxious cat slowly approaching someone so I can boop them, violently shaking the whole time.

I know that some people like being mean or making others upset but I am Not One Of Those People, whenever I make someone upset or even if I have the slightest suspicion that I may have, I feel like I’m going to combust from pure regret.

Edit: I am this cat.

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(I found a version of this image on Redbubble, someone named Drowsy Bee is selling stickers of it.)

#vent? I think? #vent #maybe #imagine the weirdest looking cat possible coming up to you on the street #booping you #and then running away at the speed of light #whenever I send messages to someone who seems very irritable I get So Scared Of Making Them Upset #I just #aAaaAaAhhHh *warbly crying noises*

[grim-heir]

someone used he who shan't be named as a reaction image in a ship video that involved me on tiktok and I feel sick and paranoid now

#It was a video with me and tavros and that's why I'm so upset #eq's vents #eq makes noise

[off-brand-orpheus]

IIIIIIIIIIII

AM FEELING FEELINGS TONIGHT, FRIENDS

FEELINGS I WOULD MUCH RATHER NOT HAVE

BUT

ALAS

#vague vent #sillyposting #like I'm upset but imagine me swinging around a pole #and accidentally knocking my hat as I fall onto the couch with a whoomph #and defeatedly look at the ceiling and make a croaking noise in my throat #then look back at you and ask for a drink #and then I'm back to my indomitable silly self (I'm shoving the despair deep into my soul)

[ghostprinceiii]

As soon as I get home I am never leaving my house again.

#im having a horrible morning :D #I've been staying with my brother the past few days for guilt reasons and as nice as he and his girlfriend are this house is #my own personal hell. In the area that im staying everything is cold and damp (including the toiletpaper) and I think ive been rubbing mold #on my face because my towel wont dry. I cant go two inches without seeing or accidentally stepping on a bug and theres dirt and debris #literally everywhere. There are so many goddamn stairs. I tried to actually make something to eat today that was more substantial and more #effort than like a fistful of goldfiah crackers. The knife I had seemed very dull. My noodles are probably undercooked because I don't #understand the stovetop. When I tried to pour my soup out of the pot the shape of it made it so half the liquid in there just poured #straight onto the stove. All of the chairs in this province are so goddamn uncomfortable. I am miserable as I knew I would be #and I want to go home. I miss my cat and my ability to create a semi-sterile environment. My flight (which is itself a horrible stressor an #impending miserable experience + I had to spend $350 for a flight I don't want to be on to get home from a trip I didnt want to go on) #isnt until Monday and its only Wednesday today. I already always feel like Im seeing bugs and like theyre crawling on me. #I cannot live somewhere where thats actually *true*. I'm also constantly being unsubtly judged for using a mobility aid and any time I talk #to my mom she doesnt listen to literally anything I say and theres so much goddamn noise in this house and I dont wanna say anything to my #brother because thats *rude* and *ungrateful* but the only texture I can stand in this place is the tiny couch I have to curl up but keep #vigilant on because not even that is safe from bugs!!! And all of the counters are sticky!!! And they made me get expensive groceries that #I cant make myself use! I'm in a sensory and emotional nightmare and in constant physical pain! And then people get upset with me for being #miserable to be around! What the fuck do they want me to do!?!? #anyways. #ghostprince posts #vent #delete later #I want to go home. #update: I took like two bites of my food and immediately became nauseous. I've also become convinced there's bugs in there. Great.