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regseekings · 2 months

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fic writer interview

tagged by @eoinmcgonigal - thank you!

How many works do you have on AO3? 56

What’s your total AO3 word count? 150,134

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

I Relied Upon the Moon (6,316) - Star Wars, Stormpilot

Thunder Rolled a Six (231) - Ready or Not - Gen

Fairytale of Staten Island (130) - Law & Order SVU, Barisi

somewhile before the dawn (98) - SAS: Rogue Heroes - Paddy/Eoin

Aftermath (69) - Exandria Unlimited: Calamity - Gen

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? Yes, I do. Sometimes with a delay, but always with pleasure.

What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending? Hm, a couple. I prefer to think of them as bittersweet though. Probably bay and violets (paddy x eoin soulmate au) is the angstiest recent one.

What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending? Most of them end at least a little happily. So I Picked on You, my Diana Allers/Kaidan Alenko Mass Effect fic is a sweet one.

Do you write crossovers? Often, though I think I might only have one or two on AO3 right now. I have the BoB/SAS RH crossover and a Dragon Age fusion.

Have you ever received hate on a fic? I've been writing for over 20 years, it happens.

Do you write smut? If so, what kind? Irregularly. It's not really my bag.

Have you ever had a fic stolen? Not wholesale.

Have you ever had a fic translated? Not to my knowledge.

Have you ever co-written a fic before? Not since I was sixteen, lol.

What’s your all-time favourite ship? I don't really do all time favourites. Of my wild rarepairs, I have the softest spots for Don Malarkey/Paddy Mayne (BoB/SASRH), Diana Allers/Kaidan Alenko (Mass Effect) and HodgePilk (The Terror) right now.

What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will? I will finish all my WIPs lol. I have to believe.

What are your writing strengths? I think I'm ok at figuring out relationship dynamics.

What are your writing weaknesses? Definitely plots, I'm not so great at longer fic, but you know. We try.

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic? I quite like it. I often provide a translation in notes, but not always.

What was the first fandom you wrote for? Christ, who knows. Mighty Ducks? Newsies?

What’s a fandom/ship you haven’t written for yet but want to? - I haven't written any Masters of the Air yet, and that's definitely coming. Also Wheel of Time, I've started some ideas, but not written for properly yet.

What’s your favourite fic you’ve written? I wrote some stuff for Merlin way back when that I still love a lot, but a lot of my earlier fandom stuff is lost to the annals of time, or at least LJ migration. I remember being very fond of some Hornblower fic I wrote. I think most recently, it's the Don/Paddy and the Dragon Age AU series, they're both worlds I'm enjoying spending time in a lot.

Tagging @trenchenjoyer, @hesbuckcompton-baby @heystovepipeboys @duesternis @borealopelta (hi it's @derry-rain/@bobparkhurst on a sideblog)

#reg: meme #long post

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fenharel · 2 years

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You're right. Give us hope and a fighting chance. Hell, the Reapers better watch themselves.

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hawkeykirsah · 3 years

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Under the Stars

Fandom: Mass Effect Polycule: female Shepard x Kaidan Alenko x James Vega Wordcount: ~625 Prompt: Written for @polyamships August Polyam Shipping Day prompt “Under the Stars”

The water lapped softly against the shore, stars twinkling brightly overhead in the moonless sky as the sun sank entirely behind the horizon. The lingering heat of the day made way for a chill that crept slowly through Allegra’s bones and she pulled the blanket tighter around her shoulders.

“You cold, Lola?” James asked from her left, gaze focused on the horizon, watching the warm orange diminish, growing steadily darker, from red to violet, to the deep blue of the night sky.

Allegra shook her head, “No, it’s not too bad. Thanks to Kaidan insisting we pack extra blankets.”

There was a snort of suppressed laughter from her other side. “Glad I could be of service.”

“Mmmh,” Allegra hummed, rubbing her arms as the wind picked up. “Though, I wouldn’t mind if you two scooted a bit closer.”

The men shifted, both moving closer until they pressed against her sides.

“When is the shower supposed to start?” James asked, turning his head to look past her at Kaidan.

“Another half hour, tops,” came the reply.

They fell silent, watching one star after the other light up the dark sky. Wind blew up sand biting at her bare calves and rustled through the leaves of the trees at the edge of the little cove.

Allegra laughed softly. “Isn’t it strange that we spend so much time traveling among the stars and still we have nothing better to do in our spare time than lay under the stars waiting for a meteor shower?” She reached for Kaidan’s hand, lacing their fingers together and leaned against James.

Kaidan lifted her fingers to his lips, brushing a kiss over her knuckles. “It’s because it’s beautiful under the stars. And I get to share this beautiful scenery with beautiful company, what’s not to love?”

“You’re a hopeless sap, Alenko.”

“You know you love it.”

She hummed again, tugging him closer until his face was mere inches from hers. “Yeah, I do. Hey there, handsome.”

“Hello, beautiful,” he replied, eyes crinkling. His gaze darted past her at James. “That goes for you, too, big guy.”

“Lola’s right, you’re a sap.”

“As if you weren’t well aware of that,” Kaidan pointed out, bumping his shoulder against James’. “And it’s not like I’m the only one, Mr. Let’s-have-a-candlelight-dinner-when-we-go-stargazing.”

“My other suggestion would have been sex?”

Allegra rolled her head so it leaned against the shoulders of both men touching behind her. “Sex is a great idea but let’s keep that in mind for when we’re back home. I think it’s a bit too chilly for sex outside today. Not to mention having sex would absolutely defeat the purpose of going stargazing because there certainly wouldn’t be any stargazing happening. And anyway, this is nice, too.” She snuggled closer and was met with hums of agreement.

Above them a meteor streaked across the sky.

“It’s starting,” Allegra breathed, watching more and more streaks of white paint the sky between sparkling stars, a silent firework. Long forgotten memories of a different meteor shower rose in her mind. “I’ve been to so many different planets and moons and I don’t think I’ve seen a meteor shower like this since leaving Mindoir. I wonder,” she added softly, “what it looks like there now.”

“We could go there on our next leave,” James murmured just as quietly. “If that’s what you want.”

Allegra squeezed his hand. “I don’t know. Maybe someday.”

A kiss dropped to her shoulder and silence fell around them again. She focused on the warmth of the bodies behind her, their steadying presence and the comfort they brought. The bittersweet tug of her memories passed as she watched the last meteor blink out and all she was left with was contentment, there, under the stars.

#PolyamShippingDay #shenga #kaidan alenko #james vega #commander shepard #femshep x kaidan x james #mass effect #ficlet #my writing #hawk writes #fluff #under the stars

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technicallysideacc · 3 years

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I was tagged by @theleavesoflorien @tomthenetherlands and @foreverfanficaddict in these three memes, so I thought I’d put them together in the same post 🥰💗 Thank you so much for tagging me, this has been really fun to do!✨

—If I were

if i were a month, i’d be: October ･ if i were a flower, i’d be: a tulip ･ if i were an album, i’d be: "what’s the story (morning glory)?” by Oasis ･ if i were a mineral, i’d be: malachite ･ if i were a sound, i’d be: leaves crunching beneath your feet ･ if i were a colour, i’d be: emerald green ･ if i were a drink, i’d be: gin and tonic ･ if i were a fruit, i’d be: strawberries ･ if i were a quote, i’d be: “there is a fine line between recklessness and courage” (Paul McCartney) ･ if i were a television series, i’d be: NANA ･ if i were a movie, i’d be: Music & Lyrics ･ if i were a fashion brand, i’d be: Pepe Jeans ･ if i were a mythological creature, i’d be: a centaur ･ if i were a taste, i’d be: homely broth ･ if i were a scent, i’d be: burning wood ･ if i were a fabric, i’d be: tartan ･ if i were a body part, i’d be: eyes ･ if i were a song, i’d be: “English Tea” by Paul McCartney ･ if i were a god(dess), my four attributes would be: empathy, kindness, enthusiasm, courage.

—aesthetic tag

rules: bold and total your favorite choices

>> 𝐒𝐎𝐅𝐓 7/20

>> 𝐃𝐀𝐑𝐊 𝐀𝐂𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐌𝐈𝐀 15/20

>> 𝐄𝐃𝐆𝐘 7/20

>> 𝟕𝟎’𝐒 7/20

>> 𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐏𝐏𝐘 𝐂𝐀𝐒𝐔𝐀𝐋 6/20

—10 characters, 10 fandoms, 10 tags

I’ve tried my best, but there were fandoms in which I just couldn’t choose one!

1. Mass Effect: commander Shepard / Kaidan Alenko 2. The Lord of the Rings: Aragorn 3. Harry Potter: Minerva McGonagall 4. Dragon Age: Inquisition: Dorian Pavus 5. One Tree Hill: Nathan Scott 6. Final Fantasy X: Tidus 7. Downton Abbey: Lady Mary Crawley / Violet Crawley 8. Haikyuu!!: Kageyama Tobio 9. Jane Austen: Emma Woodhouse 10. Resident Evil: Chris Redfield

I’m tagging @theleavesoflorien @foreverfanficaddict @tomthenetherlands @whatagreatproblemtohave @justmehernthemoon @littleprincepleasedontgo @herefortommo and @halo-the-brave to do any part of this that they want!💕✨

#my posts #tag memes #about me #fandom

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horrible-writer-rain · 4 years

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Chapter 3: Relocation

"Мне жаль. Если бы я знал-" says Alister when he takes in my appearance. "Ты все равно сд��лал бы это как хороший солдат." I repy cutting him off. He sighs before motioning for us to leave. He leads us to an old model truck and opens the door for me. I hesitate looking from him to the truck. I didn't trust him. He had turned his back on me. Though afraid that he would yell at me I comply and get into the truck. Sitting next to him I was aware of how I looked. Anytime I could bathe I was beaten in the baths and I only had the clothes Gemma gave me to wear. I knew I smelled and that I need clean clothes. I take a deep breath inhaling the same calming scent that clung to Alister's own scent. I couldn't discern any of the individual scents other than it was a mix of spicy and eathy scents with a hint of musk and something sweet. It most likely belonged to a male.I felt a sense of dread the further we got from the orphanage, from my pack. I wondered if James had already contacted the others or if he knew I had no means of contacting him if I was in trouble. I didn't have an omni-tool and had no knowledge on how to use one. Hell, I didn't know how to operate half the shit we had especially tech wise. I lay my head against the window and watch as the bustling streets of Vancouver change to swathes of forest and fields. I don't realize I have past out until I feel a pair of arms wrap around me.

I inhale sharply finding that I can easily discern the scents that clung to Alister. The earthy scents were rosewood, white pine, and a hint of sandalwood and evergreen. The spicy scents were patchouli and cardamon. The musk identified the scent belonged to a male and the hint of something sweet was maple. I could also smell ezo. They were a biotic. I could feel his biotics buzzing slightly, though unruly they were comforting like Ivan's. If his scent was only sandalwood, cardamon and musk then I would believe it. His scent was complex and I find myself nuzzling closer to the person. Rosewood, patchouli and maple were the predominant scents that clung to him. I'm too exhausted to open my eyes and in pain to protest. I hear mumbling and then I feel myself be moved before the heady and warm scent floods my senses stronger. They must have pushed my head into the crook of their neck where their scents the strongest. I hiss lowly when they start walking my ribs and broken shoulder barking in protest. They stop before I feel a dark energy field surround me and I feel weightless. I start to panic until I realize that he was trying to ease my discomfort. Though, I miss his scent immediately. I feel my body be layed on something soft and the dark energy recedes leaving me cold. I smell the male's scent again but this time fainter as though its clung to some type of fabric. I once again here the murmurs of people talking but I allow myself to relax and fall further into unconsciousness.

{So, pretty much her body and mind decided that she was safe to sleep. Plus, the scent and biotics of the male or rather Kaidan has a calming effect on her. This will be elaborated on later. Most likely in the ME 3 portion of the book/series}

Kaidan's pov~

I had decided to pay a visit to my mother figuring my dad was still on duty. "Ma?" I call out into the foyer and hear a muffled response from my mother. I make my way to the kitchen to find my mother cleaning. "What's wrong?" I ask noting that she was stress cleaning. "A girl is going to be staying with us for a little while until her father can get to her."she says scrubbing at the already pristine stove. "If that's all then why are you stressing?" I ask her confused. "She's a transgenetic and a biotic. I'm worried on the state of her condition when she gets here. Alister dropped her off at a Vancouver orphanage at the Alliance's orders. You've seen first hand how they treat biotics. Its 10 times worse for trangenetics." she says turning towards me. "My father did what?" I ask in calm outrage. He should have known what it was like for biotics. Hell, he had seen how we were treated in BAat and how I was treated after and according to my mother it was going to be 10 times worse. "I think I still have some medical supplies in the spare office. Do you mind getting them for me? I want to be prepared." she asks and I nod.I make my way out of the kitchen and up the stairs to the spare office. I see her medical kit from when she was working for the Alliance in the genetic division and grab it. I wasn't sure how good this stuff would work being roughly 20 years old but it would have to do for now. "Here, though do you know what she is?" I ask referring to her genetic make-up. "All I know form her age and biotics is that she's in the Gene X-5 group." she tells me and I nod. "She had completely human features except when Alister pulled me from her. I was allowing her to scent me. She most likely has either Turian, Drell, or Krogan DNA. She could have all three but without seeing her file I wouldn't know. Most GX-5's were crossbreeds of most if not all the species to some extent." she tells me and I nod. "If she has human features than how did you know she was a trangenetic?" I ask intrigued. My mom's work had always fascinated me although a cruel program. I was around 13 when news spread of a riot on Algentix-Ceres Space Station. It told of some of the horrors the kids went through. Though what was released was already happening at BAat so, I didn't pay any mind to it. It was years later that I learned from my mother that it was way worse for them than at jump zero.

She had left after being exposed to element zero through one of her pregnant mother's. The mother didn't want to give her child up and had attempted to flee hurting herself in the process and exposing my mom, who was pregnant with me at the time, along with others to high levels of ezo."She had 2 uniquely colored eyes and a unique shade of hair. The eyes gave it away when I met her though her dark red violet biotics gave her away to Alister and the Alliance nurses. She freaked when one of the staff tried to subdue her with his biotics. He had an L-3 implant so, its no wonder her reaction was so severe. She's only compatible with L1 and L2 amped biotics or most likely Asari and Krogan as well." she tells me. "Why did her features change when dad pulled you away from her?" I ask trying to think of a reason why and coming up with nothing. "Scents are important to any transgenic especially the females. She most likely detected in my scent something that identified me as a mother. She was trying to protect me. Scents are unique to each of us and to trangenetics its how they identify each other as well as their familial unit. They have a pack mentality. The "mothers" and females are most fiercly protected as well as the youngest."she says and I nod. "You have some of these traits as well." she says and I stiffen. "I know you Kaidan. I gave birth to you. You have the pack mentality and have a slightly enhanced sens of smell and hearing." she says and I relax slightly. It was true I did share traits with transgenetics. "How long have you known?" I ask her and her brows furrow in thought. "When Ivan died. He was your pack along side your other group of friend at jump zero. Though, you two were closer. He was a transgenetic. The Gene X-3 group." she tells me and I nod. "He has a sister. She was in the Gene X-5 group as well. His mom was forced into the program again after producing a pure-blood." she tells me and I nod again. Ivan had told me about his little sister in BAat. How he wanted to get her out of there once he enlisted. He wanted to protect her and look out for her so, she wouldn't go through what he did. He succeed though only when she was nine and that was because he had connections within the Alliance as well as some political members. He was a few months older than me. His mom was the one that accidentally exposed my mother to ezo. My mom had talked about how she had profusely apologized when she found out she had exposed me and mom to ezo.

"So, I'm dying to know what I smell like." she tells me pulling me out of my thoughts. "Marigold, and dirt with a hint of something Jasmine. Dad and you share evergreen. I'm guessing my scent has a hint of it too because were a familial unit? Dad smells like gun oil and apples. They predominate his scent. I've only ever smelled evergreen and Jasmine because I have had my face to your scent gland." I tell her and she nods. "I think the girl could faintly pick up on the jasmine. Jasmine, sage and Fennel have been said to be associated with motherhood by transgenetics for non transgenetics. . Transgenetics secreate a phermone that signifies that they have had offspring. Mated pairs share a paticular scent unique to the trangenetic, in the case that only one partner is transgenetic, or the "Male" in the group or pair, in case of both being transgenetics." she says and I nod. "That's a lot of information you just spouted out at me mom." I tell her and she laughs. "I know but I figured you should know." she tells me before sitting at the table. "Can you tell me more?" I ask her and she nods motioning for me to sit. I sit and she explains to me the hierarchy of the Transgenetics along with some of their behavior and a more in depth explanation on why scents are so important to them.

I perk up at the sound of my dad's truck. I get up and head outside. "She's asleep and I know I can't get near her. She only slept because she's exhausted." my dad says opening her door. I nod my head at him before approaching the sleeping girl. My breath catches as I see her spit lip and swollen black eye. I knew it wasn't the extent of her injuries but these were pretty bad. I pick her up bridal style. I can feel her biotics reaching out to mine. I feel and hear her inhale sharply before nuzzling into me. "She trusts you." my father grumbles out walking forward. I knew he wanted the girl to trust him but it was most likely my biotics because her's were reacting to mine calmly and they seemed to calm mine down. My mother has a look on her face I can't quite make out in the fading light. I feel the urge to have her nuzzling my scent gland rather than where my shoulder meets my arm so, pretty much my armpit. I obey and a rumble leaves me when she nuzzles into it. I stare at my mom with wide eyes. "What did I just do?" I ask her as she comes near me. "You, in a way, purred." she tells me in a chuckle. I start to walk but stop when she hisses. I wrap her in a biotic field and lift her lightly. Enough so she can't feel my movements as I walk but not enough for her to not be nuzzling into my neck.

I try scenting her but I can't pick out her individual scent its a muddle of mixed scents that all belong to males. Was she raped by them? I tense and inhale again but find no scent of blood or semen. I relax slightly but I know she was at least beaten by someone or someones. A deeper rumble leaves me. "That was a growl." my mom says before I can even think of asking her what that was. Why was she pulling these reactions out of me. "Your reacting like any transgenetic male would with a wounded transgenetic female. Its instinctual." she says as she leads me upstairs into my bedroom. She helps me lay her down. "Why my room?" I ask. "She recognizes you as a transgenetic." she says and I nod. It was comforting to her. I go to leave but a whimper leaves her and I stop mid-step growling at my mother. "I'm trying to help her. Go and help your father with dinner." she tells me and I don't move. For some reason I can't leave her like this. "Fine, help me undress her so I can assess the damage better and her legs were cut up by glass and wood splinters. Then, sit your ass down and be quite." she snaps at me and I respond with a growl. What the fuck is going on?

A/N~ Longest chapter so far? Seems like it. I didn't want to stop but figured I would stop here and post what I have. Why is he acting like this if he hasn't before?

Translations:

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Мнежаль. Если бы я знал.=I'm sorry. If i knew.

Тывсе равно сделал бы это как хороший солдат=You would still do it like a good soldier

#Lifelines chapter

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officialjrocksupportblog · 7 years

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All July 2017 Song Recommendations

Missed a post? No problem. Here’s a list of all the song recommendations for July 2017.

1. Schwarz Stein - New Vogue Children 2. Story of Hope - Forever 3. Hold Out Hope - Twilight Syndrome 4. Head Over Heels - Haters Gonna Hate 5. Salty Dog - Meteor 6. Anarchy Stone - Our World 7. Uplift Spice - Omega Rythm 8. Secondwall - “恋の終わりに、桜舞い散る” 9. Touch My Secret - Like A Paradise 10. Pulse Factory - 希望灯 11. Delhezi - Alone 12. Neko - Fade 13. Jiluka - Lethal Affliction 14. DIV - Seasons 15. Kaya - Salome 16. Duel Jewel - Azure 17. Moran - Eclipse 18. Wing Works - 『シルヴァー』 19. Jupiter - Nostalgie 20. Jiluka - Omelas 21. DIV - RxR 22. The Black Swan - Ruvish 23. The Thirteen - Liar Liar 24. Galneryus - Angel of Salvation 25. Pentagon - Tetsu Kizu 26. Smileberry - No More Cry 27. Luche - Heartless 28. Realies - Step By Step 29. Avanchick - 「ねぇ…神様？」 30. Codomo Dragon - Wolfman 31. Clowd - Rudeness Resort 32. Ladybaby - Renge Chance 33. Tenshi No Yume - Niwa 34. Kyary Pamyu Pamyu - PONPONPON 35. Soroban - Sekishoku Ranpu 36. Novelis - End Roll 37. Serial Number - Futari No Paradise 38. Lolita23q - Ceramic Star 39. The Kiddie - Soar 40. Vidoll - Eve 41. Juka - Aravesque 42. Velvet Eden - Igyou Hime 43. Malice Mizer - Beast of Blood 44. As.Milk - Disturb 45. Razor - ネイキッド 46. Art Cube - Suna No Hana 47. D=OUT - Sunrise 48. Vistlip - Chimera 49. Megamasso - Hoshi Furi Machi Nite 50. Kamijo - Throne 51. Balalaika - 「刑法202条」 52. Ensoku - This Is A Pen 53. The Piass - 螺子時計リビドゥー 54. Umbrella - Keihaku Na Hito 55. Baiser - Pegasus 56. Babylon - Loveless Involve 57. Screw - Raging Blood 58. Necro Circus - Cynical Romance 59. Blood - The Funeral For Humanity 60. Buck Tick - Romance 61. Kerbera - Counterpoints 62. Dio - Garasu No Umi 63. Ansinomy - Danpen Kou 64. Siva - Youen 65. Sugar - Afterglow 66. Dolly - Moonlight Disco 67. Popcore - Heart 68. Lc5 - Refrain 69. Ecthelion - Drive U Crazy 70. Yeti - Monochro 71. The Sherry - Future 72. Vistlip - Period 73. Depain - Doll 74. Kuroyume - I Hate Your Popstar Life 75. 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Most Pilgrimages (mShep x Tali)

Tali'Zorah nar Rayya is twenty-two years old and bleeding out.

She clutches her arm against the wound in her side, takes a deep breath, and decides she isn’t going to let this end her. Not yet. She scrambles through the wards, blood slippery along her skin and beneath her suit, a sensation singular, foreign, frightening. It’s made more frightening by the fact that most people don’t bother to spare a glance at her, even though she drags bloody handprints on the wall, even though she staggers.

She’d heard what people thought of quarians in Citadel space, but she never expected it to be so true.

She gets lucky. Dr. Michel’s clinic isn’t far from where she got shot, and she realizes she’s going to make it after all. She patches her suit up, gratefully takes the medigel Dr. Michel gives her. The antibiotics and pain medicine make her feel lightheaded, but she’s still alive. She’s also terrified. Most pilgrimages, she reflects, do not go this badly.

Tali knows she is taking a huge risk. She knows the meeting with the Shadow Broker is probably a trap. She knows the blast she’s rigging might take her out, too. But she doesn’t know the human who finds her deep in the wards, a C-Sec turian and… a krogan mercenary? at his side. “I’m Shepard,” the human says, holding his hand out to her. She remembers something about this; she’d been reading up before she left the flotilla, just in case she wound up in human space. She takes his hand and shakes it clumsily, holding on for too long. Shepard has to pull his hand away after a moment, though he is gracious enough not to point out her mistake. He has far too many fingers, she decides, but the weight of his hand is reassuring. So this is a handshake. Tali exhales. Terror transforms into determination.

She’s ready to fight, and it will not be alone.

The Normandy is like no ship in the flotilla. It’s so quiet. So spacious. She doesn’t know what to make of the humans, and they don’t know what to make of her.

She’s never felt this lonely before. Tali tries to focus on the mission. She keeps to herself mostly, burying herself in tech work and doing what she can to make herself useful. Some days it works. She sees it in Engineer Adams’ impressed looks, in Wrex and Ashley’s pointers on shotguns, in thanks from Kaidan and Garrus for her work on their tech upgrades, in the conversations she shares with Liara. Other days she begins messages to her father and erases them a dozen times, never sending a one. Sometimes it is blatantly apparent she is the only quarian in the system, and at those times she misses her people keenly.

Today she feels especially alone. She is the only one of the squad to stay aboard the Normandy for this trip to the Citadel; she is still recovering from their last mission. It makes her angry to think of it, that krogan getting past her shotgun blast and her attempt to overload his shields. He’d charged her, tumbled her over the boulders she was trying to use for cover, left her battered on the field. Garrus had taken him out with a well-timed blast, but the damage had been done. The medi-gel had helped but Dr. Chakwas had insisted she stay aboard the next few days to recover.

Tali leaves the med-bay from a checkup, still a mess of bruises. As she leaves she bumps into Shepard at his locker, examining a new set of omni-tool upgrades. She hadn’t realized he’d returned. Seeing him brightens her mood immediately.

Shepard beckons her over with a wave of her hand. "Hey there. Feeling better, Tali? You took that krogan charge like a champ.“ "You must be joking, Shepard. I thought I was dead.” She winces, stretching in the confines of her suit. It feels heavier than normal against the bruises.

She watches as he rummages through his locker. "Yeah, I was joking. I thought you were dead, too,“ he says seriously. "Try to watch out, okay? We need you.” He suddenly grins, pulling a package out of his locker. "This might come in handy next time. I hope it fits.“ She stares at him, then wordlessly reaches out and takes the package, balancing it in her arms, fingers curling around the edge of the box. Quarian armor - a new suit. She rapidly scans the specs on the side of the package. Double the shield capacity of her current suit, far greater protection against biotic damage, kinetic barriers…. It’s even a nicer color than the wretched white and pink Phoenix suit she’s been dutifully wearing. The image on the side of the box shows black, gold, violet.

“Shepard,” she manages. “Where did you find it? It’s so difficult to find anything for quarians here. Let alone something this good.”

He shrugs. “That hanar shopkeeper in the Emporium has rare stocks sometimes. I had it shoot me a message when it got in some new quarian goods. We’ve been able to get everyone else upgrades, it wasn’t fair we couldn’t find you something better.”

“This must have been expensive,” she says, fingers tightening on the package. “I can’t –”

He reaches out, rests his hands on top of hers, and pushes the package back against her chest. “Tali, I insist. If you won’t take it for your sake, take the armor for mine, all right?” He looks down at his hands on top of hers – too many fingers again, though it’s rather nice – and quickly pulls his hands back. “You need to stay safe out there.”

She holds the armor closer, her stomach swooping. She nods, trying to ignore the way her heart has leapt into her throat.

“Very well, Shepard. I’ll be careful. Only because you asked me, though,” she laughs, and she hopes he doesn’t hear the quaver in her voice.

He laughs too, but his cheeks are pinker than they were a moment ago. She wonders what that means. She isn’t sure. But it occurs to her as she takes her new armor down to her locker that she’s feeling far less lonely than before.

Tali dawdles in the communications room, the others filtering out after the debriefing. She doesn’t know why she lingers. It’s something about the way Shepard looks drawn, haggard, after Liara touched his mind. She wonders what the asari saw. She wishes she could see it, too.

She watches as Wrex and Garrus head out behind Liara, Kaidan and Ashley. Shepard is still seated, staring down at his boots as if deep in thought, fingers laced together with his hands held between his legs. She clears her throat, leaning forward in her own seat, across from his.

“Shepard?” she asks.

He shakes his head. He looks pale, his brown eyes unfocused. “Tali? Do you need something?”

“How are you feeling? It’s been a long day,” she says hesitantly.

His mouth thins into a line, eyes going taut. For a moment he looks distressed. Then the expression fades into something far more exhausted and open. “I feel strange,” he admits. He rubs his temple with one hand, wincing. “It’s like a headache, but deeper, somehow. Like it’s not entirely physical.”

“That sounds unpleasant. Would Dr. Chakwas be able to help?” Tali asks, concerned.

Shepard shook his head. “I felt like this the last time this happened. I think it’ll go away. Everything just feels jumbled afterward.” He tried to smile, the edges of his mouth turning up at the sides. “I’m fine,” he says. “You don’t need to worry about me.”

“If I don’t worry about you, who will?” The words are out of her mouth before she can recall them. Her hands twist together in her lap. It’s too much, she fears. Yet she does worry about him, more than she cares to acknowledge; she feels it in her gut every time his shields flicker, every time he takes a hit, every time she can see the mission weighing on him.

“Okay then,” Shepard concedes. “You worry about me, and I’ll worry about you. I still haven’t forgotten that krogan charge, you know.” He gets to his feet, wavering slightly, and holds out a hand. “Shake on it?”

She rises to meet him, folding his hand between both of her own. She can feel the warmth of him faintly through her gloves. She can also feel the fine tremor running down his arm; it makes her frown. He really shouldn’t be up like this.

She clasps his hand and then releases it. She’s getting better at handshakes.

“It’s a deal, Shepard. Now, come on, you’d better get some rest.” She nudges him in the side with her elbow, but gently, gently. Enough to tease. Not enough to knock off balance, especially when he’s wavering slightly as it is.

“All right, all right,” says Shepard, half-protesting, half-laughing. He still looks tired, but the color is coming back to his face, and by the time they reach the elevator, he’s walking more steadily.

He gets off at the second deck to head to his quarters, but as he steps out of the elevator, he reaches out to clap her arm. “Thanks, Tali, for looking out for me. See ya.”

“No problem,” Tali says, and she watches him go, feeling pleased. He’ll be back and fighting in a few hours, she is certain of it. And they are one step closer to their enemy.

Most pilgrimages, she reflects, do not end up with one engineering on a human-turian ship, fighting geth and mysterious enemies, working with krogan and asari, serving under a human commander. Most pilgrimages do not require facing certain death on a daily basis, trying to save the galaxy. Most pilgrimages are a little less invested in a certain human’s smile.

But this one is hers, and right now, she thinks she’ll take it.

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