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XANDDDDERRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!
OKAY SO--- for one thing I have a tag for him on here that’s xander (train’s version) (we see a pattern here lol) also my old rp blog for him is @andhaert which has some things like headcanons and aesthetics.
For starters I use Liam James, especially in his role as Billy Bennett, for my actor for Xander for a few reasons:
1. It helps mentally separate this version of Xander from canon!Xander who we all know is Very Contentious whether you think he should be or not, also helps to separate Xander from the actions of his original actor Nicholas Brendan. This is kind of a standard practice in the tumblr rp world (swapping out your actor when you find out the original is Kinda Yikes) where I started to develop my Xander Concepts more coherently and it’s stuck.
2. I think Liam works really well as an actor for Xander both in looks and acting and his role as Billy really highlights it as they’re similar characters.
3. It’s probably his most prominent role atm that I know of so it’s the easiest to get content for. He also works for me as Xander with his normal brown hair but the mohawk is the dominant look.
Moving on from there I really just like..... think about Xander in terms of what we know about him factually and textually and then separate that from the Whedon and 90s teen male tv character taints. Whedon has said that Xander is like, mary sue-ish self insert of his high school self and i feel like it shows and frankly holds his character back a LOT. I’m actually a rabid Xander stan I think he has a lot of potential and good in him. I just feel like both the writers and the fandom don’t really uh..... wanna actually engage with it or his character lol.
We know canonically that Xander comes from a poor, abusive and unstable household. We see in the show evidence of verbal and emotional abuse and heavy neglect. There’s literally a scene somewhere in S1 or S2 that I don’t wanna spend and hour finding in the transcripts where he has to remind his own mom she has a son which is played for comedy but is like um... WOW. It’s implied both of his parents are alcoholics and honestly I think his father is physically abusive (I can’t remember if it’s actually canon or not but it just you know, the Vibe is There).
I don’t think we really see? A lot of that? In how he acts? Like we do see some of it but say, compared to how much the show loves to gorge itself on Buffy’s trauma the amount of time spent on Xander’s trauma and struggles at home is laughable.
So I tend to write Xander as the true ADHD loser burnout he is and things like the dyed mohawk, ratty clothes, punk shirts and bands and skater energy Billy has just like.... Works™ for Xander. Same with the ADHD energy. Xander strikes me as a kid from a bad home with learning disabilities who’s given up on school and has turned to staying out of the house as much as possible, weed/substances, and acting out for attention as ways to cope with his shitty life. He’s sad and desperate and begging for someone to care about him and the only person who does truly give a shit about him when we meet him is Willow with whom he’s in a kinda co-dependent clingfest with because of the huge amount of insecurities they both have.
I’m genuinely sad we didn’t get skater!Xander for the whole high school era and i’m making it happen for society. It fits in soooo well with the whole Vibe the show is going for. Also I made him worse and now he likes Ska because it’s the 90s and also just look at him. Ofc Xander would like Ska. It also adds in some interesting shit with the Xander-Spike dynamic to have Xander more on the ska/skater/burnout end of punk and spike on the more trad/this is a sociopolitical statement/i’m here for the ART side of punk. It does NOT give them an immediate middle ground but it DOES give them the ability to clock each other in 0.00005 seconds. Like Spike sees him in a Descendants shirt and is like “oh I immediately know everything i need to know about you now”.
I also just think it’s more real????? I find generally with people/kids that part of why they get into subculture and special interests and such is to Cope with things. I will never forget when this dude in high school basically told me he was so in the paint for sonic the hedgehog because it was the only thing keeping him fucking sane and it altered my whole fucking concept of life and reality. I physically cannot look at sonic the same now and every time I see it I think of him and all the other people who’re into it and I’m just like “godspeed mother fuckers may you find peace in those fucking emeralds”.
Even while trying to remove the elements of his character that I think are like, creator or era taint that tends to end up skewing the conversation around him from actually being about him to being about Other Shit I don’t remove his dogshit creeper energies in like, high school, especially 1x1 to 1x6. They get better over time sure but I think it’s important to show that side of him. His dad is the Worst and Jesse-- one of his ONLY friends-- is a Massive Creep and he’s a Teen Boy. It’s really not that shocking that when he’s like 16 he just.... Sucks So Bad. All teens Kinda Suck, it’s literally part of growing up. It’s things tho like The Pack that help to start not just him changing but galvanizing others into looking out for him more.
(including the gifs as breaks in the behemoth lol kill meeeeee)
For one thing I will die on the hill that XANDER WAS ALSO A VICTIM OF THE HYENA POSSESSION AND THE SA ATTEMPT. That’s not something he’d do, want to do or ever try to do and it occurred while he did not have full autonomous control of his actions. I’ve seen some REAL DOGSHIT TAKES ON THIS ONE AND I WILL SHOOT ON SIGHT OVER THIS.
I tend to see him trying to cover it up as him trying to compartmentalize and repress the trauma of it instead of whatever the fuck THAT was in the show. I also think it really only works for so long before he loses it because I don’t think he can look Buffy in the eye without mcfucking losing it because he just feels so awful about it. Which is what prompts like..... the only moment of Giles giving a shit about Xander because he talks to him about it and helps him find a way to get some help (be it Giles himself or whatever professional-ish help they can get him given his situation and the desire to keep his parents out of it).
And that’s one of the huge differences in My Xander™ just like, he fucking-- he fucking SEES the fucking guidance counselor or some shit for you know, THE CHILD ABUSE, NEGLECT AND SA TRAUMA. Which I mean... he probably should’ve been already give how guidance counselors work but dskjghsdkfj shhhhhhh. It’s then with that, friendship, dating Cordy and Time that he starts to get less and less shitty and more Baby Boy Little Guy Meow Meow Deluxe. He still cheats on Cordy and says shitty stuff but like... there’s a noticeable overall improvement in him over S1 to S3. He’s not getting full on grade A therapy and all that but like, he’s being given a sounding board and some tools and the thing is that Xander at his core IS A VERY GOOD AND SWEET PERSON!!!! So really it’s just all about getting him to a place where all the bullshit beaten into him by his dad and SoCieTy is out of the way so he can Be A Good Boy™.
I maintain his crush on Buffy and his struggle with it over the years but I also have it kinda Die finally around S4 and then not hang around as a weird Complex for the rest of the fucking series. Seeing how he absolutely fumbled his whole relationship with Cordy and then how his relationship with Anya is going in Some Kind of Direction it all helps to finally shut the door on that for him and he really whole chestedly embraces his role as best friendboy after that. I think especially around then when he’s being a MANIAC trying to save up to gtfo out his parents’ house and Buffy’s having a Crisis about like... being a votech gal in academic world they really hardcore bond. They’re both smart but neither of them are really made for academics or classical office vibe jobs and it’s just something people like Willow and Giles will never get. It’s basically ADHD kid solidarity and they’re finally able to achieve their final friendship form without his pining issues out of the way.
I think also to make Spike’s Yoko Factor Nonsense make ANY sense Xander should actually BE SEEN CONSIDERING JOINING THE MILITARY and it’s ENTIRELY because they have that whole recruitment thing of like “join up and we pay for your education/board/etc” and he’s DESPERATE to get out of his shitty home life. Like he cannot get a half decent job for more than a fucking week, he’s desperate for money and stability and idk he didn’t die that one time on halloween and he monster hunts w/o dying either so maybe he can handle this???? and finally Escape????? but then there’s a lot of Classic Xander Strife around the choice and a genuine fear that if he leaves they’ll just... get on with their lives just fine. which would be crushing for him, that he contributed so little they just kept going with out a hitch.
Season 5 to Season 7 is really where Xander for me comes out to be just like.... the carebear godsend hero that he’s supposed to be. Like he’s talked about as the Heart of the Scoobies and Buffy’s metaphorical heart but while he does do a solid job mirroring/expressing/etc her heart he’s kind of a shitty one for the group. Like if he’s supposed to be the MOST EMPATHETIC SCOOBY IN THE GANG THEN JFC YIKES.
By S5 everyone else’s lives are like, officially starting to fall apart while Xander’s is getting more certain and more together. He’s like, Maturing. Like a fine Faygo. And even better he’s finding the balance between being Goofy Silly Mohawk Nerd Xander and like, Adult Big Boy Xander. I think that Xanya and Spuffy should be even BIGGER parallels especially in this season with Xanya being like the more wholesome human/demon romantic relationship dynamic-- basically PROVING that it CAN work-- something that can then be used to lampshade the issue in S6 when Spuffy enter toxic hookup hell. What Spike is asking for ISN’T insane, Xander and Anya ARE DOING IT!! wHaT’s ThE pRoBlEm BuFfY?!?!?!
But Anya’s human you say!!! it’s totally different!!!
Shut the fuck up she was a demon for 1,000 years, had a soul the whole time and never once feels bad for her past actions. She’s in the same boat as Spike you’re just a sheeple falling prey to the broken ass soul propaganda.
It’s also an opportunity with the solidification of his relationship with Anya as like Something Real and not young adult horny relationshiping to show how he really is as a person. Less of the belittling “helpful” comments and more him just like, genuinely LISTENING to her and LEARNING her language like we see him do when he’s Suave!Xander in 5x3. like he Hears her and then is able to almost IMMEDIATELY understand what she’s actually saying/where her anxiety is coming from. I love the idea of Xander basically always being the most kneejerk reactionary to all situations and sometimes saying Dumb Shit because of that but then also being the only one who’s brave enough to then circle back later and reevaluate his stance.
Like he’ll say something that hurts someone’s feelings then be willing to circle back unprompted and look at himself with harsh honesty and see what he did and what’s going on with him then act accordingly and adjust/apologize/reconsider his stance/etc. Basically if Buffy is a bleeding heart then Xander should be too and the thing that makes him The Heart™ and not Buffy is that unlike her he is unwilling or unable to close off his heart to anything. Buffy can face off against the hordes of Hell but will collapse under the threat of emotional honesty with even herself. Xander was raised in Hell and not unlike Angel tbh, has to constantly reevaluate his like Whole Existence to make sure he’s not becoming what he hates-- the very real and human monstrosity that his parents represent.
His whole goal in life is to not be his father. His superpower that not even Buffy has is that he’s so incredibly brave in the face of human evil, human cruelty AND emotional vulnerability. He’s been mocked, ridiculed, bullied and tormented his entire life and he’s still stayed big hearted and intensely kind when it counted his entire life. He’s open, thoughtful, understanding, empathetic and more than willing and able to put himself in the other guy’s shoes. Something none of the others can manage like... at all lol. His relationship with Anya should be in part about showing us this and it only fails because he’s like what... 21? and still working through all his bullshit around his shitty family. Not because they were a broken couple which is more the show vibe no matter how they wanna pretend like he wasn’t a shitty boyfriend to Anya for 2 seasons lol.
I think it’s important in the back end to have at least one of them still semi-functional and Xander’s already been living in “I have to do something about my life bc otherwise I will Become That Which I Fear” hell since high school. He’s the furthest along on that road and the emotional anchor of the group so ofc he fucking sam gamgee carries them all up the side of mt doom for like 2 solid seasons lol.
my depiction of Xander is always about healing, growth and the power of empathy, love and kindness. I feel like making him more subculture-y and with a certain amount of substance abuse (weed and booze mainly) makes sense given his history. I think he’s the foil to Angel and Spike (and Giles in someways) and their own explorations around toxic masculinity and masculinity in general. He unpacks the damage done by his father way more efficiently than Angel ever does and he learns how to be more emotionally open without reflexive retaliation when hurt than Spike does. He’s very much trying to get to this place where “I am. And that is enough.” sits well in his chest and permeates his life. Which is more than anyone else in either series can say LOL.
Also just like.... make the whole Xander vs the trio toxic nerd boy culture meta discussion thing actually WORK.
He also highlights in the narrative the idea of there always being another option. He’s not living the expected college life. He’s not acting or dressing like society thinks he should. He’s also found a way to thrive via construction/carpentry and finds a happy place between growing up and not giving up all the things he likes that can be considered childish or lame. He also hasn’t compromised his personality or identity to “be more mature” or “act like an adult”. He refutes the ideas that Giles keeps expressing about what he (Giles) has to do as an Adult or what Buffy should now be capable of as one by just like being a Cringey Little Dude and also Pay Taxes On Time. Like Spike he’s living and working in defiance of a society that has done nothing but hurt him but unlike Spike he’s coming from a place of optimism and compassion.
Xander SHOULD be friend shaped. He and Tara SHOULD be the go-tos on all things emotional. He should be kind, creative, open minded, empathetic, and loving all while also being Kind of a Dick sometimes. When the writers talk about how when they wanted to make the audience upset/riot they’d just put Willow in danger or emotional distress -- by the end of the show that should be Xander!!!!!! by S7 I should be RIOTING if Xander is in danger!!!!!
Also the faith-xander victims of child abuse self recognition via the other vibes oh god the faith-xander victims of child abuse self recognition via the other vibes
He’s just a silly little guy!!!! just a fun little boy!!!! just a harmless little fun-time boy!!!!!! you wouldnt sentence a silly harmless little fun-time boy!!!!! its his birthday!!!!!!
GOD THIS ISN’T EVEN ALL OF IT BUT I LOST MY TRAIN OF THOUGHT AND THIS IS SOOOOOOO LONG ALREADY FUCK
(last gif for the road bc this is massive Xander/Cordelia energy)
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for A-Z OC meme, L.
Okay!
::pulls out mental list::
So, the obvious choice would be Lavinia, but I've talked about her here enough before so moving on XD
I did have an AtLA OC back in the day named Li-Hua; I don't remember much about her other than she was like the generation after the gaang; she was a firebender but barely used it, and she managed a theatre. She also ended up hopping timelines and getting written into a LOK RP at one point. (there were probably others; i had a lot of OCs in this fandom in particular, but most of the ones i'm coming up with do not have names starting with L)
Lariel is cheating because even though she was Kind Of a Supernatural OC she was really from another canon who was named for crossover purposes and then stuck around and became an Easter egg character (and I never actually wrote her into anything, just her demon counterpart Tesriel).
When we get to my original stuff--there's Lonura; mistress/girlfriend/paramour of a main character's older sister; is a sound-mage which mostly works out to be like Bardic Gift in Valdemar, but can also be things like mimicry and Directly Manipulating Sound (i.e., she can turn sound inward on itself, so something that should make a noise doesn't; also things like ventriloquism are Much easeir lol). She's sweet and steady and very much in love with Nolani; very aware of the potential pitfalls of her magic and rarely uses it.
Lif, from the same canon, is the youngest sister of two other major characters; she's an air-mage and a dancer, sometimes a prostitute. Her sisters are a War Hero and the eventual Clan Head respectively, but she's much happier with a quieter life. There's also some stuff tied into her story about the way Unthreaded mages (meaning mages with powers that are not the dominant/native element for that area) are treated in their culture.
Lux is. Well. She's Lucifer. A bunch of Our Angels Are Different tied into how this story works.
Laura Sanchez, from the same canon, is married to the Guardian, who keeps track of the family of humans who descend from Simon, an immortal (nephil) who keeps getting his memory erased. She ends up basically bullying the Archangel Gabriel into helping her track down her husband after the Horsemen (distant cousins of his) kidnap him. She's a reporter, the daughter of a diplomat, and she and her husband have two or three kids and a handful of grandchildren.
Larien is an extremely cold, calculating person--except where his wife is concerned. He's the king of a nation with a history of war with one of its neighbors; there was a treaty in his parents' generation that tried to solve it (basically, the then-kings; Larien's father and uncle; exchanged sisters as brides. It didn't work). Everything he does, he does for at least three reasons and he's thought it through (again, except for marrying Metanrye). He does love his brothers (half-brother Tahnrin and full-brother Idan; Idan is currently Missing) and his two daughters, but is mostly focused on winning the game, so to speak.
Landelye is the elder of Larien's two daughters. Elanhean succession follows essentially Salic law, meaning that she can't inherit, but she's aware her father is Considering changing the law--if she proves she's worth upending centuries of tradition. Her bastard uncle Tahnrin is the other candidate; they are having a very subtle war for the throne in the background of the wider political complications. Which include possible war with Nandere and some impending Major Drama with the Church. ...also, she and her uncle are both in love with/sleeping with the same main character. They like him (and the potential political advantages he could bring) enough to share, despite cordially despising one another.
...I think that's everyone whose name starts with an L, at least when it comes to Significant characters (or characters with close ties to Significant characters, lol). Though it's entirely possible I've missed someone...
Ask me about my OCs!
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#5
Further feeling like my initial thoughts about fandom culture and especially the pro/anti debate were not unfounded.
Haven't even gotten to the uncensored manuscript and I'm already seeing parallels.
This is one of the critical responses quoted in the forward to the published version of the book:
Why go grabbing in muck-heaps? The world is fair, and the proportion of healthy-minded men and women to those that are foul, fallen, or unnatural is great. Mr. Oscar Wilde has again been writing stuff that were better unwritten; and while The Picture of Dorian Gray, which he contributes to Lippincott's, is ingenious, interesting, full of cleverness, plainly the work of a man of letters, it is false art--for its interest is medico-legal; it is false to human nature--for its hero is a devil; it is false to morality--for it is not made sufficiently clear that the writer does not prefer a course of unnatural iniquity to a life of cleanliness, health, and sanity. The story--which deals with matters only fitted for the Criminal Investigation Department or a hearing in camera [out of public scrutiny]--is discreditable alike to author and editor. Mr. Wilde has brains, and art, and style; but if he can write for none but outlawed noblemen and perverted telegraph boys, the sooner he takes to tailoring (or some other decent trade) the better for his own reputation and the public morals.
-Unsigned notice of The Picture of Dorian Gray, Scots Observer, July 5, 1890; rpt. in Oscar Wilde: The Critical Heritage, ed. Beckson, pp. 68-69.
Why do people, then and now, lack so much nuance?
Dorian Gray starts out relatable. But Wilde ensures that by the end he has done worse than what most readers would imagine themselves capable. Even if we were to live in a society in which it was ok to simply do whatever we wanted with no consequences, most of us would not want to kill, or to cheat, or to lie, or drive another to suicide with our words, or descend into the kind of self-destructive paranoia that consumes Dorian Gray.
Can we not read this book like a tragedy? Why must we assume the protagonist is a hero? Why is it we expect morality to be spoonfed to us in literature? Why must a book contain a moral lesson at all? Why can't a book exist for the artistry? The way it makes you think? The way it makes you reexamine yourself and your place in the world?
I'm sad we haven't changed in hundreds of years. But, I suppose, I'm not surprised.
18 notes - Posted September 9, 2022
#4
Now that authors are revealed, here's the obligatory "I wrote it!" post.
I participated in the Dark Pride of Dimensions discord server's "Dark Valentines of Dimensions" Gift Exchange this year, and got to write for the fantastic @kaibacorpintern.
Title: Heartsick
Rated: G
Tags: Prideshipping (Yami Yugi/Atem | Seto Kaiba), Seto Kaiba, Atem, Isono, Sugoroku Muto, Mokuba Kaiba, Post-Dark Side of Dimensions, COVID-19, phone calls & telephones, anxiety, work skin
Summary: It's 2021, and Seto Kaiba finally returned from a ten year voyage through spacetime with his longtime rival in his arms. His trip to Aaru was a success.
However, there's no time to celebrate in a world that has changed so drastically in the time since he left.
Excerpt
“Kaiba.”
There was static on the other line, as the caller hesitated to speak. Kaiba thumbed towards the end call button, but stopped when a familiar voice greeted him.
"Mr. Kaiba, this is Sugoroku Muto.” Seto blinked. “Atem, the uh Pharaoh, knocked on my door today with your number in his…” Sugoroku hesitated for a second before settling on “pocket.”
...
“May I speak to him?” Seto interrupted. He’d been able to communicate then. Maybe he could continue to do so now.
“Sure,” Sugoroku said. There was a shuffling sound as the phone was passed to Atem.
“Hello.” Atem’s voice sounded in Kaiba’s ear, and Kaiba confirmed that whatever language Atem spoke, he could understand him. Other than that, his thoughts had gone blank, and his chest clenched in anticipation.
“Hello,” he replied dumbly in Ancient Egyptian. “How are you doing?”
Read it on AO3.
21 notes - Posted February 16, 2022
#3
So I'm rewatching One Piece with my friend. We are watching the fumimation dub because of accessibility reasons, which is a new experience for me because my initial watch through was the sub (is? Obviously it's ongoing)
Anyway we just finished Arlong Park and I'm having thoughts about many things, but especially Sanji and also zosan as a ship.
I forgot how much of an actual dipshit Sanji is verbally to Zeff and the cooks and everyone. It's sort of easy to gloss over in the subs, but the swearing in the dub is way more jarring. But Sanji undoubtedly cares about them still. Immensely.
I remember making an offhand comment when Sanji gets so distracted worried about Zoro's wounds from Mihawk that he takes a hard punch in his fight against the guy he's facing (I forget his name, forgive me): something like "remember when Sanji cared about Zoro?"
[To be fair, Sanji takes big risks for everyone but Usopp during that fight, so it's not just Zoro, and I don't think his actions are intended to be read shippy (Usopp is elsewhere, so he has no reason to help him.) I think this is meant to further establish Sanji's kindness and specific morality, which is narratively both his strength and his weakness, just like Zoro getting lost or Nami with money.]
But then later Sanji is biting at Zoro, and maybe it's the English helping me out, because I know calls Zoro a shitty swordsman in both, but it seems WAY more endearing, way more like how Sanji is with Zeff than being openly hostile as I had initially interpreted it?
I guess I just find it interesting, an aspect of the ship I hadn't thought about before? Like zosan always felt like one of those ships I like because of the fandom. There is a lot of good content for it, but a lot of it feels truly transformative, breathing a different life into the characters than I see on the screen. That's not bad! I honestly like fandom Sanji better than canon Sanji most days, and zosan is part of that.
I'm super curious about what the translation will be like when we get to Sanji's experience during the timeskip. Maybe it's me projecting or reading in too far or wishful thinking because I want Sanji to not be Like That.
Anyway makes me want to write and explore Sanji's character (again). But like, don't expect anything I'm busy af 😂
37 notes - Posted July 1, 2022
#2
Who the fuck bandaged Zoro like that? Why is he with Sanji?
Law fucking had him. They disappeared and now Zoro is bandaged like a fucking cross and Sanji has him.
Did Law treat him like that and then give him to Sanji? Or did he just dump him on Sanji and call it a fucking day and Sanji did...whatever?
One thing we do know...Law ships zosan.
92 notes - Posted September 25, 2022
My #1 post of 2022
So I have gotten to a part in The Picture of Dorian Gray where the neighborhood Picadilly is mentioned. I am also doing Dracula Daily, and so the fact that there is a foot note regarding Picadilly is interesting to me. Because well...*motions at the burglary at the Picadilly House*
Apparently, this is a preeminent street, filled with fashion and high members of society, which all tracks with the difficulties the Dracula guys face entering it and sealing away the soil in the boxes.
....but also, Picadilly is apparently famous for male prostitutes.
Dracula would have been much different if this knowledge were available to our protags, I think.
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A year ago you answered an ask about people hating you for liking Bradley that popped up on a search of mine and you said there that "some Colin fans think you can't like Colin if you don't hate Bradley" and I was wondering why? Like did Bradley do something to Colin? Aren't they friends or at least friendly? There also seems to be some hate for Bradley around the same time period and I was wondering what happened.
Hello!
No, there was no enmity between Bradley and Colin. As far as we know, they were always good friends. Relatively recently, Bradley said that he and Colin don't see each other that often anymore but when they do meet up, they go right back to their old ways, so there is no bad blood between them, just normal life setting them on diverging paths.
As for that whole gigantic mess, what happened is that there was this group of Bradley antis (mostly on Twitter but some spilled on to Tumblr too) who were engaging in mass hysteria, taking harmless things he'd said out of context, giving them the worst possible spin and literally making up things to make him seem like the devil. They made Katie McGrath and Colin Morgan into their mascots and devolved into pure tinhatting and personal RPS fanfiction of how Katie and Colin hate Bradley, how they are disgusted with him and how his attempts to keep in contact with them are annoying to them. Mind you, there is zero evidence of this whatsoever, it was all malicious fantasies on their part. This is where the Colin vs. Bradley nonsense originated from, there was never any actual beef between the two of them that the public knows of. The reason I said what I said was because this particular group of Colin's 'fans' (note the quotation marks) was sending me anti-Bradley anons and when I pointed out the holes in their reasoning, they called me anti-Colin, which is just ????????
According to them, because Bradley was unimpressed with the writing for Arthur's romance with Gwen and vaguely expressed it during filming, of course he was a racist. During the early years of the fandom, rabid Brolin shippers (as in shipping Colin and Bradley, not their characters) who don't know how to behave and have no boundaries stalked and harassed them, their real or rumoured girlfriends, friends and family members. This led to Colin and Bradley avoiding appearing in public together and discussing Merthur as freely as they used to. Of course, this meant that Bradley was a homophobe. This, in turn, meant that all fans of Bradley and Arthur were also racists and homophobes, so these toxic assholes descended in droves to harass fic writers and other content makers into changing their usernames or leaving the platform all together. One beloved content creator was openly dealing with mental health issues and particularly vulnerable and they came to her inbox with the worst kind of bullying, including telling her to kill herself, and eventually driving her out of the fandom. They were awful and it was disgusting.
As a side episode to this dumpster fire, Alexander Vlahos was also a mascot for this particular group for a while there. It does seem that there is at least some bad blood between him and Bradley because at the time, when the Merthur/Brolin shippers were harassing real people, he would not stop fueling it and bringing it up, even after he was asked not to by Bradley and Colin, so Bradley unfollowed him on social media. This, of course, caused the antis to latch on to him as some saint, especially since he indulged their nonsense and got himself involved in the fan war, saying some really mean-spirited things about Bradley and Arthur as a 'joke'. This lasted until he stopped cooperating with their agenda and refuted their pet lesbian!Morgana fan theory, at which point he also became the devil.
During the BLM protests, they went on Bradley's Twitter, Instagram, YT and FB to hurl abuse at him directly because he was a white man and (according to them) not doing enough to be a spokesperson for the movement. Mind you, Bradley had expressed his support for the movement on social media and liked and reblogged posts to this effect, he just never took on an active and visible spokesperson role. He (or his team) also deleted the toxic deluge the antis left in his comments section and blocked the most vocal harassers, which just set them off even more and it was full-on delusional thinking from these people on all social media platforms.
Anyway, I have not encountered any of this bunch in a while now, so I am assuming they grew up, moved on, or got the psychiatric help they so desperately needed. Either that, or I finally managed to block the right people.
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Hey Emily,
How have you been? It's been many months since I've last talked to you, and I'm sure you've forgotten about me now. I haven't forgotten you though. Thanks for kicking me out of the server at 3 AM when I, like any rational person would be sleeping. Thanks for being a near-likeness of my bullies, who didn't believe in talking things out. I would have left if y'all told me to leave. You didn't have to kick me out and give me a chance to respond. I was very upset, because I considered you guys nice people. You are nice, just not good.
You don't even have to respond to this, I just wanted you know. I don't hate you, and going so far as to block me was kinda rude. I just wanted someone to understand and tell me where I went wrong, and obviously you guys were so superior you couldn't tell me. Don't do what you did to me to other people. Not everyone grew up in America, not everyone understands your stance. Explain.
I hope that you and the others have a wonderful time regardless, you seemed very close-knit!!
Love,
Sol
PS. Blocking me won't help, I've already blocked you here.
Ok so I mulled over whether I respond to this but I feel like it’s important that I at least say something. This is for @/kayan-writes. I know you already blocked me but just in case you see this. I also advocate everyone else to just block them. Don’t harass them in anyway shape or form.
So…
I used to have a semi-public discord server, and I allowed most people who asked join it. They had to be 18+ ofc. Everything with Sol seemed fine at first, and the server carried on its merry way.
Then, they made the server uncomfortable especially towards those who were poly (censored their names to maintain privacy)
Then there are the major offenses.
The first time they did something wrong: we were talking about a certain blog in the fandom who allowed minors into their server. They mentioned that they’d allow minors if they were to make one. I talked to them in private and learned they just turned 18 and had friends who were still 17. So that was their line of thinking. I explained that there’s a difference between interacting with friends (minors they were friends with when they were a minor) and any minor they encountered in the future. I thought they learned when I explained, and I told them to make sure they think before they post something in the server.
The second time: I allowed the Tupperbox bot into the server after everyone asked. Cool, chill. We used it to make an rp channel and some of the peeps used it to be like the Obey Me boys. Well they used it as an opportunity to bring a Luke bot in the server. WILDLY INAPPROPRIATE IN A NSFW SERVER! so again I had to have another conversation with them.
At this point I should have removed them from the server. But I explained to them about the situation and I warned them saying if they did something bad again that I’d kick them out.
So things went back to normal. Then…National Native American heritage day. The explosion that ended up killing my server.
I stepped away from the server because I was having bad panic attacks. The mood of the server was sour, and everyone thought it’d be a good idea to send some memes into the chat. Well, Sol sent a meme with a swastika in it and a colonizer meme
It was wrong. And they should have known it was wrong. They say they weren’t American so they didn’t know about the history of the US. But at the very least, they should have known that a meme with a swastika in it would be wrong to do. What made it all the more worse, I had a descendent of Jewish relatives and a Native person (Sour/@goththem) in the server.
This was the third time I got onto Sol. I warned them I would do this. I didn’t have to give them chances. I stated in my rules for the server that I had the right to kick anyone out with out warning.
In any case, I don’t have to explain why something was wrong. I was tired of giving second chances. In this ask, it seems they understand now what they did wrong and yet they still think I should have sat them down like a parent to a child and explain why what they did was bad.
I never bullied them. I tried to give them teaching moments. I GAVE THEM CHANCES!
I kicked them out of the server at 3 am THEIR TIME. It wasn’t 3 am where I was. I wasn’t going to wait until 3 am my time to ask them to leave the server. I blocked them because they hurt my friends. To the point where my best friend (Sour) felt uncomfortable being in the server bc everyone started to squabble about the entire ordeal. Eventually, I had to kill the server bc it became so toxic.
I don’t have to explain my stance ever. No one does. No one has to explain their pain to the person who inflicted it. No one has to explain how something was offensive. After seeing everyone’s response, they didn’t research themselves on what they did was wrong and didn’t apologize for any of it. Ignorance isn’t an excuse. And I wasn’t going to stand for it.
I’m not negating their feelings of being upset. But that’s not going to guilt trip me into thinking what I did was wrong.
Honestly, I should have intervened sooner. A part of me is still haunted after all that happened, and I share part of the blame for hurting my friends. I could have done more and I didn’t. For that I’m sorry to them.
I’m not sorry for banning/blocking them. For kicking them out. I just wish I did it sooner.
Some of this may seem redundant. I tried to keep my composure writing this, but I was mad when I received this in my inbox. I thought about responding. And now I am.
Again, don’t interact with them. Don’t send hate. Just block them and move about your day
#emily speaks#i’ll probably delete this later#but I need to say it in case my name gets dragged through the mud
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Which muse(s) is/are your favourite(s)? / Do you have any original characters on your multimuse? If so, tell us something more about them.
ASKS FOR PEOPLE WITH A MULTIMUSE OR MULTIPLE RP BLOGS
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1. Which muse(s) is/are your favourite(s)?
Already answered!
11. Do you have any original characters on your multimuse? If so, tell us something more about them.
I have three currently! Uhhh-
Tobias Bellamy is based on a different OC from a writing project I’ve been tackling on and off for like....10 years? and I’m thinking about maybe starting from scratch very soon. He’s actually more like a descendant- Roget Bellamy, the original, was a French undertaker living and working in London who often gave his assistance to a young detective. Except that the original had a wife and children. They have the same cat though because he’s based on my first cat!
Initially he was inspired by a guest lecturer we had at uni one day. Absolutely no memory of what he talked about, only that he had the softest, most soothing french accent I’d ever heard in my life.
Camniel originally started as a Good Omens muse but has since gone on to become his own entity, though he does still have a GOmens verse! I created him when the fandom was kind of at its peak, when the show had just been released, because although I had Aziraphale I just wanted more of that universe! Sadly I never got to actually insert him into that universe very much, but he became a muse who I love dearly!
I kind of feel like both Camniel and Tobias are my way of expressing optimism, because I’m not always that good at doing so in real life? I also liked the idea of there being at least one Archangel who wasn’t a bastard and actually likes Earth.
And then there’s Drew MacFusty, who literally jumped out at me all because I was flicking through my copy of Fantastic Beasts for a reference. I stumbled across the dragon entry which vaguely mentioned a wizard clan that watch over the dragon population in the Hebrides and I thought: I Want To Expand On This, because J.K hasn’t, probably won’t and doesn’t really deserve to. And I love a Scottish accent. I’m weak. He’s a lot rougher than the other two, a teeny tiny bit of another OC bleeding into him who I actually used to have the same FC for before I changed it up, but equally as cheerful! A lot less of a bastard than the other OC, apparently I only use the nice ones on Tumblr, but he’s also a lot louder than the other two and much less reserved, so he’s quite fun to write!
I have plenty of English muses, two Scots and one Irish muse. Now I just need a Welsh muse to complete the set ;)
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#collidingxworlds#I do in fact have a welsh OC but she's not been developed much and probably won't show up here lol#swiggity swag it's a personal tag ; ooc
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𝐠𝐞𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐮𝐧 ! !
——— BASICS ! ♡
(PEN)NAME : charlie.
PRONOUNS : she / her.
ZODIAC SIGN : pisces.
TAKEN OR SINGLE : single.
——— THREE FACTS ! ♡
i work in an actual medieval castle.
i used to help fire a trebuchet daily.
i’m ace af.
——— EXPERIENCE ! ♡
oh man, lots. i have been roleplaying since i was like 12 ish? one day my best friend at school came into class and was like ‘i found this great thing called online roleplay’ and then our entire friend group joined myspace rp and did a lot of fucking shit i’m not proud of because we were 12/13 year old girls with no idea about the internet. i’m now coming up 28 in just over a month, so i’ve been at this for about 15 years. i’ve been on myspace, neopets boards, proboards, gaia forums, facebook, twitter, i think even bebo once, and i have been roleplaying on tumblr since 2011 so wow it’s my ten year anniversary of joining tumblr. i’ve spent so many years of my life on this hellsite and i’ve been through so many fandoms. up until recently i probably would have said this one was the best, but since the recent spate of anon hate and shit i’m not so sure anymore. i’ve never got anon hate until i joined the descendants fandom so idk what y’all are doing.
——— MUSE PREFERENCE ! ♡
gorls. and that’s honestly just the theme of my life. i don’t mean for it to come out that way but i will say there’s probably a 75/25 split on whether my muses are female or not. i like angry girls, i like girls who deserved better (which is all of them in popular media really). i just really like playing girls. i do have a type for male muses, i’m not gonna lie. it tends to be soft bois, or their sarcastic, angry and/or abused friends. if you ask me nicely, i’ll play a real villain- but tumblr doesn’t actually like to see those because they do problematic things. and we all know writing about problematic things means condoning them. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
——— FLUFF / ANGST / SMUT ! ♡
FLUFF : fluff and slice of life stuff is fun, but it doesn’t do much. there’s very little in there that develops characterisation most of the time. it’s nice to write, and it can be something useful to a character, especially if they’re not used to softness. but too much of it just rots my teeth, you know? i’m easily bored of it.
ANGST : i love angst, i really do. i feel like it’s the easiest way to actually develop characters. give them stakes, give them drama, give them pain in getting to what they want because life isn’t easy and what’s the point of roleplaying working towards a goal if there aren’t stumbling blocks??? give me developmental angst all the time!!
SMUT : i actually really like smut. i’m not great at writing it, and i’m one of those people who learned how to write it from reading it and a lot of other people writing it aren’t very good either. as with anything, though, it can get a little bit samey if done too often. and recently the idea of it has been making me anxious as fuck. i wonder why 🤔🤔🤔. so we’ll see where it goes from here. i also really have to be in the mood to write smut because sometimes my ace brain decides that today we’re going to be sex repulsed and not want to touch it with a ten foot pole.
PLOT / MEMES : both. i’m not going to lie, when i made this blog i wanted it to be plot heavy because i seem to end up with too many other things going on and it just weighs me down, but then i love getting memes, i love the mystery. but i do find that without purpose, meme threads tend to die out faster than plotted threads. so if you’re looking for a sign to come poke me about a plot. do it. do it now.
tagged by : @tiderider 💙
tagging : anyone who wants to.
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𝐠𝐞𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐮𝐧 ! !
——— BASICS ! ♡
(PEN)NAME : bas
PRONOUNS : she / her
ZODIAC SIGN : leo
TAKEN OR SINGLE : single
——— THREE FACTS ! ♡
I have a JD
I’m asexual
I was a competitive swimmer in high school
——— EXPERIENCE ! ♡
I’ve been roleplaying since around 2009ish. I started out doing character chats on a website called inkpop that allowed young authors to potentially get their work read by publishers and even get a publishing deal. The point was to get your book characters to interact with others so they could be expanded and seem more real. I moved to tumblr around 2010, and started off in a group RP for percy jackson where I played Luke for about five years. I also did regular group rps for OCs, and such. After that I joined the glee fandom and well that was a wild ride. I then attempted indie RP around 2012-13 where I played Adam Milligan and stopped cause the SPN fandom was hard to get into. Then I joined the glee fandom around the same time and did a bunch of RPs there, I also had a roleplay help blog at one point, i tried 1x1s with a few friends but those fizzled out, I also did a few group roleplays for the SPN fandom where I played Adam, and I went back to indie RPing in about 2015 but in the Merlin Fandom where I play Mordred (and still do), from then on its a bunch of different fandoms that i had indie blogs in from a crazy experience in the Kingsman fandom that made me put away my Eggsy muse, to the historic fandom where I play Philippe Duc d’Orleans (can you blame me my FC for him was my Mordred FC), I also had numerous other blogs all on sideblogs now, such as Ender Wiggin, Hugo Cabret, Adam Milligan again. It was playing Philippe that lead me to the descendants fandom in 2017 right after d2 came out. And if you know me I have joined new fandoms, and rejoined some old ones namely PJO as Luke and the Glee fandom.
——— MUSE PREFERENCE ! ♡
I have always preferred male muses. I just have never been able to write good females, even in the books I have I just find myself struggling to write females. I have a total of five female muses that I have written or plan to write. But I tend to gear towards males, who I often see as asexual. These males all vary I have no specific type, though bad pasts tends to be a common theme. I also tend to go with canon muses. I have done a total of three OCs, one was truly an OC of my own creation from a book I was working on he was a “magician” more or less. I still love him. But yeah I would say I tend to lean into fantasy stuff alot more than the mundane. Most of my muses have a supernatural or fantasy element to their world or person.
——— FLUFF / ANGST / SMUT ! ♡
FLUFF : I like fluff. However, I am not a fan of only writing fluff. Fluff is good in moderation for me. If every thread I have with someone is something I see as Fluff then I get bored really easily. And I am not just talking about cute dates, I am talking about fluff after angst where its all I love yous but the angst is never actually written. Fluff is fine, but there has to be some motivation to it, these threads for me tend to fizzle out the fastest because they get really boring. Its why I don’t like rom-coms the plot is fine but I find no real substance to it. That’s how fluff feels for me. If something actiony or adventury doesn’t happen the plot just seems dull and of no use to write.
ANGST : I love writing angst, it is one of the best ways for me to help me build character arcs. Not all angst is actual pain, but I love putting my characters in these situations because it helps them grow. From difficult decisions that impact more than just them, to actual pain and suffering. I like writing it because its interesting to me. I am not a fan of small talk in real life, and angst isn’t small talk its the nitty gritty shit. I think all angst should have an end, but I also am known for coming up with angsty plots upon angsty plots.
SMUT : I used to write smut a very very long time ago, when I was in the glee fandom specifically. I know I know, I was a stupid young person alright. And I wont lie writing the smut that I did, I met some very wonderful people who allowed me to explore my kinks in a very safe environment in a way that I would not have been able to otherwise. I was very sheltered growing up, to the point that I did not know what a hand job was which is important if you know my story, I learned through RP and fanfiction what one was, and what the right terms were. However, that is a time that is in my past, I don’t write it any more, I find it uncomfortable for me personally to write especially since many of my characters are on the ace/demi spectrum. I will write kissing, and steamy moments, but my rule is as soon as your hand goes below the belt the fade to black comes out. If you want to know more of my experience I will gladly share it in private but it is too much for this little meme.
PLOT / MEMES : I love both. I am absolute shit at plotting though. Like we plot, and then I never know who will write the starter. I love plotting though because I love building relationships and characters through plots. When it comes to memes those are honestly the best way to roleplay with me. I may forget them from time to time, and not know how to answer them if they are first interactions, but I try to get to all my memes eventually. They are great ice breakers, and honestly some of my favorite threads come from memes. So send them in.
tagged by : @tiderider (thanks love)
tagging : YOU
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Questions for the mun: ☯️♧♥️♦️☽☺✆❥ ツ
I used completely different emojis for this since I’m on mobile!
☯️: Is there a muse you’ve always wanted to play?
I’ve always tried muses that I think I can play. I don’t think there’s ever been one I’ve really wanted to play before. If I feel like I can give the muse justice then I’ll usually try at least once or twice and if it goes well then I’ll continue, if not then I scrap them.
♣️: Is there an RP partner(s) that you credit for becoming a better writer?
I give every one of my rp partners credit! From when I first started to now! Everyone I have had a positive experience (or not so) and it’s helped me grow as a writer. I might look at how someone writes a dialogue and go “hmm I like that” and I may sample it or tweak it to make it work with me and end up loving it. I couldn’t give just one partner all the credit when every one has had a positive impact on me!
♥️: What’s your favorite ship with your muse?
Ha! I have too many to count with my ocs! But to name a few: (these are also ships from a different rp site as well)
Jatp: CeCe/Reggie (but I do like CeCe/Luke as well), Brynn/Luke, of course Julie/Luke
Marvel: Dillon/Steve, Dillon/Bucky, Dillon/Peter (in an aged down verse)
Descendants: Fae/Carlos, Mayebelle/Gil, Lillie/Jay, Melody/Jay
Those are just a few that I’ve had interaction with and have always loved when I had them.
♦️: What’s an AU that you’ve always wanted?
There’s not really one that I’ve always wanted. I like certain AU (or verses? Those get so mixed up for me) but I do like AUs.
🌙: Do you like writing angst? Why or why not?
Have you met my characters? Most, if not all, go through some type of angst in their lives. I put them through hell and idk why. I don’t know how to explain why I like writing it. I guess cause I like the fluff that happens after or something but my muses go through angst at least one part of their lives. Now whether that’s current or past, or if they’ve grown from it or not, that’s the question that I keep growing.
🙂: What’s a character that you desperately want your muse to play with? Why?
I’m a big shipper sometimes with certain ocs, so if I ship a certain oc with a certain character then I usually desperately want that character. I’ve gotten better at this and try to focus on familial threads of friend threads and such. There’s no certain character. It’s a menagerie.
📞: Other than RPing, what’s a hobby of yours?
Art. When I get the urge to paint, then I love to paint. I love creating different things. So for example; for Christmas I decided to make my coworkers and a few others blankets as presents instead of buying something. And then I’m also trying to paint a few canvases to add JatP lyrics to them.
I am also a movie enthusiast (I guess you can call me that) for certain fandoms so I’ll rewatch movies or shows a lot to pinpoint different details I didn’t catch or like to decipher certain aspects of the movies with friends (I got my best friend and her boyfriend to watch JatP and the entire time we deciphered the costuming, and different aspects)
💞: Has something ever happened to you to hate a ship? Why?
Anything that is taken so far out of context is when I hate ships, or something that doesn’t make sense. I think this is more a fandom thing for me than it is rp wise.
So like Destiel, Dean/Castiel from Supernatural. I’ll admit that is an interesting dynamic. It’s not one I can get behind but I understand and I like reading fanfiction and rps something. But the fans who take Destiel too far and force the actors to like it and such, is why I don’t really like Destiel.
Wincest: Don’t get me started on Wincest!! Just no! Now I have watched fan made videos that I liked the storyline but I just....no....
Another one I can’t stand it Drarry, Draco/Harry from HP. Again; I completely understand the story and what’s behind it but that’s been another that has been pressed and pushed too much.
Now Juke....okay Juke.... I love Juke! Julie and like are such a cute couple and I love their dynamic! But these “fans” who try to force Madison and Charlie to date because they want Juke to be real. Like just stop!
🙃: Who has been your favorite muse to play so far? Why?
Any of my character that are more of the goodie two shows I usually love to play.
But I love playing Dillon, Melody, and all of my characters that are built with a little spice. I can relate to them more because I am quiet but I’m sarcastic.
But I love all my characters fully! And love playing them! I wouldn’t have them if I didn’t!
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I was tagged by @fandom-star
Choose 10 ships without looking at the questions:
1. Jedtavius
2. Trobed
3. Merthur
4. Clex
5. Cain/Glitch
6. Shelnard
7. Qiu Tong / Sun Jing
8. Olicity
9. RumBelle
10. Sherlock Holmes / John Watson (all forms)
1. Do you remember the episode/scene/chapter that you first started shipping 6?
Shelnard - Definitely during season one. The first few seasons were the best as far as their relationship goes; I’ll die mad at how the writers slowly disintegrated their friendship for cheap laughs. All characters should have faults and growth arcs, but Leonard’s passive aggressive “I’m just putting up with you; you’re the worst” attitude broke my shipper heart.
2. Have you ever read a FanFiction about 2?
Trobed - Yes, yes! I found a really good series that updates practically every day, so I’m happy and in awe.
3. Has a picture of 4 ever been your screen saver/profile picture/tumblr?
Clex - Not tumblr, no, but back when I had LiveJournal, I had icons of Lex. I still have a few icons saved.
4. If 7 were to suddenly break-up today, what would your reaction be?
Qiu Tong / Sun Jing - Confident that it’s just a plot device and they’ll be soon back together. They’re canon so… little worries there.
5. Why is 1 so important?
Jedtavius - Mostly because of the people in the fandom!
I’ve been on the internet for a long time and while I’ve read a lot of fics for a variety of shows, there are very few fandoms I ever participated in or felt like I ‘belonged’ in. Shelnard was my first, full of lovely people. I have a soft spot for small fandoms / ships. After Shelnard, I was fandom-homeless for a while before I got into Jedtavius. I’ve met / followed a lot of lovely, talented people.
Also, even if people aren’t actively in the fandom, most people recognize Jedtavius and are fond of the movies. It’s a nice connection to others.
6. Is 9 a funny ship or a serious ship?
RumBelle - Both? They have some funny line exchanges, but mostly their ship is angsty and sweet.
7. Out of all of the ships listed, which ship has the most chemistry?
Jedtavius and Trobed.
8. Out of all of your ships listed, which ship has the strongest bond?
Canon-wise, probably Olicity.
9. How many times have you read/watched 8’s fandom?
Olicity - I actually STOPPED watching Arrow because I didn’t want any more drama to upset the main characters. Oliver was finally happy, so I stopped when he and Felicity drove off into sunset at the end of Season 3.
10. Which ship has lasted the longest?
Clex - Smallville began in 2001; I never finished the series for various reasons, but I still follow a beloved fan fiction series and re-read it every few years. Besides my RP with my friend, this fanfic and one other is my heart and soul.
I do have older ships that I didn’t put on the list.
11. How many times, if ever, has 2 broken up?
Trobed - When Troy gets back from sailing around the world, they never break up again.
12. If the world was suddenly thrust into a zombie apocalypse, which ship would make it out alive, 2 or 8?
Olicity for sure - they’re both super heroes.
13. Did 5 ever have to hide their relationship for any reason?
Cain/ Glitch: It seems to be a common fancanon that the restored Queen is not fond of their relationship (or maybe just Glitch in general; she prefers Ambrose.)
14. Is 4 still together?
Clex: In my dreams.
15. Is 3 canon?
Merthur - “We did, very genuinely, think of the episode as a love story between two men. Which is what I think it is, jokes and innuendo aside.” —Show creators on the finale.
See also “Well, he’s dying, the man he loves is dying, so he’s holding him.”
TL;DR: Basically canon without it being actual canon.
16. If all 10 ships were put into a couple’s Hunger Games, which couple would win?
It would come down to Clex vs Olicity and in my opinion, Superman trumps Green Arrow.
17. Has anybody ever tried to sabotage 10’s ship?
Holmes/Watson (all forms) - Moriarty? Hahaha. Um, let’s not get into the whole Johnlock stuff.
I read a lot of Sherlock Holmes pastiches and one of the rating factors is how well they do the Holmes/Watson friendship. If they make Watson a dummy, the book is out. I’mv very protective of Watson’s intelligence, which is why I adore the RDJ movie version.
18. Which ship would you defend to the death and beyond?
Based on current feelings, probably Jedtavius.
19. Do you spend hours a day going through 1’s tumblr page?
Jedtavius: Sadly, no; there’s not that much content for them. But I track the Jedtavius tag, so I happily look forward to seeing new stuff!
20. If an evil witch descended from the sky and told you that you had to pick one of the ten ships to break up forever or else she´d break them all forever, which ship would you choose?
Much to my 23 year old self’s shock, Shelnard. TBBT is over and my memories are fond, but I’ve grown used to the canon couple endings.
I tag @boycottinglove and anyone who wishes to do this!
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THE POSITIVE & NEGATIVE; Mun & Muse - Meme.
fill out & repost ♥ This meme definitely favors canons more, but I hope OC’s still can make it somehow work with their own lore, and lil’ fandom of friends & mutuals. Multi-Muses pick the muse you are the most invested in atm.
My muse is: canon / oc / au / canon-divergent / fandomless /
Is your character popular in the fandom? YES / NO.
Is your character considered hot™ in the fandom? YES / NO / IDK.
Is your character considered strong in the fandom? YES / NO / IDK.
Are they underrated? YES / NO.
Were they relevant for the main story? YES / NO.
Were they relevant for the main character? YES / NO / THEY’RE THE PROTAG.
Are they widely known in their world? YES / NO.
How’s their reputation? GOOD / BAD / NEUTRAL.
How strictly do you follow canon? — with yuna being a fandomless original character; it is rather hard to strictly follow canon; first of all, one has to define what canon means & that would be, in yuna’s case, the story that i have previously written before writing on Tumblr with her as my muse. i do try to stick to it, however, i always leave enough room for her to develop, otherwise, it would be just plain boring, wouldn’t it ? with that said; she already has developed a few characteristics that might be deemed out of character within the canon material
SELL YOUR MUSE! Aka try to list everything, which makes your muse interesting in your opinion to make them spicy for your mutuals. — she is a character with several layers; meaning, you will always get to know a different side of her, the more you interact. yuna is an outcast, though, you might not notice it at first. she’s really strong & her species is still rather unknown; many abilities might have not been uncovered yet. her mission is to destroy humanity, though, will she do it ? she works as a hitman within a secret organization that is more than meets the eye. she is ACTUALLY not a true descendant of lilith. she is old & has seen & experiences MANY things.
Now the OPPOSITE, list everything why your muse could not be so interesting (even if you may not agree, what does the fandom perhaps think?). — She is way too stubborn & it takes AGES to form a real relationship with her; so petty & weak-willed when it comes to her own desires; way too set on her own belief; the whole humanity-is-bad stick gets old quick; her being paranoid about every SINGLE thing; her whole concept is less about her own power but more about the control of said power & how she deals with her being pressured into the position she is
What inspired you to rp your muse? — i love mythology & the lore within Christianity (mainly the characters, stories; def more a fan of the “evil” stuff ) i love horror; i love paranormal stuff & if you combine everything, you have yunaeisha & her sisters. the lore ( which is massive & yuna’s story plays within present-day while most of it plays in the past) is something i hold dear to my heart; i worked on it for many years, since approx. 2014-2015. yuna embodies a lot of the pain of my previous characters; not knowing her place in the universe while KNOWING that you have to function within this society that deems you’re not a part of them, either. she’s honest & a bad bitch with a very soft side; i love her a lot & she’s grown so much. my love for her inspired me & how much more i wanted to flesh her out.
What keeps your inspiration going? — I constantly find new stuff that i could implement within yuna; i dream A LOT about my characters, actually, & i always try to put some material of those dreams into her. i love russia as a land; the language, the clothes, the cities. i love mythology; i love her aesthetic & i always find something that could be of use. simply going outside & watching people interact makes me think instantly; how would yuna react ? how would she talk ? i try to keep her as real possible & thus, i constantly think about her.
Some more personal questions for the mun.
Give your mutuals some insight about the way you are in some matters, which could lead them to get more comfortable with you or perhaps not.
Do you think you give your character justice? YES / NO.
Do you frequently write headcanons? YES / NO.
Do you sometimes write drabbles? YES / NO.
Do you think a lot about your Muse during the day? YES / NO.
Are you confident in your portrayal? YES / NO.
Are you confident in your writing? YES / NO.
Are you a sensitive person? YES / NO.
Do you accept criticism well about your portrayal? — I am quite the sensitive person when it comes to HARSH criticism; when someone just comes to me to talk about how badly i portray yuna, then i’m gonna be sad about it. however, i do accept people that give me constructive ideas like; maybe it could be better if you did ... instead of .... ? i have NOTHING against it. i never received it, though, so i’m not 100 percent sure about it. though, i’d love to think that i’d be even more motivated to better her.
Do you like questions, which help you explore your character? — I rarely get question but i’d love if some more flew in; LET THEM BE IC QUESTIONS EVEN !! i had some muses be invested in yuna, but the more the merrier so OF COURSE !!!
If someone disagrees to a headcanon of yours, do you want to know why? — yes, please !! if you think a headcanon might clash with another or you think, it might be really out of character or just generally unfitting for yuna; TELL ME !! i sometimes forget some minor headcanons, though, they can play a MAJOR role sometimes; if you become aware of that, please tell me. also, if you just generally don’t agree with it, PLEASE also tell me; i’m a really open-minded person & i’d love to hear your point of view.
If someone disagrees with your portrayal, how would you take it? — if someone disagrees; alright, then so be it. all people think differently; you can’t please everyone. yuna is my characters, however, her concept, of being half-demon, half-goddess, the child of lilith, has been done before & thus, i know some might not agree how i portray yuna within that concept & that’s okay; though, if you outright HATE on it; why ? if you think you can do it better; make your own lore & character but don’t hate on anyone. with that said, i personally don't have anything gainst people disagreeing; that’s just how life works; we can’t agree on everything.
If someone really hates your character, how do you take it? — i’d be taken aback at first because of course, as the creator of yuna, i love her dearly. though, i could understand why; she does MANY things that are considered problematic & has no remorse, whatsoever; she seems very self-centered & almost toxic to some & i GET that’s not everyone’s cup of tea; however, she’s not ONLY that but it takes times to get through that layer; i understand not everyone likes such muses. it’s okay, i don’t mind it but don’t HATE on her, aggressively ?? telling me how shitty she is or how much she sucks, is not really nice, & i know she often sucks, you don’t have to tell me twice.
Are you okay with people pointing out your grammatical errors? — YES PLEASE !! i’m human, english is actually my third-language & i still make a lot of errors; probably did some in this post as well lmao. but seriously, if you see it & you feel like correcting it; PLEASE DO !! or just shoot me a quick message, saying that you have noticed that i OFTEN make a specific error. it helps a lot !! thank you.
Do you think you are easy going as a mun? — no, definitely not! i hyperfixate a lot, meaning that i have this uncontrollable urge to just do one thing; or speak to one person or play a certain game; it messes up my social life a lot because i sometimes go months without talking to my best friends, though, they don’t mind because they’re used to me “ignoring” them. i also dislike convos that lead to nothing, even within real life; i like topic-related conversations & not just the plain “hey” & “how are you”’s. though, let me state one thing; if we have talked before & i was very open with you; I LOVE YOU! i’m not “ignoring” you on purpose or because i stopped liking you or something; it’s just me being dumb. so, if you want to talk, plot, have an idea, want to ship, ANYTHING !! shoot me a message, please, I BEG YOU !!! i hardly reach out first & that makes me seem unapproachable; i’m aware of that & i’m so sorry, i’m working on it! but other than that; i’m a person that you can talk to about everything ! politics; anime; mythology; pop-culture; roleplaying; i love it all !! i may not know the topic at first but i love learning & i’m willing to listen at all times !! also i love listening to people gush about their characters or just plotting stuff; ITS GREAT !! so, this is an invitation for you to come plot with me 8^)
That’s about it, congrats for filling out!
Tagged by: @skyvar ; i loved the nasty questions ! 8^)
Tagging: @dvojakyvlk, @thevvolf, @childrenxfthemoon, @hensetsu, @talonness, @shikkotsunin, @aemiliiu, @nezumi-vc-103221 & everyone who feels like stealing !!
#˗ ˋ † ᴅᴏꜱꜱɪᴇʀ ﹕ the things that were left in this life i call mine !#( i loved this a lot !! )#( also it let me foreshadow more stuff abt yuna 8') )#( aLSO IM SO SORRY I SUCK AT SOCIALISING )#( 10/10 times its me being stupid )#tw long post
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MOBILE RULES!
I don’t have many rules to be honest but would appreciate it if you read them all the same!
PERSONAL BLOGS/SIDE BLOGS
I block personal blogs unless you inform me of your side blogs.
TRIGGERS/SMUT
MY TRIGGERS ARE AS FOLLOWS: suicide, pet death, family death, & abuse of all kinds. Please tag them accordingly. NO SMUT HERE LOOK ELSEWHERE FOR THAT SHIT.
VIOLENCE
NSFW Gore & blood is alright with me. This blog may contain these themes. Please don’t follow if you’re easily offended.
FANDOMS/CROSSOVERS
I won’t write with actor/actress/rl fc’s. Because I don’t have a FC for Steven, & I apologize for that. As well as, I will NOT be interacting with the following fandoms. The Lion Guard & Descendants.
SHIPPING
I love to ship, shipping is one of my favorite things to do, but I promise I won’t push a ship on you, and I know when there isn’t chemistry between our muses. Please don’t try and push a ship on me either! Unrequited love would be just as interesting to play out!
And if we do have ship, I love to reblog or tag you in things that remind me of our ship! I’ve had ships before where we’ve made edits and playlists and everything and I absolutely love that so never be afraid to tag me in anything related to a ship! Steven is bi romantic so this applies to both male and female muses!
So far my favorite ship for Steven is with Connie. But I am willing to write crossover ships as well.
NO SMUT though! Steven is too young for that still.
MUNS!
I like to talk to muns about the threads we have, to either plot something out or discuss/ gush about what is happening at the moment in the thread. If you don’t like it, let me know please. I can’t read your minds.
GODDMODDING
You control your muse & I’ll control mine, okay. If we have an understanding to this, than feel free to write with me. :)
OC’s
No self inserted OC’s/ Gemsona’s are welcomed here. & that’s all I have to say about OC’s.
REPLYING/FORMATTING/ICONS
As far as formatting goes, most of the time I try to format, but there’s just some days where I’m too lazy & tired and I’ll just forget to format. However most of the time I’ll use small text to write, if you have an issue with reading it then please inform me & I’ll fix it.
As far as using icons, you don’t have to use them in order to write with me, but I do prefer that you do, because they do help a lot.
& Regarding replies, I think I’m quite good at replying, but sometimes if it’s a very hectic week or if my muse is low, it might take me a while to get to our thread! If I’m not feeling the thread any more I will come to you and maybe we can sort things out, but I will try to never ignore you, I promise. ^^
That’s about it to be honest! If I have any more I will add them here, thank you for reading! And I know some of these makes me sound like a bitch, but I promise, I would love love love to rp with you, if you are cool with all of these! Hit me up and we can definitely start rping. I am HIGHLY SELECTIVE though.
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Through The Looking Glass
A little something for my Family Business Supernatural RP Twitter family.
Don’t worry, gals - we’ll go on our hunting trip with the boys soon. First, gotta lay some groundwork...
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I think… I think I've actually figured it out.
How to get to Dean's world. To Sam, and Cas, and Jack.
And maybe even get them back here, too. But, one thing at a time.
A mirror stood propped against the closet door in my spare bedroom. Standing in front of it, I wonder if I have the strength, and the courage to try.
Maybe not - but I certainly have the will. This is something I've wanted since… well, a year ago, when I first discovered this universe existed.
And even more so after meeting them, talking to them - even if only through the "magic" of Twitter.
Yeah, "magic" - because that doesn't exist in this world. I can't draw a sigil, light a concoction on fire, and mumble some Latin to make it happen.
It's going to require more… MUCH more.
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@Redbanshee: Hey Dean… are you there?
@DWImpala67: Yeah… what's up? Are you ok?
@DWImpala67: I mean, you never DM me…
@DWImpala67: Cee? You ok?
@Redbanshee: Yeah, I'm here. Sorry, just… trying to figure out how to approach this…
@Redbanshee: Out with it, I guess. So, I've figured it out… I think.
@DWImpala67: Figured what out?
@Redbanshee: How to get there. To your world.
@DWImpala67: Uh. That's not possible.
@DWImpala67: … is it?
@Redbanshee: It might be. I guess we'll find out. Where are you?
@DWImpala67: At the Bunker. Why?
@Redbanshee: And Sam? Cas? Jack?
@DWImpala67: Jack and Sam are. Cas is still not back from Heaven.
@Redbanshee: OK… ok. Just… head outside the Bunker, ok? By the door.
@DWImpala67: … why?
@Redbanshee: Because, for the first test, I don't want to try to breach the Bunker's defenses. I can visualize the outside well enough, and it's safer.
@Redbanshee: Dean? Still there?
@DWImpala67: Yeah, I'm still here.
@DWImpala67: I just don't know how you're going to do this…
@Redbanshee: Well, if it works, I'll explain how it happened.
@Redbanshee: No sense in talking about it if it doesn't work.
@DWImpala67: Ok, I'm outside now.
@Redbanshee: OK. Here goes nothing…
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I started to prepare myself, visualizing the outside of the Bunker, as I'd seen it a million times on the show.
I checked my phone - Twitter was still up, the DM to Dean still active. Do I have everything? I'm going to a place where monsters - real-life monsters - exist. But I'm entering at a relatively safe place with that world's greatest Hunter waiting for me, outside a literal fortress. I should be ok, at least for this trial run.
Then I thought of something…
"Alexa… what time is it in Kansas?"
"It's 7:54 pm"
OK then.
I closed my eyes and focused hard on the image in my mind. I envisioned the position of the sun, how it would be dipping toward the horizon and heading into late twilight. I imagined the smell of the dust and brush outside the Bunker door, how the gravel and dirt would crunch under my feet… and walked toward the mirror.
I walked into the mirror…
… and miraculously, through it.
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I felt a tingle, like the prickle of course hair, across my skin. The brush of the carpet turned into the crunch of dirt, and kicked up a dust cloud I could smell as I stumbled slightly at the change of footing. The air was cool and dry, and a light breeze brushed a lock of hair across my face. The light through my closed eyelids changed hue, going from the pale white of LED lights to a golden glow.
My eyes were still closed when I felt two hands on my shoulders, stopping me in my tracks.
"Holy crap… Cee… is that really you?" Dean's deep, gravelly voice, right in front of me.
I opened my eyes to a flannel-covered chest an arm's length away. Blinking, I slowly looked up… and up, damn he was tall… and found myself staring into the face of…
Jensen Ackles.
OK, a way more world-weary version, with a few more worry lines and a fresh cut at his temple from the vamp hunt he had just returned from. Eyes wide, the fading sun catching them and sparking them ivy green. Mouth slightly agape in surprise. But the resemblance was UNCANNY.
"Wow. I guess Jensen really *was* born to play you…"
The hands at my shoulders squeezed, hard, as if to test my solidity. I flinched, and convinced I wasn't a figment of his imagination, his hands lifted and hovered briefly before falling to his sides as he continued to stare, wordless.
I was not yet convinced I was here. I reached up and poked him in the shoulder… HARD.
He was solid, all right… and as he was not prepared for it, I actually managed to knock him a little off balance.
"Holy shit.". Both of us, at the same time.
The next thing I knew, my face was buried in his flannel shirt, his arms wrapped around me in a tight hug.
I wrapped mine around his waist and might have even bounced a bit. "Ohmygod Dean!" I might have squealed a little. "It's… it's really you… YOU!"
We broke the hug and finally I saw it, live and in concert - that soft, sweet, beaming smile, his eyes crinkled in the corners.
"C'mon… we gotta talk about this… how the hell… Sammy's gonna lose his shit!"
He wrapped an arm around my shoulders and guided me into the Bunker.
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The walk into the Bunker was surreal - the grunt from Dean as he hefted the heavy outer door open, the scrape of metal as it closed. The tap of shoes on metal as we climbed the spiral stairs down. The squeak of the inner door hinges as it opened, and again as it closed.
The sight of the glowing map table, the ancient radio and electronic monitoring equipment. The hum in the air I felt more than heard.
Sam Winchester, standing in the archway leading to the Library.
Sam. Fucking. Winchester. Staring at me like I were a ghost.
Like Dean, he was the spitting image of Jared Padalecki, the actor that portrayed him. But Jared's soft smile and puppy-dog eyes were gone, replaced by ones with a harder edge to them.
Not that I can blame either of them - I know the things they've seen, and fought, and endured.
Dean's hand at the small of my back urged me down the stairs, and Sam met us at the base. He grew taller, and taller… and taller, as I descended and by the time I reached the last step I was craning my neck back in order to meet his puzzled hazel eyes.
I thrust my hand out, grinning like an idiot. "Hey, Sam, it's me… Celina, from Twitter…"
Ignoring my outthrust hand, he gave a tentative squeeze of my arm, testing much like Dean had - then pulled me into his giant hug. I thought he was going to suffocate me for a minute as my head barely reached his ribcage, and discovered that, yes, breathing was still a required activity here which probably ruled out astral projection. I happily squeezed him right back, then broke the hug to catch my breath.
He grabbed my shoulders, holding me out at arm's length. "But…h- how?" he stammered.
Dean clapped a hand on his shoulder and led the way past the map table and into the Library.
"That's next on the agenda."
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I was sitting at the table in the Library. THE. BUNKER. LIBRARY.
I swirled the glass of whiskey Dean had poured for me. Raised it to my nose and inhaled the heady aroma before taking a long pull. It burned my throat as I swallowed, and it was *delicious*.
Confirmed, once again - all five senses present.
Sam sat at the table across from me, laptop open, fingers tapping against the keys. Dean sat on my right, his own glass already empty. He rose and walked to the trolley where the liquor was kept up to pour himself more, and after consideration, brought the entire bottle back to the table. Sitting back down, he tipped another finger's worth into my glass.
"Thanks." My gaze took in the room, noticed the quiet. "Where's Jack?" I asked to no one in particular.
"In the Dean-Cave," Dean said, rolling his eyes. "Watching 'Star Wars' for the umpteen millionth time."
"Oh cool! Can I go see him?" I started to rise from the chair.
"Not so fast," Sam said curtly from behind the laptop, and Dean reached for my arm, pulling me gently back to my seat.
I got it. Like good dads, they wanted to vet the relative stranger who miraculously appeared on their doorway before exposing him to me. I totally agreed - especially since I was still unclear how this all worked, and wouldn't have the slightest idea how to explain it to him how I got here, anyway.
I also knew his first question would be if I were there to take him to Disneyland as we had talked about - another thing I didn't have an answer for - yet.
Sam looked up from the keyboard and switched to full interrogator mode. "Ok, so… HOW did this happen? How are you here?" He gestured toward the laptop. "There's nothing in the lore about traveling between universes that doesn't require a powerful witch and archangel grace."
I took another swig of the whiskey to gather my thoughts. How to explain this?
"I walked through a mirror," I said, trying to sound nonchalant.
"You walked… what? Like 'Alice in Wonderland' or something?" Dean asked, skeptical.
"Yeah, I know what it sounds like… but that's what I did. " I turned to Dean. "What did it look like… when I came through?"
His eyes unfocused, recalling. "There was… a… shimmer, sorta like, I dunno, light… bending around something." He scowled, uncertain.
"That's… impossible." Sam declared. "Something like that would *have* to require some form of spell - and we know for a fact that doesn't work in your world."
I nodded in agreement - I knew they had already experienced that lack when Balthazar had thrown them into my world several years ago.
"That doesn't mean there isn't… power there, for lack of a better term." I paused, trying to find the words. "It's belief… believing in something *so strongly*, that it comes into being."
"Tulpa." Dean and Sam said simultaneously. A grin flashed across my face, hearing the fandom squeal in my head: "I love it when they talk in unison!"
I shook my head. "Can't be. A Tulpa is a real thing… creature?... here, but not where I'm from. This was *literally* the power of… positive thinking."
I thought of all the self-help gurus making millions off this idea - "The Secret", et al. Jesus, could they be right?
I mean, I've tried visualizing winning the lottery for *years* to absolutely no avail. Of course, would help if I actually bought a ticket. The Lord helps those who help themselves, or something.
"So you're trying to tell me you just… WISHED your way here?" Dean demanded, incredulous. "Like… friggin' OZ? Clicked your heels and said 'There's no place like home'?"
I couldn't help but laugh at his expression - brows furrowed and lips downturned to a frown, as if outraged at the idea.
His scowl deepened at my laughter, but Sam snorted.
"Wow, Dean… that's two literary references in under 5 minutes. That's gotta be a record!"
"Shut up!"
Sam laughed again, turning back to me.
"Walk us through what you did," he said patiently.
So I did. I told them about visualizing the Bunker grounds and the door, focusing on it, and walking through the mirror… "Oh, and Twitter. I had a DM open to Dean when I did it." I shrugged. "I thought it might act as a sort of… I dunno, GPS?... to guide me here."
"Well, that begs another question, " Sam mused. "How do you get back?"
My brain stopped for a moment. I hadn't stopped to consider *that*. HAHA, oops. "Uh… I dunno?"
Dean rose from his chair to glare down at me. "You… wished yourself here, without an exit plan?" he growled. "A WORLD FULL OF MONSTERS, and Chuck breathing down our necks?"
"Dean…" Sam interjected as I involuntarily backed away at his tone.
Yeah, just as intimidating in person, if not more so.
"I don't believe this!" Dean threw his arms up in exasperation.
"I'm s-sure it's not that hard…" I stammered. "Maybe just, uh, kill the Twitter feed, or… just stop believing…"
But that was going to be difficult. I have living, breathing, SHOUTING proof that it was ALL REAL, and all RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME.
And it would be bad news bears if killing Twitter was the key - what if my battery died while I was here? Would I just pop out of existence, and back to my world?
Actually, that could come in handy if it were the case, and a pack of monsters were after me. But what if it happened and I didn't want to leave?
What if I ended up in some… limbo somewhere?
I was snapped out of my musing by Dean's hand on my shoulder. I looked up to see an apologetic look on his face.
"Sorry, kiddo." he sighed. "I'm just worried about you. You're not safe here."
That was the crux of the outburst, wasn't it? Dean's overwhelming need to keep everyone SAFE. I smiled wanly up at him.
"Well, only way to find out is… to try it." I reached into my pocket for my phone… and realized with a jolt - of course I wouldn't have signal here. Verizon might exist in this universe, but I sure as hell didn't have an account with them. A check of the signal indicator confirmed my suspicions.
I showed the phone to Sam before Dean snatched it out of my hand to look for himself. "Well, that's just great." He pinched his nose with his fingers.
"Dean, we'll figure it out…" I said, reaching a hand to tug at his sleeve. "I.. I’m sorry. Please don't be mad… I didn't know how else… I had to try it to see if it would work!"
My eyes betrayed me, leaking several tears.
Dean took a deep breath, and sighing it out, sat back down. "I know we will," he said, taking my hand and giving it a squeeze. Seeing the tears, his face fell and he reached to wipe them away.
"Hey, hey… none of that. It's gonna be ok, kiddo, I promise."
I had to laugh at that. "Kiddo, huh? I'm older than you, sonny."
Dean smirked. "No way… and it doesn't matter because you're new here, so you're still a 'kiddo'."
Sam matched Dean's smile, and reached over for my free hand. "Besides… it's really good to see you!"
"It's… amazing to see you guys, too. You have no idea…" Dammit. My eyes were betraying me again.
Sam released my hand and came around to the other side of the table. Leaned over to hug me, his chin on the top of my head, arms wrapped around my shoulders.
Dean grabbed my recently freed hand and squeezed both, then pulled me up, Sam rising along with me. Dean pulled us both into his arms and I found myself squished between them.
I've had photo ops like this, with their doppelgangers. Those were awesome.
This was SO MUCH BETTER.
Dean released us, and Sam let go as well. We were still standing there when Jack walked in.
"I heard shouting… oh, hello!" He waved at me, a happy, if puzzled, smile on his face. "Who are you?"
"Oh… hi Jack…" I said weakly, as Sam said "Jack! Uh… I thought you were watching 'Star Wars'?"
Jack turned to Sam. "I was, but the movie ended and I was putting on the next one when I heard shouting, and I came to see what it was." He turned to Dean. "I thought it was Cas… is he home yet, Dean?" A worried frown creased his innocent face.
"I'm sure he's fine, Jack," Dean said reassuringly. Jack smiled, of course believing him. "I'm sure you're right." He turned back to me, and his head cocked like a puppy, expectantly, awaiting an answer to his earlier question.
No sense in putting it off… besides, he was just SO adorable and I unbelievingly happy to see him. "Hey Jack… you're not gonna believe this, but it's me… it's Celina. From Twitter."
His head cocked the other way, expression puzzled. "But… how can that be?" He turned to Sam. "You said we couldn't go to where our Twitter friends were…"
"We're still trying to figure that out, Jack…" Sam said calmly. "But it's real. It's really her."
"It's really me, Jack." I walked slowly around the table, approaching him, my hand held out to him.
For the third time, I found myself poked and squeezed, before being squished.
"Is it true? Is it really YOU?" he asked excitedly. "Does this mean we can go to Disneyland!?" He was practically bouncing at this idea, and I couldn't help but laugh.
And I totally called it with the Disneyland thing.
"I dunno, Jack, we'll have to see. This was just an experiment and we're still working out the details," I smiled up at him, grabbing his hands and squeezing. "but I sure hope so. We would have SO MUCH FUN!"
Jack smiled winningly down at me, eyes bright. "We would. I hope we can go."
"We'll work on it, Jack, I promise," Sam said. "Why don't you go watch your movie so we can get back to work figuring this out?"
Jack looked at me forlornly. "Will you be here when the movie is over?"
"I don't know, sweetie," I said hesitantly, then smiled back up at him reassuringly. "But I promise I'll say goodbye before I go, if I can."
"Okay!" He gave me another hug. "It was so good to see you! Bye!" He turned away and headed back to the Cave.
I turned back around. Sam and Dean looked at me expectantly.
"So… what now?" Dean inquired, looking at me, then at Sam. Sam shrugged.
"Since I'm here…" I hesitated. Was it too much to ask? Too bold? I took a breath…
"Wanna tour?" Dean asked, beaming.
"HELL. YES!"
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Dean led the way, Sam following. He took me to the armory, but refused to let me fire any weapons ("Later, kiddo." "Dean… I'm OLDER THAN YOU!" "Yeah, whatever…"), the infirmary, the gym ("Wow, you have a gym?" "Yeah…” "Surprised you actually found your way here, Dean…").
Then a short series of steps to the garage. Dean flipped on the lights… and there she was.
Dean's Baby, gleaming in the light of the overheads.
"Oh… wow." I breathed. Out of the corner of my eye, I could see Dean beaming at her like a proud papa.
"Well, you gonna go say Hi, or what?" He gave me a gentle shove toward her.
I approached her slowly, reverently, like the holy artifact she was. The Most Important Object In The Universe. Grazed a hand over her fender, and reaching the driver's side door, leaned in the window.
The initials on the back window deck.
The army men in the ashtray.
I could imagine the Legos in the vent.
I reached in and brushed fingers over the front seat leather. I glanced up over the roof, to the two men standing in the Bunker doorway.
Dean leaning against one of the shelves, grinning at me like a fool.
Sam leaning against the doorjamb, arms folded, eyes rolling. "You're worse than he is!"
Dean laughed and sauntered over to join me at the door, leaning in next to me. "Pretty awesome, right?" I nodded, not trusting my voice.
Gently moving me back, he opened the driver's side door with a flourish and a small bow, sweeping his hand toward the driver's seat.
"Go on, try it out." He faked a frown. "One time only deal."
Grinning like a kid in a candy store, I slid into the seat. Placed my hands on the steering wheel. I couldn’t reach the pedals, obviously.
I bit my lip to keep from crying, and glanced over at Dean. His smile was soft, holding out a hand to assist as I climbed out of the seat, and reached behind me to close the door. Still holding my hand, he led me to the trunk. Fishing the keys out of his pocket, he opened the trunk lid, the inside emblazoned with protective sigils, and raised the false floor, propping it up with the sawed-off shotgun.
I've seen the contents of this trunk hundreds of times, but nothing prepared me for the reality.
Burlap bag filled with salt. A flask marked with a cross - Holy water, of course. An ancient-looking urn full of what could only be holy oil. Several different varieties of religious artifacts. Machetes, and daggers made of several different metals and materials.
The grenade launcher.
"So, you guys almost done with the idol worship? I'm STARVING" Sam huffed from the doorway. Dean glanced at me and rolled his eyes. I snorted and Dean laughed as he lowered the false floor and closed the trunk lid.
He draped an arm over my shoulders. "Sam's right, we need some grub." My stomach took that moment to loudly grumble to accentuate his point. Dean laughed again. "Ok then. Any suggestions?"
"Any chance I could get one of your famous cheeseburgers?"
Dean grinned and gave me a squeeze. "Hell yeah! Let's go!"
We headed back to Sam and the door into the Bunker. Sam flipped off the lights and followed as Dean led us to the kitchen.
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While Dean made the burgers, Sam asked me what it was like, to live in a world without monsters? I explained to him that we still had monsters, but ours were harder to find since they looked just like us, and even harder to get rid of because of it.
What about angels, or demons? Nope, none of them either - although every organized religion wants you to believe otherwise.
"I'm really bummed I missed meeting *your* angel, though…" I said sadly. I was not about to admit the gigantic crush I had on him… or rather, the character as portrayed on the show depicting their lives.
But… Sam and Dean were *exactly* as they seemed on the show… so one would have to assume Cas would be as well. I gulped, and figured it was probably a good thing he wasn't here so I didn't have the opportunity to make a COMPLETE fool of myself.
Dean served the burgers, Sam grabbed the beer, and we sat around the table in the kitchen. The burgers were phenomenal, the beer cold, and the company was, in a word… AWESOME. I had to stop for a moment to take it all in - sitting in the kitchen of the Bunker, with Sam and Dean Winchester, eating burgers and drinking beer. It was all so surreal.
Sam, noticing my glazed look, nudged me. "Hey, you ok?"
I blinked and refocused, then smiled at him. "Yeah… yeah, I'm great." I waved a hand around the room. "It's just… this." I grabbed his hand, then reached across the table to take Dean's. "You… both of you. I can't believe I'm here…" I swallowed down a wave of emotion. "I can't believe it's real…"
The hand holding Sam's started to tingle… then my arm, and the rest of my body. The smell of the kitchen and the burgers began to fade…
"CEE!" I heard Dean's voice shout. "HEY! Hey…c'mon, come back!"
I felt sharp pressure on my arm, and the room began to solidify again. Sam's hand squeezing my upper arm, Dean pulling on the other.
"OK… ok, I'm back." I shook my head to clear it. I felt two sets of concerned eyes on me.
Squeezing Dean's hand, I met Sam's concerned gaze.
"Well… I think I figured out how to get back…"
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"So let me get this straight," Sam stated, all business. "you felt yourself being pulled back when you began to question the reality of being here?"
"Yeah… I guess? But I've tried repeating it, and haven't been able to." I sighed.
"OK, so," Dean asked, "what do we do now?"
I smirked at him. "Any more vamp nests nearby? Would love to go see if choppin' up some fang is as easy as it looks on TV."
"NO." Dean growled. "HELL. NO." I threw my head back and laughed.
Sam scowled. "Seriously… we have to figure out how to get you back home."
I sighed. I knew he was right, and there were still so many unanswered questions.
For instance… was the passage of time different here?
"Dean… what time is it?"
Dean glanced at his watch. "Goin' on 11… why?"
So I've been here three hours… what if that were three WEEKS back home… three MONTHS… YEARS…
I felt the panic growing… but it couldn't be that big of a time difference. I talked with these guys on Twitter practically *every day*, and there was no indication that time passed any differently here than there. If anything, it was only a matter of minutes, certainly less than an hour or two.
"OK…" I breathed to calm down and focus. "Here's the deal..." I thought back to the tour we took of the Bunker. I didn't recall seeing any floor-length mirrors - this might present a problem. "Are there any mirrors… like, big ones? Floor-length?"
"Yeah… in the gym." Sam answered.
"Ah, right. So… I'm gonna go say goodbye to Jack like I promised. Then I'm gonna do the opposite of what I did to get here - stand in front of the mirror and visualize the room I came here from." Took a deep breath, let it out. "But I'm gonna have to do it alone, and it has to be quiet. I have to focus, and you guys being there will keep pulling me back."
Sam nodded. "Sounds like a plan." He stood and offered me a hand up from the kitchen table, drawing me to my feet and leading me out of the kitchen to the Dean-Cave, with Dean taking up the rear.
I peeked inside. "Return of the Jedi" was playing, Jack sprawled on the couch like your average teenager, fully engrossed in it. I grinned, thinking I should introduce him to the Star TREK movies next.
"Hey, Jack…" I said loudly over the din of the battle on the screen. Jack lifted up to peer over the arm of the couch, saw me and waved, smiling happily. "Hi! Have you come to watch the movie with me?"
"No, I'm sorry, Jack… I have to go. I came to say goodbye, like I promised."
Jack fumbled for the TV remote to pause the movie, and came to give me a hug goodbye. He then stood back with a somber look on his face.
"Did you figure out how to get back home?"
"I think so. I'm going to go try it now." Before he could ask, I offered, "And if it works, I'll start working on how to get you over to my world so we can take that trip to Disneyland, ok?"
He beamed. "Okay! And we'll still talk on Twitter, right?"
His smile was infectious, and I beamed back at him. "Of course! I'll talk to you tomorrow." He waved goodbye and went back to watching his movie. I turned and left, a smile still on my face, but it vanished when I looked at the boys.
It was time to say goodbye.
And I was suddenly so very tired. I stumbled, and Dean caught me as I fell.
"You ok?" Hands on my shoulders, a worried frown pulling at the corners of his mouth.
"Yeah… just… really tired. I think there must be some sort of energy drain by being here as well." I took a deep breath, rolled my neck and shoulders to rouse myself.
"Ok… let's get you to the gym and get you home." Dean guided me down the hall, hand on my back in case I tried to fall again.
We reached the entrance to the gym, and I sighed. "OK guys, this is where you get off."
Dean snorted, and Sam rolled his eyes. "Really, Dean? What are you, twelve?"
"Hey, she started it!" he choked, trying to hold back the laughter, and I couldn't help but laugh with him. What an idiot… and I loved him. I reached up on tiptoes to wrap my arms around his neck to give him the biggest hug I could muster and a kiss on the cheek. He hugged back, hard, briefly lifting me off my feet before setting me back down.
Giving me a kiss on the forehead, he let me go.
"It was really awesome seein' you, Cee," he said, his voice rough, the green eyes bright. I smiled into them and patted him on the cheek.
"We'll do it again soon, ok?"
Then Sam spun me around to say his goodbyes. After a giant moose hug and a kiss to the top of my head, he leaned down to look me in the eyes.
"You focus in there, ok, and you get home safe," he said, his voice cracking.
"And you DM us the second you get back, you hear me?" Dean insisted.
"I will. First thing." I grasped each of their hands for a final squeeze. "See you around, boys."
I turned and walked into the gym. Turning, I take one last look at Sam and Dean Winchester, standing in the hallway. I blew them a kiss and closed the door.
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Silence. Not even the hum of the hidden electronics in the walls to break my concentration.
I focused on the feel of the carpet under my feet, the hue of the LED lights in the bedroom… I *did* have the lights on, right? Yeah… the sound of the ceiling fan whirring.
I closed my eyes and walked toward the mirror.
I walked into the mirror…
… and once again, through it.
Again, my skin tingled, and I stumbled briefly as my feet left the rubberized floor of the gym and onto the low pile of carpet in my spare room.
I opened my eyes. I was home.
First thing I did was look at the clock - 9:23 PM. Converted to Kansas time - no time difference between here, and there. Good to know.
My phone began to beep repeatedly, as messages stockpiled while I was out of signal range began to arrive. I ignored them and fired up Twitter, to do as I promised.
To let the boys know I made it back.
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@Redbanshee: DEAN! SAM! I made it back!
@DWImpala67: Oh thank G… UGH. We gotta come up with a new saying for that.
@DWImpala67: That's awesome! I'm so glad you're safe.
@ItsSam1983: That's great news, Celina. I'm so relieved!
@Redbanshee: That was… something, wasn't it?
@DWImpala67: Yeah it was something all right…
@DWImpala67: It was CRAZY. INSANE. DANGEROUS.
@DWImpala67: …and it was awesome to see you, and now that we know it works and you can get back home, I hope you come to visit again soon.
@ItsSam1983: What my brother said. It was foolhardy, but also amazing, and awesome to see you in person.
@Redbanshee: I can't wait to do it again, I had THE BEST TIME. And I'll have sweet dreams about those burgers, Dean…
@Redbanshee: Speaking of dreams, I'm about to pass out here on the floor, so I'm gonna hit the hay. Can you tell Jack I'm ok, and I'll work on the Disneyland thing?
@ItsSam1983: You bet. Don't be a stranger.
@DWImpala67: Go get some sleep, kiddo.
@Redbanshee: UGH WITH THE KIDDO THING.
@Redbanshee: … but I love you anyway. :)
@DWImpala67: … I know. :)
@ItSam1983: Rest well, Celina.
@Redbanshee: Hey Sam… call me Cee. :)
@ItsSam1983: You got it… Cee :)
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FIN
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Daily Daddies: Day Six
If my heart one day stops beating before I write a hundred of these, I at least hope I got to 69
Watch, I'm going to die at 68
Mars ♡
We need to get on Quotev and do more of those quizzes together--I want to be thirteen and be part of the Hetalia fandom again and FIND OUT WHO MY HETALIA BOYFRIEND IS
IF YOU GOT NO RP REQUESTS ON THAT HELLSITE, I WILL BE YOUR BIGGEST FAN AND BEG YOU TO RP WITH ME ;v;
If you think everything is going downhill, just remember that you have an FBI agent who is not an an//ti-US//UK
Parker ♤
Speaking of Quotev, I'M HYPED FOR YOUR STREAM ON IT SOMEDAY 👏👏👏
Tips cowboy hat and, in a heavy British accent, says, "Your pants are going to fall harder than the Berlin Wall."
I have this very startling image of you laughing maniacally as people start screaming right before the rollercoaster descends because you mentioned you were a "rollercoaster fanatic,,,," I would protect you with my liFE
renn ♧
Plays obligatory Roblox with her brother and it's AdOrAbLe, so now she HAS to roblox with me to get that OOF ASMR
We break marriage laws together by swapping last names instead of sharing it because we stick it to the old people
Quotev confirms that renn is my wife (change my mind) (bet you can't)!! Wedding is cowboy themed, don't forget to save a horse and,,,
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So HideKaz + A Bonus:
Aight so goin back into big super detail about this fool, a few select folks know my background here as a roleplayer when I was around 13-15 and I had a particular character I used! A young lad named Kazuo, or Kaz for short, in various fandoms. Namely stuff like The Walking Dead, Danganronpa, and Persona.
But also equally as many people who read my old OC tag, I mentioned in passing that I was working on a bird universe. So recently that project got several levels of scrapped with many characters getting rewritten to account for all of this.
This becomes kinda bumpy for Kazuo because throughout his rewrites after the old RP days, I played around with a lot of things, namely working him into my weird ass bird verse. However, one of the things I had worked into the universe late into it's devlife/dev cycle was the concept of ancestor birds and descendant birds to account for a world rebuilding event In Lore™. This is where Hideki comes in. Hideki was a solution to keep aspects of earlier versions of Kazuo because I could easily waive it away as "Oh! He's the ancestor of sorts to this one bird and the world rebuilding event left him a little fucked up with the few things he does remember." This aspect kinda became one of the things that began to cause some very strong issues down the line when rummaging through the remains of that project and trying to salvage characters or ideas I wanted to keep (with the help of @coolsville-ghetto because holy fuck I was in the rough at that time and I couldn't think objectively on what direction to go).
So to fix the issue of Hideki and Kazuo, I came to a compromise with the naming ordeal. Hideki was his birthname before getting ended by his pops and getting revived by the friendly neighborhood eldritch god Charilaos (we'll get to him. Trust me, We Will Get To Him) to essentially be given an eternal second chance in life with immortality. Kazuo ends up being kind of an alias (with matching surname) to hide his existence any time he decides to visit his original plane of existence or any new one if he doesn't immediately trust it right on the get go. HideKaz is just the amalgamation I use just so people don't get super confused about which dipshit I'm talking about.
This issue also applies to his daughter, Aoi, but to a much lesser extent. This is mostly mitigated because in her case, she was stuck in a world that was rebuilt (ask Cools more about this) but she still retains all her old memories as Aoi. The only thing that has changed is her appearance to that of a boy named Satoru, who still talks, walks, dresses, and acts like his female counterpart and isn't really all that different. Tis but a screwup (iirc) from the higher ups that rebuilt the world. Outside of that, AoRu™ is still the same essence Hideki recognizes as his kid.
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I have big big troubles finding new rp partners which causes me to be nearly inactive because I don't have anyone to roleplay with. Searching through tumblr is impossible for active blogs. And if I find someone, they're mutuals only, and I don't know how to interact with those. And many I find also don't want new partners. It always feels like its my fault for not finding new partners
OOC: Sorry about the sorta late reply. I’ve been making icons since yesterday.
I agree. Searching any of the tags is absolutely pointless. I can only speak for this fandom but... Boy are things quieter than they used to be. It’s gotten to the point where some people (myself included) actually stop sharing their own promos because there’s barely anyone to find from that (If anything, I think my last reblog of my promo got more attention from non-roleplaying blogs). On top of that, activity on blogs that are around vary immensely. Because there are fewer options than there were when I started, it’s easy to feel like you’re doing something wrong. I assure you, it’s not the case at all.
You are right about a lot of blogs being more closed off than they used to be, and I do get the reasoning for that. But like you said, it makes it hard for people trying to find their place. I can’t give you guaranteed advice that will bring about success, but I can try and share some ideas.
I know I’ve mentioned before about checking rules pages. Some people might have it that they’re mutuals only by default, but their asks are open for anyone. If that’s the case, I definitely recommend giving it a try. While it can work as an ice-breaker, it’s also a good way to show the blog you exist, especially if, like me, you run side-blogs.
With that in mind, check your own blog and make sure things are accessible and readable. If someone I don’t recognise follows a blog of mine, I’ll usually click through and check theirs out. Now, before you start stressing, I absolutely don’t mean to go build a custom theme with unique photoshopped whatevers. You’re talking to the mun who literally uses the same theme on three different sideblogs but in different colours. Going by personal experience of checking blogs on app and on a laptop, you should instead focus on the following:
Content: Is your information accessible? Do you have a page or post giving information about your muse, and if so, can they be found easily? Common sense things, really, but I’ve seen blogs over the years that either omit this entirely, or make it very difficult to find.
Sample of writing: Not in terms of how active you are. A few months ago, I was checking out a blog on my phone. I had to scroll for nearly ten minutes on a blog before I could find an actual writing sample from a thread. It’s perfectly okay to have memes and related images on your blog (again, I do it regularly), but be sure they’re not hiding your writing. Use the queue to play it safe.
Silly things, I know, but if you make the first move to follow a mutuals only blog, you wanna give yourself the best chance so they will follow back. I wanna compare it to an artist in a convention’s artist alley setting up their stall. You have to have everything looking just right to draw people in, right?
On the topic of writing, I noticed you mention how you’re not active because of this problem. Perhaps you could channel your creative frustration into short drabbles or monologues? It would be a good way to vent and to make sure you don’t get too rusty.
Another option is to consider crossovers with other fandoms. For example, I have a side-step verse where Damien is Mayor of Ha.llowe’en Town from the Nig.htmare Before Chris.tmas due to a mix-up. It’s also a fun challenge to see how your character might adapt to a different world, whether due to being thrown there, or having lived there instead of their normal world.
Admittedly, the fandom as a whole needs a little kick and some positive encouragement to open up a little more. Myself and some others had hoped Heist would bring some new people in, but it didn’t really work in the way we had expected. It’s a problem I’m not entirely sure how to fix, and I’m sure it’s not even something I myself can ‘fix’ since I’m not any sort of important voice. But I will say this. If you currently do have partners, appreciate and cherish them. They are the ones that will stick by you no matter what.
I am sorry you’ve been hit with that awful feeling, despite trying your hardest. That’s the part you should make sure to remind yourself of: you are trying. It would be a different case if you were waiting for everyone to find you while you make no effort. Things might seem bleak, but time can do some good things. When I started, there were some blogs I was terrified of interacting with. Like you, I had no idea how I was supposed to approach and interact (especially with me harbouring a fear of being blocked if I made a wrong move). It took time, but the right little connections happened, circles meshed together so I appeared on their dash, and I was eventually noticed by them. That’s why I suggested to make sure you have the necessary information accessible. Any decent person won’t mind whether you have a fancy theme, use icons of any sort, or format your writing. At the end of the day, we’re writing together, and that ought to be what matters when looking at your blog.
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I realise this is probably me blathering on about nothing, but I hope something in this helped. Like I said, I’m not really a big voice or a popular blog, so I don’t really have solid advice. Keep your chin up and take it one day at a time. I believe in you!!
PS. Just as I was proof-reading this, I remembered that some of the people I got to know over time were through Di.scord groups. While a server can be a great way to break the ice.... I’m not sure I’d recommend setting one up in the hopes of inviting people in. The one that springs to mind first descended into drama that I’m still not sure of and was ultimately deleted when I was asleep. Now I think about it, most of those people either hopped fandoms or went on hiatus... I hope they’re doing okay.
PPS. Another idea. Would checking out people your partners write with be an idea? I always imagine a rp blog to be like a circle, and by interacting with others, you can link to their circle and see their connections. That way, the third person might have experience of you from seeing you on their dash!
#why Ash doesn't run a r.ph blog#and why Ash shouldn't be a rolemodel as a whole#I also recommend not doing what I do and make sure not to lose track of people#there are people I wrote with that I still love to see on my dash but I've lost track of stuff we wrote and I never get around to actually#Anonymous
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