#weird ass balancing

[yeyayeya]

Wtf was that trailer

#yeyarants #fire emblem #feh #fire emblem heroes #hello??? #I’m so tired of 3 houses #now watch me try to spend orbs on Dimitri #I’m a fucking clown I know #just getting Dimitri and dipping #don’t care about the other ones #ok but the Byleth duo is just boring af #come on now #ok but Yunaka being the only Engage character in the banner is so weird #what is she doing there? #girl I’m sorry you’re with the wrong people #they could have literally added Yuri #I guess Yunaka replaced him #damn and I thought it would be a 3H + Engage banner #weird ass balancing #Claude TT+ is something I guess #sorry really confused about it #what happened to the 4* units? #are they gone now? #I was about to celebrate Dimitri being the 4* one before seeing the skills #feh wtf are you turning to #I’m so tired of 3H but I won’t say no to a Dimitri alt #I’m biased I know leave me alone

[congregation-of-the-spiral]

thinking about writing a jmart fic inspired by my original story. would y'all read it or nah

#the storys about a woman who finds herself in this weird ass forest #where the longer youre there the more it strips you of your identity #until all that remains is your core motivation #your bare essentials #and it warps your body to better reflect that #like i have a character who was a huntsman who had to resort to cannibalism when he and his hunting buddy got trapped in the mountains #so now hes like this Grotesque Beast who hunts other people who wander into the forest #and i love him sm <3 #anyway #so the woman is trying to find her way back home to her wife before she becomes one of them #but no ones ever escaped before blah blah blah whatever #and im having a hard time actually writing it #since its something from scratch #like theres just A Lot #i have characters and the setting but im struggling to balance a plot b plot c plot etc #so i figure i might just rope my hyperfixation into it to let it Do Its Thing so i can actually have like #a first draft #at the very least #idk #would yall read that? #not tma #helix speaks #jonathan sims #martin blackwood #jonmartin #jmart #get this to 10 notes and I'll do it #i don't need a lot of convincing #it's prolly gonna happen #soon as i figure out how i wanna rework characters and plot points

[un-pearable]

i am fine admitting i have a shameful love of shitty crossover fic in which characters get to show up in media i like slightly less and then one-up all the characters there by being competent badasses in ways you don’t usually get to see bc in their normal universe you’re usually watching from said characters pov. but i absolutely loathe reincarnation fic with the same premise. no i do not want to read about midoriya izuku with sonic the hedgehog’s memories just give me sonic the hedgehog

#yes it is incredibly bad and lame. i love it for being lame. reincarnation fic is just…. why <- INCREDIBLY personal opinion. #if you disagree i don’t care i hope you have fun #i feel ​similarly with like. time travel fic that sends someone back to the start of the series and then they just negate all the fun parts #of the plot. like cmon just write early series fic . it’s so much fun i promise #outing myself about the superemely dumb thing i like to reread occasionally bc i had like a month of being a bnha fan and i think it’s funny #to read about sonic kicking half that universe’s asses #i think at the core though you need a balance for it to be tolerable . like it can’t all be the guy getting isekai’ed showing everyone up #you DO need to write people in the other universe at least with agency <- there is so much stuff that fails this #not even crossover. it’s just an epidemic in bnha fic. what is up with that #anyway everyone forget that phase happened bc i do and i regret it <3 it’s a lame show lol #i just like putting sonic in weird situations i love dumb fic that puts him in other stories <- storybook series fan

[rexscanonwife]

Bro where did this wave of love even COME from I just queued a bunch of scout art for later and I wanna draw some nice sibling stuff and I'm thinking about how Engie calls him Jackrabbit and my partner calls me bunny rabbit waaahh 😭😭💖💖

#jane journals #self insert talk #platonic f/o #familial f/o #⚾️ strike out siblings ⚾️ #<- a litfle smth im trying out. idk bonk brother never seemed satisfactory to me #so here we go!! #aaaahh i can feel a tf2 mini fixation coming on. #its weird that its so close to my rex anniversary tho like #im working on balance 😂😂 the queue helps tbh!! i post a wider variety of things #even tho i do curate it a little #ANYWAY!!! #IDK WHERE THIS LOVE CAME FROM!!! #i wanna draw us as kids and hanging out as adults and stuff #and i thought itd be kinda funny if i drew a little comic where miss pauling meets my s/i for the first time #like. scout is like 'hey wanna meet my sister?' and pauling is envisioning femscout and already rolling her eyes #but she sees junie instead who immediately compliments her and is all bubbly and sweet and paulings lesbian ass is all 😳💖💖💖💖 #even just cause shes not around sweet genuine compliments from girls very often 👉👈 #i may have a crush on miss pauling #damn scout sorry i stole ur girl 🤭🤭🤭 #ougghh fuck i actually wanna think more about that

[charmac]

Just watched Fool’s Paradise!

#wow! that was BAD! #im drinking btw #not even drunk but tipsy yes #damn it’s sad but weirdly like #huh… #thinking about how bad this movie was #looking past the fac that it was clearly a lot of satirical inside jokes that don’t click for a general audience #the plot just massively lacked cohesiveness #it made me realise that charlie never writes an ep of sunny alone? #like he’s always with rob or glenn #and obviously we know charlie and rob have their fights and differences #but watching something JUST written by charlie kinda goes to show how Rob is a balance he needs #he can pick up the gaps and the connecting points that are missing throughout #again like weird ass movie it’s hard to believe this man is involved on sunny if i had only seen that movie from him #but yeah…interesting he’s always a COwriter for sunny #they really need to bounce and work off each other huh #need someone to check them a little? let them know what works and what doesn’t #hm. #ugh i’m kinda annoyed i watched it ngl. #it made me worried for sunny16 which is literally definitely irrational #but jesus christttttt dude #what did i just WATCH.

[simcardiac-arrested]

OHHHHH MY GOD COMING OFF ANON BECAUSE !??!?!? SCPSL MENTIOn!!?!??!? you are the ONLY person i've EVER seen that mentioned that game in being similar to lethal company ohhhh my god oh my god i used to be so crazy autism over that game Okay. okay. oh my godddd I LOVE(D) SCPSL SO MUCH and it makes me so so so happy to see a game like it get so popular!!! i love lethal company!!! and i love the creatures and the randomly generated facilities and the PROXIMITY chat and the lore (sigurd adn desmond<3) and i love that ALL MY FRIENDS CAN AND DO PLAY ITTT ^__^ its like 14 year old me got blessed by the autism fairy joy and beauty to the world

i don’t know how to say this in a way that wont make me sound like i shouldnt be allowed in public spaces so i’ll just go ahead and say it. I have 200 hours in scpsl

#i havent played it in like 2 or 3 years because one day #it just stopped working on win7. But i got win10 now so theoretically i could play it again. but do i want to #it’s not that it’s a bad game! like i said i’ve had a lot of fun with it. just like lethal company it has some truly #hilarious and truly scary moments #however i can remember a few times where it was just not fun ….. maybe it was the players or the unfair balance or wjatever. But well #i did love it. i love scp and getting to play an scp game for free was life changing to me. IT WAS SO FUN!! #AND I HAD THE MOST BLISSFUL GAMING EXPERIENCE BECAUSE I HAD A BUG WITH MY GAME WHERE I COULDNT HEAR ANYONE AND NO ONE COULD HEAR ME #Probably pissed off my teammates numerous times but well . At least got to exclusively vc with my friends on discord #i think the thing with lethal company (and by extension amogus which is also smth i associate lc with) is that you can play it exclusively #with your buddies. you dont have to join some random ass lobby with random ass people just because the game needs 20 players. U can just #have actual fun. because yes proxy vc is a fun feature for a game but i am seriously grateful that scpsl was bugged for me #i’ve played a lot of ‘shooter’ games (or just games similar to genre) and like Sure im used to people being jerks in game chat or something #but there’s a difference between game chat and straigjt up vc ….. so yeah. i know that it’s barely scpsl’s fault but i just felt like sayin #all that. Blinks #where am i . what am i talking about #sorry for the weird not quite rant about scpsl BUT YES i do think lethal company is quite similar to it. And like if that game was fun again #not to mention the creatures!!! like. coilhead? 173 but well it’s a common trope. eyeless dog? literally 939. A MASK THAT POSSESSES YOU? #DUDE . THIS IS 035 . BRACKEN? okay that’s like 096 but a little to the left #all they need to do now is add a 049 adjacent creature Or perhaps an evil ai computer that locks you in the building or makes landmines #explode on their own. i dont even know. zeekeers hire me #and yeah i love the rng of it all because it makes for a uniquely hilarious/terrifying experience each time. Something it sucks so bad and #you get a facility with like 1 door which is locked. but that too is funny. to me lc isnt about winning it’s about dying in the funniest way #sigmund and desmond lore is also rly good <3 i hope it gets expanded upon. Would love to see some more worldbuilding stuff like WHATHAPPENED #cramswering #anyway. it has been years since i played scpsl and i know tjat they did a bunch of updates and added a bunch of scps . So i dont know if the #game is better or worse now. and i dont know if i want to find out…. what if my game becomes unbugged and i hear people #now THAT’S real horror game material if you ask me

[lilirot]

The thing that turned me off of Solomon was his whole "Who will you side with" bullshit. Dude, you can't just ask that knowing MC is close with demons. Their MC's family what the fuck. And like it's even worse when you consider MC's relationship with the brothers (and Diavolo) in context. MC has a pact with 7 of the strongest demon's in the Devildom. I don't think this imaginary war in Solomon's head is even gonna happen because MC can literally make it stop unless it's some rogue faction of demons. And, like, I don't see Diavolo going to war with humanity unless he had a reason too. Y'know like say a certain sorcerer going to war with the Devildom because demons didn't want to subjugate themselves to humanity. Like, Solomon that was mega fucked up. Even more fucked up then what you did to Asmo. Like Solomon is the problem here. And, if anyone is gonna be the cause of a war between the worlds it's gonna be him.

#I do like Solomon as a character but as a love interest I wanna dunk his head in a toilet #shame they aren't ever gonna address it because I get the impression they got spooked by the reaction to the tone of S1 #because S2 has been......not good at all #like S1 was not as bad as people made it out to be but S2 is so bad #gimme back the angst & drama fuck >:( #like we didn't even get more romance to balance it out we get no romance and no drama asides weird ass forced shit

[sammisafetypin]

matsugami is so difficult to get right bc I do think that matsuo having been calmed down by th seventh division dissolving and ergo being able to be one of th only people that can pull Mogami off his high horse and speak to him on even footing bc hez been knocked off his own high horse but is still very close to spiritz is significant but also . dey still have to both be fucking freakz . biting and killing and maiming each other but Quirky Worky song from phineas and ferb is playing . Matsuo won’t stop putting on th Vomit Gore Trilogy and den complains when Mogami makes him watch Faces of Death like hez literally any better . dey’re so weird that dey cancel each other out into domestic bliss but Matsuo still insists on going urban exploring in like decrepit former crime scenes for spirits while wearing gigantic boots he bought from Hot Topic (he usually buys everything online but he cannot resist th allure of a dark-ass overly-narrow store and also theft) and Mogami won’t stop generating cockroaches out of nowhere and its REALLY messing up th carpet

#sammisafetypin.txt #am I making sense . do you understand me #Dey’re in domestic bliss and have both partly calmed down esp matsuo but dey’re also both still fucking weirdos #and thatz Why dey can understand each other enough to have that weird cancel-out domestic bliss state . dey’re both just so weird #and so detached from society as a whole but matsuo has reintegrated enough to have a job while still clearly being #a pretty proud weird little freak who lives his spirits #which is th balance that lets him actually get Mogami to listen to him eventually I think. #little freak ass universe

[videolover]

i'm really hesitant to shave my moustache even though it's probably the part of my facial hair that i like the least... i am kind of scared how i'd look without it... i don't think i've taken that specific bit totally off since i was... fourteen or something?

#the connecting bits and goatee and stuff i try to keep totally off... i go through phases of whether or not i can be assed to keep the beard #off or if it's not worth it... the stache i just keep probably for insecurity reasons haha. i think my face is kind of shaped weird... #and it helps balance it out some.

[capricioussun]

don't feel bad about self reblogs, it's always awesome to see your art on my dash and I'm sure I'm not alone with this!

Awe, that's very sweet of you to say!

Tbth i have a really strange relationship with posting online – on one hand, I love just posting whatever and really really enjoy interacting with others, but on the other hand, I'm not sure if it's RSD or what, but i experience like. Social recoil? Where i tend to immediately regret and/or worry over the perception of stuff i post (way more than would be considered normal), especially with posts or reblogs that hardly really garner any interaction at all.

I know it's normal for artists of all kinds to be disheartened by things like that, and I don't necessarily create for others, but that is why i post it online- i mean...why else would you? I see that a lot, people feeling poorly about low interaction, and others trying to encourage them by telling them to make art for themselves and to not worry about it, but that's always come across a little odd to me. No, you probably shouldn't be doing something if you're only doing it for attention, but isn't interaction the point of sharing the things you make online?

Especially so in the case of people who really want to make a living being an artist in their chosen "field". To some degree, you do have to treat it like a business. You do have to sell yourself and try to "grow your audience" if you have any chance of making any sort of income at all, just like any self employment type of job. It feels condescending to see others tell artists who get frustrated with social media constantly doing things to make it harder to have any reach at all that they should care less about the algorithm or numbers when a lot of these people don't have a choice. It feels like hardly a day goes by I don't see posts on twitter or tumblr of someone taking emergency commissions just to cover rent or food for a few days.

Got a bit off topic there, but i sort of rest in a very strange place with my art in that, skill level wise, I'm very much an amateur, but due to Life Issues I won't get into, I can't hold a "normal" job, and I've been constantly kind of battling myself for a couple years now on how to approach trying to make Doing Art Online my career.

I need to put in the work to improve my art so i can not just post more frequently but hopefully get more commission work (which i would honestly also enjoy, I love making things for others, it's one of my favorite things about being able to post online), but i also want to improve my skill level so i can make the things I want to as well (I'm also unfortunately plagued by the Kind Of Wants To Do Everything desires and also want to make plush, music, 3D and live 2D models, and I'd love to get into streaming proper at some point).

So aaallllll of this to say, self reblogging is a big thing for artists on tumblr these days, esp as i see more and more talk about how low interactions gotten on here in the past few years, it's rough! But i also feel like im not...skilled(?) enough to do Proper Online Artist things. I guess. Which is dumb but ah I do not control the chokehold whichever mental issue has on me

#was gunna delete all of this and just respond like a normal person but I'm very sleep deprived right now so you get the evil version #might wind up coming back and doing that anyway via edit if the Fear finds me #my cat just came over and yelled until i lowered my hand to pet her and she rubbed her nose on me and left 😭 #she used me as a damn tissue #okay anyway #sorry anon you were being nice and i made it weird </3 #/lh #anonymous #i have a super complicated relationship with posting online and being annoying and struggling with Life Things #it's a balancing act for sure #ty all the same #clear sky sunset #sunny with clouds #edit: put his ass under a read more bc ough

[orcelito]

ok actually i went on to read chapter 3 of multiple bullets

i fucking HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATE the way the women are drawn. this has made me sorely aware of how LITTLE fanservice there is in trigun, bc whoever this guest artist is, they drew... way too fucking much. too many Pert Tits and weird ass shots and this entire thing about a child????? hello??????

the discussion of the metaphysics to plant production is interesting though.

because it really is an important note that plants generating matter goes against the fundamental laws of physics. i'm not sure how much i ascribe to the idea of "negative matter", ESPECIALLY in the form of some weird plant baby...

but then there's the assertion that This is how independent plants are born. "A plant child like Knives and I."

i don't know enough about physics to comment on how theoretically possible that "oscillation in empty space" thing is. "planckian microspace" seems to be a reference to an established study of the "cosmic microwave background". so not entirely baseless, though almost certainly not applicable to this here.

it's interesting. the theories this raises has definitely given me something to think about.

i just wish it wasn't delivered with such blatant fanservice lmao

#speculation nation #fanny reads trigun #im not counting this as analysis or main tagging it bc i'm mostly just thinking aloud #a lot of the metaphysical logic to plants is just... i mean it's fiction. it's not going to make complete physical sense. #but it's interesting to think about How this kind of thing could actually happen. #i like the idea of their production of matter requiring something else to balance it. i do NOT like the weird pregnancy thing. #i'm of course curious as to where the independent plants come from. i just don't think this makes any fucking sense lmao #on another note. the fact that there's some plant here that's just. full form Talking??? and this is just Accepted??? hello??? #weird. wild. i really hate this chapter's art but i REALLY am intrigued by this section. #glad i went and skimmed thru up to this point despite hating the abject fanservice #which yes u can kinda see here. there are worse parts. i did not like being slapped in the face by some random girl's ass lmao #there's a REASON i dont read manga like that. thanks #pregnancy ment/ #nonsexual nudity/

[theyneverblindmedarling]

yall im becoming soooo fed up with swifties these days idk what it is but like theres an increasingly small section I find myself wanting to partake in any discourse with

#like theres the people wayy too into the kelce thing and then the people making just the most insane easter egg theories for new albums and #like its all exhausting just bc theres a certain level of fan where if you have a differing opinon u seem like a “hater” or smth #and its like idk its very disorienting feeling when as a swiftie u get pushed into a non swiftie side of the internet because u want to bot #theorize about the music but also critique certain things about the artist that you may disagree with #ive been watching swiftologist a lot lately and like while sure i dont have to agree with everything at least the takes are somewhat nuance #and different and not super ass kissy or just plain weird and invasive like its a good balance #i know this might come across as bitter or smth i swear im not I do love the fandom dearly i just am experiencing such burnout with it

[tipsywench]

These 2 playlists are even and now I feel like I can't add a song to either one or else the universe will become off balance and explode

#did not intentionally do this so I appreciate that it just happened #me quickly switching back and forth between kate and rammstein to keep it balanced #i thought i was being funny naming it rammalamma #these 2 actually go really well together ok they both have interesting music and songs about weird ass shit in this essay i will...

[triblu]

There was once a time I made a weird little doodle while I was thinking about @hellpark and the adventure zone where I messed with fusing them together. was a good lil style challenge

#this was a whole au in my brain #I did not do shit with it #hell park #taz balance #taz edward #taz lydia #south park #this is such a weird ass mix and it ONLY FITS BECAUSE I LISTENED TO CURSES NONSTOP

[pizzabookbuying]

I always start my fic like .okay. This time I will pick whether or not this is told from multiple perspectives and I will STICK to that decision. And then I never do that obviously

#brought to you by me staring at my document trying my damndest to figure out how to make the narrative feel balanced #I initially was writing from one perspective. and then I realized towards the middle of the fic it could be really fun to have a scene told #from a different pov. but then it felt weird having just the one scene so now I’m trying to figure out which parts are best told from which #character. and it’s a pain in my ass because SOMEONE (me) decided it would be super cool to have a really long first chapter told entirely #from one pov. #chapter 2 would be so good if I could start with character b and end with character a #but I already told chapter 1 from A’s perspective 😵‍💫 #file under: things that could be fixed if I was better at outlining