#when i tell you i didnt understand anything

[citrus-lamb]

Hola, I'm back for more food. Can I request a poly sbg (again.) with a fem reader who is like Wonyoung from Ive (and she's an undercover singer and they all find out because they searched up her group name because they heard people *cough cough *Barron* talking about her (yummy)

a/n : okay, so i don't know anything about k-pop, but i did some research. so reader is gonna be an undercover idol that doesn't reveal her face. sorry if the characters are a bit ooc, still trying to get used to their personalities! please enjoy.

song : idol (yaosabi)

You like to sing lullabies to the group. As an older sister, you know all of them by heart, and after nightmares people can become a lot like a toddler. The group, including you, lives through nightmares every night, so you found yourself learning more and more calming songs. More and more songs from different genres.

Eventually you wanted to make a cover of your favorite song. So you did, and you posted it to Youtube under a fake name. Over the next few days it came up with hundreds of thousands of views. It made you shocked, to say the least, but your newly-acquired fans demanded more. So you gave more.

After about a month you became one of the most popular “idols”—as your fans called you—in America. Every cover you made got upwards of a million views. It was almost too much to handle.

One day, when you were given some free time in one of your classes, you heard Barron running his mouth again. “Dude, did you see? Vibeon.Ai posted yesterday. Best cover yet!

“You’re into that girl’s bullshit? She doesn’t even sound good.”

Tyler leaned towards you, “Yo, who are they talking about?”

“Ah… Vibeon.Ai? She’s an idol. Millions of subscribers on Youtube, y’know? I don’t listen to her though, haha…” You said hurriedly, trying not to sound nervous. What if the group found out about you being an idol? They would treat you different—ask for some of your fame. You didn’t want that. You didn’t want to be used.

“Guess I’ll have to check her out.” He mumbled.

~

You were scared. You went home and threw yourself on your bed and almost fucking screamed. Tyler? Listening to you cover a song? When he’s definitely heard your voice before? This is a disaster!

Your phone ringed

Tyler Hernandez: ‘This Vibeon.Ai person sounds a lot like you’ 4:23pm

Fuck fuck fuck… oh my god, were you screwed, or what?

Another ring.

Aiden Clark: ‘uou made covrrs and didnt tell us?? they sound so gopd!11!1” 4:24pm

Ashlyn Banner: ‘You really do. You should make more covers.’ 4:24pm

Taylor Hernandez: “how did you understand aiden just then??’ 4:25pm

Ashlyn Banner: ‘Magic.’ 4:25pm

Ben Clark: ‘You get used to it’ 4:26pm

Logan Fields: 'Translation??? Please????' 4:26pm

Wait…

They aren’t asking for fame? Nothing? Not even money? This is different.

~

“You guys promise not to tell anyone, right?” You asked, practically begging. You didn’t want anyone—especially not Barron—to know.

“Of course we won’t!” Taylor said, giving you a reassuring smile, “We wouldn’t betray your trust like that.”

“Right.” Logan said, “…So when’s your next cover?”

#sbg #sbg x reader #school bus graveyard #school bus graveyard x reader

[widdlediddle2]

my teacher is so funny sometimes lmfao

we were watching hamlet and since it was old Shakespeare they were talking in like early modern English so the whole time the class did not understand a thing of what they were saying but my teacher was laughing sm at her desk when they made a "joke" 💀💀💀

#shes so funny #i love her #def something ursula would do ong #laughing at old plays while the whole class is like🗿 #when i tell you i didnt understand anything #IM FR #I LOOKED LIKE THAT SHREK MEME #PLZ #LIKE I LIKE OLD ENGLISH #I JUST CAANT UNDERSTAND IT WHEN THEYRE SPEAKING #theyre probably some people that are gonna judge me for not understanding and i wouldnt blame you #but our class is dumb asf we all share the same braincell #and we just started trying to learn so dont blame us fr #i think i remember learning early modern english before but i wasnt too into it to try and understand it #i just wanted to pass that class and get tf outa there

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#had an interesting conversation with my sister the other day. odd i guess bc my sister is pretty smart #on paper shes smarter than me. or at least less dyslexic than me #but she didnt seem to kno what cancer is. i mean like how it works. i mean. cancer is a mistake. a confluence of unfortunate accidents #leading to unrestrained cellular growth. when it metastasizes. when it moves to other parts of the body. those same cells continue growing #if u have smooth muscle cancer and it moves to your kidney. you body is trying to grow more smooth muscle on your kidney #at least as i understand it. and she asked why it wants to kill you. it doesnt want anything. it just is. its not a thing of malicious #intent. its neutral. it grows. it takes up resources. it takes up space. and it grows and grows until the organ it grows on stops #functioning properly. like a parasite she said. but no. not like a parasite. it grows like an empty space. a mass of flesh. a constant #obstructive pressure. it grows like only a tumor can. i dunno. it didnt seem to connect with her that this thing didnt want to kill our mom #but it did anyway. and she felt weird about how long she lived after they took her off any support. but thats how cancer kills #it stops an organ from functioning and most of those r important so it only takes one. so her heart kept beating for 12 more hrs bc it was #meant to beat for 40 more years. but not much it could do without working kidneys and without working blood #but that's life. that's death. that's nature. its all nutral even if it feels horrible to the individual. #i dunno. i thought it was interesting. shes 25 and her mother had cancer for 10 years so id think shed kno more #we're at a weird phase now bc its been a week since she died and everything feels normal. we'll see what happens at the wake this week #its been interesting for sure bc she was sick for 10 years but my parents didnt prepare at all for her to die #so my dad is scrambling to put together the pieces shr left behind to make sure that all the bills r paid and whatnot. he had to guess her #computer password. she didnt tell us what she wanted us to have. she didnt tell us the importance of her jewelry and who it belonged to #before her. i dunno. we're seeing the outline of my mothers Pathology in what she left behind. both in the physical objects and in the #feelings she imparted. i dunno. its been weird #unrelated

[bellamyblakru]

bro the way merlin’s go-to way to show the people he loves how magic can be beautiful is with fire manipulation,,, im unwell.

#ashley rambles #merlin #bbc merlin #first with freya and the candles #and then arthur with the dragon #both times it ended with death. like how could this kid not associate showing magic equaling dying in his arms. every fucking time he felt #safe enough to show this side they ALL DIE. WILL. HIS DAD. LANCELOT. FREYA. LANCE AGAIN. ARTHUR. THAT ONE DRUID LADY THAT WAS CHILL #also not to mention how ironic it is that fire was his choice when thats the very thing he was taught to fear. everyone he loved also burned #in situations he no doubt blamed himself for. like will died saving arthur and merlin couldnt save him with magic bc of said prince #merlin could only watch as freya died in his arms sobbing that she felt so loved #lance died for him so he didnt sacrifice himself. merlin was more important than anything to lance and he proved it. merlin watched helpless #as lance decided to take his own life and he was powerless to stop him. to tell him goodbye. to tell him he needed him around #i made a post long ago where i said it was ironic fics make merlin afraid of the pyre when he was one of the few not burned in the end #AND ARTHUR. god. a dragon made of flame?? are you kidding?? can u be more symbolic pls. two of them shown in one simple effortless move #fire was probably a comfort to merlin. its real tangible proof of something being created out of nothing. #it burns and it destroys but it also provides a light in the dark. warmth in the cold. #just like magic. just like him. he can hurt others and himself but he also is such a brilliant light to the world. he is sunshine #and butterflies but he is also the storm needed to understand just how lovely the good is #why am i talking bye

[britneyshakespeare]

throughout the series of drake and josh it pretty consistently implies that josh nichols is a christian (josh peck is jewish) and in the finale of the series helen (played by yvette nicole brown, not jewish[?]) is portrayed as a practicing jew

#i dont have a problem w either of those things necessarily i just find it interesting #if i had to guess. drake and josh was a mainstream that didnt wanna touch on religion generally #but josh was kind of a dork and usually when josh's religious beliefs are implied it is in dorkish ways #such as praying and thanking the lord after he has his first kiss. #but since dan schneider is jewish perhaps he wanted to make helen have a jewish wedding in the finale? #not that there needs to be a reason. but u do notice occasional jewish-related jokes in d&j but none of them are what you could call #offensive. in good faith that is. 'eric is a pacifist' 'i thought he was jewish?' like come on #text post #i have been rewatching drake and josh recently and i have had so many thoughts #im almost done. i just have left that stupid dance episode that they premiered last for the stupid reason #of a special dance-themed premiere night in fall 2007. they premiered the third episode of icarly and a new zoey 101 on the same night #which i think is so stupid. they should've aired really big shrimp last. it messed w my understanding of the series at the time lol #i remember not really knowing that the show was ENDING. like i knew icarly was starting & miranda was doing that #i thought really big shrimp was like just another special like go hollywood. #and then like two days later they premiered the helicopter episode for some reason #and i was like why is drake not famous in this. he just had a number 1 song in a superbowl commercial #and then a month later the dance one. which. if anything is satisfying about that as a final episode it's just that #that unnamed girl from the blues brothers episode who is obsessed w drake shows up again and congratulates them #and the very final line of the series is 'who is she?' because. because really who IS she? #that's a funny enough throwback to wrap things up with i suppose #drake and josh wasn't a highly serialized show so i can see how they could air those after the intended finale and act like it didn't matte #but i have to tell you it did fuck with my brain a bit at the time. lol. i still think of those episodes as having 'happened' after #and on paramount plus those episodes are still placed after really big shrimp. the injustice #but thats kinda messy. what a weird way to end such an influential and popular sitcom #season 4 had a few lowpoints while still also having some VERY solid episodes. #idk. ill have to continue my series review another time im getting way too longwinded here #helen dubois is jewish

[liquidstar]

Considering Julius is a history nerd, how do you suppose he would react to Subaru telling him about earth history?

the thing is theyre BOTH history nerds so if they just stopped their weird bickering for 2 seconds they could actually have the most fun and interesting conversation ever. just like loredumping to each other. i genuinely think julius would be so fascinated to learn about entire new countries and cultures and mythologies and everything. hed probably be surprised by just HOW MUCH earth has going on given there are so many more countries, and a much more complex history due to not being in the middle ages lol. like the industrial revolution is going to blow his fucking mind. we've already seen the ppl of legunica struggle somewhat to understand certain things, bc they really DO have a medieval perception of the world. so subaru might have to explain around certain things. like. "you're telling me they put a man on the moon? the fucking moon in the fucking sky?" <lost his knightly composure

#i can speak from experience on that last part bc i have a great aunt (shes 102) who like #grew up in a very very very very very isolated village and didnt get to go to school #so she doesnt understand that like... the world isnt flat and the sun and moon arent the size of quarters in the sky #and like i know youre thinking ''thats impossible how can someone think that'' well like. #she was never taught anything beyond what she perceives. that all. #and even when you try to explain these things to her now she cant quite comprehend them #like you can tell her that the sun is fucking huge and millions of miles away but she'll just be like no its right there. and its small. #to be clear shes not like a flat earth conspiracy theorist thats like a completely different thing #she was never taught it was round to begin with...

[caffeinatedopossum]

People be like "merry Christmas" meanwhile I'm over here uncovering new depths of my trauma

#yeah so apparently I experienced csa and I'm honestly not processing that super well #i started just telling people about stuff that happened that i never want to talk about #and they were like 'uh yeah thats csa im sorry you went through that' 💀 #like wdym that was csa?? ahhhdjdj ah djdhdgd #in all seriousness though I've gad a lot of very painful realizations about this lately #like the fact that people knew and not only let it happen but actively tried to allow it to continue #and prevent people who actually try to do anything about it from finding out. including me! i was told it was all normal #like 'oh yes this is all normal. but also dont tell anyone this.' #'not because its wrong but because theyll get the wrong idea' #god. i can't comprehend it #i never thought it was sa because ive always been asexual. i couldnt think of any motive so i just didnt know #i didn't have any grasp of what sexuality was in general. i thought it was like a social construct or a game i was sometimes bad at #i still don't understand. i hate how when i think about it all i feel like a little kid again

[deus-and-the-machina]

ffxiv garlemald discourse is so funny because people will go "ugh people just cant stand it when things aren't black and white" and then you look at how the empire are portrayed in stormblood and shadowbringers and its like hm. that seems like a pretty intense and accurate display of violent imperialism to me! Wow I wonder why people in this day and age may find it hard to feel sympathy for them or even hate them on principal. god its such a mystery.

the games like 50/50 to me on how it tackles these themes because I actually like the garlemald arc in EW, I think it has a lot of horrific and powerful scenes depicting how self destructive fascist propaganda and beliefs are, but I also think it doesn't go far enough on some fronts. the garleans' xenophobia is most notably and obstacle to getting them to accept the contingent's help, which is what they're there to do,

but there's never an admission of harm from any garleans on the uuuuuuuuh massive amount of war crimes the nations around them are still suffering from they're just kind of like "we misjudged you...but you actually wanted to help us all along" like yeah thats great now can we get you all some deprogramming because you keep talking about returning to your prime and glory days and I think we need to unpack some stuff you really SHOULDNT return to. im not even really talking about EW proper but the patches where things are a bit more chilled out and people are recovering.

It feels like they wanted to have their critique of imperialism and also have things end with the beauty of human connection and reaching out and these things just don't mesh well because hey a lot of your modern day audience is not gonna like having to treat people yelling xenophobic things at the cast and your character with kid gloves after you showed them hours and hours of the awful things these people's beliefs have done. especially in the present day hoo boy.

#im kind of torn between 'no characters dont need to be 'punished' to be redeemed but also the characters just being so lenient with the #colonizers after we see far too many people being lenient if not supportive of the colonizers irl. well. it really blows afslkjfalkf and #yeah you can argue if they'd gone through with the garlemald expansion they would've had more time to go into this but the fact is that its #absent from what they did do and I especially think the patches when we go to garlemald and the EW role quests going 'hey maybe the #provinces can help us rebuild' as if they'd have any goddamn right to ask that just make me feel like they didnt stick the landing #seeing all the characters who have suffering time and time again bc of the garleans or seen the results of their actions having to clamp #their mouths shut every time someone said something xenophobic in EW isnt satisfying and it leaves so much unsaid! #also some people feel like the narrative didnt blame emet enough but ngl I think thats reductive even with his micromanaging scheming littl #ass and the intention of garlemald turning out a shitshow that doesnt make anyone else less complicit. most governments like this exaggerat #and lie and spread propaganda but I dont think most people here excuse the actions of a bigot because 'they were raised that way' #this is also my issue with gaius' writing. hes primarily upset that ascians were behind what he thought was his good old fashioned natural #conquering ideology :( and doesnt it suck so much he killed people for it. like yeah he seems pretty aware what he did was wrong but his #ideology remains bizarrely intact and unchallenged by the characters around him. no dude it wasnt just the ascians the system is a lot more #complex than that by this point aaaaaugh #final fantasy xiv #ffxiv #siren says #I hope people are nice to me about this I dont think I said anything particularly controversial to the Tumblr crowd (twt maybe but fuck em) #ig my main point with this post is that the game isnt perfect at writing this and also that look. I actually liked the main arc in EW and I #like quite a few garlean characters but I completely understand why others didnt like it or any garleans esp if they have their own persona #experiences with colonialism and I dont get to tell them they're invalid for that. too many people get judgmental about this understandably #upsetting topic and you just gotta accept that this is a big line for many people

[semothekat]

head in hands heand in hands

#paper is talking #Me when my dad is telling me how good and useful ai art is #How it would be so much easier for me to draw if i used it #That i can just skip the ‘meaningless’ stuff and get exactly my ideas made #Basically like the entire drawing process is meaningless and isnt important #Im not that good at speaking chinese but i said sometihng like ‘then i dont need to draw’ meaning like theres no point in me drawing at all #But i didnt really say the right words to get that meaning across so he said exactly! #Like. #head in hands right now guys #Theres no point in drawing anything if i use ai to make it #Like idk how to explain this in a way that he will understand in a way that isn’t ‘yeah! See now you dont have to work as hard and its so m #So much easier!’ #Idk why but him suggesting whole heartedly that i use ai to draw just ruined my mood eniterely #WHATS THE POINT!!! #In drawing amber and sayu and all my ocs if im not drawing it!! #Whats the point in drawing anything ever agian #Drawing is so fun becuase i made that. #I made that with my own two hands #And its specifically mine. I made that #Like i took the time to figure out how to draw the eye to look just rihgt #i took the time to figure out which colors looked bettter and i took the time to look back at the references and study the characters cloth #s and realize with terror that they have 32847298374 details #I took the time to just not draw all those details #I tookt he time to make it and it is part of me #I dont care if its just amber standing there drawing 548 i made that! #He thinks that the amount of time and effort is a hassle and a problem that should be solved cause it ‘gets in the way of the #Creative process’ #This is the creaive process!!!! #This is the point!! #Top ten reasons im balding

[borderlinegerard]

cause when you leave, you take more than your love

#personal #my posts #how self conceded do you have to be to think im gonna be anything but pissed after that dm #and after telling me to die #“oh i get to be selfish skmetimes too” YEHA DAWG I KNOW. YOU HAVE MADE THAT VERY CLEAR #me when being selfish does not equal doing suoer shitty things and not apologizing #yes man lets tells the chronically suicidal guy to die. this is sucha good idea #and its like. i guess ill never understand how im in yhe wrong for doing the exact same thing that he did... #or am i in the wrong for doing something you dont like And having our friend be on my side #i wouldve apologized if you didnt fucking escalate things. and now i realize this could end out friendship #but if youre unwilling to understand how this is ecen a little bit your fault... #i dont Want ro think youre a bad oerson but after this not even our shared laughs can make me have the forgiveness i need for this #and the thing is. at least im admitting its partially my fault #why are you physically fucking incapable of doing rhe same #and its funny when i realize tgat ive been happier since the day we stopped talking.... #youre leaving shitty comments under my tumblr posts and im thinking less abt you then j have in months #idk man! maybe i deserve skme stability for once. if its Crazy tk believe #Spotify

[pezpenser205]

if i had a nickel for every time i got an anon criticizing me where i responded willing to believe them, being curious and wanting more resources or details so i can learn, but they go dead silent and never say anything else about it id have 2 nickels which isnt a lot but its really annoying and makes me sad that its happened twice.

#''x is bad'' #ok i wanna believe you but can you give me something to read or explain this to me bc just you saying things isnt something i wanna form- #a strong opinion around. #*silence* #ok! why!!!!! #i feel like if youre coming to someone with information especially an autistic someone then you should be ready to explain what you mean- #-and how you got to that conclusion. like someone saying ''x is a dogwhistle'' or ''x is bad'' doesnt tell me anything. i dont know any- #-more than i did when we first started talking. i just know that this person thinks these things and thats not enough. as an autistic- #-person whos been duped countless times into agreeing with stuff or saying and doing things in conversation that i didnt actually agree- #-with im not just gonna believe everyone. youre on anon and i dont know you. how am i supposed to know i can trust you. i cant. and i want- #-to. thats why im asking for information. i want to know things and i want to get things right but saying 'youre doing x wrong' without- #-telling me exactly why its wrong is a fucking nightmare man. i need to know in excruciating detail in order to change how i think. #its not that i dont ever want to change how i think i just cant trust people and want to know that the information im taking in is accurate #and i want to understand it fully. i cant just know one facet of something. #i dont just see the overarching idea. i see the smaller bits that make up those ideas. if you dont give me history or backstory to work with #i wont see the full idea. despite wanting to. #bleh. #im tired #op

[starswallowingsea]

every time i've gotten into a popular series or franchise i've always been disappointed by it because like. its so hyped up and i watch it and find it mid and it appears we are not watching/playing the same thing

#reasons i wont like. get into ace attorney or fma or anything else #and by popular i mean like. ubiquitously popular. like an 'everyone at least knows of it' type #like ik enstars is popular especially in asia but in the west its a lot more niche #for whatever reason one piece is more niche ime than naruto or bleach despite arguably being bigger and literally still ongoing #and then jjk. god help me jjk is awful now #i was going to say idk if jjk is at that level but i've had easier times finding merch for that than some series here #so its certainly up there. #umu not to say its not good but i just find them being so hyped up leads to a lot of disappointment especially #since i didnt get into them at the same time as everyone else ie during formative times in my life #in middle/high school so it holds a completely different context for me being in my early 20s #anyway. idk where i was going with this. im not not into popular media/anime specifically #obviously. i run a semi popular one piece blog. #but compared to other things i am certainly less drawn to popular series #and find the uber popular ones have. declined in quality recently #what is going on in bsd even these days i should catch up. no i shouldnt. someone tell me when kouyou shows up again #the only redeeming thing in that series is my beloved kouyou you dont understand #and chuuya but mostly kouyou #but if its not just me and 20 other bloggers on this godforsaken site then i dont want it #shay speaks #again this is. just about my personal taste dont try to take this out of context so help me god

[mainfaggot]

another shit fucking day but in the most casual way possible bc all i did was sulk study cry study sulk and finally, sulk in the shower. chai next and then bed . fuck my stupid baka life forrealsies

#i almost had an argument w my mother over nothing at one point bc i was so anxious about nothing and everything at once and well #i keep thinking. idk what im doing anything for anymore #like when we were arguing i was like wait what if she brings up how shes giving me a ride to uni multiple times this week #and then i was like wait if she says that. I'll just tell her not to. and then ill skip class. and then ill drop my classes and get a refund #and then ill drop out of uni. and then ill kill myself! #mind you i was thinking about all of this and the argument didnt even go in that direction in the end bc it was over very quickly #ljke. what ks wrong with me #i keep thinking that if my parents get pissed at me for being good for nothing despite me trying my hardest not to be #i really will end it all finally like Actually #bc i dont understand anymore. why are they paying for my stupid medication and tuition #theyre too nice to me #i know they expect me to send them money in their ideal imagined scenario in which i get a good job after getting a masters degree #and i know they expect that I'll take care of them when theyre old bc in their ideal. imagined. scenario. i 1) dont off myself in the next #few years 2) am not a lesbian who ruins the whole family dynamic by coming out and 3) get a well paying job and a husband #so. so yeah #but right NOW theyre nice to me and they take care of me but also i think everything is pointless but i try anyway because they take care #of me and they want me to be well but how am i supposed to be Get Well if i don't believe in myself #like i dont think thats possible really. #maybe a tiny bit? like maybe i won't be Well but i can be better. yeah i can do that #so i guess thats why im still trying #but then it's like. being Better is so. marginally different from being at rock bottom in a way #like yeah its significant improvement clinically but to me it's still casually miserable in its own unique way bc it's better but its still #very much present lingering choking me etc #so that brings me to the following: #im trying so hard but for what exactly? 'just keep going!' but at what cost? but why when im still like this? #z.post

[wriochilde]

wait no actually i gotta think about this for a second.

#i remember when i was around 7 years old my mom caught me doing something bad and i got hit a few times and afterwards she was like #'listen to me. what happens at home stays at home. dont tell your teachers ANYTHING about us or you'll be taken far away' #and i was a real mamas boy and nothing terrified me more than the idea of being torn from my mother #so i didnt question it. but do you know how angry this memory makes me #i try understanding that my mom had a rough childhood too and maybe she thinks she isnt being abusive #but NO she literally KNOWS that she would be absolutely fucked if i told anyone about how she used to beat me for things like not napping #but oh well. what can a guy do #finn.txt

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#ay ay ay. now that the soul crushing project is done ive elected to spend the week managing data #which is decidedly more chill than what ive been doing for the last month but also isnt not doing anything and it isnt getting stuff done #for when i have to move. so thats annoying. and ive been drawing again at least but i can feel the escalation in my controlling behavior #so its now very frustrating trying to draw anything. coloring is gonna take a million years rip. #also suddenly everyone wants to b social rn? like tomorrow my boss is organizing a thing with an old lab mate and this weekend a #collaborator is having a retirement party. and next week my lab mates wanna do a trivia night. and i kno that i should go to these things. #and i will try but i really dont want to go to any of it. mostly for driving reasons but also im a husk of a person rn. but the more #devastating thing is that uh next week one of the kids i grew up with is getting married to a rich girl lol. and like we werent that close #bc i was and am such an asocial freak but after the wedding my parents r picking up their new camper and camping their way across the #country with my sisters. and im sure someone probably told me the dates of these things at some point but if u tell me dates i will #instantly forget them. so thats. ya kno. happening over basically the next 2 weeks while i have to kill myself over measurements for a #different study i dont care abt. and like. its fine. ill see them mid may for a different planned trip. it just makes me kinda sad #a product of living halfway across the country i guess. im just inherently more disconnected to everyone. i would suspect thsts semi #intentional subconsciously. u cant b upset abt not being able to connect with ppl if you create enough physical distance that u never see #them in the 1st place. u cant misunderstand me if i make myself absent and unknowable. idk. i was explaining to my mum that i didnt realize #the timeline and she was like. understandable whatever u wanna do! and idk y that upsets me so much. i guess its just that i dont want to b #doing this. its causing me pain but dont kno how to articulate it in a way that makes sense. whatever. my mouth hurts. my lips r so chapped #that the irritation is spread past my lip line. probably doesnt help thst i keep rubbing at it lol. anyway things r still annoying #less soul crushing thsn last week but still frustrating #unrelated