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monochromesong · 8 months
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Work has been awful for months but I'M GOING TO MIKU EXPO BABY
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sillycyan · 8 months
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There is so many things I want to start as hobbies and what not, but they are way too expensive to truly dive into.. SO INSTEAD IM GONNA LIST EM + go on random side rants
TLDR: Take care of ferrets, skateboard, biker, art, vtuber, open sticker shop, collect manga and figures, scriptwriter, and learn Russian.
I definitely want ferrets in the far future. There has been hours on hours of research and planning to make it happen (ᗒᗣᗕ) This is something that does have to wait a few years when I’m financially stable and sticking to things in the house.
Skateboarding.. I have a board, but it’s a very DOOKIE one so around this month I’m gonna stop by a shop for a new one. The main problem here is that I live in a city so there is really no places to skate around and I already feel judged just being outside.. Imagine me on a skateboard??? I’m dying??
Hear me out on this one.. BIKER.. I recently have been really looking into motorcycles and when I do move out of the city (x_x) I’d truly rather be on a bike then in a car for reasons I will NOT explain. Cost wise it’s pricey, will have to be long term, and 100% is being my whole personality
I have been drawing on and off for a few years but with that I can’t trust myself to turn it into something serious as I have already quick multiple times for months to years at a time. I already own a drawing tablet, you not catching me on paper, and I already have a start. With art I feel forced to start commissions because it’s already so pressured to make money off it and that ruined the fun for me.
I want to stream as a vtuber soo badd!!! I already have a model now and plan to stream on my own time, but I’d love to be in an actual agency. Ofc I probably won’t be good enough for any because IM BLACK and it’s impossible to even get into any big names with that factor without being forced under a white and/or japanese persona… but it’s worth a shot yk?? Half throwing shade at the main vtuber agencies bc holy the racism in the community alone is horrible D:
Very sadly I got all the boring hyperfixations so I weirdly wish I could start a little sticker shop (-_-) Just for very cute random sticker sheets.. I collect stickers because it’s fun even though I haven’t use them because I don’t like to decorate my items with colors. Weirdly ties into how I’m a minimalist and I should never have kids because they would be the iconic “sad beige baby” GOD FOR BID I HAVE A GIRL oh my god they will never see the color pink ever (helps the color stereotypes ig)
Reallyyy REALLY want to collect manga. There are a few series I really just want to own and read SO IMA LISTEN EM HEHHE.. Banana Fish (own 1-9), Goodnight PunPun, Vagabond, A Girl on the Shore, Blood on the Tracks, Doomsday With My Dog, Chainsaw Man, Dandadan, Doubt, A Man and His Cat, and other names I’m not abt to remember..
Along with collecting manga I would love to collect figures, just a good few anime and game ones. Then just a whole bunch of Miku, but I’m stopping the blue aesthetic for my area and changing it to GREEN.. Really want the Banana Fish and Little Nightmares figured soo badd!!!!3!:?:!(:&36:
I cant drop too many details but.. scriptwriter.. I just think I could sit down and do that. NOT DROPPING SPECIFICS BC ITS EMBARRASSING SOO NEXTTT
Not sure if I can count this here, but I really want to talk time to learn Russian..? Show I’m fixated on and have been for years is in Russian and holy it made me wanna learn so baddd RAAAHHHHH
Just dropped 10 because no one is reading allat NOT EVEN I.. so if yew did read everything then helloo :))) I’m not gonna reread through nothing so sorry if it had bad spelling or grammar.. Rants don’t got time for allat
time to add a bunch of tags in relation to EVERYTHING update: not doin allat
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poorxsouls · 2 years
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“Creepy” Miku Doll Head-cannons</3
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Unknown creator [maybe by Volks Dollie Dream Miku or Peepocringe Miku ]and unknown sites
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Moon-Cake🥮 Anon asked for “Hey im new to tumblr but I’m sure you remember me ANYWAY- can you do Creepy Miku doll headcannons with reader/anon?PS good luck on tumblr”
Tw : mentions of biting,shocks,fearing the bark,ARGS,
Cw : “Creepy” Miku doll
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“Why can’t I close my eyes?why can’t I open my mouth?i can’t see the end of the har-is this a internal dialogue?HATSUNE MIKU😱!!??
Platonic
-She tends to scare you sometimes whenever she’s beep In thought
-she always challenges you to a staring contest because she knows she will win
-They don’t really talk or make sounds but you know what’s on their mind by looking at their face
-She mostly plays mystery games or even take a look at a few ARGs with you whenever your up for it
-Whenever you two hang out and watch tv,she hates it when you put scary movies-she might not show it but she’s scared
-Whenever you ask her what music she likes,she will hand over her air-phones to you and you’ll just hear morse code
-She tends to crash at your place at night since she wants to cuddle with you since she’s scare of sleeping alone in her bark room also big plus if you have a night light since she never turns it off
Romantic[?]
-Since she’s one of the BLUE Mikus your gonna have to expect a lot of affection from her especially if your in a good mood
-She tends to bite you when you two kiss and if she doesn’t bite you,she shocks you since she kisses you pretty fast
-She likes wearing your clothes,especially if their Lazy clothes that look big on her!she just likes how they look on her
-You can’t carry her,she’s too heavy💀she’s like made out of metal
-She only blushes when you hold her hand And if you say you think she looks pretty cool whenever she’s wearing a cheap ghost costume
-She likes making you depressing poems just to see how sad you get but it’s not that bad their just depressing to read
-If you randomly hold her hand She will just Stare at you and stop whatever she’s doing
When she sees you
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I’m choosing to believe bc you posted about MMD that you’ll know what I’m talking about-> ok so do you remember Magnet with Miku and Luka. Like I don’t remember the actual song at all but there was this image of the two of them and it looked like the were gonna kiss and cause I was 12 and realizing I gay I was Obsessed with it. They’re wearing these earphones with butterfly wings on them and for a while in the early 2010s it was like?? A Thing to draw characters you shipped like that. ANYWAY. Because first class came out in 2011. There HAS to be a Cherik Magnet Drawing. It’s like physically impossible that there isn’t at least one. But I’ve looked so much and any combination of the words Cherik + Magnet leads to nothing helpful because of like. Magneto obviously. Anyway I really really need to find a version of this now it’s starting to haunt me so if anyone has remembered seeing something like this Please let me know and Thanks I guess and also Sorry if you have no idea what I’m going on about.
okay so originally i DIDN’T have any idea what you were talking about i only learned about mmd three weeks ago as i frantically tried to figure out how people were making videos of sasuke and princess peach dance to swalla but i was curious so i googled it and i must say. congratulations to hatsune miku and luka for coming out! the butterfly pic IS gay as hell!! writing a song about gay longing is also gay as hell!! drawing you ships in butterfly headphones sounds fun!!! i was not part of this subculture as a kid and im sad i missed it💔
this made me also try and look for a cherik version because you’re right the timeline is just too perfect there has to be at least ONE but i can’t find it either?? im fully confident it exists without question tho. i think it probably exists on an older forum or fansite but i do not know which one….. unfortunately i was busy being 11 when first class dropped i do not know the old fandom lore and so i don’t know where it’s hiding. will be leaving this mission up to my wonderful followers who might actually know!!
extreme sidenote. also i would like to thank mr cheese dip, who was in the comments section of one of the magnet videos i watched, for reinventing the love is love meme!
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letstalksymphogear · 5 years
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Symphogear, EP. 2
Last time, on Symphogear!
An adorable little girl, stood up by her date for a reasonable explanation, jams it out with her favorite pop duo, caught unawares that they are also a monster-fighting syndicate experimenting with the power of sound (the power to make you dizzy) to activate an ancient historical relic. Shit goes south as the jams prove to be too powerful, guaranteeing tragedy amidst an otherwise baller concert. Hibiki is rescued by The Bigger Of The Lesbians before she self-destructs to make sure the entire threat is neutralized, leaving The Smaller Lesbian sad, yet still incredibly gay. Years pass as our protagonist goes to Music School, for Music, to bunk it up with her girlfriend as she tries to figure out what the hell happened. Her prayers are answered when she tries to rescue a little girl and is promptly cornered, activating the same outfit The Bigger Lesbian that saved her had on. Gungnir Dattos all around, The Smaller Lesbian loses her shit as everything goes downhill from there.
Now, where were we?
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...right. The piss beacon.
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And the person taking the piss.
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Hibiki has nary a clue what to do. Symphogears don’t actually come with manuals, you see. They’re sort of a “close your eyes and wing it” kind of experience. In Tsubasa’s case, it’s quite literal.
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“FUCK that was COOL AS SHIT, tight as FUCKING HELL”
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Take pity on this face. This is the face of someone who’s last memories will be a confused lady wondering why she is suddenly part machine.
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“imma save you widdle kid”
Something to note about this show is that all the fighters sing while fighting. Hibiki is no exception, even after being confused about what the hell she’s doing. It helps that her voice actress is a professional singer.
It helps that every voice actress here is some sort of professional singer.
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This picture basically summarizes why Hibiki is cool despite being so goddamned dumb. She’s angry, and she’s gonna protect some kids even if she dies doing it. Kanade would be proud, if she wasn’t too busy being dead.
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No shit!
Have you ever watched the original Sam Reimi’s Spiderman? Like, the very first one? You know all those awkward scenes about Spiderman learning how his powers work? Hibiki basically does that under crunch time. There’s a long segment about how she’s forced to figure things out while protecting a kid and Not Dying.
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It’s going pretty great.
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I can’t believe she’s secretly Steve Urkel.
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“cannot FUCKING believe that girl my girlfriend saved managed to GET HER HANDS on her FUCKING CLOTHES that I WANTED to ENSHRINE IN A MEMORIAL to her how the FUCK did she do that cant BELIEVE i have to SAVE HER IDIOT ASS because she just CANT EVEN DO THAT-”
Tsubasa, preparing herself as a contender for the World’s Angriest Lesbian, barrels through the Noise in her motorcycle...
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...which she smashes directly into the Noise. It does nothing.
Tsubasa has many a motorcycle to smash. It’s a testament to her dedication following her aesthetic.
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She fueled the tank completely before smashing it in.
Tsubasa... is petty.
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As Tsubasa t-poses to assert dominance (a woman ahead of her time, this first aired in 2012), she comes down ready to kick some ass and vent some frustrations. And frankly? She’s all out of ass.
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“oh my god she’s even hotter up close i cant believe it”
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“fucking knock-off outfit looks like it came out of a bootleg flea market”
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You don’t need to know what happens next, because you already know what happens when someone shows up with a fucking sword ready to sing about their dead girlfriend and the conflicting feelings about seeing her armor pop up again on someone else.
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Murder.
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Lots... and lots... of murder.
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“we’re so fucking useless why do we even exist”
After Tsubasa finishes what could only be described as a massacre, we’re treated to how people clean up the aftermath.
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“hey, you know, make fun of me all you want, but at the end of the day, im the one holding the vacuum cleaner, and you’re literally turned to dust, so”
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Even this little girl knows shit’s about the go down. Got the tea and everything.
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This is one of the minor characters of the series. She works for the 2nd Division. Who is the 2nd Division? You’ll find out soon.
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“i didnt die! fuck yeah. today’s a good day.”
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“OH WAIT NO-”
Hibiki learns that her outfit unsets after a while, like bideo game. Who catches her mid-fall?
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Her new best friend, of course. Don’t be fooled by this look. Tsubasa tragically suffers from resting angry face syndrome. It is, unfortunately, incurable.
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“i hate how cute she is”
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Hibiki reminds her that this is technically the second time Tsubasa has saved her, which in the large scheme of things, seems incredibly innocuous for someone who escaped a major tragedy many years ago. Unfortunately, time doesn’t move forward for Season 1 Tsubasa. Not for quite a while...
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The funny part is it doesn’t even hit her initially. She never actually saw Hibiki personally during that moment, so she actually doesn’t even have a clue what she means.
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Look at her. Look at this clown. How could you hate her. Look at that smile.
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All the survivors are always forced to write NDAs about what they saw. This grows to comical levels at times, given the scale of what happens eventually. It might as well be the world’s biggest open secret by now.
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“aight homies looks like i gotta go home, the wife’s gonna be lonely an-”
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Oh.
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“sorry holmes but you’re going to gay baby jail like the rest of us singers”
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Hibiki’s face is riddled with guilt. The guilt of someone who just saved a little girl. How dare you, Hibiki. This is what you get for doing The Right Thing.
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And so she’s taken to “jail.”
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“sorry pal but you literally turned into a huge weapon and you have no idea how to use it so!”
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And so, Hibiki was never seen again...
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Alright, so she really isn’t going to jail. She is genuinely being taken into custody, though. To be honest, this kind of handcuff procedure is sort-of ridiculous for someone who literally just saved children, and you could probably bribe her to join them with a 10 piece chicken dinner, but hey, fuck it. 2nd Division has protocols, and that is to arrest people.
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“i cant believe i was a fan of a narc all this time”
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The school has a giant elevator that goes deep into the Earth. Also, look at that symbolism. Hibiki’s the only one looking at her own reflection. Deep.
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Thanks, Tsubasa.
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The interior decorator for this elevator is wild.
Tsubasa forbodes where they’re all going as some ominous, strange, and evil place where joy and happiness die. Where good feelings and innocence are destroyed, and hope is crushed and ripped at the seams.
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As it turns out, Tsubasa is just an angsty piece of shit.
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So here’s the situation:
The 2nd Branch, which are the people in charge of poking relics until they glow with the power of music to study and harness the power of as weapons to kill the Noise, live in a several mile deep high tech basement of an all girl’s boarding school dedicated to music. This is because, for the record, that the girls recruited to this school have the habit of being a little bit attuned to these relics. Hibiki, a newly christened Gear user, is now being recruited into this organized by Genjuro.
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“i never got this kind of party when i was recruited”
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“thats because nobody liked you, hans”
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“im skipping my soaps for this”
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“fucking hate my twin brother hans”
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“she?????? gets a party??? SHE. gets a party. I DON’T GET A PARTY. SHE... GETS A PARTY? and i dont get a fucking party. i was literally BORN into this job. NOBODY gives me a damn party. this MORON who CLOWNS AROUND with her SUBPAR SONGS. gets a party. oh my god. oh my GOD. FUCK. FUCK!”
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“if this is what its like to get arrested i gotta be gayer and do more crimes”
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“I’m not actually surprised. I’m just pretending to be. I’m just really not good at pretending to be surprised.”
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“fucking hate this family, im gonna eat all of hibikis cake and cry in my room”
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Remember: This show first released in 2012. Ryoko? Trendsetter.
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Ryoko’s screen is very dirty and foggy. Don’t ask why. Don’t even remember why I pointed this out. Just forget this point completely.
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Hibiki understands that handcuffs just aren’t fashionable.
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Genjuro casually explains that they’re the fictional japanese equivalent of the NSA, all while doing magic tricks. Truly a man of many talents.
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Tsubasa is already plotting how to vent about all this in her diary, which she addresses as letters of Kanade every time she writes in it.
Genjuro and Ryoko introduces themselves as everyone else apologizes to her, except Tsubasa.
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Ogawa also intro- yes, I’m recycling a picture- introduces himself. He’s pretty cool, too, and serves as Tsubasa’s ninja bodyguard, butler, and all around mentor. We never get a backstory on him, and likely never will. It’s best to keep it that way; it only adds to the mystery of who the hell this guy is.
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“weird flex but okay”
Hibiki realizes she’s being recruited, after being told she’s being recruited. Given some brain cells remain in her head, she asks the obvious and wonders what the hell happened to her.
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“ryoko, care to explain?”
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“well, it’s simple. you’re the protagonist now.”
Ryoko, who has no sense of boundaries, subjects Hibiki to a medical inspection. As creepy as her tone is, its to inspect the state of Hibiki’s newly formed gear.
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She’s finally freed from that long winded event and returns home to her wife.
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“buddy you smell like shit. and french fries.”
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“hibiki. you’re not dead, hibiki. come on, get up. i just cleaned this floor, hibiki. hibiki, please. this is genuinely unbecoming of you. hibiki, oh my god.”
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“miku please i learned how to kick ass and im tired and please let me enjoy this nice floor”
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Tsubasa does the thing real life Symphogear and all related products never actually bother to do.
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“god she’s so gay for her but i know she’d never cheat on me so”
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Hibiki ruminates on the day she’s had. This is where the really dumb angst comes in. You see, Hibiki can’t tell anyone about what happened, and Miku, now a civilian in her eyes, cannot know about her alter ego Symphogear antics. Hibiki feels bad about this.
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“y u no trust me. y u no tell me troof. im wife.”
After a brief heart to heart Hibiki smiles and snuggles her girlfriend.
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They’re gay.
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“im gonna marry her knowing full well she’ll sleep through the ceremony. god.”
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01010010-posts · 5 years
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— my white sighs quietly melted with the stars above.
it all started with a simple ‘you’re a slowpoke??’ text and it should have ended there, really, but you got a reply immediately after. ‘I’m sorry, I think you have the wrong person’. absolutely no, you scoffed, as if you were going to be tricked again ‘bitch don’t play the wrong number card because you didn’t catch the bus’. he was amused by your obstinacy and lightly worried about the supposed receiver, who, it appeared, was very clumsy; ‘please, control the number you texted, I’m Connor.’ boy he sure was. not your pal, not someone else in your contact list, just.... Connor. ‘god, i apologize!! thank you for telling me! ps. didn’t mean to call you a bitch, connor’ and it should have ended there, really, but you got a reply. connor: shouldn’t you be in bed by now? you: but,,,, i wanted to chat with u a little more connor: as an android sleep is not required but you, as a human, need to rest. we can always continue talking tomorrow. you: :( what if you have a long case tomorrow?? mh?? what if?? what you’re gonna say in your defense then?? connor: don’t worry :) I’ll find time for you. you: ok you win goodnight ☆ connor: sweet dreams. goodnight, [name]. it’s been three months since you’ve first spoken with him. intimacy there but low, how obvious it is that the two of you are proceeding with caution. yet you can’t help but write to him every day, staying up late while waiting for an answer of his, often checking your mobile and getting unsettled when there’s no signal. it’s strange, your colleagues whisper, how can you be so attached to someone if you’ve never even seen him? of course, you know it. you don’t wish for a pretty face, you only wish for a pretty personality. with a heavy sigh and a loud poof you pull the white duvet up to your head, finding comfort by completely hiding inside the warm embrace. you tightly hug a pillow, pretending that it’s him, returning your affection and cuddling, maybe caressing you too inasmuch, as he said, ‘androids don’t need to sleep’. but is it bad to fantasise? you: I’m deeply sorry.... sweetheart: >:( you: [name], it’s the seventh text-made emoji you’ve sent me.... they expressed some sort of anger so I’d prefer if we discussed about whatever is bothering you. sweetheart: >:(( you: I’m begging you.... sweetheart: you’re grounded and your punishment is enduring the wrath of weird angery text-based emoji :< you: what did I do to deserve this? :’( sweetheart: i sent you a heart & you didn’t send it back to me you: gosh! how clumsy of me! could you ever forgive this fool? sweetheart: mhhh it depends. what are you willing to do to be pardoned? you: I’ll send you whatever heart I possess! 💕💖💗💖 sweetheart: THIS IS UNFAIR!!! he’s silently giggling all by himself, in the cold room lit by his blue led circling at a steady rhythm– no, it’s not the temperature, rather it’s the atmosphere; ‘cold’. he’s still grappling with emotions and developing tastes is– well, to put it simply, complicated. he’s heartened with the fact that you once said, at the sight of a photo of his bed and the corner within, that being minimalistic is a style too. though, possibly, his true self is one of a clutterer of knick-knacks. of course, he’d like you to help him pick what ornaments would suit him the best. you: wtf i dont believe it connor♡ : but it does! you: prove it MIKU HATSUNE connor♡ : listen here human it’s not my fault you haven’t got the chance to witness an android external fluid deactivating you: !!!!! are you bragging?? connor♡ : ahahaha I’m joking it’s sending a video right now you watch ecstatically as soon as the app downloads the file, your chest throbbing with pleasurable anxiety. how can it be? he’s kind, precious AND fucking handsome, skin or no skin. you bet bad things will happen to you today to balance this sheer luck. think it thoroughly, it’s actually the first time you see his face. you: u’r cute also how does your hair work man connor♡ : thank you :) it’s connected to my head so.... you: i get it cybernetic magic your secrets are safe with me connor♡ : ahahaha and I was concerning myself about disgusting you you: WHAT fuck no you’re done that way, ok, it’s cool ok? kept it in mind are you allowed to insert ♡ near his name and not tell him? you: I’m waiting!! :/ sweetheart: so needy you: come on, [name]! sweetheart: tru tho you: >audio file cooome ooooonn sweetheart: !!! im ready pick up idiot the monitor lits and here you are, gorgeous. he’s certain that his heart melted on the spot. such is the sensation you give him every time you send him a photo, his thirium pump skipping a beat and making him inevitably somewhat gasping for air, mouth barely closed. he’s not accustomed to all the new features deviancy brought but in this he’s confident, he’s head over heels in love with you. you: what?? you’ve already seen the movie?? love♡ : yeah! I went with Hank! it was very nice, you should see it too you: WELL id kill to (please don’t arrest me detective) but nobody wants,,,, love♡ : why is that? (I won’t arrest you if you behave) you: something along the lines of not their genre or some shit uff (seems sketchy) love♡ : what about going alone? (it isn’t!!) you: it would be too sad :’(  love♡ : I’m sorry to hear that, if I could be there I’d accompany you and wouldn’t mind seeing it a second time. you: yes i know.... what is it? six months? more? you hardly remember, having so many messages in here, it would be too difficult to keep track, though you’re positive, that if you asked him he’d tell you in an instant, since he’s so attentive with that little brain-computer of his. you close your lids, tapping your fingers on the desk, it’s wearing, you must admit. you like him, a lot at this point, but being so far and out of reach.... what can come out of this? friends don’t support you either, ignoring this blatant crush, trying to make you hook-up with people met at a bar, getting annoyed at you constantly texting, preaching that a long distance relationship is not worth your time and your effort, and it’s not even a relationship, isn’t it? you’re not on that level. you’re just weirdos keeping themselves company. bummed out a bit, you decide that maybe avoiding him for a couple of days might be a proper solution. will he feel your absence? will he miss you? you: is everything all right? sweetheart: yes. you: are you sure? sweetheart: yep im,,,, swamped with work, the drill you: that I understand but perhaps I did something wrong? sweetheart: ?? you: you’ve been acting kinda cold lately, and if I’m the cause of that I’m sorry. being a deviant is good sometimes, and sometimes is not. it was great until a while ago so why now.... now....? he feels so lost. it’s understandable to have a job and a life outside this bond but– but is it really? is it okay for you to be without him? you’d manage fine. mhh no– the real question is: is it okay for him to be without you? can he be without sending you a text at least once a day? can he be without hearing your voice at least once a week? can he be without your usual video calls at least twice a month? can he be without seeing you, over a screen, cooking your dinner and singing? can he be? can he exist without you? he’s.... starting to doubt that. sweetheart: no i’m i’m the one whos sorry, okay? we can call tomorrow you: I don’t want to press you into anything you don’t want to sweetheart: you’re not! i’ll make up for not having been so present! you sigh, suffocating yourself on the pillow, how can you be this dense? this stupid? this utter moronic?? unequivocally he was going to worry. you made him worry. fuck. you’re going to trust your guts, no dumb jokes, it’s obvious that you both care about the other and can’t stay apart for too long. you: i know it’s 3AM and you told me to not be awake but i cant i cant okay? im thinking of you and me and you and it began because im a mess so it shouldnt be a surprise i havent gotten better this past year has been.... the best. yeah i fucked up and tried to be distant, to see if sth would change but it didnt i love waking up and finding a text from you, i love the sound of your voice trying to lull me goodnight when im being a spoiled child, i love how you’re so gentle & how you always forgive me and mostly i love you not as a friend, definitely as more, definitely like a lover and i know that you’re so caring that you’ll probably still want to talk with me even if the affection’s not mutual you lock your phone’s screen and place it on the nightstand. the orange light from the streets seeping through the curtains and soaking your covers, and now that your eyes are free to roam, it’s easier to notice the soft feathers’ filling making tiny shadows on your face. poor poor geese. your fingertips slightly touch the stitches, your heartbeat pacing furiously from the strong emotions, both trepidation and fear running your veins. what if he doesn’t feel the same? what if he’s been polite this whole time and you overstepped his boundaries? what if? love♡ is typing.... ping! love♡ : I love you too, honey. but please, don’t scare me again, I think I lost four biocomponents when you suddenly stopped replying to me. also you should sleep. you: im pouring my heart out ugly crying and!!!! you’re too casual nooo it’s no big deal baby we just fucking love each other it’s totally ok incoming call from love ♡ “hey....” his tone slow and almost drowsy “i thought it was clear enough.” words rolling off his tongue, the same that he’d tenderly run across you, kissing, tasting, worshipping your body “i hate you.” you sniffle and there’s a chuckle on the different end “i love you.” you smile, wiping off the tears wetting your cheeks with the back of your right hand “i love you too.”
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Romantic F/Os:
they’re just really special to me :,)
Spouses-
Sam Anderson/Aomaris from Seduce Me the Otome
oh man,, where do i even start with this one- basically. i love sammy so much!! he’s been a fav of mine for a little over a year now and he means the absolute world to me! hes my go to when i feel sad and just mentioning him makes me happy. i love him! <3(hes my fav dont tell the others) he is basically my soulmate and the loml dont convince me otherwise or i’ll cry on you!
Dimitri Alexandre Blaiddyd from Fire Emblem Three Houses
ive liked dimitri since september-ish and hes been an awesome addition to my f/o list! he is just so cute and i want to hug him endlessly mwAhjfjdsjslslkaka i just wanna help him all the time and aaaaaaaaa i wuv him
Inigo/Laslow from Fire Emblem Awakening/Fire Emblem Fates
laz!! aaaa- i really like this man. he’s just so kind and such a sweetie!! originally a friend of mine introduced me to him when i first started getting into fire emblem and tbh i was surprised i liked him so much! i don’t like british accents at ALL but inigo’s is the one i can tolerate :)
Prussia/Gilbert Beilschmidt from Hetalia
i’m. not SUPER into hetalia anymore but i still love this guy so much!! he was the first character i ever REALLY shipped myself with and its been close to 3 years since Gil and i have been together!
Fiance/Fiancees-
Soleil from Fire Emblem Fates
another one that a friend introduced me to! “oh yeah inigo has a daughter” “aa WAHT SJES SO CUTE-“ uh yeah!! she’s probably my favorite girl i ship myself with! shes so pretty and she makes me feel awesome!!
Tenya Iida from My Hero Academia
hmmm,, i actually couldnt figure out where to put iida! i feel like we’re closer than just bf/gf but we arent married so i just put him here uh- i really like iida! hes so pretty and seeing him makes me uwu i havent liked him for a super long time but he is just so pure i wuv him <3(im well aware that hes a minor but i am too! usually i age both of us up when writing self inserts)
Reiji Kotobuki from Uta no Prince Sama
reiji!! aaa hes so cute <3 i love everything about this guy!! he has such a nice voice and i just LOVE his personality! he makes me feel so awesome and i’m so glad i got into utapri because of heeeeee
Partners-
Kuko Harai from Hypnosis Microphone
i LOVE THIS GUY omg sjfjskdjkalskao- i just got into hypmic in october!! and i basically liked him immediately the first time my friend showed me the drb. his voice, his style, everything aaaa- yeah okay hes KIND of a rat but he’s a cute rat and i wanna pet him <3 i think about him a lot and idk why i didnt feel comfy with him being up there with the other husbands but he is here and thats all that matters
Otoya Ittoki from Uta no Prince Sama
he!! he is just a sunshine puppy i wuv him <3 otoya was my first fav from utapri and seeing him still makes me super happy! i wanna hold his haaand
Len Kagamine
okay,, i take it back LEN was the first one i started shipping myself with. dont remember why probably the sex songs. top tier boy though. still love his music! but,, im probably gonna stop shipping myself with him after my bday :( ill still be a minor i just wont be comfy with it anymore
Kazuma Hashimoto from Cheer Boys
kazu!! he is so cute!! i started watching cheer boys 2 years ago but i rewatched it last year and he is definitely my fave! he is just the positivity i need and i love him!
??Friends with Benefits??:
im. not totally sure where me and these characters stand-
Niles from Fire Emblem Fates
i like niles he so sexi- okay but really uhh i like him a lot!! but im not sure if i’d call him a bf rather than a character who i like to fuck cuddle and kiss with
Katsuki Bakugo from My Hero Academia
at first i was gonna put him on the partners list but then i changed my mind!! idk why. he’s still really cute though. not much to say about him idk
Ichiro Yamada from Hypnosis Microphone
he probably couldve been where kuko was if i got into hypmic before the new divisions were added(ik kuko is in the manga but i havent read it so it doesnt count). i still really like him!! but probably not enough to put him any higher than here.
Samatoki Aohitsugi from Hypnosis Microphone
hes here for the same reason as ichiro but also because smoking really turned me off
Rio Mason Busujima from Hypnosis Microphone
again, same reason as ichiro.
Spain from Hetalia
hes super cute!! not sure if i would wanna commit to a relationship though ;(
France from Hetalia
same reason as spain!
Platonic F/Os:
i just wanna be their besties okay-
Matthew Anderson/Zecaeru from Seduce Me
ive had my heart set on being friends with matthew for a while now! i just think we would have a lot of fun together
America from Hetalia
Denmark from Hetalia
Hatsune Miku
Ranmaru Kurosaki from Uta no Prince Sama
Sasara Nurude from Hypnosis Microphone
Familial F/Os:
there is only one. its kugelmugel from hetalia :D gil and i adopted him :D
Former F/Os:
maybe we broke up or something?? idk! buuut this is where they go!
Aru Akise from Mirai Nikki
Near from Death Note
Light from Death Note
Canada from Hetalia
Link from The Legend of Zelda
uhh yeah. thats a complete list!!(i think?)
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