#where those two dont end up as they are

[bluegarners]

so so so interesting to me how ppl gauge alternate worlds and its reflections on a character on that scale of morally good versus evil...

#saw a post that was like 'tim and dick are more likely to be evil than jason is' and their list of evidence was all the alternate worlds #where those two dont end up as they are #and although im not super familiar with tim's alternate selves (all ik is it doesnt turn out good for him lol) i dont love their analysis o #dick's alternate selves as evidence of him being that much closer to being 'evil' than jason is #1) i dont like that term of evil for any of the vigilante's #and 2) almost every single version of dick they mentioned was not dick actively choosing to be this darker version of himself #they were ones where he was forced/actively raised/manipulated into doing things not so good #i dont care to actively seek out the post again but they listed dick having been turned into a talon as solid evidence #of his leaning toward evilness compared with a version of jason being a priest in another world #idk it just seemed so strange to me that forced actions from an alternate world weigh on that scale of capableness of morality in a charact #esp when a current canon character like jason actively chooses to do bad stuff that can be considered downright evil #<- this isnt me condemning him as a character btw thats part of what i love about jason is that he intentionally chooses #to present himself in this violent and dramatic way as a show of his split from batman #i digress but still its just intriguing how ppl weigh that kind of stuff together

[ganondoodle]

i often really do feel like an .. unwanted part of the fandom, i dont draw beautiful landscapes, i have unpopular but strong opinions im constantly annoying about and rarely change, dont like/dont draw the pretty young popular twinks and hot gurls to fanboi over nor do i turn characters into one, the opposite moreso, draw only one ship no ones heard of really, got little energy to interact with the few people that are nice to me and send me asks so it probably looks like im ignoring everyone and unfortunately but still rarely get so stressed i get overwhelmed and emotional about pehaps seemingly minor things and spiral almost into a breakdown feeling super embarrassed about it afterwards but the damage is already done and i look like a freak or agressive weirdo

#ganondoodles talks #also probably sounds like self pity #but this feeling hits everytime i see a super popular artist be the popular cool artist #i am a little weird i know that and thats not somethign bad i think #but the internet never gets to see that much of me #i tend to write posts when i am at my worst bc it has to go somewhere #so the image it tells people is that im a weirdly strong opiniod freak that gets breakdowns over nothing #i also dont feel like im otherwise -cool tm- enough to balance that out #i dont think my art is as stylized or as inventive as others nor am i cool to interact with bc idk how to be cool to interact with #i feel double bad when i misstepped with someone i used to talk to bc of something stupid ... or just dont know what i did wrong #im guessing its especially when i am in that spiraling state of mind where i really am not myself tbh #it still feels very bad bc i feel like i can never make it up to anyone again #sorry i acted like a jerk my brain was exploding in emotions in a desperate attempt to deal with something idk how to deal with- #-and made me not act like myself but now i feel really dumb about it #doesnt sound like a good excuse #... i want to thank those that do stick with me #even if i acted strange sometimes- even if i disappointed sometimes- even when i couldnt keep a promise #there are little things that still make me angry at myself #like that one time i asked in the tags whod read as long as the end of them and if someone did shoudl send me an ask so id draw a lil thing #and i got two #and i kept trying to remeber oh shit i need to do that and forgetting again/not having energy for it in a loop #i still feel like a jerk about it but now its probably too late #i wish i could answer all asks i get but man my energy for that is always rock bottom #no matter how much i enjoy the ask #and i love getting asks!!! #im sorry :((

[ribbononline]

New fic by @silverjirachi out wahoo wahoo! Go support it!!

#my fic commentary remains impeccable <3 (gnawing) #more quick fanfic doobles its more likely then you think >:] #also going through an art style crisis atm dont worry abt it KJHKJSDF #anyways. big fan of spinda that was my fav mon as a bit as a kid. also worried abt spinda considering it was never mentioned in the sequel #please be alive out there buddy #good excuse to draw younger them again :] prequel fics always fun #curious to see where it will go!! also specifically what the end point will be :3c #is it the archie running away in the night plotpoint or. #like courtney has very much alluded to things after that in th already existing sequel fic will we get to see #or will those things be tackled in the last part of the trilogy hmhmm #i like thinking abt fanfics. i like how everyone in the fandom has such different takes on the characters #allows me to take them and put them in scenarios its like free aus for days to play w #<making up so many endings and plotthreads up in my head to every fic i get my grubby hands on #rotating them around like theyre in a microwave #oh back on track i do not remember if the devil and the dead sea ever mentioned eye color of either of them so i just fuckin winged it #perhaps they are inaccurate if so Uhm. Apologies #now we patiently wait for the chapter releases. spinning really hard #TWO fics ive been excited for updating again after a good forever tis a good month

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i only just found your au and i need everyone to have a happy ending so badly im gonna cry ;-; sally is gonna be so freakin upset when she wakes up for real and sees she decimated barnaby.

oh, Barnaby already has his arm stitched back on when she wakes up! and really, even if he didn't, that'd be the Least of her worries. she wakes up into a Real nightmare - partially of her (unintentional) making

#happy endings... well... yes and no. depends on what act you look at #act one? no! actually things get So Much Worse in an entirely festive new way! #act two? eh! sorta! its more bittersweet than anything #act three and four blend into each other so much that three doesn't have an 'ending' #but the final act - act four... well. who's to say! im still workshopping what i want to happen #but i do know it's still gonna have at Least a bittersweet tinge to it #wh lights out au #rambles from the bog #there are consequences and not everyone Makes It. i dont like stories where everything wraps up perfectly fine #even if it hurts! i like it when things hurt in a good way. those stories where the ending is overall positive #but Enough Happened that its just... its an ache. looking at where someone used to be. you know? #my favorite shows and books and fics have ended with me smiling while sobbing bc it yes it Hurts but it was So Fucking Good #and while i wouldnt be able to handle rewatching/rereading due to Emotional Damage... #i think of them fondly and often and theyre Important to me #perfectly happy endings just rub me wrong. it always feels like there's something Missing despite it all being idyllic #i cant let my own stories - original or aus or whatever - have that kind of end #so if thats what people are hoping for! you've come to the wrong person and the wrong au! #i like to be kind but that rarely extends to my creative works! #i like it messy and painful and bittersweet and i like to be Ruthless with my creations with no compromise #sometimes characters need to fight. or leave. or die. or make serious mistakes. etc. #but anyway! anyway.... #i will say that there isn't a happy ending for Everyone. and for others it's... complicated. again - bittersweet

[feline-evil]

Dick or no dick confirmation Pickles was always going to be trans to me anyways; if he's swingin' somethin that's phallo babes, if he's not then his t-dick fat. What's not to get.

#metalocalypse #jay talkin #I'm sorry they wrote that awful gross little man far too likeable and relatable to on a trans level #for me not to hoot and holler and cheer for the trans pickles agenda #changes nothing about his character arc or any of the show anyone is capable of being the kind of person he is #don't make the mistake of thinking thats exclusive to cis men #his transness wouldnt change that #only adds on an extra layer to him that i think works fantastically. #Listen that dude was rejected by his family driven to drink and drugs young to escape that ran away to be in a band #is called fucking Pickles of all things and refuses to tell anyone his real last name; #over the span of four seasons and two movies he slowly starts to learn to be for others what he never had #he becomes more caring more supportive #it's not a stretch to say he undoes some of the toxic masculinity he's been keeping himself shielded behind #and learns how to be a kinder man. #all of which have no contradictions with him being trans! #In fact it doesn't take much extra thought to find ways a lot of this can line up with some trans masculine experiences #i mean. Did no one else have a younger phase where they swung as far as they could into crass rude and uncaring ways #to try and assert their masculinity only to grow and realise that you can be a man and be more caring. #Did no one else have father issues. 1 800 come on now i know those are both shared experiences a lot of us have had LOL. #at the end of the day this show aired nearly 20 years ago and is finished. we're not getting more of it #so nothing is altered nor changed if pickles is canonically trans or not ok. its fine #i mean hell i dont even need canon confirmation hes trans to me and thats all i care abt #but i think if yr getting suuuuuper weird abt needing him not to be canonically trans you have some issues #and bio essentialist ideals of gender if you think only a cis man can act like he does #again. anyone can be like that. its not exclusive. him being trans would not change him in any way shape or form lol #AND ALSO GODDDUUUGH for once i love getting to see a guy pushing 50 whos depicted as trans #do you have any idea how dire and barren it is out here. we never get to see a trans guy older than 30 and whos not a pristine model #I WANT MORE OLD SHLUBBY SHITHEAD TRANS GUYS IN MEDIA

[sonknuxadow]

why is literally everyone on my sonic tomodachi life island in love with shadow as if theres not other people to choose from and hes not gonna reject them every time . stop creating a love spiderweb with some guy whos not even interested in you

#at one point i kept ending up in scenarios where one mii would try to confess and a bunch of others would show up to interrupt #and they would all get rejected lmao .. most have moved on by now though after getting rejected so many times or finding someone else #but ill still occasionally get an ''im in love with shadow !!! '' even though. hes already taken #silver is the one who managed to win him over btw if anyone is curious . #list of people who have tried to date shadow off the top of my head: silver espio blaze amy #and sticks just told me shes in love with him too NO YOURE NOT . STOP #even knuckles got in on it once. and hes literally already dating sonic ?? #i mean knuckles has two hands but polyamory isnt a thing in this game sooo #amy and blaze and espio were particularly desperate... #i made it a rule for myself to try to avoid forcing any particular couples #and to just let any ships happen as long as they dont have weird age gaps or otherwise make me uncomfortable #(which is how i ended up with shadilver even though im not really into that pairing) #but i made a mii of tekno JUST to give amy a decent romantic option. because she wouldnt stop asking about shadow #and i kept ignoring her or telling her not to get with shadow and she wouldnt give it up #and it was getting on my nerves because sha/damy is one of those ships on my ''not going to let these happen no matter what'' list #well shes with tekno now and she also stopped asking about shadow so much once he got with silver so. its fine #and blaze ended up finding someone else too. not espio though hes still single. but thats fine #i dont need every single mii paired off idgaf about that #tomodachiposting

[deadqueernoldor]

Nghhh chewing on finweans and realizing how self-sacraficial is so deeply instilled in that family, and that that particular trait is prevalent in each generation.

Finwe knew he couldnt win against Morgoth, but he could try and protect his grandchildren. He fought regardless.

Fingolfin knew he couldnt twin against Morgoth in 1-on-1. He fought regardless.

Finrod knew he would die on his quest for Beren, and still fought the wolf to save his friend. He did.

Celebrimbor knew he could protect others by dying, protecting the knowledge about the rings. He did.

It stands to reason that Elladan, Elrohir or Arwen, would have come upon a similar fate.

#sometimes it just hits me with a sledgehammer like that family (esp the feanorian side) is portrayed as selfish a lot #(instert 'justice for caranthir for tslling Angrod to fucking stick with the people who arent hiding in Menegroth from Morgoth'-agenda) #(insert 'feanor was a selfish prick by abandoning the others in aman and forcing his sons to re-swear the oath upon his death' rant) #but i still think they are actually more opputunistic when you REALLY want to put a word ending with -istic there #feanor saw the opportunity to leave aman. fuck the brother he never liked. feanor only needs the people who'll be loyal to his family anyway #curufin saw the opportunity to get support form those of nagothrongld after he and celegorm had to flee like cowards from the dragons #which. for two people who i think have immense pride in their battle skill and strength must have been a HUGE ego blow #celegorm saw the opportunity to either: fuck over doriath and thingol by keeping luthien as political leverage (i dont think he's have #forced himself on her intimately. so fuck that. idc man. leave that shit away from me. he's an asshole but not a rapist imo anyway) #or: get a silmaril out of this mess SOMEHOW. #maedhros saw the opportunity of a possibly successful assault on angband after the silmaril quest of B+L and immediately began warplanning #and realistically speaking you cant tell me that maedhros didn't see the opportunity to casually drop the fact that it was HIS brothers and #HIMSELF holding basically all the eastern lands of beleriand in safety by closing off the Gap of Maglor while... where have you heard vague #rumours of turgon and ⅓ of the nolofinwean people maybe possibly not having died after suddenly disappearing? yeah. thought so. #just the opportunity to make slight political jibes available to shut anyone up about them being selfish #this is a weird post idk where this is going i stopped thinkig halfway though the second sentence #somehow that tag rant veered from self-sacraficial to opportunistic. didnt have that on my bingo card

[gynecologistmsfrizzle]

“what to tell a doctor to get an autism diagnosis” “here’s what i learned from realizing i was autistic at 40″ “i would never want a professional diagnosis” “person first language is so regressive” “autism symptoms are only a problem because of ableism” “we dont need treatment” “no autistic person wants a cure” “four doctors told me i couldn’t be autistic so i found a fifth” “autism is an invisible disability” “dont disclose your neurodivergency to employers” “i/dd and autism have nothing to do with each other” “nt parents/advocates have no place in autism communities” “of course im autistic have you heard me talk about horror movies” babe i have nothing in common with any of you

#completely insane that i will go on autism twitter and somehow i am ''low functioning'' compared to the rest of the people on there. #what are you TALKING about. dont disclose your ''neurodivergency'' to your doctors?? autism is an invisible disability? #we live on different planets. like i think we live on different planets. #sorry but i am twenty two years old and my mother has a fippa exemption to access all my medical info bc if she did not #i would not be able to access healthcare. #the only reason i can live away from home is because i have a cell phone and internet and can keep in touch w family. #my legal government address is my father's house where i have not lived for seven years #because if an important document gets sent to my apartment i will lose it or forget about it and i know this because it's happened. #like ... yeah ! autism IS a spectrum ! and you are not doing such a good job recognizing and supporting people who are #in very different places on that spectrum than you ! #it is. i mean it's kind of a form of hermeneutical injustice to argue that there is no meaningful difference between various groups #of autistic people #like yeah functioning labels suck ASS. also you DO need to be able to identify that there ARE people who need more support #because if you can't name that then you are going to forget that they exist #and i see that all the time. it's aspie supremacy by another name #by erasing people who did not have the privilege of self-diagnosing #who do not have the privilege not to disclose #who do not have the privilege of independent self-advocacy #you are going to end up achieving the same thing that actively dismissing those people achieves #like. i dunno. like i said it's completely bonkers in yonkers that EYE and the UNIVERSITY DEGREE EYE WILL BE GETTING IN TWO MONTHS #and my LEASE and my RESPECTABLE RESUME and my INCOMING SOCIAL WORK LICENSE #feel alienated by the default presumptions the ''autistic community'' seems to operate from about how autistic people function #like jfc if i feel erased and unwelcome then how are you EVER going to make your community accessible and helpful #to people who need miles more support than i do?? #rhi talks #autie tag

[deucegorgonz]

alright is this a safe place to admit a lot of ppl still hellbent on g1 coming back's reactions to cleo/frankie have made me almost completely n fully dislike cleo/deuce . bc so many ppl r just being straight up homophobic lol

#you all can go Back and Watch G1 movies n content where cleo/deuce is a thing those have NOT gone anywhere #they have 10+ YEARS of content actually. i think you all will live wit something different this time around lmao #at the end of the day they are a couple from a kids cartoon. Enough. #i started to feel pretty meh abt them when ppl first started being overdramatic abt the break up #but now.... man #they r two of my fav characters in this whole franchise forever and always but i dont care abt their romance at all lol #monster high

[malikselfindulgence]

GWEN STACY LOVERS SQUAD LET'S MFING GOOOOOOOOO🤝🏼🤝🏼🤝🏼🤝🏼🤝🏼🤝🏼🤝🏼🤝🏼🤝🏼

GWEN STACY YOURE MY FUCKIN EVERRYTTHINNGGGG !!!!!! 🤝🤝🤝🤝 any iteration of gwen stacy Ily forever and Always but astv's gwen being canon trans is very Important and dear to me

Old Ass comic sketch from Blaze's spidersona days we never finished :[

#gwen stacy #spidersona #IDK WHAT TO TAG #i couldnt actually watch astv in cinemas since it got banned here BECAUSE of teh trans flag thing #WHICH FUCKING. UGGH^!!&!!!! #it getting banned didny bother me as much as the reception to that did #like ok i was mad obv. but it didnt personally upset me? ofc they were gonna ban it #but watching friends and family around me go GOOD we dont want those dirty queers in our media anyways #they should respect our beliefs and cut that out! not include it at all! #was like rlly. rlly upsetting. ok sorry for ranting in tags this has nothing to do w gwen stacy #we had two verses of our spidersona where one would end up as meee and one would end up as blaze #so first vers ME!! I stick with Gwen and she doesnt leave for the scholarship and she dies #second vers Blaze and Gwen have an arguement and Gwen leaves for the scholarship. BUT DIES THERE ANYWAYS #our spidersona was kinda average like compared to everybody else's but . I heart Him shes a silly goober :3 #malik's asks #ME X FORGETTING MY TAGS

[obscuredfigure]

the two extremes of the internet are

tiktok: acts as if they dont know a single thing at all

reddit: acts as if they know everything ever

WHAT is the inbetween???????

#i deleted twt and ig off my phone so the only social media i rly use are like... tumblr youtube but also tiktok and reddit and those two are #SOOOO evil #i keep ending up on web browser app for ig and twt just so i can see the thoughts and feelings of my irl friends who are normal.... #i guess neocities is the answer? like the only site where a majority of its users dont act like smartasses but also have confidence in and #share their knowledge... are there any other sites.. at all #txt

[mikoran]

if mike really loved el, then they wouldnt have made him so defensive over it. they wouldnt have made him shift the blame. deflecting from the problem and blaming other people is a confirmation of guilt, especially in tv shows where they show things like that in clear, recognizable ways for the audience to pick up on them. if they wanted to show that mike really loved her, they wouldnt have made his actions so incriminating. simple as that.

#byler #anti mileven #they are VERY clear about having the audience pick up that hes acting guilty #shows dont do that for innocent people without a good reason #and the reason were given was not good and didnt line up with what were told #therefore he is guilty of what he was being accused of #and does not love her #hes so worried about the whole thing and trying to act normal because if he doesnt then his feelings for will become a bigger problem #and with the narrative of the show him loving will instead is really the only way to go #you dont have two characters break up and have a whole issue with one not loving the other #and the person in question also being the object of someone elses affections #and then just. break up those two characters and keep the third part of the love triangle also lonely #the center of the triangle gets with the other love interest thats how writing works #so he has to have feelings for will if he doesnt love el #because having them all be single or end up with other people just doesnt match how the triangle is written #this in combination with how the audience is supposed to sympathize with will basically confirms thats where theyre going #character a doesnt love character b anymore + character c loves character a #and the audience is meant to sympathize with character c #where else would that go other than a and c getting together

[beeapocalypse]

trying to come up w a far more contained idea for an rpgmaker thing so it isnt as intimidating to approach and immediately having it spiral out

#repurposing a dnd pc idea for the theoretical mc. dont think ive ever talked abt him here hes a warlock who was married to-- #--his patron and eventually got his brain wiped by her after years of their relationship spiraling. she loved him but could not stand to be #--around him any longer. he gets found dumped outside of an inn with incredibly nice clothing+a well stocked pack. ends up working there-- #--as a cook for a couple months b4 choosing to set off chasing after the few clues to his past that hes got. think maybe in the game-- #--there would be two possible party members. one a dog bc thats fun and the other a knight in search of purpose or w/e where over the-- #--course of their journeying together his failed marriage plays out in miniature for more context #him still deriving his magic from his patron makes for a very abnormal connection where it is just Dead Air. she never speaks to him-- #--never visits him in dreams the most he ever gets is glancing phantom sensations. a hand in his own as he casts a spell eyes on him as he- #--cooks etc etc. maybe a mechanic where the closer he gets to his travelling companion the more powerful their abilities get at the cost-- #--of his own as his patron sits there and watches him pull the same exact shit he did with her #^ would mean there would be two main endings and maybe some extra deviations branching from those. thats fun

[bugsmoocher]

mmaster hcief

#personal! ok idk why but i am in such a bad fucking mood after realizing that yet another year has passed where my father hasnt like. #really ??? cared ??? i dont know man my parents are taking me out to eat but i didnt get a text or a call or anything #like man i know im not the one thats ur blood child but come on i remember yours and wish you every year :( #my mom only really remembered when i showed up and jokingly was like “ey next time you see me ill be a whole year older” #this week has sucked so bad brother i hope it wont set the tone for the next year LKHL:D:FLGHK #happy birthday more like KILL YOURSELF INSTANTLY POTION #god only like my friends and two family members remembered im realizing. fuuuuuuuuuck. not even the people i live with minus my fiance #i only exist to these people when its time to talk behind somebodys back brother #maybe i drive my car into a tree tomorrow ^_^ in theory itd be good for me but at the end of the day if these people didnt care when i went #to the fucking mental ward for plotting to kill myself i doubt theyd care if i bled out in a ditch either #they never called or visited they just picked me up and told me to never do that shit again #maybe i should have Not been born...............! #ermmm #personal #vent #i guess. idk. just so if people have those tags blocked itll get filtered or whatever #i probably shouldnt just throw this out into the wild but i dont want to directly bother anybody i know rn idk.

[kienium]

i have such a hard time with tone indicators still because i don't know what the fuck i mean either. how am i supposed to fake it until i make it in these conditions

#kie rambles #brought to you by the two mega autism trucks having sex where my brain should be #rant in tags #also even tho ik what the tone indicators are supposed to mean??? i have no clue how to apply those to a social context #it's like taking a test but the study guide is written entirely in emojis and i dont know what the subject is #“you said the thing you should know how you intended it” well. #when you spend your whole life trying to make your interactions palatable through masking #and suddenly this new tool that's supposed to help you get intentions across appears #i dont know how to use it without unmasking fully and i dont know how to do that yet #TONE INDICATORS ARE GOOD BTW. they help so many ppl and help people feel more free to joke around with each other w/o hurting one another #just saying it's. still hard to change the wiring of “indicate tone for neurotypical people to understand” -- #-- to “don't indicate it at all until the end” #basically i still wanna use them bc theyre helpful to lots of ppl but like when i fuck up constantly pls be patient #feels like masking 2 electric boogaloo #masking as a nt person thats masking as a nd person. maskception. let me out of here oh my god #also im in class rn making this post instead of paying attention so if i repeat myself like 8 times im sowwy

[vitiateoriginator]

Cringetober 2023 Day 2

credit to @sleeprann for the concept and awestin martinez for this year's prompt list

Day 2's prompt is "Self Insert"

I chose to insert myself into Homestuck, because I'm still trash all these years later. Tbh self inserting myself into homestuck, or homestuck-adjacent scenarios, has been a long time escape daydream for me. I'm always thinking about how cool it'd be to become god tier and about all the trauma playing SBURB would cause lol. I like to imagine how I'd get along with the characters too. As a Homestuck character, I'd be good friends with John/June Egbert (windy buddies hell yeah), and I think somehow we'd both end up getting retcon powers and saving the day together (maybe I got recon powers first and I ended up in Homestuck proper thru shenanigans involving them? idk). I'd also be besties with Karkat. We'd develop some unspoken feelings for each other that don't come out until post-canon/Homestuck 2, and in the meantime I'd be with Jane til she decides to go for Jake/Gamzee and have Tavvi (who'd I'd eventually steal adopt as my son so he wouldn't have to have a fascist as a mother)

if you'd like to participate in the challenge, here's the prompt list

#sma's art #cringetober 2023 #cringetober #cringetober day 2 #day 2 #self insert #homestuck #homestuck sona #tbh tbh I fucking love making self inserts #Viti is my main self insert for most media involving humans and tbh in most she's still got her homestuck abilities #/maid of breath and recon powers cause I think its fucking neat #there's two separate AUs where instead of going to Earth C after the game with everyone timespace yeets them to another dimension/media #one she just straight up ends up immediately in the my hero academia universe/ dimension and becomes stuck there #and in the other AU they end up traveling thru multiple universes/dimensions trying to get home to her friends on Earth C #and she enlists the help of characters from those universes to help make portals or find portals that can send her home #but they always get redirected to a different universe instead of sending her to the one she's aiming for #currently in my vast expansive daydream world Viti hasn't made it home and might never get there #I think she's in the DBZ universe rn but its been a while since I followed that AU's plot thread cause I have BNHA brainrot atm #did I mention I was a maladaptive daydreamer? #anyways if anybody took the time to read these tags thanks. hope you dont' think my daydream/ inner multiverse world is cringe #but then again this post and challenge celebrate cringe so fuck it idc if it is or not #it just feels good to talk about my daydreams even if nobody reads about em or cares #btw Viti doesn't remain in Homestuck's artstyle when she's transported to a new universe. her appearance changes to fit in where she's at #if I could draw better I'd SO make art of them in the different medias they visit. alas I can barely draw people right as it is. #maybe I'll buy art of her in different styles some day. that'd be fun af