#why am i the way that i am lmfao

[fuckyeah-bears]

y’all never fucking appreciate polar bear sunday and it always pisses me the actual fuck off

#seriously #why is polar bear sunday the least popular of all our series #??????!??!?! #it makes no fucking sense #blasphemy #y'all be tripping some serious balls #polar bears are fucking amazing #polar bear sunday #edit: ​lmao catch me forgetting I don’t gotta talk in third person on this blog #ain’t no brand continuity to maintain here #bearotonin has forever ruined me #lmao #meant to say #why is polar bear sunday the least popular of all MY series #lmfao #wow I am in way too deep #and it shows

[comradekatara]

to be honest if my only knowledge of sokka as a character was informed by how the fandom discusses and portrays him i think i would straight up hate him. like it wouldn’t even be a “whatever i don’t care about this guy” response i would legitimately be like “this fucking clown needs to get blown up with tnt right now”

#as is the case with his portrayal by gene yang or in natla also #bolin-adjacent………….. i can’t stand clownery #like if i only knew katara as portrayed by fandom i think i would still love her bc i love juri #but with sokka it’s like . what the fuck is this guy even doing here #and i even feel that way abt some of the ways they utilize him for comedic purposes in canon #i just roll my eyes. but thankfully that’s only a very smart of what his character is doing in the text #*small part 😭 lmfao #IN FACT… #sokka #hot takes #why am i in a bitter spiteful mood today idk

[gregoftom]

TO ME, THAT’S CINEMA

#tomgreg #so i've seen this around a lot and ppl have already made points but like holy fuck. hoooly fuck lmao where do i begin #TOM THOUGHT THE ROOM WAS EMPTY FOR UH ... FOR WHAT BITCH?? #empty for what. you two just going in there ALONE. what for. strategizing? ok but then why was greg showing you tonight's selection. #even if it was girls it's still sus bc like who tf goes specifically to a room to show that shit. #oh by the way i listened again and tom says first ''why do we have to...'' so GREG asked for the room? #greg asked them to go to an empty room. slut. #anD THEN AFTER SAID ''I WANNA GIVE YOU'' BITCH!!!!!!!!1 #are we sure it's girls though...... like does it say later. i'll keep watching but Christ. LIKE. WHAT THE FUCK #how am i supposed to read this other than an affair lmfao and then he says ''go on'' and sends greg off away like a little pet #sick to bastard death of them god #so it's like. greg says can we go somewhere private and tom says why do we have to #greg says i wanna give you... and tom says what do you wanna give me annoyed like #girl we are at work and we are trying to stay alive can't you wait til we are at home for me to clap them cheeks #and then greg says a preview of tonight's selection... of what? could be alcohol could be sexy stuff could be mf. clothes idk #and then they look up like O FUCK the room is in use and it's fucking SH*V and immediately tom is like GO ON and greg #doesn't even stutter or say anything like usual he's just like SORRY and leaves immediately bc he KNOWS he gotta gtfo #sorry i'm just. poetic cinema indeed

[theloveinc]

barbarian!bakugo + buying apples. you’ll notice I didn’t put any work into this making it more … fantasy-like. And that’s bc… I still couldn’t figure out how😞

(warning: misogyny, you are described as a maiden / dress wearing, you have a pa, world building sucks, bakugo … doesn’t talk)

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Being the only maiden on one of barbarian!Bakugo’s cross country journeys. I’m not sure yet how or why you’re there, but I’d say he’s traveling and one of his fellow clansmen took you as a prize, or maybe you just hitched a ride on their cart yourself.

But they stop in a small village one day, parking their horses at the edge of a town square of cobblestone and brick, merchant booths surrounding the small shops: of butchers and farmers and fishermen and traders, all rowdy and beaming as they show off their wares.

The men split up (the one with green hair in a leather vest declaring he needs a blacksmith, the lanky one with dark bangs in the direction of new snare wire), though the bulky blonde one (the one in thick furs and pelts who’s never really spoken to you) stays around, picking at the shiny, pink apples of a booth quite close to where the cart you sit on in boredom is parked.

“Five gold for a sack, sir” the man behind the creaky, wooden stand says. He’s stout, thin-haired and wrinkly, all his years in the sun selling fruit showing proudly on his tanned skin. He gestures to the wide array of fruits, each like a piece of candy he wants to show off.

Bakugo (you think his name his, or rather, that’s how he was introduced to you by the redhead with unnaturally sharp teeth, biggest of the group) glances up, frown thin and tense and blood red eyes narrowed. His shoulders shift, the muscles of his exposed stomach rippling as he breathes, the smooth skin of his forehead pinching as if he’s calculating a sale just as he would any other battle or raid.

The sign next to both the men clearly states that apples are two gold a sack. Pears are three, plums are one. “But I’ll give you a deal for four gold,” the man continues.

The blonde ponders, inspecting the apples diligently as if they could be poison, or a waste of a trade. His eyes narrow slightly, lips pursing, and you realize, in his reaching for coin, the intuition he so usually takes pride in (saving the men once from a brutal hound attack, and you, too, another time when a swamp dweller caught the hem of your trousers) is not there… and that they don’t use the same alphabet. Maybe he can’t even… read.

“For two gold,” you call.

Both parties look to you. One set of eyes in an suspicious glare, the other in a tart and angry bitterness. The merchant’s leathery face sinks into a melted frown, his fists clenching as your own hand shields your eyes from the bright sun and hides a protective squint.

“Didn’t your pa ever tell you not to meddle in grown men’s business?” he half-shouts back, the laugh in his voice now tangled with a snarl, downright and plain rude.

“The sign says two,” swinging off your seat, you smooth down your simple frock as you point to the wooden board stained with charcoal that’s hung up next to him. “One sack of apples for two gold.”

Bakugo’s eyebrows raise for the briefest of seconds, then fall in another glare as his hand drops from where he holds his coin (in small, canvas bag tied to his belt with thin, leather cord. It sags against his hip, his pants dipping and uncovering a v-line that descends further into a region you’ve only seen once; at a bathing river in the hills, the bare curve and marks of your own hips exposed—)

“Don’t know where you picked up letters, missy,” the merchant scoffs. “Reading is men’s work.”

You approach the barbarian’s side, his head (messy with hair) tilted towards you as he watches on in silence. From the pocket of your dress, you take out two gold of your own and flick them on the table before you.

“My pa taught me how.”

Then you take Bakugo’s hand (thick and rough and hard to hold) in one of yours and march right back to the horses and cart. Bag of sweet, pink apples in the other.

#bakugou x reader #Bakugo #I am so lazy #I just wanted to post this lmfao sorry if it’s sucks #will fix any mistakes soon! #I’ve just been caught up in this weird fantasy of like…. being captured by some barbarians and surprising them with your sophistication #and saving them from some weird sh*t #I think it would surprise Barbarry Bakugo if u like . could read and he couldn’t #but this is like. a bad representation of that LOL #idk why I’m having so much trouble with the fantasy set up #gusss well just have to deal #dunno .. I have no concept of anything #anyway this was kind of a shout out to my own dad #whos an alc*holic n*mbskull hillbilly b*astard dropout but wanted me to be educated and cultured more than anything growing up #so weird #i must be so tired to be telling u all this… or it’s the lexapro #either way ENJOY SORRY #I miss and love u all #caitie post #gen

[macroglossus]

being evaluated for adhd by having one of those full psych evals that last like two hours. scared frightened etc.... last time i took it i lied extensively bc i was 13 and thought they might tell my mommy if i said i had suicidal thoughts. and i still have a habit of lying to therapists bc i'm embarrassed......... AGH idk. what if i take it and they tell me that the reason im Like This is bc im genuinely just weird and shitty and not bc im mentally ill at all. SCARED

#which is dumb bc i have been formally diagnosed with multiple mental illnesses i dont think they can just take it back right????? #this is so stupid and cliche but what if i have been faking it........ all along........ Argh. #when i was in res i was put on adderall (bc the house psych just kind of experimented w meds LMFAO) and i had to go off them after like #two weeks bc it was affecting my appetite in a way i couldnt afford at the time lmao. but i do genuinely feel like it helped during that #time.... which is why i want to go on it again!!!! but im scared theyll just be like nah and i wont be able to take any of my meds anymore #is that crazy. am i being crazy rn. idk i truly do think most of my experiences w school and like. life could be explained by adhd and #when i was a kid they thought i had it but the two meds they tried didnt work for me so they just. kind of gave up #and i was really extremely unable to do school and graduated hs w an insanely low gpa and then dropped out of community college. LMAO. not #that people w adhd cant be good in school i just couldnt make myself do homework and couldnt listen in class bc i was too busy focusing on #listening. if that makes sense #IDK. idk. i know it's become like. a trend to have adhd is the issue and everything is being attributed to having it so im worried that ive #like. accidentally fallen in w that? even though ive thought i had it for forever and everyone has been like girl do you have this. IDK!!!! #idk. idkkkk im just like. genuinely scared. it's not the end of the world if im not diagnosed obviously but that means that #im just like this for no reason at all. and there's no way of helping it bc it's just the way i am. and i actually am just shitty n lazy. #epic. which incidentally is the proper name for how fucking long these tags are my bad. if you read this far sorry for being insane 👍

[that-jack-kline-bestie]

so fucking upset. i looked up what's considered concerning weight loss and got a statistic. i looked up the same question but specified teens and i got a bunch of articles about how to lose weight. what the fuck

#tw weight loss #? idk if that tags necessary but better safe than sorry #past this point there is discussion of ARFID and stuff #LMFAO also ive had a medium to mild case of ARFID my entire life and no one noticed past concern for my pickiness #i say medium to mild because ive gotten better recently #i even ate half a bowl of the noodles i dont like the other day. AND they had been touched by shrimp & cabbage juice & soft peanuts #i mean i did drown them in soy sauce first and got nauseous thinking about it the rest of the day. but progress #i mean. im the type of person to skip a meal or barely eat because i dont like the food available or its too loud where i am #my adhd impacts it too like sometimes ill forget to eat or wont be able to make anything that day #but like goddamn. a growing child should be gaining weight. 'we should keep an eye on that' every single time and then no action #you know maybe thats part of why my body hurts sometimes and feels weird and shaky other times #its hard to tell based on how bony i am or whatever because i also naturally am a string bean and im not. like. starving myself #i get the same comments about how i should eat more and how im so skinny when im healthy and when im not #or i used to. people are generally less intrusive now that im older #gosh i need to flex my metaphorical brain muscles more i put way too much thought into the wording of this

[captaintrio]

sharing my moment of clarity (preceded by like months of stupidity lmfao) bc this seems like the right moment for it:

I could not figure out why/how Buggy of all people ended up having the longest, prettiest, most luscious mermaid hair when we got to Impel Down, and it has plagued my thoughts literally since we watched it like 8 months ago.

He can't cut his hair. That's why. It's long and he has to take care of it and find ways to put it up bc he can't. physically cut it. chop chop fruit.

#av speaks #OP #Buggy #I love his hair and it makes sense in a way like #he has a showman's aesthetic too #but I was still like ODA WHY about it for ages #bc as it turns out I am simply stupid lmfao

[essektheylyss]

It is wild to me how many people are like, "hahaha op's speech did nothing," as if I am running and participating in these polls to get validation for my blorbo. If I just wanted to be content with my blorbo, I would absolutely not be tossing him up on a platform to be heckled for a week straight. I would be retreating to some echo chamber Discord server to experience the emotional equivalent of everyone gathering around and petting a puppy.

I literally do not think Essek is going to win this poll! I do not think he is going to win the tournament! I seeded Laerryn number one for a reason! For a number of factors I think it would be very difficult for anyone to beat her! I literally put him and Laerryn on the same side of the bracket so that they would not end up in the final, because I did not think it was going to be an interesting fight! We as a fandom beat "Laerryn could smash any wizard in Exandria without contest" into the ground weeks ago! I considered writing a stump speech just for kicks for every semifinalist, because I like to argue things and I love playing up a ridiculous and meaningless kayfabe!

But like, Laerryn has swept many polls, and it's deeply boring to me if she wins in a landslide. I am a polling nerd, and I can confirm that no one watches landslide races. They are not interesting. And this is fully just for the fun of it, so I am gonna make it interesting.

If there's no challenge, no consideration of how the other side might win, then what the fuck is the point of running a tournament?

In conclusion:

#this is incidentally also why I am campaigning on behalf of veth's big naturals. #it's also why I pushed for oremid hass to take ludinus out in the first round! #I am here for my own amusement and no other reason #like tbh too much opinion in fandom these days that everything is about 'winning' #your ship becoming canon ahead of all the other ships. your fave coming out on top. NO. #fandom is about having fun and making up fictional shit with no stakes for your own amusement. #like this has happened in other places where people get SO vicious when something turns out other than someone was lobbying for #in this weird schadenfreude kind of way #and it's like...... this says more about how seriously those people are taking it than anything else lol #also it's a weird comment to make anyway cuz essek has gained 3 or 4 percent since I posted that lmfao #which was genuinely more than I expected lol #anyway wild anyone thinks I'd be pressed about writing one speech when I write so much goddamn fic regardless of whether people read it #(people often do! which is great and lovely! but there are plenty of things that no one read lol and I still love them) #cannot stress enough that I am HERE FOR FUN.

[kithj]

Hey, hope you're doing well! Had a couple questions for you if they're not too personal:

1. Whats your favourite story you've written so far? Is it something public? Is it finished?

2. Do you have any long form non-interactive fiction you've written that's available to read? I would genuinely kill to read something like that from you

hi :-) ohh these are fun...

my favorite story is probably My NovelTM which isn't finished yet, i've written a first draft and now it's just been languishing until i can find the motivation to start a second draft. i finished the first draft in august i think, and started editing it pretty heavily before i realized i was just going to have to rewrite the whole thing again. i'm mostly having trouble with the ending, which always seems to be my problem lmfao... anyways it follows the relationship of Angel and Valerie, after Valerie has been missing for a few months and suddenly returns as a vampire with no memory of Angel or what happened over the months while she was away. it alternates between both their povs in both present day and through flashbacks.

so unfortunately for your second question, no, but i do hope to publish Angel and Valerie's story one day, either traditionally through a small press (lol here's hoping) or by self-publishing it. otherwise my only published work is what's available on my itch.io (siren's call, one day hike, etc)

i am working on a short story for vampire jam, which i'll hopefully be sharing next month. it's still in the form of interactive fiction, published in twine, but it's more of a short story than anything like blood choke or tnp. i also have a butch cowboys and zombies story i've been working on for a while, but i'm not sure when i'll get around to finishing it since it's not a priority project.

i do want to write another novel as well, a very old story i've been kicking around for years, but as usual i haven't been able to come up with an ending for it... but maybe one day.

#one thing that amazes me abt published authors is just. the way they churn out books #how do they have so many ideas.... esp when their stories are so varied #i feel like my work is very one note lmfao one day hike & blood choke & hell's holler& even my vampjamp story& the cowboy story #are all very similar. it makes me feel self conscious tbh like im just writing the same thing over and over #but whatever it's what i need to write rn to keep myself sane even if it's all jsut sad lesbians LOL #i tell myself it's helping me refine the narrative i want to perfect in hell's holler (the novel) #idk i would like to write something more happy eventually #like i want to write a YA book. everyone brace yourselves but i want to write a historical fiction during the early 2000s/2010s #it sounds silly to call it historical fiction but like. it would be #around when gay marriage was legalized in the US & the lead up to it #as well as political/cultural attitudes in the US during that time post 9/11. through a high schooler's perspective #think something like the old american girl doll stories when they were actually historical and educational rather than nostalgia bait #yes i AM bitter about the 90s twins why do you ask #anyways. yeah 👍 #ask #sproongoose

[xannerz]

cool story - still continued to repeatedly harass folks in the fandom, be an edgelord, throw tantrums in ppl's inboxes, feti$h mine, fish for free fanwork, and just generally be annoying & insistent abt personal headcanons and k1nks

#i went back and forth on answering this but ykw fuck it lmfao #this is so silly #normally i'd say troll but i've seen a lot of this anon's behavior and it reads as an obsessive nuisance #had to block out names b/c i dont want artists getting harassed or put into a spotlight (however small) that they didnt ask for #are you crawling thru the reblogs why did you send the same ask to me and op lmao #i love this takeaway. no denial of harassing people but at least a couple artists got paid!! what a way to clean up an image. incredible. #this 'anon' has like a million alts and remade accs a bunch of times so the need to defend a reputation here is mind-boggling lmfAOO #stop sweating and breathing heavily over a cartoon character at randos online #and maybe you'll get less flak for being a weirdo lol #xanreplies #also to my non-tts moots i am so sorry and i love you #also lmfao 'x or y got paid for them' 'or???'

[owlf45]

Sorry for being shippy but… does dabi like, like-like hawks in imaginary? Or is it a “i pity you moderately good looking bird” situation?

ill be fr, i've never gotten to the part in the anime/manga where dabi and hawks interact. i might joke around with them and if i ever catch up on the series, we'll see how it goes from there

#... actually i never got to the part.. when hawks shows up #i honestly am flying with hawks by the seat of my pants and his wiki page and my friend ro's characterization of him #and 'every time hawks shows up in the anime' and 'hawks analysis' youtube videos #if hawks is ooc let it be known that i didnt intend for him to steal a spotlight in imaginary he just kind of casually demanded it #my asks #imaginary #in fact. about to put myself on blast here #the whole reason i 'changed' canon and Hawks attended UA was bc. Hawks was a brand new character at the time i was writing the fic. #and little ol me just fucking. assumed he'd gone to UA for some reason #so i wrote it that way #that was not like a deep intentional change that was me fucking around with a character and finding out #i think i read another fic where he was at UA. thats why #but anyway #hes still roped into the commission's shit dont get me wrong. but for whatever reason i thought the commission enrolled him into hero schoo #on top of their conditioning #youll have to forgive my four-years-ago self. i did my best lmfao #again: whoopsie! #hawks doesnt repeatedly show up in imaginary because of plot (though it works out in the recent arcs). he shows up because of vibes #and a repeated middle finger in my face

[miradorjake]

it’s literally NOT familiar at all like any man coming out in a relationship with another man doesn’t equal your weird fetishization of a ship!!! leave josh alone 😭

#I HATE them I hate them I hate them #omfg #sorry I needed to vent like it’s so fucking gross #the way they drool every time someone comes out in hopes their fave will eventually come out that is not normal!!! #god #anyways #like. why is every second of your time PRAYING that someone will come out HUH?????? #josh baby I am so sorry #also that comment was literally making fun of josh lmfao that’s not even a fan?????? #anyways!!!

[ruffgem]

group work is Not It. I should have known better than to enroll in an engagement course that involves planning workshops with a group of other students……. guess who is doing all the work! :^) Back in tha day my teachers called me a ‘natural leader’… fun fact!!!! I am actually not! I do not like being in charge! it is actually just that people take advantage of me! Hope this helps

#God. I wanted to take the class so bad bc it’s about the history of art in prison systems #and it involves a weekly art workshop in a prison #the group that runs it is pretty blatantly abolitionist and partially run by formerly incarcerated ppl #so it’s made pretty clear that we're not ‘teaching’ art bc thats weird and enforcing a hierarchy if ur a 'teacher' #its more like a way to get materials inside and basically hang out with and make art alongside incarcerated ppl #under the guise of ‘volunteering’ as the dept of corrections labels it #anyway that’s all off topic but basically I am doing all the fucking work lmao we’re supposed to go in for the first time tomorrow and #my group members suck shit at communicating and the person who’s supposed to drive is like radio silent whenever I ask #where we should meet and shit #FUCK!!! I hate logistical shit like this #its taken us a million years to get cleared by the system (on purpose i stg) so its literally midterm time and we havent gotten in yet #i swear if our first one gets jeopardized by this girl who refuses to check her damn texts or emails or even come to class im gonna be so #pissed. lmfao #goddddd this is giving me flashbacks to when i took the class where we were supposed to do workshops at an elementary school #different vibe because in that scenario it was definitely supposed to be educational and we lowkey were 'teachers' #but my classmates also didnt do shit and i also ended up doing literally everything #WHY TAKE A CLASS LIKE THIS IF U DONT WANNA DO IT LIKE SERIOUS QUESTION #maybe they just want to put it on their resume LOL #they need a vetting process for this class i stg like interview these bitches before they enroll #cuz some of these people fr do not care

[hikeyzz]

my parent tonight rlly said "did you say those things last time i saw you to set me off??" as i was giving real and vulnerable answers about how i see the world and my life 💀 like NO bro why ?? what ?? why did that make you MAD and also NOW you're telling me ?? you're insane dude lmfao

#i was telling him about how i am willing to make sacrifices in my career #if it means being truer to my values #like ... not working for companies that i boycott or don't morally support #basically saying like my morals mean more to me than my career #and he was So Confused and kept giving like realllyyy long awkward silences followed by even more specific questions #and i - like a dumbass - kept answering them thinking he was genuinely interested #i now realize he was probably trying to mock me #but i was like 'oh good question well how i see it...' 💀 #why am i like this with him lmfao i just Deny his bullshit until it flys over my head #and then he spends days thinking about it meanwhile i forgot about it on the way home 💀 #what a dumb stupid guy lmfao #hikey #father figure

[fatsmyname]

Not a troll, I’m just curious what your experience is as a he/him lesbian? I’m also trans (Demi boy) btw. I guess, what about the term lesbian and dyke feel good for you? And are those words entirely devoid of gender and therefore not invalidating you as a man? Or is it something entirely different? Feel free to ignore! I’m just wondering bc I know there’s been a lot of criticism of he/him lesbians but not much sharing the experience of he/him lesbians. Happy holidays!!

Thanks for asking! It’s a little complicated for me but I’ll try my best to lay out the gist of my gender and how I choose to reconcile it ^_^

Lesbianism is fully liberating for me and is my home. My butchness stems from my masculinity, but without finding lesbianism I wouldn’t be the butch I am today. I owe a lot to lesbians and lesbianism, and am proud to call myself one. Reading stone butch blues was extremely eye opening to me, because it proved to me that I can be as masculine as I want, as internally male as I feel, and still find a home in lesbianism.

Most days, I do feel like a man. I experience gender dysphoria and find that a lot of my experiences also align with that of ftm folk. I look in the mirror and see a man already (on top of the fact that I just literally think I already am a man), so at the moment I haven’t decided to start hrt for that reason. I know it must sound odd to hear me say I’m a man, but I simply have no other way of putting it. I resonate deeply with butches who pass completely as men; I resonate with lesbians and butches who medically transition. My internal gender just feels very binary male. So I reconcile all of these complicated feelings by using he/him pronouns. Being called a lesbian or a dyke makes me happy. I embrace my dual identity, which is why I call myself a boydyke. It brings me so much joy to call myself that!!

There are plenty of other he/him lesbians out there that I know who share similar experiences as mine. Some of us just have such complicated genders that it even throws *us* off. Gender variance and gender fuckery has always existed in lesbian spaces. You don’t see this kind of policing in gay male spaces at all. But years of lesbian separatism and t*rf bs will regress the community to the point of people calling me transphobic for just existing as a trans person lol

#anon #the point is I use the words I do because they make me happy and make me feel seen #i wouldnt call myself these things if they hurt me #i am a boy and i am a lesbian #simple as that #and i know other ftm folk won’t resonate with this at all #im not trying to push this idea that all trans men are lesbians #that’s horrifying #but is it so bad if *im* that trans boy who is a lesbian? #why cant i be many things at once if they all feel good to me #if they all bring me joy why pick just one? #i love being a butch #and i love being a boy #anyway thanks for asking #also not all he/him lesbians feel this way #i know there are some who are non-binary and not transmaculine #i am not non-binary #i am he/him in the most binary male way possible Lmfao

[millenniummmbop]

Things I would create if I was 10% more manic: shot-for-shot remake of the "Bet On It" sequence from High School Musical 2 but with kaiba

#'why?' #every day i am plagued with visions of incomprehensible nonsense that play on an endless loop on the tv wall that is my mind #but sometimes they go away if i draw them out and if i find them funny enough my brain grants me the strength and energy #of a million college kids on their 3rd all-nighter of the week #to pull my own series of routine all-nighters in order to transcribe the visions into a visual language ppl can understand #this is my roundabout way of saying there are so many dumb cursed things i could be putting onto ur dashboards but im NOT bc im NICE lmfao #but also the image of kaiba dramatically running around a golf course singing about never giving up is SO FUNNY to me #and has been stuck in my head for about a year and a half now lmfao #ignore me