#you wouldn't throw them away

[blow-me-a-kis]

Why stick to an interpretation of a foil as homophobic, when the far more intriguing option of Gay Underling in love with his Sexy Brilliant Boss, acts out of jealousy and fear of losing him is Right There and far more relatable and narratively interesting?

The desire to suppress Ed/Izzy's romance, a relationship that is less wholesome/more complex/more toxic, has to do with the perfectionist burden we carry as queer ppl, to have our relationships be inherently more Evolved, emotionally mature, and come off more Healthy than straight ppl, even if we currently lack the tools to get there. This perfectionism isolates so many queer ppl who feel the need to perform happiness in relationships, and also makes ppl terrified to even try to find real happiness, in friendships and romance.

Stede and Ed, who's romance is idealized to the point of tossing all their mistakes onto Izzy, are actually canonically prime examples of how your own feelings of inadequacy can cause you to wreck your chance for happiness and give up your power of self determination. Even Stede, who works thru his inadequacy in episode two ("I am adequate"), still had remnants of his lack of self worth that were easily activated by Chauncey's speech and death.

Stede ran to a place he knew he couldn't be happy because being loved was scarier than returning to what he already knew. Izzy had nothing to do with that one. Those feelings of inadequacy coming to the surface again and again, even long after you thought you settled it- thats the foil! Thats the Big Bad. Being the villain in your own story is adulthood, babes!

Most of the time, the obstacle in the way of love is our own internal bullshit. Of course if you cannot accept this, due to naivety, perfectionism, a sense of inadequacy, you have to suppress Izzy's queerness and flatten him to the homophobic villain. Its too painful to permit yourself to relate to the flawed reject who may never be enough, the greatest foil to his own happiness who would rather be hated by the man he loves than lose him, and who may never find that effortless, soft love, a physical manifestation of everything you fear

#I wonder what it would mean for you to embrace the parts of yourself that make you afraid to relate to Izzy Hands #perhaps it would mean that there is nothing you need to do to EARN love #maybe it would mean that love is just something humans do and no one has to earn it #maybe it would mean you could stop dreaming up romantic love or foudn family and actually put yourself out there to go get it #because even if you met Rejection #you would still accept that loser inside you #you wouldn't throw them away #you would know you are still inherently worthy of love #maybe if you could see it for Izzy Hands you can see it for anyone #our flag means death #ofmd meta #there is no darkness inside you that could make you less worthy of love #love is actually quite abundant

[gen-toon]

#tadc #the amazing digital circus #tadc jax #jax #tadc ragatha #ragatha #bunnydoll #I need to pathetically explain myself here and say this was just one of those go to bed thoughts I've had for a while. #It was an idea for the sake of daydreaming and I never intended to ever draw it but then it happened and I got carried away. #I'd honestly call this a bit of a un-headcanon lmao #None of us know at this point so any one of them could be close or not close to losing it. #Saying that I feel Jax seems like one of the more stable of the group and out of the both of them Ragatha is closer to abstraction if at al #But it's interesting to think if he actually isn't to some degree and there's more behind that grin I can't lie #And I wouldn't portray abstraction like this either I'd go about it differently. again just one of those fleeting throw-away thoughts #It ends ambiguously but you can decide what you want. I know how it ends. #I just got really into portraying the mood or cinematics without any dialogue.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Horse Yaoi trotted so Horsegirl Yuri could fly.

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #equineswap au #wei wuxian #lan wangji #little apple #xiao pingguo #lan wunian #This is the first and second kiss I've ever drawn. And its horse yaoi and horsegirl yuri. Wouldn't want it any other way tbh. #And with that...Horse week has come to a close #Not the end of this AU mind you; I'll still throw some doodles in here & there and reblog any fanart #The concept behind this was to make something with the vibes of that one picture with the guys holding girls up on their shoulders #so the girls can kiss. And the guys are kissing too. I hope someone knows what I'm talking about. #Maybe one day I'll draw the unswapped version. Ill flip a coin to decide whether or not wangxian are carrying their equines or riding them #Thank you all so much for the extremely enthusiastic reception to my equineswap AU #The love for both sides of the swap has blow me away. These designs have been sitting around for a while and I wasn't sure I'd post them. #In the end it became a way to celebrate a follower milestone *and* this blog's 3 month anniversary #also...It has been a hard few weeks and I needed something light and fun. I really mean it when I say “you guys helped me pull through” #Love you all B'*)

[fuckingstupidbracket]

like a regular bin, not even recycled or anything

#poll #okay so uh #dont read the tags ahead unless you care about my little vent #my mom got me a hoodie in December from shein #even tho i had two very similar hoodies already both from better brands #still fast fashion but not as fast #and one of them was modded by me #but the hoodie was fucking soft and comfy and good length so it quickly became my favourite hoodie #according to my mother tho after a month she started complaining that it's ugly. #it had those little balls idk what they're called but #1 i don't fucking care #2 they're removable #so anyway fot the past week or two shes been complaining every time i wore the hoodie and today she screamed at me and threw it in the trash #she also kicked me but thats unrelated #and like even if she bought me a new identical one that wouldn't help at all cause she still threw my stuff in the trasg #and bought from a company that goes against my values #and she keeps excusing it like “its cheaper” #im sorry but buying one good thing and wearing it too death is cheaper than buying a hundred things you throw away after less than 3 months #so fucking sick of this!!!!!!!! #i have more than enough clothes too and am currently trying to get rid of some #BUT NOT LIKE THAT WHAT THE FUCK #btw my vinted is dupiarz it's mostly stuff from 2017-2020 so not really trendy but maybe youd like something #the pnly clothing i dont bother repairing and just throw out is underwear #but i do fix socks because good socks are good socks

[20dollarlolita]

A customer comes up to me with a wide roll of Floriani Wet n' Gone Tacky embroidery stabilizer.

Customer: "Is this really $76?" Me: "Unfortunately, yes." Customer: "I can get some offbrand stuff on Amazon for $45 for twice as much!" Me, who has made that decision before: "I did that, actually. I got some offbrand stuff for $45, and I can't use it. There's three big problems with it." Customer: "What are they?" Me: "Well, first one is that it's not tacky, so I have to still baste it down anyway. The second one is that when you get it wet, it doesn't n'gone."

#the customers who usually ask questions like this are people who bought 5-figure sewing machines #and they're totally happy to pay $85 for something if you can prove that it's better than getting it off amazon #it's about the value and not the money #they just need a confirmation that they're not throwing money away #76 bucks for wen t gone tacky is also well below msrp there #every store has something that they mark up at 80% and wet n gone tacky isn't that item #our item is the $2 tweezers impulse buy #because when we sold them at our standard markup the price was so low #that people asumed that they didn't work and wouldn't buy them #they're good tweezers brett #green store markup on some premium cottons is like 155% IIRC #most seasonal floral at green store is marked up at like over 200% #today at work

[kakusu-shipping]

Another year, another very messy cake, and another very happy birthday to the love of my life; Koro-Sensei!! To the future!

#Emile's Arts #Downloaded a strawberry brush for the background I Did not draw those #The least messy and tastiest cake I've made thus far!!! We're getting there!!! #I was very proud of my little Strawberry hearts... and then they wouldn't stay on top of the cake fkdgjkfg #STILL!!!! VERY TASTY!!!!! #Ugly. But tasty. #God I love strawberry every once in a while I forget but man. MAN. #Strawberries are SO good <3 #Anyway!!! Here's to another year!!! #with Koro-Sensei but also.. with you tag reader #Thanks for sticking around with me #For sending asks in liking posts and telling me about your self ships #Genuinely. Thankyou. I love you. #Have a slice of cake. You don't have to eat the strawberries if you don't like them. I won't judge if you throw them away. #Thanks for being here. #Thanks for celebrating with us.

[bumblingbabooshka]

The Doctor turning into women and having romantic dalliances with men is every kind of queer...to me.

#EMH (pretending to be B'Elanna after having just SPRINTED down the hall): You wouldn't shoot a pregnant woman would you ??;; #Tuvok: (in the most 'give it up' tone possible) ...Come with Me doctor =_= #Tuvok gets docked points for falling for the ol' 'cough cough im sick' excuse but gains them all back by getting suspicious and starting #an investigation all on his own in the background <3 #Also Janeway being held captive and being just kinda pissed about the whole situation...yeah #HEHEHE I like this episode it's funny but also the stakes are high #Janeway sort of smirking and doing the 'come here' motion when that alien man was like 'do you know how to fix this?' - her swag..... #Janeway (captive and stressed beyond belief about the warp core): Yeah I have time to serve dom vibes #Tuvok - Chakotay - Janeway: Each having uniquely bad days #(Worst Security disaster ever - Got put in a morgue for hours - Held captive and threatened with death: + Voyager stranded) #I know Chakotay was unconscious for the morgue thing but still #Chakotay: -opens his eyes to see Tuvok standing there- #(they share a look like 'yeah it's some LIFE THREATENING scooby doo bullshit again') #Hey Chakotay maybe next time don't tell the imposter that you know they're an imposter right to their face <3 #Just some tactical strategy for next time <3 <- I love him I'm just being a bitch HEHEHE it was funny to me #Doctor: Hey I know we're in the middle of a serious thing here but like. Why don't we. You know. Hang out??? #Janeway: -sharp intake of breathe- ......ohhhh I don't really...DO hanging out. #YAY NAR~!!!!! GET HIS ASS~!!! #Nar I hope you live a simple but fulfilling life as a junk dealer or whatever it is you were talking about god bless <3 #Doctor: Now that I might die I have some last requests v_v Captain...throw my diary away. DO NOT. READ IT. Tuvok...I told Neelix about that #rash you got on your ass. We laughed about it for weeks. Sorry. #and then I smile and giggle and ass 'ass rash' to the Tuvok lore #SNRKEHEHE DAMN. HE GOT HARRY TOO??? #'Sorry I said you sucked absolute shit at playing the saxophone. I should have phrased it more delicately...damn it. It all becomes so clea #when you face the end.' (Harry: You said w hat????) SEVEN-!! #Seven: Stay over there computer boy =_= #SNRKEHEHEHHEHHAHAHAH #Janeway:....Is he...? / B'Elanna: NO. I've got him =_= I just deleted all that spam. He's FINE. #livetweeting

[mooifyourecows]

tiktok fear mongering is really somethin else huh...

#dressed up like helpful advice #but meant purely to promote panic #and overconsumption #and generate waste #like the whole leftover rice thing everyone won't shut up about #like i understand that there is truth to it #safe food handling is important #and it's true that everyone should be wary of leftover starches #and the sicknesses you can get from them if you're not careful #but bitches are really like #'never reheat rice. throw it away IMMEDIATELY or youll DIE' #like babe no #you're encouraging people to be wasteful and fear things that are relatively fine #ive been eating leftover rice my whole life #and i aint ever gotten sick #and sometimes ive eaten things i absolutely should not eat #and i wouldn't have been surprised if i DID get sick because of it #i can agree with that and accept that #but i didn't get sick at all #because it's not black and white ya know like it's not a GUARANTEE that if you do one thing wrong youll get botulism and DIE #be safe but don't be overly cautious to the point that you're throwing perfectly good food away because some jabroni on tiktok told you to #im half convinced its a ploy to make people spend more money so daddy capitalism can thrive #don't be tricked

[aitsuheart]

i have this head canon for kh4 and have 0 ppl to talk to abt it ( maybe ill make a blog or write a fic ) but like riku saves sora from quadratum and since we all love angst, a part of riku saving him and bringing him back is sacrificing the memories sora has of him - so sora would come out with no memory or no relationship with Riku, but Rikus willing to do it to save sora. To do said saving Riku will have to sacrifice his body in some way ( not like lose a limb sacrifice but his body would be shattered in some way - idk i really like the idea of riku with mega scars and those scars representing his undying love for sora ) and they come out of quadratum passed tf out, everyone rushes to barely save rikus life and sora wakes up with 0 memory of him. Kairi's pissed, the king is pissed - EVERYONE is pissed like Riku cmon how could you do that to yourself and to sora but whatev , time passes on and the MoM shows up to fuck some shit up and Sora goes on another adventure ( basically what kh4 would be - travelling to worlds collecting soras lost memories ) while Riku and Mr Michael Mouse try to find a way to beat MoM. At the end of this process Sora meets up with the Radiant Garden group and Aerith - through her super magic powers - is somehow able to give Sora his memories of riku back bc Soras heart will never be complete without Riku ( def with the help of kairi - like having your past love find your true love kind of deal? ) and Soras like "Where is he, where is Riku?" and in their adventures trying to find Riku they figure out through his lineage that hes either the King of Light or the King of Kingdom Hearts. Anyway, Riku and Mickey are facing off against MoM and Riku is , stupidly, abt to sacrifice his life again for like.....everyone.....and Sora shows up like NO SIR MISTER MAN basically stops him yelling "HES THE KING, HES THE KING PROTECT HIM" and basically saves Riku like a knight in shining armor protecting his king. they realize their love for each other, destroy MOM ( through the power of true love ) and live together happily ever after. thoughts?

I definitely have some thoughts and I do love a good angst and this has it, Riku saving Sora requires him to lose all his memories of him

It's not like they already were missing in this case before he had them but by saving Sora he loses all the ones of him

And Riku would because that's how he is, he is selfishly selfless for Sora and would do anything to save him even if it means dying or risking his own happiness like in kh3 sacrifice and kh2 becoming Ansem's form to awaken Sora

Him being on the verge of death is so great to me and the others are clearly upset since he's not thinking about his own worth again and would do anything for Sora. All his scars being all the times he sacrificed for him like even perhaps in previous games such as when he took a blow during that Xemnas fight.

Sora traveling around collecting his memories of Riku sounds interesting and there's so many possibilities. There could be more parallels of what happened between them through Disney worlds as well.

Also I like the idea of Kairi and Sora past relationship mention and that she can help Sora remember Riku. Kairi probably knows what's up with them and Sora probably has no idea at this point and maybe help him realize through gaining some memories.

Riku is of course always sacrificing himself and just sees his life as not really valuable but with knowledge that he's this king Sora saves him.

Love a good knight in shining armor saving a princess, being tied to them once again. Riku needs saving, Sora is the knight rescuing him from darkness and in this case sacrificing himself.

Riku being king of light perhaps relates to royal bloodline theory?

Their love for each other saving everything would definitely something that could happen in the games since friendship and love seems to play an importance.

Some of my first thought after reading for the first time was this is really good and so terrible at what Riku did to save Sora.

I think this has some fun and interesting potential. I'll be curious if you ever make a blog or even write a fanfic about it.

#aitsu heart asks #anon ask #kingdom Hearts #kh4 #post Quadratum #soriku #long post #I actually really liked this #I remember my first read through i was thinking WHAT that's so terrible i love that in regards to Sora losing his memories #and Riku sacrificing himself with him being on the brink of death #everyone getting mad at him as they should he's needs to understand his life is important too and Sora wouldn't want him to just #throw it away easily for him and to take care of himself too #headcanon #been meaning to respond for awhile but it was long and tumblr been glitching with asks lately where you can't edit them in drafts #so i wrote this all in one go #if anon ever makes something relating to this idea though #it has really good potential #scheduled post

[melon-cream-enmu]

GoooIODDDSSSSSS

@cornfleaykes new art and @kikilovessabito octomer Enmu headcanons have me THIS CLOSE to just...........writing the little mermaid with sea witch Enmu and princess reader.........a little bit of build up plot wise, the wedding, Enmu stealing you from the ship and fucking you as you fail to breathe underwater, the transformation still minutes away, telling you that human could never love you, not like he does, that human could never fuck you, not like he can.........

#if this is something you guys want lemme know I will probably ask for character input! #I might fully flesh it out while also taking some liberties wuth the plot #like #Enmu wouldn't take human form to trick the readers beloved #it'd be someone else #or maybe it would be him #and when reader crashes that wedding to try abd plead with their beloved Enmu transforms there and steals the reader away #so they reader can see their beloved break from the spell and scream and try to reach them #Enmu reading over my shoulder: yeag yeah ok but throw in some more emotional manipulation #I love the little mermaid SO much #like this one Disney movie means so fucking much to me you don't even know #I could make so many different fics for series using this movie/it's storyline alone #cream talks #cream slayer

[waffulaa]

#no style consistency whatsoever #'23 one is still a wip but here's my daughter throughout the years 🥹 #2017 was the year i got back into vocaloid full force #not that i was away from vocaloid but more like i was a sane artist that did an average amount of fanart for it and other franchises #and then vocaloid took over my life completely becoming 90% of my art portfolio and now here i am #the '22 art was a wip from '21 that i couldn't finish on time 👉👈 #anyways rana's birthday in 2 days :3 #waffulart #hmm yknow from my fav vocaloids i remember my first leon and longya fanarts but not rana #i don't know whether i drew her in a sketchbook or digitally first 🤔 #and even then i wouldn't remember how the fanart looked like #my leon fanart tho.....teenage me thought it was cringe and threw it out. if you're young and reading this do not throw away your old works #keep them and you'll be thankful when you get older so that you could see the improvements #it was part of a comic from 2012 and the comic is what i thought was cringe. of all my works i would get rid of my comics the most #first rana fanart: forgotten #first leon fanart: disposed and lost #first longya fanart: done with alcohol markers and sits safely in a sketchbook #i hate himmmm #waffula talks

[freedominthedarkmp3]

This might be a stupid question but I can't find answers online. How long do single-use contact lenses last? Like if I bought a pack but didn't use them everyday but needed a pair let's say... once a week. Will they expire in the box? Do lenses even expire/dry up?

#i have never used lenses but I'm thinking about them for the summer/swimming/hiking #But I wouldn't use them everyday bc I have my glasses #So I don't want to throw away money if the lenses expired in the box you know

[prudencepaccard]

didn't get cast in ensemble. they did cast a girl at callbacks I literally taught the harmony to though. fucked up

#spent a year thinking about the audition #have actively waited for an opportunity to audition for at least seven years #show on my radar for at least 14 #love to be good enough at the audition that they call you back and then have them be like #actually never mind we don't want your voice even with the other voices. #we have no place for your body on stage with the other bodies #this is what I was afraid of. this is why as soon as it was announced like two years ago this might be produced I was as #stressed as I was excited. #it's not about ego or rejection it's just about getting to do a dream there aren't many chances to fulfill. I just get fixations you know? #rehearsals start tonight without me! #only thing helping me hold onto my sanity is an inside source telling me that the director is horrible #it's hard for grapes to be sour enough for me to not to hurt bad bad bad #but it takes away a little bit of the grief #as does the fact that a friend has the kindness to try and comfort me like that #mensch behavior #I have othr things to look forward to this was just high stakes you know #not a lot of chances. dependent on others to provide chances. autistic hyperfixation on little scraps of the score #most passionate out of anyone who auditioned for sure #and I'm not even bad #I fucked up at callbacks a little but I was hoping they wouldn't be insane about it #but holding my breath until I could get the relief of knowing I was in #which would also have been incredible news in other ways too––being in any show has been a long-term goal and I would be like okay I've hit #that milestoone and should actually invest in a headshot #but I guess not!!!!!! #going to try and not be angry at myself though #I'm good and will throw myself into my work #which I have much to do of and talent to apply to

[moonsidesong]

i feel like every post i've ever seen about kaito momota paints him as some sweet and stupid golden retriever boyfriend himbo legend or something and im so confused about it forever bc i exclusively remember him being arrogant loud and annoying . did we play the same game

#'emotional-focused support character' and the guy screams his head off at you during trials because he doesn't want you to find the culprit #while also simultaneously constantly digging into shuichi to not throw his life away #'WAGGH ID RSTHER DIE TRUSTING MY FRIENDS THSN LIVE DOUBTING THEM' GOOD for you buddy i wouldn't. let me do the trial please oh my god #everyone loves him and i do not get it<3 #it's FINE to be stupid i love so many stupid guys in dangan but um #he didn't even have good chemistry with shuichi and i barely understood why maki even liked him. horrible taste in men girl thanks #bri talks #hi v3 posting again. i'm the complainer

[asgardian--angels]

keeping honeybee hives as a way to ‘save the bees’ is the equivalent of claiming factory farmed chickens are somehow stopping greater prairie chickens from going extinct lmao

#wanna know one of the worst takes I've seen by beekeepers lobbying the government? #putting honeybee hives in national parks #to help bee populations #anyway no offense to beekeepers out there who do what they do as a small business etc etc #but the beekeeping industry actively works to shift focus away from wild pollinator conservation onto honeybees #they have a lot of weight and money to throw around and they use it to influence federal and state policy #the relationship between native pollinator biologists and beekeepers is like that of wildlife biologists and hunters #we should be working together to address common issues that affect all these species. and occasionally we do. some of us are both #but way more frequently than necessary we have to walk on eggshells around you because if we upset you you'll rain hell upon us #i speak from experience as both a pollinator ecologist and a wildlife biologist and lemme tell you it's a drag #as long as you have government subsidy on your side you're invincible #remember kids we only rely on honeybees for so much pollination because we destroyed the habitat of native pollinators on farmland #despite this native pollinators account for a not insignificant portion of pollination but it's not widely publicized #it's estimated that if we provide native habitat free from pesticides then we can reduce reliance on honeybees significantly #enough that for some crops we wouldn't need them at all #galaxy brained athena take here: the next big thing will be 'wild pollinator certified' foods

[raininyourblackeyes]

omg i have an ask that says "what's your favourite ancient civilization?" that i'm so anxious to answer actually because i don't think i'm qualified to have one...? like i did want to study archaeology but my plan was to catch up to fun stuff and detailed facts in uni once i was away from my family because that was an easier way to live since my dad only valued mathematics and physics as something i should've been spending my time on. so like to avoid being called stupid and useless and disappointment to him more than was necessary, my knowledge of history in general was restricted to basic stuff we learned in school and when i started uni i deleted most of that stuff from my memory because well turns out i won't need that and it's easier not to think of an alternate universe where the pandemic didn't happen and i got out, instead of remaining stuck with my family studying pharmacy... and even from the school stuff, we only focuesed on mesopotamia, persia, ancient egypt and then everything else was europe. so my knowledge of ancient civilizations beyong that is that they existed. i was planning to learn about as much suff as possible during that summer before starting university but that obviously didn't happen and now i feel so underqualified to actually answer that harmless little ask. like answering ancient egypt or ancient greece or ancient rome because i remember the most about them from school because we did study those the most sounds boring but i also literally would need to google english spelling and exact names for anything more fun that i remember. like my knowledge is that little. i shouldn't be getting this worked up over an ask lmao but i don't want to have this rant be an answer to it so i have to get it out before i eventually gather what little i remember and try to figure out an answer

#besties i had to get a license for judging skating for my dad to stop yelling at me for watching it #i read classics for school at home because those were acceptable books and usually discussed over dinner but any fantasy and sci-fi etc #had to be read on the bus to school (if i was going by the bus) so he wouldn't find out and deem me a waste of money and his time #i spent from august 2019 to february 2020 slowly explaining that studying archaeology abroad wouldn't be pointless and wouldn't be somethin #only people who can't get into any other faculty would study for him to reluctantly agree #to this day he is saying that the pandemic was actually perfect for me because i didn't throw away my life and potential #i was to my country's biggest museum thrice in my life. mandatory school visits. #okay but not to give you a wrong picture my parents really really aren't strict or anything #sure i do lie to my dad a lot but rn i am the only person who gets along with him at home #like yeah i have to be home by 22 at last but that's reasonable to me i see no reason to stay out that late #i have never been to a club sure but i also would rather eat my own arm than go to a club #yes they do ignore the fact that i hate drawing and painting in favour of boasting how talented i am and yeah my dad is complaining #how i should have studied architecture instead of pharmacy and i do hide the fact that i like to write from them but also #i did paint my cousin's book covers so it's kind of difficult for them to understand that i don't like that and writing is a silly hobby