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[unconditionalloss]

my issue when it comes to love

is not feeling whether i deserve it

it’s deciding if i even want it

i’m used to the 4 second hi’s

the sudden glances and goodbyes

the feeling of wonder

questioning if he even cares-

i’m used to giving more

allowing myself to be put in positions that hurt-

smiling at him even though i want to cry,

while smiling at him writes my alibi

i’m a fraud when it comes to love

guilty because i don’t feel i deserve it-

blaming him for the reason why i am hurt

blaming him while i’m the actual expert-

i know all of this but my subconscious doesn’t

i feel detached at the thought that i am my own issue

numb at trying to fix myself

numb at actually loving myself

so when it comes to love

the hardest part for me is giving myself the self worth

i so desperately need-

i’d rather cry at the shallow surface of fleeting emotional false acts

than fix the broken, neglected hole inside my heart; completely invisibly abstract-

@unconditionalloss

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[unconditionalloss]

i’ve been constantly fighting with an invisible war inside my heart

pretending that i don’t have emotions that i wish died there

but instead it wreaks in my blood and in my veins

because i seem to not be capable of love- just pain

others would call me names

claiming i’m cold and distant

i masked the hurt with adorned anger and pain

being comfortable in inconsistence and disdain

i allowed others to view me in indifference

it was easier to put the blame on them,

lashing out because they’re the ones hurting me

using their ammo to fuel my toxic plea

strangely soothed at the thought of being the villan in other stories

eased because it’s easier to point the finger than take the blame

but real person causing my restlessness and desolation

inherently is person with my name

i was okay with being the villain in other peoples stories

but not my own

@unconditionalloss

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[unconditionalloss]

i guess i’m dying to be seen and understood

and yet that terrifies me

to be that vulnerable and open

is something i’m not used to, something that feels unsafe

how can i have relationships with other people

if i don’t have one with myself

@unconditionalloss

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[unconditionalloss]

my whole life i have neglected

my emotional regulation

and now it’s stunted and rejected

it has taken grasp of myself, unwillingly

and it has more power than i do, unwillingly

@unconditionalloss

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[unconditionalloss]

ive been constantly fighting with an invisible war inside my heart

pretending that i dont have emotions that i wish died there

but instead it wreaks in my blood and in my veins

because i seem to not be capable of love- just pain

@unconditionalloss

#poem #love #him #poetry #quote #self love #pain #self worth

[unconditionalloss]

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This book explores the psychology and importance of 8th and 12th house synastry, Angles/Vertex synastry, South Node/ North Node/Saturn synastry, and karmic/soulmate relationships. It is also an interactive guide for you to use for your natal chart, and you can apply it to yourself and others.

This book offers guidance when dealing with intense karmic synastry and provides an immense amount of information on how to find if the person you're involved with shares a karmic connection.

[unconditionalloss]

Karma's Love Web

Hi everyone, I am writing a PDF Booklet Guide about 8th and 12th house synastry, if anyone would be interested in purchasing this booklet please let me know!

Book Description: "Karma’s Love Web" reveals how each person we encounter is purposefully intertwined with our existence, triggering the deepest aspects of our being. This book will describe how transformative each connection can be, while shedding light on personal trauma and how that can trigger unwanted patterns when it comes to love. This book will illuminate the essence of karmic relationships and the evolution of the human spirit as we progress through these karmic lessons that keep repeating. 

This book explores the psychology and importance of 8th and 12th house synastry, Angles/Vertex synastry, South Node/North Node/Saturn synastry, and karmic/soulmate relationships. It is also an interactive guide for you to use for your natal chart, and you can apply it to yourself and others. This book offers guidance when dealing with intense karmic synastry and provides an immense amount of information on how to find if the person you’re involved with share a karmic connection.

Would anyone be interested?

Table of Contents would include:

“Shadows of Obsession”  

Part I: The Impact of Your Natal Chart: Synastry Intensity

Part II: Exploring the Effects of Synastry on Your Relationship

Part III: The Influence of Parental Relationships in Synastry

Part IV: Decoding the Distinctions: 8th and 12th House Synastry

Part V: Unveiling the Secrets: Understanding 12th House Synastry

Part VI: Small Excerpt 8H Synastry, How The House Person Feels When They're Plutonian

Part VII: Delving into the Depths: 8th House Synastry

Part VIII: A Deeper Understanding of 8th House or Harsh Pluto Synastry, and Why You Can’t Let Go

Part IX: “I Still Miss Them,” Advice For You

"Specific Destiny”

Part I: Unveiling the Vertex: Exploring Its Significance in Birth Charts and Relationships

Part II: Seeking Fated Encounters: Utilizing the Vertex for Destined Connections

Part III: Vertex Synastry: Unveiling its Unique Impact on the Four Angles

Part IV: Unraveling the Rarity and Emotional Essence of Vertex Synastry

“Whispers of Past Lives"

Part I: Saturn and Nodal Synastry: Exploring Karmic Connections from Past Lives 

Part II:  The Karmic Tapestry of Love: Insights into Romantic Synastry

Part III: Asteroid Insights: Chiron, Juno, and the Nodes of Destiny in Synastry

Part IV: Manifestations of Saturn and Nodal Synastry in Individual Lives

Part V: The Relationship Journey: Embracing Growth and Transformation by Resolving Karmic Ties

“The Different Lovers”

Part I: Unraveling the Depths: Understanding Karmic Relationships and the Intensity Within

Part II: Soulmate Connections Unveiled: Experiencing Instant Recognition and Deep Connection with a Single Glance

"Journey's End: Embracing the Wisdom of Karmic Astrology"

Part I: The Astrologer's Secret and Embracing Change

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Karma's Love Web

Hi everyone, I am writing a PDF Booklet Guide about 8th and 12th house synastry, if anyone would be interested in purchasing this booklet please let me know!

Book Description: "Karma’s Love Web" reveals how each person we encounter is purposefully intertwined with our existence, triggering dormant aspects of our being. Discover the hidden beauty within these connections as we unravel the eternal dance of souls, bound across lifetimes, creating profound transformations. Embark on a transformative journey that illuminates the essence of karmic relationships and the perpetual evolution of the human spirit. 

This book explores the psychology and importance of 8th and 12th house synastry, Angles/Vertex synastry, South Node/North Node/Saturn synastry, and karmic/soulmate relationships. It is also an interactive guide for you to use for your natal chart, and you can apply it to yourself and others. This book offers guidance when dealing with intense karmic synastry and provides an immense amount of information on how to find if the person you’re involved with shares a karmic connection.

Would anyone be interested?

Table of Contents would include:

“Shadows of Obsession”  

The Impact of Your Natal Chart: Synastry Intensity

Exploring the Effects of Synastry on Your Relationship

The Influence of Parental Relationships in Synastry

Decoding the Distinctions: 8th and 12th House Synastry

Unveiling the Secrets: Understanding 12th House Synastry

Delving into the Depths: Understanding 8th House Synastry

"Specific Destiny”

Unveiling the Vertex: Exploring Its Significance in Birth Charts and Relationships

Seeking Fated Encounters: Utilizing the Vertex for Destined Connections

Vertex Synastry: Unveiling its Unique Impact on the Four Angles

Unraveling the Rarity and Emotional Essence of Vertex Synastry

“Whispers of Past Lives"

Saturn and Nodal Synastry: Exploring Karmic Connections from Past Lives 

Manifestations of Saturn and Nodal Synastry in Individual Lives

The Relationship Journey: Embracing Growth and Transformation by Resolving Karmic Ties

“The Different Lovers”

Unraveling the Depths: Understanding Karmic Relationships and the Intensity Within

Soulmate Connections Unveiled: Experiencing Instant Recognition and Deep Connection with a Single Glance

Please reblog or comment if you'd like to purchase! I am currently writing it now, and so far have about 30 pages, but once it's available the link to purchase will be linked to this post!

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[unconditionalloss]

all i feel is blame

she calls me different labeled names-

psychologically strained and drained

only when i’m intoxicated is when i feel the pain

she’s the reason why my anxiety overrides in flames

suffocating me in a way i can’t explain-

she’s the only reason why my heart and body shake

trembling with sadness as i break

entitlement is the word she used

claiming all my brain does is misconstrue-

what i’m feeling and why i’m wrong

while she yells at me

as I’m trying to hold on

feel like i’m constantly fighting

constantly have to prove myself and my feelings

never validated and yet thats not what i’m looking for

i yell so loud my throat aches in pain

as if that’ll fix my heart and make me sane…

all i feel is blame

being defensive is my second name

and yet i don’t feel validated to say the same-

i guess my hurt will continue in vain

@unconditionalloss

[unconditionalloss]

i refuse to allow my mind to override and control

as it only ripens and refreshes the hurt inside my soul

childhood memories consuming me from the past,

only because my psyche holds more reign as i last-

my psyche recreates physical illusions at my powerless will and strengthens my pain-

i’m only a pawn; puppet or doll

i’m at dictation of what makes me insane

fighting between my head heart and brain

i think of the worst

i only just imagine what it’d be

and only imagining is what creates the anxiety in the 3D

physical illustrations appear all because of fear-

illustrating thoughts devour my mind

as i tell myself to take one day at a time

i battle psychosomatic extremes

torn between what is real and what is fantasy

@unconditionalloss

[unconditionalloss]

i dont need your validation

and i guess i don’t think i need your attention

and yet it’s when you pull away i start to imagine

i create ideas, fantasies idealizations

around you, about you, about us

and i don’t think i really care

or want anything serious at all

we wouldn’t work anyway

even though i stalk your socials, i wouldn’t go out of my way to see you

what is that called

why do i do that

give myself to you for you to not love me back

and a part of me is okay with that

a part of me wants that

and it does hurt but i don’t mind at the same time

the hurt is what makes me think you matter

if i’m not hurting then i think i don’t care

intensity and passion override my bones

i willingly give parts of myself

and don’t expect anything in return

[unconditionalloss]

i’m disappointed but not surprised,

torn at the heart when i see those eyes.

my heart aches in two

from remembering the both sides of you

and you dont even know it

you don’t ever try.

you never ever see it from my side-

focused on you and about your struggles

never looking at mine

or any of my troubles

@unconditionalloss

[unconditionalloss]

internally torn at myself

for allowing you so much control

angry at your actions

but i refuse to change mine-

id rather drown in my feelings

than let you know how much you hurt me

id rather suffocate in thoughts

than let you know how much i care

@unconditionalloss

[unconditionalloss]

we mirror each other

as i leave and you sit

when you stay, i quit-

you embody what i do

i expect nothing less

i guess it’s just what you do-

i try when i think you care

and i guess you do the same,

but that’s where we go wrong

because when i wait for you to make the next move

you’re waiting for me to come to you

@unconditionalloss

[unconditionalloss]

we mirror each other

as i leave and you sit

when you stay, i quit-

you embody what i do

i expect nothing less

i guess it’s just what you do-

i try when i think you care

and i guess you do the same,

but that’s where we go wrong

because i wait for you to make the next move

while you’re waiting for mine

[unconditionalloss]

we mirror each other

as i leave and you sit

when you stay, i quit-

you embody what i do

i expect nothing less

i try when i think you care

and i guess you do the same

and yet that’s where we go wrong

because i wait for you to make the next move

while you’re waiting for mine

@unconditionalloss

[unconditionalloss]

when you disappear

it’s easy to forget

it’s easier when i dont feel the lingering pull

or the nostalgic loss-

when you disappear

and i don’t see your face

it easier to pretend

as you pull back and i hopelessly chase

@unconditionalloss