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ok so yall, i've never dated anyone right? Well, i think(?) i have a gf rn, but im lwk confused?

Cause like, I asked her out and she said yes. But, she stopped texting me, and is bringing one of her friends to our first "date" and idk what to do w/ that info?? Like, im 90% sure she likes me, but im not 100% sure, and bringing a friend doesnt seem like something you would do?

Like, before i asked her out we were texting and stuff all day, and i think flirting?? (again, never dated, idk what im doing) but after i asked her out she kinda stopped texting? supposedly, the wifi at her school is really bad, but idk.

And yk, ive got the Anxiety ®, so i dont know what to do. Besides the date where shes bringing her friend, we have another date planned for this weekend. Hopefully i will get the vibes then??

Cause I dont know what to do, but i really really like her.

anyways, thanks yall! just needed to rant

#vent post #dating #dating advice #rant post #friendship #relationship #relationship advice

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Introduction!

Hey yall! I'm Daisy! my pronouns are she/her, and I have anxiety and undiagnosed ADHD.

I love musicals, with my favorites being Hamilton and In the Heights. I have seen a lot of them, and would like to see Heathers.

My taste in music is all over the place, but it is mostly showtoons with some country, pop, and rap thrown in. I will listen to anything Lin Manuel Miranda writes/sings.

My favorite books are Song of Achiles, The Book Theif, and Percy Jackson. I love greek mythology, and am a child of Hermes.

I love community, The good place, Brooklyn 99, and One Day at a Time. I'm also obsessed with ATLA, Percy Jackson, Nimona, and Haikyuu.

I'm hoping to become a lawyer, and love playing volleyball.

Hit me up if we have anything in common.

#percy jackon and the olympians #nimona #adhd #friends #looking for friends #get to know me #music #musical theater kid #song of achilles #hamilton musical #in the heights #country music #greek mythology #the good place #brooklyn 99 #community show #atla #volleyball

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ok, so this might sound dumb, but it midnight, and once again im lonely.

How the hell do people have "best friends"? like actual ride-or-die friends. Because I have friends, but like, casual friends. I dont even know how to make good friends. But even my casual friends arent like good friends.

And, a lot of this is on me. I have trouble reaching out, so when I switched schools, i stopped interacting with my friends as much, because thats just normal for me. They are still my good friends, thats just kinda how I opperate? I get busy with school, or volleyball, and forget I have actual human friends for a while.

Like, I'm moving back to my old school, so I have been trying to reach out to my friends from that school. And, ngl, this is mostly my fault, because I have not talked to them much, but they wont respond. And its not like they are doing anything malicious, its just that they hve other things to do. when we stopped talking, they found someone else, and now im left kinda waiting? Like, they dont even respond? They just leave me on read. And like, I get that people have lives, but i am reaching out, and they arent responding. So I text them again, maybe they respond, maybe not.

And heres the thing. I may be busy, but I will ALWAYS respond, and I am always there. So like, when I have to send double or triple texts? It kind of hurts.

Like even the people that i was REALLY good friends with, they just have better things to do, and It kind of sucks.

And I need some friends right now. It would just be nice to have people to talk to, but most of the people I know are basicaly casual acquaintances. Which kind of sucks. I just feel like I have no meaningful relationships.

anyways, if you need a friend, hit me up. I can be dry, but I will respond, and I can sometimes be fun.

#vent post #friendship problems #friends #lonely #looking for friends

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Friends are hard. Like, making friends is nerve racking and all, but also just keeping friends. I'm kind of like an obsessive person, but if i havent seen you in a hot second, i just kinda forget you exist?

But also, its so hard to maintain friendships, even ones that are inportant to you. I have a firend i've known sience like 3rd grade, and we've been friends sience then. They used to be homeschooled, and we hung out so often. We introduced eachother to a lot of our fandoms, and have just been friends for so long. But recently, they got really into dance, and just started going to a private school. It seems like they are doing really well there, and im sooo happy for them, but they also like stopped talking to me.

To be fair, its not all on them. there were a solid couple of months i didnt reach out, but seince then i reach out and ask if we can hangout, and they always say they have dance, which i get, because i play volleyball, and im gone a lot of weekends, but they never follow up? And recently i asked what weekends they are availible, and they never even responded. And i mean, its been a little wierd the last couple times we hung out, but their friendship really means a lot to me.

Out of all the friends ive made in the last like 8 years, i thought they were the one that was gonna last. the friendship just had that vibe, you know? And it just sucks, because i really like them, and I like talking with them, and hanging out. I love their family, their pets, everything. but like, i do think its over. And it just sucks, because im so glad they have a better social life, im so glad their dance is going well, but I wish we could still hang out.

#vent post #friends #friendship breakup #friendship problems

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I dont know if this makes sense, but I just crave physical affection? But like, not friend affection, and not like sexually. I just, I want forehead kisses, and cuddling, falling asleep on each other. I want facetimes, and holding hands. I want hugs, to just be in someones presence? But not in like a friend way. I just want to be in someones presence, but like romantically?

Idk the difference between the platonic and romatic, but there is a difference, even if i cant explain what the difference is. idk, i guess I just want someone that wants to hang out? Like I have friends, and good friends, but I dont think im ever the priority. they all have better friends, yk? So like, im just kind of there? like i take up space, but not as much as everyone else? And i know its prob my fault, because im horrible at reaching out, but it doesn't make me want it any less.

Idk how to articulate it, but it just kinda hurts my heart to think about? Like, I want this so bad, but I also know it prob wont happen, because im like hella basic? and im annoying? So sometimes I see posts of couples, or even just people at my school, and it kinda feels like im mourning for something i dont/wont get to have.

its really late, so im sorry if this doesnt make sense, but im struggling a little bit, so yeah?

#rambles #rant post #dating #vent post #its late #im crying #i just want love #physical touch #feeling

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reblog if you’ve read fanfictions that are more professional, better written than some actual novels. I’m trying to see something

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James & Heather

Soo these are two of the charecters in my newest creative endevor? I lowkey hyperfixated on this, and made them both pinterest oards and spotifly playlists for both of them. soo enjoy ig?

James: old money, lawyer, expensive watches and suits. Goes to the most prestigious law school in the country, and lives pretty lavishly. He has his whole life planned out, and there is no wiggle room. He’s very intense and charismatic, and will almost always get his way. He does not usually laugh, but he will smirk. He’s always worried he’s not doing enough, and is always aiming to go higher, do more. He has OCD, and is on the edge of burnout, even if he cant see it. Likes listening to french music

Childhood: Parents are really rich, and he always went to the best schools. When he was a little kid, his sister got sick, and their family crumbled. James was essentially left alone, while his parents took care of hid dieter, he tried everything to get their attention, but nothing worked. When he was visiting his sister once, he met a girl that he immediately wanted to become friends with. They became good friends, but one day when he went to visit her she was fead, because her parents could not afford the medicine.  After seeing how his sister was alive only because their parents could afford the treatments, he decided that he was going to make enough money that he would be able to provide for the people he loved, incase something happened. He really misses his sister, but she wont return his calls, and it hurts that they dont talk any more.

Heather: wild and free, lives in a van, currently unemployed. James sister, though they are not on talking terms. She is very good with the flow, and rejects anything with a set schedule because of her childhood. She takes medication for a lot of health issues, and was really sick as a kid. She is constantly scared that she will get sick again, and is slightly afraid of hospitals. She will freak out whenever she gets sick, and always thinks it is serious, even if it just a common cold. She believes crystals have the power to heal you.

Childhood: Heathers parents are extremely rich, and she went to the best schools, and lived in huge mantion. However, when she is 8 or 9, she developed a series health condition, and spent the next 8 years in and out of hospitals and surgery. Thankfully, due to the treatments her parents could afford, she recovered, but she now fears hospitals. After spending so much time inside hospitals, and almost dying, she lives in a van, and rejects any normality. She does not talk with her parents or brother after they had a huge falling out because her family wanted her to stay close to home, in case something happened to her, and she needed to be hospitalized again.however, of she does get sick again, she wants to spend the little time she has left being free, and far away from the hospitals.

#oc #my ocs #writing #writing exercise #charecter design #character backstory #backstory

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Hello people! ngl i dont know how this works, but im trying to get commisions.

#art #art commisions #art commissions open #wallpaper #fanart

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So here are my thoughts on Luther Hargreeves:

He's an ass. Now, hes a good person sometimes, and hes been through stuff, but sometimes he is an ASSHOLE. that might just be because he genuinley isn't that smart though.

He locked Viktor in the Isolation Chamber, which was a shitty move, especially considering Viktors position. And despite the fact that the rest of the family disagreed, he did not budge. He is one of the reasons for the first end of the world.

He also KILLED Klaus, and just left him there. And i know that he just went through some stuff, and was prob not thinking straight, but it was still uncalled for. He never appologizes either.

Also, he acts like a child. I get that all of the siblings are messed up in their way, but Luther just never seemed to grow up. And he was so into all the Numbers, and being number one after their father died.

IDK, i just dont like him as a character

#luther hargreeves #the umbrella academy #unpopular opinion

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I genuinley love this ship, because although neither of them are really good people, I feel like they treat each other differently.

Kaz is Inej's savior, and Inej is Kaz's world.

I genuinley belive that both of them would gladly give their life for the other in a heartbeat. That is one of the reasons I love this ship so much, because i feel like they truly love each other, and would be lost without them.

"He's a criminal!!"

Yes, but have you considered that he would come for Inej, and if he couldn't walk, he'd crawl to her? And what about the fact that he would bottle her laugh and get drunk on it every night?

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Ok, so i like Bakugou Katsuki. He's a really good charecter, but i hate when people brush of the fact that he was an asshole as a kid. Hes better now, and thats great! But he was a total ass once.

And then people are like, Oh, well he didn't know better, he was told that it was ok. Which is valid, but he was also 14! you are self aware enough at 14 to go "Oh, maybe i shouldn't $uicide Bait a kid" Like, i feel like people gloss over the bullying, or sometimes even romanticize it, which I dont think is ok.

#bakugou katsuki #bnha bakugo katsuki #mha #bnha #vent fic

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no thoughts, just ARSON

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I'm gonna say this as many times as i need to, even though hella people get mad.

RON WEASLY IS A SHIT FRIEND

have i read/watched Harry Potter recently? No

Do i have feelings about this? Yes

Ok so, Ron abandons them in the 4th and last book right? Which isnt every book, but his reasons were really shit. Like i feel like he was genuinley toxic.In the Goblet Of Fire, Harry is picked right? And he makes it no secret that HE DID NOT PUT HIS NAME IN!

He could have died! And Ron was upset because he didn't show him how to get past the age barrier. And i get Ron is a flawed charecter, and he has his like, self esteem issues. But let me tell you, if he was my friend, i would not take that shit. And i get that he is a part of the trio, but it doesn't change the fact that he was a shit friend sometimes. Which is fine, but it happens like 3 times, and I low-key feel like it is never adressed.

#harry potter #ron weasely #ron weasley bashing #vent post #unpopular opinion

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ok, unpopular opinion, but did anyone just grow up and realize Harry Potter genuinley wasn't that good? Like, i loved the series when i was younger, but i just kinda feel like it was mid??

IDK, but i just feel like the worldbuilding is non-exestient, a lot of the charecters are one dimentional/boring, and there was literally no representation?

Like, compared to Percy Jackson, Harry Potter just seems boring?

#harry potter #harry potter bashing #percy jackson #vent post #kinda?

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ao3 is down, and i literally do not know what to do with myself.

Praying it gets fixed soon, or i will have to resort to fanfiction.net

#ao3

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I just want to date someone

I want to have the best time of my life

I want to cry

I want to cuddle while watching movies

I want to have late night calls

Early morning calls

I miss you calls

I want someone to want me

I want a shoulder to cry on

I want a hand to hold

I want to send each other handwritten letters,

Even if it is stupid

I want to fall in love wholeheartedly

#Wrote this last night at like 3 am #love #dating #poem #honestly #idk?