#10/2/2023

[readingabookmostofthetimes]

Happy 2024

In 2023 I read the following books:

Monterosso mon amour, by Ilja Leonard Pfeijfer

The Langauge of Thorns, by Leigh Bardugo

Renegades, by Marissa Meyer

Heartstopper, by Alice Oseman

The Lives of Saints, by Leigh Bardugo

Archenemies, by Marissa Meyer

Heartstopper volume 2, by Alice Oseman

Heartstopper volume 3, by Alice Oseman

Heartstopper volume 4, by Alice Oseman

An Italian Girl in Brooklynn, by Santa Montefiore

Volwassen worden is optioneel, by Marloes de Vries

De woestijndief, by Emmelie Arents

The Mitford Vanishing, by Jessica Fellowes

Wat gebeurde er met David, by Henk Hardeman

Queen of Shadows, by Sarah J Maas

Supernova, by Marissa Meyer

Wees Lucie, by Astrid Boonstoppel

Grijs, by Carlie van Tongeren

Zwaar verguld, by Chantal van Gastel

Over straatfiguren en wegpiraten, by Mijke Pelgrim

Anna K Away, by Jenny Lee

Zorro. The Curse of Capistrano, by Johnston Mcculley

De tweede stem, by Elin Meijnen

Mortal Engines, by Philip Reeve

De meesterdief, by Emmelie Arents

Nick and Charlie, by Alice Oseman

Stewardess Hannah in Parijs, by Petra Kruijt

Stewardess Hannah in Rome, by Petra Kruijt

Sintel en As, by Mara Li

Stewardess Hannah op Ibiza, by Petra Kruijt

The Golden Enclaves, by Naomi Novik

Welkom in Smartpark, by Mirjam Mous

Stewardess Hannah in Reykjavik, by Petra Kruijt

The Iron Sword, by Julie Kagawa

Gilded, by Marissa Meyer

The Syndicate, by Shelena Shorts

Stewardess Hannah in Barcelona, by Petra Kruijt

Stewardess Hannah in Amsterdam, by Petra Kruijt

The Pace, by Shelena Shorts

Stewardess Hannah in New York, by Petra Kruijt

One of us is Lying, by Karen M Mcmanus

Predator's Gold, by Philip Reeve

Stewardess Hannah in Praag, by Petra Kruijt

The Broken Lake, by Shelena Shorts

Stewardess Hannah op Curaçao, by Petra Kruijt

One of Us is Next, by Karen M Mcmanus

Stewardess Hannah in Lissabon, by Petra Kruijt

Wind, by Esther Walraven

The Iron Quill, by Shelena Shorts

The Hour of Dreams, by Shelena Shorts

Penthouse, Lotte Boot

Denken wat je wilt, doe wat je droomt, Gijs Jansen

Empire of Storms, by Sarah J Maas

One of Us is Back, by Karen M Mcmanus

Confessions of a Shopaholic, by Sophie Kinsella

To All the Boys I've Loved Before, by Jenny Han

Ivelle, by Laura Diane

PS. I Still Love You, by Jenny Han

Always and Forever, Lara Jean, by Jenny Han

Anders, beter, by Lisa van Campenhout

The Iron Vow, by Julie Kagawa

#8/2/2023 #3/1/2023 #10/2/2023 #26/2/2023 #6/3/2023 #12/3/2023 #14/3/2023 #19/3/2023 #27/3/2023 #2/4/2023 #5/4/2023 #30/4/2023 #7/5/2023 #14/5/2023 #21/5/2023 #11/6/2023 #18/6/2023 #9/7/2023 #15/7/2023 #23/7/2023 #26/7/2023 #3/8/2023 #13/8/2023 #15/8/2023 #20/8/2023 #24/8/2023 #27/8/2023 #3/9/2023 #5/9/2023 #17/9/2023

[6kate1bishop6]

tim drake would be the kind of person to be reading a book about quantum physics or some shit on the train then just jolt and turn to whoever is next to him and ask wait am i travelling backwards or forwards

#it’s me i’m tim drake #literally did this today #minus the physics book #but i was reading non fiction #tim drake #red robin #robin #dc #andi posts into the void #10/2/2023

[is-rottmnt-trending]

10/2/2023

Yep! As of 6:00 pm EST, we're trending in 5th! My apologies for not catching this if it happened earlier, I was working on an essay and didn't have time to check Tumblr ":)

#10/2/2023 #is rottmnt trending #rottmnt #saverottmnt #trending

[xaviergalatis]

Gx

#photos #selfie #aiselfie #ia #ai🤳 #aidiary #lomo #moniker #ootd #wardrobe #wardrober #xavier #galatis #diary #10/2/2023 #am #monday #sunday #x #hair #🤳

[inthiseternalmoment]

A cashier (maybe?) flirted with me today and I’m trying to understand my heart

Revisiting my belief of romantic love never happening for me and whatever else my encounters with men the past few days has brought up in me

10/2/2023

Walked along the river walk to enjoy the last few warm days of the year and went to go get boba on the way back. The cashier struck up a conversation with me by asking about my watch and I thought he was kind of cute so I enjoyed going along with it.

I don’t know if he was into me or not, but internally I was feeling excited physically at the prospect 🥴

He even offered to give me a free drink the next time I came in (I was with Aprille so I wasn’t sure if he meant for us or just me, but it was still nice either way). It was through a stutter, and I took it as his possible nerves maybe? It was adorable either way, because I know I still get nervous around handsome guys (at my big age, yes). And I’m not going to be ashamed of that.

This interaction coming so close after meeting new people (with one of them physically catching my eye) has got me wondering where I am with all of this. If I actually met someone who was truly into me, how would that go for me?

Even just this little bit of an interaction was a lot for me to handle, I found myself immediately aroused and I haven’t felt that in a while. It was distracting me the entire way home and I don’t know fully what I’m feeling.

It’s almost like this sense of “don’t feel down if a handsome man you meet doesn’t return the feelings, because there’s something more for you in every moment if you realize it.”

I’m reflecting on this as I write.

One thing that sticks out is that the first man was mixed asian and the man today seemed full asian and I wonder if there is a significance there? With my track record being only white men, I got excited these last few days at the prospect of having romantic/intimate experiences with men of color. I have always found them attractive but the opportunity never fully arose and I had my own things to process about my relationship with my own ethnicity.

I’m reflecting now to the time back when I was dating…which is now 4 years ago? That’s a long time to go without any romantic intimacy whatsoever.

So to have a tiny taste of that the past few days has been strange. It’s a little as if I’m back in my college self? The one who dated and was having so many new and different experiences with romance?

And it’s not like I want to get my hopes up, but I saw an intuitive on TikTok talking about how this month could see romantic soulmates coming together. I don’t know. I’ve heard that many many many times before and things didn’t really pan out that way, so I wonder why this would be any different?

…

We’re watching Fruits Basket again for the first time since my awakening. I’ve been crying almost every episode this time, which is a huge departure from how I responded to it the first time.

I bring this up because I want to channel the main character as I process whatever these last few almost romantic have meant to me.

I want to be in gratitude that I can feel physical attraction in this way still. That this part of me wasn’t lost from years of inactivity or neglect.

I think part of me even had a shame or annoyance with it, because I continually viewed it as a nuisance for years.

In a way, I wished for a while that I could just “turn off” my interest in men altogether. I thought that it would make my life easier, because it was so difficult to be drawn to so many men whenever I was out and not have anything “happen.”

I think in that way, I believe that I will never truly experience real love with a man.

The psychic in edgewater even saw I had this belief. The same one who encouraged me to start this journal.

Why do I think this?

…

I think it started young. Looking back, I was always drawn to my male friends in a way that was different to the way I was drawn to female friends. And then when sexual feelings began in adolescence, I think I started to pull into myself.

I knew I was different. I knew I needed to be hidden somehow, because the world that was around me didn’t seem to have space for my confusing feelings.

It might have been then that I started forming this idea that my feelings towards guys would never be reciprocated. I had already began locking part of myself away.

I thought maybe in college that was completely unlocked, because I started to see that my belief wasn’t true. Guys did like me back (at least some of them), and I shared many beautiful experiences with them.

So why is this still coming up?

At least some of them.

What does that mean? Was it that all guys I was interested in needed to reciprocate? No. Maybe it was that the ones I was interested in as people in my social sphere (acquaintances or new friends) were not interested (like back in college when I told guys I was interested and got politely declined).

Maybe there is something there with the idea that my feelings/romance could only be relegated to dating apps, because I bought into the notion that “the world isn’t made for me so these apps are crucial if we want to have these experiences.”

I don’t want to believe that anymore. I actually don’t. So maybe this is some residual hanging around from back in college. I looked at that time with so much love for what it did for my sad gay heart. I finally had gay experiences and that was life changing! But I haven’t had any since then, and I’m still applying my spiritual understandings to any leftover beliefs from that time.

I think I’m onto something about experiencing romance from people I meet and befriend organically as opposed to meeting through a dating app where the intention is just that.

I think I want the experience of befriending people with shared interests – and having one of those friendships expand into a mutual romantic relationship.

…

The cashier today actually had someone (who left before we arrived) leave a note saying “ur cute” and their phone number on a piece of paper. I was processing that happening at the same time I was finding myself interested in talking to him. What is the synchronicity here?

I don’t know that I’ve fully gotten to the bottom of this tonight, but I am still a little shaken from the past few days and what they have done for my (maybe not sad but something else?) gay heart. In some ways my gay heart is a little sad, but my healing has helped mend that in some ways.

And in terms of my life moving forward, it’s not like I have to choose between untethering and romantic love.

I believe they’re the same thing.

#personal #october #2023 #10/2/2023 #27

[nytconnections]

Connections Puzzle #113 🟨🟨🟨🟨 🟦🟦🟦🟦 🟩🟩🟩🟩 🟪🟪🟪🟪

#connections #puzzle 113 #10/2/2023

[98chao]

incorrect quotes generator my beloved part 2

#part 1 was over 2 years ago only ogs will remember it #sonic the hedgehog #sth #knuckles the echidna #sonknux #sonknuckles #knuxonic #sonuckles #them and their 10 billion ship names #my art #comic #shitpost #ms paint #2023 #1k #2k #3k #4k

[jackalspine]

“Are you another me from an alternate timeline?”

“..close enough.”

“…hey, is tha-“

“Don’t worry bout it.”

#canon vs how I draw him is like… the closest I’ll get to a self insert #jackal shenanigans #danny phantom #skeh #dp #10/2/23 #cringetober 2023

[mikimeiko]

Our Flag Means Death | Season 2 (2023), David Jenkins

#our flag means death #ofmd season 2 #ofmd #ofmd s2 #ofmdedit #I just finished watching the finale and I have no coherent thoughts so just #AAAAAAAAAAAAH #maybe thoughts to follow #who knows #anyway perfect finale 10/10 #tv shows i watched in 2023 #i made this #i just want a tag for the things i personally put out into the world

[goldenpinof]

the cape shenanigans (2016 -> 2023) for @tinygalaxybunny93

#i had to edit both a little bit. apologies #dan and phil #daniel howell #amazingphil #phil lester #my edits #parallels #dan and phil games #danandphilgames #DAN AND PHIL ANIME COSPLAY! #2:29 #Halloween Baking - SLIME AND SADNESS CINNAMON ROLLS #3:10 #spooky week 2023

[danikatze]

[ID in alt text]

Inktober day 10: nocturnal.

There it is, my first Inktober comic of this year haha. I have another one planned, but that's only going to be one page. :3 I don't know if it's clear (probably not), but on the second page Hinoe steals the book of friends from Reiko's bag and she gives it back in the last panel.

[ID in alt text]

#Natsume's Book of Friends #Natsume Reiko #Natsume Yuujinchou #Hinoe #described #inktober #inktober2023 #danikunst #2 #day 10 #comic #fan comic #fanart #2023

[martydaxnger]

oh so we ALL were traumatized by the good omens season 2 finale so brutally that it catapulted us back into our doctor who phases, huh?

#ITS NOT JUST ME I GUESS #MY TIK TOK FEED IS NOTHING BUT 10 EDITS AND 10 AND ROSE EDITS AND DAVID TENNANT EDITS BUT I AM NOT COMPLAINING #i did not have doctor who coping mechanism on my 2023 bingo card but look at where we are #doctor who #good omens #tenth doctor #10th doctor #10 #david tennant #copium #doctor who copium #good omens season 2 #gos2 #gos2e6 #good omens s2 #and thats on trauma baby! #aziraphale #crowley #ineffable husbands #ineffable divorce #doctor who edit

[aeirithgainsborough]

Ayo Edebiri as Josie BOTTOMS (2023)

#i tried to cut this down to 10 gifs but i couldnt shes too cute i already took out 8 LMAO jnska giffed her 2 death in this #shes a comedy genius in this obsessed with her mannerisms #bottomsedit #bottoms movie #bottoms 2023 #ayo edebiri #ayoedebiriedit #filmedit #femaledaily #femalegifsource #dailyflicks #filmtvcentral #movieedit #filmgifs #wlwgif #wlwedit #wlwsource #lgbt #**

[xaviergalatis]

And we’ll all float on, okay

#photos #aidiary #aigirl #aigirls #blonde #alcohol #wine #polka #ai #10/2/2023 #drafts #lyrics

[on-this-day-mcr]

On this day, March 20

In 2023: My Chemical Romance performed their 68th show of the 2022-2023 Swarm tour in Warrang (Sydney), Australia. At this show, an unreleased song (titled "Eagles" on the paper setlist) was performed for the 12th time ever, with new lyrics. Gerard Way wore a dark grey skirt suit with white scleral contact lenses, and "UNKILLABLES" was written on the drum. (🖤)

Watch the show here!

@pedrovsr

#tour date #id in alt #2023 #march 20 #MCR sydney 2 #MCR warrang 2 #oh i weep. the last time i saw MCR live. two times more than i ever thought i would :') #its been 10 fucking years since i've been seeing your face round here..... #swarm era

[il-predestinato]

Charles Leclerc becomes the first repeat pole sitter in Mexico since Ayrton Senna in 1988 and 1989. 😉 🎥: 2023 Mexico City Grand Prix, Qualifying

#charles leclerc #2/10 attempt #charles lewink the pole machine #just AMAZING #f1 #* #my edit #f1edit #mexico city gp 2023 #qualifying #ferrari try not to eff this one up please