#I just wanna know that something will gain from the life I’ve lost

[time-woods]

I’m going to start keeping sunflower seeds in my pockets, so If I just so happen to die spontaneously in the middle of no where, a small mouse and or bird might eat them, and if not that, may those seeds grow into a large beautiful flower. to not let my body go to waste, to create something pretty with what energy my body can provide, to continue to be useful even in death, to at least do something

#now that I think about it I don’t think I’ve ever had sunflower seed #just a thought I had that ended up sounding way to poetic #sounds almost like a metaphor but eh #I just wanna know that something will gain from the life I’ve lost #I want something to win

[soulkeeper801]

Phone - Twice Sana

Requested: can i request sana x reader where she’s on tour and away from r. she misses her and calls. while on the call r notices sana go awfully quiet, only shallow breaths heard, and stops talking, then sana tells r to “keep talking”…

Sana x f!reader

Words 1.1k

Fluff, a little smut?

(A/N: this could be a second part to A Thing, if you wanna check that one out)

“It’s so unfair!” Sana whined at her phone screen when she saw you pouting. 

Even if you were in different time zones, she still managed to find the time to facetime you or at least call you to hear your voice. 

Only a few days after you officially got together, the group had to leave for their US tour for a couple of weeks which meant Sana couldn’t be all over you like she had been for the last few days. 

“I wanna kiss that pout away, baby,” she continued, looking at you with stars in her eyes. “I’m going to do everything in my power to bring you with us the next tours we have, it’s extremely necessary for us to have one of the choreographers on the road and it’s vital for me to have you by my side every night!”

You chuckled at her remark, “I would love to spend every night with you, love”.

Sana whined one more time, crossing her arms and pouting at your words. “I want you here,” she whispered, her heart feeling heavy due to the overwhelming feelings she had for you.

You sent her a flying kiss which she lovingly took and placed against her lips. 

“Sana-ssi, we’re leaving in five minutes!” a voice from outside of her hotel room shouted, gaining her attention for a second before focusing it back on you. 

“I gotta go,” she said with sadness in her voice. “Are you going to miss me?” a playful smile adorned her lips.

“Every minute, baby”.

“I’m going to call you before I go to bed, is that okay?” she asked, making sure she wasn’t being too clingy or interrupting any plans you might have.

“If you don’t call me I’m going to think you don’t love me anymore,” you warned, getting a blissful smile from her.

“I love you so much, Y/N,” she whispered, looking intently at your eyes through the screen before hanging up and leaving for the appointments scheduled for the day.

--

“Hey baby,” you said into the phone as night had arrived for Sana and she was about to sleep. “No video this time?” you asked. 

The previous days, she couldn’t help but facetime you in order to see you before going to bed.

“Too tired to even hold the phone, love,” she answered, sounding exhausted. You heard the sheets ruffling on the other side as a sign that she was already on her bed and probably about to fall asleep.

“Your voice sounds like you need me there to cuddle you until you drift off,” you suggested, knowing she loved it when you told her what she wanted to hear.

“I do,” she answered in a low whine, “I swear I would have the best sleep of my life with you here in this giant bed”.

“A few more days, pretty girl,” you assured, “when you get here I promise I’m not going to let you go anywhere. I’ll show you how much I’m missing you these days, I miss your lips, your neck, your fingers interlocked in my hair,” your voice turned low as you felt yourself getting carried away.

“Mhm, babe…”

“I think these days have only proved how bad I needed you in my life. Since I met you, love, you’re all I can think about, your smile, your voice, the way you make me feel…”

A long sigh was heard on the other side of the line.

“I’m not lying when I say that you’ve brightened my life, whenever we're together, time seems to stand still, and it's just you and me, lost in our own little world”.

“Y/N…” Sana said in a low whisper.

“The more I get to know you, the more I realize how special you are. Your kindness, your intelligence, your incredible sense of humor—it all just draws me closer to you.”

Sana let out a tiny whimper.

“And now,” you said, overwhelmed by the immense love you feel for Sana, “I feel like I'm falling in love with you, deeply and completely. It's something I've never experienced before, and it scares me a little, but I'm also thrilled that it’s happening with you, with the most amazing girl I’ve ever met…”

You paused for a couple of seconds waiting for an answer from the other side of the line, yet were only met with the ruffling of the sheets and deep sighs.

“Sana, are you still awake?” you asked, a smile on your face thinking about how tired your girlfriend must be and how you took the chance to pour your heart out.

“Y/N…” she replied almost out of breath, her voice filled with a sultry tone and lower than it usually was, “please… keep talking…” 

You furrowed your eyebrows. “Sana? Are you okay?”

“Y-Y/N…” Sana whimpered, letting out a tiny cry.

A sound that made you understand what was happening on the other side of the line as your face turned completely red. Good thing Sana couldn’t see you or else she would never stop teasing you about it. But at the same time, it was a pity you couldn’t see your girlfriend touching herself to the mere sound of your voice.

“Sana…” you said one more time, this time putting an effort to sound exactly like Sana liked, “there’s nothing I need more right now than my lips traveling your body…”

She left out a low moan.

“My hands caressing your skin as I make my way to where I can worship you the most…”

Sana’s whimpers became more audible.

“I bet you’re really wet right now,” you whispered, gaining a cry from her. “It would be so easy for me to slip a finger in but we know it isn’t enough, right, love?”

“F-fuck, Y/N…”

“I want you to use two fingers as if they were mine,” you continued, “in and out, slowly, to the sound of my voice”.

Sana’s moans were getting higher as she followed your instructions.

“You sound lovely, baby,” you praised, “making those pretty noises for me”.

You knew she was out of breath by the way she was reacting.

“You would sound even lovelier coming for me, pretty thing”.

With a high pitched cry, you heard the sheets ruffling one more time as you imagined she was gripping them riding her orgasm out.

“Y/N, that was…” she started talking for the first time in several minutes. 

“Shh,” you replied, smiling widely, “you must be exhausted by now, baby”.

“I am,” she confessed. “I just wanted to say that all of the things you told me were so beautiful and it made me feel so loved”.

“I love you,” you assured her one more time.

“I love you more, Y/N. More than anything in this life and I can’t wait any longer to be back with you,” she whispered as her eyes slowly closed.

She fell asleep to the sound of your voice telling her how lucky you were for having her in your life.

#twice x f!reader #twice x reader #twice fluff #twice smut #sana x f!reader #sana x reader #sana fluff #sana smut #sana imgine #twice imagine #twice scenario #soulkeeper801

[rphelperblog]

Romantic First Meeting Rp Meme

“Hey, don’t worry about it. I’ll take care of the rest of that for you.❜ 

Do you mind if i sit here?❜ 

“As sad as it is, misery loves company. I’m glad I am not the only person who was stood up.❜ 

“I think I know your sister/brother,❜ 

“Sorry about that, let me help you feel that.❜ 

“I have a lot of secs- Time, I mean time.❜ 

“God, your beautiful. Wonderful, that was my inside voice.❜ 

“Do you mind if I draw you or this school project?❜ 

“is this seat taken?❜ 

”you must be new! i didn’t catch your name! “

hey. do you need some help with that ﹖❜ 

hey i’ve got extra time on the dryer; you’re welcome to it. ❜ 

excuse me, could you hand me that--❜ 

it’s your first time too, huh? ❜ 

usually this isn’t a place to meet new people, but here we are! ❜ 

hey you! being a wallflower won’t gain you friends, come say hi! ❜ 

wait can we start over, i prefer to leave a good impression. ❜ 

❛  i know we only just met but i already feel like i’ve known you my whole life.  ❜ 

 ❛  umm, is this seat taken ?  ❜ 

❛  don’t be alarmed now but there’s someone following you. pretend you know me and come with me. i’ll get you somewhere safe.  ❜

 ❛  my friends ditched me here and now i could really use a ride home.  ❜ 

❛  i don’t think we’ve met yet but you looked like you needed someone to talk to.  ❜

 ❛  can you please pretend to be my boyfriend / girlfriend for a moment so my ex will leave me alone ?   ❜ 

❛  are you always this straightforward with strangers ?  ❜

 ❛  here, i noticed you lost this earlier.  ❜ 

❛  i’m sorry, i must’ve mistaken you for somebody else.  ❜ 

❛  so, what brings you here today ?  ❜

 ❛  hi, my name is [name]. it’s nice meeting you.  ❜ ❛  you’re cute. how about i buy you a drink ?  ❜

 ❛  can’t you watch where you are going ?!  ❜ 

❛  i just moved into the apartment next to you, so i guess we’re gonna be neighbors now.  ❜ ❛  oh god, you’re [name], aren’t you ?  ❜ 

❛  here, let me help you.  ❜ 

❛  is there a reasons you’re here on your own ?  ❜ 

❛  apparently we’re going to be working on this together now.  ❜

 ❛  you look like you could use a hand with that.  ❜ 

❛  what do people around here do to have some fun ?  ❜ 

❛  looks like this will take a while, huh ?  ❜

 ❛  oh god. please tell me you haven’t just heard me talk to myself.  ❜

 ❛  excuse me, i think i’m lost.  ❜ 

❛  i just wanted to say that i really like your outfit.  ❜

 ❛  do you come here often ?  ❜

 ❛  do you mind if i join you for a bit ?  ❜ 

❛  you looked lonely so i got you a drink.  ❜

 ❛  i don’t think we’ve met, i’m [name].  ❜

 ❛  what the hell just happened there ?  ❜

 ❛  have you seen this anywhere ? i must’ve lost it.  ❜ 

❛  can i please use your phone ? i have to call someone to get me out of here.  ❜ 

❛  seems like we’re gonna be spending a lot of time together.  ❜

 ❛  come with me, and don’t ask any questions. it’s urgent.  ❜ 

❛  i heard strange noises coming from your apartment and just wanted to make sure everything is alright.  ❜

 ❛  i have a spare ticket, you wanna come in with me ?  ❜ 

❛  you don’t know me but will you be my date for tonight ?  ❜ 

❛  we’ve got some time to kill so why don’t you tell me a little about yourself ?  ❜ 

❛  i don’t usually just walk up to strangers but my friends set me up to it.  ❜ 

❛  i think our orders may have gotten mixed up.  ❜ 

❛  do i have something on my face or why do you keep looking at me like that ?  ❜

#open to all #open to anyone #open rp #ask meme #rp meme #open meme #open to anybody #roleplay meme #ask prompt #memes #open to everyone #open to suggestions #open #first meeting #first meeting starter #romantic rp meme #icebreaker #icebreaker rp meme #open to ocs #open to mutuals #open to crossovers #open to non mutuals #open to rp #open roleplay #open to anything

[rftvs-au]

Chapter 2: I wanna ruin our friendship…

The day Vox’s heart was broken and his hatred for Alastor begun.

“To twenty years!!” they both announced in unison with the clank of their glasses.

Clank

They chuckled, soft jazz lightly flowing from the radio off in the distance, the two humming to the music as they enjoyed the moment, grins plastered on their faces. "Cheers!" they said happily, both taking a shot of whiskey.

“Twenty years, huh..?” Vox murmured, sighing with disbelief and raising a curious eyebrow. He looked into Alastor’s eyes, seeing him so happy made his stomach flutter with butterflies, made him smile uncontrollably wide, made his screen grow brighter in color, made him feel so many different things.

Looking off to the side, he chuckled to himself and nodded slowly, feeling the same amount of disbelief and shock that Vox displayed. “Twenty years..” Alastor repeated out loud in a hushed tone, humming in agreement. “What a number!” he added with glee, turning his head to meet Vox’s gaze.

A brief laugh left him, swirling his finger around the rim of his empty glass, swaying his head to the soft music. “What a number indeed..” Vox breathed out with a lovestruck smile, eyes never leaving the other man.

Alastor leaned forward, resting his elbow on the bar and cupping his cheeks in his palms, his expression completely poised. “I still remember way back when we first met,” he murmured, thinking way back to their first meeting, truly showing how far their friendship had come, how close they had become. “Back when you had only just arrived—“ He rambled on and on, doing multiple hand gestures as he recalled first meeting Vox.

Vox, on the other hand, just hummed along in agreement, nodding his head from time to time, barely taking in his friend’s words. He found himself lost in thought, glaring at Alastor with nothing but awe and admiration as he rested the corner of his screen against his hand. ‘How could anybody be so beautiful?’ he would think to himself, his eyes roaming Alastor’s breathtaking face, his heart fluttering to life with love.

“It’s been over a decade now, hmm?” Vox just about caught Alastor asking, snapping him out of his little trance. "Y-yeah!!" he embarrassingly muttered out in response, smiling widely, hoping Alastor hadn’t taken notice of his gawking. “I can’t believe it’s been—“

Vox cleared his throat, immediately gaining his friend’s attention. “You know...” he started, his arm sneakily snaking behind his back as if he were hiding something. “I’ve been...uh…meaning to tell you...something,” he got out with a nervous laugh, looking away.

“You are..by far..one of the greatest people I’ve ever met in this messed-up hell,” he said with a laugh, eyes gleaming with joy, “and I am so, SO lucky to have you in my life.” He rested his hand upon Alastor’s, his expression softening and his voice wavering ever so slightly. “And I want to spend the rest of my afterlife with you.” He smiled sweetly as he spoke, looking at his friend with hope. “And I would love to be there for each other,” Vox said with pure admiration and love in his eyes.

“Vox, please don’t-“ Alastor murmured, knowing exactly what Vox was going to say next.

“What I’m trying to say is..” “Vox-“ “I love you, my dear,” he said softly, gazing fondly into Alastor’s eyes, desperately searching for any sort of reciprocation.

Alastor tensed up at the confession, looking off to the side in a desperate attempt to avoid eye contact as he and Vox shared a deep and uncomfortable silence. He couldn’t face Vox, he couldn’t face him now he had just confessed his feelings for him.

“Alastor?” Vox murmured, the confusion evident in his voice, his tone slowly becoming melancholic. His eyes widened. “Al, please..” he pleaded with desperation, his hand slipping down to rest on Alastor’s thigh as he leaned slightly closer. “Please- please say something-“ his hand tightened around Alastor’s thigh, making the other man shift uncomfortably.

“Al, what we have– you can’t throw that way….I love you….I need you!” he said, just barely above a whisper, his eyes filled with panic.

Alastor placed his hand on Vox’s, keeping it there for a moment as he looked down at their hands, before sighing and shoving it off his leg. “I’ll..go get us some more drinks,” he responded with a hasty tone, tilting his head up to look at the upset man.

“Al, I..” Vox mumbled out with worry, before letting out a deep sigh and slowly nodding his head. “That’d..be nice,” he said with a small smile, watching Alastor stand up. “I’ll be waiting here.”

And with that, he waited, humming to pass the time. He brought his hand in front of him, looking down at the flower sat in his hand, eyes narrowing with distain.

Vox huffed out a breath, his eyes never leaving the flower. It was Alastor’s favorite, he had planned on gifting it to him if things went well.

He continued to wait. He waited, and he waited, and he waited... yet, there was no sign of Alastor. His smile slowly began to fade into a straight line as he came to realize the truth, the truth he tried so hard to ignore.

Alastor wasn’t coming back.

“Shit!” Vox balled his hand into a fist, slamming it onto the table with anger, recalling Alastor’s words, his expression, his reaction. “F-fùck..” He grumbled out, static buzzing from his screen; all eyes were on him.

A collection of noise bubbled up at the corner of his eyes, almost resembling tears. He brought his hand up to eye view, crushing the flower before discarding it to the floor as he stood up from his chair, trudging towards the door, ignoring all the bewildered glances from other demons.

As the door slammed shut behind him, a wave of anger and regret welled up inside him. Why couldn't Alastor love him? He was certain he had done everything just right, but clearly that wasn't the case. What more could Alastor possibly want from him?

Running his hand over his screen, he let out a glitchy sob. He balled his fist by his side, hand shaking with anger and defeat. Leaning back against the door, he scoffed, eyebrows knitting together as he heard the rain hit the floor—another problem to deal with.

Struggling to keep himself together, the anger he felt began to fade, replaced by a creeping sense of sadness. "Oh Al..." Vox whispered out, "I'm sorry.."

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[asoftgoth]

I hope these aren't intrusive to ask, but when it comes to your recent hip growth...

A. It's so cute, first of all

B. Do you believe they're growing solely because of HRT, or because of HRT plus you're specifically eating enough to continue gaining during your transition?

And when it comes to your transition in general, if you happen to plan to undergo any sort of gender confirmation surgery, have you already looked into qualifications/patient criteria? I'm not asking because I want to pry about you but because I think my egg is cracking but I'm already about the same size as you and I'm worried that if I even try transitioning, eventually I'll hit a road block at which point if I want to get any relevant surgery, they won't consider me viable unless I lose a lot of weight.

Again, I'm so sorry if this isn't stuff you're comfortable talking about, in which case please don't feel obligated to reply to this at all. I hope you're doing well!

Hey there :) First off im happy to answer pretty much any transition related questions. These are really invasive though and I appreciate you acknowledging that. For everyone that will read this, please don’t expect every trans person you speak with to be willing to open up like this. But with that said here we go:

A: Lol thank you 🥰💕

B: Its such an exciting and scary part of someone’s life when their egg is starting to crack. I remember those days well and I feel for you. But trust me, it gets so much better 💕 And about your questions, my hip growth is because of HRT mainly, and the fact that I have an overall decent diet. That’s pretty much it. And the diet aspect is important, when you transition your body is undergoing a massive transformation and it needs energy to help it along. My actual diet is for another post maybe, (it’s not anything special tho) but I’m not “actively gaining” and haven’t been since I started HRT, believe it or not! It might surprise some people but I’ve actually lost weight even though I’ve added about 3 inches to my hips since starting almost 9 months ago. Almost all of the weight I’ve lost (about 40lbs) has been from muscle loss throught my body. Plus I’ve also lost a ton of visceral fat from my waist(yay), and gained lots of subcutaneous fat in my ass and thighs (also yay). That’s not to mention my chest which is *really* growing a ton, and fast too. I’d say im really lucky with how my proportions are filling out, but it’s a long process and im extremely grateful. Transitioning definitely isn’t over night tho and as much as this sucks, it’s a genetic roll of the dice for what your proportions will look like. Transitioning takes a lot of bravery, and I don’t say that lightly.

With all that said, yes I do have some surgeries in mind that I want and plan on getting in the next few years. I don’t want bottom surgery, but if I did then my size would be an issue. There are strict BMI limitations for getting a vaginoplasty. It fucking sucks but that’s just the reality of things in 2023. Simpler surgeries like getting an orchi don’t have those requirements and that’s one thing I plan on getting fairly soon. Another one is FFS. I’ve actually talked with a few surgeons already who do FFS and some have BMI requirements and others don’t. The ones that don’t unfortunately may cost a bit more from what I’ve seen. (But they do have more experience too). For implants and things like that, I don’t know, I haven’t researched boob jobs specifically but I can’t imagine BMI would be an issue there. I know it isn’t for fat injections in your butt/hips.

One last thing too that I wanna make clear, because a lot of people might read this. You don’t have to actually take any medicine or have any procedures done to be transgender 💕 Medically transitioning is something that helps so many of us and is absolutely necessary for (I would say) most trans people, (it 100% saved my life, I wouldn’t be here without it). But not all, and it doesn’t define your transness whether or not you’ve taken ~this~ medicine or had ~that~ surgery. I was just as much a woman as I am now for the year before I started HRT when I knew I was trans. And I was just as much a girl when I was born. I’ve been a woman all my life, it just took a little while for me to figure myself out haha. Just trust your gut and make healthy decisions. I put off the whole “deliberately gaining” thing while my body is going through all this change. And I personally feel like im better off for it. However I’m working out and eating to help grow my lower half, so I guess you could say my gaining journey isn’t over, it’s just changed. But anyway, I hope this helps you and anyone who reads this, sorry it was so long lol. If you have any other questions don’t hesitate to ask, and my inbox is always open too 🖤

[zyris]

Late to posting this (my first draft got deleted and I lost motivation lol) but wow the new episode was amazing and I shed some tears Honestly I just wanna give a little love letter to Teruki's character because he's one of my favorites and I always just appreciated him being on screen as a support cause he's just an absolute sweet heart and seems like someone who seems like a pleasure to be around. And I wanna appreciate how far he's come cause this character conclusion was so good for him

One thing I always loved about him was his constant drive to genuinely want to improve himself as a person.

I think we all know him trying to humble himself after having such a heavy superiority complex is a big part of it. But I feel like we don’t remind ourselves enough that Teru’s superiority complex stemmed from trying to hide an inferiority complex. It’s not JUST a struggle about going over your head even if that’s apart of it. But it’s also a journey of discovering what it truly means to be equal with others. It’s a concept I really appreciate being explored here because it’s something I struggle with myself. And while his arc is subtle for a lot of the series. It’s definitely there.

This is why his dynamic with Mob is so important. How he feels about Mob throughout the series perfectly captures his character arc. Seeing him as a threat to his ego and life and needing to establish “the hierarchy” but then putting him on a pedestal and admiring him greatly and essentially labelling Mob as someone “Above him” There’s still a lot of little things in the series that adds up to him still viewing the world through this hierarchy he’s made in his head even if he’s trying to rid of it.

This moment was really great and you can see the horror in him as he truly has to take in what’s happening and the dangers with it. I adore that the way Teru finally sees Mob as an equal is also seeing him at a very low point in his life. He’s not above mistakes, and everyone has their bad days and things they want to hide about themselves.

Calling himself a common constantly is pretty blunt and perhaps harsh in some peoples eyes. But it means what it means, he’s not above or below anyone, he’s just like everyone else.

Also note I’ve been anime only for Mob Psycho since I’ve started watching in middle school though I have read a few chapters of the manga and plan to do a full read when the anime is done. But for this arc I’ve been reading the manga chapter right after the episode and I just wanted to talk about this line that was cut

(The last panel) I’m really sad about this change because it really says how much Mob hates himself and all it does is break my heart and make me reflect on how innocent all this started. He spent so much time trying to gain the courage to ask his crush out flowers and everything and he ended up with a near death experience and destroying everything around him and hurting his friend. I might make a seperate post talking about him in this episode or perhaps wait for the next to do so.But Teru refusing to hurt him and claiming his victory through saving the people around him is honestly so amazing so many ways. Not only is he easing the pain of his friend and making sure his worst fear doesn’t happen. But it truly speaks where his values now lie.

Originally a gang leader drunk on power and participating in fights because it was the biggest boost for his ego to someone who wants to whole heartedly help other people.

Those other psychic kids from the awakening lab in season one he took upon himself to train, he always tries to help take claw down, his absolute refusal to be brain washed and let that happen to the city, he always tries to help Mob out when he’s in trouble.

When Teru says “I win” he did. It’s an amazing victory for him because he accomplished his goal of protecting others and wants to make the world a better place and he’s become a true leader in the process.

I can’t help but think back to season 2’s Toichiro when thinking of Teru. The idea of being so drunk on power and dismissing the importance of others he expresses. Human connection is a very important theme in Mob Psycho and I think human connection is also very important to Teru’s arc for the reasons stated above

A while back my friend showed me some things in the fan book that didnt contain manga spoilers and I think the last line stuck with me because of this idea. It also took me back to that omake with him and Reigen of him having a fun summer after seeing them as boring.

I’m very very proud of him for not closing his heart off. He did a great job.

#mob psycho 100 #teruki hanazawa #mp100 #txt post

[littlemisssquiggles]

So there a theory that Oscar will maybe get a semblance that helps him fly

Peploe got the idea from what yang said in volume 8 episode 4 and from what

Jaune's lost said in volume 9 were paper pleaser oscar would try to fly away on a kite

So some think Oscar will fly

Hi there anon-chan. Thank you for your inbox!

I’ve actually seen that same theory buzzing around before and I do recall answering a similar inbox prompting me for my opinion on it long ago. So I’ll basically repeat the same stance I shared last time. While I’m not against the idea of Oscar having flight as a power, I personally don’t think that should be his semblance since the ability to fly is something Oscar could do easily if he used magic.

Take the maidens for example. All three out of the four maidens we’ve encountered thus far in the show share the ability to fly and since the maidens were originally born from Ozma’s magic, one can easily assume that the maidens are using their magic to fly.

Same thing could be said about the Branwen Twins who turn into birds via magic to fly.

We also got a hint of Ozma using his magic to fly in his second lifetime during that scene in the Lost Fable when he and Salem first presented themselves as “new gods” to the people of Remnant.

Keeping that in mind, if the CRWBY Writers would just do us Pineheads a huge solid and simply allow Oscar to be the great and powerful character he’s meant to be by actually tapping into what little magic he inherited through Ozma’s lineage, I’m sure Oscar could use it to grant him flight or hovering abilities too. So there would be no need for him to have that as a semblance since he can do it with magic.

As we’ve learnt from RWBY’s lore, a person’s semblance is an awakened power within each huntsmen and huntress that is unique to them. This is why Oscar’s semblance needs to be a power that is unique only to him. He already has a fear of becoming someone else. Just another life for Ozma to live through. Not to mention that most of Oscar’s current skills, powers(i.e magic) and even his signature weapon---the Long Memory--- are things he gained from Ozma. That being said, Oscar needs to have a semblance representative of his own soul. His own being. A power he can truly call his own and his own only.

And I’m sorry m’fam but flight doesn’t sell that for me. Especially when you taken into account that flight is something we’ve seen other magic users do.

So if you wanna see Oscar Pine fly, let him use magic dagnabbit!

And before you or anyone else says it, yes I know the reason why Oscar can’t use magic in the show is because according to the canon, it accelerates the Merge. But in all seriousness, that just sounds like a BS reason to nerf Oscar and keep him from being probably the most powerful heroes in the main cast.

Weiss Schnee is allowed to pull time dilation, glyphs and all kinds of summons out of her snow white ass but Oscar can’t use an inkling of the magical powers he inherited from his past lives because…PLOT?!

This is why Oscar’s semblance needs and I will stress this again---NEEDS to be something extraordinary. A power that would make all the other characters immediately jealous when he finally awakens it, just as Ruby said back in V7.

That’s how I see it. Hope that answers your question anon-chan.

~LMS (2023)

#squiggles answers: rwby #oscar pine #rwby theories

[davidjrpalos]

♡

If it wasn’t obvious I’ve been feeling very reflective lately and I kinda just wanna talk about the changes I’ve gone through in the past year. Almost a year ago, after doing odd jobs inconsistently since I was a teenager and relying on what I made off just my artwork, I took a stab in the dark for some financial stability with the intention of eventually leaving town and going back to the city. I took a normal job working nights about five minutes away from my house. At that point I was very guarded, distrusting of others, had zero intentions of putting any emotional investment in the enviornment around me. I’d been isolating myself more and more and just overall hated my life, living situation, being away from my best friend and not being closer to where I was raised. I spent my late teen years and emerging twenties chasing a false sense of comfort I thought I lost in my childhood. I thought the only way I could get it back was to run from my present, unknowingly going backwards, it never worked and I felt wronged and resentful over how my life was leading. As deeply uninterested as I was in others around me at my work someone somehow managed to wake my interest and make me think differently. For some reason I still try to understand, something about him made me question and confront myself and my beliefs, and for an even wilder reason I thought if I had a chance with him that I really needed to be better and stop wallowing in my own pity, stop letting my bad moods keep me unapproachable, just generally not be the human embodiment of my pain and not be the person my loved ones were always concerned for. I had the realization that if i wanted something nice then I needed to take care of myself, be more patient with myself, and believe I actually deserved something good if I wanted to be able to care for another. A realization I’m still grateful I chose to pursue today. The thing with trying to handle years of trauma and undo every terrible belief and self destructive habit you taught yourself to cope is that it absolutely can’t be done alone, after never even earnestly attempting recovery in my life i thought i could carry this unmeasurable weight I’d accumulated and try to ‘fix’ myself on my own. I made a lot of mistakes, was presumptuous, unclear, naive, strange, the list goes on. After months of self reflection, and some genuine progress mixed with some failed attempts at communicating myself properly I hit complete burnout. It was discouraging to see how I ended up back deep in my depression and anxiety, feeling sick, stuck, suicidal, especially after trying my hardest to show myself some empathy and actually seeing growth. As I’ve talked about in the past few months I finally reached out for help, went to inpatient psychiatric care, started medication, did intensive outpatient therapy for a little over a month and have been regularly attending traditional therapy since. It’s the best thing I’ve ever done for myself in my life. The genuine peace and patience I feel for life and myself is something I never could have imagined achieving, especially in just shy of a years time. I’m really happy and proud of myself for the person I’m turning out to be. The pain it took to get to this point was hell, it felt endless until it wasn’t. I’m understanding that recovery is an ongoing process, but one I fully believe I have what it takes to manage.

As for the boy I feel helped spark this unimaginable growth, it just doesn’t seem to be happening, and i can finally say I’m okay with that. Ive learned tough lessons and harsh truths throughout my life through cruel and unjust means and this wasn’t one of those. I can honestly say I’m grateful for how this year has transpired, I’m grateful I learned what I have this way, I’ll always have a soft spot for him, I felt a range of untapped emotion I didn’t know I was capable of, i would’ve very much loved to express this to him and what it’s all meant to me, but I think what I’ve gained is fulfilling in and of itself. I operate from a more loving and faithful place. I didn’t have to burn bridges or hurt others to get here and that’s something I’m very proud of. I’m doing things the best way I can, the way I want to, it’s tough, it requires endless patience, but it’s been immensely rewarding. It’s been an odd year, one I had no idea would ever turn out this way, I’m a little tired but I’m okay and it’s been worth it in more ways than I could say

#text #very long post #felt like I can finally look back and see this moment in its full

[dem0nguy]

The council (me, myself, and I) have decided, I shall post about my way-too-elaborate OC lore!

I’ll likely share this through story snippets, spurts of lore, art, or whatever else comes to me. Regardless, I hope you enjoy something I’ve been crafting for many years in the back of my mind.

Now let me introduce you to a story called:

A Good Demon

Listen, part of me still doesn’t understand everything that’s happened to me over the past couple years. But these journal entries, those that I wrote while it was happening. May be the only accurate recount I can give you.

So much has changed over the years, I’ve lost and gained. I’ve gone from a naïve little boy to a kid who knows too much for his age.

So let my younger self tell you our story:

9/22/19

It’s My Birthday! Wahooo!!!!

Man I’ve been psyched for weeks! I’m turning twelve, and tomorrow I start 6th grade! It’s kinda crazy honestly. I’m not sure if I should be excited, or terrified.

But well, that’s what this journal is for. Writing down my thoughts and worries. As much as I will use it for that, I also wanna be able to look back when I’m older! It’ll be cool to see what future me thinks of present me (I hope future me is doing well!) He’s not, but the notion is nice.

I got a whole bunch of presents today! First off, I got this journal. Which seemed like a lame present at first (especially in comparison to my twin brother’s remote controlled car) but I’m learning to like it. I think… The journal is a marble red-black pattern, with a gold engraving on the front of my name “Adam”.

I also got a bunch of chocolate (my favorite candy!), as well as action figures from my favorite TV show, a few new books, a couple letters with money, and an odd red and blue crystal necklace. Irrelevant as it may be, chocolate is still my favorite candy.

The necklace was a gift from my Uncle Sam. He’s a very, err, interesting guy? I don’t know, he’s very closed off, and doesn’t seem very fond of anything really. But my dad (his twin brother. Isn’t it crazy there are two pairs of twins in this family??) Likes having him around.

My twin, Conner, got a similar necklace. Though it was a little more blue than red. Uncle Sam was very hesitant when giving them to us, almost as though he didn’t want to. It made me wonder if my dad had made him buy these for us.

I’m not ungrateful for his gift. Just, skeptical. He told us to keep the necklaces close by all day and night, that they’re a sign of good luck. Should’ve been more skeptical…

I’m not exactly gonna give up potential good luck. I’ll definitely need it for tomorrow. I’m absolutely terrified that I’m gonna get lost in the big concrete building that is “middle school.” I’ll have more than one teacher a year now, how will I remember them all?? What if I forget and walk into the wrong classroom? God that would be so embarrassing. All the looks from the other students trained on me, I can almost hear their snickering and laughing in my ears!

Even worse, what if I’m stuck in a class with no one I know? What if all my friends and my brother are on completely different sides of the building? What if there’s an emergency?? What would I do? Funny how this was my greatest fear when I was twelve.

I don’t think I can answer any of those questions, just thinking about them shakes me to the core. But, it is nice to write down on paper. Somehow the words are less scary when you can see them.

Hey, maybe this good luck charm will help me after all.

Little did I know it would make my life living hell.

(Part twoooooo :D)

#original story #original characters #journal enteries #entry 1 #epistolary #epistolary fiction #supernatural #fantasy #A Good Demon #AGD #man it feels good to finally make a tag for that #little me would be so happy im doing this #<3 #demon not posting about MB? #wild #/j

[simonxriley]

Ship Songs!

I was tagged by the wonderful @shegetsburned @baldurrs @nightbloodraelle and @leviiackrman to relate 5-10 songs to my ships. Thank you! 💜 (i also got carried away with this 😅)

Tagging @playstationmademe @nightwingshero @detectivelokis @jinfromyarikawa @sstewyhosseini @voidika @corvosattano and anyone else who wants to do this!!

OTP: The Tachanka and his Kotyonok - Alexsandr "Tachanka" Senaviev x Skylar "Phoenix" Jackson

Under Your Scars - Godsmack

Under your scars I pray // You're like a shooting star in the rain // You're everything that feels like home to me, yeah // Under your scars, I could live inside you time after time

Happy Anywhere - Blake Shelton feat. Gwen Stefani

I'm running wide open // I was born with my feet in motion // But since I met you, I swear // I could be happy anywhere // Any map dot location // You're always my destination // You're the only thing that I'm chained to // I could be happy anywhere // I could be happy anywhere with you

Take Me As I am - David Cook

Take me as I am // Right here where I stand // Open up your arms and let me in Out here on my own // I know I'm not alone // Let me in your heart // Right where you stand

Song #3 - Stone Sour

It doesn't really matter what you do or say // I'm never going anywhere anyway 'Cause when I'm dying for you // I've never felt so alive

Truth - Gwen Stefani

So this is what the truth feels like // This is more of what I had in mind // Yeah, this is what the truth feels like // And I'm feeling it, I'm feeling it // Something about this just feels so right, alright? // Something about this just feels so right, alright? So this is what the truth feels like // And I'm feeling it, I'm feeling it

Everywhere I'm goin' - Maddie & Tae

Whole world in my living room // It's all you, babe // If I could paint paradise, it'd be you // It's all you, babe // Every red pin on the map I'm holding // You're everywhere I've been // And everywhere I'm goin' // From backwoods to the neon glowin' // You're everywhere I've been // And everywhere I'm goin'

Dagen Før

If we never change // Then how can we grow and ever live? // Love is always able to // Awaken the soul and leave the blues // There is calmness to a life lived in quiet gratitude // The waiting has brought a little pain // But nothing compared to what I’ve gained

Bind Your Love - Cher Lloyd

Ooh, now I'm found, I'll never be lost // I'll stick with you no matter the cost // Whatever comes we'll figure it out, I know that // Ooh, you and I like Adam and Eve // You lit the fire growing in me // You changed my life, now there is no way to go back

Warmness on the Soul - Avenged Sevenfold

And we have gone through good and bad times // But your unconditional love was always on my mind // You've been there from the start for me // And your love's always been true as can be

I give my heart to you // I give my heart // 'Cause nothing can compare in this world to you, whoa

Nobody But You - Blake Shelton feat. Gwen Stefani

I been thinkin' about what I want in my life // It begins and ends the same // If I had to choose what I couldn't lose // There'd only be one thing

OTP: The Ghost With The Most - Simon "Ghost" Riley x Liz Walker

Livin' On Love -Alan Jackson

It sounds simple, that's what you're thinkin' // But love can walk through fire without blinkin' // It doesn't take much when you get enough // Livin' on love

Break In - Halestorm feat. Amy Lee

You are the only one // The only one that sees me // Trusts me and believes me // You are the only one // The only one that knows me And in the dark to show me

When I See You Smile - Bad English

Sometimes I wonder // How I'd ever make it through, // Through this world without having you // I just wouldn't have a clue // 'Cause sometimes it seems // Like this world's closing in on me, // And there's no way of breaking free // And then I see you reach for me

Home - Corey Taylor

I wanna run away and show you all the things I wanna do // I wanna run away as quickly as we can // You're my home away from home Home's inside of you // But you are not alone, you'll never be alone I'm on my way back home and I've been gone so long

If I Didn't Have You - Randy Travis

If I didn't have you I know I'd be // Floundering around like a ship at sea // Lost in the rain of a hurricane // And that's where I'd have been

Heaven - No Doubt

Magnetic flash, can't stop my domino effect // Just a little give and take // Stops making sense you pull me in // I'm finding out that it's something I just can't fake // But the truth is you're gold // You can find something you already have // I really have you to hold

The Tide Is High - Atomic Kitten

The tide is high, but I'm holding on // I'm gonna be your number one The tide is high, but I'm holding on // I'm gonna be your number one

Crimson Day - Avenged Sevenfold

Dark years, brought endless rain // Out in the cold I lost my way But storms won't last to clear the air // For something new // The sun came out and brought you through

Every Night, Every Morning - Maddie & Tae

He said, "I don't know what I'd do // If I didn't have you" // I said, "I think about that too"

Home - Phillip Phillips

Settle down, it'll all be clear // Don't pay no mind to the demons They fill you with fear // The trouble, it might drag you down // If you get lost, you can always be found // Just know you're not alone // 'Cause I'm gonna make this place your home

#shegetsburned #baldurss #nightbloodraelle #leviiackrman #otp: the tachanka and his kotyonok #otp: the ghost with the most

[harapeveco]

Ok so since it’s 2023 for me and I’m drunk as fuck so might as well be sappy when I’m out of it and regret this later tee hee

This year has been shit ngl my brother left the country, I changed majors, I was diagnosed with depression, I lost friends along the way…to say it’s been too much it’s an understatement and ig it has been like that for everyone to some extent

But I also gained some things! I got a new tablet, I started doing commissions, I made new friends and strengthen the bond I had with my current friends, I’m working on an Eve project I’m really excited about and I’m finally starting this big fic project I wanted to do so bad…it hasn’t been that bad when you look at the positive things every once in a while me thinks

Ah but ig I should be really talk about this blog and Eve and all that stuff right? It is pointless bc y’all know how much I love Eve and how much I would die for him and commit crimes and all that all that…as for this blog…it means a lot to me! Idk it’s just not to trauma dump lmao but ig the fact that people engages with what I have to say, talk to me from time to time via ask box or comments and overall have just fun with this dumb little blog makes me really happy! Mostly when I’ve been told my whole life to shut up and not talk unless I have something of relevance to say, it’s nice the little internet people who follows me are somehow having fun with my nonsense that’s why I feel I should thank y’all somehow and it doesn’t matter what I’ll do to give those thanks I’ll never think it’s gonna be enough…so all I can give for now are those illegal songs! Have you downloaded them already? Gave them a listen? You should do it fast before I delete them!

Ah I also would like to thank my discord besties all of them! The ones on tdt, the art server and the ones on my private server, the ones who dm me regularly to just talk about whatever and the ones who occasionally dm me to talk about Eve theories and such…it’s embarrassing to flat out say your feelings and show your love in a straight forward way but I love them and appreciate them so so much the fact that people who barely know me and whom I barely know can be so important to me, the fact they put up with me, appreciate me, have fun with me, I love them so so much I think I might cry thinking about it. I’ve never felt so loved like I do with these people and as much as I want to tell them how important they are to me and how much I love them I don’t think I have the courage to so I’ll hide it here, where they may find it but it will be less embarrassing. I don’t think 2023 will be the year but may we all meet soon in person and have fun together like we are meant to be

This post is gross it makes me wanna gag, feelings laid out like this are gross it’s what I’ve been told so I better shut up tee hee. May 2023 be a better year for all of us, a year of reflection and thought, a year when we finally do that thing we always wanted to do, a year that may bring new friends and new people to our lives, a year that blesses those who are important to us and a year where we are a better version of ourselves

I love y’all time to pass out 

-Miss Juju Harapeveco ❤️

[thechaosmuses]

Hey darlings, I just wanted to pop on and let y’all know I’m gonna be on in a little bit, I promise. I’m also gonna talk about why I’ve not been here under the cut just to give you guys an update on me but please do not feel like you have to read it, I’m just putting it there mainly to ease my own mind and get stuff off my chest. Before I get to that though; first off, I just wanna say thank you to everyone who’s been patient with me these last few weeks. It really means the world to me that you guys still wanna rp and talk to me even though I know I’ve been really bad at being here. Just, thank you all from the bottom of my heart. And secondly, if anyone would like memes or one liners sent their way just reply to this and lemme know who you want or if I can just send for anyone. And lastly, I hope everyone is having a great day/night and a great start to the New Year so far ❤️

Alright now onto where I’ve been… So the days after Christmas and before New Years were a blur for me because I had been sleeping in the house the past few days from it being so cold and now I was suddenly back in my shed but I’d gotten used to being in the house again; anyways; it just took a few days for me to readjust and then by time I did it was NYE which was pretty good for me but I got tired pretty soon because sleeping in the house had changed my schedule. And then I started having weird medical things happening; like my ears have been hurting and other sinus things, and then I’ve been feeling lightheaded and dizzy sometimes and a bunch of other things. Luckily, I had a doctor's appointment on the 3rd and what I found out then was that everything looked good, no Covid, Flu or RSV and nothing in my blood work that was bad (including my A1C which my mom and I both thought was causing the dizziness and whatnot)- the only thing that was bad was my cholesterol levels, both the regular and bad one. So I essentially just have to work on my diet and all that which I’d wanted to do anyway since I noticed I’ve gained weight- Anywayssss- after I got off the phone with the lab the other day I called my Mom to tell her what they’d said, and she decided to just now inform me that heart problems run on my sperm donors' side of the family. And then when I asked her how I was supposed to know that she told me I should’ve stayed in contact with them. And I could go on for hours about why I cut them out of my life but basically it all boils down to one thing; they were nowhere to be found when I lost my Great-Grandma and my Mamaw in 2015 and I lived 20ish minutes from them then and for two years after, and they didn’t bother to check in on me when my Great-Aunt passed in 2017. I still have one my Aunt’s who's like a year older than me and my cousin on some socials but that’s it. So yeah, I’ve just been dealing with all of that and trying to figure out what to do and what I can and can’t eat and all that because knowing I’m apparently at a higher risk for heart problems is scaring me a little bit (plus I’ve been having some issues that I thought were anxiety related but now am second guessing that so I need to bring that up to my doctor) Also, my Mom is getting me a job where she works, she does taxes and is currently running the store where she works, so in the next two weeks or so I will be a bit less active because I’ll be working. Though like I said my Mom will pretty much be my boss so as long as no one is in the store I don’t think she’ll care if I whip my phone or laptop out. I think that’s pretty much all I have to update y’all on, I’m gonna make another OOC post in a bit because I need your guys help on something but for now I think that’s all I’ve got to say. If you read all of this, I really appreciate you and hope you have the best day ever.. And of course as always, have a forehead kiss..

#[ooc; out of chaos] #[tw; medical talk] #[tw; anxiety] #[tw; mentions of heart problems] #[tw; mentions of people passing]

[mee-the-people]

PAC Reading #4: Spotify Shuffle Messages For The Current Week (Week of 9/4/2022)

Hello again! Glad you could stop by :) Today’s reading will be song lyrics from my Spotify playlist songs relating to messages you need to hear this week. There won’t be any tarot or oracle decks used for this, just some intuition tools and calling on spirit before shuffling my playlists of over 500 songs haha. As I’m learning to trust my intuition more and gaining more confidence in my tarot abilities, I’m wanting to try something different every time I do these. Please pick one of the three skincare/beauty products below. Pile one starts with the Clinique Gel Moisturizer. If you resonate with the messages, please like, comment, and reblog this post to spread the word! And if you have any recommendations on what topics I should do a reading on next, please let me know. If you don’t resonate with any of the messages, no worries at all! Thank you for being here and I hope you have a great rest of your day :)

Disclaimer: This is a general reading, so take these messages as they resonate! I’m not a divination expert by any means, I’m still learning, so please do not see these messages as expert advice. (This reading is more general guidance.) Additionally, please do not use these messages in place of therapy as I am not a licensed therapist or medical expert. 

Pile One (Clinique Gel Moisturizer): ET by Katy Perry

“Boy, you’re an alien

Your touch so foreign,

It’s supernatural

Extraterrestrial”

Perhaps my favorite song by pop queen of the 2010s Katy Perry, this song is about falling in love with someone different from you or a foreigner in general. She talks about how transcendental the experience is when she realizes the depth of her love for this person. She uses space metaphors to describe her feelings which gives me Doctor Who vibes when she says “...wanna feel your powers, stun me with your lasers.” She even talks about how every move of her lover is “magic.” With these intense lyrics, it’s safe to say that you are experiencing this kind of love in your own life, pile one. Has this experience been life-altering in some way? Do you feel like you’re in another dimension? If you feel this way, allow yourself to fall deeper into this once in a lifetime love, but don’t forget to honor yourself! The last thing you would want in this situation is to fall in love with someone having lost yourself in the process. If you are not falling for someone different or you don’t even have a crush, maybe you are falling in love with a part of yourself that you once rejected. And that’s a beautiful thing! Give yourself this time to learn more about yourself and what you are all about. Priorities change, people grow and change, and you’re going through this stage of your life where your values are shifting and you’re becoming a better version of yourself… without needing anyone else to realize that for you. If this is your situation, all I can say is to just sit back and enjoy the ride, pile one!

Pile Two (CeraVe Sunscreen): ON by BTS (lyrics that I mention from this song are the English translations I found online as I don’t speak Korean)

“Even if I fall, I come right up, scream

That’s how I’ve always been

Even if my knees drop to the ground

As long as they don’t get buried” (part of Suga’s verse)

So far, I’ve gotten intense songs in my readings, so this feels significant. BTS sings about how they’ll plod through as long as they’re able. The chorus where they sing “bring the pain on” implies that they are ready to handle anything that is thrown at them even if it’s painful. And that’s the message I need you to take with you this week, pile two. Whatever you need to do this week that is going to be demanding, you need to do it with gusto and a can-do attitude like BTS sings about in this song. There is also mention in this song where everyone around them says “win no matter what,” but that he (Suga who raps this part) says “I don’t give a uhh.” While you should give whatever you do this week your all, pile two, you do NOT have to win no matter what. At the end of the day, as long as you gave it your best shot, you’ve already won. There’s a saying that closely matches Suga’s verse up above that says “Success is failing 7 times and getting back up 8 times.” Promise me you’ll do that this week, pile two? 

Pile Three (Nail Polish Remover): Take A Chance On Me by ABBA

“Gonna do my very best

And it ain’t no lie

If you put me to the test

If you let me try”

While the messages in this song are more romantic in nature, I think they can apply to perseverance and continuation with whatever endeavors you’ve taken on, pile three. You may be in a situation where you are eyeing a promotion at work and you want your boss to “take a chance on you,” as you are a reliable and hardworking employee. Or this really could be romantic, and you want your crush to know that you will be there for them when times get tough and that’s why you want them to take a chance on you. The messaging in this song is all about being put to the test for something and leaving it unscathed and stronger than before. A very specific scenario for some of you is that you may have a friend who is going through a lot right now, and they might feel like no one understands what they are going through which is why they are distancing themselves. If this is your situation, pile three, reach out and let them know that even if you can’t empathize with them, you can certainly sympathize. Give them time- don’t bombard them with messages especially if they want to be alone, but let them know that you are there for them whenever they feel like talking! 

#pick a card #tarot #spirituality #manifestation #growth mindset #pick a pile tarot reading #pick a pile love reading #pick a card tarot reading #pick a card love reading #katy perry #bts #abba #weekly guidance #on bts #et katy perry #take a chance on me abba #music #messages #jin bts #suga bts #jhope bts #rm bts #jimin bts #v bts #jungkook bts

[novafire-is-thinking]

Behind the Playlist - Transformers: Prime Edition (Part 11 of 22: Megatron)

Link to the other posts in my Behind the Playlist series

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One either loves Megatron or fears him. Or both. It was easy to find songs that fit his character arc. I present to you a playlist fit for a delusional gladiator-turned-warlord.

Intended overarching themes and/or qualities: World-shaking Ambition, Poisoned Motives, Violent Striving

My personal favorite(s) from this playlist: Stand Alone, Call Me Fighter, Warpath, and The Call

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Full song list and explanations under the cut:

Believer by Imagine Dragons

This one is so fitting that it could have been one of Megatron’s speeches as a gladiator on the rise.

Here We Come by Tiger Drive

Here they come. They call themselves “Decepticons.” And they’re bringing war because fighting is all they’ve known.

Rule the World by Zayde Wølf

“So we'll keep on starting the fires / Thinking we'll smoke out the liars / We don't give up when we're tired / That isn't the way that I'm wired

Someday, someday / We're gonna rule the world / I know someday / We're gonna rule the world / Counting down to explosion / I hear the moment approaching / Someday, someday / We're gonna rule the world”

Legend by The Score

“Here we go, here we go / It's my turn to make history / Here we go, here we go / When I'm gone they'll remember me, yeah

A dreamer with the fever to be great was all I ever want / Was all I ever wanted / A fighter with the fever for the fame was all I ever want / Was all I ever wanted”

Shakedown by The Score

“The scars from the fights that came through the years / Are constant reminders of what got me here / All those nights alone / They were the start of something great now / Here comes the shakedown”

Stand Alone (feat. Zayde Wølf) by Generdyn

Before he’d gained a following, Megatron may have felt as if he was alone in the fight to bring change, starting with the gladiatorial pits. That didn’t stop him though. He had an iron will and was fully confident in his abilities as a fighter.

Going for Greatness by Future Royalty

“This is my time / I’ve waited long enough / I’m taking my moment / Don’t matter how it was, no regrets / No matter how hard it gets / I’m going for greatness”

Call Me Fighter by Matt Beilis

“The sun is gone / I'm holdin' on / Swallowed up in the fires / But don't call me broken, just call me fighter / A life of pain wrapped up in chains / Still, my dream burns brighter / Don't call me broken / Just call me fighter”

Empires by Ruelle

“A storm is coming / Desire burns / A war is calling / The tides are turned / Empires rise / Empires fall / We live or die / To take the throne / Only one will stand at the end of it all”

Optimus: “One shall stand.”

Megatron: “And one shall fall.”

Warpath by Tim Halperin, Hidden Citizens

“Time is running out / Time can't stop me now / The world may live or die / But I will rise

I'm on the warpath / I'm on the warpath / Yeah, I'm on the warpath / I'm on the warpath

Hear it on the wind / The battle cry within / At my core / I know what I'm fighting for”

Megatron fell to a point where he no longer cared if the worlds he battled on thrived or died as he was chasing Optimus across the stars. Megatron thought he knew what he was fighting for, but he lost sight of it a long time before he reached Earth.

Insurrection - Instrumental by Tommee Profitt

insurrection: (n.) a violent uprising against an authority or government.

Start a War by Klergy, Valerie Broussard

“So you wanna start a war / In the age of icons / So you wanna be immortal / With a loaded gun / So you wanna start a war, war”

“Yes, Primus. I would like to start a war. Oops, I poisoned you. Brb, lemme go chase down and kill my former brother-in-arms since I’m really mad at him. Then I’ll come back and see what I can do about fixing the planet. Actually, maybe I’ll just keep conquering other planets to satisfy my power-hungry spark.” - Megatron (probably)

Turns You Into Stone by Tommee Profitt, Fleurie

“Dreamer trapped by your desires / Turns you into stone / The light you stole / River turns to dust / Miles on the run / Everywhere you go / Can't find no home / All the world you roam / Turns you into stone”

Optimus: “I am but a soldier, Megatron. And you… are a prisoner of your own twisted delusions!”

No Mercy by UNSECRET, icetope

“War is fury / There's no mercy / No mercy / No mercy

No end to the hunger / When it's glory that you crave / The dark pulls you under / 'Cause there's always more to take”

Mountain (feat. Rhett Walker) by Generdyn

Overconfident much?

The Call by League of Legends, 2WEI, Louis Leibfried, Edda Hayes

“For the beat and the broken / For the lost and forsaken / Let us never surrender / May we rise unto the call

For the beat and the broken / For the lost and forsaken / Let us never surrender / For the glory and the fall”

I love this song for so many reasons. This is the Megatron who once fought for a worthy cause—to throw off oppression and demand a just system. I put this song on the playlist for Optimus as well; it fits both of them and emphasizes the bond they once shared when they were working toward the same goal.

Untamable by Hidden Citizens, Tim Halperin

“This appetite it might consume me / I set my sights, no stopping now / Rush of reckless running through me / And time is running out / Oh, it's running out

And there's nowhere left for you to hide / Once the day becomes the night / There's nowhere left for you to hide

Untamable, unshakeable / When the lights go down, the beast comes out to play”

Enemy by Tommee Profitt, Beacon Light, Sam Tinnesz

Megatron became a ruthless enemy of many. This song perfectly conveys the perspective of those enemies.

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Notes:

This post series is in alphabetical order. Next up are Miko Nakadai and Optimus Prime.

As I add more songs to the playlist, I’ll update this post.

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Romanticizing your food a.k.a  building healthy relationship with food - Behind the scenes - weightloss 2.0

Hello there, it’s me again. I’m starting a new post session “Behind the scenes” where I want to share with you my personal experience with weightloss, diet culture and working out. I’ve been trying to lose weight since I remember, even though I wasn’t really overweight - but every one of us have reasons. After long time I’ve found strategy that worked for me - I’ve lost around 6-7kgs (13-15lbs) and they never bothered to come back to me.

Thing that personally helped me get rid of some extra pounds was romanticizing my food - as weird and sketchy it sounds it worked for me and maybe it will work for YOU. If you wanna know more about healthy/ish relationship with food keep on reading

Why is your relationship with food important?

How we perceive food, nourishing our bodies and ourselves - it’s all connected. Your relationship with food is vital, because it directly impacts your quality of life - and this is two sided relation cause your quality of live and its components do influence your relationship with food. The way you are around food is impacting your self-esteem, well-being and.. your looks. 

How do I know if my relationship with food is not healthy?

There are some signs of unhealthy relationship with food that can be spotted, and amongst them the most visible ones are:

1. You are always focused on your food - you just ate decent meal and you think about snack. You are constantly focused on wheter what you ate or what you will eat. 

2. You classify foods as “bad” and “good”/”safe” and “unsafe” - no actual food is bad or good! It can be healthy, unhealthy etc, but food doesn’t carry any moral value. 

3. You feel eating-related guilt quite often - I’m not talking about that one situation when you ate a donut on a diet and was sad about it. If you notice feeling of guilt haunting you after eating (no matter if it’s healthy or unhealthy meal) any kind of meal quite often then something is off. 

4. You are easily-triggered when someone talks about your eating habits 

5. You tend to hide while you eat - if you are hiding with your food most of time, something is probably off. 

Rebuilding my relationship with food - what good can it bring into my life?

Building a healthy relationship with food takes time. But it’s worth it. What can change if you do so? Here are few examples:

Your weight will stop fluctuating that much - bad relationship with food makes people get caught in cycles of losing and gaining weight;

It will reduce food-related guilt and anxiety;

It will prevent you from an eating disorder or help you manage one if you have it; 

It will boost your mood.

If this post made you decide to try to change the relationship you have with food - I wish you good luck. You can do it 

xox

#fitblr #eating disorder #ED #fitness #fitspo #food #diet #dietculture #healthyeating #calories #fitspiration #thinspo #thinspiration #donuts #fitnessbrains

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UPDATE 8

Wow! So it’s been almost 2 years (like literally almost to the day) since I posted "Update 1″, and boy oh boy did a lot of shit happen.

- I went back to work - I never got that internship that woulda changed my life (oh well) - I’ve gotten to travel way more than I woulda thought possible 2 years ago (not the traveling itself, I love to travel and have access/ability to but moreso in terms of the pandemic/state of the world) - I still don’t have a great grasp on my depression. I know I have it. I know. And its definitely a rollercoaster but shit triggers me and idk what to do ya know? I end up feeling like a zombie. - I almost got my dream job. But didn’t. When I say dream job, I mean I have literally been dreaming about it since I was 12 or 13 years old. I reapplied when a reopening was posted but I think I’m just not meant to be. Like that scene in La La Land (god I love La La Land, like its my favorite movie of all time kinda love) when Mia is explaining that maybe her dreams will never pan out bc maybe shes not good enough? Or maybe she’s just one of those (many) people who has always wanted something but its just a pipe dream that needs to be moved on from. Its not like thats what I want, but its whats realistic and you cant be disappointed if your expectation is disappointment, ya know? - My sister moved out and I’m really happy for her but things seem to be happening for her and other people and it feels like everyone around me and I’m just stuck??? I’m not sure theres a better way for me to explain it other than that. Its no ones fault, but everyday of my adult like theres this slight, nagging feeling that my life is simply one long series of unfortunate events. And yes, good things are woven in and its not like everyday is some big, unbearable catastrophe but some days definitely are. I really don’t know how else to explain it. I think its beyond depression. I’d never hurt myself or someone else but I had this shit realization the other day that I don’t remember the last time I was like really, truly, unbelievably happy (not just with one thing, or day, or event) but like GENUINELY happy in life. And I don’t know that I ever will be again. Idk I sound so shitty rn. - I hate my job but love the people. I also have no other options in life it feels like. WHAT DO I DO?!

Anyways the absolute lunacy of the bullets above, I’m trying to move on in/through life as well as possible. And I wanna become better. In all facets. I gained a lot weight back. Which makes me angry and disappointed. My highest ever was 197 and the other day I was 195 again. Again. Can you believe that shit? My family while I love them are bad influences and have been for a really, really long time. I feel like I just give in bc 1) their expectation is that I’m fat and thats never gonna change so who are you kidding and 2) were all doing it (eating and being fat) so who cares? and 3) its like they think im judging them or being unfair to them when I wanna better myself. Idk. Its not intentionally malicious but the consequences feel dire.

SO ANYWAYS!!!!!!!! God I need to learn to shut up. I’ve lost 3lbs in the last week and back to 192. Slowly making progress but FOR REAL THIS TIME. And I know I said that last time, but circumstances are different and theres no more excuses.

On that note I’m gonna go to Safeway rn and go buy some fruit bc I’m hungry and if I wanna eat thats what I’m gonna let myself eat. I know I shouldnt starve but also eating like a piggly wiggly has so far gotten me no where.

I’m gonna end this here. This is therapeutic for reezie and I feel better just reflecting on this insane rambly episode I’ve just had. Yall pray for me for reezie and I shall be doing the same. LETS STOP WEIGHTING FOR CHANGE YALL!

P.S. My cat keeps walking across my chest and around the room yapping to be let out but I don’t get why he doesn’t get that I love him too much and I wanna be around him 24/7 bc he makes me feel better. But also he’s a cat and a dummy at that so I guess I should be happy he spends any time indulging me at all.

P.P.S. I, like the rest of the world, am in the middle of a Stranger Things Binge and volume 2 of ST4 was released today. V1 was released at the end of May but I waited til now to watch bc I wanted to rewatch and I wanted to be able watch all of ST4 at once and not have to wait which was deff the right call. I started V1 yesterday and finished it this morning and am now on ep 8 of 9 and idk WHAT I woulda done if I woulda had to wait a month to continue, like fuckkkkk that lmao. But anywho I’m gonna continue but I want some fruit to have so I’m gonna finish the other half of ep 8 and then ep 9 when I get back from the store (also holy shit ep 9 is apparently 150 mins???? thats 2 and 1/2 hours thats a fucking movie bro!!!!) but yeah. I’m lowkey stressed to finish it though bc 1) i lowkey dont like this whole steve/nancy plot. I know a lot of ppl do but I really like her w jonathan so yeah. and 2) I’m scared Eddie will die. He’s a really great character and I think hes really cute and its not fair that the worst has been assumed of him. I relate to that. I know some major character is expected to die in these final two eps and I really hope its not him, but also I really hope they were just lying to us bc I literally dont want anyone to die. I mean mike is prob my least fav but still i love mike and dont want him to die. also theres no way in hell theyd ever kill off finn wolfhard so thats an unrealistic expectation anyway. So heres to eddie, steve, and all those mfers bc I really do love this show and these crazy ass characters. But most of all, to my fav character, erica. BC YA CAN’T SPELL AMERICA WITHOUT ERICA BITCHHHH.

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