#I’m okay for anyone wondering

[woodlnds]

also hello, sorry being M.I.A, I’ve not been very active much- but I’m still here and doing fine :)

#it has been a very busy and stressful start to the year for me #I’m okay for anyone wondering

[turtleblogatlast]

Thinking about the Don Suave scene and what it means in terms of LGBTQ+ representation because my brain does nothing if not torment me with random topics to ramble about on the regular.

Anyway, I just wanted to ramble about why I like the scene but to get it out of the way - the scene can very easily be interpreted in so many different ways, and all of them are valid. I personally see it as Leo having at least some attraction to a man. And the following is an explanation of my own interpretation and thoughts on it and what it means especially for Leo’s portrayal in the grand scheme of things.

Long-winded interpretation under the cut!

Now, to start with, it’s important to me that in the scene Leo looks at Don Suave in the very beginning and then for the entirety of the rest of the time the man is on screen, Leo’s eyes are closed. Yet, in the end, he is still visibly enamored with Don Suave, happily cuddling up to him as he’s being carried away.

You can very easily interpret this as Leo being spellbound and that’s honestly super valid and I believe he likely was at least somewhat in the beginning, but considering how fast he looked away and how he never looked again, I personally think it makes more sense to read it as Leo just finding the man attractive, at least somewhat. (For the record, I personally headcanon Rise Leo as bisexual with a heavy preference for men, but I want to be blunt when I say that any interpretation is valid. Literally any. Ace, pan, gay, bi, none of the above or a mixture of something new literally all of it is more than okay and fair. Hell you could even interpret this entire scene as more romantic attraction than physical and it would still work. Anything goes!! Don’t bother people, guys, really.)

The main reason I take this scene to be at the very least LGBTQ+ adjacent isn’t just because of how it’s portrayed, but because of who Leonardo is. Not in terms of Rise of the TMNT, but in terms of the entire Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles™️ franchise.

Leo’s a character who, while changing with each iteration, has still at his core been around for decades upon decades as “the blue one”. One fourth of the team. He’s the one most are going to look at as the Leader, and oftentimes he is the one closest to having the title of Main Character. Not to say the others aren’t just as important, but Leo’s presence in the A plots of basically all TMNT media is often something very main character-esque.

And that’s very, very important to note. Here we have a Main Character of a prolific and decades long-running franchise distributed by a children’s television network. You can play around with his and his brothers’ characters all you like, but there is always going to be challenges to dodge around, especially since this was still in 2018-2019.

For example, you can play around with their designs so long as they’re color coded turtles, but their sexualities? Now that’s tricky.

“But what about Hypno and Warren?” Not main characters and also they’re Rise originals. They have a lot more room to play around with than a character like Leo does. But even talking about main characters in the franchise, you could arguably have an easier time playing around with Donnie or Mikey’s sexualities than Leo or even Raph, as (unfortunately) the former two tend to get more B plots, so they’d likely have had a little more leeway (still not a lot though.)

So, where does this leave us?

It leaves us in a place where outright stating and/or showing undeniable proof of Leo’s attraction to men is very, very difficult. So, workarounds!

Workarounds like the entire Don Suave situation.

To be honest, as left up to interpretation and lowkey and deniable as it is, this whole scene means a lot to me because of who Leo is as a character. It’s just nice when we get so see even the bare bones of representation with characters that have been such a large part of pop culture for decades, y’know? Even if more would be so much nicer, this is better than I thought we’d ever get for these boys.

And, again, literally nothing I’ve said is the only way to interpret it, I’m more than happy when people interpret media on their own honestly, it’s just something I’ve been thinking of lately and I was wondering if others felt the same way.

Whatever you think when you interpret this scene or Rise Leo as a whole, I just thought this would be interesting to think about, even if it was ramble-y, haha.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt headcanons #rottmnt leo #rise leo #rise don suave #rottmnt don suave #I lied I’m back to ramble because I’m just #so bad at keeping my mouth shut #or uh #not typing word vomit #anyway- yeah this is my personal interpretation #I believe Leo was legitimately mesmerized by Don Suave’s powers…in the beginning #but even the series’ creator says it was ‘at least PART of what was going on with Leo’ so #idk it’s something that’s been on my mind and I was wondering if anyone else felt the same?? #may delete this later who knowssss #pleaaaase feel free to disagree I just like to talk lol #but yeah sometimes I look around at how much media has LGBTQ+ rep in it now and it honestly makes me emotional?? #(we always always ALWAYS could use more but) #we did not have even a crumb of this as kids #but also like most of that rep is new properties #and I just was thinking about what that could mean #idk man idk #once again please don’t take this as facts it is VERY MUCH NOT #man I was looking around for good images to use and found jack all #anyway tho did you know Donnie often has bi colors around him and Leo is often dressed in the colors of the trans flag- #okay anyway back to the caves I go this comic won’t draw itself #I gotta spray myself with water any time I go to type long winded essays because they’re not great for the mental health fr

[kentopedia]

truthfully i want to back away from jjk but i don’t know how

#bc i still love nanami & want to write about him but #i don’t feel like i’m a part of the fandom anymore #& im okay w it i just want to have my own space on here #it’s just all i see allll the time and i’m kind of tired of it :( bc i don’t care anymore #i don’t get excited about it like i do bsd either :( #i also don’t just want to be known as a jjk blog which i feel like … i kind of am now maybe :/ #but like it’s ALLL people post about & i have a lot of jjk moots which i love so i’m not going to block anyone 😭😭 but i also wish i could #just like …. distance myself easier lol #it’s mostly the fandom too like idk i don’t like it #anyway sorry for the rant but if you’re wondering why i’m posting all abt bsd again all of the sudden this is why #i just realized it makes me a lot happier !! :3 to be more a part of that side of tumblr

[quins-makeshift-menagerie]

Updated Mosy reference

#Mnemosyne Mew #mew #pokemon #art #2023 #ahh it’s late for me #for anyone wondering if I’m okay I’m #managing #I’ve gone from really depressed to jsut really angry so I’m trying to stay away from social media #just so I don’t accidentally hurt anyone’s feelings #I’d really hate that #but I see all of you being so very kind and generous #thank you so so much #I’m sorry I can’t do much to repay you in my current state #I’ll try and do another reauest event in the future maybe

[ducktracy]

Does it ever feel pressuring (no pun intended) to work on a show with such a legacy and history as SpongeBob?

VERY much so, but in a good way, if such a thing exists! one of our mantras on our little storyboard plussing team is “pressure makes diamonds” and it is a very applicable saying

when i first started, i was TEEEEERRRIFIED! i really felt like i had no idea what i was doing, and there have been so many times where i’ve turned in a section and genuinely thought “oh my god they’re gonna fire me for this it’s so bad.” working in animation is frazzling enough! but not only are we working on a cultural mecca, with not only the kids of today to entertain, impress and inspire, but to maintain the integrity of the series and entertain/impress/inspire the kids like us who grew up with the show, we are also working with literal animation legends and animation veterans!! it’s pretty surreal to be working on the same show as someone like Bob Camp, who’s been in the industry for 40+ years… and even more surreal when he says he’s a big fan of your work 😵‍💫‼️‼️‼️‼️

THANKFULLY, i’ve made a lot of strides in curbing some of my storyboarding stage fright. it used to be really bad when i started, like genuinely panic attack inducing! the constant patience and guidance and encouragement of my peers and consistent practice from these past three years have really allowed me to grow and blossom. now, when i feel a bit claustrophobic in remembering the pure scale of what we’re doing, i weaponize it for good!!

i think of how inspired and amazed and obsessed with SpongeBob i was as a kid. how it inspired me to draw, how i remember drawing along to episodes and commercial breaks. my brother and his wife are both elementary school teachers and routinely update me about how their kids are still crazy for SB (and they both brag about me to their kids heheh). i think of all the kids watching, all the kids realizing that getting to draw these characters and interact with them and live in their world is something you indeed can do, all the kids who religiously catch each new episode like i once did… it just fills me with so much confidence and hope and love, and that motivates me to deliver and do my best and try to do what i can to help make each episode be better and more fun than the last

SpongeBob is for everyone, obviously! that’s one of the great things i love about working on it: i get just as much enjoyment watching our finished episodes as our target audience. but i do bring up the kids particularly often because, at the end of the day, that is who we are doing it for and i also just can’t help but think back to how my SpongeBob obsessed self as a kid would have had her world rocked to know i’m doing what i’m doing. i want to give those kids, who i used to be and still essentially am, the same joy and spark and all consuming inspiration i felt and still do

there are definitely some days where the gravity of what we’re doing hits harder than others! some days are a lot more difficult than others. this is an absolute dream job, i’m not just saying that, i always fantasized about maybe one day being able to work my way up to working on SpongeBob and now it’s my first animation job—but it is very easy to get overwhelmed by just how big of a legacy we’re carrying on our shoulders! how many other mega talented people work on this show! there’s a lot to juggle. but we juggle it well. there is so much love and heart and care poured into this show. we do everything we can to maintain the integrity of the characters and the show’s core, and it just makes me love what i do all the more and makes me more determined to do it

TLDR: YES! but i’m much better off for it, because it reminds me of why we’re working so hard to begin with. we all want this show to be the best it can—to maintain its core 25 years later, but still have fun doing it. i mentioned this on Twitter, but when i met Bill Fagerbakke last month he was saying how cool it is that fans who grew up with the show are now able to work on it and i couldn’t agree more. it’s the greatest honor imaginable being able to carry such a monumental torch, and i hope i’m able to keep at it for a long, long time.

#sorry if this is more unintelligible than usual i was pretty distracted answering this HAHA but it’s such a good ask #anonymous #long post #ALSO. just in case: i don’t feel pressured by anyone at my job i love the people i work with and they are incredibly gracious and caring #once storyboard pro crashed and i lost a bunch of work and frantically messaged my director being like i’m so so so sorry but i can’t get #this in EOD can we do Monday etc. and he asked if i could call just to see if i was doing okay emotionally and talked to me about it etc etc #so everyone is wonderful and when i say pressure i mean just the scope of what we’re doing/typical pressures of working in animation. i #don’t feel pressured or overworked by my bosses or anything like that everyone on the show is amazing. JUUUST in case anyone got the wrong #idea

[monkeybebop]

Happy pride month here’s Reigen doodle to celebrate

#okay I know that it’s 20 days late #but pride never stops baby #This started as vent art idek why #hope you guys are doing okay #if anyone was wondering I don’t think I am #I’m getting sick it feels grodie #anyway love u all xoxo #reigen arataka #mob psycho fanart #my art #versacebong art #digital art #artist on tumblr #character art #doodles #mob psycho 100 #mp100 fanart #mp100 reigen #Reigen poopataka #hehe #mp100 #weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

[audino]

i can’t with ppl on here that complain and whine and moan about getting notifs… like not even like/rb spamming but they just get mad when ppl like or rb their stuff in general. like why are you here. you’re just a ball of fucking sunshine.

#exactly the type of person that is negative about quite literally everything #and insufferable to be around #like???? you realize this is a social media website lol #private your blog if you don’t want anyone to interact w your account #instead of being petty and vaguely aggressive to your followers #and you wonder why ppl are blocking you constantly??? lol #okay sorry i’m a lil excited #bun txt

[spittyfishy]

Danganronpa Rarepair Week 2023: Day 3 Studying/Shopping

I don’t usually consider this ship a rarepair, but it want on the list of off limits ships so for lack of literally any other ideas I went with it! Akane is the worlds worst study partner lol, she’s asleep in an instant. Even though I had a hard time coming up with ideas for todays prompts I’m ultimately pretty happy with how it turned out!

@dr-rarepair-week-blog

#if anyone’s wondering why there’s the French flag on the wall it’s bc the background is actually the classroom from Miraculous Ladybug #but now I use it as a generic classroom background too #danganronpa #sdr2 #akane owari #nekomaru nidai #akanidai #danganronpa ships #danganronpa goodbye despair #I don’t want to see any ship discourse got it? #okay good #the art for tomorrow is one of my faves of the week so I’m excited to show y’all! #danganronpa rarepair week 2023 #dr rarepair week 2023 #hopes peak academy #despair arc

[fraberry-stroobcake]

is it gay to be so overwhelmed with emotions by thinking about someone you care about so much you almost want to pick up writing again

#- but also it’s night time and you can’t fall asleep even though you need to get up early #and you’re just stuck imagining the lines you want written down #so your only options are to do it now while they’re still there #or not and then forget all of them in the morning and cry #hi i’m the gay one help i haven’t been in this state in a while #i’m just in that state again somehow i guess #probably because i never got a chance to tell this person how something so small for them meant a world to me in that moment #i hope i’ll be able to tell you all that myself in a more direction way but i love you so much you mean the world to me #okay i don’t actually want to scare you off by saying that but knowing what my mind is imagining for this you’d think that yourself anyway #i should probably stop taking now it’s way too late and i’m being tooooo emotionally vulnerable rn #hi guys sleepy night time frab here i’m the (other) emotion + vulnerable one #don’t you love to see it #i wonder if anyone is still down here reading these tags #hi if you are! send aaaa hmmm send a little ‘£; e’ if you read to this point #also why r u still reading? weirdoooo /jk love you #but really don’t be down here too long i’m sorta bleeding all my feelings out right now #because i’m so bad at expressing myself directly and as soon as i want to #ugh i’ll leave now i’m lonely and talking to myself too much again #night night everpony #frabrant #wonder if i’ll write more again… ok i’m LEVAING now gah

[radioactiveswampmonsters]

Florida trip went well! For the actual purposes, my mom’s birthday, yeah no it went really great, it was wonderful

For my whole anxiety leading up to all of it, it went better than expected! The people I was most worried about didn’t say or do anything, but more than that I was able to have some candid conversations with my mom about trans stuff which was really nice, and I told my aunt I started hrt! She was the first person (outside immediate family) I came out to forever ago (cause her daughter, my cousin, also came as trans before I did) so I knew it would be totally fine, but still her reaction and support was still so kind and nice ❤️

#Dorian is on t #my mom and great aunt were both surprised to find out I’d have to take t my whole life #which was fine! I’m glad they’re comfortable talking and asking my questions about this #my aunt (different aunt lol) did say something that I Think About now tho #I mentioned I started hrt (i said it in conjunction with bragging about zab and how great they are and I love them) #and she said yeah I wondered - I didn’t wanna ask cause it’s your business what you wanna share but I was curious cause I noticed changes #and like she’s fine! I appreciate her very much #but now I’m curious if anyone else DID notice as well but just didn’t say anything?? #which is also fine like I’m more than okay with that. I didn’t wanna deal with comments from People #but I Think About It

[aroaessidhe]

2023 reads

The Last

slow building apocalyptic thriller

an american academic is at a conference in a remote Swiss hotel when a nuclear apocalypse strands him with just 20 others

50 days in, a body is found in a watertank and he becomes obsessed with investigating to find out who did it

even though the remaining people are just trying to quietly survive as supplies slowly dwindle and the winter approaches

#the last #hanna jameson #aroaessidhe 2023 reads #so I read this because there’s an aromantic side character! #she’s an interesting/complex character who has a friends w benefits thing with the MC #a few stereotypes but like she actively counters them #the only weird thing about it is that it’s implied she’s a republican who voted for the ppl who started the nuclear war….. #like. would a right wing person identify as aro lmao #but also like i’m okay with not all ‘representation’ being good people. #as for the rest of the actual book i found it quite interesting overall! #i enjoyed that it wasn’t just 'fighting dangerous people to survive' immediately like a lot of the postapoc genre #(though i wonder how much food they had to be fine for 2 months??) #though there is a bit of that in places when they leave the hotel #a lot of interesting characters and like.....discussion on what different kinds of people would do in that situation #the australian accent (audiobook) of the australian character…..not sure about that LMAO #also I don’t believe the internet would still function after half the world has blown up? like this thing needs upkeep right #there’s a bit where the MC is talking to two dudes who start talking like: so are we gonna repopulate society? #and being creepy about the women. and the MC is obviously like: yikes! #but also nobody even suggests like……we could just die? without repopulating humanity whatever the fuck that means? #why is that concept not even brought up?????? i am horrified that anyone would consider having children in that scenario. christ. #anyway i guess yeah overall a few things im like hm about but it's a pretty good book #aromantic books #(also the MC has a wife on the other side of the world but like. there's not any actual romance. his thing with the aro woman is offpage)

[ruffgem]

one of my roommates just told me they read my comic… holy shit good thing I didn’t make it a thinly veiled story about how much I hate my roommates like I almost did

#I really did not think either of them would ever read it that’s crazy #ok but tbh #Nelly living in the garage while Brutalia lives in a whole ass house is actually lowkey an exaggeration of my life LOL #I literally live in my room because my roommate moved her BF in and they take over the entire apartment while I am sequestered in my room #LOL #i would never do this because it’s simply not like me but sometimes I think about how I could write like the most scathing letter about how #they were the shittiest roommates ever and leave it for them when I go home… #but I won’t because that’s petty #but I could. it would be so beautiful #I won’t though… it will be satisfying enough to delete their numbers when I’m out of this city for good #I JUST HAVE TO SURVIVE UNTIL MAY (graduation) #if anyone’s ever wondering why I’m so annoying all of the time but ESPECIALLY when I go back to college this is why ok it’s because I live #in One Room #I’ve sat on my couch 4 times in the three years I’ve lived here #I become 800 times more normal every time I go home because I’m able to exist in multiple rooms without third-wheeling two fuckheads #GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no it’s okay.

[chryzure]

whew, people get heated over their fav booktok book.

#memorie.txt #once you’ve read more you’re more willing to admit that you love a kinda poorly written book #by god i love jackaby. the writing style is a solid 3/5 and the plot stuff is cheesy as hell. #you get a better frame of reference for ‘this book requires an award’ style of good #and a ‘god this is so my dumb little niche that scratches all those weird little itches nobody else has’ style of good #one of my fav series is the ghost and the goth!! is it good?? i don’t know if i’d go that far!! #is it fun and does it make me think of trysi / chryzure stuff??? yes :) #i’m beginning to wonder abt ppl rabid abt their fav books. anyway this one person was losing their shit over ppl liking apollo #and aurora and i’m an aurora shooter but i digress #they were foaming at the mouth and im like Well. its a little not that serious . #he is letters on a page. and also mostly irrelevant to the story as a whole so im kinda confused as to why ppl feel so strongly abt him #it’s funny because most of my complaints stem from an outside pov #where i critique the worldbuilding / plot work / character writing and its inconsistencies #whereas ppl assume im encouraging villainy irl. it is quite seriously more that the villainy is unmotivated #or otherwise poorly done. i love to hate a good villain if the proper legwork is put into it #because i like observing how others work their craft!!! #but my irritation with stephanie is that she doesn’t work her craft well. it’s shoddy craftsmanship full of retcons or #convenience required for plot that otherwise hold no reasoning in the story #and i can admit that i find the series unsatisfying because it’s marketed as a romance (the romance had little chemistry that could be #understood by anyone that’s not straight. straight romances are always laziest because it’s the ‘norm’ so that equates to chem) #and also it was marketed as having plot when rlly the ‘plot’ was trying to put these characters in weird chemistry-less situations together #so yeah i’ll complain abt the villains being jealous shallow archetypes when it could’ve had depth. #i’ll complain abt a lot. but in the end it’s a silly basic ya romance series that isn’t anything unique #most unique stories will not be found on booktok. i’m sorry #i can show you the beautiful world of horror novels though! #or weird lil 80s fantasy novels that are actually quite long that my dad likes showing me #truly no romance novel will be better than the darkangel trilogy though.. that is what stephanie wanted to write. #but that’s lightning in a bottle ithink. #okay anyway. good night. i worked a long day and i have appts in the morning

[willowfey]

someone tell me to be brave and hit send on this email

#i wrote a story a long time ago that feels like it came from behind my ribs #and i’m about to send it to my author/publisher auntie #but. i’ve only let like. a few people in the world read this. and even tho they’ve all been lovely it makes my skin feel #too sensitive. u know what i mean? when ppl read my writing that isn’t fic. it makes my chest feel weird. like i’m sick #i don’t know why i want to be an author. well. yes i do but #anyway this is an auntie who has always thought the best of me even when she had no reason to. she was there at my birth #she’ll be there when I’M having kids. this is an Important Lady. #and she’s a wonderful writer and i just. #i never show anyone anything i’ve made or done bc i can’t bear the thought of being disappointing #i know it’s not a big deal but it is to me and if she tells me it’s just okay i think i’ll throw up possibly #i don’t want to prove her wrong. i don’t want to face the truth that i am not what she thought i’d be. #i know it’s just one little story and it doesn’t hold my entire worth i KNOW she will not be disappointed in me. so why can’t i hit send #WHY CANT I

[urgothgfsbeltchain]

“i’ve been loved before,

but right now, in this moment,

i feel more and more like i was made for you.”

#billie eilish #haileys comet #happier than ever #Spotify #I love billie am #Like okay Queen do your thing #I wonder what she thinks about in general #like does she think profoundly on the universe or does she just wonder what vegan burrioto meat is made of #she probably knows tbh but I’m not sure #apparently vegan foods are a lot more processed which makes sense #but idk I will devour that vegan whopper like no tomorrow #bringing up that fact #vegan fish exists #it supposedly is made with tapioca starch and seaweed glucose and contains plant based omega 3 oils #Thats pretty cool idk #I want an ice cream #like a Carmel one #I think that protein is just a lie tbh #i as a via het white man confirm this #so therefore my opinion is much more superior than anyone else’s #when I was a young buy a human cow confided in me and made feel safe #but just like every other human cow he made me suck on his utters #I am forever traumatised #and yes I said HIS utters #What you don’t think that trans cows exist????? #shame on you #hashtag human cow lives are real

[deityofhearts]

y’all know how you follow really cool ppl and it’s like “wow you’re so cool I hope you never follow me/we don’t become mutuals because you’d find out i am entirely uncool and unhinged”

#deity dialogue #beaming ‘please don’t scroll through my blog I am very mentally ill on main’ at the cool butch person I follow who has been in my notes #because I’m p sure that one of my beloved mutuals who is already aware I’m a pathetic puddle of a person is mutuals with them #but yeah it’s like. if people I find cool follow me or check out my blog I live in utter fear of them going ‘oh they’re like actually sad a #goodbye forever’ ahdjfjtkt #idk how sad and weird it is to admit that every day I sit here and wonder if a beloved mutual is finally gonna go ‘okay I’ve had enough of #fae’ and unfollow me #this is also why I take a while to follow ppl back because I need to see if I’ve scared ppl off yet #I keep saying I plan to be less unwell on main #rn I’m getting back into tagging my sad posts (divine despair if you don’t know is the tag to block) #tbh I’m also just trying to make this year better but god I am so sad all the time the despair is like Bad #but today was good! so no super sad posts!! #hhhhh what am I even talking abouttttt #anyways shout out to my beloved friends and mutual ilyyy hiii if you read this far wow #actually does anyone read my tags because I talk so much like I’m incapable of shutting up (it’s terminal I fear) #<- the words of someone who is aware they talk so much and hates it and has had people try to silence them (my family also hates that I tal #a lot and use to bribe me into shutting up) #I must shut up now goodbye #see this is why cool people can’t follow me like