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holylulusworld · 5 years

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Wrong all over again

Summary: It’s just wrong…but at the same time so good. But all the wrong things have their consequences.

Paring: Bucky Barnes x Reader, Steve Rogers x Reader, Tony Stark, Natasha Romanoff, Nick Fury, Bruce Banner

Warnings: angst, comforting, pregnant reader, bad use of Russian language (don’t sue me)

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“I want to see my agent! If she really is pregnant you can’t keep her locked away in a goddamn cell! She deserves better, Stark.” Fury yells.

“She’s not in a cell, Nick. We prepared a room we can lock up. She’s comfortable and safe but so far Y/N won’t let anyone get close to her except Bruce. She let him do his medical examinations but nothing more. Y/N barely eats, and she doesn’t react to anyone. I’m really worried about her condition and the babies.”

“Did these two try to talk to her?” Nick asks eying Tony suspiciously.

“Honestly, I didn’t tell Steve or James about her pregnancy so far. I got no clue what kind of sick relationship these three have, or not have. This is all so fucked up, Nick. I want to help her, I really want to, but I don’t know how. I called a therapist but Y/N refuses to talk to her either. I tried, Bruce tried, hell even Thor tried to talk to her but she just stares at the wall or rocks back and forth.”

“What about Agent Romanoff or Miss Maximoff? Maybe they can make her talk? Natasha is her best friend, and as far as I know, the only person standing by my agents’ side, unconditionally.”

“Natasha is not allowed to access the medical area. She’s under probation, just like Wanda, Director Fury. I know you want your agent back, but she tried to harm Captain America himself. I can understand her feelings, but her actions could result in more than simply incurring penalties…”

“Fuck your probation. My agent needs help so let Agent Romanoff talk to her right now! Maybe she can help her in her current state of mind. You said Agent Y/L/N is pregnant, Stark. Do you want her to lose the babies? Captain America’s baby? I don’t think he would be amused hearing you caused a miscarriage by not letting Agent Romanoff help her friend.” Nick says narrowing his eyes.

“Fine, under one condition. Agent Y/L/N stays here till we know she’s no danger to Captain Rogers and Sergeant Barnes any longer. If you agree to this condition I will allow Natasha to talk to her friend.” Tony insists.

“If you can guarantee your men are going to stay away from my agent I’m okay with this solution, Stark.”

“I can’t promise they stay away, especially if they get to know Y/N is pregnant, but I make sure they will not harm her in any way. I know this whole situation is a mess, I wish it would be different, but we have to deal with it as soon as possible.”

“Good. If she doesn’t feel comfortable or safe I will take her with me without your consent if I must, Stark. Believe me, I have my ways to get her out of the building.”

“This won’t be necessary. I’ll get Nat and we meet in the medical area.”

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Rocking back and forth with wide eyes you clutch your hands to your stomach. Pregnant…you are pregnant of both men…the men breaking your heart, the men destroying your life.

What can you do? What shall you do? You need to get rid of these parasites inside of you.

Your body starts trembling while you continue to rock back and forth. There must be a way out.

The door is locked but everyone coming in has a keycard. If you can get one you could run away and get rid of these things inside of you.

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“She’s pregnant of both of us? Why didn’t you tell us sooner, Tony? How could you hide this from us? Worse enough you didn’t allow us to see her for over three weeks by now!” Steve yells watching you on the monitor.

“We got to know yesterday, Cap. Bruce was doing some examinations; he did a blood test too and found out she’s pregnant. He did a paternity test and you are both fathers of one of her babies. She didn’t take it well as you can see. I got no clue how to help her.” Tony says.

“I need to talk to her right now. Let me into the room and I will make her talk to me. I can do this.” Steve tries but Bruce shakes his head.

“She’s too vulnerable right now. Every new agitation could let her lash out even more. She could try to harm herself and the babies. I heard her crying the whole night, Steve. Give her a bit of space. This is all too much. Y/N is close to a mental breakdown.” Bruce explains and Fury’s eyes widen.

“Fuck. Let me try, Stevie. I got a connection with her, she will talk to me.” Bucky pleas watching you starting to shake and cry. “I need to help her.”

“None of you will touch her, or even talk to her. You did enough over the last four years. This is all your doing. You can’t tell me you didn’t force yourself on her.” Natasha grunts looking at Fury.

“Agent Romanoff, I’m counting on you. Bring me, my agent, back. She has to decide what to do about her…condition. Y/N and no one else.” Nick says and Steve’s eyes widen.

“These are my babies…she can’t just…no way…”

“One is mine…she will never kill my baby.” Bucky gasps not taking his eyes off you.

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“Y/N? Y/N, it’s me, Natasha.” Your friend says softly, and you stare up at her. Tears well up your eyes while you try to tell her what happened.

“I…Bruce…I….”

“I know, любимый (darling), let me help you. Let me make it right. Do you want to keep the babies, or shall I tell Tony we need someone to help you?” Natasha asks softly.

“I don’t…I can’t… they will destroy the baby’s life too.” You desperately cry. “They better never get the chance to hurt the babies.” You sob.

“So, you don’t want to keep them?”

“I don’t know what to do…I know nothing at all…nothing. I’m all alone and I don’t know what to do.” Starting to shake you let Natasha hug you.

When she starts whispering something in your ear your eyes widen. A sob escapes your lips as you start talking to tell her about your plan.

“My little ‘матрёшка‘ (matryoshka),” Nat says and you know she is all in.

“I don’t know what to do…I…can someone tell me what to do?” You sob.

“Do you want to see one of them? Steve maybe?” Natasha asks and you play along.

“I don’t think he wants to see me, Natasha. He’s got no access to this area either. I’m sure he wants me to rot in a cell for what I did to him and his friend.” You whisper.

“I can ask Tony to give Steve one of the keycards to enter the room anytime.” Your friend says smiling and you nod shyly.

“Okay.“

”How about a book to read? I was reading ‘рассве́т‘ (dawn), do you want me to bring it to you?” Nat ask and you smile at her.

“Please.”

“Don’t worry, Y/N. Everything is going to be alright, no one will hurt you again. I’ll ask Steve if he can come in.”

“Hmm…you’re a good friend, the best Natasha. I only trust you.” You whisper.

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“Why does she want to see Steve and not me?” Bucky mutters watching Steve taking the keycard to open the door. Stuffing it into the pocket in his dress shirt he looks at you sitting on the cold floor.

Seeing the tall Avenger entering the room your body tenses. You know you need to play along so you take deep breathes to calm your nerves. You need to get out of here. Need to get away from the nightmare you call your life.

“Y/N, can we talk?” Steve asks unusual softly.

“I…”

“You don’t have to talk if you don’t want to, Baby. I’m sorry for…well…how we made our baby but give me the chance to make things right. I never wanted to hurt you. Please don’t take my baby away from me. Gives us a chance.”

Sniffling you try to get up from the floor, but you fail. Seeing your helplessness Steve carefully picks you up and you lean your head against his chest and place your hand onto his heart.

“Can we talk tomorrow? I’m so tired, Steve.” You whisper sleepily.

“I will come back tomorrow, Y/N. Do you want to see Bucky too?” Steve asks placing you onto the bed. His hand gently moves your hair out of your face as he waits for your answer.

“Okay, we need to talk about the babies.” You whisper and Steve smiles at you.

“I’ll come back tomorrow with Bucky and we can talk things out. You should sleep now, Baby. Sleep and we will make it right. No one will hurt you. I love you, Y/N.”

“Hmm…”

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The moment you see everyone leaving, you smile to yourself. Clutching the stolen keycard to your chest you wait for the lights to go out.

You will not sleep, you can’t sleep, Nat will wait for you with your things to help you escape…dawn...you only have to wait till dawn...

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Running toward the secret meeting point you can see Natasha waiting for you. Smiling at you she nods, and you hug her tight.

“Are you sure you won’t get into trouble?” You ask.

“You stole Steve’s key card, not mine.” Natasha chuckles. “I got a ticket to France, enough money and a new passport for you. I have an addressee of a friend for your other problem too. Just call her when you are there, and she will help you.”

“Thank you, for your help. I wish I didn’t have to say goodbye, but I can’t stay here and let those two destroy my life even more. Tell Fury I’m sorry. The password to my projects is ‘sunrise thunderstorm’. He deserves to have access to my inventions.

Watching you leave her life breaks Natasha’s heart. She can’t make you stay but losing the only true friend she ever had hurts more than she thought possible.

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Ready for boarding you nervously look around the airport. Your heart is beating so fast it might jump out of your chest, so you need something to concentrate on to remain calm.

Looking at your passport again you see the piece of paper with the addressee and number of Natasha’s friend.

Your hand slips down to your stomach and you take a deep breath.

A smile on your face you handle the boarding crew your ticket to enter the airplane.

The piece of paper lies abandoned on the floor.

You can finally start a new life without Steve and Bucky so you will do it to your own conditions…

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amndntchpr · 6 years

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Unpopular opinion (the 100 edition) : on why we shouldn’t hate S3 Bellamy this much.

Clickbait title ? Maybe. Most titles are after all. But honestly though, in the days coming to the S5 premiere I’ve been rewatching every episode, once a day, and I’m now towards the end of season 3.

Having already seen the series at least once, knowing what happens in S3 and later in S4, I wanted to give a very special attention to Bellamy’s character, because I remember how hated he was for everything he did in S3, and I know I hated him too. Now, I’m not pretending to be a psychiatrist, or a TV show critic. This is just my own opinion, on why Bellamy did what he did.

First, we have to go back to the season 2 finale. Last episode, we all remember that Clarke was left with no other choice to save her people than pulling that lever and irradiating every single person in Mt Weather (yes Jasper, maybe you could’ve killed the president, but there were no guarantee that you could do it or that it would change anything...). Anyway, we tend to vividly remember Clarke pulling that lever, because she had the idea first, and because she then chose to leave camp for months. And as heartbreaking as it must’ve been for Clarke, we shouldn't forget that there was a hand above Clarke’s on that lever. Bellamy’s. Together. Yes, it’s sweet, it means he supports her etc etc, it’s been a great fuel for Bellarke shippers ever since (which I am). But more than that, it meant that he took on a part of this burden, and that they shared the responsibility and the guilt, together. That they could face the consequences, if they stick together in what was next. And in that sense, Clarke leaving camp at the end of season 2 felt like a first treason for Bellamy. But he let her go and didn’t blame her, because he understood she needed time alone. And after that moment, it’s like Bellamy came up with a sort of mantra ‘I will not let anyone else I care about die if I have the means to save them’. Remember that, because this will become of increasing importance in the season to come.

Back to season 3. The season starts with 2 episodes where Bellamy is more than willing (I’d say pretty desperate) to find Clarke, and her running for her life. He finally finds her, and the hard past few months seem to be past them. But they are separated, Bellamy is hurt and has to return to camp, and Clarke is taken by Roan to Lexa in Polis.

Now, this in itself was a setback and felt like a failure for Bellamy. He promised himself that he would protect his people, and failing Clarke, who was perhaps the most important of his people (for him and for the rest of Skaikru) was hard. But he went back to camp, to heal. Remember that in ep 3, when they arrived to Mt Weather and he saw Pike and all of Farm station comfortably settled, he wasn’t happy about it. Same episode, this is where it all goes to shit. He receives word of a threat for Echo, leaves Gina at Mt Weather and speeds to Polis to once again save Clarke, Kane, Abby, everyone at the summit. But of course, it was a set up, and he was betrayed. That hurt. Seconds later, he finds out that everyone but Raven & Sinclair, including his girlfriend (given we didn’t really have time to care about her, but she must’ve meant a lot to him) had been blown up at Mt Weather. And from here on : rage, guilt, despair, all over again. He couldn't save his people. And then, when he asks Clarke to come back to her people, the only think that could help him, and everyone at camp, she refuses and choses to stay with Lexa. Now, I love Clarke, I think she’s a great leader who does and takes on a lot to save her people. She probably thought that staying behind in Polis was what was best for her people, but I personally think that’s one of the biggest mistake she ever made. Had she gone back to Arkadia, I think that A. Pike would’ve never been elected chancellor, and B. Bellamy wouldn’t have joined the dark side. But that’s just speculation. For him, it was more than jealousy or that he missed Clarke, it was that when he needed her the most, but the whole camp needed her to come back, she refused, and that hurt him.

So from that point on, it was bad decision after bad decision. And I’m not trying to fully excuse what he did, because massacring an army of 300 ppl, all the more when they were sent to protect you, is never okay. But I will try to maybe explain why he made these choices, which can be considered quite out of character, reason why it shocked us all. If you look closely at every scene of Bellamy in these 5 episodes or so (yes, only 5 episodes where he was a dick ! Not the whole season !), like I did, you will see that everything he does, more than acting in revenge or spite, he does because he genuinely thinks it’ll save some people. He’s wrong, obviously, but we are omniscient viewers while he’s just a heart-broken skaikru member, who has already been betrayed by Lexa and hasn’t forgotten it ! And on that note enters that royal SOB, Pike. Let’s face it, the dude was sketchy from the start. Okay, he and the farm station had pretty bad first encounter with the grounders when they first landed, but for a teacher, he was surprisingly stubborn and incapable of learning and broadening his horizons... That’s one thing we can all agree on, Pike was an asshole.

And after that, it’s like Pike poisoned everyone of Bellamy’s thoughts, giving him a false sense that he would protect their people in a way that Abby and Kane wouldn’t be able to. That he was willing to do what was necessary to keep safe. And I might be repeating myself here, but that’s all Bellamy has ever wanted. Even while under the influence of Pike, he’s often the only one that we see contesting (often before yielding though) Pike’s ideas when he deems them too harsh or violent. But Pike always had the right word to reassure him, and convince that his way was the best. Bellamy wanted to spare the wounded on the battlefield, he convinced Pike to spare Indra, he argued when they wanted to wipe out that grounders village to make some plantations. Not saying that excuses all the rest, but Bellamy was never truly gone or just brainwashed, he was aware of every decision he made, but made them anyway because he thought it best.

And maybe that’s just Bob’s acting abilities, but watching closely all of these scenes, you could see that he wasn't happy about the decisions he made. But it’s that role of protector, first with his sister, then the 100 that he shared with Clarke, that all of his people, that lead him to a dark path. With Clarke gone, and having to assume this role on his own, the measures he took had to be extreme. No time to grieve, a whole lot of people that he couldn’t let die, and a manipulative, backstabbing mother-f****r that what whispering in his ear. That’s all it took. It’s a shame, it really is, but it came from good intentions (and pain).

Fortunately, he (along with Monty, who I feel was somehow instantly forgiven even though A. he armed the system that killed everyone in Mt Weather and B. he also worked for Pike ?) came back to his senses when Pike ordered the execution of Kane. It was then he realized he’d taken things too far. Kane has been nothing less than extraordinary the whole of season 3, and I so wish he could’ve come through with Bellamy earlier. These two have a special relationship, almost paternal, based on advice and respect (mostly), and it was something Bellamy just couldn’t let happen. Because he cared for Kane, but also because it was against the one thing he was trying to achieve : keeping everyone safe. After that, we all know how it went, he tried to act to save Kane, Sinclair, and Lincoln, couldn’t save Lincoln, was blamed for his death (understandably) and felt mostly guilty and terrible for the rest of season 3.

He had lost his sister, lost the respect of many people including possibly Kane and most people of Arkadia, lost himself. He had tried to take matters into his own hands, and had failed, by trusting the wrong person, and in doing so influencing a lot of people to trust Pike. I do believe that, were it not for Clarke showing him that she personally forgave him and still trusted him, he would’ve been lost. A bit late for the Clarke wise speech perhaps, but it shows that her opinion is invaluable to him, and that he’s not inherently bad, just lost. Anyways, I think we saw in season 4 that he’s still a good guy, and I’m glad that I got to rewatch these episodes, it showed me than there was more to his story and it showed me a new depth of the character.

#the 100 #the 100 season 3 #bellamy blake #clarke griffin

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