#drawing mello reminds me of all of them

[craetor]

They always have the most shippable relations with their boy best friend and/or rival too

#drawing mello reminds me of all of them #character meme #promare #lio fotia #death note #mello #banana fish #ash linx #ash lynx #yuri on ice #yuri plisetsky #galolio #meronia #mellonear #asheiji #otayuri

[jessaerys]

your fav mello/near fics??? thank yeww (also love your drawings!)

oohh this reminds me i should pick up my ff.net archival reclist project up again...

it is of note that it's been a looooong while since i've combed the archives and there's a couple of common tropes i don't usually read due to personal taste, so i'm sure there's a lot of good fic i'm unaware of and/or forgetting about! this has totally renewed my interest in making a comprehensive personal reclist >:) perhaps i'll come back and edit this post every now and then.

i owe comments to nearly everyone mentioned here i am SO sorry. it's a lost skill that i am working on developing again. at the very least i've got everyone in one place so i can go down the list this year. i encourage everyone reading from this reclist to leave a comment too!

i wrote "off the top of my head" but this got VERY long so under the readmore it goes

obligatory classics

• the famous @tierfal 's sidetracked (2010) and full of surprises (2009). rated e and m respectively. these are like the allegorical little black dress in the wardrobe of the platonic ideal of the mellonear oneshot. seem to be pretty well known across the ship fandom • stripped (2009) by blueberryash/@tka-trashfire on tumblr. explicit. i haven't read this in a while but i remember it capturing the delicate gossamer tension of the ship in a way that was sooo bittersweet and nostalgic. • to speak of rules and privilege (2008) also by blueberryash/@tka-trashfire, gen, a manifesto on tenderness, soooooooooo soft, changed the game, near being afraid of thunderstorms was immediately adopted into personal canon. big time influence for the way i write near and mello's pre-canon relationship re: big brother, little brother. • an understanding (2008) by blueberryash/@tka-trashfire, rated T, short and sweet, razor sharp prose, the aesthetics of the little piece live rent free in my head. • dual(2011) by ramasi, @ramasi here i believe. rated m. historians say this might be one of the first examples of mellonear choking kink ever recorded,

•scarification (2012) by gacrux11 on fanfiction.net, rated m, big time dead dove do not eat. sorry this one leans early 2010s era grimdark melodrama but i love it sjkdfkjfd. not enough dead dove fics about the boys if u ask me. • salt in the wound (2007) •tempus fugit (2007), and • white out (2006) by vaudevillain king on fanfiction. net. a beloved rare find. all of them are rather grimdark edgy products of their era, but some of the best the era had to offer. they make me so nostalgic for my teenagehood on fanfiction.net. i get the impression these might've been written even before death note was finished? • birthday smut (2009) by kleine_aster on livejournal. explicit. this one is SO funny to me because it is both really, really good, very in character, but unfortunately it suffers from almost satirical misogyny that afflicted fujoshis back in the day. near literally is like oh that bitch... like. he would not fucking think that but i can edit quickly in my brain as i read. bisexual mello rights! otherwise really sexy imo. i might be writing something that's kind of in conversation with this fic.

RARE finds

(please tell me if you enjoy any of these, i want to feel like an explorer that's brought back treasures from far away lands)

contemporary favorites:

• you've heard about it before and you will hear about it again: the archer ensnared (2023) by jabbernatty, rated e. a jessaerys obligatory syllabus read, the fic that made me go fulltime yaoi disease. i owe so much to jabbernatty they are my white whale my friend my enemy the writer i've psychically imprinted on from the beginning. honestly too scared to even leave a comment given the jessarys archer ensnared lore. may one day may contact and pray i don't come across as insane • postmortem (2023) by the_hemlock true gen, a favorite of ALL time. it's only tangentially mn really, it is 99% about near trying to piece together the mystery of lawlight post-canon, but the characterization and prose are some of if not the best i've ever come across. reads like it could be a piece of canon material. if you only read one fic on this list i'd pick postmortem. • it's friday i'm in love by neallo/@neallo rated m. possibly my all time fave in the neallo cinematic universe. something about the after-hours longing and the standing in the kitchen by the refrigerator lights, as the poets say. i love when stories feel like you're cutting out a window to peer into a larger universe that is just out of reach. perfectly captures what it is like to have a maddening crush • i want to hold you (hostage)(2023) by neallo/@neallo rated e. thee defining fic of this current modern mellonear era. manages to walk the line of kinky/sexy/sweet/fluffy all at once. plot twist of the century in the last chapter. near is properly as bananas insane as mello is in this fic, which is the marker of a good mellonear dynamic. really everything by morgan neallo is a safe bet for a great read • there's nothing i want but you (2023) by neallo/@neallo rated t. wammy's era mellonear obsessiveness that is soooo teenagery and yet a portent of just how codependent they might one day get. cute and ominous. • armageddon/kill game (2024) by bolide/@bolide-archive came out of nowhere a couple of months ago and ascended to the top of the game like a dark horse. rated m, chess au. one of my favorite interior mello narrations and one of the most similar to my own interpretation. such naturally talented prose. i rotate lines from this in my head all the time. still in progress but i have faith that it will be completed :') • how to burn down the sacred loom (2023) by dornishviper/@vriskarlmarx a contemporary CLASSIC. the less you know going in the better. beautiful prose, beautiful structure. they don't make fic like this anymore • the house always wins (2023) by mer_curia/@vivi-scera. screaming with my mouth closed. holds a special place in my heart given that it is my posting that convinced vi to give the ship a try, and i was rewarded with a fic that is so catered to my tastes i honestly had to read it through my fingers. SO good, the manifesto on wammyscest, so rather controversial. heed the warnings. • moonlight (2023) by tsukinousagi/@quicktimeeventfull rated t. an austere, cold little glimpse into a vampire au. it's giving let the right one in. so melancholic. one of the saddest near examinations out there. •proximity tells (2018) by abysmallypresent, rated m. truly lives up to death note's second-by-second minutia while managing to keep up the tension the entire time. great characterization. •silhouettes (2015) by bad blood/eroticcodependence, @wxmmyshouse on tumblr. unrated, post-canon compliant. made me CRY! elegantly short and simple, bittersweet and so so wistful. •arsonist's lullabye (2023) by tzviaariella/@tzviaariella. rated t. this one has a heart-wrenching air of realism to it that exists outside the chaotic universe of death note, one of those examinations of picking up the pieces after the titans have all gone away. very bittersweet.

honorary mentions

• let's die somewhere prettier (2020) by firesafinething also one of my absolute favorites, unfortunately it is discontinued and it is likely it will never be completed. sad! the premise seemed SO promising. in my mind i file it right next to postmortem mentioned above. the exploration of the tragedy of 27 year old near we could have had in a better timeline. one day i will leave a comment so good maybe it will bring back the fic from the land of the dead • august underground by me & @firebuggg rated e, in progress. >:) (shamless self promo)

#death note #meronia #mello dn #near dn #mihael keehl #nate river #mello #near #fic recs #this took so long to compile dfkgjfdjkgfdjk

[valfeathers]

I would love your headcanons for all of the Wammy boys.

ok!! finally got around to it! sorry abt the wait lol

ok so i’m going to condense these & limit myself for now,, but anyways here’s a little something abt each of the boys

there's more art at the very bottom of this text btw :)

(consulting my wammy boy google doc)

A -

he was the in-house music/pop culture expert. if you needed a music recommendation you could go to him and he'd definitely find you something.

he was a master violinist, but after being scouted for wammy's he set his sights on the guitar and spent years learning how to play. his fingers were pretty much always calloused because he kept losing his picks.

he never lost his irish accent.

B -

he was the reigning king of pranks. never turn your back on him, i mean it, he will hotwire your car to roll down a hill (true story, ask roger)

the thing that set him apart at wammy's the most was the fact that he would just. get the mop out. sometimes. it wasn't unusual to spot him cleaning something unprompted. clean freak b? clean freak b.

after A died, he didn't stay long. he couldn't stand to be under the same roof as L, and for the short while he was still in the house he moved around like a ghost, seething with just. grief and anger. he left without a word, or a note, or any sort of message at all.

L- (for everybody's sake i'll keep this one short)

he's been to his fair share of concerts, shows etc (i'm an 'L actually went out in public' truther till i die)

as teens, A & B helped him deck out his padded cell with posters etc to liven it up, and he never took them down. over time he converted it into a ragtag office

he and roger are not friends. far from it. they so do not get along. L still calls him 'codger' occasionally and roger gets reminded of B every single time.

Matt-

he cuts & dyes his own hair, and he definitely got into stick n pokes (+ bonus: the first time he bleached his hair, he had mello help him & the two geniuses forgot to use toner, so he wound up ginger. everything worked out, though, because he wanted to dye his hair red anyways)

he used to creep downstairs at ungodly hours and raid the newly stocked dining hall for cereal. he has run into L multiple times doing this.

he gives me 'broke his arm as a kid and had to wear a cast' vibes. i can't explain it, that hc just calls to me.

Mello-

like L, he got into his fair share of scraps as a kid. they've bonded over that. (+bonus: he has bitten someone before)

he was fiercely protective of matt & near when he was younger in an 'only i can bully them' kind of way that is so common with siblings.

labb gives me an excuse to imagine him as a big reader so that's what i'm doing! he read the classics as a kid & he wrote in his off time too,, he has dozens of journals that will never see the light of day.

Near-

he arrived at wammy's very young, he was actually the youngest wammy alumni on record.

i haven't gotten the opportunity to draw him with it yet, but i hc him as a cane user! a cane that linda customized for him at L's request. (from now on i Will include it in all of my near art istg)

out of the successor trio, he's the only person who was around when A was alive. he has one vague memory of A, that being A giving him a tiny wordless wave.

thank youu thankyouthankyou if you made it this far omg!! this took me a while but it was fun! have some domestic-y family-y wammy boy art to rest ur eyes after that little novella

#wammy boys #death note #this fucking GOLIATH of a post wowie #l lawliet #a death note #beyond birthday #mihael keehl #mail jeevas #nate river #the love i feel for them is so so strong #anyways i hope this was worth the wait!! #death note hcs #v wammyposting #death note fanart #this will not be the last time i talk abt these sillys #wammys hyperfixation going strong

[zimthandmade]

I’m a little late but…Happy birthday to our boi Mello! Was yesterday lol SO…Question. 

Does M&M (Matt&Mello) feel jealousy of each other? I mean, Matt did say in canon that he finds Misa hot and Mello did have a toxic obsession on getting the upper hand with Near every time he layed eyes on him (don’t know if this aspect of their relationship is in your headcanon’s but I saw they had fights when they’re kids in one of your posts sooo idk). Sorry if I misspelled something here, just minor curiosity, english isn’t my first language but I love the way u draw the Wammy’s kids and ur headcanons!

The short version is: Oh yeah, Mello is jealous on main. As friend AND lover. Matt is a lot more chill about it.

Here’s some scenarios I can see play out in both 2.0 and 2.1, if you feel like reading:

2.0

Neither at Wammy’s nor in L.A., they both don’t have many friends for different reasons. Matt is a loudmouth, Mello has attitudes. Let’s just say they’re both pretty unpleasant to have around most of the time if you’re not in on their humour. At Wammy’s, Matt one time bonds with some kids over video games or something and Mello instantly tries to intervene, being afraid they’re stealing his only friend. Mello keeps interrupting, trying to steal the show, talks down on everything Matt seems to have a shared passion with the other kid and he’s being such a nasty wanker until Matt’s had enough and fists start flying. “I CAN BE FRIENDS WITH OTHER PEOPLE TOO, YOU KNOW?! GIMME A BREAK!” “BUT I ONLY HAVE YOU!!” ”THAT’S NOT MY PROBLEM, MELLO! YOU’D HAVE OTHER FRIENDS TOO IF YOU STOPPED BEING A PISSPOT EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE!” They avoid each other as much as possible the next days. Matt hangs around at his new friend group while Mello is just bitterly watching them from afar. Maybe he actually makes the efford to talk to other people out of desparation? Matt enjoys the new company for 2 days before he gets bored. The conversations are dull, nobody laughs at his brilliant jokes and they openly gossip about Mello. He hears rumors about him that he would rather not have heard and he starts to feel sorry for him. But he doesn't want to apologise either - Mello was clearly being a prick earlier. I don’t think Mello ever apologises, things just fall back in place someday. I can see them sitting in class - Matt with his new buddies at the front, Mello at the back, but within earshot. And Matt makes some insanely stupid comment, some joke NOBODY laughs about. He hears a chuckle behind him. Matt turns around, Mello grins at him, Matt grins back. And that's it.

Another time at Wammy’s, Mello gets an enormous bottle of the most balkan aftershave you can think of (what the fuck, Nikola, the boy is like 13 or something) for his birthday. Matt unknowingly mistakes the stuff for some really expensive shampoo or something and empties the whole thing on himself thinking “It burns like a buttcheek on a stick, that means: it works.”. It’s all croatian on the bottle, so he can’t read anything anyways. The shower can’t be used for over a week because of the stench. Ivanka (Mellos mom) is over for a visit a day after and comments on how Matt reminds her of Nikola and she gets overly sentimental and touchy with Matt. Nothing perverted happening but it’s just the whole vibe of this visit is OFF, everyone is so uncomfortable. Once Ivanka is gone, Mellos slams the door shut “You wanker, you did that on purpose, didn’t you?!” ”’scuse me??” Another fight breaks out, Mello punches first. ”-JUST BECAUSE YOU NEVER HAD A MOM DOESN’T MEAN YOU CAN THROW YOURSELF AT MINE!!” ””THROW MYSELF AT—” WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU IMPLYING MELLO?!” Again, they don’t talk for a few days after that. But this time, Mello apologises. ”Hey man, I overreacted earlier-” “-greatly, yeah.” “Yeah. Sorry. I mean, nobody wants to smell like that voluntarily, am I right? Are we cool again?” ”Sure.”

2.1

I headcanon that Matt works in all kinds of different jobs, like, as a cashier at a GameStop, at Walmart, Starbucks, maybe even something like an IT guy or a software developer at small tech companies … just some stuff on the side while Mello is doing “the more important stuff” - they’re still working towards the whole “catch Kira”-mission after all. Mello sometimes stops by at wherever Matt works at the moment and sees him interacting with female coworkers or trying to unsuccessfully flirt with customers. Especially when Mello starts crushing on Matt, seeing this play out makes him feel like throwing up. It’s one of the tell tale signs for him to realise he feels more for Matt than friendship. I can see him downright interrogating Matt about who his regular contacts are, all under the pretense that they “mustn’t lose cover, can’t reveal their identity” and he pressures Matt into not getting too close to anyone.

I can see this play the other way around too though, when Matt is crushing on Mello. Mello showing up at Matts workplace, with a biker look, you know, cool ass leather jacket, helmet under one arm, whipping his hair back, looking SLEEK AS FUCK, only thing missing are the guitar riffs playing in the background as he enters the store. He asks the girl behind the counter if Matt is here and without taking her eyes off Mello shouts a “MAAAAATT-” “huh?!” “THERE’S SOMEONE HERE FOR YOU” Matt comes stumbling out from some backrooms and has the widest smile when he sees who’s here. And the girl watches them outside through a window talking, eyeing Mello respectfully. Matt comes back in and she goes “Matt, who was that??” “My roommate - why?” “OOHH Is he taken?” “Uhm, I don’t think so…?” “Nice. Can you, like, invite me over sometime??” “What, why??” “That guy is HOT.” And Matt feels the jealously well up and his mind starts racing, picturing Mello with this girl in various situations and him being the miserable third wheel. The girl notices Matts reserved reaction and goes “OH WAIT, NO- YOUR “ROOMMATE”?? Are you two…?” “NO NO It’s not like that! We’re just- just friends…”

And yeah the thing with Misa haha Notice how they start with Matt following Misa and after hearing his comments about how Matt thinks she’s cute, Mello is promptly taking the job on listening in to her? And Mello refusing to switch despite Matt asking for it? He is 100% mocking Mello with the whole “your job would be better since you can listen to a cute girl”. He knows Mello is jealous and tries to mess with him a little. At least that’s my interpretation wearing heavily mellodramattically tainted glasses.

#ask #death note #dn au 2.0 #dn au 2.1 #headcanon #au #mello #matt #mihael keehl #mail jeevas #wammys boys #wammys house #wammy boys #wammy kids #wammy's house

[13eyond13]

My mind's drawing blanks for the ask thingy but UHMMM UHHMMM do you...want to talk about Death Note? Can I have your thoughts on your least favorite character and why you dislike them AND OR your favorite character? ♥

Hello hello again ♡ thank you ever so much for sending me an ask, ofc I always am delighted to talk about Death Note, even if I have been here flapping my lips so long about it that I probably have repeated myself one gazillion times over the years 👀

LEAST FAVES:

I honestly don't dislike any of the Death Note cast too intensely. At least not compared to some other series that have characters that severely get under my skin! BUT if I had to pick the top three that maybe do the least for me personally on a regular basis, I would say:

• Rem - love her design and her concept, but find the writing behind her character is often both confusing and disappointing (her devotion to Misa doesn't always make a ton of sense to me. Nor do the times she suddenly changes her mind about some of the things that she strongly believes and feels whenever it is convenient for the plot). Wish I cared about her more, because she plays such a pivotal role

• Mello - I don't know why his actions in this series bother me the most out of all of the characters (like clearly Light would technically have a much higher body count than he does), but I think it's because Mello is the most overtly physically aggressive one of the entire cast with the way he waves his gun around all willy-nilly and violently kidnaps a different girl on seemingly every other page. And I don't feel like we often get much deeper insight into his thoughts or emotions so that I can at least more clearly see where he's coming from, even despite not having much in common with him nor liking how he behaves

Mikami - there's nothing wrong with how he is written or anything along those lines, but I think he reminds me a bit too much of the extremely strictly religious and morally judgmental people that I spent so much of my childhood around and now find so very hard on the head. It's always been a bit difficult for me to ever warm up to him enough to get emotionally invested in shipping him or reading fics about him or anything else

FAVES:

• Light -(but I'm not going to do him the honour of writing up a list of reasons why, exactly what the bastard would want... let's just say that I think the series would basically be nothing without him)

And OTHERWISE my fave fictional character of all-time is definitely L! So let me just copy/paste you all my reasonings from another past ask about this below:

• L -It’s a bit tricky to articulate exactly why I enjoy him so much, and I think it’s complicated by the fact that I feel he’s sometimes overrated in the fandom and/or reduced to a lesser caricature of himself in basically every DN adaptation/spinoff out there. But manga!L is very entertaining to analyze for me because there’s always this intriguing duality and ambiguity about his personality and behaviour. Hmmm, let me try to explain… 

THE ODD DUALITY OF L:

HONEST vs DISHONEST- he’s clearly often deceptive and elusive about stuff, and yet there’s also this sense that he’s actually a very simple and bluntly straight-forward person much of the time, too. I have so much fun reading between the lines with his cryptic moods and so many of the unexpected things that he does and says from time to time. And I love that all the other characters around him are constantly doing the same with L, too. Their incredulous double-takes and suspicious side-eyeing of him always makes me lol

EGOTISTICAL vs HUMBLE - there are so many examples in the manga of moments where L is either slyly showing off or possibly being genuinely demure regarding impressive things about himself. It’s always so hard to tell the difference and it’s always 10/10

CORRUPT vs THE “GOOD GUY” - he’s super morally grey at all times, and I’m always drawn to those more complicated types. I’ve seen the fandom produce so many wildly different takes about his goodness and his evilness over time on both extreme ends of the scale, and I often find it difficult to strike the proper balance when talking about L as well. It’s very easy to characterize him as overly cruel and corrupt or overly noble and kind, and it’s always way more interesting to me when a character is that difficult to define

REFINED vs FERAL - L’s always daintily sipping tea cups in his luxury hotel suite while simultaneously barefoot crouching on the chair and scribbling all over the coffee table with a permanent marker. Everything about him is a bizarre combination of these two polar opposite traits, and yet it always seems to make sense completely whenever you think about it as well

AWKWARD/OBLIVIOUS vs SLY/MANIPULATIVE- always a fun question to ask yourself during L’s more questionable social interactions and shady decisions

KINKY vs TAME- he’s so weirdly suggestive and also extremely not at the same time, idk why but it works so well for his character and it’s just the funniest thing ever to me lol

OVERBEARING vs ALOOF- he’s somehow both incredibly nosy and overly involved and also very detached and distant from everyone simultaneously

LIVING THE DREAM vs TRAGIC, LONELY LIFE- I enjoy the depressing implications that can arise from contemplating his lonely existence and questionable past and the sad way his story ends… but that he’s also totally non-edgy and oddly goofy in some ways and seems to be having a great time doing exactly what he wants to be doing, too

I think all this ambiguity and constant tightrope-walking could easily become gimmicky and tiresome in a character, and yet it’s so well done and always makes sense and never annoys me in the least. L’s somehow both incredibly vague and incredibly precise and consistent as a character at the same time, which is pretty interesting and impressive to me. Light and the other characters in L’s orbit always seem to have the same questions about him as the audience does, and you never get concrete answers about any of it most of the time. There’s so much stuff left up to interpretation intentionally by O&O in Death Note, and I appreciate that enduring sense of mystery surrounding some of L’s true feelings and motives even long after he’s gone.

I also can’t overstate how much of L’s appeal is simply due to what an excellent foil and antagonist he is for Light. L is my favourite, but I think Light is by far the most interesting character and the whole reason the story is such a classic in the first place. The way L constantly thwarts Light and yet also spurs him on to show off and double down on his Kira shit is super entertaining to watch. You gotta respect how effectively L can push Light’s buttons and always keep him sweating, and you really get why Light seemingly both loves and hates their interactions so much. Light’s curiously positive emotional reactions to L and his enduring respect for him even after he dies is some of the most interesting stuff about the entire story to me, too. That definitely adds to L’s intrigue, as does the way the successors and the task force continue to muse about him long after he’s gone.

Overall I just think L is a highly entertaining and well-written and well-designed character, weirdly simple and complicated and funny and sad all at once, super relatable and a Constant Mood™ despite being so prickly and enigmatic, and a definite scene-stealer for me whenever he’s onscreen. I’m not really sure what pushes him to favourite of all time status for me?? But my lizard brain just seems to love him and has loved him for at least the past decade and a half. So at this point I must simply shrug and accept my fate

#rem #mello #mikami #light yagami #l lawliet #ask #vaidianathan #p #thx!

[rattyoakenbitch]

❝𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐠𝐨 𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐦𝐞❞ ─ 𝐦𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐨

hey, it's not like you ever tried to stay . .

❥ content ; gn reader, angst, dark themes, yandere themes, toxic relationship

❥ warnings ; sxlf hxrm & mxtilation, swearing, verbal abuse, manipulation, slight nxdity lol

❥ synopsis ; all you wanted was his attention. and by the gods, you were going to get his attention by any means.

❥ a/n ; first mello fic (: i've been wanting to write something dark for a while and ig i finally got the opportunity lol. i thought i got out of my death note stage but i'm back, so please don't be afraid to send requests or ask to be added to my nonexistent taglist! alsoo while this oneshot does include s/h, i am in no way glorifying or romanticizing it!!! but i do tend to write angsty and dark fics. again, this is a work of fiction and i don't intend for anyone to take this too seriously and let this influence them.

The loud crash of a glass echoed throughout the room as a vase went flying through the air and collided with the wall, just a few feet from where you were standing.

You didn't flinch. Didn't scream. Didn't cry. Didn't react. You were used to Mello's fits of rage by now, months into your relationship. If you could even call it that, at this point.

You knew Mello wouldn't dare lay a finger on you; if he did, he'd cut off his own hands and have live with the guilt forever, knowing he brought you harm. Which is why you didn't react.

However, he didn't seem to have a problem when it was only verbal.

"I don't fucking get you!" Mello spat harshly and continued to rant, "Why did you think that was okay?! Did you once consider how I felt?! I was worried sick that some asshole hurt you but you come back a day later and tell me you were at some boy's house!"

You only scoff, leaning against the wall in a relaxed manner, eyeing the remaining shards of the vase carefully. Just like Mello, you were incredibly stubborn.

"Answer me, Y/N!"

"Okay, Mihael," you state cooly, using Mello's legal name and causing him to listen more intently. "First of all, I don't know what you expected me to do when you invited your weird mafia 'friends' over while I was trying to sleep. Second, he's not 'some boy', his name is Y/F/N and he's one of a few people I can trust. I don't know what you think of me."

"You could've gotten a hotel room, that's what!"

"With what money, Mihael?! What fucking money? You forced me to quit my job and then practically lock me up in this hell hole that I can't even call 'home' anymore!"

Mello huffed. "Pfft, you should be grateful. I've kept you safe all this time, away from the dangers of the world. You're alive because of me. Me. You're mine."

"Yeah, some fucking life, right?"

"I provide for you, I protect you from the monsters out in the world, but you still decide to go and whore yourself out to your little 'friend'," Mello sneered, his sharp voice dripping with venom.

You stared at your boyfriend in disbelief. All words, all arguments and nasty retorts expiring on your lips.

"I.." You start, but laugh pitifully. "I don't even know what you're saying. I don't know if you even know what you're saying. Honestly, Mello, just when I thought you couldn't surprise me anymore, you start spewing complete and utter bullshit out of your mouth." Mello's silence only egged you on. "It's no wonder Near always came in first place." Aaand there it was. You snapped.

If looks could kill, you'd be dead. Mello's eyes widened in anger at the mention of Near, reminding him of his inferiority.

In a completely different situation where he wasn't on the receiving end, Mello would be smiling proudly, listening to your clever retorts and comebacks. You've always been as stubborn and hot headed as him, and he really liked that about you, fuck that "opposites attract" bullshit. (I ACC LOVE THAT TROPE LOL IM SORRY) However, considering you were both extremely toxic people, it was far from entertaining when it was you who got in a fight with the other.

You didn't stop, though. If he was gonna play that who-could-be-more-toxic game, you weren't gonna back down.

"I don't know if it was the explosion or you've really always been that stupid, but you need to get the fuck over yourself and stop throwing tantrums when you find out that I have a life, too, and I have friends. Friends who actually give a damn."

You stare down each other in silence, a heavy tension hanging in the air. Still, after a few moments, Mello didn't make any effort to speak or react, other than walking out of the room.

Days, weeks went by. Mello hasn't spoken a word to you. Hasn't even looked in your direction when you passed each other or walked into the same room. You didn't exist anymore, and it worried you.

Mello was never like this. Within a few days or even hours after an argument, you would easily kiss and make up. Had you gone too far this time?

Besides the fact that Mello was intentionally giving you the cold shoulder, he was also busy with work, and was out of the house from midnight to early afternoon. During that time, you would stay at home and carry out your every day mundane tasks and chores.

Even now, you didn't seek comfort in your family or friends. You were either busy keeping the house clean, sleeping, or entertaining yourself on social media. But it was all a sad attempt to keep your mind occupied on anything else other than Mello.

And one day like any other where Mello was out doing whatever the hell mafia dudes do, you snapped. You decided you were sick of the silent treatment.

If Mello was gonna play dirty and ignore you, you were gonna give him something to react to.

Mello came home some time after sunset. Kicking off his boots as he walked in the front door, he immediately knew something was off. It was quiet - too quiet. Despite the fact that you were practically taking some sort of forced break after the argument, you acted the same. You went about your day and didn't bother acting shy or timid around Mello. You still hummed earworm pop songs to yourself or put on a podcast to fill the tense air. But now there was nothing. Just Mello, the walls, and the silence.

Mello cautiously walked around the house and searched for any signs of you, fearing the worst.

As he frantically looked around, he stopped abruptly at the sight of blood smeared onto the hallway wall.

Blood.

His heartbeat began to thump loudly in his ears.

Then he noticed more blood. And more, smeared up on the wall, and eventually a trail picked up. He followed the bloody trail as it lead him through the hallway and stopped outside of your shared bedroom that he hasn't been inside for weeks.

Mello shakily inhaled and braced himself for whatever gruesome scene he would walk into.

He reached for the doorknob, twisting it and letting himself in.

Soon as he did, he ceased all motions, his breath caught in his throat as he tried to process what his eyes were showing him.

There, you sat on the bed, nothing on but your underwear and one of Mello's shirts. On one hand, you loosely held a pocket knife. On the other, you had your sleeve rolled up, your inner arm facing Mello's direction.

Your doe eyes looked up from the floor and met Mello's panicked ones. He was finally looking at you again. Despite the gorey setting and the stinging in your arm, you smiled. You were real to him again.

Multiple cuts oozed blood and trickled down your arm, onto your now dirtied clothes and the once satin white sheets below you.

As Mello got closer, silently freaking out, he could now see that these weren't just cuts - you carved out words. Sentences, onto your arm.

Among the many bloody 'I love you's' and pleads, one word stuck out to him.

It was his name.

He felt sick. Distraught. Guilty. Afraid.

"Y/N," he choked out shakily.

His gaze trailed up your arm, your body, and fixated onto your seemingly innocent face. Your face was rested and gentle, your eyes still staring up at him with adoration and desperation. If it weren't for the blood that painted your whole body and surroundings red, he would have found comfort in your presence.

"I did this.." You ran your fingers along your fresh wounds, not once wincing or drawing back in discomfort. "For you."

You continued, a sick sweetness in your voice. "Jus' wanted to show you how much I love you.. You've been leaving me so lonely, Mello." You frowned. "It was only a matter of time before I had to do something. And now you're finally here.. And you won't leave me again."

#mello x reader #mello x y/n #mihael keehl #death note fanfiction #death note #death note mello #death note near #death note angst #angst prompts #angst dialogue prompts #angst #sh tw #tw s/h #yandere mello #mello yandere #death note yandere #death note oneshot #death note imagines #rattyoakenbitch

[dragonsareourfuture]

Death Note as Stand-Up Comedians

Mello

- he’s allowed to complain about Near in front of an auditorium full of people as long as it’s in the form of a joke — of course he loves it.

- He has a lot of passion up on stage. The audience loves it because it makes them feel really immersed into the show.

- Mello has a tendency to get really loud when he gets really into a joke or bit, so the tech crew has gotten used to lowering the volume on his mic as the show progresses and he gets louder and louder.

- Mello has a harsh sense of humor, often using exaggerations and sarcasm to accentuate a point.

- He would tell stories from his time at Wammy’s house, mainly the chaos moments with Matt because the rest is pretty traumatizing for him.

- It’s his style that draws people in and his sense of humor that keeps them there. He has a very unique clothing style and, even when his managers suggested he dress down for the show as to not scare people away, he refused. He said that he would rather show who he is upfront and let the public decide whether or not to invest time in him than fake his personality for people he doesn’t know or give a shit about. They got the hint pretty quickly after that.

- He would sometimes do joined shows with Matt, which is quite interesting. Their dynamic works perfectly on stage and they even weave jokes that weren’t scripted into the show to keep each other on their toes.

Matt

- He’s a pretty chill guy, so I picture his sense of humor as pretty dry. Not in a bad way, of course. For instance, he tends to say the most hilarious things with a straight face and flat tone, which somehow makes the joke even funnier.

- He likes to involve the audience a lot, so gags where he (with permission) takes an audience member’s phone and reads their texts aloud are common. Somehow he can make jokes about the most mundane of text conversations and have the audience howling.

- Like I mentioned earlier, he and Mello’s contrasting senses of humor work for a perfect dynamic when performing, so shows where they’re together are the audience’s favorite. But even though Mello’s wild passion can take the spotlight at times, Matt is never overshadowed as they’re both sure to include the other in any bit or joke they do.

- For no reason at all I think Matt it great at imitations and impressions of different people. So, like when he’s doing a bit and speaking for someone else he can assign voices for everyone and the audience knows who he’s supposed to be speaking as in that moment. Usually these people are only known to him and Mello, so the audience can’t tell how exactly spot on he is. His impression of Near gets Mello wheezing, and his Mello impression gets the audience wheezing with Mello constantly claiming “I don’t sound like that, idiot!” With the audience shouting “YES YOU DO!”

L

- L’s sense of humor tends to require a specific taste, which is why he would probably be one of the least successful of the bunch.

- Don’t get me wrong, his sense of humor is adorable and one of the best aspects of Death Note in my opinion, but it comes in short and random bursts. He’d be talking about something serious and then crack a joke (“yEs tHat mUst Be dArK”), so it requires patience to really get to his sense of humor.

- The audience, I feel, wouldn’t have the patience to stick around and wait for his humor to surface.

- But L would have a cult following of a specific group of people that appreciate his talents.

- I’m picturing a show in which he starts off by talking about some cases, and transition to jokes from there. Due to his occupation, many jokes involve a darker sense of humor but also contain surprisingly innocent little remarks or comments. I can’t really explain it better, it makes sense in my head but I’m not too sure how to put it into words.

- Most of the show he keeps his straight face, but when he gets the audience going from something he said he can’t help but crack a little smile and chuckle into the mic pretty bashfully.

Near

- I’m sorry but Near doesn’t have too much of a sense of humor. But he does do or say some of the most hilarious shit on accident.

- It was actually Halle that convinced him to take up stand up comedy, as she got to spend tons of time just sitting and talking with him, cracking up at something Near said while he just stared at her in confusion.

- She had complete and total confidence that just plopping Near on stage and telling him to “just talk” would get the audience going, so she took him to a bar that did stand up comedy nights. Near absolutely killed it.

- Eventually he learns what the public finds funny through experimentation and tells those kinds of jokes more often, learning to perfect his craft. Through this method he is able to go from ‘accidentally funny’ to ‘intentionally hilarious’.

Light

- I wholeheartedly believe that Light has no sense of humor. Period.

- Sure, he’s accidentally funny sometimes but not enough to fake it ‘til he makes it like Near did.

- So he gets someone else to write his show for him. He’s just a pretty face, and the person who wrote his show is mentioned once or twice but who really cares about them? It’s Light who’s doing all the work, obviously. He’s the one getting sweaty up on stage.

- Honestly he barely has a sense of humor he’s probably just do it as a side thing for recognition or like most youtubers who write a book or start a podcast.

Matsuda

- Okay so, I definitely think that Matsuda would be one of the most successful stand up comedians out of all of them.

- He’s just so bubbly and kind and just genuinely a wonderful person so who could walk out of a show if his unsatisfied? No one. That’s who.

- My mans here has the opportunity to make so many self deprecating jokes due to how the task force treats him and how he’s just overall looked at as inferior to everyone he works with. And guess what? He doesn’t take that opportunity at all. He thinks self worth is the most important thing in the world and instead focuses his jokes around break room stories and observations of every day life.

- However if he ever does make a self deprecating joke, it’s never with any hatred towards himself. Like, he’ll joke about how his recklessness got him in trouble with Yotsuba, but instead of cursing the trait he has, he always expresses his hopes to get better and learn from his mistakes. Meanwhile the audience is dying at how he tells the story with so much energy and just— ...he’s wonderful.

- He just reminds me of John Mulaney when I picture a show of his.

- He’s pretty goofy by nature and you can tell that he’s enjoying himself up on stage, watching him laugh at his own jokes and beam at the audience with a smile so bright it could rival the spotlight shining down on him.

- He also really likes the attention, having been pushed to the side for so long.

- He’s just overall a really nice and positive guy while also being hilarious to listen to. 10/10.

Misa

- With her already existing music career and fashion career, people know her pretty well. Therefore, there is a HOARD of people waiting to see how she fairs at something so different from her previous career paths.

- And y’know what? Misa’s great at it.

- I’d like to imagine she’s out of her terrible relationship with Light in this au and realize how messed up he was, so I think she’d do a lot of clowning Light in her shows.

- She will kinda mix the comedy with valuable life lessons on relationships, so a lot of fans come up to her and thank her because they let their kids watch her shows and they’ve learned so much from her while being entertained for a good hour.

- Also her voice is so cute and pleasant to listen to I would gladly listen to her talk for a week let alone an hour.

- I imagine her style of show and humor to be along the lines of straight up ranting and just talking her heart out. You know that friend that can talk for hours but it’s okay because they make everything, even the most mundane things, sound dramatic and fun and lively? Yeah, that’s her.

#death note #death note headcanon #Misa amane #death note misa #matt death note #mihael keehl #mello death note #Mail jeevas #nate river #near death note #light yagami #l Lawliet #l death note #touta matsuda #matsuda death note #comedian

[eyecicles]

Thoughts on your fave and least fave character designs in the cast?

I like most designs: from Sidoh's bird-like appearance to Naomi's shiny hair + leather jacket to Near's monochrome colour scheme; I love how Mikami's long hair is a contrast to his personality, and Ryuk, Misa and Mello's designs are iconic for a reason.

But if I had to pick just one, it would be L's. Not only do I adore how Obata draws jeans (and I don't even like jeans!) or his hair, but L's face is among my favourite of all fictional characters I know. It's the right kind of strange, awkward and - at times - creepy, and I'll forever be grateful that Obata decided to not make him conventionally attractive. That would have been incredibly boring, plus we already have Light and Misa. Not all main characters have to be models, haha

I said it a few times already, but I'm very into corvidae and probably every character design that even remotely reminds me of them. While I get the frog or panda comparison, I will always first and foremost associate him with ravens and crows:

As for my least favourite design... There aren't many I absolutely hate, but I have to say, I'm not a fan of Ukita's:

I find it kind of hard to take him seriously and can't stand how his hairline is drawn. While I can appreciate that the task force members all have their own distinctive look, Ukita's unfortunately has nothing I like to look at. And there are uglier DN characters, so it's not that.

#ask meme answers #13eyond13 #l lawliet #hirokazu ukita

[mihaelnate]

Did you see Near’s face in that shot when Mello leaves the orphanage? To me, he looks pissed. He doesn’t do or say anything to stop Mello, but thats because he already knows he can’t, Mello would have left even if Near begged him to stay.

Mello is right in thinking Near views him as a tool, but to Near he’s one of a kind, invaluable tool. And now he can’t have it, which makes Mello irresistible at this point. Near puts his energy in doing anything that would win him Mello’s favour from there on; he collects Mello’s picture and keeps it on his body, deals with everyone who knows his face (we never find out how, part of me believes they’re all captured or blackmailed into silence), tries to find his whereabouts, even orders his entire team to obey Mello when their paths cross.

Still, he’s pissed Mello left. So he insults and provokes him. He still manages to get on Mello’s good side, by acknowledging him as equal, which he knows Mello wants. And Mello returns his efforts with information and resources; he is invaluable and Near was right to fight for him.

At this point Near and Mello both live in a world where they’re the only ones to have things in common with each other, Near makes a point of defending Mello even when Mello murders the majority of Near’s team, he defends the kidnapping and mafia activity by explaining what L’s death did to them both and how Mello is only doing it to avenge L, same as Near. They’re the only ones who can understand each other at this point. Seeing others judge Mello’s behaviour makes it clear that Near is the only one who gets him.

Mello spends three days on the phone with Near, we don’t know what they talk about. Mello lets down his eternal quest of rivarly partly out of desperation, because it became clear he wasn’t going to beat kira all on his own - and partly because he doesn’t hate Near that much anymore. He goes from the place of determination to defeat Near whatever it takes, to finding It acceptable to die so that Near could win. He knows there’s a risk, he already nearly died twice. He takes it.

Mello spent his entire life fighting against the destiny meant for him, he finally stopped fighting Near. Near’s motivations change only in how he views Mello from the start to finish; he realizes Mello was more than an invaluable tool, and is visibly unhappy that Mello is gone, not just in a ‘my toy broke’ way, but he gives Mello credit and rises him up to his own level, where Mello already was all along.

I believe if Mello had survived, they wouldn’t have worked together, but the bond between them would keep drawing them to each other. They would have found excuses to see each other, to remind themselves there’s someone who understands out there, to affirm their feelings about the world. Near would probably cut his hair right before Mello were to see him. Eat chocolate in front of Mello just to provoke him. Brag about what he knows just to remind Mello he’s still worth competing with.

Mello would curse at him but feel warm at heart, and a part of him would realize it was dumb to feel threatened by this hermit toy-loving rude brat who enjoys spurring him on. He still wouldn’t go and mock Near for his weaknesses because thats low, and Near stopped calling him overemotional a while ago.

He’d find out that nobody really makes him feel the way Near does, and have a whole new crisis about actually liking the hermit toy man just because he sets him off. It takes longer to realize Near is just as set off by him, and he’s being liked back. Once he does tho, there’s no hesitation. Mello was and still is, reckless, he doesn’t think twice before leaning down and kissing Near, laughing when for the first time Near is shocked and speechless. Near takes some time apart to deal with it, he wants to make a plan and act with a clear goal in mind, but what use is there for it when it’s Mello? He’s just going to do the most chaotic thing imaginable and get away with it too. Near accepts it. Next time he kisses Mello first. He’s still going to be worth competing with.

#meronia #mello #near #mihael keehl #nate river #fanfiction #character study accidentally turns into fanfiction #i have no regrets tho #this made me happy #death note

[sangonomiyashrine]

Hey, can I get a kin assignment from Dr (any game), death note, and/or possibly bsd ? Thanks.

I'm an ENFP as of recently and I'm an 3w2. I would say I'm in the middle of being an introvert/extrovert.

I'm pretty chill one minute and then the next i have the urge to change my personality completely because it didn’t match my favorite character lol. In all seriousness I have problems with self-worth due to high standards as a child and how I'm no longer able to achieve them. I worry a lot about stuff that doesn’t even matter for the most part, which leads me to my uncontrollable meltdowns. Thankfully it's just crying for the most part. 

I would say that I'm extremely lazy most of the time too, mainly due to the lack of motivation I usually never have, but when I'm committed to a project I insist on having everything perfect. That unfortunately led to me almost getting beat up with a yard stick once lol.

I used to have tons of hobbies that include sports, drawings, and writing stories but ever since my mental health got a tad bit worse all i could do was read and use my phone. I also daydream as a coping method. 

I have a few mental disorders, that being depression, maladaptive daydreaming, and possibly ADD.

you remind me of..

I also thought of Kaito Momota and Beyond Birthday (didn't choose him since I'm not sure if people are fine with novel only characters).

Mello - he has a lot of issues with his identity and self worth due to the high standards he was raised with. while he started off fine, he eventually was made to feel inferior to near and like he could no longer meet these expectations. this lead to him being an emotionally volatile person and sometimes lacking motivation, but when he sets his mind to something it gets done no matter what.

Celestia Ludenberg - she generally comes off as a really chill person, but when she doesn't act the way she wants to she can suddenly become volatile. most of her personality is very artificial and self constructed due to the self esteem issues she suffered from ever since she was very young. she is extremely perfectionistic and has high standards when it comes to her personality/herself and goals, despite not seeming this way in general. she tends to not do much in the real world and fantasizes a lot. she's also an obvious 3.

Edgar Allan Poe - he has identity issues and tends to shift his personality very often to try and defend from the self esteem issues he's faced. he has high standards for himself and is very focused on his goals, judging by how he spent years preparing to meet ranpo again.

#kin assignment #kin matchup #danganronpa #death note #bsd #mello dn #mihael keehl #celestia ludenberg #edgar allan poe #poe bsd

[mellomanjiro]

I haven’t updated Bittersweet on here in awhile so here’s chapter 3

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Chapter 3

No of course not, Mello is my best friend. I don't feel that way about him and he doesn't feel like that either. We are just friends. He treats me and Matt the same, that doesn't mean he has a crush on Matt as well.

I try to ignore my thoughts as he sits on the other side of me, Matt is no longer in the middle. "What snack did you get?" I ask. "Oh here" says Mello as he hands me a bag of chips. I open it and we all share it together. We sit and actually pay attention to the movie until it's over. Matt then looks at Mello and tells him to check the time. It's 6pm. "Let's go!" he says and they both get up. I get up to and they tell me to sit back down. "Why?" I ask. "Because" Matt replies, I don't bother any further questioning and do as he says. "We'll be back soon don't worry y/n" Mello says.

They leave and I just while admiring my ring and stuffy, these boys really do know me, these gifts are perfect. Well of course they do! We've been best friends since the day I first arrived at Wammy's, 7 years ago. The door begins to open and I hear one of the boys yell "Y/n, close your eyes!" and I do.

"Open them!" they say together. I open them and I see a birthday cake decorated with flowers that are my favourite colour and thirteen candles waiting for me to blow them out. I can't stop smiling. Then I hear them to start to sing happy birthday to me while I try to not laugh, my friends are the most adorable. I blow out all the candles except one on my first try. "Haha y/n has one boyfriend, I wonder who it is" Matt says winking at me. I roll my eyes at him and blow out the last candle.

Mello cuts each of us a slice and hands it to us. "Thanks you guys, again. By the way, who made this cake?" I ask. "We asked the ladies in the cafeteria to the other day" Matt says. How could I be so lucky to have friends like these? "Oh that reminds me, we should go to the cafeteria, it's dinner time" Mello reminds us.

After Dinner

After dinner we head back to the Mello and Matt's room and just hang out some more. Around 11:30pm Matt starts to get sleepy, both you and Mello notice that and start to talk a little quieter until you decide you should go to your room as well. Before I leave and before Matt falls asleep I thank the boys for giving you the best birthday I  could ever ask for. Matt then falls asleep and you and Mello both laugh. "Matt must've had a long day, he's usually the last one to fall asleep" Mello quietly laughs. I get up and Mello follows you to the door. "Goodnight Mels" you say while hugging him. "Goodnight y/n" he replies while hugging you back. I walk out the door and he closes it.

While walking back to my room I  pass by Near's and see that he's still up working on a puzzle. He waves at me and I wave back. "Y/n come here" he says. I come inside and he gives me something before I can look at it he says "It's 11:58, technically still your birthday, Happy Birthday y/n" while giving me a soft smile. I look at what he's given you and it's a drawing of the two of us. Near has always been very good at making things.

"I love it Near!" I say as you go to hug him. He doesn't return the hug but he accepts it, that's just how Near is and there's nothing wrong with it. "Thank you" I say and he replies with his usual emotionless voice with a "you're welcome".  Near then asks "Do you wanna play puzzles now?" which I obviously accept. We build a 1000 piece single colour puzzle in no time. Well we are both geniuses, especially Near so it obviously didn't take very long.

I yawn and Near notices and tells me that I should go to sleep. I tell him goodnight and thank him for the drawing and go back to my room.

Once I get into your room I put your gifts on my bed and start unlacing my converse and put them in front of your closet. I  change into my pjs and sit on my bed and look at my gifts. I put the Daisy on your night stand and place her right next to my lamp. Then I take the drawing of myself and Near and put it on the wall next to my desk. I look at the ring once more and put that on my night stand too, this will help remind me to put it back on the second I wake up.

I turn off my lights and crawl into bed.

Today really was the best birthday I have ever had and I wish it wasn't over. Once again I think about what Matt said earlier about how Mello obviously has a crush on me. That's something I rather not think about tonight and shake the thought out of my head. Right now all I want is to think about the sweet dreams I would have tonight because today was amazing. I then close my eyes and fall asleep faster than normal.

to be continued....

#bittersweet #death note #death note x reader #mello #l #miheal keehl #mihael keehl #mihael keehl x reader #mihael #mello fanfic #mello x y/n #mello x you #mello death note #mello x reader #mail jeevas #matt #nate river #near #near death note #l lawliet #death note fanfiction

[coolpolarbear123]

Band Camp Day 4

I'm sore in muscles that I didn't even know I had. Which is saying something since I took a 300-level anatomy class last semester

August 18th, 2021

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this is,,, late:

Forgive me, I know how late this is, but band camp got hectic really fast, and then classes started, and I'm trying to do these now while I remember

today's senior prank: plastic wrapping the tower. It went very well

when rehearsal started, our band director immediately said that he was taking the two drill instructor librarians to make pregame drill copies, so that's where I went

we learned how to copy drill, and apparently we missed the snake, which was a huge thing last year (bc piccs started and dominated it)

and we missed step-2 drill, which I'm completely okay with

tho when the drill instructors demonstrated it, apparently my SL had to go up in my place so that it'd be an even amount of people, which I'm actually okay with bc that makes sense, and it's not ML2

i mean what

anyway, back in the copy room, my accomplice and I were counting how many drill charts each section needed, then labelling the sections with sticky notes. I drew a bear on each sticky note

THAT REMINDS ME

I drew a lot of bears yesterday, and none of them stuck for more than two hours. it's been a really hot and sweaty week

oh also our band director mentioned that he's leaving for a funeral tomorrow night?

anyway, about an hour and a half later (10am), we returned to the field and handed out drill

the drill instructors were then called to go get numbers (basically we each get a number, and the drill instructors are told which numbers are for which section)

and I guess everyone was talking about the bears? bc my DI got up there and was like "wait, you guys are getting bears?" and then showed the piccolo sticky note, which reads "diccalos" with a drawing of a penis

that penis is poorly drawn and captioned "this is clearly a pair of scissors"

the mello DI took a picture he thought it was so funny, which has been fueling my serotonin levels

and!! people kept mentioning that they liked the bears! I was very excited about it

we learned the first half of pregame. I got the same spot as last year, surprisingly. And I'm next to more piccs, which is also really cool

the drumline's been facing a lot of issues with not knowing what number of people should go on which instrument bc things keep getting switched around by various people

this caused a lot of confusion on the field when there were 6 snares but only 5 charted snare parts

and our band director was NOT happy about it. He kept saying useless stuff like "it seems like you found a place, just use that" and other things like that

one of my good friends is on drumline and she cried. Apparently her drill instructor was really close to crying too

lunch time/passport to campus (a thing that helps people check in and does not apply to me since I live off campus and am a senior)

although we did get lunch from 12-3 because of that. I had time to shower, which was so nice

I currently am drenched in sweat as I type this, tho, so it does sorta feel like it was for nothing

the clarinets started sitting with us, and our freshman is talking to their freshmen, which is really good bc she needs friends who aren't just seniors. I'm very excited

okay but also during lunch we heard some CRAZY tea like. There's this sophomore clarinet player who wanted to get with this sophomore drumline dude and they were this close but APPARENTLY she has chlamydia like wtf and then he blocked her on all social media they had each other on?? and then she kept trying to add him on everything?

AND the drumline is recruiting, so she's like "imma switch to drumline" so yikes @ the drumline good luck

we had outdoor playing rehearsal since we can't be in the band room and ig the previous room we were using is now being occupied by people returning to campus or smthn idk

also the music librarians asked one of the old librarians for help with something EVEN THOUGH us drill librarians knew how to do it so um

we started playing songs that we're gonna do in our first halftime show, and the key signature on the first one is funky, so he had us play that scale, and the piccs sounded so bad that he relocated us so that we could spend time tuning

well the problem was that one of us was playing the wrong scale so yes i'm sure we sounded out of tune

but then we had to tune everyone, then we did it note by note, and then half an hour later we rejoined the band

our band director was like "some of them are smiling, some... aren't" that was awkward

and then we played some more, and at one point he's like "drumline only play this" and then they did, and we politely, softly, clapped

emphasis on SOFTLY and the band director got mad because we shouldn't congratulate them for not being good

like jesus fuck give the drumline a break

and then to top it off, we didn't even get sectionals. the closest we got to sectionals was the piccs tuning

there's also this random man who's standing with our band director, but the kick is that I know who this random man is

my friend from drumline said that her old band director was coming to be our sub while our band director was away for the funeral

sure enough, we got the intro. he's our sub, he's taught 7 people in the band, etc, etc, alumni of my uni, played sousa, etc etc

then we had dinner, which was the last free meal we got for band camp. The pickings were slim, but it was all fine. the other drill librarian didn't sit with the piccs and that was mmmmmm bc I get that she's trying to be an Older Sister to one of the fish clarinets but pls sit with your section

Then we were back outside for more marching rehearsal, where we learned the rest of pregame, marching AND playing. Which like. Yeah, that's pretty on track for a normal band camp? Usually it's good by Thursday and today is Wednesday, so not bad!

I'm mostly worried because two years ago, we didn't do a lot of pregame during band camp and he got angry during the season when we didn't know it very well like

maybe you should have stuck to your normal schedule

also I fckn hate the pregame song. Hooray for Hollywood can suck my rectum

our band director said we might do halftime drill tomorrow? which means the other drill librarian and I have more to print? maybe? tomorrow morning?

our fifth year DI was noncompliant! for the first time in five years! our DM made sure the band knew that

also two other piccs haha. picc party in the noncompliance

half the band was noncompliant which kinda... wasn't fun bc it takes the purpose out. It's not as humiliating when everyone's doing it with you

it's kinda bc the mellos are doing the thing that the trombones do, where when one is noncompliant, everyone is, and personally I think that should Only be a trombone thing

it's better and funnier when only one section does it

after singing the alma mater and fight song, we flash mobbed dance again

the after band camp stuff was trivia night, which didn't have a huge turn out, but it was fun. I learned that I HATE one of the clarinet freshmen.

#band camp #cbc #2k21 bc adventures #rant #marching band #cpb speaks #i'm #so #behind

[my-one-true-l]

Hi! Can I request a little scenario about fem s / o giving body worship to L, Mello and Near? Thank you dear!

Hello Dear Anon.🖤 (These aren’t really body worship, but I tried. Also super vanilla, but under a cut anyway!)

She walked across the dimly lit room towards the detective whose eyes were locked on the screen before him. Placing a hand on each shoulder, she spun L away from the evidence that held his attention. She took his hands from the top of his knees and pulled him to his feet, leading him down the hall to the rooms hidden away in the back of HQ.

“Where are you taking me?” He questioned, curiosity tugging at his lips.

She smiled slyly at him as she pulled him into her room. “I think you could use a break.”  

She shut the door behind them before playfully pushing him onto the bed as he grabbed her and pulled her on top of him. “And what do you propose we do on this break?”

She leaned back to slide her hands under his shirt, lifting it as she kissed a trail up his stomach to his chest, taking her time on his collar bone as she peppered him with tiny gentle bites before pulling it the rest of the way off.

Focusing on his neck, she carefully sucked just below his jawline, his heart beating hard beneath the palm she rested on his chest.

“I see you intended for this to be an all afternoon affair,” he huffed breathily at her.

“You may need to take the rest of the day off completely.” She sat up, grinning down at him when she saw the enjoyment in his eyes. “When I’m done here, I’m going to start at your toes and work my way up.”

*~*~*~*~*~*~*

Mello sat on the edge of the bed, staring blankly out the window. From the other side of the mattress, she crawled across the sheets and  wrapped her arms around his shoulders, pressing a kiss to the scar that rippled beneath her touch before snaking herself into his lap. She ran her fingers through his golden locks, drawing her fingertips along the scar that graced his cheek and pulled at the corner of his lips.

“They don’t bother you?” Mello asked, not needing to clarify what he meant. She already knew.

“Of course not. They’re beautiful.”

“They aren’t beautiful. They’re a reminder I fucked up.”

“ No, they’re a badge reminding you that you survived.” She leaned her weight into him and he readily granted her request to lay down. Straddling his waist, she pressed herself to him, kissing every inch of the pink shiny flesh that trailed down his face and back, her tongue tracing every intricacy of the remnants of the burns that lived on his skin…

*~*~*~*~*~*~*

Near sat on the floor facing her, his eyes fixed on a puzzle lying between them. Everyone else had left for the day to spend a few hours revisiting their personal lives, leaving the two of them alone in the quiet HQ.

She scooched around the side of the strewn pieces to sit closer to him, her fingers playing with the collar on his shirt. “Near, aren’t you glad we’re alone?”

“I guess so.” The blush of pink turned his cheeks bright compared to the usual pale complexion.

With eager fingers, she unbuttoned the top of his shirt and pressed her lips to his skin, littering tiny pecks along his neck as she continued to undo his shirt until it was completely open. “You want me to keep going?”

Near nodded and hugged loosely around her waist as she kissed down his chest and down to his stomach running her fingers along the band of his pants, pressing little smooches where her fingers trailed before retracing back up his body until she met his mouth, sinking her lips into his.

#L #Mello #Near #DN #Ask #Answered #Anonymous

[noxiatoxia]

🎵 🤢 🤷 ly nox x

thank you M!! and thank you too, anon! Guess ill do ‘em all LOL

😍 What is your favourite fic trope? Hard question. Dunno if it counts as a trope but hurt/comfort? That shit is good. Also coffee shop AUs...

👿 What trope do you hate / avoid at all costs? Probably those AUs where two characters take care of a child together...just not my thing!

🤷 What thing that your fandom loves do you just not “get”? I guess Gevanni? Never understood why everyone liked him so much. Then again I draw Matt, so...maybe I shouldn’t talk HAHAHA

🏆 What do you wish more authors in your fandom would write about? MOONRIVER (LIGHT x NEAR)!!!! It has AMAZING potential plz im begging

💏 Who is your OTP? ...Meronia

🤢 Who is your NoTP? Don’t really have one! But I guess Near x L. Just aint my thing

😎 Who is your BroTP? Aizawa and Matsuda.....or L and Aizawa...good.

😭 Has a fic ever left you inconsolable? Noelverse. Hurts my heart but it is SO good

🤣 Has a fic ever made your face hurt from laughing so much? just read this

🕵🏾 Do you ever comment/kudos as a guest, even if you have an account? yup. It’s usually when I’m not signed in on my phone, but I GOTTA let the author know RIGHT AWAY

📚 What’s the longest fic you’ve read in one sitting? I read the entirety of Sickness is one morning. It’s suuuuper long but it’s good!

🌍 What is your dream AU? AU where.......Mello and Matt live.....and they, including Near, go to the beach together. I don’t know I like it.

✋ What reader or write do you think most deserves a high five? TzviaAriella!!!! They made Noel!!

💡 Tell me a headcanon (and who you wish would write it)? I have this Moonriver headcanon that Light (after a long time he’s allowed more freely around the SPK base) sits up on the roof and gazes out at the building at night because the lights remind him of Japan. Near would silently sit down with him and drape a blanket over the two of them, and they just sit in silence together......if TzviaAriella wrote that I’d shit my pants legit

🎵 What do you listen to while you read? Usually lyric-less music...or nothing at all! Depends on the mood I’m writing

[starswrit-archive]

with @mckeitbeautiful & continued from here!

Aggression was always Mello’s primary companion when seeking to reach a particular goal. Anything he desired was to be grasped with rough hands, steeped in an unwillingness to rend his hold until it was his. Nothing in the universe was administered plainly ( whether it be tangible or no ), a reality he had come to terms with even as a child, and found all the more unambiguous within each passing year of the life he had scraped together for himself.  ‘ In God we trust, all others pay cash. ’ Not a single impulse was to be treated gently, for Mello knew better than to believe he might possess it with softness, devoid of the paranoia that it wasn’t truly for free.

At least — unless it involved Near like it did now, a thought which never failed to bring his brows drawing together in an odd intermingling of disbelief and mortification. Only a few years ago, he would never have foreseen that he could sit with Near and not become plagued by daunting inadequacy serving as reminder of all that he still needed to strive for. 

With only his fingertips, Mello traced the contours of Near’s right ear with whispery touches, his left hand otherwise preoccupied. Gritting his teeth behind closed lips, he swallowed the gasp threatening to emerge as a result of Near’s attentions, though there was little he might do regarding the sharp intake of breath through his nose. He had never paid his fingers much mind, aside from their necessity, until Near had begun observing them as though they were somehow worth marveling over, a motion he had come to rather like. Mello didn’t need to say so, did he? Near knew, the bastard. And still, he wondered ever since what Near discovered worth such mindfulness there imbued in his skin.

“That’s not very responsible of you, foisting it off on me.” His tone was hushed, yet somehow deeper than usual; his knuckle barely brushed against Near’s earlobe. The weight of Near in his lap was slight, yet Mello couldn’t refrain from focusing on it. Perhaps he could write off the way in which his teasing sounded sweeter than he would’ve preferred as it left his lips as a side effect of such inequity. “You shouldn’t be such a fucking — “

He shouldn’t have made the mistake of shifting his eyes from the curls of Near’s hair to the tongue lapping at his fingers, because seeing it made it worse. A quiet growl rose in Mello’s throat, his cheekbones flushing as he pressed his mouth to Near’s ear ( whether it was due to an inclination to hide his reaction or to be closer to Near, he didn’t quite want to dwell upon for the moment, although a combination of both was probably in direct proximity to the truth ). He wanted to moan, to press his finger further into Near’s mouth; instead, he settled for a mumbled, “You could drive me fucking crazy.”

#mello ┊▸ re: ic #mckeitbeautiful

[fortune-maiden]

This episode has definitely given me a lot to think about with some of these characters...

Kyotaro... I still don’t really like him much, and I definitely felt Ata’s frustration at how he accomplishes everything without really trying. That’s probably been at least 80% of my frustrations about the character. It also kinda reminded me of Mello and Near’s dynamic in Death Note, and I think the character who works hard to get where he is is infinitely more interesting and sympathetic. (I never liked Near haha)

But I think Kyotaro kinda knows that he’s good at everything without really trying and starts putting in less effort as a result (there’s a pretty strong contrast between his kid self and his present day self). But things keep working out anyway. And he doesn’t think they should (like when he thinks Ata’s drawing is better than his). I think he wants to fail at something and have to work for it instead. I think I’m also totally projecting my personal hangups onto this character I don’t even like ahaha

And then there’s Taiju. I’ll admit I do ship him and Nanao, but honestly everything I’ve tried to come up with for them has felt so superficial...I think they’re both pretty superficial characters, and it definitely threw me for a loop when Furanui said that Taiju’s bitter about being misunderstood because...it made me realize: I don’t understand this character at all. There’s no manga this time to spotlight his childhood and affection for Ata. There’s no game for character moments. There’s not much to his friendship with Nanao beyond them being classmates and once running an ice cream stall together. They’re cordial to each other, but that probably speaks more to their lack of personal conflict with each other (as far as we know) compared to the first and second years than anything deeper.

Nanao is kinda the same way. We know a little more about him on account of him having far more screentime than Taiju but his entire character still mostly boils down to ‘playful senpai who always manages to avoid the silliness’ (he didn’t even fight this episode. His clash with Taiju felt more like an obligatory stand off for the cameras and they both knew it). It also kinda feels like he’s been retreating further and further into the background with each episode and content with just teasing Ryouma and Ichiro and watching the chaos than actively partaking in anything. He’s still my favorite, but I want more from him. For someone who felt like the leader of the Defense Club early on, he’s suddenly more passive than Atsushi!

#boueibu #don't mind me having a moment #I kinda remember early on how I though Ryouma or Nanao would have made better protagonists than Kyotaro #I definitely don't think that anymore #on Nanao's side at least...this character has been giving me so much writer's block lately and now I understand why #Ah this isn't is me trying to be negative about the characters! #Just some stuff I've been thinking about and some future directions to take my fics #I can honestly say I have a MUCH bigger appreciation of Kyotaro now (even if I still don't like him) #The little ones have also given me plenty of material! #Lately I've been very into the idea of Taishi/Ryouma #it reminds me of what I liked about my low-key ship AtsuRyuu only works even better in terms of the dynamic I wanted #but now I've also got some interesting ideas for Nanao/Kyotaro #(not as a ship just the dynamic) #They both seem the 'loved by the universe' types in a sort of frustrating 'never allowed to fail' kind of way #and it seems they have different ways of dealing with it too