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Chapter 6, Unattached - Pt. 1

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Avenger!Fem!Reader

Summary: When your FWB relationship with your best friend Bucky Barnes turns into something more, you couldn’t be happier. That is, however, until a new Avenger sets her sights on your super soldier and he inadvertently breaks your heart. You take on a mission you might not be prepared for to put some distance between the two of you and open yourself up to past traumas. Too bad the only one who can help you heal is the one person you can no longer trust.

Warnings: (For this part only; see Story Masterlist for general Warnings) Language, angst (Bring on the Pain!), alcohol usage, dumbass Bucky, noncon kissing that becomes con kissing, so..., arguing, jealous!Pocket, posessive!Bucky.

Word Count: 5.4k

Previously On...: After Bucky left you alone in your room, not wanting people to get 'the wrong idea' about the two of you, you came to the horrible conclusion that you were in love with your best friend. What the hell are you going to do about that?

A/N: Wow, okay! So, first off, Chapter 6 is long, and it only has the one part, so don't worry if you go looking for more and the next thing you find is Chapter 7! Second, there's a lot of progress and updates on Unwanted I wanted to share! I am already well into writing Chapter 14, and have planned out the rest of the story. We'll have a total of 25 chapters, plus an epilogue (unless something strikes me creatively that throws the entire thing for a loop, then all bets are off). This beast, as it currently sits, is already 208 Google Docs pages long and just shy of 80k words, so final product is probably going to be novel-length, which just blows my mind. I want to give a special shout out to @mrsbuckybarnes1917 for being my beta and my sounding board; your help and support has been immeasurable!

Thank you to all those who have been reading; if you like what you've read, likes, comments, and reblogs give me life, and I truly appreciate them, and you!

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You stood in front of the doors to the common room, the low thrum of conversation and music filtering out from inside. Taking a deep breath, you tried for the umpteenth time to calm your nerves following your unsettling realization.

You had no idea how to approach this, how to approach Bucky. Do you tell him how you felt, in the hope that he felt the same way? But what if he didn't? Could you risk losing him all together? Or do you just keep on like nothing's changed, happy with what you have together? Would that be enough for you? Could you even be happy in a real relationship?

Why couldn't your mother have just been a decent human being and let you go to school like a normal child so you could have worked through all your awkward issues at the appropriate time, instead of saddling you with years of trauma and isolation that left you an emotionally stunted adult? God, you needed a strong drink and to talk to Nat, preferably in that order. Pushing open the common room door, you stepped inside, surveying the room with one eye out for Bucky, the other out for your friend.

It should have been of no surprise, then, that instead of either, you first spotted Jade Carthage. She was situated on a couch in the center of the room, like a queen on her throne before her court, and nearly every Avenger and agent with a penis was surrounding her, jockeying for her attention, even Clint who, you knew for a fact, loved his wife Laura more than life itself.

Your stomach dropped when, after one of the agents in front of the couch shifted slightly, you saw Bucky sitting immediately to Jade's left. And while it seemed like everyone else was clamoring for Jade to pay attention to them, she only had eyes for him. Jealousy coursed through you as she leaned in close, whispering something into his ear that had him throwing his head back in laughter. It was an entirely unpleasant sensation that you would be happy to never feel again. Especially because you knew you had no real right to feel it in the first place. You may have just realized you were in love with him, but he had made no similar declaration to you.

"Careful, you glare any harder, you're liable to bore a hole straight through him," Natasha said, coming up alongside of you.

"What if I aim for her, instead?" you asked, reaching for the tumbler of alcohol she offered you and taking a sip to distract yourself. It was like she could read your mind.

Nat shrugged. "So long as I'm not the one cleaning up the mess, I say have fun. But what happened to no-strings-attached, friends who happen to fuck?" Nat asked with a smirk. "Don't tell me you've grown strings, Pocket."

You looked away from the scene in front of you. "There might be some growing of string, in theory," you mumbled to her. Nat was the only person you had confided in regarding your arrangement with Bucky. Of course, your friend had been thrilled that there had been something going on between the two of you, but she'd been more concerned about protecting your heart-- was this the safest thing for you to do? You assured her at the time you'd be fine, but now...?

Nat's eyes widened as a grin took over her face. "Honey, that's fantastic!" She leaned in to give you a hug. "I'm so happy for you!" Taking in your forlorn expression, she quickly lost her good humor. "Why do you look like you're about to throw up?"

You cast another glance over at the couch. Jade was tracing her fingers along the golden veins of Bucky's vibranium arm and you felt like snakes were crawling through your stomach. "Because I don't know what the fuck to do about it, Natty," you told her with a sigh. "I've never felt like this before in my entire life and it's fucking terrifying; what if he doesn't feel the same way? Or worse, what if he does and I mess everything up because I'm so fucking damaged inside?"

Natasha looped her arm through yours, leaning into you. "Honey, first of all, you are not damaged. You've been through hell and it left its mark on you, that's true, but you've been so strong. We're House Martell, remember?"

You sniggered, remembering how, when the entire Tower was obsessed with watching Game of Thrones together and picking what houses you'd each belong to, you and Nat had been drawn to the words of the ruling house of Dorne. And also, Pedro Pascal, obviously.

"Unbowed, Unbent, Unbroken," you recited from memory, a reminder that despite the obstacles life had thrown at you, you remained standing, stronger for what you had endured.

"Atta girl," Nat nudged you with her elbow. "And second of all, you don't need to worry about Bucky's feelings. Boy's obviously mad for you. Everyone can see it."

You drew your bottom lip in between your teeth. "I don't know, Nat. He's been acting strange lately. I tried to give him head earlier and he flat out rejected it." Come to think of it, that was exceptionally weird since, in your text exchange, he'd explicitly told you he'd been waiting in your room specifically for the purpose of getting off.

"Huh. That's... not like him." Nat tilted her head and looked over at Bucky, expression curious. "Did he say why?"

"He was real eager to come up here and get in the middle of that, apparently." You waved a hand in the general direction of the couch where Jade's little reverse-harem was still going strong. "I was getting on my knees and everything."

Nat raised an eyebrow but didn't say anything.

"And then he made a really big deal about us coming up here separately. Said he didn't want people getting 'the wrong idea' about us if we arrived together."

Letting go of your arm, Natasha spun to face you, her face a mask of anger. "He said what now?!" she practically shouted, temporarily drawing everyone's attention to you. You looked around sheepishly as you tried to dismiss their stares.

"Nat," you begged in a whisper, "keep it down."

"Okay, okay, sorry." Natasha lowered her voice to a level only you could hear. "I'm sorry, but that's just complete and utter bullshit. Look, I know you guys think you've been in super secret stealth mode about hiding it, but pretty much everyone on the team knows you've been sleeping together. Hell, most of us placed bets on it." You opened your mouth in order to protest but she cut you off.

"If anything, it's weirder if the two of you don't show up to something together, so I don't know what the hell he's thinking."

"I do," you said morosely. "He doesn't want her getting the wrong idea about us."

"Pocket, don't even let your mind go there," Nat said.

"Think about it, Nat; I've been standing here for what, fifteen minutes now? And he hasn't even looked at me. When's the last time that happened?"

Nat's brows creased, her expression clouding over into something immensely sad for you, and you knew she was realizing what you'd already seen. In the last year, you and Bucky had been attached at the hip, nearly physically joined to one another, and if you were apart, your eyes were always scanning the room in search of the other's presence, seeking them out. The fact that he hadn't even looked for you, let alone come to you since you walked in, was telling in its own heartbreaking way.

Nat let out a heavy sigh. "Oh Pocket. Honey, I'm so sorry."

You shook your head, trying to dispel the tears that were threatening to fall from your eyes if you kept down this path. "Don't Natty, please. I can't fall apart, not here."

"Yeah, okay-- you're right. Now is not the time. Come on." Linking her arm through yours once again, she directed you toward the bar where Tony was standing, whiskey in hand. "If anyone can talk you to distraction," she murmured as you approached him, "it's Stark."

You let out a startled laugh and let her guide you toward the man who had already saved you more times than you could count.

"Hey, kiddo; Romanoff." Tony saluted you with his glass and you did your best to smile back at him as you stuffed your emotions down as far as they would go. "What do you think of our new recruit?" he asked Nat.

"I think 'Weasel' would be a better fitting code name for her than 'Vixen,'" Nat replied with a sly smile as she took a sip of wine.

"Ah, saw the security feed, did you?" Tony asked her. Nat nodded.

"Watched it live as it happened. Wasn't going to leave my bestie without eyes on her six." She gave your arm an affectionate squeeze.

Tony hummed and glanced over to the couch. "Wish Cap had been as discerning as you. He refused to watch the feed; said it made him uncomfortable to spy on someone when they didn't know they were being recorded." Natasha rolled her eyes.

"Always the fucking Boy Scout," she murmured.

"So, how did the interview itself go?" you asked Tony, not really sure you wanted to know the answer, but feeling the need to punish yourself with the details, anyway.

Tony leaned back against the bar, resting his elbows on the polished wooden surface. "If it were up to me, we wouldn't even be playing this charade right now," he said, motioning with his chin to indicate the meet and greet. "Girl's a first-class bullshitter."

"Talent recognizing talent?" you asked with a wry smile that almost felt genuine.

He pointed a finger and winked at you. "Exactly. She talked a good talk, but it doesn't take much to see she's suffering from Big Fish, Small Pond Syndrome. She's in for a rude awakening if she thinks she's ready to swim in the ocean with the whales and the sharks."

"So, you're not going to offer her the probationary position?" you asked, hope rising pathetically in your chest. As if you could un-ring the bell.

"Oh, I didn't say that," Tony said as you deflated. "It's not all up to me. Though, given the fact that I personally fund this entire operation, you'd think it really should be, right?" At the look on your face he moved on. "Apologies, I digress. Anyway, Cap thinks it's only fair we offer it to her, seeing as how we don't have a ton of other options knocking on our door, and Fury's not going to get off my ass until we find someone." He sighed. "I think this entire exercise is a waste of time, and we should be kicking her out on her ass for how she treated you earlier, Pocket, but I'm outvoted."

"Thanks, Boss," you said softly, grateful at least that Tony could see through Jade's facade and took how she treated you seriously. Too bad your best friend couldn't offer you the same courtesy.

The timer on Tony's watch went off. "And that's the dinner bell," he said, putting down his glass. Clapping his hands, he called out to the rest of the room. "Attention Avengers, SHIELD Agents, and... whoever else managed to sneak in off the street! Dinner is served, so if we could all head to the dining room before the food gets cold and Raul quits on me, I'd appreciate it very much."

You held back as the crowd of people noisily moved to the dining room, hoping to catch Bucky's eye, but he remained steadfastly absorbed in his conversation with Jade.

"Come on, honey," Nat said as she took your elbow. "You can talk to him during dinner. You nodded and allowed her to lead you into the dining room. You and Bucky had sat next to one another, without fail, for every meal for the last year, the only exception being when one of you was away on a mission. You'd have plenty of opportunities to talk to him while you ate.

Normally, you all ate at one large table, but since this was a special occasion that required the attendance of a lot more than just the regular 13 members of your family (14, if Parker was around), Tony had the dining room arranged more like a restaurant, with a series of smaller tables spread out throughout the space.

You and Nat followed Bucky and Jade to a six-top where Steve and Sam were already getting ready to sit down, but you froze in your tracks when Bucky pulled back a chair for Jade, pushing it in behind her as she sat down before taking the seat next to her.

The air seemed to grow heavy, as though it weighed too much for you to draw it into your lungs and your chest began to hurt. How could such a simple action be causing you so much physical pain?

Steve, who had already been sitting at Bucky's other side at the head of the table, caught your eye and moved to get up to offer you his chair, instead, as though that could make up for Bucky's dismissal of you.

You subtly shook your head, not wanting to draw attention to the awkward situation you found yourself in. Instead, you made your way over to the only two remaining seats at the table: the one next to Sam that was directly across from Jade and Bucky or the one next to Jade at the opposite end of the table from Steve. Deciding it was better to be sitting across from Steve than either of the other two, you opted for the chair at the end, and Nat slid in next to Sam.

You cast a quick glance in Jade's direction and had to stifle a sick laugh-- she was physically coming between you and Bucky, quite literally.

Jade reached a hand out to Nat across the table. "Wow! Black Widow! It is so great to meet you! My name's Vixen; I'm a huge fan! I'm so excited for us to be working together!"

Bless Nat, she just stared at the girl with arms crossed across her chest, impassive and judging, until Jade slowly and awkwardly pulled her hand back.

"I take it, then, that you've deemed the Avengers good enough to be your backup team?" Nat asked without expression.

You did your best to cover the laughter that escaped from you with a fake cough, but you didn't try very hard to be convincing.

"What's this about, now?" Steve asked, leaning forward.

"Little Vixen over here," Nat began, leaning back in her chair until she was perched on the two rear legs, "was live-streaming this morning to her social media followers. Told them it wasn't so much that the Avengers were interviewing her to see if she'd be good for the team, but she was interviewing us to see if we'd be good back up for her."

Jade had the decency to look embarrassed for a moment before she turned to face you for the first time, anger taking over her features. "So, what? Didn't much take you for a tattler. You that intimidated by me?"

You opened your mouth to defend yourself but were interrupted by the sound of the legs of Nat's chair slamming back against the floor. "Pocket didn't tell me shit. I heard it straight from your mouth on the security feed. That and a lot of other interesting things."

"You're spying on her, Nat? Really?" Bucky spoke up. "She's our guest and she deserves a modicum of privacy, don't you think?" You stared at him, open mouthed, but he didn't spare you a glance.

"It was a part of her interview, Barnes," Nat spat. "Maybe if you---"

"Okay, Nat, Bucky," Steve said, using his official Captain America voice, "let's table this conversation for later and just enjoy our meal. Raul worked really hard on tonight's menu, so let's not spoil it for him, alright?"

Both Nat and Bucky grumbled their agreement as the catering staff brought out the first course and placed them on each of your plates. Normally, you loved when Raul, Tony's personal chef, cooked meals for the team; he always made sure to throw in something with lemon in it, knowing how much you loved the flavor; but tonight, your appetite was failing you and you ended up pushing more food around on your plate than you put in your mouth.

You couldn't help but steal glances over at Bucky, who continued to be wrapped in conversation with Jade. You tried to keep up with what the others were saying, occasionally nodding your head in agreement to something, but you weren't able to pay any real attention; your mind was elsewhere until you noticed Jade looking at you.

"You know, I have to say I'm surprised to see so many non-Avengers here. I got the impression that this group was... I dunno, elite? But it seems like you just let anyone in."

Steve laughed from the other end of the table. "Being an Avenger is a team effort, Vixen. Everyone plays their part. And besides, Pocket here's just as much an Avenger as I am." The comment took you by surprise, and you gave Steve a warm, appreciative smile.

"Thanks, Cap," you said, truly touched by his words.

"Well, she's more like Avenger-adjacent," Bucky amended, and all the warmth you'd felt at Steve's compliment vanished in an instant, leaving you feeling cold and hollow. The words shouldn't have stung-- it was how you had referred to yourself hundreds of times, but you tended to reserve it for your low moments, when you were feeling unequal to Earth's mightiest heroes. Hearing the words come out of Bucky's mouth, as if he, too, shared in your belief that you were inferior to the rest of them... well, that fucking hurt.

Steve let out a surprised laugh and clapped Bucky on the shoulder. "Pocket may not have enhanced physical abilities or powers or what have you, but she's got a brilliant mind. She's got a PhD in Mechanical Engineering and Computation from MIT, three Master's degrees, she speaks seven languages, she's got a black belt in Krav Maga, and she was the youngest Chief Technology Officer in Stark Industries history; all without ever having formally graduating high school. It's no exaggeration for me to say that I'd be dead a couple of dozen times over if I hadn't had her at my six. If anything, I think it makes her even more important than the rest of us. We're here because of the physical things we can do– primarily because of things that happened to us by accident; Pocket's essential to the team because of how she thinks, and the strength and quality of the work she’s willing to put in. We're replaceable, Pocket's one-of-a-kind."

You looked at Steve as if seeing him for the very first time. You had no idea he thought so highly of you, and his praise warmed you. You offered him a soft smile, your throat tightening with emotion and leaving you unable to express your gratitude. You mouthed a silent thank you instead, hoping that conveyed how much his words meant to you. He winked back at you in acknowledgement.

Bucky glanced back and forth between the two of you, as if analyzing your silent exchange. He coughed awkwardly. "I just meant that we try to keep Pocket away from the really dangerous stuff," he backpedaled, poorly, in your opinion. "Can't risk her getting hurt." He smiled at you, but you just stared back, expression blank, until he looked away in embarrassment. Good. Let him feel an ounce of the discomfort you’d been feeling this entire time.

Small talk resumed around the table, with Sam telling Steve about some new modification he was making to Redwing, and Bucky and Jade back to being locked in their own bubble. You did your best to ignore the little glances and gestures that Jade directed to Bucky, but it felt like your eyes were drawn to them like a magnet every time she touched him. Which seemed to be happening more and more frequently. You couldn't help but notice the way he leaned toward her when she spoke. Did he ever do that when he was talking with you?

"So, Bucky," Jade said eventually, her voice low and flirty as the caterers took away the main course, "handsome super hero like you, you seeing anyone?" Your eyes snapped up to Bucky's face, watching him. Surely he was going to look to you, make eye contact, something to acknowledge what was between you, to make you feel like you were in the same room, hell, on the same fucking planet as him. But he didn't.

"Nope," he said, running his hand over the back of his neck like he always did when he was feeling self conscious or nervous. "Not seeing anyone, though I'm not opposed to the idea." You had been stabbed in the abdomen on a mission once, and that had hurt less than hearing the words that had just come out of Bucky's mouth. It took everything in you to resist getting up from the table and leaving the room at that moment.

"Really, man?" Sam asked from where he sat on the other side of Natasha, his voice hard in disbelief. The atmosphere at your table had shifted. Natasha, Steve, and Sam all stared at Bucky with looks ranging from incredulity to flat out disgust. Bucky either was oblivious to the stares or was doing a great job patently ignoring them.

You couldn't even bring yourself to look at him anymore. It felt like a betrayal, the way his eyes had met Jade's and not yours. How could he sit there and just completely deny you like that? Had you been deluding yourself? Had you just been some kind of fuck toy this entire time?

The caterers brought the next course, a cold raspberry soup. You sat there, staring into space as you mechanically spooned the soup into your mouth, trying your hardest to appreciate the taste, but everything seemed bitter in light of Bucky's attitude, actions, and words.

"Could you hand me the water carafe?" Bucky asked. You looked up to watch Jade hand him the bottle of water. "Thanks, doll," he said, smiling at her.

You dropped your spoon, letting it fall into your nearly empty bowl with a reverberating clang. Your companions at the table stared, eyes wide as their gazes traveled between you and Bucky. In his entire time at the tower, he had never once called another woman 'doll.' It was a moniker he'd specifically reserved for you.

Or, it used to be.

You could tell the exact moment when Bucky realized he'd fucked up. His eyes locked on yours, the color draining from his face. He opened his mouth as if he was going to speak to you, but you'd had enough. Without a word, you pushed back your chair with enough force that it practically tipped over and exited the dining room.

You made it all the way to the elevator before you heard him calling for you.

"Doll! Doll, where are you?" You stabbed repeatedly at the call button, as if it would bring the car to you faster. You could hear his footsteps drawing closer, and you really didn't want to talk to him right now.

Finally, the elevator doors opened and you slid inside, turning to press the 'Close Door' button just as you saw Bucky turn the corner to the elevator bay. You were ready to breathe a sigh of relief at evading him until Bucky's metal hand shot in the diminishing space between the closing doors. You were trapped.

"Doll, didn't you hear me callin' to you?" he asked as he slid into the car with you.

You looked around, as if searching for another person in the car. "I'm sorry, were you talking to me? Should probably be more specific with your pet names, then. A girl’s liable to get confused." You were impressed that the words came out as hard and bitter as you felt inside.

Bucky flinched. "I deserved that."

You leaned forward to press the button for your floor before crossing your arms and glaring at him. "You fucking think?"

"Look, it just slipped out, okay? I didn't mean anything by it. It's not a big thing you needed to storm out over." You rolled your eyes at him, disgusted that that was the only thing he seemed to realize he'd done to offend you all evening. "Pocket, can we just talk about this?"

"Oh, now you want to talk to me?" you asked, jutting out your hip in annoyance. "Seemed like earlier today, you couldn't wait to not be seen with me, or do you no longer care if people get the wrong idea?"

"Alright," Bucky said, slamming his fist against the elevator's emergency stop button. You stumbled as the car came to a grinding halt. Bucky tried to put his hands on you to steady you, but you pushed him away. "What is going on with you today, Pocket?"

"What's going on with me?" you asked him, incredulous. "What's going on with you? You've been an ass to me all night, that is when you weren't acting like I didn't exist."

"How am I being an ass?" he asked, voice rising. "You're the one who couldn't even hold a civil conversation with our guest! It was embarrassing!" You recoiled as if he'd slapped you, backing away from him until your back hit the elevator wall.

"Wow. Okay then." You blinked heavily, telling yourself not to cry. You'd be damned if you showed weakness in front of him now. Bury the emotions, encase them in ice. "Sorry I'm such a fucking embarrassment to you, Sergeant Barnes. Now that I know how you feel, I'll make sure to stay out of your way so you don't have to put up with me." You moved to press the button to restart the elevator, but Bucky grabbed your wrist.

"Don't do this," he growled at you. "Don't hide behind snappy quips so you can shut down and avoid having a real conversation with me." You stared between his eyes and where he held your wrist in his metal grip. It wasn't tight enough to hurt, but it was tight enough to keep you from breaking free.

His gaze softened as he watched you. "I never said I was embarrassed of you, Pocket. I just don't know why you had to be so rude to Jade at dinner tonight."

"Name one thing I did that was rude to her," you challenged.

"Okay," Bucky stuck out a finger as though he were about to count off all your grievous errors. "Let's see... You said... No, that was Nat... You were... okay, Steve said that... You said... No, that was Nat again." He looked up at you sheepishly. "So, maybe you actually didn't say anything during dinner, but not talking to her was still rude."

You scoffed. "You want to talk rude and embarrassing, Bucky? Do you know how embarrassing it was to have everyone staring at me when you pulled out my chair for Jade, or when my own best friend didn't defend me when she had the audacity to call me a fucking tattler? Like I’m some kind of fucking child?" Your voice was rising and you could feel yourself getting swept up in your anger. "How about the pity looks I got when everyone heard you lie about not seeing anyone, or when you called her 'doll'? Or when you told her I was 'Avengers-adjacent'? You think I'm the embarrassing one? You made me feel like an insignificant piece of shit tonight, Barnes. God, if it hadn't been for Steve saying what he said, you would have driven me to tears."

Bucky had been staring down at his boots as you'd been speaking, as though your accusations were too much for him to face head-on, but at the mention of Steve's name, his head snapped up, blue eyes like ice on your face. "Well, if Steve's such a hero, why aren't you fucking him, then?" he asked, voice clipped and bitter.

You yanked your wrist free from his grasp. "Maybe I should start!" you shouted. "At least he's not embarrassed of me and doesn't forget I exist when another pair of tits shows up!"

Bucky's gaze darkened and in an instant, he was on you, caging your body against the elevator wall, a hand on either side of your head. "Don't you even fucking joke about that," he snarled.

You jutted out your chin, refusing to show any sign of weakness, though his actions were beginning to frighten you. "Who says I'm joking? Sounds like a good idea to me; thanks for suggesting it." You moved to duck under his arm, but he grabbed you by the shoulders, pinning you in place.

His breaths were coming hard and fast now, as though he'd just run a marathon. His gaze darted between your eyes and your lips, as though trying to make up his mind about something. In the next instant, his mouth was crashing down on yours, his tongue demanding entry.

You gasped at the sudden intrusion and Bucky took that as his invitation, deepening the kiss with a primal fervor. His hands gripped your waist, pulling you into him. For a moment, you were stunned, unsure of what was happening. But then instincts took over – he was kissing you, really kissing you. Your stomach fluttered and your heart hammered in your chest.

One of your hands ran through his hair, while the other gripped his shoulder for support. His hands had somehow migrated beneath your shirt, thumbs rubbing soothing circles into the bare skin at your sides. You returned his kiss with as much intensity as he gave. But then suddenly, as if waking from a dream, you remembered why you were angry with him. You pushed against his chest, breaking the kiss.

You were both panting, and despite your attempt to put distance between your bodies, Bucky leaned down, resting his forehead against yours as he fought to catch his breath. "Don't," he whispered hoarsely, his voice heavy with an emotion you couldn't quite place. "Don't sleep with Steve."

"You realize how incredibly infuriating you're being right now, don't you?" you asked. "You can't just treat me like that, ignore me all night in favor of someone else, then kiss me and try to tell me who I can or can't sleep with."

"I know, Sweetheart," he said, nuzzling your nose with his, "I know and I'm sorry, but please, promise me: no matter how angry you are with me, don't sleep with Steve. You wanna fuck someone else to piss me off? Go fuck Sam, Thor, Rhodes, hell, even Parker. I'll hate it, but if it's Steve, it'll fucking kill me."

"Your signals are all over the place tonight, Buck," you sighed, letting out an involuntary moan as his lips found the sweet spot on your neck and sucked at your skin. You had to pull away before he turned you into a babbling mess. "If you think you can just kiss me into oblivion and I'll forgive you for everything you've said and done tonight, you better think again, because that's not happening."

Bucky ran both his hands through his hair, sending it pointing every which way. Then he pressed the emergency stop button again, letting the elevator resume its journey. "I know I owe you an explanation, Pocket," he said. "So, can we go to your room and talk? No interruptions, no one else, just you and me, okay?"

You studied him, considering. A part of you was still so angry at him that you didn't want to hear him out, but the part of you that loved him hated the idea of leaving things in a bad place. In your line of work, you never knew when your next goodbye might be your last goodbye.

"Fine," you said, dropping your shoulders with a sigh. "We can talk, I'll hear you out, but I'm not promising forgiveness."

He smiled, his eyes bright once again. "That's all I ask, Sweets. That's all I ask."

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Future Spouse Pick a Pile

Directions: Close your eyes and set your breathing into a steady rhythm of your choosing, as you draw your attention towards your body. Imagine a cord connecting to your Solar Plexus. Take this cord down the expanse of your body, all the way down through your bed or your chair, through the floor, and down into the ground. As you travel deep down into the center of the Earth, imagine yourself coming across a large rock. Tie your cord tightly around this rock, and begin to come back up to the surface, up through the floor, through your bed or chair, and back into your body. Open your eyes and pick the Moon that calls to you.

Pile One Pile Two Pile Three

Pile One:

What Can Be Expected From Pile One's Future Spouse In Terms Of Personality?

2 of Swords Rx, Wheel of Fortune

At the time that this reading was done, this person had a very indecisive and avoidant energy. However, this doesn't feel like a completely anxious feeling. It's more of a carefree and jovial feeling. With underlying anxiety. They may be avoiding a specific situation, or this may be an inherent aspect of their personality. It doesn't feel as though this avoidance is being done purposely or with malicious intent, it feels like an unconscious action on their behalf. This person doesn't seem to want to have an attachment to negative situations. They avoid them.

Additionally, the 2 of Swords in Reverse represent being guarded and being detached. However, seeing as though this card is in reverse, I see it as the blindfold finally coming off. Slowly but surely, they are in the process of a transition. This could have been brought about by a sudden change or an epiphany. Maybe a stroke of luck, or karma has worked in their favor, considering the Wheel of Fortune. Additionally, the Wheel of Fortune is ruled by Jupiter, and because it's a Major Arcana card, it may be a significant indicator of this person when you meet them. Their jovial and Jupiter-esque personality may be evident when you meet them, but remember that there is also the 2 of Swords Rx, so under that Wheel of Fortune, we have the avoidance and inner turmoil.

I also want to mention that the Wheel of Fortune represents life cycles. When someone is in a cycle, they know not to expect to have anything for long, because eventually they will have to give it up to move on. That is how this person is. They give off an air of impermanence. Going back to what I said earlier about them being detached and guarded, this ideology of "That's the way life goes" ties into this.

What are The Beliefs Pile One's Future Spouse Holds About Their Career?

Queen of Swords Rx, 9 of Cups Rx

The Queen of Swords in Reverse denotes a very bitter and vindictive energy with a touch of poor communication. At the time of this reading, this person is harboring negative and spiteful energy towards their career and the people within it. They don't seem to be happy with their current position, or even with their line of work at this moment in time, and may even be considering a change. They are well aware that their career is affecting their usual performance and attitude. When you turn the Queen of Swords upside down, she loses her crown, her sword, and she falls off her throne. Right now, this person is feeling like they have lost everything.

With the next card in the sequence being the 9 of Cups in Reverse, this person is clearly not happy in their current situation. Upright, this is a card of enjoyment, satisfaction, and happiness. Right now this person is not experiencing any of these things. Their current career path is not in alignment with their wants, needs, and talents as a person. Currently this person is at a stalemate. They seem to be in the process of evaluation and reflection. That's all I'm getting from them in terms of career. It doesn't really feel like they want to talk about it.

What Energy Should Pile One Expect Regarding Meeting Their Future Spouse?

Page of Swords, King of Cups

So the Page of Swords is very communicative. It's a youthful energy-like card. Full of enthusiasm and curiosity. However, it also represents being guarded and defensive. Such disposition may be present when meeting your spouse. With this card being ruled by Gemini, you can expect to see some Mercurial themes going on when you meet your future spouse, Pile One. With that being said, some of you will meet or have met this person through your siblings or through your friends, or while you were with these people. Specifically friends that you made at school in your youth, or when you were much younger. Meeting in group settings is a big possibility with this card. It's also a possibility that you will meet or have met this person on a short journey. Maybe you decided to drive to work that day because you didn't have enough time to walk like you usually do. Maybe you decided to go to the Starbucks 5 minutes from your house instead of the one 50 minutes from your house. Things like that. This card represents trying something new. When you do so, that is when you will come into union. Additionally, you may have met or will meet this person online. Through dating apps, social media, gaming sites, etc.

The King of Cups however, is more of an emotional card. It has a very mature and easy-going energy. With this card being ruled by Pisces, you can expect to see some Neptunian themes happening when you meet your future spouse. With that being said, some of you could be meeting this person out of the blue. It could be a purely coincidental meeting, that you really don't think much of. Since Pisces rules the 12th House and the 12th House ruled things that are unconscious, it is a possibility that you could meet this person on a blind date. Some of you may meet this person at a night club. Pisces is a reflective and introspective sign. You might meet this person at a hospital or in some type of medical field. It's also highly likely that there will be water themes present when you meet this person. Lakes, rivers, streams, oceans, fish, etc. (I also think some of you guys' names or nicknames might have something to do with these themes.) There may be some type of spiritual theme surrounding this meeting. Since Pisces is traditionally ruled by Jupiter, there could be Jupiter themes present as well. You could meet this person at a religious ceremony such as a wedding. You could meet them while traveling abroad. This person could also be foreign.

What Is Preventing Pile One From Coming Into Union With Their Future Spouse?

3 of Cups, The Empress

It's still a hot girl summer for some of ya'll. You haven't come into union with this person because you aren't ready. You are still enjoying your youth, your friendships, your flirting, your flings, you're still living. A lot of you in this Pile aren't even thinking about meeting your future spouse any time soon. With the 3 of Cups here, you guys have an amazing social life, that takes up a lot of your time and fills your heart completely. A lot of you don't think that you NEED to be worried about a spouse because you're already fulfilled right now. For some of you though, this isn't the case. Some of you really do want to get married. But I think a lot of you still have a lot of growing to do, in terms of figuring out what you really want in a relationship. Some of you guys may do a lot of casual dating. (Purr) I'm getting that a lot of you secretly want to be parents as well. Or maybe you already have kids.

How Can Pile One Release That Blockage?

6 of Cups, 9 of Swords Rx

Heal your inner child. That's it. That's all.

The 6 of Cups Represents coming back into your self. Reigniting your innocence, your curiosity, your immaturity. Going back to the simple things in life. The small things that make you happy. Connect with people from your youth, tv shows, movies, games, toys. There may be a lot of healing that you all must do. Wounds that were created in your childhood. I don't want to get too far into that because it can be triggering. So that's all I will say. Moreover, with the 9 of Swords in Reverse here, you are encouraged to believe that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. While it is great to be self reliant, the 9 of Swords in Reverse wants you to rely on your support system and the people that care about you to help you achieve inner peace.

Significators and Confirmations: November, Sagittarius, Double Dates, Aries, Green Eyes, Older, Summer, March, July, French, Yellow,Twins, Duplicates/Doubles, Sushi, Social Media, Cupid, Flashing Lights, Disney, Alcohol, Some of you may be from or considering traveling to the following countries; Korea, Cuba, India, Canada.

Pile Two:

What Can Be Expected From Pile Two's Future Spouse In Terms Of Personality?

Page of Wands Rx, 8 of Pentacles Rx

So at the time of this reading, this person was in a funk. They are feeling very lazy, lethargic, and uninspired. They may have recently been given some bad news that has caused them to develop a very pessimistic mindset, causing them to display the shadow sides of the Page of Wands. For some reason I think this has to do with a work project that they are working on. I keep getting "dropped the ball". Maybe their indecision and hastiness has caused them to drop the ball, whatever that may mean to them, causing them to develop the aforementioned traits.

I also want to mention that The Page of Wands is a very youthful card. It's like the teenager of the court card suit. It doesn't quite have a handle on the feelings associated with this card. When it's in reverse, The Page of Wands displays shadow traits of Aries, which I believe is a prominent sign in this person's natal chart. I also think some of you could have prominent Libra or 7th House placements, specifically Libra Rising and Mars in 5th or 7th House. Another theme that is present with this card is lack of harmony. This is further supported by the 8 of Pentacles in Reverse.

With the 8 of Pentacles in Reverse, not only do we see procrastination, but it also signifies something of poor quality, or something that has been rushed. This person is likely spreading themselves thin and starting to make careless mistakes because of it. They are putting too much of their focus on one aspect of their life (likely career) and neglecting the others.

What are The Beliefs Pile Two's Future Spouse Holds About Their Career?

5 of Swords, 10 of Pentacles

So as I expected, this person is experiencing issues in the workplace. With the 5 of Swords, they may have a tendency to argue their way around the workplace, or start arguments to get their point across. This may manifest as a "win at all costs" attitude, even when winning should not be the goal, but usually they feel like their ultimate goal is to win these arguments. They are highly ambitious when at work. They may be easily irritated or constantly find themselves in situations where they feel the need to defend themselves because they feel as though they are being antagonized. Because this is an Air card, communication is big in this person's career, and they may struggle with it, or may think that a lack of communication from all parties involved is the cause of this problem. Because of this, it feels like this person is wanting to walk away from this situation as it no longer serves them. They feel like they can't win for losing.

On the bright side, with this 10 of Pentacles being next in the sequence, this person is looking to expand their horizons. They seem to pride themselves in their work ethic and dedication and believe that they possess the traits needed to secure long term wealth and security. I have a feeling this person has been investing, or possibly worked in an investment company? The 10 of Pentacles represent building groundwork or a foundation. This person may want to start a business that they can pass on to their children, or they may work with their parents to create this business or gain wealth and prosperity from their parents. They could also work in sales as well.

What Energy Should Pile Two Expect Regarding Meeting Their Future Spouse?

The Empress, 9 of Cups Rx

The Empress is a very feminine and sensual card. It is full of creativity, harmony, and love. The Empress is associated with a very Earthy sensuality as its ruling sign is Taurus. With Taurus being ruled by Venus, you can expected to see some Venusian themes present when you meet this person. Throughout this entire reading, monetary value has been a huge theme, and it could be prominent in your union. When you meet this person, you may be dressed up, or looking expensive and luxurious. You could meet or have already met this person at the bank, or while you are dealing with or handling money or expensive items that you own. You could meet them when you are about to make a big financial decision. Additionally, themes of comfort and security are prominent when you're talking about Taurean energy. This may sound weird, and it won't apply to everyone, but you could meet your future spouse while purchasing furniture, or items to go in your own home. Moreover, since Venus also rules Libra, those themes can be present as well. You may meet this person in a place where art or music are prominent. You could also meet them in a very formal or business-like setting. Additionally since the 7th House is all about connections to other people, you could meet this person through a mutual friend, or your own mother. Someone here studies Accounting.

You will likely meet this person after a period of introspection from either you or your person. With the 9 of Cups in Reverse here, it will be a time in your lives when they or you aren't the best version of yourselves and you begin to want more for yourselves. When you begin to feel dissatisfied and know that a change needs to come. This may come about when your person reaches that 10 of Pentacles moment.

What Is Preventing Pile Two From Coming Into Union With Their Future Spouse?

7 of Swords, The Sun Rx

It seems like you guys are afraid, Pile Two. You guys are scared of deception, disloyalty, cheating, lying, being hurt. You're running in the opposite direction of your future spouse because of this. I get it, it's a reasonable fear to have. With the Sun in Reverse here, I don't feel like you guys are very enthusiastic about meeting this person. You may have a set view about relationships, or find that because of your experiences you have found it hard to remain optimistic. Some of you guys may be afraid to let your mental guard down because you don't want to develop any "unrealistic" expectations regarding relationships. At this point in time, a lot of you may be closed off to meeting this person energetically.

How Can Pile Two Release That Blockage?

The Hermit Rx, Justice

I see that some of you have been withdrawn and anti-social for a while now. It was good while it lasted, but you have to come out of it now. Introspection is only good in moderation. You have been trying to do it yourself, help yourself, give yourself everything, seemingly apprehensive about letting others in. You need to connect with others. Once you do this, the scales will balance, and you will reap what you have sown, with Justice here. Justice is all about karma. If you have treated others with kindness, and integrity, and fairness, then you shouldn't be afraid about what's coming to you. Just know that it will be a blessing. My advice to you, is to form meaningful connections. You never know which connection may turn out to be the right one.

Significators and Confirmations: Capricorn, Soulmate, Leo, Aries, Older, Aquarius, Fire, Sagittarius, Virgo, May, Libra, Aquarius, Purple, Fairytale, Skincare, Capricorn Juno, 2nd House Stellium, Chiron in 7th House. Taurus Venus, Capricorn Venus, Ruler of 7th House in 2nd or 8th House, Mars in 7th House, Libra Rising, Venus/Jupiter in 4th House.

Pile Three:

Before I started reading for personality, I suddenly started to feel anxious and worried about the most random things, mainly things related to my health and the health of my family and friends. If anyone was looking for a confirmation, here it is.

What Can Be Expected From Pile Two's Future Spouse In Terms Of Personality?

Strength, 6 of Wands Rx

At the time of this reading, this person is feeling good. With the Strength card upright, they are ready to be an active participant in their own life. They may be very active and popular on social media. They may post themselves a lot, or post a lot about their personal lives on the internet. Because this card is ruled by Leo, this person may carry some of those traits with them. They could be very flamboyant or "extra" in their mannerisms, and even the way they present their physical body. They enjoy having fans, followers, and friends, but they would much rather do something because they like it, not because everyone else likes it or wants them to do it. This person embodies conviction and power.

However, with the 6 of Wands here, we see the exact opposite. Because this card is also ruled by Leo, this card can be seen as the potential shadow side to their main personality being represented by The Sun. Because this is a Minor Arcana card, this may be a learned behavior, and therefore can be unlearned, as it may be a result of their environment and not an inherent aspect of their identity.

The 6 of Wands Reversed as a person represents someone with a fragile ego, someone who is easily wounded and hurt. When their pride is significantly wounded or they are offended, this person could have a habit of retreating back into self pity and loss of confidence mode. At this point in time, they could be suffering from a period of self-doubt and lack of validation from both themselves and others. This is likely the result of a specific situation happening in their personal life.

What are The Beliefs Pile Three's Future Spouse Holds About Their Career?

4 of Wands Rx, Death

Not very happy times right now. The 4 of Wands Reversed represents instability and lack of progression. Your future spouse is likely at a point in their career where they are experiencing obstacles and challenges that are preventing them from advancing in their career. For them, this job no longer feels fulfilling due to conflict and lack of community within the work place. In addition to the 4 of Wands denoting a "rocky" situation, it could also propose a complete halt to the situation which is the likely outcome of this situation considering the next card in the sequence is the Death card.

This may seem like a bad omen to receive but honestly I'd be more worried if it was in the Reverse position. With it being upright, this person is likely ready for a change and transition with their career. They are letting go of their old belief systems and ways as they have realized that they no longer are serving their purpose. This is the card of new beginnings, which is what I think this person is aiming towards at this point in time.

What Energy Should Pile Three Expect Regarding Meeting Their Future Spouse?

6 of Pentacles, Ace of Swords Rx

The 6 of Pentacles is a very giving energy. Not only does it represent gaining prosperity of your own, but it represents doing so by giving towards others. It's a very give and take, mutually beneficial card. Being ruled by Taurus, you can expect to see some Venusian themes present when meeting your future spouse, very similar to Pile Two. However, this pile is a lot more money based than Pile Two. So if you resonated with Pile Two, you can go and read that pile as well! You could meet or have already met this person at the bank, or while you are dealing with or handling money or expensive items that you own. Looking at the symbolism on this card, it's possible that you could meet this person through a gift of some sort, particularly some sort of inheritance. You could meet them when you are about to make a big financial decision. With this pile in particular I'm getting that you may meet this person through a colleague or business partner, while in the process of closing a business deal. Does someone here work in Law? or is someone a Business Management major?

With the Ace of Swords in Reverse here, we see a setback or delay in an important situation regarding Legal matters (Libra) Since this is an Air card, being ruled by Libra, this meeting could happen after all parties involved step back and reassess the current situation before regrouping. Because of the tense aura of this potential situation as well as the civil and business circumstance, I don't think you and your future spouse will immediately begin to talk and become buddy-buddy with each other upon first meeting. I think you both will be preoccupied with the current task at hand, to explore any feelings that may arise. With Taurus here, this will be a very slow moving situation, with the two of you starting off as acquaintances first.

What Is Preventing Pile Three From Coming Into Union With Their Future Spouse?

Ace of Cups Rx, 5 of Cups Rx

Spiritually, a lot of you are emotionally closed off to this connection. You may be holding yourself back from meeting this person because you fear a lack of fulfillment once you do. A lot of you don't believe that this relationship will live up to your expectations. Additionally, some of you are afraid of losing yourself after you meet this person. You may think it'll hinder your own personal development. Some of you are currently going through a breakup or have just gone through a break up, and some of you are in a situation of unrequited love. Either way, you aren't open to romance at this point in time. On the bright side, although this was clearly very hard on some of you emotionally, you guys are moving on, and letting go with the 5 of Cups in Reverse. You are releasing these negative thinking patterns and these negative feelings, and you're willing to heal.

How Can Pile Three Release That Blockage?

The Chariot, 8 of Cups Rx

You can release that blockage, by taking your life into your own hands with The Chariot. It's time for you to start taking decisive actions and stop being a bystander in your own life. The Chariot encourages you to take challenges head on in order to navigate them successfully. This is your life, you are in control. With the 8 of Cups Rx, you are encouraged to reflect on the situation at hand, and decide whether it is important enough for you to carry with you for the rest of your life. If it isn't, then you need to let it go. It's time for you all to move out of your comfort zone. Go to new places, try new things, re-evaluate your priorities and values, and change your life.

Significators and Confirmations: 444, Aquarius, Libra, Enemies, Soulmate, Love at first sight, August, Yin, Grey, July, Spring, May, Aries, Scorpio, Taurus, Leo, Sun in 1st House, Gift Giving Love Language, 8th House Juno, Jupiter in 2nd House. Ruler of 7th House in 2nd or 8th House. Sun in 7th House, Sunflowers.

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:D omg, you are going to make me addicted to apolo, the man cries out to be loved, a request for the favor of our dear apolo (in devinart there was a farm where the reader dated leo but he cheated on her with calypso, then the He realizes that he made the worst mistake of his life, seeing that because of calypso he was attracted but he loved the reader)How does Leo react when he discovers that his ex-girlfriend, whom he still loves, is now Apollo's partner(fiancee) pleeeees

i'm a loser.・゜-: ✧ :-

leo valdez x fem!reader x apollo

summary: Leo realizes that he messed it up a little... well no, he totally screwed up. And now he's going for you, he's going to tell you that he loves you, that you should be together for the rest of your lifes oooh, wait. Are you married with Apollo? THE GOD APOLLO? warnings: THIS IS SO LONG, HAHA but another one? mmm nope, i don't think so. a/n: yeaaaah, the concept you gave me is so hilarious, i love it. Leo is literally my boyfriend but making him suffer makes me laugh, it's like YES DAMN CRY FOR ME, but whatever. i was even inspired by that song by my beloved Beatles. i hope you like it.

w/c: 2.617 (the longest I've done so far, followed by "lovelorn")

Apollo wanted to laugh, he really wanted to, but he had learned not to make fun of other people's shit, but damn, could you blame him? He definitely never thought that Leo Valdez was an opponent for him, don't get him wrong, he was saying it because he likes him. (really) and helped him during his mission, but there, standing from his palace on Olympus, he could see everything, including if someone was threatening against you, his wife.

Flames rose as Leo threw the map into the air in fury, totally frustrated in Festus. He couldn't find you, in fact, Apollo kept wondering how he was tracking you, but he didn't seem to want to answer that question. No, or he would end his patience, yes, he had appreciation for the Son of Hephaestus, but when they messed with you, he would lose his mind immediately, or worse, try to get into their relationship? He would be in charge of throwing Leo from the Mount Olympus.

Of course, he wasn't afraid, much less jealous, but he knew what the relationship with Leo had meant to you. You were totally in love, even Apollo knows that you would have married him if only Leo hadn't screwed things up, and boy did he do it big.

He mean, cheating on you with the now ex-sorceress Calypso? Oh, man. Who the fuck would cheat on you? Hmm, yes, Leo Valdez.

The main doors of the palace opened and Apollo dissolved the image. Some murmurs were heard, followed by footsteps heading towards the main throne room, it was definitely you.

— Apollo?— He heard the doors opening, and he stood in front of the fire, he didn't want to lie to you, but he couldn't interfere either, he knew that would make you upset. The footsteps approached and he felt you take his arm. — Apollo!—

He looked at you and feigned surprise. He raised both hands in welcome and cradled your face with them before giving you a chaste kiss on the lips. — My beautiful wife.

You closed your eyes when his lips touched yours, and you smiled tenderly.

— Dear husband — You said in a soft mocking tone. You used to do it when Apollo couldn't help but sound so… posh. But to tell the truth, he filled you with joy.

He ran his fingers over your forehead, removing some baby hairs, and made a golden wreath of laurels appear on the crown of your head. He always spent his time adorning you and making you feel loved, you loved him.

Then, Apollo forced himself to blow out the bubble.

— Do you want something, dear?

— I know we're on… — your cheeks turned pink — the honeymoon, but I need to go to Camp Jupiter.

Your pleading eyes, damn, not even Zeus would dare say no to you. Then, he realized what was happening. Apollo tried to hide the realization from himself, but that name began to swirl in his mind; The Fates. Those antiques would hear about him.

—The honeymoon is an old concept, with traditions that we really don't take so… literally anymore —Apollo said as he gently ran his fingers over your blushing cheeks. —So, you know you can come and go whenever you want. I'm not like my uncle Hades.

The blonde giggled, and you poked his arm, making him jump.

— Apollo!

— My love!

You looked at him with a frown, and he smiled even more, trying to push aside all those thoughts where you could get hurt.

It was a fact, you were going to meet Leo at Camp Jupiter, and he wouldn't be able to do anything.

He caressed your face once more and turned, walking to the large window of the great room.

You felt bad leaving him alone, you didn't want to leave him like that, but you were in the last semesters of your degree. Yes, you were on vacation, but you had to leave some paperwork behind.

— I won't take a second.

Apollo let out a short laugh, full of knowledge. He knew it would take you at least a day and a half to get back to him. He turned to you and walked slowly.

—Just come back to me, dear.

Your eyes shone, and you walked the distance he needed to close the distance between you. You took his hands and kissed his knuckles.

— Always.

He turned his hands so that he was the one holding yours now and made a wedding ring appear on your ring finger. When you looked at the diamond, you raised your eyebrow and your look became amused.

—Do you mark your territory?

Apollo smiled and kissed your forehead.

— In case some fool hasn't heard the great news that I am your husband.

The fool was Leo, yes. Apollo said it for him, if not, for who else?

Your husband had done you a favor and made you appear right at the entrance to Camp Jupiter, advantages of a god making you his wife. When the campers guarding the doors saw you, they immediately opened it for you.

You excused yourself and made your way towards New Rome, in fact, you hesitated whether to go there first or go say hello or… If you would meet them anyway near the university.

You walked to the limit.

You loved New Rome, it was definitely home to you, at least when you had to stay on campus during the semester. But to live the rest of your life there would also have been pleasant, although Mount Olympus wasn't bad.

You made your way and some looked at you. So, you quickened your pace, you didn't like to attract a lot of attention like that.

You moved quickly towards the university and found the campus. Blessed be the gods.

You clutched the papers to your chest and walked.

— HEY!

You turned around slowly, not really wanting any questions. But you turned completely around when you saw Frank holding hands with Hazel, trying to reach you.

— GUYS!

They both caught up to you and smiled hungrily. They wanted to hug you, but they backed out at the last moment, which made you frown.

— What was that?

Frank started babbling and Hazel laughed nervously.

—Can we hug you?

You laughed and threw yourself at both of them, so you hugged at the same time. — You fools, I'm the same as always. Just how married and that's it.

Frank denied. — WITH APOLLO

Hazel punched him in the belly, making him double over. The three of you laughed, and then she looked at you nervously.

—Have you seen anyone else? —She asked. You denied.

— I figured Percy and Annabeth would be in New York for the holidays. Nico and Will, Camp Half-Blood, Jason finishing his accounting for the new altars. Piper, in Oklahoma… — You made loops with your hand and thought if you had forgotten someone.

Hazel looked at Frank, and he encouraged her to say whatever had them both acting that way.

Hazel sighed.

—Leo arrived in the morning.

Your expression did not change at all, a reaction that your friends had not expected.

— AND?

Frank scratched the back of his neck nervously. — He is actually searching for you.

Then your eyebrows raised, showing your confusion.

— what? — You snorted. You looked for any sign that it was a joke, but there was none. — So? Do I owe him money?

Hazel laughed nervously and shook her head.

— I think he's looking for you because he wants to fix things with you.

— He's desperate — Frank agreed.

You laughed sarcastically.

—But he knows that I'm already married, right?

— Apparently… no one told him.

— What? — You asked again, raising your voice a little more. Both exchanged nervous glances. You mean, how far is Indianapolis? — Wait, he was with Calypso, he literally cheated on me with her because he said she was the love of his life.

The two of them raised their shoulders and you scoffed.

—Anyway, I'll leave these documents and go off to enjoy what's left of the vacation. Apollo waits for me. Will you accompany me?

Damn, the three of you were about to enter when you heard someone call your name, then Hazel's and finally Frank's, he was definitely the one who turned around, consequently forcing you and Hazel to do the same.

What your eyes saw were priceless. It was Leo running across campus with half his shirt burned and a desperate expression. Your heart raced, and your feet wanted to run away, instead, you stayed still and speechless.

—You are seeing the same thing, right?

Your friends nodded.

—He wasn't like this when we last saw him— Hazel said, forcing a smile and shaking her hand at Leo.

Leo had stopped at Camp Jupiter for supplies, also to check that you weren't there, and you definitely weren't there when he arrived, but rumors spread fast. You wondered if your ex-boyfriend had heard about why everyone was whispering about your arrival, but it seemed like not, or at least he seemed to ignore it.

And so it was.

Fate, the planets, and the stars aligned to ensure that Leo was ignorant about it, so that you would be the one to deal the final blow.

Things with Calypso didn't work out, why? Leo couldn't get you off his mind. Oh, what had he done? He literally cried like a baby when he realized he still loved you. He loved you, you loved him, so as always, he had to screw up.

Leo ran harder; He was taller, a little stockier, and his curls were fluffier than ever. Everything you used to worship was probably just a shadow of its former self. You weren't saying that he was bad, but you definitely no longer felt anything for him, although you couldn't help but feel a tug in your tummy full of melancholy, pain, and anger.

You had already forgiven him, but his recklessness made you want to kill him.

With little breath, Leo crouched down in front of you, grabbing his knees and looking for air.

You took a step back, your face dripping with confusion.

Hazel and Frank looked at him disapprovingly.

—I've been looking for you—he finally said.

— That's what I heard.

Leo stood up and wanted to hug you. To your surprise, you didn't stop him. You missed your friend Leo Valdez. Not your cheating ex-boyfriend, Leo Valdez.

Frank and Hazel screamed and became nervous.

—I've missed you.— He said, breathing softly, taking in pinches of your scent.

Your heart clenched and you forced yourself to smile.

—Me too, Leo.

That gave him courage. He broke the hug and gently took you by the arms.

— I was wrong… — His brown eyes projected remorse and sorrow. — I was seriously wrong, I shouldn't have…

The son of Hephaestus took a deep breath.

— I betrayed your trust. I put your love aside to think that my place was with someone else, but what a jerk… My place has always been with you. You are the one I love the most. Please forgive me …

Those words, as you would have liked to hear them so long ago, but now they were slipping over you, completely meaningless.

—Leo…

— Please! Give me another chance.

His plea resonated, drawing the attention of some residents. They took it as just a student love situation until they saw you. Oh shit, weren't you the wife of the great Apollo?

— Leo, you see… No. We can't have another chance.

Leo's heart beat so fast that he felt like it would jump out of his heart. He held you a little tighter and leaned down.

He was going to kiss you.

— No! — Hazel gasped and Frank hid behind her.

People around the campus seemed on the edge of their seats, they even plead the gods for Apollo didn't appear out of nowhere and incinerate them all. The god was definitely struggling to control his breathing from the palace. Where did his Yoga classes go? Someone meditate with him, please! He wanted to hang Leo.

You put a hand on Leo's lips, and he felt something cold. You slowly pushed him away with a frown on your face.

— I said no.

You turned your hand and revealed the glow of the diamond to his view. The Sun made it look ethereal because, well, it was.

Leo's soul fell at his feet, and he shook his head in confusion.

—I don't… I don't understand.

— I'm married, Leo. I married someone. Did you think I would be heartbroken since you

cheated on me with Calypso? That I will wait for you? — You snorted and pushed him gently.

— But with who?! Who the fuck-

You put your hand over his mouth again and shook your head.

—Don't do that.— You sighed brokenly and tried to do it delicately. If you named Apollo, everything could go to Tartarus. —He considers you for helping him during his mission as a mortal.

The gossipers laughed, some adults denied indignantly, and their friends, shit, Frank was almost having a heart attack fearing that Apollo would burn Leo to ashes.

—Apollo? —He said, with even greater confusion.

The god was still clinging to the edge of his throne, expectant.

You looked above and came to the conclusion that he was giving your ex-boyfriend a break. That action fell like a bucket of cold water on the son of Hephaestus.

He walked away from you.

— what?

You turned your gaze and caressed his cheek kindly. — I don't hold a grudge against you, Leo. I loved you so much. But I found someone who did not doubt his love for me and without thinking wanted to grow with me.

The boy shook his head and stumbled as he relented, leaving your hands suspended in the air. A gust of sweet air embraced them in that silent moment.

He let you go and thought he might have you back.

You were his friend, his confidant, and the love of his life, yet he let you go.

He disguised his doubts with bad jokes, dishonest touches, and lies.

How could he have been so stupid?

Haha, there goes the idiot that lost the love of his life to a god.

How could a love like the one you used to possess lose?

Look at me, then, Leo said to himself.

You returned with Apollo and your nerves were overwhelming you. This time you felt so distant to the palace, as if you were not worthy to enter. Still, they received you and welcomed you.

— is in his room.

You thanked and headed to the bedroom. Taking care not to be noisy and watch your steps.

Being at the foot of the entrance, the door opened and revealed your husband. Smiling?

Apollo opened the door and pulled you into the room. You couldn't help but laugh.

Your clothing magically changed upon entering, your modern clothes replaced by a white robe edged with gold. Your hair now adorned with laurels and golden jewels.

The jingle of jewelry amidst your loved one's laughter seemed like the most exquisite sound to you. He held you in his arms and hid her face in the crook of your neck.

You stroked his fluffy blonde curls.

— Welcome.

He said, bumping his forehead against yours.

— Did you miss me?— You said with humor. Apollo kissed your lips, instantly making you feel disoriented. He traced your cheek, your chin, and your neck. Kissed you behind your ear and hummed.

— I know I told you it would be fine if you went, but gods, how I missed you. Don't leave me the rest of your holidays.

You nodded.

That was your home.

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