#which i am just abt to change

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[von-karmas-a-bitch]

you’ve got this!!

girl help i have no context ghskfhskbf thanks for whatever it is you're trying to pep talk me abt

#if i had to guess it's probably abt me rambling in the tags abt how i've been stuck in a mental illness tar pit #that caused me to run out of meds and subsequently get worse and ghost my found family grandparents for like 5 months fhsjhfjsgf #i am indeed on the verge of breaking my failgirl streak so i do got this you're right anon #the plan is to go to the farm and apologise for my disappearing act tomorrow around noon #since i feel like i can finally start volunteering consistently now bc im this close 👌 to getting back on top of shit #i actually did so much today im proud of myself #deep cleaned the degus' cages and gave them fresh bedding and they are very happy now bc making their nests is like their fave activity #especially sam he would honestly rather you give him a piece of toilet paper than a treat one man's trash truly is another man's treasure #and i took my laundry down (will put it away after I've done the other stuff i need to do) and hung my sister's up for her #(she batch cooked a bunch of meals for us and also does the bulk of housework as well as work work bc my ass is unemployed so like #it's older sibling reparations yknow. i gotta do stuff for her sometimes to lighten the load a bit lmao) #and i helped her take the bins out #and bc i have been living in my pajamas for an embarrassingly long while i have no more laundry to do aside from my bedsheets #which i am just abt to change #and THEN im gonna put my laundry away and answer that other ask #then im gonna be all caught up on Stuff I Need To Do and then volunteering at the farm will be the only thing i have to do #which will thus make it doable bc it won't make me too exhausted to do other stuff bc there is no other stuff to do #and then i will resume the usual thing where i don't go in on weekends and get the other stuff done then #i will of course inevitably burn out again but such is life when you have mental illness up the wazoo #honestly if the doctors were open on weekends that would solve a lot of my problems bc i keep forgetting to order my meds #and then i remember on the weekend but then they're closed and im like ok on monday then #and then by the time monday rolls around i forget rinse and repeat #im on the verge of running out again but fuck it we ball #i will figure this out somehow #im on top of literally everything else at least so. here's to hoping i can make it in on monday #apologies to my sister in advance for the 5 million alarms i must set but i am a very heavy sleeper #asks

[queenkinqs]

people love to talk about invincible for it's over the top gore and violence, but i really do think the show's writing is at it's best when it's just two people have a conversation

#LIKE UGH #this scene + 'you dad. i'd still have you' are probably my two fave scenes in the entire show like WOWW #the casualness...the familiarity.....the intimacy........like wow #you can tell just how much rex and eve care for each other despite the fact that rex has hurt eve so deeply #and you can tell how much rex regrets hurting eve just based on how he talks about all of the stuff that eve went through on her own #and how rex was given the opportunity to grow and change because of her LIKE!!!!! #also all the references to the rex splode prequel comic...rex hiding in her room for a year...eve showing rex her family portrait #(which didnt happen in the comic so i am assuming their gonna add it to their eventual adaptation of the comic plz) #AND EVE my beautiful princess who deserves the world and then some #atom eve #rex splode #invincible #shut up birdy #that one oomf who doesnt play abt rex and eve

[soranker]

hi….! any chance we can see your art process ? it’s fine if not! i was wondering if u do a sketch before your lines or you just skip directly to lineart? your art is very beautiful!

HI!!! AUGGHHHJHH THANK YOU SOOOO MUCH T__T my art style is kinda simple imo so my process is pretty bare-bones ^^;; there's not rly much too it!! it also kinda changes depending on how uhhhh lazy im feeling in the moment HAHA

probably around half of my drawings are straight to line art bc they're rly just doodles or things i decide to draw without any planning (but also im kinda impatient so i try to skip the sketching step if i can LOL...). but if i DO have a specific pose in mind for a drawing, i'll start with a sort of mannequin sketch or loose pass, then depending on how messy it is, ill either do the lineart pass on the layer on top or duplicate the sketch and then clean it up.

and then my coloring process is not sophisticated at all i just create a new layer and then paint bucket tool away LMAOOOO

here's an example of a drawing where i did sketch first ^_^

#clarification on the second image: usually when i make changes to the sketch i just go straight to lineart rather than doing a second pass #which i what i did for this drawing. i just like to minimize how many sketch passes i do (again bc i am impatient and lazy lol) #but also bc personally i get frustrated when my lineart doesnt turn out like my sketch so the solution my brain came up with is to.. #...skip sketching i guess LMAO;; #idk if this was helpful or not AHGHAAH my process is rly nothing fancy and there's not much to show T_T; #ALSO OMFG IM SOOOOOO SORRY THIS TOOK ME SO LONG TO RESPOND TO GKJFHDJG THIS WAS SENT LIKE A MONTH AGO I THINK T_____T #i saw this when i got off the plane coming home from a trip and then i remembered it a few days later #but then in the middle of writing my answer i left to eat dinner and forgot to save so when i came back the page refreshed #and deleted everything i wrote T____T AND THEN IFORGOT ABT IT AGAIN

[strawbebbiesart]

every bird is a metaphor 🐦🌿

#sasha's art #digital art #my personal favourites #illustration #artists on tumblr #illustrators on tumblr #hello i am Back!! #i got these two birds tattooed on my Body #over my ribs on my right side #so i decided to also make a little alphonse mucha-inspired background for them with irises #which are flowers representing Change #i will not write out the Meaning of the tattoo here cos i am Lazy but i am open 2 talking abt it #oh also for christmas my mom got me this one piece notebook and she was So Proud of it #she was like ''sasha i looked Everywhere cos theres no anime stores in our home town but i managed to find this'' #and like the thing is. i don't love one piece #like i have nothing Against it i have just never seen / read it #but i appreciate n love the notebook cos she was So Proud #my sister is the one piece lover #it's funny i love it thanks mom!! #i think it's cute how hard she tried

[yaboisnelf]

i hate them i hate them i hate them i hate them i hope they explode

johnny cage and kenshi sketches from mk1

#AHHHHHHGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHH #i cant escape the johnny cage brainrot hes INFECTED ME #hes like a fungus. a parasite. im in love with him #sry no dc sry for not posting i think i need a new ipad mine is. exploding. #anyways i think johnny cage is part filipino and no one can stop me. #wah wah wah he makes his ex wives and husband and kids adobo and lumpia and homemade sauce and hes sooooo confident abt it #which is so upsetting cus hes just too good #he makes dessert that is also a spanish slur and sonya will go 😐 every time he says it cus he purposely makes it around her just to say it #which is me saying puerto rican sonya canon #i am insane ❤️ #me vs backgrounds btw just ignore it. ill prob come back and change it when i get home/wake up yk but for now. ugly. #anyways #johnshi #kenshi takahashi #johnny cage #takahashi kenshi #johnathan carlton #sketch #digital art #procreate #i ❤️ tagging

[bluecubeblues]

so are we like, disembodied voices to you guys?

★ PREV | FIRST | NEXT ★

#jsab #just shapes and beats #jsab fanart #ask #jsab sad cube #sad cube #jsab triangle #ally #iris #OK OK I LOVE DROPPING VAGUE LORE HINTS #YAAAY #my favorite part abt this is that the reason why every1 so far has reacted so nonchalantly to the Disembodied Voices #is because they are used to it #which means when we (eventually) encounter someone who is not used to it #it will be quite funny #auuuhh also we should make a counter for every time i change how i draw clouds in the middle of a comic #i dont know why clouds are as difficult as they are but. augh #also i am trying so hard to be cryptic yet have things Make Sense at the same time #i am implying somethin in this comic i hope it os obvious (apologies i am dense) #(and this is my first time eehhhh. writing something like this) #oh well. im doing my best !

[grantwilsonenjoyer]

something so funny about matt saying "its just like shooting a deer!" about grant killing the chimera. and freddies "yeah but no one has had to TELEFRAG a DEER"

#dungeons and daddies #dndads #grant wilson #also #gestures to all the hero oak swallows garcia art about her having to kill deer specifically #matthew you did not reach your target audience with that one LMAO 😭 #i get what hes saying & how he wouldnt necessarily think abt the impact of it in the moment when he suggested it #HOWEVER i also disagree bc i feel like after Listening Back to that arc it is quite clear how that would be traumatic idk #i agree w freddie. like shooting something is one thing but ?! #idk . IDK i am just rambling #i am giving matt some grace though bc I understand his frustration w/ people using the chimera thing to make darryl seem like a horrible da #darryl wilson my beloved u are such a good father #idk i think people ignoring how much darryl changes in his efforts to talk to grant r ignoring a major part of grants character #which is that no matter how much someone loves/supports you it isnt going to suddenly get rid of ur trauma #ahem. Anyways. darryl is a wonderful dad and grant loves him very much 🩷 #I should write something about them hmm

[forbiddennhoney]

im begging people to turn on the post dates for your feed bc sometimes i see ppl rb advice with good intentions but the advice is from 2010-2017 and therefore is WILDLY outdated!!!! and that's not good!!!!!

#personal #like well intentions are one thing #but advice from that time period esp abt very important things like healthcare finances homelessness etc is VERY outdated #as someone who lived thru some of the shit recently that ppl rb this stuff abt #like please please please i am begging #this information/advice is not timeless! nd changes CONSTANTLY #and PLEASE READ THE POSTS CRITICALLY???? #i saw someone rb a homelessness advice post recently that suggested hitchhiking to the midwest or south which is TERRIBLE advice- #-if u arent a thin white cis (passing) str8 (passing) able bodied person!!!! #which lbr the ppl most affected by homelesness are queer & trans & mentally/physically ill black & brown ppl #ive seen posts being shared saying that homelessness isn't THAT bad if u just shop cheap - whcih is ALSO not true?????? #im harping a little on homelessness bc thats admittedly some of the biggest shit ive seen w/ this issue #but yeah just. please turn on the dates and use criitcal thinking b4 rbing any and all “advice” posts #there Are people out there who write well intentioned advice that is extremely dangerous #there are people out there who wrote advice that was good for when it was posted but not now #there are even ppl out there who write fake advice that is legitimately dangerous for people to do #just. please

[dennisboobs]

plain and simple i am not going to be able to remain in this fandom long-term if i have to keep putting disclaimers on every single one of my posts that say i don't condone dennis' bad, bad actions and that i am in fact aware he's got a history of sexual assault and dubious/nonconsent. the entire gang has done heinous shit. why is dennis the only one who needs to be treated like this? if some rando wants to post about how dennis is pookie pie that doesn't automatically mean they're blind to his crimes. every single member of the gang is a piece of shit. that's kind of the point.

draw dennis with cat ears who give a shit

#ada speaks #i'm not vagueing this is a constant thing ive experienced #i still have angry anons sitting in my askbox mad that i didn't explicitly condemn him last time i got into this #i'm really not a fan of the tension in the fandom the last few days #and like. i know its a hot button issue rn. everyone's going back and forth abt mac and dennis' SA #but this fandom genuinely does have an issue SPECIFICALLY MENTIONING things mac does to dennis and uwu-ifying them #when they are explicitly classified as SA in canon (which is an actual present issue i think needs to be addressed) #rather than like. just the mere MENTION of dennis outside of his SA is somehow condoning his actions #im sorry but i really do not feel the need to constantly talk about him assaulting women #everyone knows. everyone sees it. just bc i am dissecting other parts of his character does not mean i forgot he's a horrible person #it just means im trying to understand where he's coming from (which obviously does not change the facts.) #viewing dennis as a person with unresolved trauma stemming from elsewhere doesn't negate the damage he is doing to other people #he's not a real person where humanizing him does tangible damage #so i am going to continue to look into shit. when i talk about the CSA he went through it's not a justification. #but it does explain his actions in a character motivation type way which is what i am interested in #seeing what makes him tick #i think most people who follow me understand this by now. but i also don't think shit we see him do constantly in canon needs bringing up. #it's the subtle stuff that ties everything together and i want to put it all together to solve a puzzle

[marblerose-rue]

click for better quality!!

dovewing / ivypool

#my art #do not copy trace or steal #dovewing #ivypool #warriors #waca #wc art #warrior cats #SQUINTS . i hope i got all of the needed tags before i can ramble #HI!!!!! SORRY ITS BEEN A WHILE #college is going ok!! not fantastic not awful its a good middle. a few personal things have been going on #ORIGINALLY THIS WAS GONNA BE AN OC THING W MARBLEROSE but then i changed my mind last minute #and i didnt care abt making the quality any better so we're all stuck with this AHBFDJKHGB #I just got plagued with the most intense hiccups and its rlly disrupting my train of thought #IVE GOT A BUNCH not rlly its two DRS APPOINTMENTS AT THE END OF OCTOBER as well as my birthday u_u #also new dove and ivy designs bc i also dont have access to any of my old files . like at all . so unless i sent old wc designs in a chat #with someone or drew them recently i do not have them </3 WHICH SUCKS bc that goes for a few of my ocs but luckily i can just draw #them from memory and it sticks bc who am i gonna bother . i can just pass it off as a redesign AHBKJHFDGDHFGBDHJFGB #hope youre all doing well!!!

[puppyeared]

man ok so you know the spiciness scale on menus that show you how spicy a dish is so you can order based on your tolerance. can we have that for sauces too please

#im being serious btw. the sauce to rice ratio is very important and sacred to me #whenever i eat at home i get to choose how much sauce i can have with my rice because i dont like absolutely dousing it but i still wanna b #able to taste it yanno. i dont do well with slippery/saucy foods and ive given up trying to understand it. it might be a sensory thing #i am so sorry to admit this on the soup website but i cant handle thick/chunky sauces or curry. forgive me #the worst part is that i actually can handle and even enjoy some like caldereta and congee. but its so hard to tell people ill eat this but #not that.. its embarassing because it feels like im making exceptions. which i am!! because its preference!! but alas #but anyway with the sauce scale. i was thinking it would be nice to include a scale for how much sauce you want with a dish #rather than just skirting away from a food because you feel like you cant handle the texture or feel unsure about it #sauce could be adjustable without completely changing the recipe so it would be more like a matter of quantity or serving size #also i feel like i can make cool names for the scale. like “light drizzle” to “sauceageddon” #im asian so when i eat sauce i pair it with rice and it works because the rice kind of cancels out or makes the sauce more tolerable for me #with caldereta i make it an even 50/50 because i can taste it in the rice without the texture getting in the way #but with pasta and sauce its normally 1/3 sauce because the pasta normally isnt enough to cancel it out #i also grew up with relatives making fun of my eating habits and i really really hate eating at restaurants and gatherings because of it #maybe its because they want to make sure im eating right but!! you dont have to call me out for my 1/3 portion of spaghetti sauce!! damn!!! #anyway im not sure if anyone feels the same abt this and maybe its just me. but it would be really nice to have this a normal thing #without judging ppl for their eating habits and preferences. on god #yapping #food ment #EDIT: ASKING FOR SAUCE ON THE SIDE. MY EYES HAVE BEEN OPENED. I DIDNT KNOW THAT WAS A THING

[todaviia]

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#The funniest thing abt my job is that I am now an expert re the most obscure border and law changes in Europe 1918-1990 #Did you know that the Saarland had a quite liberal citizenship law in the years of its existence as an independent state 1948-1956 #which means formerly stateless Jewish Saarländer and their descendants are sometimes Germans without knowing it #did you know what a headache the whole Danziger Korridor thing Was? #Also Danzig had its own citizenship 1920-1939 BUT Poland hated this and since Danzig had no foreign consulates #these matters were handled by Poland for Danzigers abroad... except Polish consulates usually just handed them Polish passports #Also all of the formerly Russian empire Jews who lived abroad when that fell apart just... did whatever they wanted #I've seen one guy who was listed as simultaneously Polish and stateless who somehow talked a small Austrian village #into giving him a passport because his last residence within kuk borders was Vienna #I know ppl on here know but... national identity and citizenship and so on is so incredibly made up

[jinstronaut]

this is also why i stopped using my tracked tag for a while tbh

#and i might do it again bc its just #a reminder that no one rly cares abt what i do / who i am etc #which might sound over dramatic idk how else to describe it tho its just hollow #it feels very much like a Chore and a Task and if i dont reblog things fast enough from my tag #people get very angry and/or upset with me even tho theres just #so much content and i have 0 time so everything gets queued no matter what #like this whole experience feels like a chore lmao #and it never ever used to #but now theres so much animosity if i dont behave / interact with things Properly #or whatever the make believe rules are idk #this dash can just be so negative like have we all truly descended into madness during this hiatus #bc like i get it ive been up and down and all around too but ive never been straight up MEAN to anyone in this community #and i never want to either so this entire situation thats been bubbling for months just feels like shit #bc what the fuck changed and how do we get back to where we were #i never ever ever ever felt this way before like idk the middle of last year #but ever since like last fall its just been idk. Bad #once again im sorry if ive ever done anything to upset anyone but my silence / absence doesnt mean i dont care #ive just been Incredibly busy due to some real life changes that are out of my control #i might not have energy to answer everything but i do Read everything and it does make me smile #and i save messages that are kind in my heart so i can be reminded of the root of what this blog is supposed to be #a space for something im very passionate about and previously had nowhere else to express said passion #so like idk if we all like the same things why does this weird feeling of competition linger over us lmao #why do all ccs have to fight???? each other???? when we all love and do the same things???? #i have nothing against anyone personally but what i Do take issue with is the way that ive been doing this since 2021 and im fully just #ignored and shoved aside by so many people for reasons i fully dont know or understand #so yeah idk this is a novel i just woke up from a spontaneous nap bc im so exhausted i can only stay awake for 3 hours at a time #but yeah anyways idk ! #be nice its so easy ! #tbd

[boxwinebaddie]

i'm a writer! what you do Mean i can't just post Every Deranged Unedited Paragraph of the thing i'm working on until i actually finish it, but by then, the actual thrill of reading what i’ve written is Ruined??

#nina speaks #literally this what gets me everytime #because i am annoying and want to show you guys things i've written bc i'm excited about them #but then its like what are you guys even going to read #like my drafts are always adapting and changing bc i'm a perfectionist and i get nervous easily so i scrap things #which i hope no one was too attached to that jersey dialogue it was fucking illegible its gonna be so legible i swear #but also like i feel like the nature of this blog is i kinda just spoil whatever i want and yall are on my magic school bus #please enjoy the ride and hold the oh shit handles lmaooo #i say that bc i'm the passenger princess and can't drive #but its okay yall i just drive the car at whatever angel number i feel is right <3 its gods problem now its up to you bestie xx #but yeah sometimes i just write something funny and want to share it lmao with some context or ask u abt stuff idk #BUT ALSO I GUESS THATS WHAT RILEY AND TERI ARE FOR #tear it up terina nation lmaooo