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Loving back didn't come easy for Will Graham.

Hannibal is dangerous and difficult to love. It seems easy for Will to love him back because it is in his nature to forgive. You forgive like how God forgives. Will knows what Hannibal is and somewhat blames himself for bringing out Hannibal's monster. For creating the hungry monster lurking beneath white masks. He feels like Hannibal's God. It's easy for Will to forgive his errs because he knows that he created this Hannibal's monster. Like how God forgives your sins because he too made you in his image.

#biblical references #hannibal nbc #hannigram #3 am thoughts

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Why am I reminded of Will Graham when I see this?

it's always so fascinating and heartbreaking when a character in a story is simultaneously idolized and abused. a chosen prophet destined for martyrdom. a child prodigy forced to grow up too fast. a powerful warrior raised as nothing but a weapon. there's just something so uniquely messed up about singing someone's praises whilst destroying them.

#hannibal nbc

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Forget about it, the shit-show, that is finals szn, just ended and I'm currently raw dogging a new semester so , 4 hours of sleep which is a good 44.4% of my total sleep required. FUCK ME, like I genuinely need to be fucked harder than the voices in my head.

And the cherry on top, an existential crisis and me writing a new fanfiction with just filthy porn in mind even though if I had a dick, I would say that I can't get it up for perpetuity now.

It's me and my niche hyper-fixations and my 9 hrs of sleep against this world.

#colorful words #vent

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I desperately needed an omega!will graham au where he smells like a fucking tranquilizer and is able to calm alphas easily with just his scent but the catch is that he can't smell himself and is unaffected by alpha pheromones so Hannibal has to actually grovel on the ground for Will to finally accept him as his alpha.

So, I am in the midst of writing one

#yup #i actually cried #alpha hannibal lecter #omega will graham #a/b/o dynamics #ao3 link

[baozi1698]

I desperately needed an omega!will graham au where he smells like a fucking tranquilizer and is able to calm alphas easily with just his scent but the catch is that he can't smell himself and is unaffected by alpha pheromones so Hannibal has to actually grovel on the ground for Will to finally accept him as his alpha.

So, I am in the midst of writing one

#omegaverse #hannigram #hannibal nbc #omega will graham #alpha hannibal lecter #a/b/o dynamics #scent #scenting

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do you think the fyozai rival enemyship started because they both got called demon and wanted the rights over that name so it was a whole trademark copyright suing bodanza and dazai ended up winning the title a month before he quit the pm and now fyodors mad because he cant use the title but dazai doesnt even use it anymore

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#no because think about it #the man is HOT #hugh dancy #will graham #hannigram #hannibal nbc #quantico #i will die on this hill

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i wake up thirsty and i think of palestine. i go to the doctor’s office and i think of palestine. a sign in the corner of the waiting room says ‘this is a place of healing, disruptive behavior will not be tolerated’ and i think of palestine. they probably weren’t thinking of bombs and snipers and mass graves in parking lots. i call my parents and i think of palestine. i drive to the grocery store and i think of palestine. i look at the clear blue sky and i think of palestine. i put the dishes away and i think of palestine. i feed my cat and i think of palestine. i listen to music and i think of palestine. i read poetry and i think of palestine. i text my friends and i think of palestine. i think of palestine and i think of palestine and i think of palestine

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#hannigram #hannibal #intimacy #sleeping #dynamics #hugh dancy #hannibal lecter #hannibal nbc #gay men

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"Should I be concerned with my almost debilitating seasonal depression?" Always seems to be on debate for discussion when I'm trying to fucking sleep.

#dammit #fuckkkk #Suicidal tendencies but in a hot way #or atleast thats what my #maladaptive daydreaming #is telling me

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It's me and my niche hyper-fixations and my 9 hrs of sleep against this world.

#8 billion humans on god's green earth and you decide to fuck up a girl who's barely surviving #how do you know if someone is flirting w you #or if they want to kill you

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bsd introject culture is joking abt stuff that happened in other bsd introjects memories and just cracking jokes left and right knowing that we arent dying left and right OR on the verge of death !!!

-Ambroise , a Dazai fictive ★

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what a lot of bsd fans, especially the younger ones, don’t understand is why or under what circumstances characters are described as “childish.”

it’s always a slap in the face when i see someone say, “oh, Oda called Dazai a ‘crying child,’ and people still ship them? obviously he’s his father figure!”

i’m not gonna argue against the fact Oda could have been some sort of authoritative, caring, older, responsible guy to Dazai, but under no circumstances do i think Oda saw Dazai as a kid.

as far as BSD goes, Oda is one of the most respectful characters to other people’s perceptions of themselves. hell, he didn’t even see his orphans as children. he had a convo with one of the em in dark era that went something like this:

“It’s always so upsetting when Pops treats us like children. We’re not kids, y’know? We’re adults. Is the fact that we grew up so fast an issue for the grown-ups?”

“Mhm, it probably is.”

so, if Oda doesn’t see a literal eight-year-old as a child simply because he knows how mature he is, what makes people think he’d see Dazai of all people as one…?

the reason Oda described Dazai as wearing the expression of “a child about to cry” has nothing to do with his age or his maturity- it’s because there’s a distinct difference in the way adults and children cry.

when adults cry, it’s with the knowledge that they’re not the only one suffering. that the world isn’t against them, but instead, they probably got themselves into a bad situation. when children cry, it’s free from rationalization and logic, just pure unadulterated agony at something that may not even matter in the grand scheme of things.

it’s not that Dazai is dumb, can’t understand that the world doesn’t revolve around him, or seems like a kid to Oda, it’s that the chasm in his heart transcends the normal despair of what you’d expect to see in a grown-up. it’s the same flavor of raw pain that you can see a child display when something doesn’t go their way, the same blindness to anything outside of their own point of view.

Dazai looked like “a child on the brink of tears” because while walking into the outstretched gun of a sniper, he could only see his own abysmal emptiness.

Oda also described Mori as having a child-like grin or something of the sort, so if he sees Dazai as a kid because of that, i’m going to claim he saw the boss of the mafia who happens to be double his age as a kid, too.

this is just something that has been on my mind, especially since i’ve been seeing an influx of Oda dad content. everyone’s entitled to their own opinions and headcanons, of course, but it admittedly grates on me when people get attacked for something stupid like this, and since the tumblr bsd community seems to be forgiving, i’m talking about it here.

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Kinda wanna see Wei Wuxian being the only person to ascend among the generation (hypothetical yes, but stick with me here) because HELLO? he literally INVENTED demonic cultivation without a golden core. The amount of STEM energy tht man gives off and his morality complex? Unrivaled.

#wei wuxian #stem #mo dao zu shi #tian guan ci fu #genius #cus why not

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Happy Valentine's day, everyday for WangXian ❤