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#summer fruits #mango #strawberry #figs #pears

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#personal #happy #in love

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#lego #the office #personal #dwight you ignorant slut

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Happy babies

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#personal #personal photography #night street #night lights #streetphotography #red light #thailand #patong #phuket

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#personal #Happy #oman #salalah

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#oman #salalah #nature #natural trail #personal #personal photography #sunset #camel

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#oman #salalah #nature #natural trail #personal #personal photography #sunset #camel

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My baby Austin journey from sever infection to full recovery

#cat #ringwarm #personal #recovery

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#minimalistic #personal #driving

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#personal #happy #datenignt

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#cheese #wine #cozy #personal

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#personal #sunset #mountains #nature #camping #personal photography #canyon #saudi arabia

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My best friend ❤️

#personal #best friends

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I never thought that i would regain the faith in love, in destiny, and in myself.

I was convinced that I'm bound to a life of distractions, self-hatred, and self-destruction.. but she's rapidly changing all of that, she's swiftly mending my wonds, and introducing me to a life i never thought would exist..

I know for fact this is not the magic of new starts, this is far beyond romanticising, it's destiny, a kind soul came my way to reserict me..

I love her, so much, and i want nothing now but to keep her happy by my side, all life long..

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Throughout last year, ever since Joanne and me decided to brake up, I've been living in a cycle of self-hatred, hopelessness, self-doubt.. i thought I'm incapable of loving anyone nor myself.

I've started to see many; casual hookups and dating, nothing seemed to work, everything felt like it was a sort of self hurt, i felt like an alien.

Until one day i met her, Nada. From the moment we've meet something sparked inside of me.. the comfort my heart felt was so strong, for a moment i forgot how bad i hate myself.

We kept talking for over 9 hours, not noticing the time nor anything else.

Near a beach, three hours past midnight, no one esle around.. a magical first kiss, it felt like from a long lost lover. I can't remember the last time i did anything that felt as right and as good.

Only a month have passed, but with every day passing we get closer. With every moment together she mend something in me that i thought was unfixable.

She managed to resurrect me, and took over all my thoughts and feelings.

She made me feel worthy again, and for that I'll be always grateful.

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It's a new start, a beautiful one.

I'll do everything i can to make it grow beautifully.

#personal #new start

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This post is triggering; please don't read if you're already feeling low

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I shall be relocating soon to a project in the middle of the desert, at the northwest corner of Saudi, with a minimum of 12 hours of travel time to anywhere else.

Away from her, away from the lavish life, away from my loved ones, away from any chance to start over.

I just need my mind to slow down, to be quieter, to get grounded.

Today was the first time I searched for divorce procedures, and the first time we talked about it,

It was heavy to talk about, heavy on my stone cold heart.

I'm surrendering to depression again, I guess. I was starting to get better, I thought.

My insecurities are surfacing, ocean of self-doubt. I feel like an imposter, like I don't deserve more than what I've already got.

The void moments are starting to happen more often; it's like getting sucked into a hot vacuum chamber.

It shall pass, like it always did, and always will.

Fun fact: some of the rocks and stones in the project site are a billion years old.

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