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Thinking about how after the DMA reveal, Owen says Curt's name 11 times, and Curt does not say Owen's name once. Even when the reveal happens, Curt isn't the one to say "Owen?," Tatiana says that. @loverlylight had a tally up a while back (that I'm like 90% sure I'm remembering correctly) and that fact just lives in my brain.
It's almost like Curt just cannot accept that this guy, the guy who tortured him, is Owen. That is Owen. That is what happened to Owen after what Curt did to him. After he screwed up and left Owen to die. Like, if he says Owen's name he'll have to accept some kind of responsibility for what happened to him. Like he can't put Owen down if he has to think of him as Owen Carvour, his ex-lover, the man he abandoned.
Owen says Curt's name so many times, I think because that has been the focal point of his anger for so long. Because he loved Curt so much and his last memories before being horrifically injured and losing consciousness were of Curt running away. And every time Owen says Curt's name it's sort of shaky, emotional, frustrated, heartbroken, irritated, pissed off. Like he's poking at a wound and reopening it, like he needs to remind himself how much he hates Curt in order to kill him. But he just can't manage to do it.