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Sad and stuck in my head

A disobedient boy awake in bed

Songs that inflict pain on my heart

Caress my ears and tear me apart

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ehhh

I’m so tired of not trying and almost being forced to lie, my life hasn’t been that great but I’ve really been attempting at making the best of it I can, but that shit hasn’t been easy. plenty of times have I wanted to take my own life, or start cutting again. But I’ve stuck to my decision to make life okay again, but day after day I grow tired of trying to fake it hard enough to where it seems real to me... Which it doesn’t. I’ve left so much behind for her, many dreams are at a standstill because I CAN'T DO SHIT. Maybe I can, I’m just so fucking lazy that it never seems to actually flow. I don’t feel any creative motivation. I lack enthusiasm and I dread work of any form. My life is pitiful and I bet that’s one of the many reasons I’m so alone. I’ve really been trying but I’m not happy. at all. I don’t remember the last time I had a week of just being okay. It’s always been like this, and I dunno if I’m really willing to put up with another year of feeling so lonely. I’m going to make it through life because I’m too much of a pussy to kill myself. But that doesn’t mean I’m not in a hell of a lot of pain. When does this shit get better??? Just curious lmao

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the end

Nothing is working  Everything is hurting Haven’t felt so alone in a million years Yet I haven’t shed many tears In fact, I haven’t shed any because that’s a waste of time The obstacles seem impossible to climb Find myself questioning if it’s worth the trouble  But procrastination makes my worries double  I find joy in nothing And I’ve given up on trusting Can’t seem to find the right song I don’t know if I even belong I have no clique or group of friends A stormy night, a softly humming radio sings as another young life ends

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Sailing so far

On an ocean so blue

Twinkling stars remind me of you

Drunken captain, and a terrible crew

And there’s nothing I can do

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Never prayed

Exhaling exhaustion

A run away, left with no option

At a single glance you stole my heart

You’re a wonder, a true beauty in disguise

Who would’ve guessed the devil lay behind those eyes

Another cursed soul, doomed to walk alone

No, I refuse to stay still. I won’t be another clone

Reset my hard drive, and make perfect

And object, simply a failed project

Nothing left to protect, feeling worthless

Think about the things I promised I’d purchase

Nah baby I quit it with the sorry shit

Promised you I’d never quit, no time to second guess

Possessed by gods, I’ll make a change

Sorry babe it was my soul I had to exchange.

Never prayed to satan, y’all bitches to busy debating

Dreams of rocking Louis, remember late nights bangin to suey

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Young Love

The clock reads 4:11 Repent for your sins and go to heaven  Rip-stick and a kickflip A bouncing heart in the backseat Wearing all black in the summer heat I fall over and over again, but it’s always accidental  You’d break my heart over and over again, but honey life’s not that coincidental I’ve played my part, but the games not over I’ve never stopped trying, but it’s hard staying sober Lies and ties Staring at starry skies as we hit higher highs  Sex at your mom’s place, those memories I can’t erase You kept me together when times were tough I’d cry because I knew I wasn’t good enough I miss your company and your stupid ass laughs Ours lives, captured in those photographs I became plainer as time wore on Deep in my heart, I knew one day you’d be gone A childhood dream come true Every moment we went through A glance across the park And that’s all it took to spark That little flame in my heart And that was the start Of dancing in the sun Singing like the world had only just begun A sweet brunette, my long awaited darling A little boy not thinking of future parting Holding tears as I played my song A fucked up kid hits a bong A hurricane of color and lust I never expected you to break my trust A little badass dances with fire Skipping with the flames and ignoring the gunfire A boy burnt to ash A few teeth and a wad of cash A bleeding, tattered dove That’s Young Love

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SOCIALSPACE

Galaxies and space A warm embrace And beautiful places Twinkling grins, and dreamy faces We gather here to sing and greet All the world accepts defeat

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RECENTLY

Spill my blood in your name Rip me apart and drive me insane I stare at you from afar, drowning in my thoughts Strum a tune on my guitar, my gut in knots 

Soft spells, and quiet hell A dark bruise under the sun, oh honey my pain’s only just begun.

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Natural Ecstasy

Take a chance

Will you give me this dance?

We can spin baby, we can make this real

Goodbye to the way I used to feel

Lets trip and fall down memory lane

Run your hands through my hair, drive me insane

Press your lips to mine, our love is heavenly

No need for drugs ‘cuz we’re on natural ecstasy

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Weeks on the fence

A feeling, so tense

Fell the wrong way

I refuse to betray

The way I feel

I promised you I wouldn’t break the deal

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alone

No way out

Insane without doubt

All the pain and scars to you I’ve shown

I never knew I’d be so Alone

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Lock your eyes on mine, let’s take a stroll down memory lane and I’ll explain myself. I’ll show you how much pain if swallowed, it’s got a bitter taste I’ve come to crave. Your words cut so deep, yet I press them in deeper. You slit my throat and I smile and laugh as I drown in my own blood. A toothy blood stained grin and I sink my teeth into your beautiful neck, ripping away your imperfections my dear. Kiss me lovely, corrupt mommy’s poor boy. Rip out my heart and display the last pulse of my faintly beating heart and the life fades from my eyes. Touch me like you love me, make me scream MAKE ME FUCKING WANT ME. Press yourself onto me, make me like it. Pluck my memories from my head and replace it with the thought of your fucking hatred. Show me how much I disgust you. You want to know who I am, but are unwilling to dig. What did you care about, what DO you care about? Where are you now? Dead? Alone? Alive? Busy? Where can we meet? Do you remember me? Does the thought of me haunt you like the father you once had? Suicides a funny thing love, it affects everyone. You acted so brave, so confident it annoyed me. But you didn’t know that, hell you didn’t even know me.. Or maybe you did, maybe you just could hold back your love and you decided to spill your heart to me... Or... Well the list of “or”’s goes on and on....

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hello?

Better off dead

Three shots to the head

Trama keeps me awake

Sinners burned at the stake

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what.

Curls of smoke fill my lungs

A hazy cloud in my head

Violent words, mix with bleeding tongues

Bottles of emotions lay across my bed

Let me see, one last time..

The dead look in your eyes

Tie a bow

The crow, with feathers of coal will haunt you

Time to leave, “Mother, time to go!”

He will eat at your brain, pick you apart

He doesn’t leave any clue, nothing left for you to chew

It’s time to start over, with another heart

But without you it’s tart

Who’s reading still? Did this make sense?

I’ve traveled down the hill, you’ve got a heart of fucking stone, yet you continue to say you’re not dense.

I’ve written a letter marker Suicide Note, take it lightly and call it a joke, but you just encourage the noose around my throat

Take thirty fucking pills, repent and shove your hand down your throat

Cough up blood and blow your fucking gut, then tell me that’s what I get for keeping my door shut.

But I guess Karmas just a bitch.

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THXNKTHXNK

Think, think, think

Think while you sink

Think while you drink

Think while you smoke

Think while you choke

Think while you trip

Think after you crash the whip

STOPFUCKINGTHINKING

POISONYOURBRAINS

TAKEYOURPILLS

SHRINKINGCHAINS

DITCHTHEMFUCKINGWILLS

DEATH IS AT THE DOOR

AS I COLLAPSE THE FUCKING FLOOR

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NORETURN

Crawling from the pit

A worthless piece of shit

Ear tearing screaming

As you return from your dreaming

Run away from it all

Just to start over

But you only take another fall

You’re not special

You’re just leftover

Break your knees and bow to the devil

Look to him, as it’s time for you to learn

You’re at the point of no return

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