deepestjournalthoughts

[deepestjournalthoughts]

i can reinvent myself a thousand times

but

the person in my head will always remain the same

and

i’m always going to hate them

- 01 august 2022 -

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[deepestjournalthoughts]

it’s hard

i don’t like remembering

most of my memories are all chopped up

none of them feel like mine

i’m afraid everything hurts now

head feels light. heart feels heavy.

i hate feeling

i wish it was easy

the pain would stop

tears continue to fall

hands begin to shake

body feels foriegn

vision clouds

reality fades

i drift into my head

- 20 july 2022 -

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[deepestjournalthoughts]

i hate the way time moves

the way memories are remembered

how a smell, place, or person transports you back

the memories may be hazy but the feelings are clear

felt exactly as they were before

- 20 july 2022 -

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[deepestjournalthoughts]

i like to get lost in my head

but sometimes

i go too deep, too far

start unraveling and spiraling

end up hurting

hurting more than i did before

- 20 july 2022 -

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[deepestjournalthoughts]

thinking about how your face rested against mine

how you held me tight for the last time

your arm draped over my chest,

a weight of silence - heavy in the air

the last hug

holding on

the last kisses

leaving wanting more

distance separates

unknowingly breaks hearts

time refuses to heal the unresolved

- 19 july 2022 -

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[deepestjournalthoughts]

i tried to ignore the clock hanging over our heads

ticking down the days, hours, minutes, and seconds until we’d go our separate ways

i pushed the question of what would happen in the end out of my head

i wish we had more time

i didn’t want to say goodbye

- 05 july 2022 -

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[deepestjournalthoughts]

it’s not worth being hopeful only to end up heartbroken.

- 23 jan 2022 -

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[deepestjournalthoughts]

i feel disconnected.

my head is starting to spiral

my heart is heavy with the anxiety that i am not who i am supposed to be.

- 15 jan 2022 -

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[deepestjournalthoughts]

i feel like it consumes me.

picks me up and takes me with it.

seeps into my skin

and refuses to let me go

- 14 jan 2022 -

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[deepestjournalthoughts]

and i feel so alone.

just a little lost and confused.

i worry i don’t have time…

i need more time,

yet i feel like i’m running out.

- 11 jan 2022 -

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[deepestjournalthoughts]

I hope we find a way to thrive next year. Live, not just survive. Love ourselves again. Find meaning. Find love. Find peace. Decide we're worth it.

I hope for more.

[deepestjournalthoughts]

i feel myself slowing dying.

slowly drifting to insanity.

time speeds by - when will i do something worthwhile? something worth remembering?

- 22 dec 2021 -

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[deepestjournalthoughts]

i can not quiet the voices in my head.

i can not stop them as they loudly scream.

the voices in me rage. they scream and claw. they fight each other to the front, to the top. which fear will out weigh the others? which voice will win?

- 12 dec 2021 -

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[deepestjournalthoughts]

balancing on the edge - wondering what is right? what is wrong?

one can never win in this life we live.

i fear i’m in hell. wandering around

- 12 dec 2021 -

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[deepestjournalthoughts]

why do i feel the need to burn?

why do i feel the need to hurt?

it happened. i’m not okay

- 07 dec 2021 -

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[deepestjournalthoughts]

analyzing the tiniest of details in my surroundings.

listening to the quietest of noises.

wondering if anyone else sees what i see, hears what i hear.

- 19 nov 2021 -

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i miss my old self - the one i was when i was young, too naive to know what what in store. the one oblivious to the pain because she could escape, hiding behind books and dissolving into music. i miss the one who may not have been happy, but was hopeful for the future and content thinking about how wonderful it would be.

now, all i think about is the past. obsessing over things i’ve done, said. the future is no longer in my sight.

- 15 nov 2021 -

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