insanelybeautifulbrianna

[insanelybeautifulbrianna]

I’m not doing okay.

I mean I’m okay, but I’m not at the same time.

I don’t have much to be sad over. There’s a roof over my head and a pillow to lay my head on.

But I’m not okay.

My heart isn’t completely broken anymore.

But it’s still not fully healed.

You’re not in my life anymore.

But you still haunt my dreams.

I just need all this pain to be over.

But I still want to live.

#words i'll never say #mental health #healing #hurt/comfort #help

[insanelybeautifulbrianna]

Love

I believed you.

Ate up every word you said like I had not eaten in years.

Maybe I manifested too hard that the universe wanted to show me why I am not worthy of being pleased.

I colored in your red flags with green crayons because I wanted to have the artwork I saw in my mind

But green over red just created a muddy yellow color.

I badly wanted to believe the artwork would look better if I colored darker.

But all I ended up with was a torn page and an empty heart.

#dating #false hope #love #poems #words i'll never say

[insanelybeautifulbrianna]

The part that no one ever tells you about the healing journey is how many low moments you have. I appreciate the rain today for allowing me to feel these low moments in a much more peaceful manner. Continue loving yourself even when it’s hard. 💙

[insanelybeautifulbrianna]

These days the only

Thing I want is to just stop

Ripping me apart

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[insanelybeautifulbrianna]

It's mentally and physically exhausting trying to put yourself first when you've never done it in the past. Where do I start?

[insanelybeautifulbrianna]

“i don’t know how i know, but i’m getting bad again”

— and i don’t know if i can stop it this time (via depresseddisneyprincess)

[insanelybeautifulbrianna]

It's hard leaving the person that you got so use to. The one who knows all your secrets. Been with you through the good and the bad. And accepts all your baggage. But what's worse is feeling yourself detach from them. The falling out of love when they're still in love. Trying everything you can to see if you can force yourself to stay but knowing you wont be happy. But you have to put yourself first. And mean it this time. "Maybe if I look at the ground it'll be easier. Then I wont have to see the tears build up in his eyes."

#sad #relationship #falling out of love #love #depression

[insanelybeautifulbrianna]

And no matter how hard I try it just stays

#sad #depressed #in need of help #help me #what do i do #degrassi #cam saunders

[insanelybeautifulbrianna]

I have to say it...

Just to get it out of my system. I still love you and I can't make those feelings go away. And i know it's been years since I've actually seen you, but talking to you for that short amount of time felt like nothing changed at all. I just hate that I lost you when I did. Maybe our timing isn't quite right yet but when it is I know it will be beautiful. So for now I will wait for our paths to cross and enjoy my adventure before you.

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Felt like a model ☺☺

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#the office #michael scott #funny #ho no moe

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[insanelybeautifulbrianna]

not to be a history fucker on main but the whole mystery of the lost colony of roanoke is so fucking funny

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Mods are asleep post forbidden tits

[insanelybeautifulbrianna]

I wish I never met you