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Bucky and Tommy mini series would literally cure my mental illness

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it's about regaining purpose, right? remembering yourself again amidst the rubble. it's about finding your people even when you think you'll never be anything but alone ever again. it's about hope, about miracles, even the ugly ones. and it's about love, how it survives, waits for the light, and unfurls, green and growing and alive again. ten yeras ago they put this in a superhero movie from marvel studios

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CACW brainrot again cus I just rewatched the movie

when Steve dropped that shield, I think it's more than just a fuck you to Tony and CA symbol. put that scene into context: Tony said "you don't deserve that shield. my father made that shield." and they just watched the tape of the Winter Soldier murdering Howard and Maria Stark.

Steve wasn't just choosing Bucky over the Avengers, he was choosing Bucky over the past - a past he used to be unable to expel from his mind. He was a man out of time, he missed his past, his very much dead friends so much he was isolated, didn't make new friends, he visited his own museum just to see his dead old pals.

we often talk about what Peggy's death means and what Steve renouncing the shield means, but the role of Howard is often overlooked. by including HS, Steve in CACW completely cut ties with 'the good old time' that wasn't Bucky (I'd say he still misses the Howlies but they never have any recognition post catfa...). Again I think it reiterates the theme of CACW which is 1. Steve would choose Bucky over anyone (eps. some colleague he never liked) and 2. he has moved on from 'the man out of time' because he's found his home in first and foremost Bucky, and in members of team cap.

#steve rogers #bucky barnes #caws #captain america civil war #cacw is a huge middle finger to aou and joss wheden #stucky #stevebucky #teamcap #cacw had so much potential but they had to no homo stevebucky #uuuuuuuuuggggggggggghhhhhhhhhh

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Can we talk about Chris' understanding of Steve and how much Steve being selfish means in CACW?

in an interview, Chris says Steve won't think things like 'ah another day to save the world' because that kind of thought is 'self-involved' and it 'requires a certain type of egotistical approach to his own awareness.' He also says Steve thinks the way he does partly because that's just who he is and also to keep his 'sanity.'

I don't always agree with Chris' interpretation of Steve but his acting choice is informed by his version of Steve and in this regard, considering how much Chris emphasized the selfishness of Steve's actions in CACW, it's a huge fucking deal.

By Chris' words, Steve's thoughts don't start with 'I'. It's not 'I'm going to do XXX' or 'I have this responsibility', certainly not 'I feel like doing YYY.' They start with objectives: 'Coffee. Gym. Beat bad guys.' To some extend I think it's almost mechanical. (no wonder he's never happy)

But in CACW Steve's actions can be summed up by 'he chooses Bucky.' It's not 'save Bucky', it's not 'for the greater good', it's just Bucky (Chris famously said that Steve was fighting for Bucky not the Accords). It's a choice made out of emotions, it's personal.

So when Chris said Steve was selfish in CACW I don't think he meant that Steve was being, well, selfish, but rather he was for the first time acting out of personal desires. (still not true but you do you Chris)

Perhaps Chris thought Steve went to Azzano to save Bucky and the rest of the soldiers and crushed the plane for the greater good and burned SHIELDRA to the ground purely because that was the right thing to do, but even with all that, Steve in CACW just stopped giving a fuck about anything else. The world can burn I just want my Bucky back.

It's also interesting that Chris said Steve thought and acted that way for his sanity. This connects to the idea that Steve is just a giant black hole of repressed feelings and emotions, he knows that if he isn't careful those feelings - his dark side - will come out and cause serious damage as it did in CACW. Again, by Chris' interpretation, Steve making a personal choice is a huge fucking deal: Steve was losing control of his rationality and the cause? Bucky.

Is it a coincidence that Steve's dark side, his feelings and emotions are always connected to Bucky? Stucky was in the fucking narrative.

#bucky barnes #steve rogers #stevebucky #stucky #cacw #captain america civil war #stucky was in the narrative

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Stucky dark!soulmate AU

the soulmate mark presents itself at the age of 18. Few have soulmates, but those who do are destined to be killed by their soulmate

Steve has always known Bucky as his hero. Bucky has saved his life many times, from the bullies, from illness, from loneliness.

On Steve's 18th birthday, they come back from the sanatorium after visiting his mom, who's in critical condition. Sarah is quarantined so all they can do is watch her barely conscious form on a bed through a window. Steve feels like he's going to fall apart, but Bucky's with him, Bucky's here to hold him together.

That night, when he showers he notices a star-shaped mark on his chest right above his heart. It's his soulmate mark. A million thoughts crossed his mind: Who is the person? How will he die? When? What about Bucky? Should he tell Bucky? A part of him is relieved, death doesn't sound too awful compared to his life; another part of him is terrified, of death, of leaving Bucky heartbroken. He decides that he'll hide the mark from Bucky, what good can possibly come out of telling your best friend that you are about to be killed? He snuggles Bucky extra tight that night.

Years fly by and the war happens. After rescuing the captured people from Hydra facility, they march back to the base in Italy. Bucky waits until most people are settled down to clean himself in the river nearby. It's dark in the woods, the moonlight is too dim and pale for regular human eyes to properly function, but Steve is not a regular human being. He is patrolling the parameter when he sees Bucky emerge from the water, naked, his hair dripping, body slim and covered in bruises and cuts. He's beautiful.

"Buck."

"Jesus!" Bucky jumps, his first instinct is not to cover himself but to reach for his pistol on the ground with his clothes. "I could've shot you!"

"sorry." Steve walks closer as Bucky starts to put his clothes back on. That's when he sees. The star-shaped mark above Bucky's heart.

Bucky is his soulmate. One of them will kill the other.

They have a very very long talk which is comprised mostly of tears, promises, and unspoken dread. When the Army tells Steve that he's authorized to handpick a team, Steve doesn't want Bucky in it.

"Fuck no." Bucky says, "there's no way you do it without me. I don't give a damn about the marks, cus if you got your stupid ass killed by some crazy red face I'd revive you and kill you personally again."

So they fight together. The team doesn't know about their marks, no one does but themselves. Even with the ominous fate hanging over their heads, Steve still trusts no one else more to have his six than Bucky, not only because Bucky is an excellent shot but because that's Bucky. Bucky has saved his life more times than he can count and vice versa. They work seamlessly. They are soulmates.

Then Bucky falls. Steve knows that it's his fault. He's killed Bucky. He crushes the plane with the slight comfort that he would know how Bucky feels, the fall, the ice, death.

But he wakes up.

SHIELD knows Steve has a soulmate mark, therefore Hydra also knows. Only SHIELD doesn't know who Steve's soulmate is, Hydra does.

Before they go on to take over the helicarriers, Steve reveals to them that Bucky is his soulmate.

"there's a good chance that I won't come back." he tells them, "make sure the mission is complete. No matter what happens."

Steve goes into the mission accepting death by Bucky's hand as his ending. Maybe he does die. The medical record says that he has flatlined for almost 4 minutes on the operation table. Maybe he already died at the bottom of the Potomac.

But he wakes up.

Then the Accords happens, then Zemo, then Siberia, they never really have a moment to talk. Steve knows that Bucky evades him for 2 years partly because of the stupid mark, but once they start to fight side by side again, it's like finding the final piece of a puzzle, they are whole again, they complete each other so much so that even the idea of being apart again is agonizing, utterly unbearable. They are, after all, soulmates.

So when Bucky comes up with the idea that he should be put under cryo again, Steve won't let him.

"Can't you see, Buck? We've both died already. Yet here we are. Our story is not about killing, it's about protection and salvation. You died protecting me, and I did the same for you. It tried, it fucking tried to tear us apart and it failed. We are inseparable. I won't let anyone hurt you ever again, you won't hurt anyone either. If you want peace, we can retire. Just please, please don't do this to yourself. Don't do this to me."

The silence between them stretches out for far too long.

“Anyone told you you have a knack for speeches?” Bucky attempts a joke.

“One or two.”

“Ok.” Bucky says, eventually, “Ok.”

Yes, they've both died - many times, in fact. Maybe Bucky falling off the train was Steve's fault, maybe the Winter Soldier had actually managed to complete his mission, but the fact remains that they are both here, alive. They've defied fate, they've been to hell and back, they've been torn away from the other but found their way back.They are inseparable. 'til the end of line.

#bucky barnes #steve rogers #stevebucky #stucky #drabble #life and death with stucky #I'm with you til the end of line means something entirely different in this context #experimental writing

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It kinda feels personal: Rumlow, Hydra, and SteveBucky

Rumlow is interesting because he has such a specific moral code. he joined Hydra for the greater good, he was a true believer, yet he also canonly admired Steve, he made sure to let Steve know the fight wasn't personal, he ordered Rollins to not point the gun at him in public, he sympathized with Bucky.

it made so much sense that he went solo afterwards. 'there're no prisoners in Hydra, only order.' but if not Bucky then himself is proof that there WERE prisoners, perhaps most of them were. Hydra was just another death cult, no matter how they branded it.

how does this affect how we interpret the your Bucky scene? the strategy hinges on his assumption of Steve's devotion to Bucky. how could he have known? through Bucky. Rumlow knew then Hydra brainwashed Bucky frequently. still, Bucky remembered him, their bond must've been incredibly strong.

that's when it became personal. Rumlow was alone, hurt, he almost died for a cult for nothing, he was humiliated and betrayed. and here was Steve, a hero, surrounded by pals and most importantly, was so loved even Hydra's brainwashing couldn't eradicate that from Bucky. yeah so fuck Captain America and his 'friendship'. you love him as much as he loves you? well then, that's gonna be your demise just as it was his.

#brock rumlow #bucky barnes #steve rogers #stevebucky #stucky #caws #cacw

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America - All Media Types, Marvel Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers Characters: James "Bucky" Barnes, Steve Rogers, Natasha Romanov (Marvel) Additional Tags: Canon Divergence - Post-Captain America: The Winter Soldier, Angst with a Happy Ending, Hurt/Comfort, Fluff and Humor, surprisingly light for a post-caws fic!, Identity Issues, Suicidal Thoughts, Domestic Boyfriends, Love Confessions, Gay Steve Rogers, Artist Steve Rogers, Recovery, Steve Rogers Feels, Bucky Barnes Feels Summary:

Bucky was looking at him again, his eyes a near-translucent blue. “of all people, why do I remember you?” For all the things he might’ve said, it was nothing Steve had anticipated. “I don’t know.” he answered, helplessly.

------ After pulling Steve out of the water, Bucky took him to a safe house because he had a question that needed an answer. Seven days of healing, seeking answers, and some cooking.

#steve rogers #bucky barnes #stevebucky #stucky #caws #captain america the winter soldier #did it make it to the 10th anniversary? #anyway

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AS A PERSON WITH ED I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY ABOUT THIS

imho I think Bucky has more likely a mixture of different sorts of ED at different stages of his life and I certainly think bed/bulimia is very likely post WS

his bad eating habit started when he was a kid. sure his family was relatively rich but he still had 3 sisters and 1 Steve to take care of during the great depression. he always ate little, and when he actually indulged himself, maybe just one little cupcake, he felt guilty.

then there's war. when he was captured, he probably lost 10, 20 pounds depending on how long his captivity was.

researches have shown that people who suffered through starvation have much higher chance of developing eating disorders, and just unhealthy relationship with food in general.

he also had the serum, so he was literally starving all the time. thanks to Steve, when they weren't on the frontline, they got to eat relatively well. he ate as much as he could and then went on for days, even weeks of eating bare minimum in battle. all of the howlies were doing that so that wasn't unusual.

as the Winter Soldier, he only ate things like protein bars, you know the high calorie supplements that'd keep him functional. the Winter Soldier was not hungry. he was never full either.

the first few weeks after caws he pretty much continued the Hydra diet until he found out about the various flavours of protein bars. chocolate, cookies, cappuccino etc. and he starts to ate a lot of them. from there he graduated to actual food (it took a lot of time for his stomach to get used to It), and it began.

he ate a lot. like, a lot. he was always hungry and yearning for more, it's like 80 years of constant starvation was finally catching up to him. he ate until he physically couldn't. he ate and that's the only way to feel better.

after wakanda, he'd lost the freedom to eat as much as he wanted bc 1. money 2. the frequent visits from neighbors and shuri and Steve

he'dwait, anxiously, until he was alone to do it. that's when he learned how to purge because sometimes people came to him after a binge, he was too full to eat so he purged. there's something cathartic about purging too, he didn't know what.

by the time IW came around, Bucky had barely had one continuous week of normal eating.

I'm on my 'Bucky developed ARFID over the course of his time with HYDRA' hill and I'm chaining myself to a tree at the precipice

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fanon Steve: so poor can't feed myself must save all the money😢

canon Steve: squandered train money on hotdogs bc he's jealous of Dot

#steve rogers #bucky barnes #stevebucky #stucky #I have no words #Steve you little shit #Bucky's gotta be a saint to put up with his shenanigans

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I can't get over this

Bucky spent his whole life shielding Steve from the darkside of the war and the world in general

of course Steve knew of it, but he fought the good fight, he had a clear conscious

but CACW Steve didn't. he had to fight his friends, become a fugitive, he stood on the other side of the law bc of Bucky.

how did Bucky feel as he witness Steve getting his hands dirty, getting smeared and reviled, most of all, doing it without a second thought, for him? would his guilt ever ease? is there any comfort in knowing they are in this darkness together?

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reblogging again because this is half of bucky's character (the other half is just pure cinnamon roll)

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steve rogers: when politics fails you

Idealism coming out of the great war era Britain is basically an early version of liberalism, championing international cooperation and optimism about peace. The word idealism, especially when set in contrast to realism, denotes a sense of naivete and detachment from reality. if we have to be honest, yes, believing in the goodness of humanity can often disappoint.

that is exactly why Captain America is the epitome of idealism. To be Captain America you have to have that kind of delusion about humanity. Captain America cannot and will not disappoint. Cap isn't just a superhero who saves the day from aliens, he is a political figure that represents politics at its best and embodies the best, and only the best of humanity.

coming back to the idealism (liberalism) vs realism debate, it seems only logical for Steve to hold a liberal ideal.

But here's the catch: empirical evidence repeatedly proves that institutions are not trustworthy. SHIELD, the US govt, the UN, and whatever the World Security Council is. reminder, it's not just institutional failure, it's that they're corrupt, they are Hydra, they share Hydra's vision, and they are run by people like Pierce and Ross. If an institution fails we can rebuild by learning from the mistakes (such as League of Nations), but if it's the people that constitute the institution that is corrupt, there's no remedy. The same can be said about the Avengers.

that's why in cacw he didn't hesitate to leave the institutions (the UN, the Avengers, his own country) and the part of him (captain america) that's associated with them behind.

he said that his faith had always been in individuals, something that also aligns with liberal ideals. however, his faith in institutions and the collective has completely crumbled. he ended up taking on an almost libertarian position, living by his own rules.

I know a word can mean different things in different disciplines. but idealism can never be separated from the belief that people can be good. people. not institutions. liberalism has certainly failed steve, but people haven't. even though he'd given up the title, he is still the hero we love because the fundamental part of who he is and what he represents hasn't changed. his idealism, call it naivete all you want, still sparks the goodness and hope in people.

so that's what captain america trilogy is about. it's about idealism, it's about seeing the worst of humanity and still having faith, and it's about steve and bucky and sam and nat, about those who refuse to give up, and a world where being idealistic isn't stupid.

when politics fails you, steve rogers will be there to catch you.

#steve rogers #captain america civil war #captain america the winter soldier #captain america the first avenger #captain america #I LOVE STEVE #STEVE MY BABY #YOU DON'T DESERVE ENDTRASH #he's my idealist escape

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'steve needs to take care of himself'

around minute 9 he was talking about how trauma could potentially destroy bucky, the host said, 'but steve would never give up bucky.' sebastian, real-life bucky barnes, responded with:

'steve needs to take care of himself'

like can we talk about this moment? and I'm not even talking about the words themselves, how much bucky cares about steve. I'm talking about how quickly he said it and the way he said it.

it's almost a knee-jerk reaction. he didn't have to think about it. steve taking care of me? are you joking? I've been looking after that punk since he was 11. he needs to go watch a movie and just not save the world for one day, ok? I can deal with my own hardship.

he's literally bucky I don't care

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non American stucky shippers are wild because they know more about New York (Brooklyn in particular) than probably most New Yorkers and would cry talking about Coney Island

#lmao #stucky #stevebucky

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why steve&bucky being artsy people matters (to me)

Steve, canonly an artist; Bucky, canonly a book nerd and possibly an art student as well

and I cannot stress enough how much that means to me

I know people, including myself, have written so many metas about them being female coded but this is important as well.

hypermasculine heroes and the sentimental art & literature don't usually go together. usually when the hero appreciates art it is usually a plot device and they come off as snub and arrogant (look at our protagonist, how knowledgeable he is!).

heroism in MCU seems to be exclusively tied to masculine traits such as good at math and physical strength, and the former usually is valued more than the latter, especially when the 'brain' of the Avengers are always stem bros, even Thor knows his space science in Ragnorok. if you don't know how to build a rocket, throw one, flex those biceps, that'll show the audience how heroic you are.

for example, magic was ridiculed for being feminine in Thor 1. Steve in catfa is specially shown to be clever, he was street smart, but that doesn't really count, does it? after all, everything special about him came from a bottle, right?

even the female love interests in Marvel are often masculine: Jane is a scientist. Peggy & pre-serum Steve's dynamic was also a reversal of traditional male/female role since her introduction was focused on her superior status and physical strength.

the idea that one has to be stem smart to be smart is discriminatory and sexist. more importantly, men don't get sentimental nor do they appreciate art, male heroes aren't supposed to be associated with feminine traits and/activities.

but Steve has always been an artist, he is always emotional and sentimental and he CARES so much. I'm sure Bucky was good at stem but at the end of the day, he's a nerd, he likes books and music, he probably took art class simply bc he LIKED it. they were also shown to express emotional support for others, something often missing from male/masculine characters.

Steve and Bucky's superpower is literally just super strong. taken at face value it's the most simplistic, masculine superpower there is. they fit every stereotypical male hero trope but somehow they just AREN'T that.

#bucky barnes #steve rogers #stevebucky #I love my Brooklyn boys #stem dudebros can go fuck themselves #we need liberal art! #one of the reasons why they get along with Sam #Steve and Bucky are so female coded #they are basically women #Markus and McFeely wrote the most female coded male characters ever #and they didn't even realize it #dude what the hell

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more question:

since sokovia is based on kosovo, and Zemo was royalty, wouldn't it make sense that Zemo's family/special force used to work with the US and the EU for the freedom of sokovia from Russian influence? his son liked ironman, he hated Russia/soviet (karpov, 'your real home'), and he doesn't speak Russian even though given the geograthy and his age, Russian shouldn't be rare to hear & use, instead he speaks 2 'western' languages (English, German)

That's perhaps why he focused on Captain America. Steve's symbolic of the situational allyship the US offers and the American arrogance (even tho ultron was none of his fault).

Every so often I see... interesting takes about Zemo that leave me questioning if we... all saw the same stuff.

Like, you know he commanded a death squad before his fam even died, right? This man is not a good dude. Sure, maybe it was in the name of his country but also... his country was a shit show and he said as much.

So I am absolutely perplexed by the number of "he wouldn't do x" and "why does everyone make him so toxic" kinds of things. He actively waterboarded Vasily Karpov like one of the first times we saw him. He was put in the RAFT because he is a fucking terrorist.

This feels like another one of those things I guess that reminds me of Hannibal. Him being polite doesn't make him any less of a cannibal. You can be both polite and a bad person.

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there's no way Peggy got all dressed up just to talk to Steve for one minute in that bar, right?

and the logical progression of that night for members of the howlies was to get shitfaced, including Steve and Bucky (both cannot get drunk😢)

so Steve was literally just enjoying a boys night whilst practically ignoring Peggy who was quite literally peacocking on the side

even Mr. Darcy mustered up courage to ask Elizabeth for a dance and he's 10x more socially awkward than Steve😭that's how being in love works, you literally cannot resisit. yet the only person Steve canonly cannot resisit is Bucky😭

another interesting part is that we see how people on Peggy's side tease about the relationship but not Steve's side. Bucky wasn't teasing he was out right jealous (of whom?🙊)

and that's the issue. for all the effort to make Peggy look like Steve's love of his life, Steve's friends doesn't seem to acknowledge her at all. (Sharon, Nat and Sam included)

I guess Steve rEalLy showed his affection huh