musings-by-rae

[musings-by-rae]

In 1988, ACT UP protested the FDA withholding HIV treatment due to requiring unethical double-blind studies of medication they already knew worked.

In 2024, trans activists protested promoters of an NHS-funded report requiring unethical double-blind studies of medication they already knew worked.

[musings-by-rae]

Sweet Goddess, every day is a new reason to hate this country. And I am in the closet and have it so much easier than most trans people here, I'm scared to come out, I can't imagine what it's like for people who are out. So angry!

Insane seeing people telling British trans people to "just move" like that's a good attitude to have or even viable for most people. Like. Do you not have any concept of things like community, or money? Even if I could afford to, I wouldn't want to drop my community to leave.

If you're trans in the UK, now is the time to find that community, fight against this shit, have each other's backs.

And learn to DIY, now, before they take away our healthcare completely and we're left with nothing

#british trans #trans #british

[musings-by-rae]

Insane seeing people telling British trans people to "just move" like that's a good attitude to have or even viable for most people. Like. Do you not have any concept of things like community, or money? Even if I could afford to, I wouldn't want to drop my community to leave.

If you're trans in the UK, now is the time to find that community, fight against this shit, have each other's backs.

And learn to DIY, now, before they take away our healthcare completely and we're left with nothing

[musings-by-rae]

mfs will say "i'm not trans" then wear a sports bra every day for 2 years straight

#how are you seeing me right now

[musings-by-rae]

Today is a good day! I did art! I finally have a design for my back patch! With some great quotes including the iconic Leslie Feinberg because I am queer....but also Gandalf, Picard and PTerry Pratchett...because I am a nerd! Love the idea of showing this off at music events.

#artwork #battle jacket #back patch #quote art #leslie feinberg #audre lorde #james baldwin #gandalf #jean luc picard #PTerry Pratchett #Richard K Morgan #be gay do crime #queer #punk #metal

[musings-by-rae]

(Two images with striped backgrounds in the colors of the transgender and genderqueer pride flags, both images have identical text that says "Happy Transgender Day of Visibility" with the date "March 31st" below).

Happy TDOV! 💜

In these times visibility is more powerful and more dangerous than ever. Today is a day for showing up in the ways that feel most empowering to us, and for being visible for those who can't yet be. Trans lives are precious. There has never been a world without trans people and there never will be. Every day we survive is a win.

As we all know, this year the date of Easter falls on TDOV, so I'm sending an extra shout out to the trans Ex-Christian community today. Take care of yourselves today. Whether you still take part in the secular traditions of Easter or today will simply be another Sunday, know that you are a whole, complete, and beautiful person.

[musings-by-rae]

So I came THIS close to coming out to my partner. He's the best safest ally you could want but you know, scary. Anyway I told him I had something to tell him and he was great. I can feel it on the tip of my ears (yes ears) I'm ready to tell him. I don't know what to tell him (so many labels to explain!) but I will!

On the other hand I got fun new dysphoria this week in two places.

Urgh my waist....hate it!

My voice, oh goddess so bad. Yuck yuck.

But overall I'm feeling pretty good about myself.

#coming out #nonbinary #genderqueer #agender #genderfluid #lgbtqia #body dysphoria

[musings-by-rae]

shout out to all the genderfluid people who want to have boobs

not me tho, those fuckers can get the axe

[musings-by-rae]

So the UK continues to be a complete shit show for trans people. Liz Truss, who has massively profited off her incompetently short reign as PM, has introduced another Bill aiming to legislate us right out of existence, under the guise of "protecting the children".

What about the trans kids?!

Trans rights are human rights. We exist. We're here. And we're not fucking going away.

#trans #trans kids #transphobia #UK is just horrible sometimes #im angry but also so scared #queer #nonbinary

[musings-by-rae]

cuz I can i'm gonna make a hyperspecific queer shout out post bc I want to appreciate all the lovely people in my life and more

shout out to men who used to be lesbians and women who used to be gay

shout out to fem bigenders

shout out to nonbinary people who don't like they/them pronouns

shout out to feminine men whose shoe collection is 90% heels & platforms

shout out to gender fluid folks who make really, really bad puns

shout out to the fem he/theys & the masc she/theys

shout out to the people who collect pronouns like a rock collection

shout out to literally every aromantic person ever

shout out to the trans drag queens & drag kings

shout out to all the gays obsessed with baldurs gate 3

shout out to the angriest and most passionate scenemo trans guy you'll ever meet in your life

shout out to the agender folks who make *gives you my gender* jokes

shout out to the most gender looking guy you'll ever meet

and shout out to you, queer person reading this. I love you

[musings-by-rae]

Womanhood, what the fuck is it?

Womanhood What the fuck is it?

People tell me that womanhood is getting your period when you’re 13 or becoming a mother, or being socialized as a girl

People tell me that womanhood is the ability to carry your own children

Womanhood is a sacred delicate practice

Womanhood is throwing back glasses of wine while bitching to my friends at brunch

Womanhood is difficult

Womanhood is hard for me, because I do not feel like a woman

I am a woman I will always be seen and perceived as a woman

But I’m not just “some girl”

I’m a person I am a human being that has been treated as less because of how I was born

Being a woman is not having gender equality

Being a woman is being paid less than a man

Being a woman is being sexually harassed on the street at 10

Being a woman is beautiful and fucking terrible sometimes

Being a woman is difficult when I’m not a woman

Being a woman is difficult when I am feeling dysphoric in my body

Being proud of my womanhood is hard when I don’t understand womanhood

Through your eyes, I am some bitch complaining

But in my eyes, I’m just a person who’s struggling

Getting called girl and her and she every single day when on the inside I don’t feel that way

But the world will always see me as a woman because I have a large chest

Because the way my body is structured and curves, the way that I bleed from the womb

The way that my voice is soft and sensitive and pretty

Being a woman is identifying as a woman

But to me, they’re all just words that we made up

I am proud of the women in my life

I’m proud of everybody in my life

I am inspired by women I love women

But that does not mean that I want to be like women

I will always share the struggles of a woman

Being born being perceived as one

But at the end of the day, I really am just someone

[musings-by-rae]

Psyched myself up to visit a barber last week only to be looked at with pity and told "We don't serve ladies"

Invited into group chat today at work as they shout "Happy International Women's Day"

Managing to feel gender dysphoric into two directions in the same week is a quite an achievement, yes?

#genderqueer #nonbinary #genderfluid #gender identity #transmasc maybe #body dysphoria #gender dysphoria #agender

[musings-by-rae]

arguing w/ my brother and I needed to make this

Reblog if you think ‘transmasc lesbian’ is a valid identity

I’ll show him the number of notes after about a week or so

[musings-by-rae]

"being trans is a choice" do you honestly think i would CHOOSE to get gender euphoria from wearing knee-length basketball shorts?? that's humiliating

[musings-by-rae]

"I always wanted top surgery and I'm so jealous of trans men and their HRT progress. I also cringe whenever someone calls me Ms/Mrs and I'm super happy when someone thinks I'm a guy. But you know, in a cis way"

JFC it's like you took the words out of my brain! I'm 35. Figured out I am genderqueer last year. For me I barely even knew being trans was a thing when I was younger (Section 28 was only repealed when I was 15). I didn't even have the language to describe my bisexuality until I went to university, never mind my gender.

Like, I didn't even realise that was an option! But yeah it makes it so hard to trust my own instincts about myself when I've been living that way for decades.

You are not alone my friend.

I want to know how people find out about themselves so early because it's taken me 30 years to escape forcing myself to be cis and straight! No hate but I feel so behind and stunted lol 🙃

don’t! plenty of people dont realize these things until their older, online communities just tend to skew younger- and it doesnt help how early lots of our queer elders died

[musings-by-rae]

Right, considering the current state of corporate politics on this site, and that it seems that only those affected seem to be actively speaking on the matter, it is up to I, the only fucking cishet on tumblr, to drag this out to a wider audience.

REBLOG IF YOUR ACCOUNT IS A TRANSFEM SAFE SPACE.

We need to show these higher ups how much we truly value them.

[musings-by-rae]

“And are the people saying that it’s easy for trans men to transition in the room with us?”

Uh yeah, actually.

Most all of the recommended reading that people denying transandrophobia have been giving out (assuming we can’t have read these things already) include somewhere within the text something about how trans men had an easy time transitioning and being stealth/blending into cis society as the reason that trans men don’t appear as prominently through history as trans women and the reason why trans men don’t face as much overt outward violence from society.

The actual reason for those things, of course, isn’t that it was or is any easier for trans men to access transition or to pass, but because some of the most prominent ways trans men are targeted is through erasure and infantilization.

But anyway, the fact that people are trying to go “lmao no one says trans men have an easier time transitioning,” while literally shoving things that say exactly that in our faces as recommended reading material makes it even more obvious that people don’t want to actually read or engage with any trans theory, they just want to know which of the theory is the right stuff to throw at people when there’s a disagreement.