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Your Filthy Heart

Pairing: Stepdad!Bucky x 18+F!Reader

Summary: Since the moment Bucky Barnes entered your life, you knew you wouldn’t be able to resist him. The fact that he was marrying your mother was just a minor block in the road. As you embark on a raunchy affair with your new Stepfather, you realise there’s a lot more to Bucky Barnes than first meets the eye. 18+.

Overall warnings so far : Explicit language, questionable morals, angst (its coming), fluff, stepdad trope, daddy kink, oral (m & f recieving), unprotected sex, asphyxiation, vaginal sex, dirty talk, infidelity, edging, slightly dubcon in parts, fingering, mentions of prescription pills and alcohol, jealousy, fluff, some degradation, praise, cum play, spanking, lying, fraud, allusions to fire and arsen, absent fathers, past drug misuse, brief but jarring NONCON in part seven, death of a loved one, grief. 18+.

Spotify Playlist 🎵

Part One: Something Old, Something New

Part Two: Beg For Daddy

Part Three: The Pure And The Poison

Part Four: Rendezvous

Part Five: Hearts That Pound Like Yours

Part Six: Touch Me, I’m Sick

Part Seven: Break Her Pretty

Part Eight: Miss Me In Your Bones

Part Nine: Make Me Forget

Part Ten:

Part Eleven:

Part Twelve:

Epilogue:

Drabbles/Cut Scenes

*These are not a part of the official plot. They are just extra, filthy imagines for the AU.

First Time Anal

Breeding Kink

Make A Mess For Daddy

Movie Night 

Jealous

Thats What You Get

Rise and Shine, Princess

A Lesson To Learn

Shades Of Cool

Game, Set and Match

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okay, yeah. i need a part two! this would simply be great. from bucky’s pov for it? yes!

Blue Jeans

Summery: Bucky leaves you. Inspired by Blue Jeans by Lana Del Rey

Warnings:angst,abandonment

Bucky was the best thing that ever happened to you. You loved him, He loved you. You cared for him, He cared for you. He made you happy, You made him happy. That’s what you thought. You thought no you are soulmates. Those are the things he has told you so why are you holding back tears right now.

“I don’t know man, I just- I just feel like I need to start my life over. You know?” He said to who you assumed to be Steve on the phone

“I just feel like I’m stuck. This place has too many bad memories.” You don’t understand, are you not enough for him? If he wants to leave you would go anywhere with him if that’s what he wanted.

“Yeah I have no idea what I’m doing to tell her. Yeah I will let you know, bye.” He hung up and went back to watching TV

You had woken up from your nap and started walking down the hall. When you heard Bucky talking in a whisper to his phone you had a bad feeling but nothing could prepare you for what you heard. So what was he just going to pack up and leave you? It seemed like his plan didn’t involve you whatsoever. So all these years was he truly ever happy? He seemed so happy, how could you have not noticed. You wanted to cry, scream, throw things across the room. All you could do was wait a few minutes and walk into the living room.

“Hey doll,” Bucky turned, smiling at you. God he was good at pretending. It almost made you hate him

“Hey I was thinking I could make your favorite meal tonight” You told him, maybe if you did all his favorite things he would stay

“Yeah that would be real sweet of you”

“Perfect I will get started on it” You headed towards the kitchen trying not to cry

You made the food and he loved it. Then you cuddle up on the couch telling him every few minutes you love him. There was no way he was going to leave. He seemed so happy. If he really didn’t love you and was unhappy would he be cuddled up with on the couch kissing you? 

“Bucky?”

“Yeah doll?” he asked not turning his head from the TV

“Would you ever want to move?” you asked him 

“No, I’m happy here with you. Why would I ever want to leave New York? This is my home” Liar

“Oh I was just wondering” You focused back on the TV. Maybe he really wasn’t leaving.

When you had woken up you were back on the bed. Bucky must have carried you to bed but he wasn’t here. Deep down you knew he wasn’t here but still you went around the house calling for him. You then found a note on the door.

Hey sweetheart, Mission came up. I will be back Monday. Love you!

Maybe there really was a mission but usually he will wake you up and kiss you goodbye. Monday was tomorrow. He had to be back then. He had to.

Monday came around after what felt like years. You stood by the door for who knows how long just waiting, anticipating, and pacing for Bucky to come home. The slights of noise would make you perk up thinking it was him. You started your phone. 11:58 pm. He was coming and he had to come back. Once the clock hit midnight you fell onto the ground crying. You knew that he wasn’t coming back and you weren’t going to see him again. 

You don’t know how long you stayed on the ground. You couldn’t cry anymore. Bucky was gone and he wasn’t coming back. 

Days have passed. You have missed work way too much. You had to go back, you had to go back to your normal life. You had to pretend that the love of your life did not just leave you.

It’s been months. You still feel sad but now you’re angry. You have analyzed every part of your relationship for the past months. You didn’t do a single thing wrong. You did not deserve this. You loved Bucky so much and this is what you get? You didn’t understand it. You were going to write him a letter in hopes that it will find him and he sees what he has done to you.

Dear Bucky,

I don’t understand. I don’t get it. If you were unhappy here we could have left. I would follow you anywhere you wanted to go. I would be by your side because I’m a ride a die, whether you fail or fly. We could have no money and I would be happy with you. We could have all the money in the world and I would be happy with you. Do you know how long I stayed by the door waiting for you to come home? I don’t even know how long. When you walked out that door,a piece of me died. Do you remember when we turned on some old music and danced to it? Were you not happy then? Did I do something? I’m sure I didn't but if I did I am so fucking sorry. I want you to know that I will love you till the end of time. You are mine and I am yours forever. I will wait a million years for you and more. I will always love you more than those bitches before. I hope you will always remember me because I will love you till the end of time

Your doll

You had given the letter to Steve, told him to give it to Bucky. You knew that Steve knew where Bucky was but you weren’t going to ask. You could not force Bucky to come back no matter how bad you wanted to. You never knew if that letter ever got to him. The last thing you heard about Bucky was that he got caught up in the game. Whatever that’s supposed to mean.

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something is in the works, my friends 🫣🫣🫣

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i will be taking a further hiatus, and this one will be a bit more quiet.

you see, my beloved dog was mauled by another dog two weeks ago… and i’ve been absolutely crushed by his passing. i live every day, reliving finding his body, reliving the trauma. and as to not cause distress to my baby, i try to limit my interactions and output. this event blindsided me. i’m dealing with trauma. the family of the dog responsible refuses to put down this already known aggressive dog. this dog has already attacked humans and other animals before killing my sweet, tiny boy. i believe heavily in behavioral euthanasia, and this dog is the number one candidate for it.

so my apologies, but this hiatus will continue until further notice.

so, ive been on a hiatus of sorts…

but for all the right reasons! see, in March i found out i’m pregnant, and the first couple of months were really hard on me and my partner. i stopped working from march to may, as i was having severe all day sickness. i couldn’t keep anything down and it got to the point of having to go to the ER a couple times. i have since come out of the woods from that with the second trimester heavy upon me. now i eat everything in sight.

just recently we found out the sex of our little one, and it sent both of us into a moment of overwhelming feelings. i began to buy clothes and diapers and wipes and now it’s all hitting me that in november, i’ll be a new parent while my partner is six hours away (he is military and we are unmarried at this point in time). and that’s a lot of stress i’m not trying to put on myself by thinking about! and with blocking out stress of that, ive blocked out writing.

i do get bouts of inspiration, and write a chapter or revise one. and honestly, taking time to myself to handle this has shown me i need to appreciate time to write and to perfect things. and i really hope i make it enjoyable for all of you when i finally release the first chapter of lonely eyes. it’s becoming my pride and joy, just like my first born will.

i appreciate all of you waiting patiently. and to all the new people finding my blog and following and liking my writings that are now two years old (crazy!), thank you. you give me motivation

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so, ive been on a hiatus of sorts…

but for all the right reasons! see, in March i found out i’m pregnant, and the first couple of months were really hard on me and my partner. i stopped working from march to may, as i was having severe all day sickness. i couldn’t keep anything down and it got to the point of having to go to the ER a couple times. i have since come out of the woods from that with the second trimester heavy upon me. now i eat everything in sight.

just recently we found out the sex of our little one, and it sent both of us into a moment of overwhelming feelings. i began to buy clothes and diapers and wipes and now it’s all hitting me that in november, i’ll be a new parent while my partner is six hours away (he is military and we are unmarried at this point in time). and that’s a lot of stress i’m not trying to put on myself by thinking about! and with blocking out stress of that, ive blocked out writing.

i do get bouts of inspiration, and write a chapter or revise one. and honestly, taking time to myself to handle this has shown me i need to appreciate time to write and to perfect things. and i really hope i make it enjoyable for all of you when i finally release the first chapter of lonely eyes. it’s becoming my pride and joy, just like my first born will.

i appreciate all of you waiting patiently. and to all the new people finding my blog and following and liking my writings that are now two years old (crazy!), thank you. you give me motivation

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Where do you see yourself in 5 years?

Look buddy, i’m just trying to make it to Friday.

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Lonely Eyes is the first series of mine that will be completed to approx. 25 chapters, have a tag list (tag yourself here) AND has a spotify playlist with songs corresponding to each chapter!

i have been working nonstop on the story line, writing and rewriting chapters to make sure it is absolutely perfect for me to put out. once i’m confident in putting out the first few chapters, i will begin to post them and those who have added themselves to the tag list will be notified!

hi yes LCIH is getting a face lift.

i have been gone for a wHILE. i’m so sorry. between work, working on myself and my relationship, i hadn’t found time for writing. but i am feeling so inspired, what being stuck in the house because the south decided to have northern weather for once.

so yes, LCIH is going to be rewritten. i feel it doesn’t show my proper writing skills, and i’m not proud of the little work i have put into it.

i want my story to be better for you guys, to enjoy it further and to show you my true potential as a writer. so over the next couple of days, you’ll notice they will be gone and reposted with better content.

it’s going to be under a new title as well, called Lonely Eyes. it followed the same kind of story line, just written a lot better than the first time around.

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no bc John Walker fills me with so much fucking rage😃

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agreed 100% with you! it’s so adorable

Not gonna lie with the therapist asked for Bucky's phone. I was like this old man is gonna have a flip phone. Like please let it be a flip phone. And low and behold it was a flip phone. And I just thank god for the prop master for this.

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bucky barnes is so annoying i wanna KISS HIS MOUTH

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to be honest, i feel as if bucky having a flip phone is for reasons beyond understanding tech. it could be a burner phone, a bad habit he holds on to. but a burner so not one person can find you easily.

you weren’t alone in hoping it was a flip phone either, i thought it was absolutely hilarious!

Not gonna lie with the therapist asked for Bucky's phone. I was like this old man is gonna have a flip phone. Like please let it be a flip phone. And low and behold it was a flip phone. And I just thank god for the prop master for this.

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hi yes LCIH is getting a face lift.

i have been gone for a wHILE. i’m so sorry. between work, working on myself and my relationship, i hadn’t found time for writing. but i am feeling so inspired, what being stuck in the house because the south decided to have northern weather for once.

so yes, LCIH is going to be rewritten. i feel it doesn’t show my proper writing skills, and i’m not proud of the little work i have put into it.

i want my story to be better for you guys, to enjoy it further and to show you my true potential as a writer. so over the next couple of days, you’ll notice they will be gone and reposted with better content.

it’s going to be under a new title as well, called Lonely Eyes. it followed the same kind of story line, just written a lot better than the first time around.

#chris evans #chris evans x you #chris evans x reader #fanfic: lips covered in honey #chris evans fanfiction #reader insert #various actors #fanfic: lonely eyes

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update: i got a snake on my left forearm 😌

i got a new tattoo

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Me continuing to make irrelevant text posts on tumblr like any of y’all care in the slightest bit

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i got two more!

i got a new tattoo

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i got a new tattoo

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