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Sorry about this, but it’s very demanding. On the bright side TEMU has some really cute stuff for cheap

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Aggressive kindness.

unstoppable force (wanting to be the kindest version of myself) vs unmovable object (all the anger and hatred I have inside myself)

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Age-re halloween 🎃 activities 🔮🍂

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Um… is it cultural appropriation to hang sugar skull string lights in my room? I really like them but I know they’re used for dia de los muertos. I didn’t realize how it could be insensitive until I had already bought and hung them up, so should I take them down, or?

#sugar skull #dia de los muertos #day of the dead #string lights

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I just wanna lay down and like have a tree grow through me

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Are you in the “I just want to eat icecream and not leave my bed for a few days” So done phase

Or are you more “I have sprayed myself with pesticide so that I smell like a harbinger of death to all that crawl or fly that hath come to prematurely feast upon my remains” so done phase

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Cooked pasta is just limp bread

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“A kitten sinking in memory foam is about the most adorable thing.”

(via)

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Request for @stuffed-animals-bring-me-comfort   ! I love how this turned out it feels really fever-dreamy for me for some reason. I hope you love it as well <3

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PLEASE READ

I WAS @LITOLBUN BUT MY OG ACC HAS BEEN HACKED AND DELETED, THIS IS A NEW ONE PLEASE REBLOG THIS TO FIND MY MUTUALS & SO PEOPLE WILL KNOW

Right now I am a bit numb to this, that account had a lot of followers and a lot of memories and I'm really annoyed theres no way of getting it back, I'm not sure what will happen now. I want to post again but,, I just dont know.

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I got a new plate set!

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I got a new plate set!

#sfw agere #cute #sfw headspace #sfw littlespace #sfw little #smile #cglre #agere #sfw #cglre little #plate #dishware

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Hey, can we have media about dissociation without it being some big warning sign foreshadowing a complete meltdown? Like, I know it can be like that sometimes but sometimes dissociation is where it ends. Dissociation doesn’t always end in screaming and crying and anger and depression, sometimes it ends in confusion or relief or concern or being tired.

It’s not always zoning out, it’s not about not feeling emotion, its not always leaving your body to be a spectator. it’s a defense mechanism, sure, but it doesn’t have to lead to something explosive.

If I speak purely from my own experience, dissociation is kind of normal for me? I don’t notice it happening until it’s not anymore, I’m a bit disoriented when I “wake up” but I remember, if I didn’t really take in all the information. I’ve never had an out-of-body experience, I never come out of it crying. My emotions are muted, but they are still there.

I guess what I’m saying is that dissociation presents itself in many ways and a lot of (admittedly fan-based) media uses it to showcase a “bigger” problem when sometimes it’s just. Not. It can last a few minutes to a few days, sometimes it comes and goes with moments of clarity and sometimes you wake up with only the vaguest idea of what happened. Sometimes it’s like walking through water or sometimes it’s like someone else is doing the walking. Sometimes you can hold entire conversations without knowing and other times go nonverbal.

It’s doesn’t have to be a side effect of something else, it just is. Idk what do you guys think?

#tw mental health #tw dissociation #sfw agere #safe space #dissociation #thoughts #not everything is a catastrophe #sfw headspace #rant #ignore me

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There’s paint on my hand.

Why do my meds smell like paint?!

#paint #art #i’m a dumbass #face palm

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Why do my meds smell like paint?!

#why #medication #take your pills #strange #that’s life #this is fine #everyday I’m #confused

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This took a turn but I’m down

In the town where I grew up, there was a large statue in one of the parks, of a famous historical white colonizer. I'm not going to say who specifically, suffice it to say that it was someone who wasn't worth memorializing for their deeds. And as you can imagine, this statue was a frequent target of vandalism, with paint or toilet paper or eggs on multiple occasions. Now, the local council was generally pretty lax when it came to repairing potholes or other public damage in the town, but every time, 24 hours after this particular statue was hit, the same person would always appear in a Hi-Vis vest, hat, mask and sunglasses, carrying a bucket of water, and wash it clean. They would do it as quickly as possible, but always made sure the face and the name carved at the bottom were generously scrubbed. This only encouraged people to do it again, and so it became a vicious cycle.

Within a year, the statue had sustained so much damage that it was unrecognizable and the lettering unreadable, so eventually the council came and took it down. Also apparently, the person in the Hi-Vis vest didn't even work for the council. They were supposedly just some 'good samaritan' who cleaned it, often before the council even discovered it needed cleaning, so they just let them do it and ignored the problem. They didn't bother putting the statue up again.

Much later, we found out that the anonymous 'samaritan' had been deliberately washing the statue with a bucket of saltwater, which had dramatically corroded it, causing irreversible accumulative damage far worse than spray paint ever would have done. It's even theorized that they were also often the one spray-painting it, just so that they had an excuse to come back after a day to wash it.