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You're lips aside my neck

Your warm exhale motions

Your angelic dance known

As your soft fingertips

Trace my veins

Then with your hand

You ever so gently caress my cheek

Only to grip my neck

Oh how you take my breath away

You softly whisper in my ear,

'live for me and nothing else,'

When you have killed all the butterflies

You have ever given me..

Oh how you will be the death of me.

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My biggest fear.

my biggest fear was conjured out of fear of

whom i would become.

my fear stemming from the look that

consumed your eyes

the addiction that

consumed your mind

you told me

you loved me

you promised me

no matter what you would always be there

you took my hand and took pleasure in feeding me your lies

telling me i am all that matters to you, above all else.

you swiftly removed your hand from mine

told me to look at mine

secret intent to bring me into your demise

there it appeared , a pipe at my most hopeless moment

out of being afraid to dissapoint you,

out of wanting to believe your lies,

promises of love and devotion of your time

that gleamed in your eyes

you lit it as i hit the pipe, i blew out the smoke

you told me do it again,

and again became to much at your expense

you gave me too much,

and now you despise me for taking up to much of your time

and simply hate that i have unraveled your lies

for our last moment,

i hit the pipe, i blew out the smoke.

now that the smoke has cleared

now i see clearly that you were never here

you have never been there..

for the rest of my life

all that i can understand and make sense of from this..

I miss you mom, come back.

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Where can I hide

When my tormenter

Resides in my mind

How can you ask me to love you

When it hurts to see you

Like this

Your addiction over your head

Like a dark cloud

Raining chemicals that burn

From the inside out

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