#meth addict

[toomuchkween]

I’m not sure why I keep making these posts. They are all the same: Fail, fail, fail!

I am literally circling the bowl.

It’s gets worse every couple of weeks.

More money goes, less sleep happens.

Pretty soon I’ll stop paying bills, start calling in sick to work, stop communicating with the few normal and healthy people I have left in my life.

And the last domino will fall and I will land on the streets, again.

#self sabotage #gay #gay mature #meth addict #addict #gay addict #queer addict #gay bear #clean and sober

[lgbtq-archives]

𝐌𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐄𝐮𝐩𝐡𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐚, 𝐋𝐢𝐟𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐑𝐞𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐭

#silverdaddies #lgbtq #older gay men #older gay #gay community #mature gay men #gay over 60 #gay artist #substance abuse #alcohol addiction #addiction issues #hardcore drugs #drugs addiction #addiction awareness #alcoholism #addict #meth addict #Youtube

[78flashes]

I feel as though I'm really starting to lose myself. I'm getting to the point of not giving a fuck about feelings. After all they are over rated and only held me back from my potential. I may be married but it sure doesn't feel like it. Fuck emotions, I want what feels good, if you get hurt in the process then that's on you. Same goes for myself! Own that shit bra

#meth addict #meth and fuck #sex meth #girls who blow meth #meth friends #meth fun #girls who do dope #mental health #just chatting

[suiciedes-blog]

Samotność ?

Nie jest, aż taka zła ,

Idzie się do niej przyzwyczaić.

🖤23:24🖤

#samotność #ból wewnętrzny #złe myśli #po polsku #samobójca #nothing is real #black rose #red roses #white rose #black tumblr #samotny #żyje cicho krwawiąc #drugs #meth addict #23:23 #umieram #nienawidze siebie #nic nie znaczę #jestem nikim #jestem do niczego #zły świat #przepraszam #smutno #życie po śmierci #samookaleczanie #tabletki #benzodiazeplease #opiowrak

[toomuchkween]

I gave in.

Monday night. I tried to stop myself but I failed.

I didn’t fail Sunday.

I want to say I’ll take the win, but I don’t feel like a winner.

#self sabotage #gay mature #meth addict #addict #gay #gay addict #queer addict #gay bear #clean and sober

[musicmakesyousmart]

#music #meth addict #downtempo #sound collage #Bandcamp

[lgbtq-archives]

𝐀𝐥𝐜𝐨𝐡𝐨𝐥 𝐀𝐝𝐝𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 & 𝐀𝐛𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐋𝐆𝐁𝐓𝐐 𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐮𝐧𝐢𝐭𝐲

#addiction #heavy drinking #alcohol addiction #gay bars #gay life #lgbtq #older gay #silverdaddies #gay over 60 #older gay men #meth addict #mature gay men #gay issues #gay couple

[queentorri]

🥰🥰 I use to be a dope feign but I was just a misguided queen.

#drug addiction #drug feign #iv drugs #native american #slamming dope #lost souls #junkie #meth addict #narcotics anonymous #native pride #recovery #sobriety

[socialdragonflytarot27]

I was guided to do a reading with 3 spreads. One for those who are in active addiction, one for those who are in recovery or newly sober, and one for those who are dealing with or supporting those who are in active addiction.

#socialdragonfly #tarot #socialdragonflyspiritual #tarotreading #spiritualawakening #ascension #recovering addict #addiction rehab #addiction #drug addiction #alcoholism #recovery #meth addict #addicted #healing #healingjourney

[scribblelegs]

It’s been officially 2 months

Since my relapse & since I have used  methamphetamines again. Go me.

The saddest part about it tho is I still want to use.

Fuck me lol

#mentalhealthawareness #schizoaffective #ptsd #schizophrenic #cute #ptsdsurvivor #recovery #recovered addict #mental illness #addiction #meth addict #sober #getting better #recovered #recovering addict #depression #mental health journey

[rosarecovered]

*Update for all the people who don’t read my stuff*

January 31st 2023

I don’t remember my last post on here, I’ll have to check after typing this out and posting it BUT ya girl been thru it the last few months. I relapsed back in July like one time here, one time there and then full on relapse in august. Went to jail October 15th and stayed on a 44 day sanction until November 27th. I got out and relapsed of course on meth and heroin. Which reminds me, I’m not sure if I ever mentioned I started using heroin over a year ago now. And back in august I was narcaned for my first time, and like 4 more times after that. I actually came to terms and accepted the fact that I needed to be in jail because I would have died on the streets from ODing every other day. And I was even grateful for jail but decided I never wanted to go back. So why did I relapse immediately after getting out? Well because I’m an addict obviously. But I knew I needed to stop and do something different. So I immediately got my old job back making pretzels and choose to try MAT(medication assisted treatment) by getting on suboxone. I know it’s basically trading one addiction for another and it’s not technically “clean” but I can honestly say I haven’t touched heroin or meth since December and I really don’t have a desire to. My cravings and triggers only show up when I’m going thru something emotionally/mentally challenging. I was smoking carts of delta 8 from the gas station(weed is illegal in my state still) and trying to push it as far as I could with my PO but I can’t keep violating my probation. Plus CPS would like me to start doing UAs so I can have time alone with my daughter. So the carts are done. So yeah guys, I’m sober! And I really don’t know how I’ve managed to stay so positive and happy especially since it’s winter, and the holidays are always terrible for me, and a few personal relationship issues I’ve had to deal with. The old me would not have been able to deal with these problems at all. I’m really proud of myself. And I really think I’m finally at that point where I’m gonna do it. Im gonna fuckin do it.

#addict #recovery #sobriety #journal #addiction #meth addict #day one #junkie #drug addict #wedorecover