strangeyouallare

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This is Charles. He wants to go on a journey around tumblr. could you show him around?

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“One of the first signs of the beginning of understanding is the wish to die. This life appears unbearable, another unattainable. One is no longer ashamed of wanting to die; one asks to be moved from the old cell, which one hates, to a new one, which one will only in time come to hate. In this there is also a residue of belief that during the move the master will chance to come along the corridor, look at the prisoner and say: ‘This man is not to be locked up again, He is to come with me.’”

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I thought myself better than I am and worked out…now I’m trying to not puke

#i was doing so well #then I couldn’t breathe #I had to take my inhaler #the extra air #made me feel bad #kept going though #just sitting here #now #trying to heal #work will not be done #health & fitness #wrong move

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WHO THE fuck DECIDED THAT I HAD TO INHABIT A BODY?!?!?! IS IT NOT ENOUGH FOR MY SOUL TO BE FLOATING IN THIS WORLD?!?! MUST I BE TRAPPED TO THE GROUND AS WELL?!?!

#why am i here #gods said no to my request #cant believe I’m stuck here #too many idiots #where’s my fae story #true loves kids must break this spell #and yet #👀

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You ever get so tired while studying to where when u rest your head on the table, it feels like the softest fucking pillow imaginable?!?!

#i’m so tired #haven’t gotten sleep #in weeks #m eyes keep closing #my head keeps hitting table #why do I keep #going for the win #two things love me #procrastination #and perfection #I only do one correctly #definitely not my night #probably not my year #either

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“...for if you suffer your people to be ill-educated, and their manners to be corrupted from their infancy, and then punish them for those crimes to which their first education disposed them, what else is to be concluded from this but that you first make thieves and then punish them?”

-Sir Thomas More

#sir thomas more #ever after: a cinderella story #quotes #utopia #dark academia #academia #i think #about this quote #on a daily basis #it’s my personality now #queen behavior #he bowed down #as he should

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people that act like Britain’s colonial past is ancient history, here are some facts:

Afghanistan’s independence was in 1919.

Egypt was in 1922.

Iraq was in 1932.

Jordan was in 1946.

India and Pakistan were in 1947.

Myanmar and Sri Lanka were in 1948.

Libya and Oman were in 1951.

Sudan was in 1956.

Ghana and Malaysia were in 1957.

Singapore was in 1959.

Cyprus and Nigeria were in 1960.

Cameroon, Kuwait, Tanzania, and Sierra Leone were in 1961.

Jamaica, Uganda, and Trinidad and Tobago were in 1962.

Kenya was in 1963.

Malawi, Malta, and Zambia were in 1964.

The Gambia and the Maldives were in 1965.

Barbados, Botswana, Lesotho, and Guyana were in 1966.

Yemen was in 1967.

Eswatini (Swaziland), Nauru, and Mauritius were in 1968.

Fiji and Tonga were in 1970.

Bahrain, Qatar, and the United Arab Emirates were in 1971.

The Bahamas was in 1973.

Grenada was in 1974

Seychelles was in 1976.

Dominica, Tuvalu, and the Solomon Islands were in 1978.

Kiribati and Saint Lucia were in 1979.

Saint Vincent and the Grenadines were in 1979.

Vanuatu and Zimbabwe were in 1980.

Antigua and Barbuda and Belize were in 1981.

Saint Kitts was in 1983.

Brunei was in 1984.

In addition to that: Northern Ireland is still a British territory. So are the Falkland Islands and Bermuda.

This is in the lifetime of ancestors we have that are still alive. Many of these countries were left in financial ruination after colonization with their resources drained. Many of these countries have been repeatedly bombed by the UK and their allies since independence as well. The very act of independence often resulted in massive loss of life (see the partition of India and Pakistan which resulted in 2 million people dead, 20 million people displaced, and countless others never recovered). Calling it ancient history or underplaying the sheer cruelty of what the British empire did is such a slap in the face to the people who suffered for centuries.

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I’m aching. Right here in my heart; I’m aching. It’s a disease. It won’t stop spreading. It plants itself in my chest, then it conquers my stomach. It stomps its way to my limbs and I...I helplessly watch as my body becomes useless. It knows. It knows I cannot fight it. So it smiles up at me and suddenly I can’t breathe. My throat aches and I’m suffocating. No words will come yet there’s nothing to scream anyways. What should I scream? That I’m hurting? That every piece of my body is now foreign to me? It doesn’t belong to me anymore. It belongs somewhere else, but I-I don’t know where. I can only hope it’s better than here. Here, where every other week, my body aches for a place worthy of my hope. Where my heart breaks at every unloving soul. Where my head prays for some sort of release. My body knows; I belong somewhere else.

#fantasy #i can’t get anything done #depressing post #emotionally deprived #not a good night #sleep or stay awake #will I breathe again #i need to rest

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I’m sad today. The kind of sad where every person and place and thing strikes a cord in my heart that I didn’t know was there before. The kind of sad that makes me sit frozen in a quite room, desperate to understand the minuscule details of every piece of someone’s mind and in every chip of the universe’s soul. And while my ears pick up nothing, the sadness is deafening. Overwhelming. And while my mind races to new places, my body has nowhere to go.

#sad poem #sad thoughts #overwhelmed #overthinking #fiction #ya books #where’s my novel #fairy tail #what’s a girl to do

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“IT WILL CEASE TO BE SUBPAR ONCE MY EGO TAKES CONTROL”

-me at 3 am trying to get my life under control

#my ego #out of control #i noticed #i said this #about everything #i need to go to bed #and friends #im sure #it’s related #to some character #ego is my best supporter