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This is just a personal interpretation but, ever since the final volume, after we learned that Giyuu had a descendant named Tomioka Giichi, the possibility of Giyuu starting a family and having kids after the story, kind of makes sense. (at least for me)

As you can see, Giyuu felt extreme guilt over his sister’s death considering she was suppose to get married the next day, yet she sacrificed her own happiness to protect him. 

Given the themes about carrying your loved one’s will. It could make sense how Giyuu would want to continue, and make up for what Tsutako wasn’t able to do.

Giyuu doesn’t seem like someone who is accustomed to taking care of kids, if he ever had one though. I imagine he would be a little clumsy, but nonetheless, he would still be a great and loving dad, because he would make sure his kids wouldn’t suffer the way he did.

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helloo, i hope i'm not bothering you! i just saw your recent april showers do spring lem flowers posts and was wondering if you could write something about gai and the reader dancing in the rain? your writing is just too beautiful to resist to ask, so i hope i'm not asking for too much! i'm sending you loads of love and the best wishes <3

not a bother at all; thanks for your patience. <3

You almost trip your way down the stairs when your shift is over, so delighted to finally be finished with your work week that you all but skip from the stairwell to the front door.

You're about to tumble out into the street, mouth stretched in a delighted smile when a sharp crack of thunder pulls you from your daydreams of how you'll spend the rest of your evening and weekend.

Looking out the doors to the mud-spattered walkway, you groan. Apparently, the lovely sunshine-filled day you'd left behind when you entered your windowless workspace this morning has since clouded over.

Sometimes, you think, life truly is unfair.

Defeated, deflated, and very much regretting your choice of footwear, you step out into the rain without a coat or boots or umbrella, resigning yourself to a soggy deommute.

Maybe you'll just order food and stay in tonight, you think, because a cursory glance overhead makes it very clear very quickly that the weather is not likely to improve any time soon. You curse internally that you worked through your lunchbreak--when the weather might still have been nice!--so you could leave a little early.

What a waste.

As you trudge toward home, the rain and wind seem to pick up in intensity out of spite, and soon you're grumbling under your breath at the injustice of it all. A bit dramatic, perhaps, but so is this damn weather. If you didn't know you'd be teased mercilessly by the first person who saw you, you think you might even stop to shake an irritated fist at the storm-clouded heavens for good measure.

You're only halfway home, hair plastered in a sopping mess and feet squelching in the thick muck of Konoha's streets with every step, when you're finally granted a respite from the downpour.

Confused, you peel your gaze away from the ground to look up and see if maybe the clouds are finally beiginning to disperse. What you find instead is the underside of a bright green umbrella.

"It appears you neglected to check the weather when choosing your attire for today!"

Gai Maito's deep, smooth voice cuts through the noise of the storm without any trouble and he's smiling brightly despite the copious mud speckled over his leggings and bodysuit. You're not sure how someone can be so cheerful in the face of such dreadful surroundings, but then, you don't think you've ever seen him wear any other expression, so perhaps that isn't as strange as it seems at first.

You offer Gai a grateful smile, blinking raindrops from your eyelashes as you thank him for providing a little protection from the storm. "I think I just got too excited about the sunshine this morning, I didn't think to check whether it was permanent."

Gai chuckles, the sound rumbling like the thunder overhead, only you find it much more pleasant to listen to.

You think if anyone can understand blind optimism, it must be Gai. You've ever met anyone so completely capable of finding the good in all things, all people.

"This morning certainly was lovely," he agrees as he falls into step beside you, holding the umbrella as much over both of you as you can.

You grimace when you realize his opposite shoulder is now quite exposed to the elements and so you tell him, "It's okay, I'm soaked anyway, no reason for you to get wet, too."

He frowns, almost as if he doesn't understand what you're saying.

"I just mean you don't have to waste the umbrella on me, since I'm already drenched."

Gai smiles at you again, but it isn't the usual beaming, gleaming grin. It's something much softer, his dark eyes gazing at you fondly from beneath his thick eyebrows.

You yelp when the umbrella retracts, leaving you both standing, unprotected, in the downpour.

"What are you doing?!" you ask, gawking at the way Gai's vest and jumpsuit immediately begin to darken as the rain seeps into them. His hair plasters itself to his forehead and he sweeps his fingers thorugh it, pushing it away from his face in a way you have to admit suits him quite well.

You've always thought he was handsome, but there's something about Gai a little disheveled that's even more enticing than usual.

He tilts his head back, letting the rain slick over his face, droplets tracing down between the taut tendons of his neck to disappear beneath his flak vest. "There is nothing more youthful than seizing the moment!" he proclaims, then adds when he looks at you again, "Wouldn't you agree?"

You don't have time to answer before Gai grasps both your hands in his. If it weren't for him holding you upright as he yanks you off course, you certainly would have face-planted in the thick mud at your feet.

"Gai!" you yell over the din of the storm, "What are you doing?"

But his only response is another laugh as he begins to twirl you around. You have no idea where his umbrella has gone and you find quickly that you don't really care. His enthusiasm is infectious as always and soon you're laughing right along with him as the two of you prance and splash in the mud. When he wraps one strong aroumd around the small of your back to pull you closer, you feel the vibration of his happiness in his chest.

Suddenly, the rain and the mud and the wind no longer matter. That you had hoped for sunshine and got grey skies instead doesn't feel like the betrayal it did a short while ago.

Because Gai Maito is dancing with you without a care for how silly you both look in the middle of the village, or whether his leg warmers are ruined, and you know in your heart that no amount of sunshine could ever compare with Gai's radiant energy.

You hardly notice when you make it to your front door, breathless and dizzy from your rainstorm promenade. Gai's sharp cheekbones stand out as he grins at you, his eyes sparkling far more than the dewdrop-like rain gathered on his lashes should make possible.

"Would you like to come in?" you ask between bouts of laughter and catching your breath, "A cup of hot tea seems the least I can offer for your trouble."

"Trouble?" he asks. "I'm afraid I don't know what you mean?"

You gesture to all of him--his mud-caked toes and sopping wet uniform. In a rare moment of courage, your reach up and pluck a wet leaf from his tussled black hair and hand it to him.

Gai chuckles. "While I'd love a cup of tea," he says, "I feel it's important I make it clear that spending time with you has never been and will never be troublesome."

Your smile falters just a little, heart beating rapidly in the wake of his admission, hoping it means what you think it does.

"Come in," you say, smile growing wider again by the moment, "I don't think I'd like to stop dancing quite yet."

Gai follows easily and suddenly your weekend seems a lot less dreary than it had only a little while ago.

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Baby Blues

Giyū Tomioka x afab!Reader

Word Count: 1,2k

Ao3

Warning: mentions of pregnancy

Summary: You are pregnant and yet to tell your husband.

Your husband Tomioka Giyū had always been a stoic and reserved individual, a man who wore his heart on his sleeve but never dared to show it to anyone, anyone but you, that is. Behind his gorgeous blue eyes lay more sorrow than you could understand on some days, self-doubts you were always there to reassure him of were not true and a heart deserving of more love than he could ever imagine.

It was only natural that you did not want to cause your husband any more worry. You loved him dearly, after all, and only wanted what you thought was best for Giyū. With the two of you having gotten married some time ago, you thought that your husband had enough to worry about as is, but with a child on the way, his stress would only increase.

Right, a child. You had almost forgotten already. The reason why your own worries were gnawing at your nerves in the first place, tugging at your heartstrings as you mulled over the many different ways your situation could turn out. 

You were pregnant and had yet to tell your husband.

In the romance novels you have read during your serene time alone, the part where the wife informed her husband of her pregnancy always seemed to happen so smoothly. The women in the novels always knew what to say, never stumbled over their words or emotions as they delivered the news. What followed were bellows of joy, many kisses and a celebration of the new life beginning, a new future starting.

When the characters written on the pages did it, it seemed so easy. But you weren’t a character on said pages, you were a woman living during times when your life could be cut short so quickly. There was no author writing your perfect little romance and happy ending, you had to fight for your own happy ending, for your own survival. Your fate was not planned out bit by bit, it was yet to be decided, and that scared you deeply.

How would Giyū react to the news?

You liked to think that you knew your husband very well, you wouldn’t have gotten married to him if you didn’t. The foundation to a healthy and successful marriage was trust, knowledge, and above all: love (or so you had been taught). And you also knew that your husband loved you very much, there was no doubt there that he did.

Giyū was not a man to proclaim his love in over-the-top ways by screaming it out to the world, by letting it be known by anyone and everyone. His love was quiet and reserved, just like he was. His kisses were gentle and soft, but filled with so much emotion as he pulled your body flush to his, heat rising to his pale cheeks.

You loved him as much as he loved you, and the other way around. And yet, you couldn’t predict his reaction. Would he be excited? Joyful? Or scared and fester his doubts in quiet, not daring to share them with you unless you begged him to do so, your own worries about him consuming you?

No matter how many sleepless nights you spent thinking about the possible outcomes, feeling his warm body pressed to yours, his strong arms pulling you close and holding onto you tightly, you still didn’t know which outcome was the most probable. 

For the first time ever since the two of you got married, you felt like you didn’t know your husband. In your decision-making, you felt so … alone. You had been so used to making decisions alongside your dear husband, consulting him the same way he consulted you, that making such a tough decision was anything but easy for you.

And it didn’t help either that the front door swung open as you were sitting on the ebony rocking chair in the living room, too deep into your doubts and mindlessly pulling at the strings of the ruby-red scarf you wanted to fix. In the doorway stood Giyū, looking battered from his latest mission, as he took off his shoes and outside gear before greeting you.

As soon as he got a good look at you, however, he stopped completely. You seemed nervous and fidgety, not anything like the woman he had married. Around your fingers, the red thread wandered and Giyū watched with curiosity in his gaze as you pulled at the already ripped scarf more and more, pulling it apart at the seams.

Your behaviour was unlike you, Giyū thought, noting how you didn’t even greet him back, as you always did. One look at you was enough to determine that something was wrong.

“Did something happen, darling?”

Your head snapped up to look at him, obviously startled by his question. “Giyū- I-” You breathed in, doing your best at calming your racing heart. “No, no, everything is fine. I’m fine.”

His brows knit into a furrow. He stepped closer to you, his blue eyes raking over your body to check for any injuries. “Are you sure that everything is okay?”

He clearly knew you too well, because when you shook your head, Giyū did not show signs of surprise.

You couldn’t keep this a secret any longer, it wasn’t fair to you or Giyū. Worry shone in his eyes as he looked at you, the thing you so desperately tried to keep away from him.

So, you took a deep breath and said, “There’s something I have to tell you,” You could see his concern for you grow and his posture tense up, the man before you suck in a breath. His heart rate quickened as he anticipated your answer, a million possibilities running through his mind. With your voice barely above a whisper, you continued, “I’m pregnant.”

Your husband had always been a man of few words, but as he stood opposite you completely speechless, your worries only increased.

“Giyū?” Your voice came out as a cry, tears welling up in your eyes. Abruptly, you stood up from the chair, allowing the scarf to drop to your feet. “Say something, please!”

Giyū was stunned, his mouth hanging slightly open, but no words coming out. He couldn’t believe what he was hearing, and for a short moment, he doubted that he had understood you correctly. Joy, excitement, fear and uncertainty flooded through him, he felt overwhelmed by the news, his brain circuiting as he processed what you just told him.

You’re pregnant. He’s going to be a father.

Tears welled in his eyes as he whispered, “Are you sure?”

You nodded, feeling tongue-tied. “Shinobu-san was kind enough to confirm it for me.”

He walked over to you and took you into his arms, carefully holding your body flush to his. “That’s wonderful, darling.”

A choked sob escaped your lips, your pent-up emotions releasing. All that worrying you had done had been for nothing. “Really?”

“Really.”

You took his face into your hands, softly cradling it. Your thumb moved across his cheek, caressing the skin and wiping the tears away that fell from his beautiful blue eyes. “Oh, Giyū …” Another sob wracked through you. “I love you so much.”

Giyū smiled at you. “I love you too, my darling,” His hand rested on your hips, holding you close. “And no matter what, I’m always going to be here for you, you hear me?”Neither of you could wait to start your new chapter as a family together.

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Perfect Harmony

Shisui Uchiha x gn!Reader

Word Count: 0,5k

Ao3

Author's Note: can you all tell I have no idea about dancing??

Summary: You and Shisui dance in perfect harmony.

“Would you do me the honour of dancing with me?” dressed in his finest attire, Uchiha Shisui held his hand out for you to take. A charming smile tugged at his lips and joy shone in his dark mesmerizing eyes, a shade of charcoal if you had to guess.

Executing the perfect etiquette instilled in you, you nodded, looking up at the man from under your eyelashes. “I would love to.” You replied, taking his hand and rising from your seat.

You allowed Shisui to lead you toward the dance floor, his hand resting on the small of your back as he did so. From how close you were, you could see the crinkle forming near his eyes as well as smell his perfume, an intoxicating scent. He was everything the Uchiha men were raised to be, charming, captivating and alluring most of all, a representation of the clan’s power and of its might.

And yet, even without all that, Shisui would have still wormed his way into your heart. It had been a pleasant surprise that, besides his exceptional skills in battle and his undeniable natural charm, he was also a gifted dancer.

His hand was intertwined with yours, the other still resting on the small of your back as Shisui pulled your body to his. You recognized the song starting in the background and adjusted your position as such, your hand moving to rest on his shoulder. 

Shisui’s movements were fluid and graceful from his first movement onward, almost as though the Uchiha was a puppet of the music, feelings its every melody deep in his bones. There was a finesse to his movements, one that you gladly matched with precision of your own. There were no missteps or mistakes made when the two of you danced, sucked into your own world as the music entranced you, and captivated you fully. Staring into Shisui’s eyes and seeing him stare back, you glided across the dance floor, your bodies moving as though one.

The intricacy of each movement was pure muscle memory, the chatter surrounding you and Shisui fading into the background. In his deep charcoal eye lit a spark, a flame of passion shining in yours. Matching smiles played on your lips as Shisui dipped you, and you sucked in a breath. Your lips parted as though to say something, but no words came out. For a moment, it was as though the world around you had fully stopped, no one but you and Shisui existing in your shared little world.

Then, he pulled you upward again in one fluid motion, your bodies pushed flush together.

Applause erupted from the onlookers as well as the other dancers occupying the dance floor. You could feel Shisui’s breath on your face as he breathed in heavily, beads of sweat glistening on his forehead. The same could be said for you, savouring every breath as the world around you finally stopped spinning. Shisui’s hand on the small of your back kept you steady, and your hand on his shoulder held him grounded as the two of you stared at one another, your lips almost touching from how close your bodies were.

“Thank you for dancing with me, my love.” Shisui said, his words coming out with a pant.

You smiled at your partner, “It was my pleasure. I had a lot of fun, as always.”

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Sweet Creature

Shino Aburame x gn!Reader

Word Count: 1k

Ao3

Summary: Shino introduces you to his Kikaichū.

Aburame Shino stood in a quiet and secluded clearing in one of the many forests of Konohagakure, the high grass surrounding him covering a part of his lean frame. The stoic expression on his face was partially hidden by the high collar of the jacket he always wore, the same one casting a shadow on his face.

Opposite him stood his partner, you, with a smile on your face, your head cocked to the side as you watched him with growing interest. A little adventure deep into the Konoha forest by the Aburame clan compound was most definitely not on your schedule today, but heading there with Shino was something you didn’t mind. When he told you earlier today that he had something to show you, your curiosity had spiked so much so that on the way into the forest, you could barely keep it to yourself. And since your boyfriend was not the most talkative of men, it was not like you had many hints and clues to work with to come to your own conclusion.

So, as you watched Shino hold out his hand for you to see, you sucked in a breath. Familiar bugs wriggled on his hand, almost as though they were letting out pent-up energy or some sort of emotion. “These are my partners,” He said, his voice slightly muffled from behind his collar. After having known him for so long, you have gotten used to it already. “The Kikaichū.”

As his partner and, before that, friend, it wasn’t like you didn’t know of his clan’s insects. In fact, you had encountered them plenty of times before already, but you had never truly been introduced to them in the way the Aburame see as fitting. That was an honour you had yet to be allowed to participate in, until now, that is.

“They may seem a bit intimidating at first, but they won’t harm you,” Shino always seemed to know the right words to speak to put you at ease. He knew you too well. “Trust me.”

As though wanting to demonstrate, Shino flexed his hand and watched the insects begin to scurry all over his skin, their tiny legs tickling him as they crawled. He was used to the sensation already, but still watched the insects go about with interest in his eyes.

You, on the other hand, watched with fascination, your gaze practically glued to their black little bodies wandering about.

“The Kikaichū feed on chakra,” You already knew that, but hearing Shino talk about his insects always caught your attention. He was never the big talker, preferring to stay quiet instead, but when he did talk, Shino’s voice came out in a lull that never failed to mesmerize you. “They are capable of draining an opponent’s energy in battle. They can also track scents and detect enemies.”

You leaned closer to his hand and the insects, peeking at them with interest. Then, you looked up at your boyfriend, “You know, Shino, I admire your knowledge about bugs. It’s so extensive, it’s impressive.”

Behind his high collar, Shino’s lips stretched into a smile, his cheeks feeling warm. “Would you like to hold one?”

For a moment, you said nothing as Shino moved one of the bugs over to his other hand. It wasn’t that you were scared of holding one of his trusted bugs, you knew that from the bottom of your heart, you could trust Shino, and yet this was a big step. He was trusting you with the safety of one of his bugs, which wasn’t exactly an everyday occurrence for either of you, and you were determined to treat it as such. 

“Sure?” Almost tentatively, you reached out your hand. Shino moved his hand with the singular bug toward yours, the two of you watching as the insect crawled from his hand over to yours.

At first, the sensation of the little legs leaving a faint tingle behind left you shivering as you got used to the feeling. But then you watched the bug move around freely, almost as though it got used to the new space it got to occupy. It reminded you of the other bugs you had encountered already, but knowing that this specific one was one of Shino’s made holding it much more special.

“What a cute little bug,” You commented, your voice filled with wonder. As the bug moved toward the back of your hand, you turned it, so it wouldn’t be upside down. “Fast too.”

Shino chuckled softly. “That they are.”

He was well aware that to some, the Kikaichū can be unsettling companions to have. To see your fascination with the bugs that were so important to him and his entire existence as a Shinobi, to see you smile as his little companion moved all over your hand, made him happy, too. Shino could barely keep the smile off of his face as he watched, a warm feeling of contempt washing over him.

“Does it have a name?” You asked while turning your hand so that your palm would face upward again. Almost like a child captivated by their new toy, you didn’t even lift your head to look at your boyfriend as you continued, “He looks like a Shino Junior.”

At that, Shino raised a brow. “And how do you know it's a he?”

You shrugged. “I don’t know, he just feels like a he.”

“Well, the one you’re holding is a female, actually.”

“Oh,” Your gaze moved to look at the beetle-like bug again. “How do you know that? Which ones are female and which are male?”

“Female kikaichū like the one you’re holding right now can be placed on a target during a mission. They will then release a pheromone that the males are able to home in on,” Shino explained. “Growing up, I spent hours trying to find differences between them.”

With a newfound spark in your eyes, you lifted them to look at Shino. “Can you tell me more about the Kikaichū, please?”

There’s nothing he would love to do more.

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Kakashi Fluff Alphabet

Kakashi Hatake x gn!Reader

Word Count: 3,1k

Ao3

A - Attractive (what they find attractive)

Your personality. That doesn’t mean that Kakashi thinks that you are ugly, not at all, he thinks you’re the most beautiful person he has ever laid his eyes upon. Rather, your personality is what drew Kakashi to you and what made him like you so much. The way you care for him, the way you can make him laugh and smile like no other, that is what made Kakashi fall in love with you. Your breathtaking beauty is an added bonus.

The same goes for you, too. You enjoy Kakashi’s nonchalance, with the hints of humour coming out every once in a while. When you first got to know Kakashi, his personality was quite guarded, he would barely let anyone near him. Save for Gai as the exception, you quickly noticed that Kakashi always put his guard up around other people, only letting it down when the said exception came around. Around Gai, he grew to be more open, letting out the occasional louder laugh. Befriending Kakashi certainly wasn’t easy, but getting to know him was one of the best things you ever did. While he certainly was a sight for sore eyes and very attractive indeed (you couldn’t deny that your heart skipped a few beats whenever you saw him), his personality ultimately drew you toward him. There was just something about him, you just couldn’t ignore, no matter how much you tried.

B - Baby (do they want a family?)

I’d say not up until after the Fourth Shinobi War, or maybe the time between the end of that and prior to him becoming Hokage. He would need to plan the baby/pregnancy, meaning a baby wouldn’t be a surprise. A child also comes along with doubts about being a father and being able to provide for his own family. What is essential, is that you are by his side and support him through all his worries, thoughts, and doubts. Kakashi needs a lot of convincing, for sure.

As his partner, you are willing to wait for Kakashi. Respect is one of the things you preach about a relationship, and respecting Kakashi is very important to you, as it is for him. You know that in return that he respects you and your boundaries too, so waiting for him isn’t a problem at all. If you don’t want a family of your own, however, then the respect the two of you share for one another goes a long way.

C - Cuddle (how they cuddle)

When cuddling, Kakashi is afraid to let you go. If he could, he would hold onto your for forever. He enjoys nuzzling his face into the crook of your neck, breathing in your familiar scent, and relaxing in your arms. He especially likes it when your hand runs through his hair, and when your fingertips graze the crown of his head. His arms meanwhile wrap around your figure, doing his best to hold you impossibly close.

On the other hand, when he gets to be the big spoon while cuddling, Kakashi likes it a lot when you rest your head on his chest. It’s soothing to feel the comfortable weight of your head there and the way your hand settle on his body. He wouldn’t trade the experience of getting to hold you close to him for anything else in this world.

D - Dates (what dates with them are like)

Dates with Kakashi are quiet and filled with love. They are so versatile, a date with Kakashi could be anything. One of your dates the two of you simply took a walk around the park, enjoying the presence of the other before the two of you decided to sit down on the bench for a while. There, you two had a heartfelt talk, your shoulder leaning against his and his head knocking against yours.

On another date of yours, the two of you first went and enjoyed some ramen, running into the gremlins of Team 7 along the way. You couldn’t continue, of course, without Naruto coming along once he saw where you two were headed. Sakura tagged along to ‘keep him from bothering him sensei’ as she said in her own words, but most likely just to spy on her sensei on a date. And as much as the brooding Sasuke couldn’t admit it, he was just as interested as his teammates were. While spending time with the kids on your date with Kakashi wasn’t the most ideal thing in the world, you had to admit, the gremlins had grown on you just as much as they had on Kakashi, so saying no wasn’t easy. Afterwards, you two did have some alone time, strolling around the village in shared solitude, enjoying the time you were able to spend together.

E - Everything (you are my…)

Love. You are Kakashi’s love, the one he loves the most in this world. What is there more to say? Kakashi can be a literal man if he wants to be, and while hesitant at the beginning of your relationship, he grows to be a person who tells you and others exactly how he feels about you.

Sweetheart. Kakashi is your sweetheart, the one who stole your heart from you. While he doesn’t look it on the outside, you know that on the inside he has a gentle heart, or as you would say, a sweet heart.

F - Feelings (when they realise that they love you)

Kakashi realised he was in love with you when every time he thought about you, someone mentioned you or he saw you, his heartbeat would pick up and a heat would spread across his cheeks. He’s not stupid, just very oblivious to his own feelings sometimes. So when he began reacting to you differently than he reacted to anyone else, Kakashi immediately knew that something was up. When around you, he was just so happy all the time and could barely hold back a smile. There was just something about you that made him feel like he could explode from all the joy you brought into his life. The final nail in the coffin was when Gai of all people picked up on Kakashi’s sudden change of mood whenever you were near. The ever-so-loud Gai made it his mission to remind his eternal rival of the love he found, so even if Kakashi had not realised on his own, Gai was right there to tell him.

G - Gentle (are they gentle?)

Without a doubt, yes. In contrary to the reputation Kakashi has within the ninja world as Kakashi the Friend Killer and Copy Cat Ninja, Kakashi has a gentle soul when it comes to you. Especially at the beginning of your relationship, Kakashi is quite hesitant. His touches are with the most precaution he can muster up and his Sharingan eye is always on the lookout for any signs of pain. Within your relationship, Kakashi not only grows as a person, but also learns to let loose sometimes, and what is gentle to you and where your boundaries are. That means that if he wants to, he can also get a little frisky sometimes, but for that to happen it takes time for him to fully trust you and for him to know that you can trust him in return.

H - Hand/hold (how do they hold you? Do they hold hands?)

When together, your hands are always intertwined. It’s almost as though Kakashi cannot get enough of you. He always has to touch you in some way to reassure himself that you are still here, by his side. On the days on which his self-doubts take over, Kakashi squeezes your hand to ground himself again. It’s difficult for him to not take your hand and intertwine it with his, to let you go.

You wouldn’t dare to let go of him, either. Holding onto his hand is almost ethereal, an experience that grounds you. He brings you a lot of comfort, for which you are very thankful in return.

I - Impression (first impression)

Kakashi thought that you were charming. With a smile that could rival the light of a thousand suns, Kakashi simply couldn’t tear his eyes away from you when he first saw you. Like a magnet, he gravitated toward you.

At first, you thought that there was something odd about Kakashi. Admittedly, your first encounter wasn’t one of the fairytales, but you quickly got to know the man behind his constant guard and that first impression vanished to the back of your mind.

J - Joker (do they joke a lot?)

If he wants to be, Kakashi can be quite the jokester. A tease or quip here and there, Kakashi’s jokes are usually followed by words of endearment. Hearing your laugh is worth any bad joke he has to crack.

K - Kisses (how they kiss)

Kakashi’s kisses are soft and quick at first, but grow into something more emotionally-bound slowly. Throughout the day, he is usually wearing his mask, so there is no time for him to pull it down and to kiss you on the lips as he would like to do. Instead, a quick kiss of his masked lips on your cheek will have to suffice. The same can be said for the beginning of your relationship. Kakashi’s hesitance when it comes to baring his face is rather obvious, but you don’t push him to step over his boundaries. In his own time and on his own terms, he grows more and more comfortable with the idea of kissing you on the lips, without his mask. His soft and quick kisses become more emotional, and grow longer and more intense. Make-out sessions become a more regular occurrence in the comfort of your home as Kakashi dares to do more and more and grows bolder (within his own limits, of course).

L - Little things (what little things they love)

Kakashi absolutely adores your smile. The way your lips tug up is just so infuriatingly infectious and makes him want to smile alongside you. Seeing the skin near your eyes crinkle is such a beautiful thing to Kakashi, a sight he could never tire of. With his Sharingan eye, he can save the image in his mind to look at over and over again, making sure that the sight of you smiling is never lost in his memories.

You love Kakashi’s hair. You enjoy running your hand through his hair when cuddling with him and seeing his hair practically glow as sunlight peeks through your curtains. It is just so fluffy when freshly washed, and hearing his cute snores as he falls asleep in your arms is an added bonus.

M - Memory (favourite memory together)

There are many memories with you together that Kakashi would consider to be his favourite. His all-time favourite, however? Kakashi could remember the memory as vividly as the day it happened. You were there, laying beside him as the sun illuminated your features, giving them a beautiful glow. Your (eye color) eyes were shining in the sunlight, the shades of (color) as mesmerizing as ever. His hand reached out to touch you, his fingers gently caressing the hot skin of your cheek. From how close he was laying next to you in your shared bed, he could see the pores on your skin, every little imperfection that made you you, the one he loved the most. Kakashi leaned toward you and pressed a soft kiss to the place where his fingers had just been, lingering there for a moment to relish in his closeness to you. He could smell your perfume, the same one you had put on a mere hour earlier, and the intoxicating scent of your body wash clinging to your frame. Your laughter rang in his ears and Kakashi relished in the sound, closing his eyes as he moved closer to you, his skin making more contact with yours. “I love you,” He heard you whisper. The words made his heart race, pink dusting his cheeks. “so so much.”

N - Nickel (do they spoil?)

Kakashi totally spoils you whenever he can. Whenever he is on a mission with his gremlins of Team Seven, Kakashi makes sure to bring little trinkets home. Whether it is a little snow globe from the Land of Snow, or the most delicious food from Sumogakure. Kakashi always manages to bring something with him, it is all worth it to see you react to the gracious gift.

After going on long missions and spending a long time apart, Kakashi makes sure to spoil you with a lot of quality time. As much as you miss him, he also misses you, so he compensates for the time you couldn’t spend together. That means going out to eat something together, sleeping in together in your shared bed or going on long walks to talk about what he had missed while he was gone.

O - Orange (what color reminds them of you)

Yellow, you make his world a brighter place than it was without you in it. It’s that simple.

P - Petnames (what petnames they use)

Love. Just as mentioned before, you are his love. Over time, Kakashi has grown used to calling you love (something he picked up from one of his Icha Icha books, not that he would ever dare to tell you). The petname for you just stuck around.

Darling. You don’t exactly remember when you began calling Kakashi by that petname, but calling him that petname just feels right when using it.

Q - Questions ( what are the questions they’re always asking?)

“Is there anything I can do for you, love?” The ever-so caring Kakashi is always making sure that you are alright and that your needs are satisfied. Caring for and about you comes naturally to him, so he never hesitates when asking you that.

“You know that I love you, right?” While not exactly a question, Kakashi is a man with many self-doubts. Every once in a while after a particularly difficult mission or event, Kakashi needs you to reassure him, he needs to know that you love him. You are able to read the signs of his spiralling self-doubts easily and know exactly what to say and how to comfort him.

R - Remember (their favourite memory of each other)

You two share your favourite memory of each other, it’s the first time you confessed your love to one another. For neither of you it needs much explaining as to why it is your favourite memory.

S - Sad ( how they cheer themselves/others up)

As explained previously, quality time and reasurements are the way in your relationship to go. You two need each other, although it is important to note that sometimes, both of you need time apart to calm down. While your shared time is appreciated, there are matters one can only resolve on their own, and that’s something both you and Kakashi learned over the course of your relationship. 

T - Talking ( what they love to talk about)

As much as Kakashi does not want to admit it, he loves to talk about his little gremlins when returning from training them or from a mission. As with his other previous teams he had failed, Kakashi was hesitant when it came to passing them. But the gleam in his eyes when he finally did was incomparable to anything else. There was hope in his eyes, one that hadn’t been there before he left to meet the new Team Seven at the academy. It wasn’t until later you found out why exactly he believed in them so much when he told you who they reminded him of. Ever since then, there has been a special place in his heart reserved just for them, even if he never did say that aloud.

Kakashi also enjoys to talk about his favourite piece of literature: Icha Icha. The book almost seems to be glued into his hands, as you had noted at the beginning of your relationship. On some days, you doubted you could even separate your dear partner from the book, almost like they were one entity. If you are a fan of the book, talking to him about it comes easily to you. If you are not so impressed by the work, listening to Kakashi talk about it is more of a courtesy. You are well aware of how much it means to him, so you don’t mind listening.

U - Universe ( a metaphor)

“Love is a spice in many tastes, a dizzying array of textures and moments.”

V - Very ( thoughts about each other)

Kakashi loves you because you are the rock in the stormiest of seas. You are the one holding him above water and keeping him from sinking.

Kakashi is the light of your life even on the darkest of days. The mere sound of his voice can brighten up your day unlike anything else can.

W - Why ( reasons why they love you)

Kakashi loves you because of who you are. You are the person who had been missing from his life, the one he unknowingly was searching for, like a puzzle looking for its final piece. Kakashi adores your personality, the way you laugh and always know how to cheer him up. He loves your smile and your little quirks, the things that make you so unique. He couldn’t even summarize all the things he loved about you if he tried, the list would be too long in his opinion.

X - Xylophone (what’s their song?)

All of Me by John Legend.

Y - You (what you are to them)

What was missing in his life. As cheesy as it sounds, up until Kakashi met you, it felt as though there was something missing in his life, that was you. Like a missing puzzle piece that fits perfectly, you came into his life, and luckily for him, never left. 

Z - Zebra ( what pet they want to have)

I mean, the answer is quite obvious, really. While Kakashi wouldn’t exactly be against you wanting to get a pet, his ninken certainly wouldn’t be the most enthusiastic upon hearing the news. Being in a relationship with Kakashi meant that you were a part of the family from now, a part of their family specifically. And sure, ninken are ninja dogs trained for combat and to protect their summoner, treating them like pets was something you and Kakashi regularly did. It was difficult not to with their cute, little faces staring back at you ever time they were summoned or the way they behaved like any other dog would when being offered a treat. So, hearing that you were planning to get another pet, they wouldn’t take the news lightly. Some may say that Kakashi’s ninken have a small jealousy problem, and you wouldn’t beg to differ.

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Thank you so so much again! 🤍 You‘re too kind! ✨

A pile of sketches! Featuring @magnolian-gold @sunstaar and @onmywaytofanfic ‘s ocs! (If I got any usernames wrong please let me know! 😅)

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NEW BEGINNINGS - CHAPTER 1

So... As I said in a previous post, I am working on a re-do of Reina's backstory. However, in teh process and thanks to a friend (@yamanaka-shin you keep putting ideas in my head D: ) an idea pop up, MutaxReina. I have not been able to change it and it hunts me...and it has turn into a very interesting AU and version of Reina that I want to investigate and check more. There is also someone else's OC is involve @kankuroplease ' s Katsura. I have talked so Katsura would be mentioned at some point....here you can see a little glimpse. But.... Welll.... REINA x MUTA is a reality !! BEWARE: That this is going to be hurtful. It is going to be a lot of angst, but it feels like healing too.

WARMINGS: Self-harm mentions (Not descriptions just innuendo)

WORDS: 1370

“Until this day… I wonder why I thought that they would come, why my head, my heart hoped that once I was out of there, I would see their smiling faces. I will finally feel what a mother’s hug feels like, what a father’s kind words are and how a brother’s shoulder feels like. I still wonder, what part of me led me to think that. I wonder what made me think that I had a choice. I kept safe the letter that informed all of us that Root was disbanded of their usage. It is something silly and stupid to keep. A letter that confirms that I was no longer part of Root, still…I don’t know why I hold onto it so much. Anyway, I kept it. I remember that I have pictured that moment plenty of times when the letter was in my hands. When I was…given… sold…I think trade feels more accurate. When they trade me for Tatsuma I… he…I’m sure that you will laugh about it but I felt happy. I thought that maybe, now that I did what I was supposed to do, maybe now…my mother would hug me. She just grabbed him like it looked so good. She was crying, she buried her face in his shoulder, and dad was smiling. It was the first time that I ever saw him smiling so much. I made them happy. I made them like that I…” She could not hold her tears any longer, a small whimper and a cry. The doctor gave her some tissues.

“It was me who they should be hugging…I make it possible for them to be together. It was I” She kept weeping. Ashamed buried her face in her hands, letting her mane flow wild “I did it, I was good. I did everything…I…” The doctor stopped writing for a second and touched her shoulder “You need to let things go now Reina. You are the one that needs to hug that child, not them, they never deserved you '' Gen had been of great help for her recovery. He was the doctor of the centre, well one of them. A Yamanaka as a therapist always sounds good. He was the best at his job, it took Reina some time…more than two months to start at least answering back “How are you, today?” Every other day they got that long hour of a session. Technically, if you do not undergo them, you can’t have visits coming over. However, he always asked her if she wanted a visit. She never answered back. 

“And then…” she cleansed her nose “Seeing Shino there just hugging his brother. Seeing Torune with his family and Shino with her…” She wiped out some tears “It’s just…” Gen nodded and wrote something on his notepad “trigger”. She laid down and kept hiding her face from him, she had recently started to talk that much in therapy, she even started to have some quick chats with some other interns and nurses. However, she kept that awful thing, she bit her lips and fingers, she knocked her head and sometimes hit her head with her wrist out of anger. Gen let all the things down and looked at the clock, it was time, it was over for today. “You are doing great, Reina. I thought that you will never talk ever again” Four months already locked out there. “I…I want to go out” confessed. The doctor stood up “That needs a little more time you know that” She nodded and rose leaving the room “Would you like to see someone this weekend?” she froze at the opened door. She was thinking for the first time about Gen’s proposal, her answers had always been direct and straightforward. She turned around with her ankles and look down, ashamed, scared…blushing.

“Could you ask…Aburame Muta if she wants to come?” 

“I will” 

She gave a gentle nod and disappeared. She rarely interacted with other patients; however, she did not deny the gentle nod of greeting nor answer when she was asked for something. She almost seemed like she started to trust people back. There were moments in which she could not hold it and just locked herself in her room, denied caring or even caring for herself. She stood in her bedroom now with the door closed and the window faintly open. It did not have much space, aside from the small bedroom, a tiny drawer where most of her belongings were and a small hand size mirror. The bathroom only had the WC, and you could wash your hands on top of it, the faucet was extensible, so it also served as a shower in less than 2 meters. Everything was packed uncomfortably, technically to encourage patients to socialize. It had the opposite effect on her, she was comfortable there, in a small space, not bothering anyone, not being a burden. She liked to be isolated, but lately she had found some stuff missing from outside.

The book shop, the bakery, the smell of freshly cooked cookies by Muta, the touch of the grass in her feet, the sound of street music, seeing the insects and the animals roam free in the compounds… She thought she hated everything, and now she was discovering everything that she was missing. Even clothes! She usually wore her uniform, even when she shouldn't, never allowing herself to dress up with anything that was not practical or functional. Now, she had found skirts and dresses and she was eager to try one of those on, to wear one. She wanted a summer dress, one of those that she had seen in the magazines that were in the common room. The people wearing them looked so happy, cheerful, full of life, she thought that it was something that those dresses gave to them. She knew the one that she wanted, a white one, with a small pattern of butterflies on it, a little bit above her knee maybe, and those lovely sleeves that only covered the shoulder. Maybe even some cleavage showing? Yes, maybe. She wanted one of those, and the sandals that had a little heel, they looked so fresh, so stunning. Whenever she saw someone wearing those in a magazine, they were beaming. Definitely, it was the dress that made that. 

She had started to send letters outside… to Muta. They were not that frequent, but when she found the courage to write to him, she spent hours writing and writing. She always asked if it was okay for her to write to him, and he replied that it did not matter, in fact he was glad to receive them. She also asked if it was okay to ask him to come, he always said that he would come. However, not until today, had she given him the possibility to come. She felt selfish, as if she somehow was trapping the guy, not letting him go but… Now she felt ready to know him. After all, who would have liked to be sold as a bride? Yet, she felt that it was unfair…she felt now, that it was unfair for her side to blame everything exclusively on him. Some people told her that it wasn't, some people told them that it was. He accepted the marriage proposal, as he had told her, to help her escape. He said it on the wedding night, “I don’t want anything from you but for you to be happy. Just, forget that we are married if that makes you feel good. I just wanted you out of there” But weren’t there any better options to do so? Maybe just asking her if she wanted to be married, although she already knew that she would deny it. That if his father and uncle did not accept and requested that arranged marriage, she would still be there…with her father and brother. Maybe, she thought, luckily, she felt a twist in her stomach, maybe dead too. 

She laid on the bed, her insects buzzing and dancing around her. She had stopped to do many hurtful things, her hive started to answer back. Her hive, fighting her back. Not all hope was lost within her.

Some drawigns of these two... they are nto that good but here you got some.

SPOILER: She is just unconscious, she is good.

#other peoples works #other peoples ocs #content warning: self-harm #trigger warning #i loved reading this #oc: reina #thank you for sharing this!! #it was so wonderful to read

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Wait, you do match ups? How did I not know this! I hope you don't mind me requesting a JJK and Naruto match up, if you have time, that is!

I'm bisexual and use she/her pronouns! :) I'm 5'6 and blonde and would consider myself to be midsize. Thick thighs save lives and so do hip dips, I like to think! I like to dress in clothes I feel comfortable in, which also includes the occasional dress. However, I cannot live without my converse at this point!

I am also an INFP scorpio and like writing, reading, origami and taking long walks with someone else. I find it difficult to trust people and to find close friends, but I do love my friends a lot! Once I do open up I can be quite loud and tend the play the emotional helper of the group. I like making others laugh and telling really awful jokes. I can also be really reserved and shy, but I have mostly grown out of that. Otherwise, I have chronic pain which has me really tired most of the time, which is why I also like reading about the most random things to distract myself.

My love language would be acts of service and touch, definitely! I like witty conversations and quality time spent together.

I hope you have an amazing day / night and that stay safe! Thank you in advance ❤️

HEHEHE I DO! I don't do them often/sometimes save them for events/whenever I feel like them but doing matchups is how I met my tumblr bestie @thetimelesschild and got her completely obsessed with Kankuro haha.

JJK: Yuji Itadori

Reasons: There is not one better person that would make sure you're comfortable in a group setting, would help make sure you're brought out of your shell, is definitely on the converse train, and he'd laugh at all your jokes.

For you:

Yuji chuckled as you bent down to tie your converse, yet again. "You know, they did invent shoes that didn't require shoelaces."

Your finished looping your strings into bunny ears before pulling them closed, "Don't knock my converse Itadori."

"Hey! I'm not knocking," Yuji chuckled pulling his hands up to rest behind his head as the two of you continued to walk side by side, "just, wouldn't want you tripping over them and getting hurt is all."

You looked over and smirked at him, "Oh, is that all?"

A faint blush creeped across his cheeks, one he tried hiding, "Yeah, that's all."

Naruto: Kiba Inuzuka

Reasons: Very similar reasonings to Yuji. He'd make sure you're comfortable, he wouldn't push you. If you need a lazy day, he's there and Akamaru is your pillow. If you need someone to encourage you and spike up your energy, Kiba is perfect for it. Long walks? He's down. And sorry I'm just a sucker for the introvert x extrovert trope lol.

For you:

"I have a solution!" Kiba said proudly after a few seconds of silence. "You hop on Akamaru, I hop on after, which allows you to read as we head back to the village."

You shook your head and laughed, "Okay but, what do you get out of it?"

"What do you mean?"

You took a deep breath, "Well - ."

"I get hold my girl."

A smile formed on your face, "That's all?"

Kiba grinned before pulling you towards Akamaru and helping you up, "That's all I need."

OKAY I'M SORRY FOR THE DOUBLE "That's all? That's all." TROPE BUT IT'S IN MY HEAD LOL. Hope you enjoyed buddy!

#its been a while since this was posted #but i still love it sm #ty ty ty <3 #its kinda interesting how other ppl view you #random thought of the day

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Lee Doodles 🥰✨🪷

#other peoples works #so so pretty #look at him glowing #i adore the way you draw him

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More Nyarutocs!

@yamanaka-shin @moonamayillu @wind-becomes-lightning @fireflylitsky

#mutuals ocs #other peoples ocs #other peoples works #this is so so cute awwww #like how cute is this?? #little kitties #awwww

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TDOV commission with Shin and Kouta for @yamanaka-shin ! As a queer creator who love being able to draw gender diversity in my art, I'm honored to have been chosen to make a piece for this blessed day ♥

Happy TDOV and thank you for your support ♥♥♥

#mutuals ocs #other peoples ocs #this is so pretty #oh wow #happy trans day of visibility y'all #this art is otherworldly

[sunstaar]

Thank you so so much again! It is an absolutely joy to work with you for such a stunning illustration! 🩷

Commission for @sunstaar 💛!

Miho (OC) and Shisui 💖🌷.

Commissions open!

#miyu uzumaki #my ocs #my beloved hehe #commission #shisui uchiha

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Amihama's next for character sheets. 🥰

#other peoples ocs #hes so pretty #oh wow #especially the colour scheme you chose #brilliant

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hc: dating Maito Gai

Word Count: 0,4k

Author's Note: to this day I don't understand why he is so underrated

Maito Gai is an incredibly passionate man, so much so that his passion and enthusiasm often know no bounds

to everything he does, he brings energy with him, and that also includes his romantic relationships

he’s the type of man to put his heart and soul into a relationship, someone who is very determined to make his partner feel loved and appreciated all the time

that also means that he is a great listener

whenever you have a problem or look upset, Gai does not hesitate to turn that frown upside down

he genuinely cares about what you have to say, and it does not matter to him what you are talking about, he is always willing to listen and lend an ear to your problems

while he does tend to talk a lot and very loudly too, whenever he hears you speak up, he will quiet down and divert his attention to listen to you

Gai is very attentive when it comes to you, and as a hopeless romantic at heart, nothing is too much when it comes to you

he would devote the whole world to you if he could because that’s what you are to him, his world

from grand gestures to elaborate surprises, Gai stops at nothing to make you feel super special and loved by him

when coming to pick you up for a date, he will walk by a flower shop and won’t hesitate to go inside and pick up the most elaborate bouquet in the whole shop for you

because that’s what he does, he’s always thinking about you and ready to sweep you off your feet

a bit boisterous sometimes, Gai wants to show you off, because you’re his and he is yours

that’s what makes him very loyal too

no matter what, he’ll always have your back and never even dare to think about betraying your precious trust

Gai is a man of his word, he always follows through with his promises and commitment

at the end of the day, what matters to him the most is that your relationship is built on a foundation of mutual support and trust

whether that means you are cheering him on as he competes against his eternal rival, Kakashi, yet again, or even sitting and watching him train his team

he appreciates every little gesture and makes sure to reciprocate it as soon as possible

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Idk if this did sent yesterday since my internet crashed, so I'm sorry if I sent this to you twice D:, don't wanna spam you ahhh!

For your 600 follower event, I was wondering if I could request some Anko x my OC Fuyu fluff, with the prompt no. 24, if possible! Your writing takes my breath away time and time again, so I wanted to send in a request!

Congratulations on hitting such a great goal again and thank you for blessing us with your amazing writing time and time again 🤍!!

hello lovely! Here it goes! It is not super fluffy (mor like hurt and comfort I guess?) Thank you for letting me write the girls! <3 It's a little shorter but I hope you enjoy it anyway. Thank you for always being such a kind commenter.

Anko x OC

mentions of child experiments (their teacher is orochimaru, you understand.)

prompt was: The first time you smiled it felt like the universe aligned.

1857 words.

One of the many great things about Fuyumi was that Anko could always tell when she was sad, mostly because it was raining ice from the ceiling, even in the middle of summer, even if they were inside. Somehow her worries and fears would inspire her body to work on its own. Anko never quite understood if it was her wishing to sit in cold and sadness or if Fuyu’s ice was something that was comforting her in times of crises, either way, it was raining ice when she was in a bad mood, so Anko always knew.

This day for example, she came home from a short few hour mission with a group of younger children, Genin freshly graduated from the academy, and could smell the snow the moment she opened the door. Anko had recently started doing jobs with and for the academy and found herself good at it. After she had first proctored at the Chuunin exams some years ago she had found it pleasant to work with younger shinobi and was now considering becoming a sort of teacher. Possibly at least. It wasn’t decided.

“I’m home!” she yelled from the entrance and got no reply but cold air coming from the living room. In the morning Fuyumi had still seemed her usual cheery and upbeat self as she had gleefully burned an egg in the frying pan. Anko had made fun of her for the mistake, just some light teasing she thought. Surely Fuyu wasn’t upset about that?

She took her shoes off and then walked through the apartment they both shared in quick steps only to find Fuyu laying with her stomach on the couch, snow slowly drilling over her long locks. There were bags of comfort food on the couch table in front of her further making clear that she must feel terribly. Anko put her hands into her sides: “Is it winter already?”

Fuyu looked up and shook her head, which instantly let the tiny clouds that had been snowing disappear. She sat herself up and straightened out her clothes. “Don’t make fun of me.”

“Oh, I would never make fun of you, come on,” Anko sat down beside her and pulled an arm around her girlfriend. Technically that was not true, because in the many years that they had both known and fought alongside each other Anko had made fun of Fuyumi many times, the other way around also. They had even fought about it occasionally, but never deep enough that what they had could be ripped apart.

Fuyu sighed and then smiled: “How was your mission?”

“I absolutely aced it as always.” Anko wrapped one strand of Fuyumi’s hair around her finger. “But that is not important right now. Why don’t you tell me what is bothering you?” She wiped some rest of the snow from the other woman’s shoulder.

“It’s confusing,” Fuyu pulled her hands together in her lap. “I don’t really know how to explain it…I’ve been thinking of him and.. I don’t know..”

Ah, yes, Anko had already suspected something like this might be the case. She sighed and pulled her girlfriend a little closer still. Just yesterday they had been ordered to the Hokage office with their former team mate Ume and were briefed by Lady Tsunade on the fact that their teacher Orochimaru had apparently finally been killed. That last boy he had taken, Uchiha Sasuke, had overwhelmed him or so the sources said. All three of them had not known how to react to that revelation.

Rationally, they should have all been elated to have him dead for all the things he had done with them, experimented on them, but his grip on all three of them had always been unusually tight and despite many terrible things he had done to them, they had trusted him still. In that first exam she was supervising, Anko had seen Orochimaru again and for months after she had the feeling snakes were strangling her in her dreams. Fuyu had woken her up several times from a nightmare.

Still, hearing that he had died was like a punch in the face. “I understand,” Anko said and meant it. Ume and her were maybe the only people who could understand Fuyumi’s feelings of confusion, maybe outside of Lady Tsunade and Lord Jirayia. So she took Fuyu’s hand and pressed it supportively.

“I am relieved in a way,” Fuyu murmured, staring down in front of her. “At least he can’t come after us anymore or misuse the cursed seal like he did with you…” Anko rubbed her neck. “.. but somehow I’m not really happy. I kind of am sorry for it all too. It makes no real sense.”

“No, it definitely does make sense. I feel very similar and I suspect Ume does too. We are… like abused children that lose a parent. He was a terrible person, but he was still our parent.” Anko knocked her foot a little against the table in front of her. “I think what is the most confusing is that it was not all bad.”

It was the truth. There had been times in which Orochimaru had been a good teacher. Anko had always suspected that he had only trained the three of them when it served his purpose of learning more about the curse mark or Fuyu’s special power, but even so he had individually spent time with each of them to get to know them. Anko specifically had gained a lot from him as a tutor: many of her special jutsu and especially her affinity with snakes were inherited from Orochimaru. He had definitely left more of a mark on her than just a cursed one.

Additionally he had taught the three girls that the most important thing in a shinobi was loyalty, loyalty towards the leader and the fighting comrades. Maybe that had also been just another tactic to get them to never run back to Konoha and tell someone who mattered about his shady experiments, or maybe he had been honest with himself for that point at least, but all of them really internalised that lesson. For a long time they had been sewn together at the hips.

“No, there was a lot of fun too,” Fuyu said now and leaned her head against Anko’s a little. “We could be quite chaotic together all of us.”

Anko laughed: “You and I can still be super chaotic. Remember when we tried to cook a meal when we invited Gai and Ume over for a housewarming?” Fuyumi laughed at the memory. IWhen they moved in they had decided to invite the other couple over for some nice adult time and almost burned down their new apartment in the process. Ume had looked at them with a frown and told them to never cook again. She was probably right at that.

“Yes, but we had each other because of him. He sort of introduced us to each other. He bonded us.”  Fuyu sighed. “I think I am sort of thankful for that, even if… all the rest…”

“He didn’t introduce us at least,” Anko shrugged. “You and I were always together. I mean he has given us experiences that we now have to both work through and that means we have a great understanding of one another, but he didn’t give you to me. You were already mine when we became genin.”

Fuyumi giggled. “What are you saying I was already yours.”

To Anko there had never been anyone more important than Fuyu, never, not even when they were small, not even before the snake bite marked them both as damaged goods. From the moment they met each other Anko wanted to be in Fuyu’s orbit as if it was dragging her in. They were similar and different on just the right aspects and Anko had always loved that, probably even before she had understood what love meant.

“I don’t want to believe in destiny because I think it is bogus to live your life as if you have no choice of my own,” Anko said, “but I have to say that it is easy to believe that it was destiny that I met you. After all - the first time I saw you smile it sort of felt like the university realigned, like all the clouds opened up to shine on your face.”

The other woman opened her mouth and then closed it again and when Anko looked up she was clearly blushing deeply. “That's…. Very nice of you to say.” Fuyu seemed speechless.

“Ah, you are so cute,” Anko said and pressed a soft kiss to Fuyumi’s cheek. “I don’t just say it to be nice, it was really like that.”

Fuyu raised Anko’s hand and softly kissed the knuckles. “Well, I agree. Our meeting was cataclysmic. Even more important than the foundation of the great villages, will be remembered in history books.” She laughed.

“Now you make fun of me!” Anko protested.

“I would never make fun of you, my dear” Fuyu copied Anko’s tone of voice perfectly, winked cheekily and then continued. “All jokes aside, you are right. The most important thing Orochimaru has given us is each other and we really don’t need him for that. In fact, we never needed him for that. He just made our lives miserable.”

Anko nodded. “And now he will never do that again. We are free and we still have each other. We will always have each other.”

They looked at each other with a smile, their hands still pressed against one another. To Anko, it felt a little like a revelation and she hoped that Fuyu felt the same. It was necessary for them to move on to understand that their teacher had not been the only good influence in their lives. That their friendship, their love, had made them stronger than he could have ever made them with one of his stupid seals.

But most importantly, they needed to accept that it was a good thing that he was dead. They needed to allow themselves to be relieved fully, without feeling remorse about it. Then, and only then, would they be able to move on and be happy.

“I wish he would have faced some consequences at least,” Fuyumi said now as if she had perfectly followed Anko’s wandering thoughts. “I don’t think this village will ever give us the recognition we would wish for, but I would at least have liked to see him being punished. Dying is too easy.”

Anko nodded. “Yes. He got the easy way out there, but I’m sure Sasuke-kun really hurt him, so at least we can revel in that.” Fuyu laughed again.

They knocked heads again payfully and Anko said: “So no more winter in the living room from now on?”

“Promise,” Fuyu replied. “There is only going to be snow in real winter from now on.”  

Their heads touched and the tips of their noses pushed against each other. Anko leaned forward for a kiss. The only way forward was together, and the idea of that made Anko very happy.

#anko brainrot is real #also I love this #I read this like 1000x already #and each time I love it more and more