#//Shit what do I tag on that last bit

[lunarharp]

if i just told you i love you would this world change

#witch hat tag #orufrey #these kinda suck lol i feel like i cant draw right now *irritated sigh* BUT I FEEL EMOTIONS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #if you are gay go watch good omens season 2 right now. NO YOU DONT KNOW THO!!!!!!!!! #i know being this affected by good omens is probably cringe. I dont care any more. the last 1 minute of good omens season 2 was #some of the most affecting acting i've ever seen in my life. sometimes someone acts with the force as if their entire career led to that #like during the credits part the very end im not even talking about before that. holy god #aziraphale i know everything about you. i know what you are feeling right now. i can see everything on your face. we're going to make it #ER.... NOT THAT THIS HAS ANYTHING TO DO WITH THIS POST. IT'S NOT SPOILERS !!!!!!!!!!!!! #I JUST FEEL THOROUGHLY CHANGED !!!!!!!!!!! SHIT GETS REAL FROM NOW ON.. LIKE IN GENERAL! IN MY LIFE! #tormented gay love tormented gay love TORMENTED GAY LOVE TORMENTED GAY LOVE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #btw the first 3 images were drawn earlier with an entirely different feeling and an entirely different mood. #Why do you keep pulling away from me? #It is because i love you that i do this #the lyrics from one of my japanese orufrey songs (A SONG THAT THE CREATOR LISTENS TO!!!!) led to feelings #“あなたが知らない私を残さず見ててほしいの” but i'm not translating it cause it just sounds weird. if with his eyes oru's asking “WHY don't you want #to let me in? to see all of you?“ those lyrics are like ”I actually want you to see every last bit of the parts of me you don't know“ #oru you have no idea how much i want to lay bare my whole soul for you #maybe it's an alternate version of chapter 40. to me #i need to draw something really fucking good or i'm not going to forgive myself. i will not rest in this life #until i have made the orufrey that fully satisfies me nor until i have seen what the manga is leading to #NO STORY MEANS ANYTHING WITHOUT TORMENTED GAY LOVE AT THE HEART OF IT. THATS THE HEART OF THIS WORLD!!!!! #........... so Hi im normal :) haha *goes and finally makes breakfast*

[front-facing-pokemon]

#shedinja #now THIS is what i'm talkin' about! i love shedinja. i think it's a very unique pokémon and wonder guard is very *cool* if only it were ever #y'know. relevant. this thing is weak to way too many types for it to be relevant but like it's still cool in concept i think #you kinda can't tell what it is from this angle but that's why you have me here to tag it so you do know what it is #so. bit of a life update for you all. i accidentally deleted some semi-important files i needed for work. like two weeks ago #and i didn't realize i did‚ bc they were inside a folder that i deleted. but i didn't need the files at the time and i hadn't for months #i hadn't used those files since like last year. but now i need them again and i just realized that i deleted them two weeks ago #by accident? and now i need them again. to be able to do my work. so i'm actually queueing this guy and the next guy up #while i'm supposed to be working. as i've just sent an email to my boss being like Haha Hey. Do you Have a Backup of tHese Files……… PLease #and i'm hoping DESPERATELY that she does. if she doesn't i'll have to fucking reverse engineer them which i am not excited for #if it comes to fruition. so i'm just hoping she has a copy of them. feelin like shedinja against a fire-type rn fr i swear #i'll let you all know what she says when i get her response. if i get it before i'm done queuing up shedinja and whismur #spoilers. whismur is next but you could just look up the natdex numbers. and know that whismur is next #also don't tell me to look in the trash. on my computer. i know they're not there. for one i checked and for two they couldn't be there #because i rm -r'd the folder. i didn't just right-click delete that shit. i killed that shit. it's GONE #you might be asking me… why would you do that! and i would say? i did not know these files were in there #you didn't ask for all this information so i'm cutting it off here

[the-abyssal-system]

Stuck in a constant loop of ‘wants to be more open about being a system and maybe make system friends’ and ‘no one needs to know anything about us and if we start talking about ourselves we will shake like a dog who’s existence is an affront to god’

#and by be more open I mean to a few people (at least when it comes to people we know irl) #because most people don’t need to know that shit and never will #also that last part may seem a bit specific but I’ll have you know it is accurate #we do just start shaking #also how the fuck do you tag posts like this #I’m new to the system side of tumblr #I’ve got no clue what I’m doing #so I’m just gonna put some tags here and hopefully I did it right #(trying to get a good grade in tumblr something that is normal to want and possible to achieve) #if anyone sees this feel free to ignore all that #or don’t it’s your life #system #pdid #pdid system #did osdd #actually dissociative #did #osdd

[artdumpss]

I've been busy

#error 143 #error143 #micahyujin #micah yujin #cats art #i missed the tagging system SO MUCH #I'm still not active but I wanted to show ya'll what I've been up to and how im doing #shits fucked for me irl #BUT i think I've improved quite a bit from my last post art wise #like look at that. it's not perfect or amazing or anything but i drew that!!! and im proud of it #im really into the MC I made for the game. she was supposed to be a self insert but she's slowly turning into her own character #and i love that #anyways i hope you all are doing good in these trying times #and follow my twitter if you wanna see more of my dumb drawings o7

[imsosry-sir]

are there rlly people that can like.. make a plan to do their work and then… actually do their work??

bc i would literally give anything (firstborn, kidney, soul, etc etc) to experience that just once ;-;

#like shit if i could actually just do work when i wanted to i’d be so powerful #got the drive just not the execution #i wanna do stuff (ie write a paper or do a project) SO BAD #like it’s not even that i don’t want to or am consciously putting it off #i just literally can’t start until i get a random spark of extra motivation here and there #yes yes i have adhd #i take meds but it’s prob a bit below what i need #it’s just that anything higher starts to make me jittery and worsens other problems #so then here i am at 3 in the morning trying to keep myself up for if i happen to gather up enough motivation #i’m so sleep deprived idek what i’m saying anymore #whole ass rant in the tags #adhd #procrastination #i’m tired #relateable #? maybe #less and less coherent by the second #i also didn’t sleep last night either #neurodivergent

[arionawrites]

1. it’s my 24th birthday today, so my goal of being published by the time i’m 25 is now a one year looming monster, but i never specified what kind of published and am currently looking in various literary magazines that are recommended for writers who have yet to be published, so i’m surprisingly confident that i can make it work? and tbh even if whatever i write isn’t officially published before my 25th birthday, if i have someone in the process of being published then i’ll be happy!! no matter what though, i’m gonna try to be proud of myself for at least giving it my best shot!!

2. i honestly love that my birthday is on the ides of march because the ides of march meme shitposting is only a thing on tumblr but it also being my birthday makes it easier to like. be excited about the ides of march outside of tumblr. like even in person i can be like “it’s my birthday! i’m an ides of march babe (:” and if someone is like oh what’s that? or if they say something along the lines of oh like julius caesar? i can be like yep!! and even if it’s a small thing outside of tumblr it brings me immense enjoyment and amusement being able to bring it up off of tumblr

3. transportation situation has been very rough since june 2023 when i totalled my car, my gap insurance are being assholes and i ended up putting my foot down on the phone with them yesterday which i’m pretty proud of because i am NOT a confrontational person (something i’ve been working on this past year, so seeing some improvement with my ability to hold my ground and not be a pushover yesterday was very cool!!) i was told i’d get a response from them by friday next week no matter what, and if i don’t then friday of next week i will continue to wreak havoc upon them. but my moms car which i’ve been using since my accident broke down yesterday, hopefully it’s fixable but my parents were saying it might be done for, so trying to think of how i’m gonna get to work next week is kind of stressing me out lmao, but for now i’m just gonna focus on enjoying my birthday the best i can because i don’t want to start off being 24 with an overwhelming anxiety for something that won’t be a potential issue until monday. plus i already messaged my boss today to let her know that i’m going to do everything i can to make it work out but just so she’s in the loop and knows of the potential of me not being able to make my morning shifts (one of my coworkers said she’s more than happy to give me a ride for our afternoon shifts which does help relieve some of the stress!) and i told her i’d let her know for sure sunday so that if necessary she can have time to figure out someone to fill in for me in the mornings!

overall: life is weird and i ended being 23 yesterday with a shitty situation but a positive outlook and i am going to enjoy my first day of being 24 no matter what because honestly i fucking earned it. happy friday everyone, i hope it’s a good day for you and me both!

#aritalks #i did cry a little bit when i first woke up because i dont really know what to do about work and also i hate not having a car i can use #not only because of the work aspect but also getting my license when i was 18 gave me a freedom i didn’t have before #and i don’t like having to rely on other people just to like go to the fucking store or something yk #but then my best friend/roommate messaged me happy birthday and i was like fuck it! today is going to be a good day! #the stressful uncertainties can wait until tomorrow #also one of my best friends who hasn’t said happy birthday to me the past two years #(not intentionally im p sure they were just busy on my birthdays the past two years #and then had that moment of ‘oh shit i didnt send a message fuck i think its too late now’ which i totally get bc anxiety things yk) #was one of the first people to message me happy birthday!! #i’m also hoping to still be able to go see my mom and then stay the night at my dads tonight #so i can see both my parents and also my baby siblings for my birthday #my dads working today but after he texted happy birthday i sent him a text asking if he thinks we could still make it work #my mom is asleep still i think (she called me at midnight and left a voicemail singing happy birthday!! but her sleep schedule has been all #over the place recently so i’m waiting until 11:30 to call her which is in like 30 mins) #but she said something yesterday about driving out to me to give me a hug and also bring me my diabetes stuff that got delivered #(her house is my mailing address because i know it’s not going to change bc it’s my great grandparents house that she’s partially inhereting #when my great grandpa dies but since i have moved out of my dads my address has changed twice and i didnt have a mailbox at my last place so #just for the sake of consistency and not having to worry about important shit getting sent to the wrong address i’ve had her house as my #mailing address since i moved out of my dads at 19) #so i think i’m gonna ask her if she can just pick me up instead so i can go to her house w her and hang out with her #and hopefully my dad will be able to at least stop by with my siblings so i can see them too #i’d like to stay the night with them but if we can’t make it happen then i can also stay the night w my mom and hopefully tomorrow figure #out the car situation. might have to rent a car for a week if i can afford it? best case scenario is my moms car can be fixed but i still #dont know whats wrong with it ik there are two potential problems and one is fixable the other is not #the fixable one would cost like $150-$400 to fix depending on if we get a used part or a new one #if its $150-$200 ish i can probably afford to pay for the whole thing or at least most of it #but if its more than that hopefully my dad or one of my family members can help #and i can just pay them back in like $50 increments with my next few paychecks #just realized i said i wouldnt worry abt the car thing today and also i think im at tag limit to i’ll stop now lmao xoxo gossip girl ❤️

[enevera]

i dont wanna count the weeks i just feel sad

#i hate crying and the only thing worse than crying is crying in public so no crying #we are not fucking crying get a fucking hold of yourself bitch #anywya its been like just over a month #what an awful fucking existence #had to talk to my therapist last week abt the fact that everything is just kinda horrible rn #nothing is good eerything even things i like and make me happy are just a little bit awful #bc i feel awful #i dont wanna eat i dont wanna go places i force myself to exist when id rather just curl into a ball and fade into nothing #quit fucking crying bitvch this is pathetic get a fcuking hold of yourself your moms dead get over yourself theres no time to be sad rn #got shit to do and a fuck ton to worry abt put the emotions in a little fucking box go get a pastry or smth jfc #maybe ill do some work #if my hands would stop shaking thatd be nice i probably need to eat but i rlly just dont want to hm #id go home but i prolly shouldnt drive when im in this sorta mood :/ #the mood swings are sooooo fucking bad btw lmao #vent #idk how to tw tag this ugh #this isnt even abt anything im just talking rn

[paradife-loft]

Knight Artorias continues to be one of my absolute favorite boss fights

"victim of the Abyss" is the sexiest description one can read on a soul in this entire game by far

decided midway through fighting him that I wanted to go for a no-healing kill, mostly to prolong the experience and see if I could, and: success!! I can and did!

#dork souls tag #James liveblogs video games #yes this is what I've been doing lately instead of socmed #like listen. normal Artorias? sure; he's fine I guess. not really that interesting personally #but on the other hand: corrupted/screaming/broken arm/dripping Abyss sludge and trying to impale me!Artorias? yes. yes please. #I am but a simple human; I merely like to see a knight of the gods struggle and suffer and be metaphysically consumed by darkness :) #......ANyways. #I remember also liking the Kalameet fight mechanically quite a bit too #but the problem with him is. he reminds me of a cat. and also he's really done nothing wrong in-game; he's just chilling #and he's like the last real dragon #it simply seems sad/rude/unprovoked to go injuring his wing and then murdering him like that :( #there's something that's... really striking and stuck in my brain about the fact that one of if not the best way to learn about the world #about the PEOPLE in the world #is mechanically via murdering them #the inherent fact of curiosity and violence being linked together in playing #you want to understand this person better? the way to do it is to extinguish their life and take their signifiers into you #.... why do I feel like this game is going to join Star Wars and Tolkien as one of my cyclical dormant Obsessions #that I lose my shit over anew every several years even if it's been a while in between #I mean. people will simply have to deal.

[rosicheeks]

i have been following you for a couple of years now, mostly silently. you are so beautiful, inside and out! the few times i have seen your face uncensored have made me swooon! the even fewer times i have heard you sing, my heart overfilled with such joy!

your honesty about your struggles and how you keep going are simply inspiring. thank you for sharing.

i am manifesting love and joy for you! 💕

#don’t mind me just sobbing over here 😭 #I don’t even know what to say #thank you so so much for all the kind words and taking the time to send me this #it definitely made my week 🩷 #this filled me with such warmth and joy and love #thank you 😭 #I’m starting to get back into singing and was thinking about posting covers on TikTok before this whole ban bullshit 🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️ #I think it would be fun to learn new songs and share my version with everyone #the last bit was the part that made me tear up tbh #I’ve stopped being super duper honest about everything ever since I got that shit ask awhile ago #I know I blocked them and it doesn’t matter but then it just made me think there’s probably more who thought the same way #but I do miss going off in the tags and just letting it all out lol #thank you so so so much for this ask #you have no clue how much this means to me and how needed it was #thank you thank you thank you #I’m manifesting peace love and happiness your way my sweet anon 🩷 #ask #anon #fav asks #I’m gonna keep this ask with those compliments I was talking about earlier 🫶🥰

[pandoratheprocrasticreator]

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#wanna get back into toh but the bits and pieces of stuff ive seen on tumblr and ig is. rancid #the show will always be good and dear to my heart despite its flaws #but the fandom? #theyve sandpapered down luz and the lumity ship in general and removed anything that made them interesting #instead of focusing on any of the relationships between characters that they spent all show building up #instead theyre just spamming the tags with mindless h/u/n/t/l/o/w fluff #bc compulsory heterosexuality i guess #im sure there are still a lot of ppl who make great art and fics for toh #and im sure a lot of ppl are still having interesting discussions about parts of the show that i would want to talk about #however i go into the tags and am immediately assaulted with hunter and willow playing out hallmark movie scenes #and i immediately lose interest #tbh the crew played into this shit towards the end too and it felt super cringe #not just the huntlow stuff but also sanding away any of the bite with lumity or even the clawthorne sisters #and not doing anything with willow and gus except for one scene shoved in last minute #they were more interested in catering to fandom stuff than telling the actual story even if it turned out pretty alright in the end #this is just a problem with rly big fandoms mostly #this is what happened to star vs the forces of evil i think #dont quote me on that i stopped watching in season 3 #anyway owl house good fandom bad #how dare fandom not cater to me specifically #i want to participate in fandom but i dont want to do the main activity of fandom #which is to sift through piles of garbage to find stuff that i actually like #shut up pandora

[waywardsalt]

ive spent like 20 minutes trying to world this eloquently but i give up; im a big fan of linebeck just. not being capable of watching over kids not the person to be the guardian of a group of young people he struggles to take care of himself at times and has so much shit going on that it takes about one conversation with oshus for the old man to realize that this guy is. not doing great

#this was gonna be like. a jokey post at first juxtaposing oshus’ expectations vs reality with linebeck but im too emotionally drained #so real linebeck talk in the tags bc idk if ive actually talked much abt like. the specific as on why. iwrite and see him the way i do #likr. off the bat i put him at like 19 in ph and im too fucking tired and just. done rn to justify that like whatever kill me if you wish. #like. hes. been throught a lit hes been abused neglected used ignored hurt ridiculed violated deceived hes so fucking tired #hes worn down over the course of ph it causes him to finally like. express his anguish over what hes been theough its cathartic #hes getting pushed but talking to oshus and being around link loosens him up and he fucking. cries properly yknow #he cries about everything and the last bit of ph hes kind of an emotional wreck but hes finally letting himself feel all that shit #he cries he struggles to articulate himself he has a violent public meltdown as he becomes fed up with his reputation #and it all culminates in bellumbeck just. being a really raw examination of what hes been through and how he feels and what to do now #he hates people he has people he wants to kill people he wanted to kill but after bellumbeck its just. hes tired. hes processed everythjng #and then he needs the post ph crew and everyone they meet along the way to just. be a fucking support system for the first time ever #like post ph hes rhe captain he runs the ship he keeps everyone in line he can do that. but hes softer more vulnerable more self doubting #hes kinder and more hesitant but trying new things and being more openly passionate abt his interests #and he keeps working through his trauma he finds out what else it causes problems for and everyone. supports him #hes not capable of like. being any kind of parental figure to link in ph his perspective on like. how to handle kids is fucked #because his perspective on what a normal childhood should look like is kind of a mess #his perspective on relationships is murky on love on adventure on self expression but post ph hes just. free. tired but free #he manages to take naps the group helps him eat properly he learns his physical boundaries and actually does what he loves #idk. im just. man idk. its still measy but like. my version of linebeck is. i really hate the idea that its so out of character its not him #like. idfk what to even say abt that. idfk what ‘in character’ looks like when you hc a character to be masking in canon #when you hc them to be lying and covering things up and just. subdued bc theyre working on stuff #that they lie and exaggerate their own traits on purpose but let the truth through some cracks like what rhe fuck then #i hate it bc i dont see anyone else think of linebeck anything like this so im scared im fucking wrong somehow #im tired. i recently learned that one of my cats has been burrowing under and chilling under a blanket we cover a couch with #its very cute

[front-facing-pokemon]

#manectric #i woke up at like noon today y'all i'm queuing this after work. i forgot about it all day and i was about to hop on totk #but i got the reminder to do it. so here i am. with manectric #el woowoo‚ if you will #a lot happened. yesterday. it was not a very good day. which is why i woke up so late. it was a little bit rough. but i guess it's a new day #so. it'll get better. planning on Not Doing Shit today or tomorrow to compensate for all the Bullshit that happened yesterday #hoping you all are doing well. one week from today (friday june sixteenth) i'll be hopping on a flight for the first time in 10 years #looks like according to the queue this will actually go up the day before we leave. so‚ to you guys‚ i'll be heading out tomorrow #which is scary a little bit. last time i flew i had no idea i was autistic‚ but now that i've come up with a lot of better accommodations #for myself and i understand myself a lot better and my needs‚ i'm realizing a lot of my accommodations just aren't gonna make it through TSA #plus it's a lot of unfamilarity with unfamiliar people and an unfamiliar environment which i feel like is gonna lend itself to sensory #overload like Immediately and i'm probably gonna get a headache bc that's how it manifests for me #so when we get there i'm probably gonna have to run to the nearest pharmacy. and grab some shit. which is annoying! so. i'm a little #worried. about the trip. NONE OF HTIS IS ABOUT MANECTRIC SORRY #this is a pokémon i have a hard time caring about outside of its involvement as the leader of the electrike in amp plains #that's about it #any tips from frequent flyers who are autistic would be greatly appreciated. not even just about flying but about like. going to unfamiliar #places on the other end of the country and stuff. i feel like that's what i'm most worried about even though i'm worried abt all of it #also hi i'm writing these tags from day-of. like the actual day this is going to post. me from a week ago sure did know what she was talking #about! anyway. i'm. gonna like. take my meds now goodBye see you all when this Posts in a few hours

[estbela]

Me thinking about the fact that during the 19th and 20th centuries there were several proposals to unify romania and bulgaria, mostly made by bulgarians: alrighty, now how can I make this angsty

#Just talking recreationally #Hetalia #Bulgaria #Romania #Aph #Hws #Yeah im feeling brave today and maintagging my random thoughts XD #Ro/bul is like my main ship when im looking for angst and shit. The opportunities are endless #I like that they werent always allies yknow? #Ill be honest I also like unrequited/one-sided ro/bul(at first) with bul being in love. Like head over heels for Ro #While romania seemingly is not. #And like. In my hc romania has commitment issues and trust issues(i will elaborate on this one day haha) in general so like. #He might care about bulgaria somewhat(and might even love him?) but the proposals for an union kinda Scare him. #And even if they were allowed to unite. He has so many fears about that. Most of them boil down to: #“What if we are incompatible. What if we ruin our friendship. What if it ends badly.” #I mean. They last time they were sorta united was during the second(and maybe first?? Idk at the moment) bulgarian empire. #And they didnt always get along even then. Etc etc #Im tired atm so sorry if some of these dont make sense. My hcs and ideas are actually a bit more complex but I dont feel like really #Explaining them at the moment. Also if I messed up some history sorry. Also a lot of ideas for their relationship I didnt even mention haha #Do people even read the tags

[buggybugkilo]

…………………..so the fixation on twst seems to be ending a bit- WHICH IS RLLY WEIRD- but so long story short current fixation(s?) rn are baldurs gate 3 which is pretty normal- kilo plays dnd a lot so not to big of a thing-AND THEN THERES MY INNER DEMONS FROM MOTHER FUCKING APHMAU????? why-where-WHY IS IT COMING BACK—I LITERALLY HAVE AN OC IN THE MAKING NOW AND I AM FLABBERGASTED THAT I MADE A DESGIN IN UNDER THREE HOURS THAT I LIKE

kilo is..wah

#just catching everyone on life because it’s been a loonnngggggg second since the last time i posted #and kilo feels a tad bit bad- #ANYWAY #so that’s gonna be a random change in content- #went from disney totally not dating sim to #dating sim dnd edition and a minecraft series #my inner demons #fr tho #I AM SO CONFUSED HOW THIS HAPPENED #cringe but free ig #kilo is………concerned #anyway does not mean tho that i will completely stop on twst tho #because even if it’s left the fixations- WILL ALWAYS LIVE WITHIN MY HEART #life update #? #i don’t do these often what do i tag this lmao #kilo saying random shit

[autistme]

GREAT QUESTION. YOU WILL NOW RECEIVE A LATE NIGHT INFODUMP.

TLDR; Yes hiatus is up to James, but no it's not based on the accident

SO. the 2020-2023 timeline is

>Against me! is working on 8th album >starts tour two (2) days before shutdown >tour is cancelled >Zoom/virtual shit is just out of the question >???? shit happens >guess we will just wait until the world is back >James starts making pedals in his basement and selling them >Laura works on and releases Stay Alive on her own in 2020 because even if she cant coordinate shit online, at least she can work on the remnants of the album on her own (most if not all of Stay Alive was already written [including Shelter in Place despite the name!]) >Laura does a few shows in 2021, releases an EP >Atom joins a new band and releases an album, also does touring drums for a few bands throughout 2022 >Andrew joins a duo and the two of them release an album >Laura starts doing actual tours again in May 2022, live demoing songs left and right >James, surprising even himself, becomes Frank's guitar tech for MCR+Dunes >Against Me! is finally confirmed to be on indefinite hiatus in August 2022 >well shit >Frank was considering starting ANOTHER new band with James and Tucker, no clue how that's going nowadays or if it was dropped >Atom gets in a motorcycle accident and breaks several bones >well shit >passage of time >as of 2023 Atom is now fully recovered and in a wild turn of events joined Alkaline Trio >well shit >Laura remains touring and is releasing another solo album soon

SO. what does this all mean.

>Atom is probably not coming back (although who knows!) >Andrew is a complete wildcard, I did not see his return coming at all in 2018 so like anything could happen if the band gets together again!

BUT

These two, while like obviously important to the band with Andrew being the longest running bassist and Atom being a year shy of being tied with Warren for longest running drummer, Laura can make the situation work as it has happened several times where either a drummer will leave OR both the drummer and bassist will leave the band within short time frames. It sucks but the band has managed to keep going twice with the rhythm section having to be fully replaced.

BUT

What matters most is James. James isn't TECHNICALLY a founding member but he is what made the band a 4 piece and his arrival (right around the release of Crime) is when the band really started Being Pretty Serious and like The Truest Lineup of the band to Laura. And so like he has stayed with the band for over 20 years through 8 entire members coming and going over the years. So like, Laura does not see the point in keeping the band name if the last remaining core member dips, at that point the band is just Not The Band Anymore in her eyes. So we just kinda wait for if/when James comes back. Like his pedal business is going super great for him, he's probably going to be Frank's tech for the Dunes summer tour since he posted from the rehearsal yesterday, and most of all there's always behind the scenes stuff exists that We Don't Know, so who knows what the future holds! Laura is keeping the faith that thing will be back eventually.

#this is truly the most convoluted answer to this question #also no clue if you want to be tagged or not love and light #some of this is Patreon Knowlege #so theres def More Specific Shit but eh not my place to air out specifics from That #n e ways stream [ALBUM TITLE PENDING] when it drops #truly the sound of the summer #this is the longest the band has been inactive in its history which is A Bit Terrifying but yknow. it is what it is #if this is incoherent ill edit it when i wake up lmao #ALSO PORTED THIS TO A NEW POST BC IT THE HIATUS TALK WAS IN THE TAGS I REALIZED AND SOUNDED WILD AFTER THE ROOT POST #as for the plausibility for jrankucker band james has always been down for working on non am! music but just cant write lyrics #so he never had a solo project despite being interested but presumably in this frank would do lyrics #GOD in porting this to a new post the links got killed #stream plosivs and nighttime flyers #and the jrankucker band was mentioned in the 2m2ln interview last year

[0tul1ss]

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#mannn i literally assumed he ghosted-- why on earth would he text me after so long???? #i was fully like 'ok the last msg i sent literally makes me cringe a bit to read but its been months so ig im never opening the convo again #it was simpler before when there felt like there was nothing else to do and easier to move on. i even had a little crush on someone else ! #now i have a whole wheel of decisions to choose from #and idek what i truly want from this guy anymore bc even just platonically he kinda fucked it up like. idk #or rather i want a lot of different things and idk what to choose #i want my friend back. i want to never see him again. i want him to know every truth of what ive felt and i want him to know none of it #i want him to miss me or maybe wonder about me sometimes down the line. i want him to not spare me another thought for the rest of his life #i want to reply only 'go fuck yourself' and i want to write him a letter and i want to ghost him better than he ghosted me #i want to tell him i love him and i want to tell him i hate him and i want to say nothing at all #i want the closure i was denied. i want to protect the closure i now have #<-going insane #anyway its soooo stupid like i already grieved for this shit bro. i accepted the end of this years long close friendship #anyway idk why im doing so much processing of this in a vent post nor do i know why i always feel compelled to post these when i do #good thing i keep a small presence on here lol. but yea uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh send post #ok wait i saved this as a draft and went to go look for what i had been tagging vent posts with #[couldnt find one i had been using consistently even tho the whole point is so ppl can blacklist it if they want whoops!!] #and i saw another vent from another time he just kinda disappeared on me #and while this time was a lot worse for a lot of reasons i think its important to say this-- #that the last thing that i want is to go back to square one of this stupid awful cycle #vent